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simplepotatofarmer · 1 year

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people grieve and heal in different ways, by the way. one person may find comfort in the constant reminders of their lost loved one while another may need to carve out a place where they can forget, just for a little bit. neither is wrong, by the way, and i think it's fucking weird i'm seeing people moralize other people's grief.

#i'm too tired and sick for this shit #i have a fever of like. 101.5.#and once again the dsmp fandom is going back and forth invalidating people #fandom critical #loyal talks about stuff and things

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ruffboijuliaburnsides · 2 months

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Dear every person calling Israel "colonizers":

What is the shelf life of indigenousness? How long does it take for a people to lose the right to claim their homeland as their homeland? How long until Indigenous Americans no longer have a claim to the land the US exists on?

You are required to answer this question if you want to truly claim Jews are colonizers. Because I guarantee no definition you come up with to make Jews colonizers won't also erase the indigenousness of other groups you claim to support. So either you don't believe in those groups' indigenousness, or you're just denying Jewish indigenousness arbitrarily because you want an "acceptable" reason to hate them.

Or you could just stop saying that. The Israeli gov't can still be doing shitty things and Palestinians can be indigenous without you denying Jewish indigenousness. Multiple things can be true.

#antisemitism #because yes: this is antisemitic #there's a lot of shit going around that I'm too tired or not comfortable tackling #I am specifically sick of this one particular antisemitic claim tho

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star-trek-dumb-comics · 7 months

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Ok so I finally watched Prodigy ! And it was surprisingly good. This is obviously a kids' show but I ended up being pretty invested in the story. The main character started as Ezra Bridger-ass annoying but he's grown on me. Genuinely I think this might be the best new trek show with Lower Decks lmao. It even got me caring about what happens to CHAKOTAY of all things !

Also it had GREAT alien rep omfg there were so few humans I LOVE THIS SHIT !!! especially UFP founding members rep ahhhhh !!!!!!!!!! I've been wanting this for YEARS they did it for me

#+ Enterprise aliens !!!!! Xindi ! Denobulan !!!!#But on the other hand I hope they won't go too “voyager season 8” in season 2 - I mean not more than season 1 #since there's the EMH and apparently even Harry Kim will show up #I still want this to keep it's identity I'm sick and tired of new trek leaning too hard on previous shows #anyway nice show and love the art style #plus Threshold got a mention so 100/10 #also that episode with the galaxy quest-ass aliens was hilarious with the TOS impersonations especially Kirk lmao #(not me complaning about fanservice then straight up saying “I loved this episode where they did fanservice !!!!”)#star trek #prodigy #pro #edit : oh I also hope to god they won't tie in to Picard shit please I want to keep ignoring that show please

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stars-n-spice · 6 days

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CRYING

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT MAN FUCKING HELL!!! FUCK THE BAD BATCH AND THEIR FUCKING WHITEWASHING!!!

I JUST SAW THE WHITEST TIMESKIP OMEGA FANART!! AND THAT'S FUCKING SAYING A LOT CONSIDERING HOW WHITE SHE ALREADY LOOKS!!! AND THE FACT THAT I'VE ALREADY SEEN SO MUCH WHITE ASS LOOKING OMEGA!!!! LADY WAS NEARLY AS WHITE AS THE BACKGROUND CANVAS!!!

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cinnamon-phrog · 2 months

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I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :<#i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely-#-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things.#i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly'#i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child.#i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake.#i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life-#will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

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jackivist · 7 months

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Sigh. Daily reminder that us otherkin and fictionkin are our own people and that we cannot control who we kin!!! WHO WE KIN DOES NOT MAKE US BAD PEOPLE REGARDLESS OF OUR KINTYPE!!

#fictives and irls too. like. please. be more sympathetic.#im just so SICK AND TIRED of well-known people treating us like shit in my fandoms. I'm SO FUCKING DONE.#fictionkin #otherkin #plurality #irls #fictives #irl community #introject #mark's thoughts #i cant believe this is still an issue man #LIKE IF i could control it i would not be half of my kins

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hazellblogs · 4 months

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'Cause if you're not really there Then I don't wanna be either I wanna be next to you Black and gold, black and gold, black and gold 🖤💛

#I'm too sick and tired to battle tumblrs resolution bs #i'm usually bad at putting a playlist together for anything but these two make it easy #i know it's a song about god and shit but these guys found it in each other so whatevs #i'm gonna lay down now everything hurts #cyberpunk 2077 oc #cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #kerry eurodyne #talbot greene #talbot x kerry #otp: four leaf clover #virtual photography #my vp #my edit

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nysus-temple · 7 months

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Odysseus slander in class today. and it was because. because of the Telegony. the Telegony. out of all things. wee woo wee woo

#i've been having an *awful* week and i'm incredibly tired #i usually don't give a shit about slander in. tumblr #but in an *university*#look. i was sick. with three hours of sleep. a latin exam. and had to bring my cat to the vet. and had a lipothymia too.#i was NOT in the mood to hear a grown-ass man mocking my blorbo #at least do it for the right things. god fucking dammit #anyways. uhhhh. sorry about the lack of essays #as i said. i'm not doing well right now. for november i will have most likely regained my energy back

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louderfade · 3 months

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what we need mental health services to offer is an anger room. where you can go to just scream and break things. like stock it with 20 bucks worth of cheap plates and let patients smash the shit out of them. howl and pound on the walls until they're relieved/satisfied. maybe THEN when my mind is cleared of negative electricity we can discuss the sources of the suffering. like when i did equine therapy (which is the only therapy that ever helped me) they leave you all alone with the horses for an hour and then at the end you verbally process for five minutes. when you're at peace and thinking clearly. smashing objects is a great way to achieve clarity of thought. i speak from years of experience. just ask the holes in my walls.

