#i this is unimportant but i cant anymore

[carnis-insanis]

If you're being 'harassed' why won't you just block the said person or confront them L.O.L.

It's the internet, its not that deep.

well i tried but for every account i block i get lie, 3 other ones , its likea hydra

ive switched accounts and platforms countless times too, even stopped using social media full stop for a while but yea it always comes down 2 this loll..........................

It might not be that deep and i might be doing something wrong yet still its not the internet as the person who i suspect of behind this from my irl life and it might be dangerous for me to do so

I FEEL PATHETIC POSTING THIS TBH n i now tHat noone is ere to watch me talk abt this but im at my wits end ya all .. im not asking for help or comfort im just asking for a boundary to be followed since my physical health has started to majorly decline over this

i why u might think im being overly dramatic over it and i maybe am but i think but . ive blocked only 3 ppl on twitter ever for unrelated reasons as i dont use twitter much and i have no reason to block anyone except for the accounts that yarrassme, now keeping this in mind look at my twt blocklist chart lol

plus the highest amount of accounts blocked in ONE day

(its 480 i think?? this chart is weird i doubt i blocked over 1 in one day)

plus like, most info is lost cause i used to use a diff twitter account until early 2023 and like . most of the accounts i blocked are now deleted so while theyre in the graph they arent in the overal count, so it might be over 1000 by now lol...

[just-bendy]

(( Asks are back open and we are starting the Christmas event! The Christmas event will basically just be them dressed up in holiday sweaters and have various Christmas decor around the house. ))

(( I will close the ask box again once it goes over 30, but I'll do my best to answer them quickly. ))

[bigothteddies]

actually before I sleep this bad mood off, some anger.

Fuck tumblr for deleting my blog and removing a safe space I had self-curated into a place where I felt safe, loved, and happy with myself and my sexuality. Fuck tumblr for repeatedly, continually trying to forcibly shift the community on their site into a social media model based more on silent consumption then active creation. Fuck tumblr for continuously, blatantly lying about shadowbanning existing, despite constant evidence they are actively suppressing people’s posts, most easily seen when you can see a post in someones “popular posts” previews and then being unable to actually see the post once clicked on. Fuck tumblr for actively suppressing nsfw content, even when it falls within their community guidelines, preventing the nsfw community from maintaining their own community. Fuck the tumblr community for slowly falling for tumblrs new ideas about content interaction, moving the like/reblog ratio further and further toward likes being the primary interaction of the site. Fuck the people who follow content creators but refuse to reblog content. Fuck the people who can’t critically consume kink content without resorting to puritanical ideas of good and evil. Fuck the people who judge tumblr bloggers and their interactions with people without ever having a single conversation with them in the first place.

[enlichened]

obviously this is the most tiny gripe ever compared to my other posts. but why does every dog in fallout have to be dogmeat...... please.... set me free.......,

[weltgebaeude]

what i really need is someone who understands my passions, i feel like i'm getting so numb from only ever talking about other people's interests, at best scratching the surface of the things i enjoy, because nobody i know really gets it and i never meet new people.

[sunarc]

Shop owner Choso who fucks you in the back office of the store when noone is around. You look so pretty falling apart when he sinks his cock into you.

“This what you wanted huh” he’s breathlessly panting the words into your ear while he fucks you like he’s derranged. 

His cock slips so easily into you. He has you sitting on his desk, legs spread while he shoves his cock into your core. He’s so desperate to have you he can’t even fully take his clothes off. His pants form a puddle around his ankles while his hand keeps your panties pushed to the side for easier access to what he has claimed as his own. 

“F-fuck you feel so good” Choso’s voice trembled.

He wanted to keep quiet fearing that any customer could hear the loud moans and whimpers mixed with the wet sounds of your cunt sucking him in. 

