#i would ramble about how thankful i am here but i've done that too many times already

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Heyyya! How are you doing and I hope you are feeling better since the post from days ago ❤️

I wanted to ask you if you ever wrote down the most submissive darlings to Sephiroth.. “My lord” “My master” type of woman, who would enjoy begging and pleading for his affection and adore him torturing her both way ;) I just couldn’t help but think about how amused Sephiroth mufht be.. and how bad he would toy wirh her, the thought of it makes me tingle 😣 what do you think that dynamic would be like?

Thanks! I am feeling better thanks to the support I've been getting! And wow, what a great question! I thought about this a lot in the past, but now it's time to share my thoughts. I just want to start off by saying what's so amazing about Sephiroth: This man is so baby and daddy, he encompasses the entire spectrum. When your brainrot for him gets so bad, you can't decide if you want to be owned by him or make him your submissive and breedable wife. 🤭

Content Warning: NSFW. Yandere Sephiroth. Various kinks. DDDNE. Long ramble below.

But in the case of being submissive to Sephiroth: He would LOVE that! A darling that is so mind broken and helplessly in love with him she would do anything and everything for him... But, it comes with a significant stipulation: he wants to work for it. A darling throwing herself at him so quickly and easily wouldn't be interesting to him, even though it's what he would expect because of his arrogance. He finds true satisfaction in gradually breaking her.

You guys know of the "I love you because I can't control you" trope? That's definitely how he would feel initially. Darling giving him so much difficulty will only make him more fervent. And just when he managed to physically best her, that's one part of the battle done.

I think he'd celebrate as if he had already won the war and adopt a mockingly affectionate attitude towards her. This is because he's starting to train his "good girl" to become the best pet she can be. He's so thoughtful, even going as far as getting her a cute collar that perfectly suits her personality and conjuring a magical leash that attaches it to one of his bracelets. Sometimes, he may tighten her leash and give it an extra yank just because he can when they walk together. And you know he's playing Materia fetch with her. 🤣

This is all necessary for her training. For example, if his good girl wants to sit down, she knows the rules. She may only sit on her knees or in his lap. If darling misbehaves? She will be punished. He might even spank her ass hard enough to leave bruises, but then affectionately stroke it afterwards to make it sting more. Later, he'd sweetly ask his good girl what's troubling her as she sits in his lap while they watch the stars. (You fucking know what's wrong, you asshole) And eventually, poor Darling would grow to love it all, even if she hated it at first. She will come to beg for his affection and crave for his touch. He is her everything. And she is his.

Also, she would rarely be called by her name anymore. Instead, "pet" or "good girl" would be the proper ways to address her in Sephiroth's mind.

So here's a mini-analysis of some submissive darlings from my AUs because why not?

Little Sister Darling: Most submissive because of the connection she built with Sephiroth when she was younger. She came from a Midgar orphanage that was often scouted by Shinra for potential SOLDIER recruits, so she had no parents or any known family. Outside of her peer Zack, she didn't have too many friends as she rose through the ranks. But through her mentorship from Sephiroth, they bonded, especially over the similarity of not having any family, so they had each other to fulfil their need for that connection. Even after the Nibelheim Incident, she just wanted nothing more than to be with him. He was pretty much her world. Sephiroth will subject her to psychological torture, believing it will strengthen her. So he'd tell her he's no longer her loving, brotherly mentor. He became strong and so must she if he were to endure. This darling will still hate what he has done, but I can see her giving in quicker. It is fun to imagine this darling as a twistedly happy villainess, torn between wanting to please him and prove herself to him and mother JENOVA.

Nee-San Darling: Second most submissive. Like Little Sis Darling, her connection with Sephiroth came from their childhood. And honestly, regardless of if he is an enemy of the planet, that man is still her sweet little brother in the end. She joins Cloud and the party in their mission to stop him, but inside her, a fierce battle wages. Sephiroth would constantly taunt her by asking if she wants to hurt her sweet little brother or if she'll let others do it. He'd even question why she doesn't tell Cloud that he wasn't in Nibelheim. Why she allows Cloud to keep lying to everyone...

But oddly, I think the psychological torment he inflicts on her will only strengthen his bond (and obsession) with her. Ever since she was injected with his cells, he re-experienced their memories together from her perspective, now fully understanding the extent of her feelings and affection towards him. However, he also harbors hatred towards her. She has always been a puppet, starting with Shinra, and she is the daughter of the scientists who experimented and exploited him and his mother. Lastly, her seemingly affectionate relationship with Rufus only further complicates Sephiroth's feelings towards her. It's a complex mix of emotions that goes beyond simple hate and love. But rest assured, when he breaks her, he will be ecstatic to finally have her in his hold as his big sister and wife.

Daughter Darling: She is an interesting middle ground. She only submits to her father because she wants to. She doesn't like to disappoint him and she especially hates to make her dear father upset. But let this be clear: Daughter Darling IS his equal in most aspects. But Sephiroth holds advantages over her because of his knowledge and experience with his powers, but he can't control her directly, so he can ONLY use psychological manipulation. While he genuinely loves her, he also uses her for his own conquests. So it's only a matter of time before she discovers the protomateria within her body, that suppressed the feral JENOVA beast from awakening. Then, I think once Daughter Darling knows, she'd be anything but submissive towards him.

[cillianhead]

Thank You

guys i know this is all really cheesy but i genuinely do want to say thank you for being so patient with me, i know i've barely been posted any fics lately and i have been working for so long to get this part three done and i'm sort of reaching the end of it so it'll definitely be out by the end of the week (if all goes well)!

i love you guys and i love writing and posting fics for you guys, hearing your responses and comments literally makes my week and i remember everything single one of them and smile

and also thank you to all the cool friends i've made on here i appreciate y'all :) (many of whom are also other very talented writers!!)

i have just been going through some stuff lately and also dealing with writer's block is so UGHHH

but also continuously loving and being obsessed with cillian murphy

he is a light in this dark world for many and god i love the films and tv shows he's been in and i love him as a person too

i know how fan fiction is an outlet and a release for a lot of people and a way to forget the chaotic world outside

i just love you all and i am so appreciative of you guys!!

1,000 followers!! I remember when I hit 100 followers and thought WOW I HAVE A 100 TUMBLR FOLLOWERS AHHHH but now it's like... woah... it's not all about numbers lol and i know 1k isn't like the largest following ever but it's pretty significant!!

i also will always remember when i would look up to certain writers on here (still do) and when they'd follow me i'd screenshot it. i think it was when @mrkdvidal1989 followed me that i was like WHAT

(just an example of many different ppl (also @darlingsfandom))

it was cartoonish the way it felt and i don't know, tumblr has been a really safe space for me to be honest and i'm glad that it is.

anyway rant over i just want to reiterate THAT I AM SO FULL OF LOVE, I AM AN OVERFLOWING POOL OF EMOTIONS AND LOVE IS SOARING FROM MY SOUL AND INTO YOU GUYS

I'm always here for anyone who ever wants to talk :) whether it just be wanting to have a goofy chat or a deep serious conversation, I know I do a lot of rambling but I much prefer listening than talking about myself so don't feel afraid to message me! if you ever feel alone, YOU'RE NOT.... I'M HERE, I PROMISE YOU.

You are so loved and appreciated.

Sincerely, Scarlet <3

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Simply put, thank you all for everything

I had planned to do this since this morning, though, I knew I was going to get a bit emotional about this, so, I decided to wait instead. I'm sadly now feeling sick on top of being tired which I've been all day due to staying up till past midnight for the tour I went on with Curtis, though that's my fault, no one said I had to do it last night, yet I did it anyways.

I'm getting off track though. I know you all are quite busy and can't look at everything you're tagged in, which is why I wrote the title as I did, that way you got the main idea of what this was and didn't need to read all of it.

Now, the thing is, this is going to be very lengthy.

I wanted to thank you more then just through my asks since my ask really doesn't show just how thankful I am for all of you.

This will get emotional (at least for me) a little personal too.

