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thepeanutbutterwizard · 11 months

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#my grandma thinks that ron fuckwad desantis would make a good president #and my mom used to think that #before his faceoff with disney #fuck meeeeeeee i live in a super conservative state and cant afford to move out of my transphobic grandmas basement #let alone to a state thats safe for people like me #i wish i could get top surgery #im saving up for it but even when i have enough money #im not sure what my grandma would do #i cant exactly hide a surgery from her #everything ive read about the aftercare makes me think ill need/want help #so im worried about having it if im living on my own #and im legitimately scared that top surgery might be the line for grandma #and she'll throw me out #im scared #i hate being stuck between who i. amd the family i want to love me #some day i almost wish my parents had been awful enough to drive me away #bc then it might not hurt so much #if i hated them #and could just walk away without missing them #i wish they would lisyen to me #and actually hera what im trying to say #i wish i cpuld say all the stuff that gets stick in my chesy #because i know they do care #and want whats best for me #but i cant make them see what they think is best for me kills me inside #i wish they loved all of me

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emdotcom · 3 days

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In this hypothetical, the prosthetics are detachable, able to easily be modified or repaired, even customized for visual or fucntional preferences.

Getting them is about as safe as any other major surgery; certain amount of risk, yadda yadda. There's more details that would sway an answer, if this were something currently going on -- like the cost, can you sub out these prosthetics if they ever halt production, do you need medication to retain them, blah blah-- but, here? This is wish fulfillment. If you have something that hurts, or you wish you could just fix or swap out, you get to have it, just this once.

#em.txt #poll #polls #honestly i run a lot of polls & sometimes am like 'oh i hope this one gets even 15 notes' no i hope this one gets big. 16 notes at least #because this is interesting to me.#idk. it's probably a sign I'm not as able bodied as i may think bc i constantly am thinking like.#i wish i could pull out my spine & get the crick out of it. i wish i could replace my ears.#they can't hear very well & they always hurt & i always hear tinnitus. if i could swap them out i imagine some of that going away #i get people that might object to this -- your ears aren't killing you/you can get hearing aids/pain meds/ignore it #but I've been living with this my whole life & it has only gotten worse. I'd like a way to make it not get worse #otherwise next option for me is spine. option after that is probably prosthetic top surgery i wanna be able to take them thangs off #& put 'em back on when i feel like it. i want them thangs to be see through plastic with wiring & lights inside ya feel me #like i got a dualshock controller for oubitties

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cowboycunt · 4 months

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someone give me quick easy no stress answer to all of life’s problems

#debating telling work that during my two weeks off i will be getting top surgery #this could backfire because well. i live in the uk.#however i’m wondering if i will actually just be able to get away with not saying anything #i am expected to lift things at work #tbh i think i wouldn’t mind doing some work during week 2 of recovery because i imagine i’ll be bored out of my mind and i could just -#- draw some maps #and then i also technically need an extra two days off in addition to the two weeks which i was gonna play hookey for but. idk.#i am getting stressed #and like idk i work with liberal people. and wouldn’t ask for things to change because we work with volunteers #and i don’t wanna spend every week explaining they/them pronouns to a new batch of volunteers #so like. idk #i wish i were able to do this while i was still in college. would make my life so much easier.#but oh well #fish.txt

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shleemies · 3 months

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2015->2023

It gets better

#was looking at old photos and put these side by side. wow #in the first pic i was miserable malnourished and so depressed i didnt think id make it to 2016 #the second pic was a few months ago in too lazy to take w newer one today lol #im still depressed but not like i was. ive come so far and its so hard to see it from day to day sometimes #i never thought id live long enough to go on hrt. top surgery felt completely impossible #but i got to live #i got to transition #i wish i could go back and show that scared kid how far we've come #idk these pics just had me feeling really sappy #maybe one day ill make a more intentional transition timeline post #but these photos really show a lot #transgender love transgender peace transgender joy #it gets better i promise #sounds fake and shallow but it's so fucking true

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d0d0-b0i · 1 year

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it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.

what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)