“Keep your eyes on the door,” he groaned into the crook of your neck. “I wouldn’t want anyone coming in to see you creaming so pretty on my cock like this” 

His fingers dig into the fat of your thighs as he drags you closer to the edge of the desk. He’s been thinking about this all day. The moment he sees you walk into his store, his cock strains against his pants. The crappy day that he had been having seems to fade into existence. You look so pretty, hips swaying as you walk through the isle picking up your favorite candy. Your ass looks so plump and delicious as you bend over to pick up the sweet tasty treat. Choso has been through this plenty of times with you. You come in and give him a sweet teasing show and he takes you to the back and fucks you until your limping your way out the door. It's a routine, one the Choso loves. He cant seem to get enough of you, your sweet vanilla scent, the cherry flavored lip balm you always use, the way your cunt drips and makes a mess all over his desk anytime he fucks you. He gets so drunk off the thought of you.

 He lips pressed wet needy kisses onto your skin. He couldn’t handle this overwhelming feeling of needing you so bad. 

“Mmm Shit I can’t get enough of you” his whimpers filled the room. His thrust were wild as he fucked himself into you. His cock felt so thick and long filling you up. The two of you pulled each other in need of one another like a drug. 

Choso had completely forgotten about the outside world. Customers who were probably making a line at his counter waiting for him or the unlocked door that someone could easily open all seem so unimportant when he had his cock buried in your warmth. 

“ ‘s so tight baby, fuck c-can I cum inside” his voice was nothing like how it usually was. 

His once emotionless stature now completely gone leaving a needy whimpering mess of a man. You nod your head eagerly begging to be filled by him.

“Pussy feels so-fuck” he can barely think straight. 

His thrusts are wild as he recklessly plunges his cock into you. He can hear footsteps walking with purpose in the direction of the two of you but he can’t seem to stop.

“Shit shit shit shit cum with me baby please” he begs

The thought of getting caught fucking you like a feral animal doesn’t even seem to phase him anymore 

“Make a mess f- fuck make this shit messy baby”he whimpers slamming his cock into you relentlessly. 

You can’t hide the moans flowing from your mouth any longer. The two of you are loud and you know anyone waiting outside can hear the sloppy sounds of your orgasm. Choso’s forehead rests on your panting heavily as he comes down. He pulls out leaving you gasping at the sudden emptiness. His cum spills out like a waterfall. A knock at the door takes you out of your trance. The two of you turn to see a man with long dark hair smirking leaning against the door frame 

“Can I have a turn?”

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if i changed my name to Angel?

bit of a unimportant one but i cant get a straight answer from my friends. all of them will probably see this and immediately know its me but thats okay, its not really a big deal im just wondering what tumblr thinks.

basically i (21X) recently found out i may be a system (? its weird. dont worry about it) and my other two alters both have "a" names. i feel LEFT OUT and want an "a" name too!! but im INCREDIBLY picky about names and am actually still going by a shortened version of our birthname despite it not really fitting anymore, plus i want a name thats actually My Own since im an alter too and i feel like going by the body's name keeps me from being a full, realized person.

thats when Angel popped into my head and i was like PERFECT. no notes, i want that as my name immediately.

however, one of my friends/mutuals name is LITERALLY angel, which i feel already puts me into vaguely asshole territory because i dont want to just? take their name?

a little more importantly, one of my other friends (K, 21nb) has angel as a nickname, its specificially a petname from their partner. its incredibly important to them, their partner recently for christmas got them a dog tag necklace with "angel" on it and everything. its a super big deal and they announced annoyance when i brought up changing my name to it.

however, and im totally aware this might make me an asshole, im of the opinion that its. just a nickname. i know they were annoyed about it, and i know its important to them, but.... i feel like they might be making a bigger deal out of it than it should be. its also an incredibly common petname....

another part of it is is that i will still be going by my body's name, angel would be a name just for ME, just One Alter. im not even out that often. so i really dont see a lot of confusion around names happening. however, theres still definitely the potential for confusion.

anyway, long story short, would i be the asshole if i changed my name to angel, even though my friend gets called angel and its an important petname for them?

What are these acronyms?

