#idk im sad oka

[halinski]

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[rachalixie]

hi im so sorry idk if requests are allowed or not but i was wondering if you could write a comfort drabble with chan and a reader whos stressed out because of her studies? i recently enrolled into a new school and while i was the best in my class at my old school i feel a lot of pressure and my fear of failure has gotten worse you dont have to write it if you dont and if you do please take your time no rush

a/n: okay anon baby this one…….hit too close to me i couldn’t not write it!! i’ve been feeling the exact same way about school recently. i definitely understand how you’re feeling. sending you lots of hugs!!!

you don’t mean to scream, you really don’t. it rips out of your throat involuntarily, a buildup of all your anxiety and negativity and fear escaping in a wrangled yell, no doubt alerting the boy in the room outside. your throat is scratchy, scraped raw like the way your brain feels right now.

as expected, chan walks into your room to face a flurry of white paper flying in the air, your carefully made flash cards fluttering to the floor from where you threw them out of frustration a few seconds prior.

“whoa,” he says, bending down to pick a few of them up while looking at you with soft eyes. “okay?”

“no,” you say, blinking back angry tears. you don’t want to think about the sad picture you’re making right now, slumped into your bed with your computer sitting sadly next to you, hair a mess on top of your head and chapped lips in a permanent scowl.

“oh, baby,” he coos, leaving the cards on the floor to move towards you and press a kiss to the crown of your head. he gathers you up in his arms, sitting behind you and letting you rest your weight on his chest while he hooks his chin over your shoulder. “tell channie what’s wrong.”

you try to wiggle out of his arms, muttering about how you don’t have time for this and you need to study, but he persists with strong arms around your middle. you’re sure that you could get out if you really tried, he would never trap you against your will, but your body doesn’t seem to listen to your mind right now as it fights you to stay.

“you know that you’re the smartest person i know, right?” he says, breathe fanning over your skin and voice melting into your ear from how close he is. it sounds sincere, the golden flow of his voice infiltrating the dark tendrils in yours, slowly taking over.

“you know that you’re the smartest person i know, right?” he says, breathe fanning over your skin and voice melting into your ear from how close he is. it sounds sincere, the golden flow of his voice infiltrating the dark tendrils in yours, slowly taking over.

“you know that you’re the smartest person i know, right?” he says, breathe fanning over your skin and voice melting into your ear from how close he is. it sounds sincere, the golden flow of his voice infiltrating the dark tendrils in yours, slowly taking over.

“i’m not,” you scoff, playing with his fingers so that your own have something to do, something to focus on other than your spiralling thoughts. “there’s so many people smarter than i am.”

“okay, so?” he says, shuffling a bit so he could meet your eyes. “there’s way better producers than me, but that doesn’t mean i’m not a damn good one. even if you got the lowest grade in your class, you’re still incredibly smart. those numbers don’t define your intelligence or your ability. okay?”

“okay.” you grumble, trying to hide the way your eyes welled up at his words.

“it’s okay to feel this way. as long as you bounce back stronger. okay?”

“okay.”

“now, tell me that you’re smart.” he says, completely serious.

“oka- wait what?” you turn your head to look at him with your eyebrows raised, but he meets your eyes with a leveled gaze, not backing down. “...i’m smart.” you mumble.

“no, say it like you mean it,” he says, tangling your fingers with his and squeezing.

“i’m smart.” you say, louder, almost like you actually believe it.

“see? that wasn’t so hard.”

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[professionallydeadinside]

oka but im gonna do it in ask form since .. idk lol (u dont have to respond to it btw u can just read)

ok so it starts w this king of his species [which are called "jumpers" or "critters" since they can hop thru dimensions] (hes named ren) and he has a wife, but shes busy traveling space so.. cant rlly visit !

anyway ren has 3 kids, flux, sludge and cilk

flux is the oldest, cilk is the middle child (whos also the most interested in learning abt other species) and sludge, being the youngest

anyway flux and ren ended up having a big argument cuz flux believed that ren's rules were unjust for those who were punished by law (they get banished to space/planet or dimension)

for some FUCKING reason, flux decides to wipe out like .. 90% of their species, and that forces ren to completely send him far away from their land

so ren is just sad ! cilk is trying to be there for him and sludge is a dumbass having his "friendship is the true power!" moment so he decides to go off looking for flux

mind you, sludge DID NOT tell either ren or cilk abt him doing this, so they just found out around a week after sludge left

this also leads to ren having those #overthinking moments !! to the point he wrapped himself in a table cloth for some fucking reason idk lol (cilk made it a jacket later)

so; quick summary ! flux commited a mass murder, sludge wants to friendship is magic flux, cilk has to attempt to comfort her 35 yr old (or 35,000 yr old if ur using earth time) dad, and ren is just a big sad dad LMAO

WAIT I LOVE THIS THOUGH???? Super cool ideas!!! I love Ren already love his sad dad energy wasdfghjhgfdssdfg

[misterier]

oh that was nice i just read that! thank you!