I had rehearsed this, though I'm really not one for planning things all the way through, otherwise it gets overwhelming for me, so, this will probably be a lot of rambling too since I'm really just writing this as I think of it.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! You can click under the cut to continue reading

(If I did that wrong, just know that this is my first time putting the continue reading thing there)

Now then! Let's get into the actual part of this. I will say this now, you all have inspired me all in different ways, though all in one same way too.

I will say, I'm a shut in. I stopped really taking the steps to talk to people, to even step out to my front porch, around when I was 12. There's a reason for this, though that's a bit to personal, so, I'll keep that to myself.

I was homeschooled, so I've never been to a school, so I don't have that, I am not that social in the regards of, I don't really like going outside and going out of my way to talk to complete strangers.

When I was 12, I also began watching games and being on youtube. I was on Wattpad for a while, eventually, the first thing I tried with sharing anything I created was with this book on Wattpad.

I had this idea of making a story about Y/N, though not YOU at Y/N. The reader was meant to slowly figure out that they weren't the main character within the story, they were only in the comments of the story and could actually interact with the main character Y/N.

because of this, it had nothing that would actually bring people to read it since it wasn't based on anything, it was it's own thing. At this time though, I was looking for a place to really just be accepted, and when no one did anything with this book, I felt I wasn't accepted, so, I stopped writing for it and eventually deleted it all together.

This was my first taste of trying to put out my ideas, to share them with others, and, to me at least, it turned out poorly. I have done many things, gone many places to share what I make, to share my ideas.

I did Wattpad, I did Pintrest, I did Deviant art, I came here, and I did youtube.

The thing was, on Wattpad, I already said what happened there, for Pintrest, I really never went on it, Deviant art and tumblr here, at the time, were the same, so, the only thing I stuck with was Youtube.

When on youtube, I was on and off all the time, I rarely made anything because I knew I would have to do so much, for really little reward. The thing that has the most likes on youtube is a story for robin and kid flash and honestly, I never fully was into making that, though that's what got the most likes, so, I made more.

I really started to just not want to share my stuff like I used to since it seemed like I was doing what others wanted more then what I wanted.

I came into the TSP fandom when Ultra deluxe came out. I watched many things for it, I ended up, honestly, finding X Narrator stories on Ao3 and that's when I found Ao3 really.

I read many stories, not all X Narrator of course. I then came back to tumblr and found you all.

You guys made me love this fandom more then I did before. You all made me love Tumblr really.

All of you, at different times in different ways, have inspired me. You have all inspired me to keep going honestly.

I eventually made my Ao3 oneshot book for TSP characters X reader. It first started out as me trying to flesh out my Narrator at the time, then it changed into a Narrator X Reader story, and eventually I really didn't want to just do the narrator, so it turned into what it is now, a book for all of the TSP characters.

But the reason I actually started writing it was because of you guys, you all showed me not to worry about what others thought, that I should just do what I wanted to make and there would be people who would enjoy it.

I then expended more and more, from not interacting with anyone unless prompted to, to joining reblog chains with my Narrators.

I really want to thank @beartitled while we're speaking of the reblog chains. You helped me to really feel excepted into this fandom when you did the gala post. When I saw that I was mentioned, not only mentioned, but by someone who I followed, by one of my favorite TSP creators, I was so happy about it. It honestly made my day to simply see that you drew my stupid little Narrator designs.

After that, I felt like I really was a part of this fandom and not just a watcher who made things here and there.

It's honestly just amazing to see that any one of you have even simply liked some of my stuff on here.

I say all this, though I really wouldn't have gotten this far with even sending this out tagging all of you if it weren't for @gamergirls427

If it weren't for you, I would have never even texted anyone, let alone gone and did something as small as reach out to Bear about the cat march thing, so, thank you.

I was alone for so long. I only had family, and even then, I have some past things that make it harder to really talk to my family and trust them. Even with friends, all of the friends I've had have been either temporary or just not that great of friends, but all of you have helped me, at least with the friends department, and I can't thank you enough for that.

You all brighten my day and @gamergirls427 and @adventurecrimez

You mean the world to me and thank you so much for simply being my friends.

If you read all the way down here, thank you and know I love you all <3

As I said, this would get emotional, but, there we go. Now time for all the tags.

@juaneloriginal @britishbiscuits @finnleywiththesillys @shoefullofpudding @melancholys-inc @test-url-please-ignore @goony-gooner @villiun @athenamineblox @accoleius @souppye @janirah @thesillyparablesystem @gothic-mothic @xandyprojects @heckinrissa @brieflykay @choirgamerfangirl @miezmiau-animations @bucketfan427 @chaos-theoryyy @cinnabuncrumbs @demonicrhythms @your4thwallbreaker @shortpirateking @jaygrahamns @sangijazz @lilydoesdrawsometimes @deviousnarrator @bbonzo @mpils @crowv3xd @owlfromthemeadow @mocksart @gamergirls427 @z-static-z @paradoxspir1tart @springbon-t-art @alumiasgo @questionablealibi @shinakazami1 @tw1nkee28 @adventurecimez @lavalamphoarder @bootleg-parable @the-friendliest-freak @cha1nsawblood @braisedhoney @bog-mob @machines-art-shenanigans @emile-tb @raccoontank @tomiechu @coralkrill @troolyart @brutusartemis @scaredii-cat @crtvirus @calwasfound @beartitled @thenamesmobu @employee052 @envyq00 @quentintin7 @indigo-art @kelpiekidd @bucketbrainrot @vellichorom @give-soup-please @steampoweredwerehog @klari2845 @peripalz @bucketfullofstrawberries @rick-ety @blackkittensketches @altyy-tm @sketchygoober @insomniphic @morrrs @rhadko

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MUTUAL APPRECIATION POST!!!!!

Hope everyone's year has been good so far, I've wanted to do this for a while, so here's my little ramble!!

I wanted to do as many people as possible but I am a COWARD and just went until I feel like I wrote too much, everything is utc :3

ALRIGHTTTTT, STARTING OFF WITH @eslover. I remember our first interaction the best tbh... (milgram tree, kotorb!!) you're the person that made really want to try and branch out to talk to other people within the milgramblr community (I still get a bit embarrassed though). You're super nice and I'm really grateful that we're mutuals! Truly the McMido acc ever !!

Next up, @tsuwmya! You were my first mutual here and I think you're super cool!! I really admire you, even if I don't interact with you a-lot, your ocgram is SOSO WELL DONE AND ALL THE CHARACTERS ARE SO CHEWYYY (it made me begin work on my own ocgram again actually). Your analysis posts are always such a pleasure to read and there is something about your art that makes me want to eat it like a sandwich /pos

@dearmahiru YOUUU. You're the person that made me like 0610 and MY GOD, DOOMED YURI!! They're one of my favourite ships now hehe. BUT ANYWAYS, ANOTHER PERSON WHO MAKES WONDERFULLY WRITTEN ANALYSIS POSTS, they're always such good reads and you can tell how well researched they are! In my head you're THE Mahiru mutual and I await the Kotoko final girl post!

LINA @linabirb. Uhmm... fun fact, when I initially got into Milgram, your edit blog was the first thing I really checked out in terms of fan work. I believe I was the anon that asked for heart shaped miko icons one time (I loved them btw. I ended up using them for one of my rentry pages WITH CREDIT OFC). You're really friendly and soso approachable 10/10 MUTUAL!!!

@narumimii YOU'RE LIKE A CELEBRITY 2 ME... so cool. I lovelove you edits and will probably spam like them later out of respect because photopea SUCKS and trying to understand it made me admire you for putting up with it's confusingness. Also... yurigram real I LOVE YOUR ART OK BYE

@rainbowghostcat @seariii @heynowisavedyouright and @roseofcards90 I WAS GONNA WRITE STUFF FOR YOU GUYS TOO BUT GOT EMBARRASSED AND DELETED IT I'M SO SORRY </3 BUTTT I THINK YOU'RE ALL SUPER COOL AND I AM SENDING YOU A MILGRAM CHIBI OF YOUR CHOICE...

