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transryanguzman · 4 months ago

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Can I ask what it was that changed your mind? Or was it more than one thing? I'm so curious because I suspect a lot more people are about to as well...

well, idk a lot of things. like, mostly i've always been a Buddie First person. Like it was really the ship that got me into fandom, and I've always suspected there was a chance we'd get canon buddie in the end (i think at the lowest end of the scale, i was giving it a 50/50 shot and never less than that). i didn't mind tommy at all, and i even liked the pairing and enjoyed buddietommy AND i actually enjoy eddietommy as well (i actually think it's my favorite of the Tommy Ships and I have some friends that write really really great eddietommy fics that i definitely will still read).

i honestly have had some mixed opinions about all of the fandom drama type stuff - like i have people blocked on both sides who said things that didn't sit right with me so it's not so much that. i mostly tried and still try very hard to keep out of That Part of it because I just don't see any reason. There are always gonna be shitty people in all parts of any fandom I don't particularly see any reason to single out an entire shipbase for the actions of a handful of people who don't have lines or understand that harassing real people over fake ships is wrong.

after confessions, i think bt just didn't really hit the same for me maybe? like i was sad for a minute and i thought i might miss tommy as a character, but in the end i barely even noticed all that much, and the break up was kind of like eh, for me. like i liked it for what it was and then it was done. not to mention, in general, there was a lot of negativity and just downerism over there anyway - suddenly everyone hated the show and Had Never Liked It To Begin With and it had Always Been Bad. Half of the BT fans were like Oliver is a Horrible Diva Who Just Wants Attention. Tommy/Lou got me in teh divorce. Etc etc. It was kind of a nightmare and just sucked the fun out of everything for me, personally. I don't begrudge anyone it didn't do that for. Everyone should have fun in fandom the way they choose, but that's not fun for me.

And then 8x09 happened and it just felt like buddie happening was imminent and i got really excited because that's legit what i've always wanted (and was never quiet about! i never denied it! i always said it was what i wanted!), and i followed some more buddie shippers and just got more and more excited after that ep.

and then i started to lose followers/mutuals lmao. like it started with one person and some vague posts about people being delusional, and then i just decided i didn't care. and then i got an anon asks telling me i was "hanging out with toxic buddies" and they were "ashamed we were ever mutuals" and i was like ah i see this is what it's gonna be like. i am just posting about the ship i like the most and being excited and whimsical and clowning about it with some friends and this is what happens. so i just decided i didn't care anymore and really embraced it.

because to be honest, i'd rather be a ridiculous delusional buddie shipper than the kind of person who unfollows and blocks their friends because they like another ship better, and i think after last week's episode i'm just fully all in and i didn't really love the way tommy acted about all the eddie stuff anyway (like i really really thought making a celebratory claim about the man you're trying to get back together with's best friend who you KNOW he has a really deep relationship with is a dick move), so i just. idk. and i've found that buddie fandom has been more of a fun and positive experience.

and i'm sure there will be people here who won't like me because i was on that side of the fandom for a long time and because there's a part of me that definitely still finds tommy interesting as a character, even though i don't want him dating buck at all anymore, and that's fine too, but i am fully all in on buddie now. it's what i want to see. some of it has to do with fandom, but most of it has to do with actual canon and the fact that it's always what i wanted, and it was just fun enjoying buck kissing a boy for a while, but now i feel like it's time for him to be kissing THE boy, ya know? like tommy helped him get here, but eddie is his person. like really for real his person, and i won't apologize or feel bad for feeling that way and thinking that's what the text is telling me.

IDK if any of that makes sense. I just hope I don't lose any buddie followers for any of what I'm saying. lmfao

did that even answer your question?

#like tbh i'm really afraid of making friends in this fandom rn #because it just feels like you will disappoint them anyway and they'll drop you #if you have an original thought or you don't follow the status quo or the group mentality #that's just how it feels #i'm not trying to insult anyone or whatever but that's how *i've* felt in the last few weeks #because i don't feel like i've been mean about anything #i've got out of my way to tag any post that felt remotely anti tommy or anti bt #and yet it didn't really do any good because i lost friends anyway!#so idk #whatever #that's where we are #buddie #buddie canon 2025 for ME #answered #anti-bucktommy #anti tommy kinard #(just in case!)

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catbyte404 · 1 month ago

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smoll theory i wanna let out before it's too late: (assuming Black Sapphire is the exception) I predict that Sugarfly cookie will be the genuinely good beast yeastian in the same vein as Peach blossom and Young Kulfi.