then maybe one with damian ? not him as dark but as himself. his a really underrated character imo. we know damian and DA went to the same uni, so maybe they were roommates and DA gets really sick and they take care of them ? idk im in mood for some hurt/comfort skskss

| Yeah fs! sorry for all the questions, I hope this is alright, I wasn't sure if this was romantic but that's what I'm used to writing so I'm sorry if there was some romance hints in there.

also, my apologies for taking so long 💀 I low-key forgot this and rushed the ending, hope it's at least decent. thanks for being patient<33

this is also super short sorry about that 

674 words, 3,714 characters

| Damien had gone to a party hours ago, and Y/n was still stuck in bed, though by now they were finally signs showing they were sick and their hair was a proper mess, sticking in all directions. They sighed and brought their hand to their pounding, burning head; they were miserable. Just as they reached for the water on their bedside, the glass fell to the ground and shattered; they bit their lip to stop themselves from screaming in pure frustration.

They threw their heavy blanket off in a huff and slammed their feet to the ground, only to get a wave of dizziness that sent them falling back into their bed. Y/n rubbed their eyes and sighed once again, the urge to scream echoing in their mind, then suddenly the door to the dorm opened slowly. Damiens eyes brightened seeing them awake, “Y/n! Hey, are you feeling better?” He questioned, slamming the door out habit making them grimace and cover their face. He winced at their reaction, quickly apologizing. They blinked slowly from pure exhaustion, groaning slightly when Damien moved closer to them, the shattered glass cracking under his shoe. "Did you...Did you break the glass?" He questioned, looking down at the remains in concern. "Yeah, I'm sorry, it just tipped when I reached for it." He gave them a sympathetic look; as much as he wanted to scold them for not cleaning their mess, he couldn't help but feel bad for them, after all, they would have cleaned if normally if they weren't so sick. "I'll get it, no problem." His frown changed to a fake, quick smile, already walking off to fetch a hand broom "Hey! Can you get me a water bottle?" Damien hummed in the kitchen, easily hearable through the thin, poster-filled walls.

Damien plucked the short broom and the dust pan from the nail on the wall and he swung the fringe open, grabbing a freezing water. He stumbled back to Y/n, his hands full, they prompted up a bit, and weakly took the water, almost dropping it in the process. "Thanks," They mumbled with a sad smile, scooting up to the wall to keep their backs straight. Damien mumbled something under his breath with a gentle hint in his eye while he crouched to one knee and woodshed in the glass slowly.

Y/n looked up while sipping the drink, watching the glow in the dark stars they and Damien had put up on their first day. An even softer smile began on their lips before it was abruptly cut short by a throat scratching fit of coughs; they stirred the lid of the bottle closed with rattling hands and did their best to hide the coughs with their sleeve. Damien propped up quickly, cutting his hand on the glass but not even caring while he looked up at them with concern.

"Are you alright N/n?" They looked up at him with red, teary eyes and scrunched up brows "I'm just dandy Dame," they said, before being thrown into another fit. "Yeah, that was a dumb question. I'll get you some meds okay?"He frowned, staring at them before slowly walking off to the bathroom with blood pouring from his hand.

Y/n threw themselves back into their bed and sniffled. Being sick is so annoying, they thought to themselves while they looked around the room tiredly. Before they knew it, Damien quickly returned with a bandage over his hand and a bottle of pills. "Hey, here I got some water. Sit up a bit okay?" The said gently, pulling them up on a pillow and handing them two pills and a water bottle that crinkled as it was handled off. They threw the pills to the back of their throat and chugged the water, giving Damien a nod of thanks. He smiled at them, ruffling their hair as he sat beside them.

Y/n wrapped their arm around Damien's shoulders and pulled the man to their side, nuzzling their head into his chest while they rested their eyes. . .

[good-enemy]

Does anyone else think vivi looks kind of sad in the live stages :( or at least just done .. like in hi high stages even though she had no lines (tbf she wasnt alone in that in hi high) she was like :D in stages and now shes like :/ and its making me like :(

[multiplefandomsblog]

your roommate hcs are so cute, can i request for naib, demi, tracy, andrew, kurt, patricia, and victor?

:0 holy crap yes! I’m so glad you enjoyed the roommate hcs!! Me and the other mods hope you enjoy these! Thank you for requesting :))

(i added melly because why not? lmao hope you don’t mind.)

Part 1!

Naib Subedar

This man deadass didn’t know you were living with him

Even when people told him about it, he wasn’t rlly paying attention and didn’t rlly care

Your stuff in his room? He thought it was his or someone just broke into his room and left it there

When he saw you on the toilet however, he just freaked out.

“Why the hell are you shitting in my room!?” “Your room? I’ve been living here for 2 months!”

Once he found out you lived with him, he made sure you knew what was his and what was yours

also, since he’s very protective of his things-- you being one of them-- he would totally get jealous if he caught you tallking to someone that wasn’t him.

he would probably give you the silent treatment and act like a pissy baby

He hates it when you touch his stuff

especially his photos, the photos were special to him because they were of him and his army friends.

