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Jack & Sam Uni.
Robby is Jacks outward Best Friend but Emory, that’s his Sister/Secret BFF. He values Sam’s opinion above all else, but Emory is a close second.
Emory spends time on the roof too, not to jump or contemplate life, just to sit and decompress before going home.
On the roof is where Emory tells Jack she’s scared she’ll die alone and this job took so much of her life. Jack jokingly says ‘we can buy some land and all live on a compound together’. But Jack is Emory’s emergency contact, has medical power of attorney. She love her girls but Jack is her bff too.
- “It’s starting to get crowded up here”
- Walsh looks over her shoulder with a roll of her eyes. “Thought I would come see what all the fuss is about?”
- Jack nods hands in his pockets as he closes the distance in slow steady strides “I need to be worried?”
- She shakes her head. “I’m on this side of the rail aren’t I?”
- “That’s how it starts” he chuckled
- “I like the view though. Kind of soothing”
- Jack nods but doesn’t say anything. Just leans on the railing beside her.
- It’s quiet for a long time.
- “He’s getting remarried”
- Jack nods deeply. That explains it.
- “Talk to him?”
- She shook her head “his sister messaged me on Facebook. Asked if I had heard.”
- Jack didn’t really have a response so he just waited.
- “First time in years it hurts again. Fucking sucks”
- “Bet it does. You made the right choice. You know that right?”
- “Oh yeah of course. It’s not really that. I think it’s just… that he beat me too it I guess. Feels wrong, he was… how did he find someone before I did?”
- “You want a real answer or my answer?”
- “Yours”
- “He’s a douche, an abusive, manipulative piece of shit and he just put the mask on long enough to fool someone else”
- Walsh laughed “where was that attitude when I married him?”
- “If we were friends when you had met him I’d have said the same thing”
- “Oh my God! We are friends!?” Emery laughs a little less bitter this time
- Jack snorts and shoves her sideways with his shoulder. “Don’t get too excited about it”
- “You know, it sucks to be single and be friends with you two?” When jack looks sideways at her confused she continues “you and Sam are so fucking good at it and I didn’t even really realize it, maybe until Sophie came around, that it makes the rest of us… I don’t even know” she stops to laugh and watches an ambulance approaching from a few blocks away. “Just good enough isn’t good enough anymore”
- Jack is quiet. Watches the ambulance too. “Idk that we’re a model to build on”
- “You are though” she looks him in they eye “the shit you two have been through together, the way you love each other. Robby and his new girl, Yolanda and Sophie, they all look at you guys that way.”
- They’re both quiet when the phone rings in his pocket “Abbot. Have Ellis start on it. I’ll be down in a minute” he looks back to Walsh, “I guess I’m sorry we fucked up your expectations for marriage” it’s only half a joke
- “Am I too much?”
- “Some days yeah. Ow fuck. And mean”
- “Feels like all I’ve got is this job. This fucking hospital”
- “You got us” he meets her eyes. The phone rings in his pocket again and he grumbles “yeah. On my way” he shoves it back in his pocket. “For what it’s worth, I’m not worried about you. If you’re brave I can tell Sam you want her to set you up with someone.”
- “Oh Jesus please don’t”
- “Chicken. Worked for Robby”
- “Theoretically. I’ll believe it when I see it
- Jack laughed “ I have to go set an ulna fracture. You good?”
- Walsh nodded and stood up straight. “If I ask for a hug are you going to give me shit?”
- He smiled “not tonight” Jack wrapped an arm around her and squeezed her tight. “Want yo come consult on this and kill some time downstairs?”
- “Kinda”
- They walked back to the access door and Jack laughed “worst case scenario Sam an I can buy some land and we can all do the family compound thing. Just live with us forever”
- “Feels like that would turn into the wrong kind of compound real fast. Honestly knowing you I’m a little concerned you even brought it up”
- “Sam went down this TikTok rabbit hole the other night and planned a whole thing. So don’t blame me”
- “Jesus you two really are perfect for each other”
- “See there’s someone out there for everyone. You’ll be fine”
#the pitt#the pitt hbo#the pitt fanfic#the pitt fanfiction#the pitt headcanons#the pitt imagine#dr jack abbot#dr jack abbot x ofc#dr emery walsh
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Honestly, every time I see this I am very surprised by the size difference.
And especially because my conclusion is how incredibly strong Joker is! Bruce talks about how fast he is, but rarely is it talked about how much it takes to stand up to one of the most trained people on the planet.
