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starchild--27 · 3 years

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Tag game

Thank you for the tag my Feli @kafkascupcake 💕

this will be such a challenge- I'm really bad at saying positive things about myself 🙊

Post your favourite/most recent photo of yourself

this is both recent and a favourite ^^

Favourite personality trait of yours

umm..(oh dear this is hard already...) maybe that i am very empathetic and thoughtful. can also be a curse of course if it turns into overthinking. but I like that I can put myself into other's shoes mentally and think deeply about what moves me.

Favorite body part

i think my eyes and lips are nice, hehe~

Favourite aesthetic/ style on yourself

uhh.. i don't really have a favourite here. I probably care too little about these things 😅

What are you most proud of?

that I've been able to cut someone from my life who hasn't been good for me. even though I still have regrets and second thoughts about that now, at the end of the day I remind myself of how I felt before the cut and know that it was the best choice I could have made at that time.

A trait people say they love about you?

I can't really say, because I'm super-bad at judging the way people perceive me 😅 but I just went to ask my sister and she says that she likes how helpful I am and that I'm mature for my age (which is something I get quite often, so that should be something people appreciate too, right? I dunno.)

A personality/ physical trait that you used to be ashamed of but now appreciate?

I was ashamed of the way I run. as a kid I was terribly knock-kneed and it only got a bit better after going horse riding regularly. but my legs' shape is still messed up and in elementary school kids laughed everytime I ran in p.e. class so that wasn't too nice. but I couldn't care less these days lol. i think appreciation would be said too much, but I'm pretty much ok with the shape of my legs xD

Favourite colour on you?

black is a classic, so maybe black. but really, it depends on the piece of clothing/accessory and my mood :D

Favourite clothing on you

jeans, overknee stockings, my yellow beanie 😊

An aesthetic you want to try but are too scared of

actually I always wanted to try that gothic stuff, like corsets and dresses with wide skirts. and also really punk-y stuff like these rad leather applications everywhere. but I've never been confident enough for that, so I only have a few items that can give myself a few touches of these styles. especially since a more "girly" and softer style is adding to my all-black-only-phase from three years ago these days and as I love both of these two extreme sides I try to find different ways to combine them 🖤💗

Things you like getting compliments on the most

my songs. without doubt. because even though my goal in creating is to express myself and to give my realest thoughts a sound. but I also know how moved other persons can be by music and if somebody enjoys what I made up from scratch and right from my head than that's the best thing that can happen to me. ❤

Lastly, do you love yourself?

well, I do not hate myself. and I think that's already worth a lot. I'm not sure if I ever loved myself, because I'm not even sure who that self is lol. but I have moments in which I am content with myself. I think that's the best term I can find for it. 😊

I’m tagging @byuns-coco @changshapatrol @heartcravings @kuanmian @guardians-of-exo - only if you're up for personal questions right now, of course.

#tag game

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yuvon-writes-letters · 3 years

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Good morning Yu, at least it's morning for me :)

I didn't really have enough energy to do..anything yesterday. I just sat there, slept, maybe I let Jake panic a little bit. And afterwards I am really sorry for that.

But I cannot change that now, can I? Jake wrote me, because he saw the picture the MWAF sent me (it's still weird to know that I am re-living this now. Just different.). And that I didn't reply wasn't the best either I guess. He texted me he got an unknown message; from a profile that only had golden pictures. Yeeeeah...

So the message said 'You are her second chance. Don't waste it.'

I just didn't have enough energy to reply at first. Then he called, and how he is, made me answer the phone 'forcefully'. I couldn't do much else than staring at the screen. Red eyes from crying a bit and quite a few bruises. And a mark where the bullet hit me. [A small raven is scribbled there]

Yes. A raven. I just can't anymore, it's so weird.

Seems like my golden friend couldn't reverse everything, but that's fine. I'm alive and that counts, right?

I only told Jake he shouldn't worry (of course he still did, I was dumb) and I'd text him this morning. That I did. I just didn't look at my phone again since, the first thing I did was writing this letter.

And for your tips, I will do that.

I am glad you and your Jake are talking again! I think that's good for both of you :)

And enough talking of me..That was more than enough drama here...

Happened anything with you? Any idea what you wanna do next? Any next steps you can take?

Lis🐾🔥

Lis,

Yeah. Sometimes, there are just those low energy days, especially after huge emotional things that just sap everything out of you. I'm an introvert, so I get them a lot specifically for socializing, but I do have more general low energy days too.