You’d sometimes catch him looking at the photos with a longing in his eyes, it was highkey sad.

having you live with him meant lots and lots of training

he made sure you were always prepared for matches and that you don’t get downed early

when you got downed early however, He would scold you but he would still rescue you anyways because he’s soft

“You’re such an idiot, you’d better do better next time! Or else I’ll kick your ass.” 

one time he got cocky while kiting because you were watching him

he forgot to turn on his elbow pads and face palmed into the wall.

“...You saw nothing.” He turned around, a bit woozy from hitting his head on a wall. He flipped the hunter off before stumbling wooshing away

When you first get to know naib, he’d probably come off as intimidating and menacing

but once you get to know him--the real him--, you start to understand that even though he may be tough on you, its because he wants you to be the best

he has good intentions

During matches he’d let you handle yourself and made sure you didn’t rely on him too much

One time you needed to shower but you ran out of your shampoo so you used his.

When he questioned you, you simply responded “What? You don’t need it anyways, you’re bald!”

He didn’t rescue you the next round.

should’ve seen that coming

though he forgives you when you braid his luscious long existent hair for him

Kurt Frank

The amount of times you almost stepped on this man is astronomical.

he would constantly be in his tiny form because he would lose a lot of his things

his tiny form helped him find his things easily

Though when you first moved in with him, you had no idea what his ability was

so when you first saw a tiny version of your roommate you thought he was just a weird doll

until you heard him say a tiny, “Hey can you move your ginORMOUS foot? You’re stepping on my book.”

You fucking screeched and took off your shoe to try and kill him

“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”

After he explained to you about his ability you calmed down a bit and spared this tiny man but only this time!

Frank loves books, he probably filled your shared rooms with stacks on stacks of books

You’d often see him tiny, waving at you while you’re decoding

Once you overhead Kurt arguing with First Officer over who was the rightful owner of some sort of treasure map

They fought for days,

kurt would constantly complain about it to you

turns out it was just a game on the back of a Cereal box.

sorry this is short like kurt

Tracy Reznik

Would be a little awkward at first, but the awkwardness slowly fades away when you both make bad jokes

she gives me childhood best friend vibes

Has her doll sitting in the corner of your shared room room, it’s lifeless eyes scare the living shit out of you in the dark you try not to make eye contact, afraid it’ll curse you or smth

if she was mad at you she would move the bot in a way that looked like it was flipping you off you off in your direction before you went to bed.

Always making little robot things that are super fun to play with

Loves sharing her things. Has no problem with it

you wanna wear her clothes? sure

you want to wear her underwear? evEN BETTER-

Pulling all nighters, trying to get her machines to work like how she wanted it to work.

Would live off of kraft Mac n cheese and junk food in the modern day

Pretty hyper, chugs pink monster energy drinks while pulling all nighters, also, in the modern day

would probably be a bruh girl

Her room is a mess, covered with blueprints and scrap metal

her room is practically a safety hazard

Sometimes she dresses her doll up a bit, putting wigs or her old clothes on it (which scares you half to death)

Once she made her doll dress up like her

and you almost went up to it to ask what it wanted for dinner.

Has a photo of her and her dad

You never wanted to bring it up, worried it might make her upset :(

Sometimes she’d feel really guilty about being downed in the first 30 seconds

please comfort her, she feels super bad

She always relies on you to rescue her

She gets really happy and thankful when you body block for her but she still gets a bit concerned when you do it randomly

“i wasn’t even kiting-” “Protecc the mecc.”

Demi Bourbon

Always out at the bar

Smells like alcohol constantly

tipsy 24/7

she’s never 100% sober

You have to hold her hair out of her face when she comes back to your shared room to hurl

Likes bringing back hard vodka or weird flavoured alcohols back for you guys to get wasted try together

Room is bit cluttered, but she doesn’t have much in her room since she’s always out in bars or matches

Usually latches onto you like a parasite when she’s drunk.

it gets a bit awkward when her face is a bit close to yours,

“Are we about to kiss right now-? BLeurghgrhgherrgh.”“...*audible sigh*”

You’d go to her expecting her to heal you like a normal person but no

instead she shoves dovlin down your throat

She likes to do your makeup, and always adds a matching beauty mark

unless you don’t wear makeup, then she’d ask you to do hers 

always loves how she looks afterwards

more than sometimes demi would get into bar fights, 

so you know she’s about to throw hands when she starts takes off her earrings-

10/10 would fight for you <3

She’s gives me cool wine aunt vibes

Probably a lesbian too (check out our Demi smut fic ;))

Or bi, idk

Just straightn’t

She’s really good at hyping you up, especially when you’re taking shots

“CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG-”

Andrew Kreiss

Would be very shy at first, opens up a little when you get to know him

Totally a night owl, can’t sleep at night from all the guilt and “what if’”s

if you see this baby awake at night, hug him, he really needs it

You’ve never seen the other side of his face

How does he see with hair in his eyes?