You sent your theory in before it was too late but I answered too late, sorry about that. ^-^; I won't say much since I've already played all of episode 10 but that's a good theory, I think going in I wasn't expecting much from her since we saw her in episode 9 but she was just kind of there. Figured that may be the case again the next episode, maybe she'd be a neutral character or something.

#ask #I felt it'd be rude not to answer this since I was the one who answered it late #also wanted to respond to some degree while also not blasting spoilers since it's only been (almost) a day since the update #from now on I'll be sure to check tumblr during maintenance just in case I get any asks #will say this in the tags since idk how many read the tags but after ep 10 I like sugarfly #also got a couple pieces of art I started working on after finishing ep 10 so exited to work on/finish those :)

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nabaath-areng · 4 months ago

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Been impossible to take photos of these nails due to horrible weather lighting, but since it was specifically inspired by Ieeha I needed to figure out a way... thank you closet for having surprisingly decent lighting and dresses for being a surprisingly decent backdrop!!!

#dont mind the wrist cuffs I just felt they helped todays joint fuckery LOL #while making it more aesthetically pleasing to look at #i hate being isolated at home i wanna go OUT and i wanna DRESS UP #lmao this was gonna be about the nails #accidental peek into silvis other hobbies (nails and egl. idk how tumblr acts with the actual name as a tag these days)#(so egl just in case to be safe)#from left to right the dresses are AP rose museum+infants little ladies portrait+AP wonder gallery&antoinette decoration #i used to be more into gothic (or kuro rather) but that was like over a decade ago #the last couple years ive been slowly accumulating a sweet/hime ish wardrobe #just a pity i havent been able to leave the house..... 😔 heres hoping we can change that!!!!#ANYWAY. NAILS. the polish is lurid laqcuers 'waiting for someone who never comes'#that and several other shades SCREAMED ieeha hence i got them.... this polish is reflective but idk if i can include video from phone #just know that its EXTREMELY pretty and even prettier irl and looks like golden dust in water in the bottle #so yeah..... shimmery sparkly blue beautiful + pearls butterflies lace? TIS IEEHA #not his only vibe but a major one nonetheless. i have other ideas i wanna try someday #(also for some reason my nails ALWAYS looks way shorter in photos than they are irl. idk why)#nor do i know why im mentioning that. probably because i spent so much time filing and shaping and you cant even TELL #anyway. im rambling. feeling better now than before though so i count tjat as a win #not ffxiv #silvi talks #(also these nails took me 3 hours ish. cause i fight against the flesh. but also its like 8 coats.#base coat + 3 polish coats (its very sheer) + glitter coat + top coat #also rip at all the phone typos for all the tags #and skipped words #infanta*** smh

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maraschinotopped · 8 months ago

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stumbling into the tumblr blog covered in blood. hey guys i think pendog creative library is pretty cool. you should check it out.

#pendog creative library #[cherry on top]#HELLO PENDOG FANDOM. IS THERE ANYBODY IN HERE.#or would it be pcl? eh. pendog just sounds nicer to say compared to pcl.#trying so hard to make sure these tags dont dip into being absolute nonsense because i am currently Very Tired as i write this.#drawing this took something out of meeeee. im very proud of it but i also never want to look at it again (exaggerating)#i was like 'okay this'll be easy. it'll be quick. i dont have to make a glitter texture i can just paste in an image from google.#no shading just simple base colors. make it look like a scrapbook. easy! fun :)'#then miss hecate personally came into my head and said 'listen to me very closely young lady. you are going to shade that drawing-#-whether you like it or not. make those sequins shine against the spotlight properly. make me look nice. do you understand'#and i went 'ma'am yes ma'am' and then focused so hard i got a headache #aaauguasahhghghh. im all good but also augh.#this is what those artists in universe felt like after drawing those miss hectate portraits. i think. i better not go missing after this.#BY THE WAY THE BACKGROUND IS WORMS. NOT INTESTINES. TO CLARIFY. JUST IN CASE.#ask to tag #<- for either of those two things. idk #anyways i need to go the fuck to bed. good NIGHT.