[yilinggusu]

There is something so tender, open and honest about this scene. Sky telling Prapai to stop letting his ex pester him. Prapai's confusion and being adamant she wasn't his ex girlfriend. He didn't even know who Sky was talking about until he reminded him of the woman that interrupted their date. She was that unimportant to Prapai he didn't even remember her until Sky brought it up. Sky admitting that she tried to get into his head telling him Prapai wasn't serious about him. Prapai panicking telling Sky he is serious about him and to believe him on that.

Sky admitting that he is angry over someone Prapai slept with in his past. He knows what she wanted and she tried to put doubts in his head. It worked before with the guy at the party but not this time. Sky ignored her because he knows his Prapai more than the words of some jealous ex one night stand. This time he really believes Prapai is serious about him and their relationship. Even when Prapai panics and tells him he is serious about Sky. Sky knows that and reassures Prapai he knows he is serious about him. That he believes in Prapai and their relationship

The way Prapai listens intently as Sky talks more about what happened with his ex. Prapai never once talks over Sky or dismisses his very real feelings that are due to insecurity. Sky knew she was trying to make him insecure about Prapai and doubt their relationship. What she didn't know was that Sky and Prapai were rock solid by this point. Sky fought to keep Prapai this time by almost mocking her with has he ever told you he loved you because he told me he did. You can bet Prapai never said that to any one of his past flings and Sky knows it. Prapai probably told him that too but we dont see it happen on screen. Sky even pointed out he was the first and last person Prapai is serious about. It was a verbal slap in the face. Prapai looked so proud of Sky seeing the situation for what it was and believing in Prapai over some girl and her meaningless words. Sky knows she wanted Prapai and tried to get into his head but she failed.

Sky looks so beautiful in this scene. He really knows Prapai inside out. He knows Prapai is not the kind of person the woman made him out to be or at least he is not anymore. He knows and believes Prapai loves and adores him endlessly. Prapai has proven it and Sky knows it. He just looks so soft with Prapai in this scene even though he is angry too. Prapai just looks so happy at Sky's possessiveness over him when Sky saw the woman was jealous of Prapai calling Sky his boyfriend. That she wanted Prapai but Sky wouldn't let that happen because the wind belongs to the sky and that is it.

The way Prapai looks at him is just....sigh. Actually the way they both look at each other is.....sigh. So not fair. I want what they have. Prapai just looks smug over Sky's belief in his love for him. He's finally convinced Sky he loves him so much. Prapai just looks shocked and confused that Sky still wants to get angry with him.

Prapai isn't even mad that Sky is angry over it. He just promises to never let it happen again. To never let Sky have to deal with any of his past one night stands on his own ever again. And you just know Prapai will do exactly that for Sky.

Prapai is delighted that Sky is greedy about him and wished he was the first person to touch him. Just look at his face, he is so damn happy about it he cant stop smiling. They are both greedy for each other and they know it. Even when Sky hesitates to say it Prapai encourages him to say what he wants to say. To not hold back on his words because Prapai really wants to hear it. It's a change from when Sky told Prapai he doesn't have ownership over him, that no one does. And here Sky is admitting he is so greedy over Prapai. Prapai has wanted to be owned by Sky since the wind pin in episode 11 and Sky being greedy over him is music to his ears. He just cant keep the smile from his face.

Even when Sky says he sounds selfish Prapai tells him he doesn't mind because he feels the same way too. He even admits he hates Sky's ex boyfriend but everyone does. But Prapai loves Sky's selfishness because he wont ever share Sky with anyone. The sky belongs to the wind and the wind belongs the sky.

Sky looks so surprised when Prapai tells him he has a right to be angry with him. A right his body, his heart and to his love. Sky just looks so soft after Prapai tells him those words. Sky has previously asked Prapai if he can love him. For Prapai to say Sky has a right to his love it must have meant everything to Sky. Because Prapai is giving himself to Sky. He is giving his whole heart, his body and his love to Sky. Just like in episode 11 where Prapai told Sky he will have both his body and his heart.