He’s albino, which is super dope

Sometime you fear he’s thinking about burying you

You always see him thwacking Luca with his shovel

Barely talks

Room is moderate

He doesn’t want you to find out too much about him

He may seem bland, but he loves sweet food

You’d bake him cookies and other sweets

He’d act as if he’s not embarrassed and brush it off

“Are you blushing?”“No, I-I’m sunburnt.” “On your face?” “....I stare into the hot red sun sometimes because it eases me.”

to keep his lie going, every time he catches you staring at him he would fry his eye balls by staring into the sun until you left

partially the reason why he can’t see well

When he’s not looking, you stare at him while he’s eating the stuff you made because he looks so happy :’)

One time you found him down in the dumps so you made him a cup of coffee, and when you handed it to him you said-

“Depresso espresso?”

*sniff* ”..are you oka-” “IM NOT CRYING, YOU ARE”

he actually cried

it was such a nice gesture(?), that he started ugly crying

You’d ask him if he wanted hugs during matches when you see him get stressed

He’d be flushed and kinda confused

hug... him? why tho lmao

he’d definitely agree tho, to be fair, with some hesitation 

if y’all ever cuddled in bed, i feel like he’d be a little spoon

poor boy needs the comfort, he wouldn’t mind if you wanted to be little spoon tho

he just wants to be close to you

Victor Grantz

You love playing with his dog, Wick

Super nice and polite, but a little guarded

The type to be too afraid to call people out when they do something wrong but would totally trash them in his head

You write him little letters everyday and leave them on his bed to make him happy :))

He’d a be a little spoon

Wick would always join you guys while cuddling

Kisses would be soft and gentle

Usually sends you the first letter in matches

Loves to cuddle

He bb 🥰

You always get him a birthday present AND a Christmas present

You also get a gift for Wick

He loves giving you surprise hugs

Likes to read with you while cuddling

Literally a cinnamon roll

Once he was eating a cinnamon roll

And you whispered

“C a n n i b a l i s m .”

He was very confused

and kind of scared- were you going to eat him?

Patricia Dorval

Room always smells like herbs

She could literally smoke weed and you’d think it’s some magical healing herb

it magically makes you feel better

Always there to stun the hunter when you’re ballooned

The mature one

Her room is organized, with boxes labeling what herbs and magic stuff that are in them

You were cooking dinner for the day and you accidentally used one of her fancy herbs in your soup

She didn’t realize until she tried the soup

She wasn’t mad just disappointed

She lectured you on how you shouldn’t touch her stuff or use it for cooking

Gotta admit tho, the soup was pretty good

she acts like the mom everyone wishes they had

totally the type to be like, “dude we should think this through.” before doing something risky

and then five seconds later, “cowABUNGA MY DUDES”

one time she caught kreacher leaving the mens washroom without washing his hands

seeing as she was the mother of this manor, she had to protect her children from diseases

so she yeeted her monkey skull at kreachers head, cleanly knocking him out

and everybody cheered.

Melly Plinius

When you heard melly was going to be your roomie, you couldn’t have been more excited.

you finally had a victim for the many insect pick up lines!

So you decided to make some good first impressions by waiting for her in your room.

so when she arrived to your room and greeted you, you happily greeted her back, and slipped in the pick up line.

“Hello, my name is Melly. I believe I will be your ro-?”“Yeah nice to meet you too, say, what do bees make?”

She kinda thought you were a bit rude so much for first impressions

“...Erm, honey?” she replied hesitantly

“YES DEAR?” 

... okay maybe you weren’t thaaaat bad.

after that she kind of developed a teensy crush on you 

so it was hard living with you because of her crush, since she was constantly flustered 

you loved her reactions, she constantly got red.

it was funny watching her try to keep her cool and fail.

[lusther]

6/25/21

I FORGOT TO DO YESTERDYA PRETEND THIS IS YESTERDAY Ok so today was a rlly bad day at first, both me n my gf were in a good mood until i started to get in a bad mood bc of this fuckin game that i kept raging at. i told her i was in a bad mood n needed a few mins, but when i came back she was in a badm ood aswell. SO FOR AWHILE WE BOTH WERE SAD Until later on i ws talkin to her and she fianlly told me why she was sad n i gave her advice n stuff n we ended up having a REALLY GREAT NIGHT we made so many plans for tmw were gna have a picnic tmw:DDD imsooooexcited tonight has been so awesome and were gna watch adventure time while we go to sleep its gna b so awesome!! Imm so happy Im so excitecd Help oka Im dobe with this but idk how to end it so Bye. 

[stony-ao3-feed]

Our Glory Days

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2nviYUt

by ZiaraDeRosa

Tony's hands are as gentle as an engineers hands can be when they reach up and grasp his face, in a hold that could be so loving but Steve knows better. He’s warm to the touch, and Steve finds himself forgetting the seventy years he spent beneath layers and layers of thick ice, trapped inside his mind with his own inner demons desperate to escape the field of craziness he had succumbed to— for all just a moment. It was gone, faster than Quicksilver, now all but a moment in the past.