Wow, your entity is pretty straightforward. Honestly, that's sort of refreshing. They made it pretty much impossible for you to back out of telling Jake, too. I don't think you should put off telling Jake much longer. He'll be less upset if he hears about it from you than from some random unknown number with golden pictures.

And the sooner you tell him, the less upset he'll be. Trust me, I know.

You've still got bruises and a weird scar? Yeah, that kinda tracks. It's probably pretty hard to rewind time, plus release Jake from the stasis if the stasis isn't their doing. I'm not sure if you meant the red eyes from crying carried over from the last timeline too, but ultimately I don't think that exactly matters.

Weird that the scar doesn't look like a scar, though, but a raven. Either your entity was trying to cover up a scar so people wouldn't ask questions, the raven IS the scar, or there was some sort of symbolic/spiritual damage the entity couldn't heal that left a physical mark. ...Or maybe I'm just overthinking things.

Yeah... I'm glad we're talking again too. I hate holding onto grudges and things like that, but Jake needed to know that keeping things like that from me wasn't okay, so I sort of made myself hold onto it a bit.

Anyhow, nothing's really happened here. Jake suggested I check out the creepier rooms again, specifically the nicer looking one with the death symbols, and if anything starts happening I can run right back out. He pointed out that given the knife and the altar, if I'm meant to die, it isn't there.

I replied that it was pretty clear my entity didn't actually mind if I died, and that I've read enough of the Dresden Files to know that if something is too pretty or too good to be true (ie that room), it IS too good to be true, a monster is about to jump you, and you need to get the hell out of there.

I'm exaggerating, but that room is giving my DnD-er senses serious DNFW vibes. Maybe I'm just paranoid, but... yeah.

Hope your Jake takes the news well.

—Yuvon (I'd add Jake but he fell asleep while we were talking about this XD I need to have a talk with him about overworking)

(The letter tucks itself in the paper clip with the others.)

#duskwood letter game #yuvon writes letters #duskwood #duskwood game #duskwood everbyte #duskwood jake #lis

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kyunsies · 3 years

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hello hello mädchen <3 i hope you're doing good today and it is lovely where you are

i am slowly feeling better thank you - i'm still have trouble with sleep but i hope that it gets better soon. 😢😢😢 your words. you are super amazing too and so kind. i feel we have very similar tendencies too and it's a really good thing sometimes but can also be a not so good thing. idk if you've tried this but i'm trying to try less hard? not that like i don't want to work hard but it feels like sometimes i cross that line where it's too much and it actually makes it worse? like to let go enough to be able to appreciate my work as opposed to try and kill myself over it? idk i don't know if it will work but i want to try? i've just moved to a new agent/rep that will hopefully be better for my mental health just cause they seem nicer and will stress me out less.

your job sounds really thorough though. do you enjoy it? i 100% agree with you though! i like to buy good quality clothes too, but that's probably because i really don't buy loads either so each piece feels like an investment? what did you get? is it warm where you are? or have you been investing in more wintry stuff? i so so rarely get multiple versions of albums! i always really to but then i wonder if i;m going overboard and if i end up looking at the photobooks? i got the comma and xiesta photobooks last year and now i'm not sure if i wanna sell them on to a monbebe that will appreciate them more? hmm just me overthinking probably? leather platform shoes sound AMAZING. hahah i do the same though if i know i want to spend some money so i usually wait for the following month sometimes even though i know i'm gonna get the thing anyway? haha.

i'm back to heaven as my fave now!! i'm so so so looking forward to mx eng2 but i agree with you. like these careers are so so so short i'm sure they're aware of this and just want to live their career to their full.

ahhhhh 😢😢😢i love you lots and honestly i was so scared my last year of uni too. i don't think older generations get how much harder it is for people our age when we leave uni and stuff to just start a live that is nice and happy and fulfilling. so you're not alone and honestly even now i feel the same way just after i left uni. BUT you know you have the ability and that means you'll always be able to find a way. i was gonna buy five versions of an album today so i am deffo not the most responsible haha XD but thank you and also know that being insecure means that you're human and not an asshole because honestly all the people that were so overconfident that i've ever known (and i don't mean like - putting it on to help them get through stuff or performing but legit thought they were all that) have all been assholes. so it means you have a good heart and you will always find a way. i don't deserve being looked up to honestly but i'm honored you think i am <3 i'll always keep working hard - i wish i could give you a hug in person and let you know that things will be okay! please always feel ok to tell me your troubles and anything as well. am always here for anything you need too <3