@art-stuff-by-goose You're one of my irls and also not on milgramblr but you are my qp WIFE so I would like to thank your for putting up with me for all these years! I can be cringefail boyflop girlloser around you without worry and you also introduced SSOOSOOSO many cool games to me YOU WILL BE NUKED!! Overall you are very cool and I am gonna give you one of my silly dinosaurs :3

TO EVERYONE WHO ISN'T ON HERE!! Just know that even if we're not close, I really appreciate you! Everyone who I've interacted with here (no matter how much or how little) has really made my fandom experience so much more enjoyable, this is actually the first time I've really tried to interact with others in the community and it's been soso wonderful thus far. So thank you! I hope that you all have a wonderful 2024!! <3

Also uhmmm, I suck at interacting first so if you'd like to get closer, maybe send an ask? OK THAT'S ALL THIS WAS UHMMMMM VERY UHHHH THIS WAS A POST!!!!!!

[topguncortez]

I thought that this detox/hiatus/whatever the fuck would last longer, but I'm a glutton for punishment and can't stay away from this hellsite no matter how hard I try. might be my abandonment issues. . . anyway, conversation for my therapist

thank you all for the nice asks, messages, reblogs, comments. I read them all, I promise you that! I know that the good out ways the bad, and I should've just been the bigger more mature person and not post that anon, but it just struck something with me.

I know that I can sometimes come across as a bitch or blunt, I know that believe me. I can be cold and heartless. It's a trauma response, but not an excuse. I have been working on myself for years with the help of medication, several types of therapies, support groups, you name it, I've probably tried it. I am a work in progress. If I have ever offended you, or pissed you off, or said something that hurt you, I truly, truly apologize. From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry.

The internet is a truly glorious and hideous place. I have met some many people that I would give up my whole savings account to meet. . . and I have met some that I would love to build a Time Machine and avoid.

I love that the TG fandom has made me friends, literally, all around the world. I love that TG has gotten me back into writing. I love it, I really do. . .But things need to change.

The vile, nasty hate that not have I been subjected to, but so have many others on here, needs to stop. It's truly alarming the things that you are saying to other human beings. It is not normal, it is not right, and I truly hope that you seek out professional help. If you are praying for nasty, vile, awful things to happen to another human, you need to be seeking professional help.

And to that anon, I really, really hope that you are having a better day/night/whatever than you were when you decided to come into my inbox and be mean. You don't know my story, and I don't know yours. So maybe, you were having a bad day, and needed to lash out at someone. I have bad days too, I know the feeling. But what you said was not okay, and I hope you know that. I hope that you know deep, down in your heart that what you said was wrong and gross, and you are getting help and having a better day.

as for me coming back and writing again. . . I really don't know. Like I said, I got abandonment issues so I can't say "no I'm done" or "yes I'm back". I have been wanting to step away for a bit and just slow down on my writing. I feel like everything I have put out lately has been total shit, so I'm gonna take this time to just write and not worry about posting. I am almost done with this semester from hell, and I can taste the summer air. Maybe once I'm done with school, I'll throw a party and get back into the swing of things.

I really would love this summer to be like last summer. Where the dash was full of us thirsting over lil fictional pilots flying lil planes. I hate seeing drama. I hate seeing hate. I hate seeing writers and creators beg and plead for reblogs and interactions. I hate it and I hope things change heading into the summer.

alright, enough, rambling.

long story short, I'll be around, lurking in the shadows like I usually am.

I love you all,

-Grace:)

[allykatsart]

STOPPPPPPPPPP peccantum is my child now sorry im adopting him you are losing your parental rights. move the fuck over alastor that little boi is MINE

no but for serious, I. Am. So. In. Love. With your series. the art, the dynamics, the designs, the lore, all of it ALL OF IT. you worked peccantum into the series events so smoothly like whaaaaat

A couple questions I have, and then I'll be out of your hair:

Does Peccantum have any preferred nicknames? I saw someone call him Pec/Pecc once and I've been calling him Peccy in my head. I'm curious if there's an actual, creator-approved, nickname we can use

Do we get to know the full details of what Peccantum got out if his deal? Not tryna steal info you aren't ready to share but by lucifer is it eating at me !!

I don't know if you watch Helluva Boss, but considering og Peccantum (not hazbin version) is space-themed and you mention he decorates his room like space,,, it's totally improbable but WHAT IF HE MET STOLAS or Octavia!!!!!!! I just think it would be so wholesome for him even though the Goetias don't interact with sinners

So in his pre-afterlife lore you mention he worked his way up a cult but got taken advantage of by the leader and stripped of all the power he'd accumulated. He's obviously suuuuuper power hungry so it may fog up his thinking, but did he not learn from that??? why is he cozying up to Al (like eating the rotten venison just to impress him) if the last time he did that, it resulted in him losing everything

Peccantum wears Alastor's colours bc soul ownership and everything, but during the 7 years when Peccantum never heard from him, how relaxed did he get? Did he still wear the colours then or did that begin when he was oh so kindly volunteered for "bellhop" services?

If Peccantum's red string theories lead to conspiracies like "Alastor is just Lucifer in disguise", how off the mark is he about who owns Al's soul? Like would he be crazy enough to suspect Razzle n Dazzle or something or would he hit close to the mark?

On a related note, do you have a HC for who owns his soul?

I LOVEDDDD when you gave Peccantum his different hairstyles (they were all gorgeous but I particularly enjoyed the one with the many braids),, maybe Angel or Charlie would convince him to play dress-up??

Does. Peccantum. wear. makeup.

Is there a particular reason behind bis jumpiness or is it just one of his many Talents ✨️

If Alastor ate Peccantum would Al season him or would he be eaten spiceless?

Peccantum visits Cannibal Town for Al's errands, is he chill with any of the residents or does he more employ the in-and-out-without-looking-at-or-speaking-to-or-acknowledging-anyone tactic

Also just curious about how his and Al's dynamic will evolve

I'm sorry this is such a rambling ask, and please feel free to completely gnore or only answer some questions, I'm just really invested in this au you have going on !!!!!

ps i looked up the name to find how you came up with it and i think you were very smart with it

Who is Peccantum?

Oh wow dkajfbshdhjsjshd I'm. I... I don't know how to respond?!??!! This is so sweet! Thank you! 🖤💜💚❤️💜💜💜❤️✨

Sorry it took so long to answer this! I was drawing a comic and it actually added context to a lot of these questions/answered them, so I figured I'd save it until after I was done. There's a lot here so I'm gonna answer it in numbered sections!

1. Names & Nicknames

I don't really have a nickname for him, I usually call him by his full name lol. Peccy is cool lol. His name is pronounced with hard C's. So Pec-cant-um. Or, in case of the nickname, Peck-y

Fun Fact! Peccantum isn't his 'real' name. Like Angel and Husk, he took a new name once he died. His other name was actually shorter (and an actual name too). Peccantum is actually a mix of the words peccatum, meaning sin or transgression in Latin, and incant, in Latin meaning enchant. Basically, magical sin, which sums up Peccantum pretty well actually!

2. Peccantum's Deal

Yes you can!

3. Meeting Stolas

I am a fan of helluva! Have been ever since it came out! Despite that I haven't actually thought about this until now.

Peccantum, absolute nerd that he is, would probably be fascinated by Stolas and his powers. Like talking about specific spells, how long it takes to set up, magic of the stars, etc. I feel like they would have a VERY long conversation about magic and space and shit cause Stolas is lonely and Peccantum is very enthusiastic about this topic. Octavia, meanwhile, would get a long list of places in the human world with little to no light pollution. For excellent star viewing, of course.

4. Cozying up to Alastor

The short answer? No, absolutely not, Peccantum learned nothing XD

The long answer? It's complicated and messy. Peccantum, at that time, went into a bad situation because it was familiar to him. Blood, illicit murders, and strange dealings were all part of what Peccantum was taught to do. He thought he could handle whatever Alastor would ask of him. That it wouldn't matter in the end because Alastor would eventually get rid of him.

He wasn't expecting the Radio Demon to vanish.

5. Clothing Choices

You may have noticed during Checking In that Peccantum is wearing a completely different outfit before he's pulled into the hotel! That is Alastor's doing! Because Peccantum wasn't working for him dressed like that.