#it gets better :)#i used to think that transitioning medically wouldn’t lessen the sadness and depression i felt #and to some degree it is still there since t isn’t a cure all #but by the gods it is so much fucking easier to deal with everything #when a major reason for my mental health being the way it was has been abated #it’s like the fog cleared enough for me to actually see the road i’m driving on #instead of assuming blindly that i won’t crash #once i get top surgery.#idk. i wonder if things will be even easier?#i’m almost a year in and already my life feels so much brighter. yeah there’s problems with keeping the house. and yeah #i don’t have an income yet and i don’t know if the internship will even be in the cards for me #but. i just feel that everything will work out. enough for me to enjoy the time i have here :)#sorry i am being sappy but god! i love and i love! so much now!! i feel so much and i enjoy nearly every day despite the Issues #the world is getting worse but still i find reasons to love and live #so maybe one day it will get better? maybe one day my love will have helped even #if you’re reading. i love you. even if you’re just a follower #even if we’re mutuals that haven’t talked before #i think about you often. i wonder where my oldest mutual went after they stopped posting years ago #i don’t think i can forget. and i love you. and i wish i. could give you a hug. we all need one from time to time #i love the friends i’ve made and the friends i’ve had. i love. and this past year has opened up my floodgates of emotion

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lakesbian · 1 year

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Your trans Alec fic is so good, makes me wish I could be a trans guy so badly….. like to just be a guy with a nice voice and good hair lol. I know it’s like not chill to appropriate identity but I’m with Aisha on that one, if cis people could get top surgery I would get it SO fast

oh buddy 😭... Well i'm the person to break this to you i guess. wanting to be trans is in fact a top all-time sign of being trans! and furthermore: you can be a trans guy if you want. you can do that. you're allowed. you don't need my permission, or anyone's permission, but permission granted to do whatever the fuck you want all of the time forever. go be a guy with a nice voice and good hair. nobody can stop you. the only qualification you have to meet to do that is wanting to do that! that's not appropriation it's just having a gender.

#ask #cis people certainly Can get top surgery if they want. you could ostensibly call me cis and yet i am going to get top surgery #mayhaps even hrt if i feel like being a bit of a silly girl #not that there's any way in hell 'i wish i could be a trans guy' anon is cis.

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straydogged · 5 months

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ohhh did I have a dream about going on t last night???

#cries. I wish I had my own body so I could just fucking Transition without worrying about future host changes #because l WAS on T! I DID get top surgery! but then there was a host change to mostly feminine parts and they detransitioned #I'm not back to square one but in a lot of ways it feels like I am.#I wish I didn't have DID. I wish that the only person I had to consult about what I do with my body was me.#I want to give myself stick and pokes! I want to try shorter hairstyles! I want to make this body my own!#but I can't. and I'm trapped hosting in a body that makes me incredibly dysphoric but I can't be selfish and do anything about it

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axiolotl · 5 months

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hmm. got anesthesia & steroid shots today (monday) and spent most of the day napping or nauseous. havent been able to sleep and its 2am.....maybe............take off work tomorrow. lol

#im dangerously low on PTO what with top surgery exhausting it all #and i need to save pto for double wedding electric boogaloo #but god. i dont wanna go to work with 0 sleep and potential more pain in my neck than usual #tbh the great (?) thing about my job is that they legit dont care how much pto you have left they #theyll let you take whatever time you want off (within reason) its just like. ah you wont get paid #which. yeah. sucks #wish i could have more but eh whatre you gonna do #(for some reason our pto is accumulated jnstead of prorated at the beginning of the year)#(stupid)

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yosh-iro · 6 days

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i hope my new binder gets here before friday

#its supposed to be kinda hot and the full length one i have now is really thick and hot #and i cant wear my half one cuz my dress shirt is a bit sheer #wish i could just get top surgery and be done :'(#yoshi talk

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devilatelier · 8 months

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SOME TRANS RAMBLINGS IN THE TAGS

#JUST SORTING MY THOUGHTS BUT #im not sure if i want to take t #i think that for me just top surgery is enough #i need to get rid of the girls #god i wish i could donate these to a trans fem who wanted them ;-;

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fawnnbinary · 2 years

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rate this geralt I did after drinking

#miles.art #geralt #fan art #he's on my mind and so is jask and so is icarus and so is fallon and I am just #I am JUST #yeah :)#my brightness is down so I can't actually see how this looks bc I;m chilling in the back seat of my car skdjfhskdjgh #I am having such an amazing night guys you would not believe #we had a party!!! for 3 years post top surgery for the bestie I lobe him so much!!!!!!!!!!!#and there were lots of guests and they were so cool and I had such a good time and I wish I could have stayed in the house longer #but it was getting to be too overwhelming and I didn't wanna be overwhelmed so I'm in our garage and god it's been such an amazing day #I'm really really glad we did it at the house and on bestie day (tuesday) and yeah :) I'm just so happy to know him #and to be living with him and AAAAAAAAAAA he is my best friend and my favorite person and I'n so so so glad he's come so far #on his gender jurney and everything and I love him hi bestie you are so great and handsome and doing so good at being you #miles.drinkin ig sldkjhfsldgh

