#i worked like 60 hours this week

[mik-mania]

dude

im. so tired

[deoidesign]

heard it's "make a terrible comic" day

Finally hit 10,000 hours this month after starting making comics full time 2.5 years ago

decided to play paper mario instead of making more comics today (I beat it)

[the-alan-price-combo]

An Animals diorama I made, based on the Pop Gear music video of "House of the Rising Sun"!!

🌅🐾✨️

(Detailed pictures under the cut!)

[hella1975]

so there's a reason my new job got back to me so quickly about my application and that's bc it's an absolute fucking shambles like actually perfect timing for me to decide to rewatch the bear bc i have never more felt like ive been thrown into a broke on-its-knees establishment trying to crawl its way up the ladder where i am somehow a godsend to them. my old job was crazy and shambolic in the sense that the industry is just Like That but this one?????? insanity. every 5 mins i am questioning what im doing with my life. ive already had a walk-in fridge moment

[corporalkiheart]

I have a very strict policy of “if i’m not at the hospital or specifically being paid to be on call, it does not exist to me”. I’m not answering my phone. I’m not checking the whatsapp. I’m not checking my emails. I’m not opening teams to “just tune in to teaching/the departmental meeting for an hour”.

[squeakadeeks]

Your real good at making costumes, 10 outta 10 stuff, ever want to do it professionally or are you in it for the love of the game? Hope your day is well and that your stress demons perish in unknown circumstances

thank you!!! ;-;

and honestly im happy you asked because I have a lot to say on this matter. In 2020, I really wanted to be a professional cosplayer. I had just graduated from my undergrad and was turbo burned out on physics, and thought I had the chops to go pro.

And I had Medium success, but very quickly I learned that holy schmaou making a full income from cosplay was not for me. If nothing else, it was very stressful to jump from contract to contract to maintain a steady income (also like.....Health Insurance).

However what broke that aspiration fully was the mental health aspect. I got exposed to a monumental amount of harassment since you need your work to be seen by people to make money, but not all of those people will be kind. Any post you show to 3 million people is going to get vile commentary regardless of the content. Also cosplay social media is a very image-based game, and relying on my appearance for my income made my anorexia go completely off the rails, on top of other complexes around feeling more like a consumable 2D digital jester than a person. The stress of keeping 120K people's attention perpetually such that they'll keep giving you money to buy groceries was Not Awesome. (Also I couldn't go more than a few months without having an alarming stalker experience.)

Trying to be a professional cosplayer was incredibly hard. And although there are other means in which I could accomplish this (commissions, competing, streaming, etc) I have utterly no interest in it anymore. My perspective on cosplay has totally changed after that experience, going through my icarus moment of attempting cosplay professionalism and getting burned made me go through enough of an Ego Death that I have tried my best to decouple the concept of """success""" from cosplay. Sure, I'm happy and delighted when people like the things I make and I love when companies show interest and faith in my work, but its not like...the be all end all for me anymore. or rather i view success as more "i had fun with this" as opposed to "this got a ton of views and lead to a sponsorship that made money"

so for the most part i do it just for fun and as a way to keep myself from going insane in grad school...that being said im not claiming to be an Enlightened Guru or anything who Cares Not For Worldly Desires Or The Opinions Of Others, because it still makes me happy when people like my work or I get an endorsement, and I still feel sad when a costume ""flops"" so to speak. but its just not....my whole life anymore.

[inniave]

[anxiousbabybird]

Tentatively trying to come back on tumblr, I missed it here and today felt like coming home 💙

[beneathsilverstars]

every little break i take i just feel even more desperate for a much much longer break -_- what do you mean my burn out isn't fixed yet i've been resting for like TWO MONTHS <- person who has still been working ~30 hours a week on top of taking care of a household of 4 including a preschooler

[incorrectquotesideas-deactivated]

Person A: Do you want a beer? I’m paying.

Person B, going through the restaurant’s menu: No. Ugh, where’s the good stuff?

Person A, half jokingly: I thought you were an alcoholic.

Person B: Exactly. I’d need at least, like, four beers — without food — to get slightly buzzed, and my stomach can’t fit over 2 beers in it. I’m small. I’ll have a rum, neat.

[paulmccartneyprostateorgasm]

It's really really funny how I'm like the world's laziest person ever but I'm also the biggest fucking workaholic on earth.

[anotherpapercut]

bro what the fuck are they doing with my package

[skrunksthatwunk]

household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight

[hoforwonho]

I don't get how people work more than 40 hours a week regularly. I accepted overtime and I feel nothing but dread

[mirananananan]

little life update/rant below :)

i feel like i've been so inactive lately which makes me big sad, but when i say i have not had the time, i'm being so serious. yesterday i literally woke up, went into work an hour early, stayed after for almost 2 hours, went home, made dinner, and immediately sat down to work on a grad school assignment and then had to work for another hour before i went to bed. then i woke up this morning and did it all again. it just feels like that's how my days look more and more recently, and it's been really hard tbh. it's demoralizing and just sad to work all day and still wake up the next day wishing i had done more, still with a mile long to do list, and knowing that it's just going to keep being this way for at least the next couple weeks.

anyways all of this is to say that i'm just both really grateful for and sorry to all my mutuals who have continued to tag me in things and stuff in the past couple weeks :) it may sound weird or dumb, but if i'm being honest i have SERIOUS fandom fomo right now, and, even though i haven't really had time recently, it's been nice to not feel like lost in the shuffle or forgotten (i told u it was going to sound weird).

being on tumblr/in fandom has truly been the most incredible escape and been such a stress relief and source of happiness for me. i'm still very much here, just lurking and liking more because i'm conserving brain bandwidth as much as possible during the week!!!!

[ispyspookymansion]

i dont Exactly need my grocery store job to pay bills anymore since i got promoted but it would be extremely tight without it so im keeping it. but i really dont want to work as much there/have work every single day between the two jobs? i just dont want them to get on my ass about asking to cut my hours to like 15/week or two shifts when i already cut back my availability to 3 days. because i have a full time primary job otherwise. like ahhhhh confrontation and pussying out of making more money for “rest” and “my mental health” or whatever maybe i should just die