#i'm not going back to therapy until they offer a rage room treatment option #the last time i drank liquor i scared some children by sobbing in public and went to the ER only #to walk out before the mental health team arrived i am tired of mental health teams #then there's shit like betterhelp shoving ads in your face and betterhelp might be the most evil thing to come out #of the last decade preying on desperate vulnerable people is so gross it's like when the cops cut holes in the tents of #the homeless like what is actually wrong with you people are you even human or did the modern world kill the #soul-like lifeforce deep inside you what happens in your head when you fall asleep at night i swear too many people #have been gutted of their humanity and are just zombies following orders they are so dangerous they keep us all sick #on campus someone wrote 'it's ok to be angry' on a public wall with a sharpie and i love this stranger bc #it's more than ok. it makes sense. rage is the proper response to the current reality.#rage and substance abuse

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bespectacledbun · 10 months

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somehow. somehow. I have more shit for obsidian, a country that CANONICALLY DOESNT HAVE SHIT than I do for benitoite, the "nation of brine and barter"

anyway does anyone wanna offer suggestions on what else benitoie's local economical industries could be cause my brain is fucking fried coming up with all of this

#ikepri worldbuilding tag #I just know my followers are sick and tired of seeing this fucking list for the third day in a row #I promiseeeeee I will shut up. Soon. SOON!!!!!#I'm gonna put all this shit on a separate blog specifically for ikepri worldbuilding and research #that was I'm not being (too) irritating to my followers on here #terrorizing people's timelines with homegrown industries and guild research ahdhdfjfgjhkghjj

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moonlit-orchid · 21 days

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When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant.#im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something-#-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again.#plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal)#and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some.#but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn?#and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON.#I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

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togepies · 5 months

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ok where can I find & listen to lesser known artists bc spotify is just......shoving t*ylor s*ift in my face and I'm tiRED OF IT

#i don't even LIKE taylor swift i'm so god damn sick and tired of her #i'll take recs too if you have em #music i like is like....glass animals - alt-j - hippo campus - cage the elephant - modest mouse - future islands #fruity shit

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fiona-fififi · 6 days

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Yeah. Okay. I'm done.

Have fun, y'all.

#i appreciate the concern everyone but i'm fine i promise #i'm just sick and tired of the way people in this fandom treat each other #and i'm no longer interested in taking part or contributing to it at the moment #that might change in the future but right now i'm done #but i'm fine #just not interested in interacting with a bunch of people being shitty to each other over differences of opinion on fictional characters #i'm too old for that shit

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c0nes · 1 year

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#two mimir #tandemaus #pokemon #pokemon sv #pokemon gen 9 #sorry bintendo i pirated this game but i wouldve bought it if i knew it was such a good game at the end #that ending was actually so good id put it as my favourite pokemon game #and the music holy fuck my ears were blessed #okok next time I will buy the new game #shit made me crave sandwiches so bad then i made my own bread and got sick of sandwiches after 2 weeks #now im getting tired of caesar salad #i need more recipes for work #i promised myself i would never buy another drink at gongchass after they fired me but then they released some cute ass 3d keychains #I'll just get my bf to do it #i wanna play the next gow #please let me refund aitsf 2 i dont feel. like playing it but steam wont let me #idk why I'm too lazy to play it even tho the games expensive ash #need more multiplayerr games to play with friends #terraria got boring after 2 days #zomboid is good #plate up got boring after a week #where is my motivation to play apex #raft is dead #devour need more maps #no im not going to play LOL or AOE #i wish i celebrated christmas #if I could experience something again it would b my childhood xmas spirit and mythical-y energy #i feel like ill always be mentally stuck at 17 #how bout i physically go back to 17 too i dont want to start paying my fuel #shit goes down so fast

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tenspontaneite · 1 year

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Bruh people aren't fucking lying about COVID fatigue goddamn

#covid #life of sponty #ive been sick since i got back home on 12th #infected probably 1 to 3 days before that #so im coming up on 2 weeks of covid #and right now the worst symptom remaining is the fatigue and exhaustion #i got up and showered and sat at my desk for 30mins and now I'm so exhausted i have to go back to bed #it's effort to stroke the cat #the other day i did a small physical exertion and afterwards was so intensely tired it tooo about 6 hours of recovery #just to be able to lift small objects without dropping them #shits fucked bruh #also I'm getting the classic taste fuckery and bitter and alkaline flavours are literally making me choke #it's wild #desperately hoping it doesn't last because i really dont want to lose onions forever #i love onions #i was scared for a second that I'd lost mango too but it turns out it's just the mango skin flavour. the flesh is fine #cough was only monstrous for like a day #rest of the time it's not been any worse than ive had from normal nasty coughs. pretty manageable #the fatigue is wack though #I've never been this weak before #it's kind of fascinating from an authorial perspective #this is going to be useful experience for the writing banks

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bootyful-seventeen · 7 months

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i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

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