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lesbiansanemi · 2 months

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I’m so tired of ppl making art of trans characters and they literally just look 100% cis but with different genitals like how are we not grasping the problem here

#I see it A LOT with the kny fandom which is what inspired this post #like first of all you’re drawing characters from fucking taisho era japan….#no one is on hrt or getting top surgery like it’s just not happening #and like on the one hand I kiiiinda get the ‘but it’s wish fulfillment!’ argument but. when that’s ALL the art that there is of trans #characters…. yeah it’s. not great #i also don’t like the implication that the only conceivable way a trans person could be happy is if they pass perfectly/look 100% cis #even in a fictional setting #ALSO ALSO the fact that y’all seem to be allergic to bottom surgery????#or if you’re using some hand wavy magic thing nobody is swapping their vagina for a penis or vice versa???#like you make them look 100% cis somehow someway but then…. no change to genitals at all….#it feels fetishy imo lmao like idk #there’s a lot of layers to this and my point is that it honestly feels kiiiinda transphobic in a lot of subtle ways #like the fact that we can apparently only depict trans ppl existing if they look cis BUT not their genitals cuz genital change = bad or w/e #and again no even if it’s a trans artist or writer I really don’t think that absolves you from thinking about why this is the only type of #trans character you depict #wish fulfillment or ‘personal representation’ or whatever aside #I think this is a pretty good indicator that you’ve got some internalized things to unpack one way or another idk #kaz rambles

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gotjacobian · 3 months

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planning to get the eyebrow piercing this weekend and I'm deeply curious if/how my advisor is going to react.

#his particular balance of desire to seem cool vs desire not to come across as rude vs anxiety about professionalism entertains me #he comments whenever I get a haircut but mostly to complain about how he wishes he was the only one who could hire his barber #or like top surgery wasn't a hugely visible change for me and i didn't take off work so I uh. still don't think he knows that that happened #missed opportunity because I think he would've said something really funny about it #complaining

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kay-claire · 3 months

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The whole thing of like, if you come out later in life you're going to go through a phase of being a teenager again is so true and I feel like I'm currently doing that. Like I came out as trans to my mom at 28 and started testosterone 6 months later, and I'm hopefully getting top surgery a month before my 30th birthday, and like. I'm watching Love, Victor (pirated, no money going to Dsiney) at the moment and getting so so emotional about it.

Like the episode where Victor goes to New York and meets a bunch of college-age queers and goes to his first gay night club got me SO emotional. I didn't really have a very exciting teenage or college experience - I really spent most of that time doing art. And I guess my queer experience is different in being (probably) autistic and (almost definitely) ace, so I don't actually think I WANT to go to gay clubs and that kinda stuff, but I also just have this FOMO that I've missed out on this kind of thing, and I want to experience it as like my true self, as a trans masc. But also like, I have to actually make queer friends to do that kinda stuff with and that's definitely the hardest part.

#i went to my first pride parade this last weekend tho #so like I'm slowly starting to do the stuff I've always wished I could #also definitely doing my trans puberty thing with the voice breaking and the acne and the new body hair #all that shit #i can't wait til i get top surgery #17 May!!!

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erismourn · 3 months

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I hate getting so angry upon seeing a thin person come out and get top surgery and t within like a year or 2 of coming out. Like. Totally not their fault, really happy for them, mad at the system that prevents anyone over 150lbs from getting access to gender affirming care

#mads.txt #I don't know if I'm going to be able to get top surgery before it's outlawed in Canada lmao #My doctor submitted a referral to the only top surgeon that'll operate on fat ppl in the province in September #They still haven't even acknowledged the referral + a friend I talked to said they started their process in 2021 #He just got his surgery in lkke #November IIRC. And we're heading towards a conservative gov't because Trudeau is a pig and the ndp doesn't have enough support #I wish I'd started believing in myself before I graduated so I could have accessed care sooner #I've wanted top surgery since I was like 16 #So that's on me ig

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daz4i · 4 months

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i haven't weighed myself in literal years but my mom got an electric weight thingie bc she needs to document it daily for health reasons so i thought i may as well check too bc doctors keep asking me and i never know what to say

anyway apparently i lost like 15 kg/33 lbs. what. how

#i wish i knew how i did that so i could keep going and reach a low enough weight to safely get top surgery 🥲#i mean. it might just be my stomach issues 😭😭😭 if it is indeed crohn's then i think that's one of the symptoms so.#anyway this is a weight i haven't been in since like 2018?? that's insane to me #weight //#medical //#kinda??? mentioned.#ask to tag

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