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pardonmydelays · 4 months ago

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all jokes aside, our show is in sixteen days and i've never been more anxious about anything in my entire life

#this is such a weird feeling because ONE: it's not my first concert and TWO: it's not my first twenty one pilots concert #i just feel like it's different this time and this tour is way more important to me for so many reasons #like i remember the last time i saw them i wasn't even part of the fandom i wasn't active online i was just enjoying their music in peace #and right before the show i actually felt a bit like maybe i didn't deserve to be there #but i guess this is what you get after being in... certain fandom for so many years. people just made you believe that if you weren't-#there for this or that you didn't deserve to be there at all because they've been here longer so they're actually better than you #but clikkies are not like that (at least not here on tumblr) and i know that now and that's not even part of the problem #i think this is actually the first time i'm going to see someone who's literally my number 1 artist and that's never happened to me before #and this is scary #it's like bel said: we see them every day in our phones and now we're going to see them live on stage and that is honestly sick #the eras tour was supposed to be that for me but a lot has changed and i wasn't even part of the fandom anymore when i saw her live so idk #it's different now #i don't even know if i make sense right now i just feel scared and i don't know why but i literally cannot even sleep at night because of i #i just want everything to be perfect but what if we're late what if we're not as close as we want to be what if they don't play oldies-#station what if what if what if blah blah blah pls brain shut tf up #i feel like my entire world revolves around them like they are my everything at the moment and you may laugh all you want but #these guys actually saved my life #and i could never say that about any other artist #and i will probably cry for like three whole days (because our entire trip is going to be three days long)#and........... i don't know i feel so many things at once right now i actually want to cry.#idk if i ever want to go back to this post but just in case i'm gonna leave it in my tour tag #jesus this is so chaotic i'm gonna shut up now #togg & jog on tour*#i say whatever and whatever that i want*

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pilonciillo · 7 months ago

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lol didn’t think someone giving money would give me anxiety

#to the judge that’s gonna see this case next year and the lawyer that is representing it assuming the state idk how this all works #why has the person to say the least get to go a whole year without consequence? a known criminal who after stealing from me and being #released and again getting arrest now for gang violence or some shit she was let go? she maybe associated to the group that killed that boy #last year. and here i am panicking because im afraid to carry cash. im paranoid that imma go outside and my car will be missing. i’m get #panic attacks when i drive to close to that gym and tired going back but physically cannot get out of my car and i start to cry in the #parking lot. i’m not sitting at work shaking forcing myself not to cry because someone handed me cash and i’m afraid someone is going to #steal my purse again. you think that’s not a big deal and honestly i didn’t think it was until my purse was gone. my cards stolen and used.#my key missing EVERYTHING in my purse GONE. so many things in there plus the purse i had money and all that is stuff i paid for now im out #all that cash i’m out 500$ for a key replacement i stopped feeling safe leaving my house all my non replaceable things gone and everyone #spoke to me like it was my fault and had to stand their crying while adults told me not to use a gym locker ??? but in the same breath telli #telling me this isn’t the first time she’s done this she has a warrant for her arrest she’s known to steal cars i’m the problem and there’s #nothing they can do to help me. so while i cry because all the money i had lost and never got back i had to do ALL the work to call my bank #track where my cards were being spent at call the jpay line she transferred money to look up the person she cashapped money to call the #business she was actively spending money at ask the manger if she is currently there and if they could give the police all the receipts and #video of her there for them to act like the hero’s for my brother and i tracking her down while you all belittled me #FUCK YOU AND FUCK HER i can’t be fucking normal about STUPID mundane shit i’m stuck here shaking and crying and what you tell me later it’s #not a big deal? give me all the content of your car and wallet or purse or backpack take nothing out and see what you’re left with and how m #much you need to spend to drive your car again and to tow your car home let a stranger have all your cards and address and tell me you feel #safe #OH and for the gym to tell me they know about her she used to be an employee there she doesn’t have a membership so they don’t know how she #got in and they can’t help but she did steal from another girl that night and an employee last month and who knows how many more ppl like #that’s convenient you pos sounds like she has friends that still work at the gym and open the back door for her or just let her in that’s #crazy no ? and this is all alleged because when if i lost all these things i can’t speak on what did or didn’t happen that’s some crazy bull #shit anyways the towing company felt bad for me maybe because i hadn’t stopped crying they gave me the key replacement number and told me to #mention he referred me so i could get a discount and the layman felt back for me because when i called him i started to cry and when he told #me the price i cried harder so 500$ was the cheapest but pretty much my whole check #key man*#bad** LET ME FIX TAGS #allegedly all these ppl are privileged kids from a privileged background that grew up in a sheltered community and thing there’s no #consequences to their actions because of the lack of accountability from their parents who willing pay for people to look the other way

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louwhose · 1 year ago

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Happy Pi Day! Or... is it pie day? White day?

Whatever, today is something and I'm celebrating whatever it is with this ship I'm far too obsessed with for how little screentime they have.