At first Peccantum was completely on edge because he was expecting Alastor to show up. After that first year, Alastor could call on him at any time! That's a scary thing to constantly have in the back of your mind. But then, Alastor just... didn't? There were rumors that Alastor had fallen to angels and Alastor wasn't showing up? It left Peccantum completely to his own devices.

Slowly, very slowly, Peccantum started making choices for himself, and learning how to live. He got a shitty job, a shitty apartment, but for the first time in years he was actually living, making choices of his own. And he found he kinda liked it. Not everything, of course, but making your own path in life, finding out what you like and who you are... Well. It was nice, for a time.

Peccantum still has his own clothes but he's aware that what Alastor dressed him in is his uniform.

6. Who owns Alastor's soul?

Tbh, I think it's Lilith. Maybe that's the obvious answer but like... That's the only viable candidate we have rn.

Peccantum would be suspecting Lilith and Lucifer, mainly because of the specifics of the deal Alastor made with Charlie. He didn't take her soul, meaning there's some benefit to having her free.... Or the more likely option; Alastor can't. Whatever deal he's under restricts him from taking Charlie's soul. The only people Peccantum knows who care about Charlie enough to fuck with the Radio Demon would be her parents.

I think he would lean more towards Lucifer, though. It would explain the immediate hostility between him and Alastor. Lucifer's ignorance could be feigned to piss off Alastor even more.

However, Peccantum would also keep evidence for Adam and maybe some of the seven deadly sins on the board. He doesn't have enough evidence for them, but he's not going to dismiss those options just yet.

7. Dress up day

Peccantum doesn't own a lot of clothes but he has explored a few other outfits! Here's some of the sketches I made when exploring what he would wear before he came to the hotel.

I do imagine there would be a 'express yourself through clothing choices' activity he would get wrapped up in tho. He can wear just about anything and still look pretty good. Charlie's happy to see Peccantum embracing different styles and exploring! Angel might help pick outfits and push Peccantum out of his comfort zone.

8. Makeup

Peccantum does wear makeup! It's actually pretty new for him, so he's not the best with it and he doesn't go too extreme but... It's kinda fun!

9. Spice or no spice?

I. I have no idea tbh. I'm not an expert in... people flavoring? XD

10. Jumping at shadows

Did you misspell trauma as talents? XD, joking. In all seriousness though, Peccantum is fairly jumpy because he's high strung. He's a very anxious person in general (there are exceptions) and he's in his own head a lot. Sometimes he will forget that other people are there and be surprised when he is reminded of their presence.

11. Errands to Cannibal Colony

Peccantum definitely keeps his head down. Cannibalism in general makes him uneasy, so best to keep out of the way of any hungry citizens who want to try their luck. Peccantum can defend himself, but he'd rather not if he can avoid it. Cannibals travel in packs and the best way to avoid them is to avoid putting a target on your back.

Thankfully, most people there know he's Alastor's, so they leave him be.

12. Alastor and Peccantum

This one is tricky because I wanna explore this more in other comics, but I'll try and give a general overview here.

Their relationship isn't... Healthy. Especially not at first, but Peccantum coming to the hotel does actually put him in a better place. He meets new people, gains friends, and makes a support network that he never had before. On the other hand, he has to deal with Alastor, the constant anxiety of job performance, and deal with/unpack several traumas he's been repressing. It's a mix of good and bad.

Later on, a few months after working at the hotel, I think Alastor does start to warm up to Peccantum some. They become friendlier, not to the point of being friends, but Alastor appreciates the work Peccantum does and trusts him with tasks that he wouldn't have beforehand. By the time the attack on the hotel happens, he trusts Peccantum won't screw him over.

And then the fight with Adam happens.

We don't know what will happen in season 2, and we probably won't for a while, but... I imagine losing that fight with Adam did not help Alastor's insecurities. Personally, I think the Radio Demon is going to close himself off from the others, more than he already has. To feel in control again, he's going to be a lot more strict with his 'employees' and a lot less lenient with Peccantum.

Peccantum, of course, isn't going to know this and would take it as a sign that he's failing Alastor, something he's deathly afraid of. His anxiety would spike and the almost neutral relationship he had with Alastor would turn unhealthy again. There would be a regression of progress.

Whatever happens in season 2 would def affect their relationship tho, so I can't say much more than that for now.

Thank you so much for the comment! I love answering about my lil deer guy!!!! Don't feel like you're bothering me, I may take a while but I do get to these questions eventually and I appreciate the interest!

[maddyb-rapps]

One

The Farmers Son

I’ve always felt alone but I was never truly alone. I’ve always had people responsible for me, I was a burden and I still am now. My foster parents went as soon as the world ended and after I was no longer their burden I became the burden to a group on the outskirts of Atlanta.

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Ivy

I sat in front of Lori as she brushed through my oily hair. “Maybe you should just cut it out.” I groan as my head jerks every time the brush pulls at the knot. I would ask Carol for the practically magic detangler spray she had for Sophia but it would feel wrong to ask because half our group was about to leave to look for the poor girl.

“Quit being dramatic I’m almost done.” She chuckles as she works through the knot. She carefully french braids my hair with gently fingers. “It’s not my fault your so tender headed.”

Once she finished I thank her as we both stand. “Are you sure it’s fine that I stay.” I can’t help but feel guilty because even Carl is going.

“No honey, don’t worry about it Dale needs help looking over everything and T-Dog that cuts pretty bad. Go ahead and rest up in the RV we’ve all had a long night. Dale will get you when we leave.”

I nod and give her a tight lip smile as I make my way to the back of the RV.

Not long after the group leaves Dale comes to tell me everyone had left. I really do appreciate the extra time he gave me. Pulling my shoes back on and grabbing my chunky sunglasses I step outside the RV into the Georgia heat.

The first thing I see is T-Dog clutching is arm. “Hey T, you feeling any better.”

“What do you fucking think.” The usual nice man snaps.

“Oh, well nice to see you too sunshine.”

“Ignore him Ivy, that’s just the fever talking. Say why don’t you go and look around for a few things for yourself. Hopefully you’ll run across some meds while you’re at it. Just don’t wonder to far.” Dale tries to give me a smile but his face is consumed with worry as he looks at T.

“Yes, sir.” I waste no time going straight towards the many abandoned cars.

My first victim was a red suv. It was a gold mine. Well a gold mine to a teenage girl. I squeal as I grab the pink juicy couture backpack. There has to be something good in here.

Pulling it open the first thing I see is mp3 player and some headphones. “Hell yeah!” Besides some other personal things I find deodorant and an unopened chapstick. Thank you Jesus for what ever queen ditched her car.

I then move to the trunk and pull out the pink suit case. This just keeps getting better and better. Unzipping it I find a whole bunch of clothes that seem close enough to my size. Slamming it shut I decided that I’m keeping it all and who even wants to say something can pry it out of my cold dead hands.

I haul it back to the RV with a smile on my face. “I haven’t seen you smile like that even when I gave you that chocolate bar.” Dale says with a raised eyebrow and an amused smile.

“I found my pink jackpot Dale. I couldn’t be any happier.” I wheeze out hauling up into the RV.

I walk back out sitting beside Dale listening to T ramble. “Shouldn't they be back by now?”

Dale takes a long look at him. “It's still light. Let's not worry, just yet. How are you feelin'? T-dog? I asked you how you were feeling just now. Please don't blow that question off.”

“It really, really hurts. It's throbbing something awful.” Welp now I feel bad for wanting to kick him earlier.

Dale asked to see him arm but T flips out. “Ah, don't-don't touch it!” Ouch that looks really bad.

Dales face twist in even more worry. “Yeah, that would be-that would be stupid. I-I've been saying since yesterday, we gotta get you some antibiotics. We've been ransacking these cars the whole time. I can't believe that we have not found some ampicillin, or something in the-in the whole place. Ivy go see if you can find anything even Tylenol.”

“Ok, on it”

I found nothing after what felt like forever. I get back the same time as the others. But not all of them are there. Glen tell us about how some girl came and took Lori saying Carl was shot. Kids are dropping like flies in this camp and I’m lowkey starting to worry I’ll be next.