The little smile from Sky after Prapai apologizes for his past is so soft. Prapai's past came back to haunt him and it will probably happen again. Prapai didn't have to apologize because everyone has a past and he shouldn't have to apologize for it. But Prapai did it because he knows Sky has those insecurities due to his ex boyfriend. He knows Sky still has those insecurities and trauma and needs to be reassured all the time. Even though Sky is so secure in their relationship now those insecurities will come back when he least expects it. Prapai knows that and he still reassures Sky that he is serious about them. He lets Sky know that he is all in from now on.

This whole scene was just perfection. It was everything to me. I just loved the return to their playful bickering after the are we good now line from Prapai. Prapai was really going through it after the conversation in this scene but you just know he loved it. I just love Fort and his expressions and the way he played Prapai. I love the dynamics between Prapai and Sky. They are perfect to me.

[thetrashywritingwitch]

Its 11pm I'm eating leftover chips and queso for dinner and imma just... here

There was that adult nerd streamer Katsuki from @willowser who is just chills in Kaminari's streams as a friend when they play but he doesnt stream himself, no social media presence, no name, just makes snarky comments in the group discord and leaves

Well you know how u can have twitch synced with discord so discord shows when you're playing a game etc? And you just stream for fun on the rare occasion you want company but you maybe have like 50 followers and chat is mostly dead and it's always the same like three or four people cycling through your twitch chat as you play

Now, Subnautica isnt really a horror game... but it can be spooky as all fuck and it's got some good jump scares. One of which made me shit my pants when I played bc I'm an oblivious fuck trying to ignore warning signs and just scoot in the water with my little water car thing

And this sneaky fucker Bakugo has seen you reply to his comments on discord, he gets the @ pings. And he sees you're playing a spooky-ish game and on a whim searches up the game on twitch and sorts by lowest viewers.

And of fucking course your discord name is the exact same as your twitch handle. And mr. Smartass just hops into your twitch chat

"Ok sooooo we are just going to ignore the uh, roaring noises... dont like those. Unimportant. We gotta find some gold I think..."

And his twitch handle is known bc tons of people watch Kaminari's stream and see his friends names and they all follow each other on twitch despite Katsuki never streaming himself. And everyone in your chat recognizes him as he just

:find any scary fish yet?

Ofc you're distracted because how the *fuck* did he find your twitch?! The discord connection just doesnt pop into your brain as you flip between the game and not ramming your seatruck into a rock wall and the chat.

And the distraction and his presence in chat is perfectly timed with your seatruck being snatched by some giant nasty mandibles and THISBFUCKER fills your screen

Under the cut for kinda subnautica spoilers

This nasty bitch right here. Hate this fish. Anyway you fucking scream and pause the game and nearly tip over your chair bc this fishy shit shakes your dinky little submarine like a dog ripping the stuffing out of a toy.

And the chat is keysmashing and posting laughing emotes bc you arent even at your desk anymore but the mic still picks up the "jesus FUCKING CHRIST what the FUCK gooood I haaaaaaate it..."

And on Katsuki's end, he's choking on his drink and cant remember the last time he laughed so damn hard and the timing and everything. It was the perfect moment for a twitch clip to immortalize it. He knows Kaminari's humor and his stupid jokes. Knows what to expect, but the genuine jumoscare moment as your mic peaked... honestly a twitch highlight for him.

After that he tunes into your streams when he can, sometimes silently so you never know he's there. Other times he speaks up in chat to link that clip and comment on in-game happenings. But your forever embarrassed bc damn what a first impression... but the stupid fucking fish was about 2% less scary after that so long as you know he's watching