We can put his size/strength into perspective by thinking that he can carry a giant solid wooden mallet by himself.
Have you ever seen a person irl doing log lifting carry a piece of wood the size of someone as big as Superman with this ease??
He can even drag Jason and Tim's dead weight WITH A SINGLE ARM.
It's obvious that he can also carry Batman, he has to put him in traps or tie him up alone. But we actually see him do it and it seems like he has no trouble??? The guy who needs to be carried by two people??? As if he were carrying a kitten???
You're right Bruce, this clown is scary 😭
#batman#joker#the joker#I'm going to tag this as#batjokes#just because :P#idk I was talking to a friend about this and i started realizing things
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Lolll uh no progress update today (daily streak is broken 💀) ‘cause I had much going on and then got distracted by some awesome people who I was grateful to have my time taken up by 🫡 We will get back to it tomorrow yahoo!
#thwwichphantomthief#ooohh interesting sort of dynamic happening right now#in the sense that my writing has taken me into more spaces in the fandom#which subsequently takes up the time I’d normally use for writing#which I mean to me it’s not a bad thing lmao cuz I’m really really enjoying getting to know more people here#just crazy to think this started with me just… writing a thing and posting it on ao3#especially since the first chapter was the result of a sudden burst of inspiration and literally only a few days from start to publish#I had barely any idea of what it would be at that point#nor did I think I would continue doing saiou stuff#and now here I am fourish months later and I want to do this forever 🫡#probably can’t because motivation will run dry eventually of course#but I just am really enjoying where this stupid long and dramatic fic has gotten me#idk I’m almost getting emotional thinking about it#erghhhh kiwi is a crybaby it’s okay 😖#talking to like minded people is just such a pleasure#coming from someone who’s had such a hard time making friends her whole life this is so new#to have people talk with me because they want to#I’m ahhh socially inept if that wasn’t already very clear#never known how to talk to people#and I never realized that getting to talk to people without the pressure of showing my voice/face would feel so like freeing#I truly am just discovering what the internet is like rn and it’s overwhelming and wonderful at the same time#and I’m liking the journey so far#hoping ahhh that continues but I’m aware things aren’t always so pristine and ideal all the time#just will enjoy it while I have it!#oof sorry for long tags lmao it’s longer than the post 🤣
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I was thinking there aren't enough memes catered to third parties on this site (ex. two muses talking about a third) which imo make rp flow so much smoother sometimes bc it feels more realistic for interactions to not start & end at only the two people directly involved, but then I realized... blud, you have a meme sideblog. You can literally make your own dreams come true
#◜✧ . ❪ ooc. ❫#I remember back in the day (<-2016ish) we all used to yap about each other's dynamics in-chara; for example friends would tease one another#about their alleged crushes; strangers would ask one another if they've seen [x/y/z] whether it was a friend of theirs or sb they want dead#and I recalled this today bc I saw one of the. idk maybe 5 total?? memes of this sort again... I stood there as if struck by lightning#Obviously I think it's especially great to do this organically/unprompted but I feel like a lot of people are (understandably!) shy about#bringing up one muse of theirs in an interaction where that muse isn't the main focus. I get it!! But imo it feels sm more lifelike#to experience those tiny details 🥹 I know at some point it was considered cringe (??) to use one muse to ask a mutual abt their other muse#(ex. me using Tobias to ask sb's muse about Elijah; me using Ango to ask sb's muse about Nikolai etc; you get the gist!)#but frankly........... WHO gaf about what's cringe & what isn't in this day and age 😭 I think we should all bring back being cringe & free#especially since these can be great drivers for BOTH the side dynamics (the people talking could become better friends) AND the people#from the main/primary dynamic whom they're talking about (a third party could help drive this dynamic further/make them realize things etc)#Once I get my break (real soon!!!!!!) I might work on making more of these memes bc starting w smth prompted may make it easier#for people to jump onboard & then later down the line we can eventually start doing stuff like this out of the blue too 🫡#And speaking of creating memes... I don't usually tend to; but if any of you guys ever have suggestions for memes you'd like to see#but can't find anywhere/can't find enough of? Lmk and I'll write them up for you so you can rb them & live the life of your rp dreams 🫡
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G'raha looked so serious while he pleaded his case to venture into the World of Darkness with the Warrior of Light. The sudden conviction in his tone had Arsay at a loss for words. Still, she did not hesitate to meet his request with an accepting nod. He was an important friend and in the passing moon that they'd come to know each other, a strong fondness for him had taken hold of her. The prospect of helping G'raha find the truth behind his mysterious inheritance made Arsay's heart pound. It was the perfect venture for them to embark on. The first of many, she hoped. The two turned towards the impossibly tall spire that dared to pierce the heavens above. Arsay's resolve strengthened in its presence. When they next find themselves gazing at the tower -with their quest completed and the world no longer under threat of total destruction- she'll properly ask G'raha to be a companion in her travels. A grin crept its way onto her face as her gaze shifted to him. If Arsay could find it within herself to bare her heart to others so readily just as he does… perhaps their future adventures will find them together, hand in hand.
