#i want to [redacted] that [SUPER REDACTED]

[turian]

screams

[beskad]

[jillvalcntines]

━━ THE TITLES & NAMES OF KATHRYN DAYNE

"Sand. Dayne. Frost. If I learned one thing in this world, the name you are born with does not hold much weight. It's the names you're given during your life, the names people either love or fear, that count as much as any coin or land." —Kathryn Dayne

(inspo 1 & 2)

tag list: @mandalhoerian @kingsroad @idohknow [you want to be added? send me an ask/chat ❤️]

[svampira]

all evil bg2 party but i would rather kms than leave aerie behind

[t-u-i-t-c]

Genba Bureki in Bakuage Sentai BoonBoomger 01x21 Bring on the Fire

+ bonus

[loversandantiheroes]

Not to put too fine of a point on it, but if you're any sort of creative artist that struggles with mental health and the way it affects your ability to create the way you want to (and perhaps feel you need to), please play Alan Wake 2.

Sam Lake gets it.

[spookythesillyfella]

@employee052 's old man fruitifying post deeply moved me . presenting an idea my soul resonated with . i was inspired to make my own rendition

i was in a massive stump for inspiration so maybe drawing my favourite guy in silly clothes was what i needed ^_^

[aphel1on]

the reason i haven't been posting much about the recent bnha chapters despite tomura being my favorite character is. Well first of all i tend to dabble in a lot of fandoms at once and i've kept more of a distance from bnha after deciding a few years ago that it is objectively kind of a mediocre story.

but also i've been burned before from being in a fandom bubble where we were all totally convinced of our interpretation of the story and completely sure that a character would survive and when that didn't happen it was devastating. to a level that was probably unhealthy given that this was you know, fiction. and given fandom should be more of a fun hobby than something that genuinely impacts your mental health.

so every time all the fellow tomura fans i was following would post about how "He's definitely 100% gonna get saved you guys" i would just kind of be like hm. Big if true

[deus-ex-mona]

i miss renrennnnnnnnnn

[telomirage]

I'm looking forward to getting my hair cut on my birthday

[camellia-thea]

I cannot brain properly but I have GOT to know more about amara and dove. tell me anything - @pretend-pretend-vampire

hello!! thank you for the ask! i will ramble about them <3

dove and amara are from a recent vtm 5e game, set in aotearoa. dove is my pc, and amara is a tzimisce spc played by the amazing @balthazarslostlibrary, our storyteller. we're currently on break for life reasons, but i look forward to when we get to play again. this is a (very) long ramble about character choices, meta, and a little bit of narrative.

a little context for dove! she spent sixteen years as a ghoul to a ventrue named rochefort, before being poached from him by an as of yet unknown lasombra. she was abandoned him, but due to having the with a blood bond to him, by way of having both the long bond, and the bond slave flaws. it took several months for the bond to drop away, and so now that's she's finally in her right mind -- after almost 17 years of being bound to someone -- the chronicle began.

dove and amara first met at elysium; dove's first. they wandered the museum hosting the elysium and ended up in the deep sea exhibit! (this is, by the way, a real exhibit in the museum te papa, a part of the exhibit te taiao. it has a colossal squid!) i just think it's super fun that they wandered around with a whole load of wet specimen from the deep. amara invited dove out to its haven, a tattoo parlour.

dove then made a visit on her own, and as a gift, gave amara a set of her ribs.

mechanically, amara is dove's mawla, and i love them a lot.

i think a lot for me that rests about their relationship is how the pair interact with interpersonal relationships.

tzimisce have so much about possession; they are built to have really fucked up views of people and ownership. mechanically, their bane is grounded -- they must rest in a place (be that concrete or more abstract) with things they own and deem theirs. then their compulsion is covetousness. i love that conceptually, beyond dove and amara. vampires leaning into the inhuman way they view their surroundings because of their immortality, their power, their everything.

i didn't intentionally make dove to play off of amara, or tzimisce in general, but i've always had a thing around perception of freedom and identity (look at taralin, my primary d&d pc--it's a theme!), and i wanted to play with the concept of someone who had finally gained a significant amount of power and freedom, and have them struggle to find their feet, and make bad decisions as they figure out who they are. dove was the culmination of a whole load of ideas that i really enjoy playing with. with the lasombra technology issues, her past as someone good with computers isolated her from her skills. an absentee sire, and someone who held a grudge isolated her socially. in addition, making her as a character designed to experience blood bonds, one drink to triple the length of the bond? delicious, and i really wanted to play a character who desperately was grappling for control over her own life while being built to not be in control.

having amara present? a tzimisce on side? honestly made the choice for me; there was never ever going to be a way for that to go smoothly in any capacity, simply because of both character's designs.