(aka, Steve battles with insecurities and Natasha is the ultimate bro)

Words: 1219, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M, Other

Characters: Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Steve Rogers, Bruce Banner, Clint Barton, Tony Stark, James "Bucky" Barnes, HES MENTIONED BUT IDK MAYBE HE SHALL COME BACK, Thor (Marvel), Other Marvel people and SHIELD peeps

Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, One sided maybe idk I haven’t decided what I wanna do yeet, Steve kind of has the hots for Nat too but only cause Nat is hella butch oka

Additional Tags: Stony - Freeform, Steve and Natasha bonding, Insecure Steve, cause idk I feel like there isn’t that many fics of him being insecure, Bruce and Tony being bros, Science Bros, Steve has a whole lot of emotions in this yeet, ALSO IM REALLY BAD AT WRITING SO SORRY, Um sex, and stuff, Smut, Angst, sad boy hours ahead, Also yes I know Natasha has a freaky tea mug but shuddup, Trees are not life in this uwu, Nat gets real, Tony is kind of an ass maybe idk but everyone is an ass when you think about it, Jarvis is listening to everything, or maybe its friday, IDK THERE ISNT REALLY A TIMELINE OR SPECIFIC TIME IN THIS SO YEET, they out here praising god for tonys ass uwu

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2nviYUt

[ettuce-blog]

hhi i <3 ryder

 sdfghjkl SSOBS  HHI hh,, im tig n its 1:17 in the morning and im rley sad and lonley and,,, uh yea,,,, lovesick,,, and im,,,,, a sad loser who is clingy n bad,,,, and really,, anoying,,, and wants to not exist,, n rydr is asleepe,,,, and,,, i miss them alot and,,,, im goin to go cry again,,later, ,,,,,,,,,,,  but even tho im sad i wanna make somone hapy sso i jst decided,, to wrtie a thing fr my favorite person in th entire universe bcus theyr the only one wwho makes me superrr happyeee :D ccries,,, hhhhhh okaaaa 

sob HHHHHhhhhhh I LLOV rydr soo SSO SOOooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3333333 hhnhn I LOVEE THEMMmmm nkggfdssdfghjkkhj imight die,,,theyr so amazing and i think theyr th best n theyr actually perfect ssobb ilov everything about them so much,,,, ssobs ilov thm so much sometimes i jst,, sit on th floor and just,, cry sobs,,, im nnot realy good at talkng n wordss nn sstuf ssob hh ;;W;;,,,but um hh,, id never ever ever,, trade them for anything in th entire universe everr,,,, i never WWANNA CHANGE ANYTHIN ABOUT THM EVERRRrr!!! bc theyre perfect just the way they are ssobb <33 HHNGJjgb  ssobb ther really realy RREALYY NNICE TO MEE  SSOBBB NN PRETYyy nn amazing annn superr super super TALENTEDD ANDD AMAZINGGGg even tho iam annoying and too affectionate,,,,,,,, ANDB OMG ther art is litterally th best,, ssob its actual   g o l d and i would jump of a cliff fr them and ther art,,,, n would sell my kidney and my feet fr thier art,,,,its jst hhnjgffffhjjngdddg AND!! they can write soo wellllllllll TOO!! SHGDFH SSOB THY WRITE SOoooooo AMAZINGLY GOODD HH,, like gggosh hhhh i jst

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AND OMGOMGGGgg THEYY MAKE MEE SSSOOO HAPPYYYyy HHhh they make me smile evn wwhen im ssupr ssad ssob SSOB I TRYY SUPER HARDD ALL TH TIME TO MAKE THEM HAPPYYYYE AL TH TIMEE <3333 BECAUSE THEY!!! MEAN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE TOO MEEEEEEE !!!’<3333 //cries on th floor,, and theyre the only person who realyy cares nn sstuff and talks to me and i feel realy safe with them and,, andn they light up my life and iduno what id do without thhem ssobb an iduno ssob,, they jst,,, iduno im jst realy inlov with them,,,,,,,,,, AND THE’Y ARE SUPER PRETTYYYY AND REALLY REALY CUTe,,,,,,      ;;W; <33 ,,,,,,,  and hDGJGHGjfbdfh THEYRR THEEEE CUTEStT PRETTIEStT hhHOTTEST PERSON ALIVE EVERrrrrr SSOBS like rly theyr REALLYYYYY great,,,,,,,n rly???? hot i,,,guess,,i,,,,,,,,,im ace but,,,,,,,i guess,,,, im like,,,,,,,,,,60% acesexual for,,,, them???????????? iv never,, ever been attracted to anyone,,, but i,,,,,, i