love you lots and lots and lots xxxxx 🦢

babe i am finallyyyyyyyyyy answering this now ;___; i'm so sorry i kept u waiting but i wanted to answer this with all of my attention and not when i was busy bc that wouldn't have been fair to u :( so i hope u have been well and thank u so much for being patient !!! also u used my full name ........ what if i loved u with my whole heart <3

have u finally been able to get the rest you need ? i know work can keep our anxieties on high alert, which makes us even more inclined to burn out :( i hope u are able to rest well soon and not worry too much about work in the future ;____; but like i always say i'm really proud of u for pushing thru anything bubbie like u could easily just give up or have a mental block but if there's one thing i know both of us pride ourselves in it's always finding a way to handle stress no matter what the cost it does to our mental heath etc ....... which could be a bad thing but also there's lots to be said about how our work ethic is right ?? also LDSKFJS not trying hard .......... i think u mean like not stressing myself over every little thing right? there's a saying "don't cry over spilled milk" like CHILL it's okay it's just a mistake just clean it up and move on :') i really wish i can learn this mentality in the future ...... i just don't have those types of ppl around me in nursing school bc all of us are always on edge so i think i'm missing ppl like that in my life (besides my family but to an extent they can be classified as type A personalities too skjflfj) but anyways; u said u moved onto a new agency?? i hope that works well for u and they are able to allow u to grow and create things freely <3 good luck !!!

my job is just okay !! i won't be doing this in the future but it's nice to know that for a fact i don't think i could work in an office setting like this for the rest of my life HHH but it's okay, i don't mind organizing things for other ppl esp if it will help the company in the long run !!! and about my clothes SLKDFJ i totally agree !!! like we said we don't like our bank account hitting below a certain number so everything i buy is like an "investment" like u said hehe so most of the things i buy for example jeans are over $70 for me but i know i'll probably go a whole year not buying another pair and wearing those most likely everyday lol u know ? it's very warm where i am (most days lol) so i've been buying some light weight clothing !!! i don't like wearing jean shorts or anything like that, my fav material to wear in the summer is linen and cotton so i've been buying a lot of flowy linen pants <3 i got a pair from the store madewell, and bc i was on holiday this week i went to this one swimsuit store called everything but water and they sell pricier swimwear but i get so fed up trying to go to cheaper stores to look for swim tops bc i have bigger boobs hhhh and nothing makes me feel comfortable in my own skin so i don't mind spending money on something i feel comfortable in !! anyways i bought a bathing suit from there and then i think that's it ?? i was going to buy some jo malone perfume but it's so expensive so i didn't ;____;

U ARE BACK ON THE HEAVEN TRAIN WOO HOO <3 lol it is such a good song ....... i told u it's in my top 3 comfort songs <3 and about the eng album !!! yes i totally agree, i think they're aware of how much they're doing and honestly i think they should take advantage at every opportunity that comes their way as long as they feel that have control of the situation :)

and ALL OF THIS LAST MESSAGE MADE ME CRY WHEN I READ THIS :((( i tell my mom about all my anons lololol and she knows about u and ur work and i read this last part to her and she thought it was so sweet of u to say ;_____; it's kinda comforting knowing i am not the only one who has these doubts about the last year of uni :( i don't get much feedback from my family (besides my mom and grandparents) about if they're proud of me or not , i don't think they really get how hard it is for me being a nursing student but i just want to do well at whatever i do :( i want to be able to look at myself and go "hey u know what ur doing and ur doing really well".... i just hope i get there someday ;____; i have so many anxieties and maybe i need to talk to someone about them bc i think they hinder my nursing performance rather than help me but just knowing someone like u cares out there ........ i mean u know me but we have never met and u are so sure about my abilities and i can't tell u how thankful i am for someone like u <3 truly brings tears to me eyes <3 i want to give u a hug too :( thank u for ur kind words always i could cry right now ;_____;

#asks #💥 anon #angel thank u so much for being patient i know i kept u waiting for a little while #i love u and thank u for always being here for me :( i love u like no other :(#pls take care of yourself this week for me okay? i'll be here if u need it !!!! love u !!!!!!!

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one-piece-dumpster-fire · 4 years

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QueennNnn!! Your art isn't awful! Its friggin beautiful and you can't change my mind!!💖💖💖💖💖 Also, while I'm sending an ask, can I have some more information about your adorable babies👀👀 (I wanna make more drawings for them uwu💕)

Ahhhh alrighty alrighty, I’m not gonna argue with you sweetie hehe😂💖! I’m just,,, super happy that you all like my art so much huhuhu, and thank you for always being such a dear to me💖💖💖!!!