#ffxiv#wolgraha#G'raha tia#graharsay#idk just a random passage in my head that I needed to get out#im not a writer and im not pretending to be one but it was in my brain so sorry if its not as readable as I think it is#anyways imagine you are the loneliest catgirl in the world#and you meet a guy who is so swagless and cringe but in a charming way and he connects with you on a fundamental level#and you become really good friends and every time you show up he smiles in a way that makes your heart do somersaults#and you start thinking that maybe people actually like having you around not just when they need you to kill and destroy things#you let yourself open up a little and you're met with kindness and you realize you are very in love actually#but because you're still figuring out how to talk about your feelings you wait a little too long#and that guy seals himself up in a tower and tells you he'll think about your heroism in the future#and you are very sad and angry about this but thats not allowed so instead you put that energy to being the hero of all time#and every day you go to work you see the structure that reminds you of him and you cant let go of those what if feelings n ur cursed 5ever#would that be fucked up or what#WOL posting#Arsay Nun
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was wondering why i just started seeing shadow ppl in my peripheral and i totally forgot i didnt go to bed last night so i havent actually slept in 36+hours JKLFKSL OOPS
#in my defense i was playing bioshock#BUT tonight ive been editing this paper for like 6 hours and i totally lost track of time#<< thank you Adderall Focus ™️ effect for kicking in at 10pm🧍🏻♀️ 12 hrs post ingestion. thats so helpful :]#weird rant idk where in me it came from but it j started spilling out HAHA ->#ppl get annoyed when others 'brag' about how little they sleep at night and that inadvertantly makes ME annoyed lmao cuz like#1st of all we are NOT comparing sleep hours in an effort to compete🤨u ever think maybe we like to relate w u ? and what ur talking abt ?#2nd ion think anyone purposefully stays up all night for the purpose of bragging lol thats stupid. sometimes we (me) literally j forget to🫠#but yeah like i said did u ever think we're literally just trying to relate to the topic of discussion ?? but#but so many ppl think others are 'making it a competition' when we bring up our stats in conversation adjacent to urs#like okay so like its not that deep ? ur not the main character its not abt u actually ?? do i look like the person who likes competition😭#also when i say 'we' im referring to my fellow ND//audhd brains lol not just the insomniacs 🫶🏻😮💨#cuz as yk- we audhd's dk how to engage like a normal person 🧍🏻♀️so we j kinda self insert w things we relate to in hopes it sticks HAHA#which is also another reason why ppl think we're 'trying to one up' you like ?? where does that thought even come from🤨weirdo🫵#idk how to make friends i just act all sweet n quiet til ppl actually realize im hilarious n not the clean minded quiet gorl (hey rye)🥴
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#so a few days ago I vented in the tags on a post about how I applied to a job that I would be perfect for and seems perfect for me#and the logical next step in my career and would be a lot better for me financially#and how I was anxious about it bc I do love where I work now and all of my friends#but also I know I can’t stay here forever#and on Thursday I got an email that they want to do a zoom interview with me lol#I cannot stress how exciting this is but also it could be bc my favorite coworker knows the director and emailed him about me#my favorite coworker actually told me about this job and told me to apply lol#part of me is like ‘does B want me gone?’ and then I’m like#‘nah B just wants me to grow and succeed and get paid what I’m worth’ bc I was promised a raise a year ago that I haven’t gotten yet#I would say lmao but it makes me seethe with rage every time I think about it for too long#and I’m anxious but also. I’ve been training for this for so long. every time I go to a conference I introduce myself to people.#I’ve been networking without realizing I’m networking. I just love talking to book people!#and this particular world that I’m working in is so small that everyone knows everyone#but also I love where I work now and many aspects of my job but it would be cool to try something a little different#and meet new people and eventually move a little closer to the city and start to have an actual social life#but I will miss my favorite coworkers so dearly. and idk how I feel about all of this! I’m anxious! I want them to want me!#but do I actually want them to want me? but also what if THEY DONT WANT ME?????#I was telling my mom this and she was like ‘but this is what you wanted!’ and I was like ‘BUT I CAN STILL BE ANXIOUS!!!’#says the GAD Queen#but yeah. idk. good things maybe happening here. but also wary of getting my hopes up#and just pls think good thoughts for me for Tuesday thanks :’)