#dwight in shining armor #disa #chlodwig #phoebe #....STILL need to figure out a good ship name for them #phoewig? chloebe?#the “oe” in both of those is the long e sound in my head. for clarity #well then just in case I will tag this post with both of those options #phoewig #chloebe #okay maybe that second one could be more of a. chlO-E-be #idk its an incredibly made up ship name why am I stressing over it so much #also if you are reading this far I shall serenade you with some history about this piece #it took me months and several iterations of this piece to finally finish it #which was incredibly frustrating because it felt for a while that everytime I came back my art had leveled up enough that I had to restart #from scratch because the different components simply would not work together #but finally I finished it.#...over a month before posting it BUT DANG IT PI DAY WAS WORTH WAITING FOR #also pretty sure that this is the last thing I completed before my friend forced me to figure out the pressure sensitivity in my tablet #and that changed my art style completely again it feels like but. alas. this is definitely the last of its kind #lou draws #WOWWWWWWW forgetting my own art tag #at least it's impossible to forget about this piece with how much I went through for it

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reminiscentrainclouds · 8 months ago

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You guys ever feel trapped? Yea I'm well-acquainted with the feeling of being trapped.

#*text #talk about unpleasant #sorry for only posting textposts here lately. I Forgot how I use this blog.#Also I'm gonna use this as an excuse to vent in the tags about something that's been bothering me today.#I hate days where it feels like I can't be the same person for even. idk. an hour?#I was gonna say just a general statement of 'I hate how I can't feel like the same person for more than an hour' but then I realized it onl #particularly bothered me today so maybe it's just a sometimes thing. throws hands up in the air I WOUDLN'T KNOW #It's just...nothing I do throughout the day matches. i keep starting new things only to forget about them (or forget how much I cared #about them) and try something else later. resulting in a long line of unfinished stuff and frustration.#I keep trying to come up with new conclusions/solutions to problems I've run through my head a million times already.#problems I didn't know I had or forgot about pop up etc.#I'll be doing fine and then I'll just feel stranded out of nowhere with no idea why and trying to figure out if this is normal for me.#I've felt stranded all day.#it's just ugh. i'm so confused. it's been a day i guess.#all the words i write feel kinda foreign to me sometimes. short term memory problems I guess. ✌️#but also I feel very very locked in a really limited worldview. or just like. my world feels very small like tunnel vision kind of thing an #for that reason it just feels like it'll go on the same forever and ever and ever. which is a very scary thought.#idk if my logical 'well that obviously isn't the case. things will change eventually' rebuttal is good enough to go against it.#so there you go I wrapped it all back to the point of the post: feeling trapped. yayyy #i don't mean to make myself sound so sad and pitiful. usually i'm doing fine and bad things kinda just don't register in my brain #but there are Secret Evil Feelings inside me that I don't even know about and sometimes I like to poke them with a stick.

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lqcb97 · 2 years ago

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#chan #bang chan #skz #stray kids #these tags are unrelated to this post i guess #kinda having a really rough time irl... and i'm struggling to find any happiness #i thought it would be ok but it's not... so idk #smtimes i come on here and scroll through this blog and it makes me feel a little bit warmer because of him...#and i miss him... so much every day... why does my heart feel like it's just empty without seeing him i don't know #in any case.. i love him so much #my only reason to really hang on anymore lol as stupid and corny as it sounds #my safe place forever.. i love him...#and he's also insanely gorgeous . i felt like i broke when i saw this

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spearxwind · 2 years ago

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Hey yall, for anyone who knows about no mans sky, ive got a question

Are joint bases possible/viable? Me and my bf made a base (he claimed the space, for reference) and both of us added bits and pieces to it. I've been able to visit it normally when he's offline, in singleplayer

But today he hosted a multiplayer game and everything I'd added to our base was not there for him (but it was there for me)

We ended up reloading the game and i hosted this time, the missing pieces of the base came back, bur he ended up losing progress on something he had been doing earlier instead

Does anyone know if this will keep happening if he hosts since i helped build it but dont own the place?? Or was it a one time thing?

#idk if ill always have to host etc #i felt really bad tbh. i feel like every time he plays a game with me something really frustrating happens and im super worried about it #thunderclap #no mans sky #tagging just in case

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rcarx · 1 year ago

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Tagged by @gleerant to spell my acc name with songs:

runaway by sasha sloan

christmas morning by luz

another love by tom odell (or affection by fiji blue i couldn't decide)

rainbow by dodie

x's and oh's by elle king yes i cheated

Tagging:

@offthebandwagon @myhumbleme @ahappilyexhaustedperson @wearysighs @orphanblaque @princington @julianavalds

if you want! or anyone who wants to do it!