AahhaAAAAh, about the babies—-🙈🌠💖! I’d be absolutely honored and delighted to tell you more about them!!! I don’t know if I should put this under a cut or not though because…. phew…. it’s gonna be a bit long xD (and I also don’t have any good drawings left of them and unfortunately need to use some terrible old sketches because??? I don’t draw our children often enough??? Pffff that still needs to change💕)

here’s a warning for me being indulgent and swooning over my Crachelle babies up ahead xD!

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Trifle

She’s a true Daddy’s girl through and through xD Her hair color is actually a very light pink but with slightly purple undertones, basically a mix of Angel’s and Big Mom’s hair- aaaand she got my bright, blue eyes😂 Trifle is a very open-hearted and kind girl, although she tends to be a bit too dreamy sometimes! Her father is her ultimate hero and she wants to be just like him while growing up. Many of her clothes are actually mirroring that as well, and she even started to put a special kind of fire-crackers into her hair to further showcase her close bound with Papa Cracker lol. Unfortunately though… she never really knows what she actually wants and is more than once lost in her own little fantasies, which can occasionally come to bite her. Flambe is Trifle’s favorite aunt and often helps her when she’s dealing with yet another girl crush again huhu xDD

Fun fact: when she was little she used to plant ‘magic seeds’ (rocks) in our garden, hoping that they would grow to give her a little sister someday. (yes, Cracker and I really regret watching Thumbelina with her)

Pretzel

Although Trifle tries to imitate her Papa as good as possible, it’s actually Pretzel who is stuck with resembling Cracker the most- but only appearance-wise! As you can probably tell, he’s the spitting image of his dad… minus the lack of eyebrows and some other little details haha xD Pretzel is a bit of a shy boy who tends to overthink certain things and often has some difficulties with making new friends- but once someone spends a bit of time with him, he truly thaws up to be one of the coolest people around! His relationship with his father is rather strained, mostly because Cracker has many high expectations for his oldest son, and if he doesn’t live up to them…. well, things can get a bit problematic xd Pretzel also got a hearing problem and communication is a little difficult, but he’s always doing his best to let people know about how he feels! His favorite uncle is Oven, who often helps him with training and getting stronger.

Fun fact: Pretzel actually dislikes his name. A lot. The fact that he was basically named after a sword constantly haunts him, even if he tries not to think about it lol

Eclair/Anne

Nothing about her ever stays the same for long, since Eclair is a true free spirit! Her natural hair color is a rich brown with some lilac undertones, but it can be rather hard to tell because she loves to change it on an almost monthly basis! Out of all the siblings she’s probably the smartest and most cunning, and always knows just how to get her way xD Eclair often pretends to be naive or even somewhat stupid so people will leave her alone or to avoid certain duties lol, but depending on the situation she might actually show her true colors to help those that are dear to her! She prefers to do things that bring her fun or pleasure rather than strict chores, and one of her favorite hobbies is painting pictures to express herself! She’s the anti-social bee of the family, although her parents often nudge her to be a bit more open and find friends xD Her favorite uncle is Mont-d’Or and she also enjoys spending time with Amande, since they can both understand her more introvert behaviour and love for artistic outlets!

Fun fact: she’s actually a bit short-sighed and supposed to wear glasses, but she never does! And if her parents were to ask her about it, she’ll simply respond and say that she ‘lost’ them again lol

Dodger

Did you ever ask yourself… ‘what if there was a kid that’s basically just like Cracker, only 100 times worse?’ no? Well too bad, because that is exactly what you’re getting with Dodger! Oh boy, where to start… as far as appearance goes, he’s a pretty solid mix of his parents- his hair is similar to mine (only more wild and spikey) while his eyes and face resemble his father. But his personality is just…. too much to handle for the both of us! Dodger is truly the definition of ‘troublemaker’, as there is not a single day where he doesn’t get caught up in some drama! He’s an unstoppable bundle of energy and keeps his good traits hidden for most of the time, since it’s soooo much more fun to just get on people’s nerves xD To make matters worse, he also has a deep love for stabbing things. Mostly inanimate objects though, but still!!! Best be careful around him! Other than that, he actually dreams of becoming strong and powerful like his Papa, and sometimes sneaks into the Seducing Woods to train his ‘intimidation tactic’ on some unsuspecting homies. (He basically wants to be able to make them wither away in fear, similiar to what Cracker did xD) His favorite aunt is Angel, whom he always plots new pranks with!