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#personal#so i had the less than stellar realization that one of my best friends#and current roommate is a massive asshole and I have no desire to continue having them in my life#i have 0 idea how the fuck to get out of my current living situation#we've already agreee to add 6 months to our lease#so it would end in October my math is correct#we originally signed in April so yea#so 8-9 months would give me plenty of time to get my shit together and gtfo#but they are talking about long term plans with me involved#like starting a business cult thing#(they are so fucking egotistical “I could be a cult leader” is something they say DAILY)#and yea months ago I was down to clown on this thing#but now I want them out of my life#they were gone seeing family for 3 weeks and the apartment to myself was so nice#i didn't have to listen to their shit of “white people are the worst ever fuck white people I never want to deal with them again”#i am pasty white but I'm one of the good ones apparently the exception#how trans mascs have it easier than trans femmes and how gross boys are#i lean trans masc so that's fun#and how much they want to start a cult full chest... yea they put on a decent front but they don't actually have the personality for it#i just... idk man living with them for another 8-9 months is gonna suck ASS#and like at the end of it trying to let them know that I won't be staying with them regardless of moving somewhere else#that is not going to be a fun time#they talk about community all the time but it seems less for other people and more for themselves#like started a union which is great do Not get me wrong but is angry that bargaining is putting something they want in...#but they are getting a ton of other consessions from the sound of it#just not the one that would benefit them the most#bleh hate this so fuckin much
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Can we kill the whole “no attention on artwork is sad and means it was a waste of time” thing? Like Seriously can we kill it. I put a fuckton of effort into my art and it usually gets like, 10 likes, and that doesn’t really matter to me bc I love making it. I’m grateful for nice comments, but I’m gonna keep making the stuff I make regardless.
Like ok I’m not trying to sound all holier than thou here, but the amount of artists online who say stuff like “this artwork was a flop, so I’m feeling really discouraged” is making me go crazy. Is that all it is for you guys? Content? When you’re making artwork are you just making content for an audience? No offence but I feel like that’s a huge fucking waste of time, way more than making art you like and getting minimal attention on it.
#art#discourse#i guess??#Idk sorry I know I sound like an asshole but dude#the way people talk about art is crazy#Where’s your love for what you’re doing? Who cares if it didn’t blow up like you wanted? You still had fun making it right??#“Ppl need to start rbing artists more all their effort is being ignored bc ppl hate art” is some hot steaming bs too#Like oh Were you creating for attention? I didn’t realize random peoples approval was that important to you my fault#It’s such an accepted mentality too like “well of course I want people to like my work that I put hours into” is#Seen as a completely reasonable statement which like. on the surface it is. But then u realize they consider 20 likes “no attention”#Is you liking it not enough? Are the 20 people who liked it not enough? Are your friends who gushed over it not enough?#Or do you not actually mean “people” when you say that#Do you maybe just want to feel an ego boost when you see a big number next to that thing you put hours into.#You feel like you’ve earned a big number for all that otherwise wasted time#It’s like a weird twist on consumerism#Where at some point for a lot of you I feel like you’re not making art. You’re making a product.#You’re just a commission artist except you’re not making any money#It’s sad I hate it and if you’re an artist who talks about their art like this then I don’t respect you#And I sure as hell don’t respect your “art”
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my mood / energy kinda tanked. just feeling meh :/ it's either adrenaline crash or overstimulation, idk. so imma take my meds and try to sleep. nini all ♡
#《 ° puffin.exe 》 im a puffin ! i dont do much#° mobile post !#° to be deleted !#my mom and sister came home and my sister started asking me about tennocon and i just. had no patience for it.#i know she was trying to act like. supportive and interested. but i didnt want to answer a bunch of questions#when she doesnt even make an effort to listen to what i have to say like. why ask if you dont care ? cant act like you do ?#just. made me realize my mood had tanked. or idk maybe im just frustrated with my family for not being more supportive.#i talked to a friend earlier about how i feel like i cant be myself around my family cuz they question everything#draw attention to things and make me feel self-conscious. otherwise i could be. shamelessly myself.#getting to be excited today while they were gone just made me realize how stifled i feel in this house i guess#idk im just. feeling some things about my family and myself and compounding with the adrenaline crash / overstimulation...#i desperately need to desensory and chill and sleep
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Me looking at my own mood boards like “oh yeah this guy gets it”