“We can’t just leave!” Carol cries out.

“Carol, the group is split. We're scattered and weak.” Dale tries to reason with her.

“What if she comes back and we're not here? It could happen.” As much as I would like that I don’t have much hope in that happening.

“If Sophia found her way back and we were gone, that would be awful.” Andrea says not helping.

Daryl looks at Carol then speaks. “Okay. We gotta plan for this. I say tomorrow morning is soon enough to pull up stakes. Give us a chance to rig a big sign, leave her some supplies. I'll hold here tonight, stay with the RV.”

“If the RV is stayin', I am too.” It’s like Dale and that RV are attached at the hip…if an RV had a hip.

The group continues to make a plan as I hang back it’s not like they’d listen to anything I had to say so I saw no reason to pay attention.

Thankfully Daryl’s weird ass brother had stds so T got some good meds. So I guess something good came out of today.

A/N

This is my first time actually fully trying writing a fic so mange your expectations lol. I’m trying to get better at writing so tips are appreciated. I really hope y’all like it. Also POOKIE IS NEXT CHAPTER YAYY!!! 😏😏😏

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[sussoro]

hello!! please tell me more about your detective for M who’s gonna freak out when they say ily because that reaction and the aftermath is going to be so so good 💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️

hello to you too! hope you're doing well 💕 i'm really sorry it took me so long to reply, but i needed to sort through my very confusing thoughts to give them some sort of consistency, sjksjks. if you guys ever find yourselves curious about any of my ocs (which you can easily find here) please, do not hesitate to ask! i just love talking aimlessly about them and receiving these types of questions makes my heart all fuzzy and warm, so thank you for taking an interest in one of my wayhaven detectives!

okay, you didn't ask for my stupid rambles (and i swear one day i'll stop — *insert the 'today is not that day' meme*) so here are some facts:

RUE PARKER

‘the wayhaven chronicles’ canon

personality stats: sarcastic, easygoing & charming (also: not really a stickler for the rules and authority in general);

professional skills: deduction, science & combat — no matter what she's doing or how many times she's done it, the results will always be perfect and spot on;

rebecca → relationship status: not overly bad. honestly? could be better, but it could be much, much worse (personal note #1: rebecca is not my favourite character in the series and i'd probably be happier if she had died already — fingers crossed for book5, sorry-not-sorry, becky — or, at least, if the narrative/characters would stop forcing the readers/mc to forgive her);

tina & verda → relationship status: best pals. her ride-or-die squad;

felix → relationship status: best friend. she found a mischievous kindred soul to relate with and if you ever encounter them together... run (there's this scene at the beginning of book3, where adam/ava asks why the werewolves attacked them and rue answered with: "i may have made one teeny sarcastic comment", causing adam's/ava's soul to leave their body, lol);

bobby → relationship status: ex-boyfriend (personal note #2: i've always hated that the mc's gender/sexuality is what determines the ros' and bobby's gender) — she's not bothered by him at all, but since her responses are very sarcastic, well... rest in peace, robert marks;

mason → relationship status: a big, bright question mark;

personal canon

if i have to choose a few words to describe her, i'd say: naturally talented, wild card & big dick energy;

hyperactive little kid — couldn't stay still at all. always exploring the world around her, climbing up some tree/furniture or hiding somewhere in the house/backyard to play (the sitters tasked with keeping an eye on her went batshit crazy all. the. time);

as i said here, rue is extremely smart, often prone to boredom if something is not mentally challenging/stimulating enough (which can also be applied to her romantic relationships);

if you ever need someone to cut out some tension (or spike it up even more), she is the right gal for you. unfortunately, 99% of the time, the saying 'taking things seriously' is not part of her vocabulary (e.g. in book3, when finding out about the trappers' bounty, she says: "how much am i worth?"). what can i say, she really likes to have a good time;

sarcasm is her default mode, plus she always downplays her feelings/emotions by either ignoring them or making badly-timed jokes;

rarely bothered by anything (e.g. in book3, during the 'fight' with mason/morgan at the bakery, rue replies with: "me being naked is way more important to you") plus, not a jealous person ever (alima included, when she'll make her appearance);

was in an on-again/off-again relationship with bobby. after a while, though, she got exceedingly bored by the monogamous lifestyle and decided to dump his ass;

never had serious relationships/fell in love before — this is partly because: a) she's a free-spirited person & b) she's scared shitless of commitment (mostly caused by rook's death and seeing what that did to rebecca). in a sense, she and mason are quite similar;

just thinking about the word 'love' has her panicking really bad (i.e. after the 'date' at the antique shop), so when mason will inevitably confess his feelings to her... the only way i can see this going is with rue assuming it's all some kind of prank but, once her huge brain will catch on the fact that mason is not exactly the joking type, she will get cold feet and blearily say: "uhh, thank you, i guess?". after realizing what she has said/done, she will skedaddle so fast that the only thing people are going to see is an indistinctive, blurry form (later, she will definitely wish for an asteroid to hit her);

likes to sing everywhere: in the shower, at her workplace, inside the car, you name it (and she's also very good at hitting those high notes too — while she was attending the police academy, 'the karaoke incident' happened and no one beside her and tina knows the truth about it. verda is still trying to unsuccessfully bribe them to know what took place);

excellent chef — loves to cook/bake when she has some free time (she just thinks the entire process is pretty neat, starting with a few ingredients to achieve a full-on meal);

[uriekukistan]

Omg u cooked with ch 5!! Megumi laying his head on Yuuji’s shoulder and falling asleep?? The heart in the contact name??? Shoot me rn. Your fic makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and smiling like an idiot and kicking my feet giggling. God did I feel Megumi’s frustration in the beginning thoughhh.. poor guy. But congratulations to him for sugar plum Prince! And wishing Maki some good luck with snow bc ehrm… (definitely not been personally victimised by that fake snow 🥲). I am so intrigued by Megumi’s Prince Siegfried portrayal though… I keep thinking of the act 3 black swan pas de deux, would he be a more sceptical Siegfried over an oblivious happy one? I wish I could see it irl 😭 also you’ve rlly tempted me to book tickets for Swan lake, they’ve got Vadim Mutagirov with Fumi Kaneko in two weeks ahhh!! Also did you have a specific video in mind for the one Yuuji sent to Megumi? I really loved the last video you linked. I don’t usually look at boy groups so I didn’t know abt him before but omg Dino is sooooo goood?? And apologies ahead bc idk anythign about hip hop but like he’s so light yet clean with his movements?? Like he moves so easy, how??

Looking forward to next chapter!!!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️

apologies in advance, but im abt to ramble so much thank you for the lovely response <33333

STOP ACTUALLY I WOULD DIE TO SEE VADIM MUNTAGIROV AND FUMI KANEKO IN SWAN LAKE IN PERSON ????? TWO MY FAV DANCERS FROM ROYAL BALLET IN MY FAV BALLET ????? U SHOULD TOTALLY GO IF U CAN OMG PLS LIVE IT FOR ME i loveee fumi kaneko her port de bras are always so beautiful and elegant and expressive, and she was amazing as aurora too

anyway excuse me for fangirling jlgsfdh thank you so much!!! im so glad you've been enjoying so far :)))) and yes everyone pray for maki, snow AND flowers is a crazy hard combo but she's crazy good so she's got this down (this made me realize i've never done snow, i've almost always done arabian until recently i've been drosselmeyer which has been so fun????). i definitely see megumi as a more skeptical siegfried in the black swan pas. actually it comes up more later, but he doesn't really do well with the lovesick & happy type vibe lmao (we saw it coming tbh), so a skeptical and overall more melancholy siegfried suits him well.

the choreo i was thinking of in this chapter was this bury a friend choreo by woomin jang and woonha. i absolutely love woonha like she fuses so many elements of contemporary dance with hip hop (such as here), and overall has such unique choreos. like this one, i had genuinely never seen anything like it before, and still havent seen anything like it, or at least not as well executed. so i think she'd be a good inspiration for megumi, just to see how many directions hip hop can go beyond the sort of singular idea that he has.

and omg yes i lovveeee dino he's amazing. honestly im not super into kpop anymore but i'll always have major respect for him (and the rest of seventeen's dance line, actually started in hip hop bc of them). he's really mastered that balance between grounded and being light, crazy strength, crazy control....yeah

okay i'll stop now 😭 thank you again so much fr tho :D

[vanillacreambunny]

Just writing out my thoughts.