Fun Fact: His relationship with his Pa is pretty good, but there was one incident that left Dodger slightly fearful of him…

Last but not least, Cherry!

Cherry is,,, the currently reigning baby of the family- she’s just,,, hhh,,, so tiny and precious ;^; With her big ruby eyes and bubblegum-pink hair she really looks like a wildcard, but there is at least one physical similarity she shares with her father- the lack of eyebrows xD Cherry loves her parents more than anything (and tbh gets a bit coddled by us too), but that doesn’t mean she won’t get into trouble! She’s an adventurer at heart and likes nothing more than to run into a forest, befriend some random animals, and discover new things! Together with her pet bunny Bun Bun she’s ready to take on any adventure, and of course, be home again by dinnertime!

Fun fact: when she was still a very smol baby, her older brother Dodger once tried to ship her off to an orphanage because her babbling/crying was too loud lol

in conclusion: I love my babies very much, thank you xD And I definitely need to draw them more often!!! hhhHHh there are a few small comics I’m already working on but psssssttt xD Also I’m really sorry for the bad sketches on this one, I just don’t have enough good pictures aaahh

#i hope this is enough information??? xDD #long post #michelle answers things<333 #michelle and her bestie<3 #selfship #selfship community #crachelle #me and my biscuitdaddy<3 #and babies lol #crachelle babies #charlotte cracker #terrible sketches #michelle's awful art #for real this time #lol #op #fankids #oc x canon

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uygmoeb · 2 years

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Ahh I know but still, it is ok to not reply right away and don't mind the extra wait (or unless my ask suddenly gets send to pluto and never returns xD) but I am happy to hear today is a better day for you! As it should be my bean, showers and specifically warm ones are the best for sure! Its why I take a little bit too long with them dhshdh oopsie.

Oohh well I'm no expert with jobs as I have yet to get one myself but I do always like to say, you happiness is important so if you do want to go back to the old one that is fine (of course easier said than done)

Jdjsjdjs oof yeah it can be like that, especially if you are new to the fandom as well and you're like a goldfish the entire time haha. I'm sure the gifts you made are amazing, I can very much understand the like, feeling of not feeling the most proud when it comes to creating something (especially of you say make gifs on photopea and not ps like myself) but it is the thought that counts! You put the time and effort and that is important! If someone has a problem with that, well slap them with a fish. They are not worth your time tbh. I do think pre-planning helps if you are in more than one! You can start with a basic idea of like to do or you like doing and then slowly build the idea as you get to know the person!

Right!? I know it is silly to think big cc on here you cannot talk to them but seeing as some of them are like, flippen taemin level but for tumblr it is a bit scary to talk with them at first xD but once you kinda get in the flow it isn't scary (I say this as I talk on anon for like all of the popular blogs lol) nice anons are more needed indeed. Its just wholesome to make someone just smile with a nice message and no I completely understand! Welcome to the club of overthinking auggie xD this is the cool kids club djjahdjs jokes aside I get that, especially if you can't help but think how it sounds like does it sound too sarcastic or may it sound a bit off? I don't mind long asks (as you can tell lol) because idk, I like to ramble and bounce off people when on the roll lol

Ok that shall be all, I hope you have a good day today! Stay warm and we are legit like 5 days away from the holidays ahhh ~moa Santa

i take like.. hour long showers some days it just happens i swear hskfdjfk but how've u been my love?? i know u finished all ur gifts so what else have u been up to? anything fun?

ah well i would go back if it didn't require taking a pay cut, losing manager status, and uh. moving 14 hours away from where i am now lmao i would move back if i thought i could do it by myself probably.. but that's not in the cards for me anymore and its ok, ive got a job here now and i think things are getting better

so my problem with making my gifts is my art program sucks so bad.. it leaves everything pixelated and messed up if im not super duper careful with it.. but it was free and ive had it since i was 12 probably?? and uhm change is difficult for me but honestly just u saying that made me feel better and i think im gonna go work on the first one to make it better if i can so wish me luck <3 i bet it also helps if u dont procrastinate too lol bc i procrastinated so hard and now here i am jdhfkdhs

yeah ! at some point i had to start being like 'they're just people too' like.. theyre not just a cc theyre a whole person whos probably really nice thats always been my problem anyway is thinking theyre like... above the average person, or even that they arent people kind of yknow??? does that make sense to u? sorta like the same thing some people do to idols i guess but also not quite?? idk its hard to explain how i think but i tried hskfhsl