[you-need-not-apply]

rant

i dont think i like anything about me and i fucking hate that i like some stuff and i want to chnage and be better andf just fuck i just everything is to fucking much i cant be fucking perfect i know that but i hate not being so and im so stressed all the time like all the time and nothing is going right and i feel as though i might as well die because who gives a fuck anymore i need a drink i need a smoke i just fucking want to kill myself and im tired of pretending i dont i cant do it anymore i just fucking cant im falling apart and i hate them i hate ihate i fucking hate them i love writing but everything is bitter and i hate this and im wasting my entire fucking,oife doing fucking tumblr and ao3 and its the only thing that makes me feel okay but at the same time i become more and more usless and unimportant each time i open the app and im going to fail if i dont pay attentiom but its the only thing that makes me feel aliev and im allowed to want that why cant i want that i want i hate i fucking cant anymore

[bonefall]

so i love the idea of dovewing going deaf and decided to expand it into a whole "power fallout" thing for my rewrite - after losing their powers, dovewing goes deaf, lionblaze overestimates his strength/battle skill and loses a limb, and... i have no clue what to do for jayfeather. do you have any ideas? my first idea was "he cant dream anymore" but that seems super unimportant compared to dove/lion. mb if you dont give advice this way, was just curious what u thought ^^

BIG BRAIN, MY MAN. I LOVE these guys having a power fallout, feel free to lift these ideas wholesale if you'd like.

For Dovewing, she goes deaf. Her ears fold over to show the change. It's very frustrating for her when her Clanmates treat this like a tragedy, her powers are not something she misses. She's incredibly relieved they're gone.

Jayfeather is getting sleep paralysis and tinnitus. Like he SHOULD be slipping across the planes of reality, but is getting radio static. Maybe the occasional night terror, as well? Dreaming of the void where double-dead spirits go?

And Lionblaze is going bald. His mane is falling out. Kitty receeding hairline. He's starting to look less like a lion, so Berrynose calls him Catblaze one day and gets the snot beaten out of him. He hasn't lost ALL of it, yet!

[kohiu]

Here to address some unimportant things to long-time followers of this account.

Trying to be transparent about things that most people should not care, but here I am, writing this. Hello, Kan here. In 2019 I was active in this fandom of a video game called Tales of Vesperia. I had consistently created fan arts and comics which has gotten a decent amount of attention, I believe some of you here are still following me because of the contents I've made during that period of time. For these past three years, I have tried everything to block people's memories out of that fandom, I really wanted to move on, I wanted everyone to move on so I can continue creating works which I am proud of. I've had been receiving assistance from friends to curate my contents, and we did our best to completely wipe off contents related to Tales of Vesperia. I don't know how to tell you this, but anything Tales-of related now hurts me tremendously. I can't even look at JRPG at a genre where I could hearfully enjoy anymore. Hell, I cant even force myself to look at Elden Ring because the Bandai Namco logo is enough to make me relive the painful experience. For anyone who has continued reading this far, I have attached a google doc released in 2020, entailing of the details of why I cannot associate with the video game, nor the people involved in it. Please understand this google doc only scratched the surface of what happened. ---- You may be wondering why I am addressing this now. I have been getting messages, emails, from former friends and fans asking me about the works I have done for Tales of Vesperia. Along with inquiries of continue doing fan works of it. I am begging you, please stop, I understand you just want to support me, but your words are going to undo the mental scar I'm trying to heal from. The other reason, is because recently, this person mentioned in the google doc has attempted to contact me again. I am still being stalked for something I participated in three years ago. I feel incredibly unsafe for this. I don't know where he lives, and I have consulted legal options to keep myself physically and mentally safe. I have Shin helping me with communication and minimize the stress I will have to deal with online platforms, even so that's the most we can do to counteract. I'm tired, stressed out, out of option, and really just want to run away forever. I believe releasing this statement will make my stalker attempts to contact me again, and that's the least I want to happen. In the past, he has sent his friends after me as well. I don't know what I gain from telling you all of this. People were hurt during the time I tried to defend myself from this stalker, and I don't want this to happen again, and this is why I had chosen to isolate myself from everyone for all this time. Please, I want peace. Leave me alone. - Kan (KOHIU)

[bigothteddies]

for those of you that remember the mildly creepy manager/coworker at my place of work, he finally got fired this weekend