My dad made a comment yesterday about how I need to talk to my doctor about disability at my next appointment because I can't go the next 5 years without an income.

It rubbed me the wrong way because I have been studying pretty much nonstop since I left my job so I can get A+ certified, and, hopefully, get a desk job in IT at some point.

I also don't know what's going on with me. It could be something minor and easily fixable. I'm not going to jump the gun. Also, why would I want to go 5 years without an income? It's been a couple months, and I hate it. I already feel guilty, and it sucks not making my own money.

I'm not going to go into my family history and dynamic, but my parents never made things easy, and maybe if they had taken me seriously years ago I wouldn't be here now. I'm doing my best to get better even though there are a lot of days I feel hopeless. I'm trying not to give up. Offline is very lonely and isolating, which doesn't help either.

I wish I could take Barnes and Noble up on their offer and apply for a seasonal position, but I know I would feel awful. I went to the zoo yesterday for 4 or so hours, and I did not feel well at all when I got back. Maybe they could accommodate me, but even if I could sit at the register all day, my hands would hurt and become so stiff I could hardly move them, and when I left in July they were pushing memberships down peoples' throats. I am not a salesperson, so this gave me a lot of anxiety; they even started to track and reprimand people who weren't selling enough. All for $11 an hour 😭 The walk to and from the bus was wearing on me too.

I keep thinking about commissions; the most expensive is $25 USD. It's not a stable income, but it would give me something every now and then. I'm kind of anxious to try because I've had these issues, and some days are better than others. I would try my best to get them done quickly, but I'm afraid I'd be too slow. I also think I should build up my portfolio since I don't have many examples yet. I do on my old blog, though I think my style has changed a bit since then. I was considering ych commissions to make it easier; in a simple shading style. I'm just really hesitant.

In the meantime, I keep looking for part-time remote jobs, but the jobs I find I think I can do either reject me or I never hear back 😔 The other day I even wished I could work at a coffee shop or something just to make money, but I'm just falling apart it seems.

I see my doctor on Wednesday, so I hope I can figure more out. I hate whining about this, but I actually have a lot of anxiety and guilt surrounding it. Some days I feel validated that my family can see certain changes. Other times I think I'm a baby and there's nothing actually wrong with me. I grew up adopting a tough guy persona because of my parents and the things I dealt with because of them. Losing that hurts too.

At the zoo yesterday I was trying to open a lemonade. I was struggling. My sister popped it open so easily. Of course, we joke about it, but it just sucks and worries me. What happened?!

If anyone actually reads my ramblings, thank you 🥺 I always go to write out my thoughts really quickly, and then type up multiple paragraphs lol. I love you and hope you have a wonderful day 💕

[muzzleroars]

I have some questions

1. What do you draw on and or what program do you use

2. Do you draw other things besides ultrakill

3. Who is your favorite character from ultrakill

4. Do you have any tips for drawing

(I just want to let you know that I'm glad I get to see your cool art here I'm glad you're doing a good job on it and I look up to be as good as you one day)

thank you!!! it's always the best thing to hear i can help motivate others to draw too!! i rambled a little about the tips, so a read more!

i draw on a wacom intuos pen & touch medium that i've had....forever pretty much!! and the program i use is photoshop cs6, but absolutely any program will do since i have a pretty simple approach to my art :]

I KNOW IT SEEMS LIKE I DON'T.....but i do have other things i occasionally make art for! i really like drawing hal 9000 (a space odyssey) and am (i have no mouth and i must scream), and i also plan on drawing for persona 5 again because i've got ideas bubbling up for it. i just tend to be highly motivated to produce art for my current hyperfixation and can find it difficult to make time for other things since i can only draw so much

picking a favorite between v1 and gabriel is so hard...i usually have a character i can easily point to as a favorite even if i love several others, but these two have both made me so insane!! it genuinely depends on the day which one i like best, but overall it would probably be v1 because of my bias toward gremlin ais lol

i don't have any professional tips since i've never had actual schooling but i can tell you what works for me! the most important thing is working through a piece even if it feels like it's not turning out right - there is a certain point where things can get too frustrating and it's totally ok to drop something if it's getting to be too much, but generally if a piece is giving you trouble it's because you're pushing yourself so it's good to keep going!! i've had so many drawings i wanted to give up on in the sketching stage but powered through and loved the end result! also use refs and look for inspiration!! follow artists you love, always save images you find inspiring (could be their color palettes, their subject/design choices, their pose, anything!), and searching around on google images can be helpful, especially for references (and on that note, don't be afraid to take pictures of your own hand/pose in the mirror if google isn't helping i've done that plenty lol) and just genuinely draw what you really love because it'll make you draw a lot! just drawing for this game alone has improved me exponentially because i'm drawing as much as i can and pushing myself to learn new things simply because i love the characters that much. finally, draw for yourself - have sketches/warm ups that you don't post anywhere and have no intention of making into a "finished" piece. it's always really nice to be able to create without any expectations, pressure to make it perfect, or worry about how it will "perform" (in general try to never worry about this, but i know that can be tough!) your art is for you and so make it however you want!

[light-lanterne]

no one asked me but i don't care >:(

please, if i may, allow me to share some words about some of my favourite people this year. i must forewarn you, i most certainly forgot someone x.x i am feverish and have the memory of a goldfish, so please forgive me.

anyway, in no particular order:

@bottomlessabyssposts

hello, dearest nico! i'm,,, talking to you as i write this so this is a little awkward x.x anyway, thank you so much for letting me ramble for hours on end ! i'm sure it must get a little overwhelming at times, so i'm genuinely thankful for your endless patience and kindness. let it be known that you're an amazing writer and i can't wait for your next projects~ i'm a little angry at you though >:( that nier song you sent me is now stuck in my head and i can't get it out u.u anyway, thank you for letting me share my bad poetry attempts with you, and for helping me give shape to ideas that would otherwise be discarded simply because i don't know what to do with them. you're a great friend :] thank you for letting me talk to you

@smoosnoom

moon! there is much i could say about your writing but it'd probably take a lot of space so i'll just go ahead and expose myself: it is i, a friend-shaped krampus !! >.< i was too shy to talk to you then, but you're just so lovely and easy to talk to so thank you for being so welcoming and sweet :( i wasn't kidding back then, your writing is nothing short of impressive and all your stories leave me feeling like i just got a nice, warm hug :] as i'm sure it's become evident, i have too many words and this post is going to end up being huge so i'll leave it here. thank you again for being so friendly and for making such nice, beautiful stories~

@paladibun

jace ! it's been a bit, i hope things are going well for you~ so, i've actually been writing for quite a few years (for different fandoms) and never had someone made artwork for any of my stories. there will never be enough words to express how much that meant to me, and your continued support and encouragement are big reasons i didn't drop tde after the third chapter (i must go back to writing it x.x i promise i'm almost done with the next chapter). anyway, thank you so much for being so amazing to me, and thank you so much for sharing your beautiful art with us all. you're insanely talented, and every piece you produce is ridiculously unique and jaw-dropping <3

@ghoulsanderson

well, well, well. would you look who it is? if it isn't the person who inspired me to start writing after a two-year-long writer's block,,, no, but seriously, thank you so much for sharing your pretty stories with us! i adore your writing style and the way you get into mike's head is outstanding~ each of your works leaves me craving for more and each of them is even more enthralling than the last :] hope you've been feeling better ! and i hope we all get more vecna'd mike stories because, like you, i am feeling a slight withdrawal x.x

@lilacline001

lilac! hello! it's also been a bit since i saw you here on tumblr; i hope you've had excellent holidays! when i started making graphics, i had absolutely no idea what i was doing until i made the one for nocturne. it was an epiphany! a defining moment where i went from getting frustrated over never "getting it right", to having fun making stuff! so thank you for that :] your story motivated me in all the right ways~ speaking of,,, what an amazing tale! the way you write is heart-wrenching and endearing to no ends and the intrigue surrounding the universe you've created has me thoroughly hooked :] thank you for writing one of my favourite stories,,, ever, honestly,,, and i can't wait to see what happens next!