someone who never wants to be owned again and a character who cannot help but claim ownership over anything close to it? i wanted to have dove grapple with that.

there's another aspect of it i touch on in anatomy too, which is a character with the ability to entirely remake themselves in whatever image they wish and another who cannot perceive themself at all. dove's loss of identity through being a ghoul, and then that manifesting as someone who cannot ever see herself again? amara has the capacity to gift her control over her body, her reflection, as it were.

i think it also comes down to the fact that dove doesn't know how to not be owned by someone entirely. i don't think she'll ever be able to separate herself from that past.

i think vampires often get stuck in who they were right before they turned. it's the idea of being frozen in time and unable to move past that traumatic event; you died. how could you ever get past that?

and i think that's an aspect of dove too. the feeling that you'll never get past your trauma and for her, it might genuinely be true. but that also might be her own perspective stopping her, i don't think i know, nor do i necessarily think i need to know yet. and dove spent 16 years knowing that she'd die a ghoul, or become a vampire. there was never going to be a different end for her. and so, that's had a massive effect on her decision making.

one of the first things she did was to give herself over to mother russo (the lasombra primogen) and agree to join the cam. her logic was, this gives me protection, this keeps me safe. strength in numbers, and if something goes wrong i'll have allies. but i don't think she wanted to. she wanted to remain autarkis, but she didn't know how to exist without some sort of external direction. being given a task gave her so much relief, even as it made her feel resentment. it's funny, because i as a player hate that dove is cam. i think it's going to completely fuck her over and i think it was the worse option for her. but for her? completely correct and i think it's going to hit hard when she realises she's locked herself back into being at the bottom rung.

i think amara in equal respects represents everything dove desperately wants, and everything she despises. amara has the control dove wants, the respect of the wider community, in as much as it can control its own life and isn't (visibly) beholden to anyone. but, dove knows what amara is. knows what the tzimisce are, and is terrified of that too.

but i also think dove views amara as the closest kindred to trustworthy as she can get. there's a lot of paradoxical thinking in my girl. i, the player, was given the option to have mother russo as my mawla instead of amara, and i hummed and hawed about it a lot before going with my initial instinct (which was definitely motivated in part by my love for tzimisce). but despite how willingly i flung dove at the cam, she felt far more vulnerable with mother russo, (despite being willing to let amara at her rib cage) and she hated that. amara treated dove as a person. that was the real deciding thing on dove's thought process. there was a collection of meta things too (such as wanting to play with possessiveness and dove's control issues.) dove knows what to expect from amara. she knows what it is, and while there are certainly hidden depths, dove thinks that she can at least trust amara to be genuine with the push-pull of a quid pro quo relationship.

and i think part of the really fun thing is at present, dove is completely disenchanted by her coterie. she doesn't want to be there, but they've got a job to complete for the cam. she's a bitch, she looks down on them, and that's driving her to the only person she really thinks is capable, amara. and i think dove will grow to like and respect her coterie, but unfortunately two very well placed frenzies on our gangrel's part has completely lost any potential respect she has for the others. and i think there's a whole load of potential fun things there for dove siding with amara over the coterie, or a push pull situation of dove being places between what the coterie wants and what amara wants. we'll see when we pick up again.

if you want to read more about amara, there is another (much much longer) piece that features him! Te whakawhitiwhiti: The Transformation was written by my storyteller about amara and two of their ghouls. this is set before dove and amara's first meeting, and primarily focuses on one of amara's ghouls, hine, coming into her own, with a lot of fun vampire stuff alongside.

if you have any follow ups, feel free to ask! it's been super fun to ramble about them both here

[king-ludwig-ii]

just got outed at work without my consent by someone who considers themselves one of my best friends 🥰

[soup-scope]

we need a lovely and sam audio where lovely breaks down over how sam got to keep a good part of his abilities when he was turned but lovely got nothing 💔💔

[astrolionking]

I predicted that he would be in the film… I didn’t think I’d come out of this movie being so gay for him

They didn’t have to make him so goddamn sexy but they did anyway and I’m eternally grateful

Btw Illumination, you made me ship Mario/Spike I hope you know that

[petraforgedyke]

it's may which means holiday money came in which means i'm finally looking into getting my name changed officially. contacted two places which can give an "expert statement" for less money than the fucking €900 it'd cost to have my name changed without a cis person deciding if i'm trans enough first

fingers crossed they have a reasonable waitlist instead of 200+ days cause literally all i need is a paper proving i know what i'm getting myself into

[ackermanbitch]

redacted writers describing the listeners: completely neutral, leaves room for lots of interpretation, reader can always relate

redacted writers with darlin: TONED MUSCLES, PERFECT ABS, SCARS‼