#goddamn these is a hard set of letters #did you know i looked through all the playlists i had saved and there was one song that started with R #and it was the sasha sloan song #the dodie song is acceptable too #x was difficult just cos of the nature of the letter #other songs i contemplated included #xiu lian ai qing by jj lin #xue mao jiao for the memes #and exes by tate mcrae just cos its popular now #i fking love another love by tom odell and affection by fiji blue if you're looking for song recs those are it #thank u for tagging me #personal #idk why i took this so seriously but i really thought hard about the songs from each letter that i felt like represent by music tastes #i made a playlist and all hahah #other songs i would have liked to showcase if this was just a make a playlist of all your favourite songs challenge #true blue by boygenius et al #what makes a life good by katelyn tarver #pancakes for dinner by lizzy alpine #london by mokita #in case you were looking for music recommendations haha #alright peace i'll stop talking lmao stfu @ me

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zooblesbutchpuppygirl · 1 year ago

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(Suspected but at this point it probably straight up is) bpd is so fucked up like I'm sitting here like "Wow I can't wait for ep 3 of tadc so I can finally have more Zooble content!! :D" but then immediately after I'm like "if they give Zooble a canon love interest at any point in this series I will absolutely not be okay"

#idk does this need to be tagged as a vent???#I mean. it somewhat is since rhis is a worry I have had for a while now #anyway they better not do this. @ glitch productions don't do this to me #I'm Zooble's canon love interest don't break us up pls /hj #I'm also so worried I'm going to have at least one whole new ship I'm going to haveto avoid like the plague #like I already literally cannot go into their tag or the tadc tag in general half the time I'm so scared lol #negative #< just in case #anyway funny how I got big into self qhipping again to cope with the fact that I felt myself gaining an fp #for the first time since I was a teen btw #only to have a fictional character become an fp for me lmao

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valodia · 1 year ago

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Talking about vidya games...

#my art #system tag #i just felt like drawing this conversation we had.#im having a weird day so im just doing whatever and posting this although i doubt anybody cares lol.#i hope the res is ok posting this. it crapped out while drafting so idk what itll do.#pannelled this too weirdly to break down into several different images.#i forgot to rate by score. fuck my baka life. ok so.#music rlly can enhance a vidya game. that being said i think its ok i didnt include it into the rating even though if i had thought about i #i wouldve. its because when i play some games i turn off the music which is the case in kenshi for example.#but in outer wilds the score is groundbreaking unparalleled never been done before etc so.#also some music have turned games into my fave.#hey i forgot to compare dark chronicle also to this. its my other fave game.#ok triad of fave games kenshi dark chronicle outer wilds.#bye.

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blueish-bird · 1 year ago

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sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad.#whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’#I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn?#it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence.#like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5.#overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names.#can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

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linda-rose · 1 year ago

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say what you will about svu's season 20 lmao, but them continuing that storyline in "Facing Demons," with an amazing callback to the title of Cassidy's last episode AND doing it so well by not making it Over The Top but still significant was 10/10. Might be my favorite episode of this season so far.

#idk it all just felt very natural? if that makes sense #some of this season feels a bit forced or too preachy for lack of a better word #but i think this episode was really solid and i loved how they ended up there in a truly normal way through a case #and it was a real look at his character his past and how in hindsight in impacted his relationships #and also showed that him and Benson were BOTH struggling with this sort of thing and opening up back when it seemed to mostly be her #it just felt like closure for them that i never felt like we got without also being Too Much #like some of the endings of these season 20 episodes lol #and also i just love him I'm sorry #and that final look they share...GOD #it just made me feel a lot better with how things ended and made a casual friendship possible again #and the glimpses we get of how much theh both still care and value one another UGH #and again how they ended up there was iconic tbh realizing what they were doing i was like WAIT YES I REMEMBER HE SAID THIS NO FREAKING WAY #AND its FINALLY another episode i actually liked Stone a lot in so 10/10.#i think him and cassidy were great together and i loved the roadtrip lmao.#anyway sorry for the essay in the tags but who else will i be able to say this to LMAO #svu #law and order svu

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thanatosaria · 2 years ago

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honestly keeping a side xiv blog feels? kind of hard @___@

#aria.txt #like on twt i at least felt bad constantly talking abt this new game i got into #esp considering lots of my followers were from destiny 2 #but like...here i can just tag f/f/x/iv and if ppl dont wanna see it they can just mute it #i might keep rb'ing onto my main and ig? have the sideblog just in case #idk what case bc i've had this blog for over a decade LOL #maybe an xiv only archive. idk.#but i yoinked the sayanaqalli url anyway :)

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