@bookinit02

haven! another one of my favourite authors! i started reading byler fanfics sometime in july and your works were some of the first that really got me into this little hyperfixation of mine~ (,,,should i be thanking you for that? x.x the brainrot is real and you're the one to blame /lh) anyway, yeah! your stories are amazing and unique and inspiring! i love the way you blend sweet fluff and soul-crushing angst so effortlessly. it hurts, but i love it ;-; i shall eagerly await for the next chapter of your retelling~ thank you for your incredible work, and for being so nice every time we've interacted !

@itsromeowrites

aha! another individual who's responsible for my hyperfixation! i don't have any evidence because ao3 decided to eat all of my bookmarks (what's up with that, anyway?), but 'a game of truths' was one of my first favourite fics x.x anyway, thank you so much for the amazing stories you write! just earlier i read 'playing pretend never felt so real' and i am not ashamed to confess that it had me giggling and smiling like a fool all the way through. you have a beautiful way of conveying the intricacies of your character's emotions and i can only aspire to be a tenth as good as you are in the future. thanks for the stories and for the sweetness ! i saw your post from yesterday (?) and it made me so happy ;-; thank youu

@astrobei

hello suni :] i've got a confession: i don't know why, but for a few months of my byler-spiral i,,, didn't read your works x.x no reason, i just,,, didn't. but everything changed (when the fire nation attacked yes, i know i'm not funny) and now they've become a great comfort for me! just recently i was having a really bad day and rereading some of your work really lifted my mood! the way you portray domesticity and feelings is incredibly realistic and endearing, and the introspective sections you write are so eloquent and descriptive~ thank you for the amazing works :D

@andiwriteordie

ahoy, oh wondrous andi! we haven't interacted much tbh, but every time we do you're incredibly kind and you make me smile a lot so thank you for that :] likewise, thank you for the astronomical amount of stories you share with all of us! there was this one post that went around the other day, about how some writers just seem to be made of stories. i believe there's no better way to describe you than that! every day, you share some beauty with everyone and it's downright scary how good everything is all the time :S more than that, however, it is inspiring to see so much creativity and you're constantly the reason new ideas pop into my head~

@perexcri

hello percy ! :] out of everyone on this ridiculously long list, i think your story, 'to hell and back again', is the one that had me laughing the hardest. my tummy even hurt at some points >.< it takes a lot of talent to create such an engaging story that seems to have the perfect combination of alluded-angst, humour and fluff~ i've read a handful of your other works since, and they're just as good, just as entertaining and heart-warming! you really are amazing and i can't wait to have some free time to read a few more of your stories hehe thank you for being so amazing, and for the huge honour that is making one of my graphics into an actual physical object! your friend (don't know if i should namedrop them) is amazing and it still baffles me to imagine something i designed being made into a physical thingy. thank you to both of you~

@byleresque

hi kat! i've only recently read one of your stories and i have already put your other two on my "to-read list" because your style is so nice and funny and charming :] it did ache a little though, but it was the best type of ache so i'm sure i'll enjoy everything else you put out~ thank you so much for the cuteness and the giggles, and for being so supportive and sweet ;-; good luck with writing your book! i'm sure it'll be wonderful~

@untitled-byler-blog

lilly! hi ! :D hope you're having a nice day! i'm,,, very quiet and awkward so i don't typically comment on your stuff, but lately i've been seeing a lot of sad posts from you :( and i just want you to know that you're amazing! your stories might be short, but it honestly makes me think of fairy tales and that's lovely~ i am incapable of brevity (clearly x.x) so it's confounding to see how someone can fit so much stuff in such few words no, seriously, how can you paint such a clear picture in the space it takes me to describe a singular hug? x.x it's impressive and requires a lot of talent (which i evidently lack) and i wish more people gave it a shot because each of your fics is a lovely nice ride~ anyway, all this is to say that you're awesome! i hope you feel better about this all soon and please remember you can send me any of your stories so i can share them and maybe help a little, okei? i'm cheering you on !

@rotisserie5107

helloo! so, we've never talked, i don't think. or maybe we have, i do have the memory of a goldfish so please forgive me if i've forgotten x.x anyway, hi~ just wanted to thank you for always being so nice and supportive of my stuff! your little comments always make me smile a lot :] that's all i wanted to say hehe

@souppiemousse

hi hii! may i call you souppie? or is there another name you'd prefer? :S we've never interacted, so i apologise if this is random :( just wanted to tell you that i adore your art~ it makes me super happy to see it and it has inspired me a lot lately when i'm writing~ so yeah, i just wanted to thank you for sharing your adorable art :] (okei, i'll stop being a weirdo now u.u again, sorry if this is icky)

okei, that's it! that's all the people who come to mind for now :S sorry if i missed anyone, i'm just tired and sick :( happy new year to everyone! i hope you accomplish anything you put your minds to, and i hope you smile and are happy today and every day this year :]

(i'm gonna take a nap now, this was supposed to be short x.x)

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

hiii the more i see your Asuka analysis posts, the more i think we would be such good friends

i'm known as The Asuka Guy in my friend groups because of how insane i am about him. i also have an in-depth analysis of him but it's locked away in my GDocs until i'm actually done writing it (it's probably breached 2k words, the entire document itself is an analysis for 5 gg characters, but i've only actually written stuff for Asuka so far) and the amount of things we agree on about him is just perfection

but alas i am too shy. aldkksm i hope you're having a great time though, love to hear more of your Asuka thoughts at any time

AAAAH thank you so much! You should give yourself more credit though- a google doc of character analysis??? That's that real and professional level of effort, I don't have the energy for that level of stuff so I respect that immensely that's super cool!! I prefer to just ramble on when a though pops into my brain before I forget it haha.

Asuka is a super complex and interesting character in Gear and I think it's sadly super easy to flanderize him or blame him for everything at first glance (which in lore is how he's intentionally written - to be blamed initially which makes sense LOL) but like any Gear character, there's more to it if you dive deeper! Same deal with Bedman, or Ky (greatest victim of flanderization imo).

Thank you so much for this ask! I'm really glad that there are so many Asuka fans on here that resonate with him like I do cause he's so cool. Also I totally get the shyness thing haha - I do the same thing with anon asks cause I'm afraid of coming off too strong or weird cause - I'm a weirdo! But my messages are open for anyone if they just wanna chat about Gear or have a question or anything - I've actually had many people just message me out of the blue like that and it's always pleasant and a good time. I can be kinda bad at responding in a timely fashion, but I will always try to get back to folks so feel free to pop in if the urge strikes! I like getting silly little messages so it's really no bother

[brekker-by-brekkerr]

hsmtmts s4 first thoughts

spoilers ahead!! you have been warned!

i have covid and my head feels like it's stuffed with cotton so this may be the most nonsensical of ramblings but here are some of my thoughts from a first watch:

"sometimes i think i'll be okay. then sometimes i stay awake for five nights in a row." oh ricky. relatable but also. how i worry for you

miss jenn and mr. bowen giving me the ick as always

oh thank you thank you thank you they're done

mr. mazzara being in a boy band was not on my season 4 bingo card

one of my ships is endgame!! let's go jenzzara <3333

mazzara saying these are her children yes thank you this is a family

i love ricky standing up to gina's mom bc i have things to say about this woman

ricky giving out cards in nini's place!!! my heart. so they still talk they're still friends I'm crying thank you for this crumb thank you

they are really redeeming ricky and gina for me guys i must say like they're crossing off all the boxes i needed crossed for them so what can i say

i never thought i'd see portwell interact again and I'm in so so much pain. i thought i was fine and moved on but stars no i love them i miss them