[hungryboyv2]

also, in the past theree (?) days i ate like one piece of cake, i just feel so clean, i dont even feel hunger anymore.

my scale is broken so i cant even check how much i have gained in "reco", im really scared its going to be +8kg or smth

im so stressed in the last few weeks, diploma work, tests, matura exams, half of my closest family is literally dying (my beloved grandma too) + im jealous of my bfs new friends. i told him that im worried that they are going to replace me and he started yelling at me that "oh i cant have friends anymore?' you can, but something in them is worrying me.

i feel like im a wreck mentally and a person I love is telling me to get my shit together. i feel like im an unimportant person in our relationship, if that makes sense. i always care about his problems, i always reach out to him, but when i have a problem, he either ignnores it, tells me to starve to death or, what hurt the most, your grandma wont live forever"

[max-will-one-day-be-okay]

Because I am not an asshole, I will just make my own post instead of adding to one.

BUT CINEMA SINS IS NOT (AND I REPEAT NOT) THE REASON PEOPLE CANT FUCKING COMPREHEND MEDIA

Is it a silly channel? Yeah, it's comedy/satire.

Is it for everyone? No, sometime the bits get annoying; or I just want to enjoy something without thinking of every unimportant detail that was missed.

But they have said MULTIPLE TIMES that the channel isn't meant to hold any value as an actual reviewer.

Idk it just feels like we're pointing a finger at one of the least pressing issues in this debate. There ARE people who say similar shit unironically, who worship the channel and think it's totally serious, etc. And that's due to the lack of media comprehension already there.

Not only have schools just stopped giving a fuck about the quality of education, we are actively discouraged from looking at things too closely in day to day life. Because of censorship and corporate greed we no longer get any life changing stories with themes and references hidden in every corner- not because no one is wanting to tell them but because that's not profitable anymore.

People scoff at the idea of the blue curtain being blue for a reason BECAUSE THEY'VE BEEN CONDITIONED TO. With 20 Marvel movies coming out every year and 8 other blockbusters, there's so much media to consume that there's not enough time to look into it. They don't want you looking into it, because once you look past the curtains you realize just how soulless and polished everything is.

[emotionally-intuitive-engineer]

(you didn't have to answer if you don't want to)

Hey...

I just need some words of encouragement. I can barely keep going anymore

My birthday is around the corner, (on the 6th) and my family is too busy to make time for me. Heck, my dad can't even take the day off work for me! My mom hasn't even gotten my gist yet, and said "we'll just celebrate with your friends" but I just moved states and I only have like 4 friends. My best friend since KINDERGARTEN cant even come on time.

I just feel so unimportant and on my birthday of all days my own family won't bother to make time for me.

It's just been a really hard struggle, and I know it's a little silly to be so upset about it, and I hate to use my autism as an exuse, but it really is that.

-Autistic Anon

Well, who says you have to celebrate yer birthday on the right day? There's nothin' wrong with picking a different day where everyone's free to celebrate! We have to do that a lot 'round base! Yer birthday is just a day. You can turn it into any day if you talk it out with others!

It's not silly at all t'be upset 'bout something like that! It's something completely valid t'feel frustrated about!

Moving is also a difficult thing, so I don't blame you.

Ooc:

I recently moved quite far from home(across the country) not too long ago, too. It was probably easier for me, given that I'm much more comfortable on my own so making friends wasn't something I felt I had to do right away- even now, I don't really have anyone super duper close. I'm not sure if this'll help you, as we're all different, but if you can't manage to make a day to hang out with others, find a day to treat yourself. Maybe let yourself have ice cream for breakfast, let yourself sleep in, stay up late, wear am outfit you really like, etc. Enjoy yourself! You don't always need others to feel needed (though it can be nice-) you're important enough to love yourself and feel proud because of it. It takes a lot to take care and love yourself sometimes, so I'm proud of you for trying. Keep going, my friend, you're strong. Better days will come as long as you keep fighting, I promise.