ILIKE THEM alo t 

rydr is not jst pretty,,,,,,,,, they ar,,, mag n i f i c e n t,,, beautiful,,, a d o r a b le,,, the best,,,, and jst,,, sso amazing and perfect ssobb i duno hhh

an NNOT ONLY ar they good at evereything,,,,,,,,,, but they r also a thief,,, BC THEy stole my heart 17284858585 times cries an theyr the lov of my life oka sobs,,,, tthey make me sso happy hh,,  my lov fr them triples evereyday,, and i alreaddy lov them mor than anything that ever existed ever ccriies theyr like,,, the only personn wwho can make me feel really realye happy!! ssobs n i love them so ssso much an,, idk ssob,,  thatss kinda scaryy to mee hh ssob,,, but its oky!!! ilov them ssoo much iduno really wwhat else to say rrealy ssob i always telll them that ilov them n stuff n idk i dont wanna be annoying,,,

BUttttT ILOV THEMM SSO MUCHhhhhh 

( iam sory,,, if ur reading this rydr,,,ilov u,,,,,,,,,) i   //sweats,,,,,,,,,

 i wouldf,,,,,,,,, die fr u,,,,,,,, sobs,,,,,,,,, 

n im sooo terribl at describing things jst like im terribl at evereything else ssob,,,,  hhnn im ssorrry,,, BUT SSOBS ther the bestest person i hv ever met in the entire universe and i would die fr them and i would take 45785855 bullets fr them,, and would walk to th moon for them,,, n i wil go wwherever they wanted me tooo n i would walk to thier house in a blizardd if they wer sad or wanted me to a blizard,, inside a hurricane,,, yes,, a hurricane blizzard,, sddfghjk  AND i cant wait to meet them !!!!!!!! <333 n hug them forever an never let go ever until they yell at me,, and live togethr one day and bake them cookies <33 and give them flowers n tel them ilov thm everey second!! and annoy them at night,, and watch scarey movies together and look for ufos,,, an meet ther fav musicians and to just make them feel hhhappy and safe an do watever they like!! ssobs also ilov them mor than they lov madeon which is alot,,,, iam,, i  im,,,

im super super sorrrey this is verey long,,,,,  ;; W ;

iam sory for the typos,,,,,,my keyboard is broken,,, that is my excuse 

 also iam ryders #1 fan,,,,,,,,,,

[ao3feed-stony]

Our Glory Days Are Ahead

by ZiaraDeRosa

Tony's hands are as gentle as an engineers hands can be when they reach up and grasp his face, in a hold that could be so loving but Steve knows better. He’s warm to the touch, and Steve finds himself forgetting the seventy years he spent beneath layers and layers of thick ice, trapped inside his mind with his own inner demons desperate to escape the field of craziness he had succumbed to— for all just a moment. It was gone, faster than Quicksilver, now all but a moment in the past.

(aka, Steve battles with insecurities and Natasha is the ultimate bro)

Words: 1219, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M, Other

Characters: Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Steve Rogers, Bruce Banner, Clint Barton, Tony Stark, James "Bucky" Barnes, HES MENTIONED BUT IDK MAYBE HE SHALL COME BACK, Thor (Marvel), Other Marvel people and SHIELD peeps

Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, One sided maybe idk I haven’t decided what I wanna do yeet, Steve kind of has the hots for Nat too but only cause Nat is hella butch oka

Additional Tags: Stony - Freeform, Steve and Natasha bonding, Insecure Steve, cause idk I feel like there isn’t that many fics of him being insecure, Bruce and Tony being bros, Science Bros, Steve has a whole lot of emotions in this yeet, ALSO IM REALLY BAD AT WRITING SO SORRY, Um sex, and stuff, Smut, Angst, sad boy hours ahead, Also yes I know Natasha has a freaky tea mug but shuddup, Trees are not life in this uwu, Nat gets real, Tony is kind of an ass maybe idk but everyone is an ass when you think about it, Jarvis is listening to everything, or maybe its friday, IDK THERE ISNT REALLY A TIMELINE OR SPECIFIC TIME IN THIS SO YEET, they out here praising god for tonys ass uwu

source http://archiveofourown.org/works/20802797

[briteboy]

MORE ASKS I’VE BEEN IGNORING!!!!!!!

GET ‘EM WHILE THEY’RE HOT

P.S. ALL OF U WHO SENT ME THE CHAIN THINGY ILYSOMUCH 

Why is her step-douche such a foken piece of shit? omg i hate him

some mysteries are never meant to be explained tbh. why is he so ugly and evil? who wronged him? but also who cares he’s in jail forever now good riddance ugly

I know this is probably really bad, but after I saw the newest molly posts, I thought of that video where the little girl is yelling "MISS KEISHA, MISS KEISHA, oh my fukin gosh she fukin dead"

OMFGFD I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT THAT VIDEO WAS SO I JUST WATCHED IT AND I’M LAUGHIN

i don’t blame u i bet when it happens i’m gonna be like “u know she ded”