"we'll always have risotto right" got me crying. i know people think this was a stupid ship and it's a stupid show but they meant something to me. i love them and I'm so done w people online bullying anyone who mentions portwell (i have so many thoughts about how toxic things have gotten w the hsmtmts shipping discourse but that's another post). i like gina and ricky they're cool i am also allowed to miss portwell

antoine coming back and being like "don't tell anyone i was here i have a bad enough reputation with the police as it is" was also not on my hsmtmts s4 bingo card but then again, most of this wasn't

ej still getting a storyline!! him being a good teacher yes you're so right miss jenn!!!

i wanted ej to sing scream so badly but it wasn't going to work with this season. but ricky did eat that

actually love the way they're using hsm 3 scenes to have double meaning, like for example, the troy and miss darbus college discussion scene

big red's speech to ricky <3

i love this show. i love that the found family is here

antoine and big red????!!!!! this show is so out of pocket i love it

"just in case this is the last time we're all in the same room" i am not emotionally stable enough for this help

the way they're like endings are sad but also okay (idk how to articulate this but it's so good)

"i used to think that strength came from being fearless. but i've realized that it comes from overcoming fear not the absence of it." yes yes yes this is so important this has been one of the biggest life lessons for me

EJ GOT A GOODBYE TOO WHAT WHAT I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THIS

miss jenn being their mom the found family is so real

ricky's love confession was so so beautiful and the wildcats singing with them I'm so unwell

the wildcat fam being like our parents are getting together!! (about jenzzara)

why am i crying they're just running out of the school together

it's just that they're all together one last time and they're all so happy and i didn't think they would all be there i didn't think my boy EJ would be there and they're my little theatre found family i love them

oh that was such a perfect ending and now I'm sobbing i cant handle this

miss jenn getting choked up singing "because i knew you" got me again

after the mess of s3 thank you for this ending thank you <3

[burninglights]

Industrial Revolution & Pharmacopoeia Boom Time! Many thanks for enabling me, and putting up with my ramblings about nonsense areas of specialty.

NB: I am a biomedical science undergrad, not a medical historian. I've been reading books and academic texts from a young age and consequently retained a worrying amount of weirdly niche medico-historical knowledge. My particular areas of knowledge are the history of cancer therapeutics and the history of pharmacology (and battlefield medicine in Renaissance Europe, but that's beside the point). I'll link reputable sources in case you want to do some Actual Academic Reading of your own; please double check dates if you're planning to reference this post, especially for the government reforms.

First, some context. Medicine in the 1800s was dragged kicking and screaming into the predecessor of modern medicine, mostly by necessity. The development of the steam engine meant the rapid growth of industry thanks to automation that allowed for a much higher product output, and the railways that transported the workers to man said machines into centres of industry and cities.

Unfortunately, with mass movement of people comes disease, especially when the infrastructure for public housing and sanitation just doesn't exist.

With a few exceptions, most notably the philanthropic worker's housing programmes of Rowntree, Robinson, and Cadbury (yes, those ones), most factory workers not only worked incredibly dangerous and gruelling jobs but lived in crowded tenement buildings. These were ideal conditions for the spread of communicable diseases like TB, dysentery, cholera and typhus, all of which ran rife at one point or another.

The thing about communicable disease is that it's a universal affliction, and with the wealthy also susceptible to TB & cholera and the general unpleasantness of dumping all of your sewage directly into the Thames - something that lead to the Great Stink of 1854 - it was time for the government to begrudgingly wave goodbye to the policy of laissez-faire and actually start affecting sociopolitical change.

Cities forced preventative measures - the 1832 inquiry into the Poor Laws, the 1834 New Poor Laws, the Public Health Act of 1848, and the bigger, better 1875 Public Health Act - and leaps and bounds in the medical sciences (the birth of public epidemiology with John Snow and the 1854 cholera outbreak and Pasteur's confirmation of bacteria as the cause of disease in 1850 with germ theory) provided the first steps towards significant combative measures.

The boring bit is over! You came here for the drugs, and the drugs you shall get (metaphorically, of course).

Major leaps and bounds were being made in the chemical sciences too, especially when it came to isolating the active compounds of drugs and understanding how drugs affect people (mostly by medical professionals and the scientifically curious doing So Many Substances in doses and combinations that by all rights should have killed them, but the point stands).

Morphine was isolated in 1803, heroin trotting along not too far behind, and the invention of the hypodermic needle in 1840 made administering opiate drugs a damn sight more convenient. James Simpson proved that chloroform and ether were effective anaesthetic agents in humans in 1840.

(It is at this point I must shout out my boys James Lister, the pioneer of aseptic surgery and Ignaz Semmelweiss, who pioneered handwashing to combat childbed fever in Hungary and who was absolutely done dirty by his peers.

Their work is not strictly relevant to the pharmacopoeia boom, but they're the reason we have surgery that won't kill you dead of sepsis. Their work was, and is, incredibly vital to medicine.)

The reason you see all of those Jesus Christ That's Literally Just Potion of Insta-Death bottles of Victorian medicine is because fairly often, pharmacists with access to these isolated active agents would combine them with other drugs known to be effective in treating certain symptoms and patent them as cover-all medicines.

The medicalisation of addiction, understanding of addiction pathways and understanding of multi-drug intoxication didn't come along until later.

Sadly, overdose, especially in the case of children, wasn't all that uncommon.

You'll notice I said that treatment was primarily of symptoms, not of diseases.

Germ theory was still in its infancy at this point, and without the knowledge that specific microbes means specific disease, meaning specific treatments, the pharmacological M.O. was 'throw everything you've got at it and hope Something works'.

The Colonial Dick Measuring Contest that constituted Europe from around 1850 through to the beginning of World War One was a period known as the second Industrial Revolution, and also when synthetic chemistry, the idea that specific microorganisms = specific disease and the use of synthetic chemistry in pharmacology really kicked off in earnest.

The Bayer company of Germany became a pharmacological powerhouse, much to the disdain of the French (because their nations had beef, Pasteur & Erhlich spent their later years embroiled in a scientific pissing contest, which is incredibly funny but mostly irrelevant to this aside from the development of my favourite historical drug Salvarsan 606) and the British.

Side note: the Bayer company also refined methamphetamine drugs in the Weimar period in Germany, leading to the development of Previtin — the drug from that Finnish soldier post — that was given to the troops of the Third Reich. Norman Ohler's Blitzed is a really interesting account of drug development in Germany with the context of the world wars, if that's of any interest to you.

Anyway!

While the military arms race to build as many Dreadnought class warships as possible so that you'd have a bigger metaphorical dick than your neighbour loomed ominously in the sociopolitical background, a different, smaller kind of arms race was going on; the war against illness (with a side helping of German and French nationalism). A better understanding of medical chemistry meant that new pharmacological ground was being broken regularly; paracetamol was first made in 1877, Felix Hoffman, who worked for the Bayer company, modified salicylic acid to create acetylsalicylic acid (aspirin to you & me) in 1897.

The development of specific microbiological/vital staining techniques like Gram staining (yay!), trypsin blue stain (yay!) and Ziehl–Neelsen staining (absolutely yay - it was used to identify Mycobacterium tuberculosis, the bacteria responsible for TB) solidified the idea that specific pathogens = specific illness, which was incredibly helpful for drug development.

Arsphenamine, also known as Salvarsan 606 (my beloved!!!! this drug was the first synthetic chemotherapeutic agent and it's so fucking cool) was introduced at the beginning of the 1910s as the first effective treatment for syphilis. This ushered in the age of the sulfonamide antimicrobial drugs to treat infectious disease.

All of these new wonder drugs would be put to use - when available, which all too often they weren't - for casualties of war in 1914, when the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand ushered in a global conflict on a scale nobody could have imagined; the Great War, or WWI.

So yeah! that's a (not so) brief run down of the Big Drug Boom of the Industrial Revolution.

Thanks for tolerating me and I'm sorry for obliterating your dash. Double thanks and all of my love to @ronniebox, @hellolovelyscientist, @tsuyu-season, @yarnings, @starsong-dragonheart and @swords-n-spindles for being magnificently patient and enthusiastic and putting up with my nonsense.