i would like my one way ticket out of the overthinking club pls ive been overthinking for years my brain hurts :/ nah bc sometimes when i text ppl or anything like that im like. what tone am i giving rn are they gonna think im being an ass when im just joking or?? and thats why i love tone indicators so much now bc it makes it so so much easier for me and so many others too and ngl i actually prefer long asks like all the time. so much easier to ramble and pick up things to talk about which is something i've adored about yours from day one, i feel like its always been super easy to talk to u and i love that so so much u also always have made me feel comfy with u, like almost instantly too and i usually have to warm up at first

not u opening my eyes to the fact we're five days away from the holidays technically only four as im answering this but eh are u excited tho?? bc i can say that i am, i have so many gifts to give i'm so tired of waiting ! albeit i do need these days to finish a few lol besides the point ig

also adding this on about an hour and a half after i initially answered bc guess what!! i finished my gift for the event finally!! im actually rlly happy with how they turned out now after fixing some stuff :)

#answered #<3 —moa santa

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ersatzangel · 3 years

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you should only not say something if you’re saying it to hurt someone. tumblr is more a blog with sm features than true sm, but if the feelings you’re getting are the same, that’s horrible. sorry you’re feeling that way. for me tumblr is my last connection to fandom besides fic. and yes, some days i think i just stay for the art, but when i’ve left in the past i always have fomo. even if it’s just about events. ‘when’s the bb? is there even one this year? what event is new this year? holiday exchanges?’ etc. sorry to hear about your sleep. i have no advice, just yana. what did you plant? :) ty for asking, the art is pretty. from harringrove mushrooms to chibi destiel. do what you need to find your bliss s2s2

by bliss I meant, do what you need to be happy. Life seems long, but it is so short. any bit of happiness is worth striving for. if leaving sm helps, you would be missed, but i think everyone would understand. - - sorry anxiety made me replay what i said a few times already and this part was the worst part. felt i wasn't clear at all. - - and your update: your art is lovely, but don't feel /pressured/ to produce. i dont want you taking on that stress. s2s2

sorry, last one. - - re your tags update: i am not good at talking but you are easy to talk to when i try. and if even i find you easy to talk to, i /know/ others do too. sorry, again no advice, here i'm lost to how to help ;] - - may your evening be better than your morning s2s2

Gah, sorry! I basically feel like I'm on the verge of falling asleep all day (except when I go to bed, where I'm wide awake) and I mainly use this tumblr on my phone, in a private window, and my phone really freaks out when I try to type anything longer than one sentence lmao

But, yeah, I guess with personal stuff I don't feel like it's fair to burden people who are just here for fun fandom stuff and don't want to see my whigneing. And for fandom I don't really feel like I have the right to say anything??? With this blog because I just watched the show on my own for so long and so was never a part of the fandom (and don't really feel a part, now) and for my other fandom blog because I never made enough effort to be part of the fandom. IDK

ANyway, I know you were saying that in the context of my last reply but I just kinda went off on a tangent as usual Yeah, it's more or less my last connection, too, and I definitely get FOMO but the feelings I get from Tumblr are probably worse sometimes??? IDK I'm just very depressed at the moment and I don't want to alienate *everyone* by being a complete misery guts (...which is *exactly* what I'm doing now!) (also is there a gift exchange??? lol) Oh, I planted a Kangaroo paw! Hopefully it doesn't die haha I'm not exactly a green thumb XD and, ooh, that art all sounds lovely! I totally got what you meant, it's all good! <333 but I also get the anxiety overthinking because I’m currently re-reading this and going ‘maybe I should’ve just not…said this’ lol and yeah life is definitely short, for sure! And I feel like I've already wasted so much of mine focussing on the wrong things instead of what makes me happy!

and, awww, thank you! I really wanted to do something for every day of Suptober excepforone but, yeah, I just can't keep up with those things! lol And thank you again <333 that means a lot, I appreciate it! I don't really have many people to talk to, these days, but that's very nice to know! And I always enjoy talking with you too :) sorry for being a sad sack again - womp womp

Buuuuut on the bright side I think I have a Halloween fic idea I can maybe write in the next week to post by Halloween??? (it involves Deanna Campbell because...I wanted it to lol)

and I hope you’re doing well and enjoying whatever you’re up to 😊

#i actually rewrote this to be LESS morose if you can believe it????#negative #personal #asks #i tried to be less of a downer and more concise this time idk why i can't just...not say so much :S #also i typed this as an email to myself because of said phone issues and now there are weird extra spaces between some words i think???#...is there a holiday exchange???#long post

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