(To the previous anon) i agree with you so, so much! In Poland, these dumbass politicians are letting shooting pregnant bisons (?? Im not sure how they're called) become legal. Like BITCH WHAT. Can you imagine??? A fucking pregnant lil' cow getting shot????? I feel Molly's pain on an emotional level rn (sorry if this is too nsfw, just needed to get that outta my system...)

i think this was in response to someone saying that hurting pregnant women is one of the worst crimes but um WTF shooting animals at all makes me itchy but pregnant ones..............nah that’s......nah

it’s ok get it outta ur system i’m here 4 u

the first thing I check in the morning is your account.... you have me whipped! ;|

OMG WHA LMAO REALLY that’s wild. i feel like i’m the only one who looks at my page which is dumb but like idk i still feel like a little kid that no one cares about lmao. but then you guys exist and amaze me with your responsiveness every day and i just ;____________; ily all

hi Sunny. first of all i'm gonna say i love your story and your editing style so much! your blog is goals like literally. i need an advice if you don't mind. you always find such amazing angles for your pictures while mine are so boring. any tips or tricks you can share?

HI thank you so much ;-; sooooo i’ve been thinking about this question the past couple of times i went in game, trying to figure out how to describe how i take pictures. for one thing i live in tab mode lmao. meaning you press the tab button on your keyboard to go into camera mode and get all these sexy angles and super zoom and stufffff. i almost always zoom in super far idk why. so there’s one tip. i honestly just play around with going up and down with the q and e keys (i think?) until i find angles i like. i take a lottttt of pictures with so many different angles just so i have a lot to choose from. basically i try to focus on different things in each picture in order to get a mix of the most diverse and dynamic shots possible. you just need to experiment and get creative. i know that’s the most vague advice ever but really just try a new angle that you’ve never considered before and i bet you’ll get cool results. an interesting setting is also the biggest factor, because certain objects and their placements will give you interesting results. 

i honestly want to print out your reaction pic to that one post and just hang it on my wall, put it in my heart locket necklace, stamp it on people's faces, start an email thread with it. i love it.

an add on to the last ask i sent about your reaction pic. i've been looking at it religiously since it was posted, and i dont regret a minute of it. LMAO I'LL STOP NOW.

SAKJDLJKGKSDAF STOPPPP LMAOOO i looked so ugly but that was my pure unadulterated reaction to that question and i trust you all to not judge my ugliness and instead share this reaction with me. i’m glad u liked it that much, i just printed it out and i’m cutting it into a small heart to put inside ur locket ok

everytime i hear cigarette daydreams by cage the elephant i think of a serious case of the novembers like its so fitting and then i get all emo when i listen to it lmao rip

OMMMMGGGGGGG YESSSSS how have i never made that connection before honestly. cage the elephant is one of my faves and i’ve seen them perform twice actually!! i’m watching the music vid for that song now and even that reminds me of my story ;-; i cry

thank you for sending this, and also i cry @ the fact that you used the actual title *dies* now this song is gonna make me emo til the end of time thx

i might sound like some crazy stalker fan but i just want to say you are so freakin awesome and nice and funny and cute and (i can go on forever) so caring! i love your blog so much and all the hard work and care you put into all your posts and followers. thanks for making my day and making me smile so much. you have no clue how much i look forward to seeing your posts and your hilarious hashtags and answers from asks and AMAZING story posts. im sorry i just wanted to let you know ur awesome ily

OFMG WHAT!!!!!! I AM ONLY AN EEL!!!!!! but no you don’t sound like a crazy stalker, i actually love this, you’re too sweet, thank you ;-; i’m just blushin so much reading this omg. YOU EVEN LIKE MY TAGS WOW that’s true love. ily ;-; <333

how do you get your sims' facial expressions to line up with your scenes? I feel like my sims' faces are never right :(

tbh i just use a lot of the same neutral poses...my go-to’s are @helgatisha‘s poses lol. they’re the easiest to work with when i do just plain talking scenes, and often i tweak my sims’ eyebrows and mouths with the liquify tool if i want them to look a bit more concerned, sad, mad, happy, etc., it works like a charm!! i also tend to play around with angles, you’d be surprised how much a different angle can enhance a scene.

Hey smol bean, I'm sent you an ask and now I feel bad that it probably made you feel anxious because you didn't answer it. It was the one about you not liking my posts, I have anxiety too so I'm sorry If I made you feel sad. I think I'm just looking for validation from people I look upto you get me? Anyway sorry again, don't worry about it! Love you!

hiya bb, i know you saw my answer to your original post (and i’m sorry it got some negative attention, i didn’t mean for that to happen by any means) anyway don’t sweat it, and i really appreciate this follow-up message. you didn’t make me feel sad, i just wanna know what i can do. it’s just a hard question y’know. i understand what you mean, i think everyone wants validation to some degree. tbh you can just come off anon and message me, i promise it’s not as nerve-wracking as it seems! ily

How did you make Santi's tattoos? I want some like that for my Sims but idk how to do it

boop

I HAVE A FEELING THAT MOLLY IS GOING TO DIE DURING THE BIRTH OF THE BEAN OR IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH HER STEPFATHER FINDING OUT ABOUT THE BEAN