#💭#📓#I love you friendship and midnight gospel and Kaluah and I love listening and hearing stories and laughing so hard and being full of joy and#and and like questions and sadness and grief and fear and all these things that are I usually deal with with isolation on codependence w my#mom like now I feel like I’m given the space to be a person and to be around someone who truly listens and lives and I’m realizing places#(stuck point.comma.therapy term) where I am finding myself uncomfortable with the way I handle a conversation specifically how I listen to#people I care about and listening to understand instead of listening to respond (not usually an issue with ppl I like) or listening to#relate I struggle a lot with that I tend to use immediate interrupting with my own thing to show I get it and that can quickly be overdone#and I’m starting to notice when I do it and I’m learning how to balance that with also learning to shut my mouth for a second and like give#people (Levi) (but also people in IOP actually) space to talk and feel and finish a thought and trying to validate (ew therapy term) and#fully listen and understand in ways that aren’t from my own perspective bc that’s a thing I struggle with but I am also comforted by the#fact that Levi will not punish me or be harsh to me if I mess up in the moments when I notice I’m doing it and maybe when I find myself#doing it I could say it out loud and apologize or like ask if there was more to say like idk I want to work on my listening#and not to use an excuse or whatever but I feel like I have been so isolated for so long like four years ish and I have not fully gained the#skill of listening to people at this stage of my life when I’m not in a direct classroom setting where you are almost allowed to interrupt#in order to add to a conversation but that’s not how all conversations are made to be and obviously (well maybe not obvious) but friends#can understand and discuss boundaries and feel comfortable over talking and speaking up when there was something you wanted to say and#having me wait a second idk idk how to explain it
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#even if idk what's going on#it FEELS like i've lost him as a friend. even if he said that like oh you're my friend or whatever. it doesnt feel like it#we havent talked as often lately (not my choice........) anyway and now .. bruh this last week has been AWFUL.#now idek if and how we will talk. like i feel like he doesnt want me annoying him. so i cant even use sending pics of my cat or asking him#random things as an excuse to talk because like... i feel awkward#i've gone from feeling 90% comfortable with him to like 10% lmaoooo#i just feel like he is bothered by me and that i annoy him and i feel stupid and awkward talking to him#so like.....now when idek if we are friends or how we talk#i cant suddenly be like hiiiiii the rain reminded me of you hiihihihihi#not talking to him even a little makes me miserable#but he isnt replying and i dont know what is going on with any of it with him and me so idk#also ://#i cant help but freak out bc of him not following me anymore bc that means that there will be MORE distance between us#i will become even less and less present in his life and world. he will start forgetting me more and more. he will realize that the world#without me is better!!!! he will spend more time andbe more attentive towards everyone else and realize that not having me close is much#better. and that his life is happier and better without me close by T-T plus it's...#i cant lie... it makes me jealous that he had favorite blogs and mutuals who arent me 😭😭#and all of them are better than me in every aspect...... 😭#this will only make the gap between us bigger and he will forget about me!!!!!!!! 🥲#little by little he is reducing the amount of me in his life and since it'll be better he'll keep going until im out of it completely#im gonna die just thinking about it bc i know i know that i dont bringANYTHING good into ppl's lives and im just lucky that it lasts at all
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I changed my mind. Hater behavior is undeserved, when it comes to works, & idgaf about holding creators accountable when their games are mid, anymore.
#em.txt#now i only care about how you treat your workers tbh#so there are still series i hate. but now I don't want to be mean to people who put time & effort into making shit#this is about post shift 2. people were too fuckin mean to Rjac for a game he made for free#& as a bitch who loves that game a lot i see your criticisms i understand. but you're not gonna be mean to him abt this#that fucking teen that held that interview & told him he needed to be held accountable for his mistakes. god#he made this shit for free across four years. what can happen in four years? what did he work through?#to deliver you a free game. even if you don't fucking like the game if you invite a creator on to talk about their works#you don't fucking talk to them the way uyeah did. shit was cruel & uncalled for.#this game is fucking good but it's forever going to be burried as a game that's complicated with weird tutorials#ps2 is fun. you should try it. if you don't get it -- ask. I'll answer any question at any time#i will vc you i will write a text doc -- whatever you want. more people need to experience this fucking game#it's compelling in a way few games are to me.#i can homestly only compare it to rain world but not for a reason that's overt & easy to explain. more in how it feels to play#rather than what you do.#man. idk. i gotta learn how to talk about shit i love without being mean now#this started because i was talking mad shit to my friends & it asked me to stop because i was downtalking something she loved a lot#& i realized this isn't fun for people. i thought we were having fun but tbh? I'm just a mean negative bitch#& that's not fun. that's mean.#i have to redo this character arc from when i was 13 because i guess I didn't learn it the first time around#cynicism doesn't make you funny or cool. it makes you mean & unfun to be around. finding kind things to say is tougher.#if you can present your criticism nicely then maybe you can criticize too#but that alone does not a good critique make & it definitely don't make you fun at parties#listen. i am still gonna be a bitch. but i am going to be less of one.
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sometime this past year i had the experience of uh experiencing [something trivial i dont even remember at this point], and then felt in real time as my brain changed the memory right in front of me. like i Knew that my memory was now incorrect, but i couldnt remember what Actually happened. and i think that moment is the first time i ever truly started to realize that my memory in particular is not infallible and that brains change your memory of things and events all the time, especially over several years
#that last post about actively feeling yourself forget something made me think of it#theres not really any point to this post besides just thinking out loud to others i guess#anyway since that realization ive now gone down countless mental health and traumatic memory research rabbitholes#that i feel are leaving me more at peace with myself than ive ever felt in my life#dont get me wrong ive been having a fucking year but a lot of it is because i cant do much besides internally processing things#revealed some friends in my brain even :)#anyway my current read is the body keeps score . im listening and im fucking Learning some things about myself#anyway yeah so thats basically what ive been up to since i stopped talking online as much this year . whats up#i really am becoming more at peace with all facets of myself than ever before though. mentally and physically and emotionally and socially#potentially evidenced by the fact that i can actually hold conversations online again!#idk im just ready to finally start living my life again now#i made it through the trenches of my mindscape and i have more external AND internal support than ever before. Maybe I Can Do This#Maybe I'll Be Okay.
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me and my brother arguing over who talks to people less like its something to be proud of
#i think its me bc a. he has a lot of online friends and even not counting them he has told me that he actively goes out of his way to talk#to people and make friends with people in his grade and when he thinks someone has a similar interest to him he tests the waters talking to#them which like good for him!#and b. i dont go out of my way to talk to people i dont know and like even then with people i know i will just stand in awkward silence#until they say something or until i finally think of something appropriate to say#my default is asking about shool/homework or and event that theyve mentioned previously#and most of the things that i know and stories that i share about my coworkers are just what ive absorbed for listening#from being in the room when other people are talking and learning from their conversation#and i realized maybe my brother doesnt know that and he thinks i learned all of it through conversation myself#but like no i literally stand in that room and do my thing and dont talk unless specifically spoken too for however long#until its just me and someone im somewhat comfortable in the room and then i awkwardly try to start talking to them#but i think people have noticed im good at listening and will often just tell me stuff even if i dont have much to say in response#why this (whose “shyer”) matters?#it really doesnt and i probably need to learn to accept that my brother feels how he does without invalidating me#but its just like i always feel like hes better than me so its like how dare he come in and take my key trait from me#it more so bothers me how i wouldnt be comparing it if he didnt directly say he thinks he talks to less people than me#like everything is a comparison with him and fsr in my mind instead of thinking of being like well we can both not talk to alot of people#i had to stand my ground and be like no you#rant#please ignore#(why are you posting it on the internet if you want it ignored? IDK)
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#talked to my mom about some Big Issues yesterday#we've been entertaining the idea of moving for a long time now but it seems like so much work and my parents weren't sure if they could#but i think we all realize it'll just be worse if we stay here so we'll have to make it happen#my mom said thinks she'll be dead in 5 years which was very sobering to hear but i know her health is getting worse quickly#also she thought my dad would die about 4 years ago and didn't tell but as it turns out that (and covid) was a big reason i moved back home#i'm so fucking ready to get out of this area and start over but now i'm in school so that complicates things#which school do i choose? will my credits transfer? what's the minimum number of credits needed to graduate?#how long will it take us to get to our new place? what happens in the meantime with school? what happens if it (god forbid) falls through?#idk but i think it must be possible#i'm pretty sure people do this all the time and make it work#anyway it's all i can think about right now which is inconvenient bc i have an exam tomorrow and i'm nervous#but the area we're looking at is so nice and my mom's best friend and her daughter live there#it'd be so good for all of us but i want to just snap and fingers and be ready to go#🤞🏼🤞🏼🙏🏼#personal
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