WELP U WERE RIGHT ABOUT ONE THING

how did you make your characters page on your blog like that?

uoohhh like what?? i used this theme (monolog) if that’s what you mean aheh. here’s a guide on how to use custom page themes

okay so THIS IS MY THEORY: they might keep the baby and molly might actually carry it to full term, but then the kid dies in childbirth and either molly also dies or maybe kills herself or gets killed later? or maybe she's still alive but just won't speak to santi anymore cause she like can't look him in the eye after all of that or idk?? since ppl were sending theories i wanted to add mine lmao. another possible theory is that the stepdad finds out and kills her but thats TOO DARK omg

TOO DARK U SAY...WELL!!! it’s not AS dark as you guessed but only marginally

If Molly turns out to be alive and raising their kid alone (though from what I'm seeing in response to most questions I think that may not be the route) am I allowed to slap Santi (unless Molly didn't give him the option to help) because raising a child alone is not easy I've watched my mom do it for years.

YEAH i would give you permission to slap him lmao he would be a grade A piece o’ shit if that were the case. i would never ever write that tho because santi does own up to his actions if they’re that detrimental. his altruistic nature, no matter how backwards, would never allow him to do that.

There will be complication with the abortion so she will not be able to carry a baby anymore and she's going to kill herself OR her step dad is going to find out and he'll beat her to death. And in both situation Santi his blaming himself because he wasn't there at the right time... Okay I really really hope I'm wrong now !

I don't even follow your story very closely but every time I see your posts my heart hurts.

OMFG...that’s how u know the pain is real

but like wow my stuff is really so visceral that even my apathetic followers can feel the hurt...that’s real...that’s real my guy

omg!! you should 100% play or at least watch a playthrough of life is strange! legit the best game ever made, its so beautiful. the storyline kills you a thousand times over (much like your beautiful story) <3333

yaaaa i’ve heard lots of good things about it!! my bf played it actually, maybe he’ll revisit it again someday and i’ll watch him do it (i’m only a fan of video games if i can watch them like a movie lmao) thank you btw <3

I am shook and I worship you and your story and you are amazing WOW BYE

WORSHIP LMAO WHAT!!! PLS I AM UNDESERVING...ily tho don’t worship false gods

Do you let Molly and the younger versions of your characters frolic around your main save or do they have a separate one?

UM YES LMAO because i didn’t even know you could have separate saves until after i started the flashbacks lmao i’m...a noob. i don’t want separate saves anyway because 1) it’s too much of a hassle switching back and forth and 2) it gets too confusing for me and i’d be afraid of overwriting one save with another and NOPE too much anxiety for that soooo yeah there’s three santis in my game: child, teen and adult lmfao (fun fact: teen santi’s name is literally just Lil Santi)

I made it to my senior year with 6 A's and 1 B ... Be proud of me too? 😂 Lmao I told this to people and some of them were just like .. okay cool?! LMAO it's so funny but also kinda sad

I AM PROUD OF YOU TOO!!!!!!!!! my smart childrens

“okay cool” UM PLEASE that’s a feat...at my school if you got an A in a class in senior year you were allowed to be exempt from the final. so yeah that rules. ily

[mawklee]

Idk what your fandoms are aaaa so i guess bmc??

yES thank you god bless ur soul my friendThe character I least understand:Probably Chloe,,, , or Jeremy's dad,, sorry lolInteractions I enjoyed the most:Rich calling Jake "Jakey D" bc tru best brofriends have the best nicknamesAlso the entire boyf riends thing obviouslyAnd J's dad asking Michael if he loves Jeremy and our dear sweet Micycle is just like "whhat hahahahaa"Also Jake singing to Christine because I love Jake's voice he can step on me anytimeAnd finally "did you kill Eminem???" ".....not exactly" bc that was so funny the first time I read itThe character who scares me the most:Definitely the terrible walking floppy disc bc that thing really fucked J and Rich up,, like if I got a squip it would take me down in two seconds flatThe character who is mostly like me:Our humble little tall ass beanpole,,,, Jremy Heere,, ,the awkward lanky dork with the dopey smile and homosexual tendencies,,,, ,,Hottest looking character:Jakey D he can step on me anYTIME IM GAYOne thing I dislike about my main character:He's not my boyfriend,, ,One thing I like about my hated character:I don't hate anyone,, but J's dad is probably my least fav just because I'm not a big fan of the pants song but I do like the fact that he knows how gay his son's best friend is,A quote or scene that haunts me:"Everything about me makes me wanna die"The squip manipulated Jeremy into saying that but J wouldn't have said it if he didn't mean it and fuck I'm so similar to him god there are so many thingsAlso Michael In The Bathroom. Just the entire goddamn song. Because Michael has one friend and they love each other but he just got abandoned by the closest person in his life and he's falling apart and yeah I've been there I've lived thatA death that left me indifferent:The squip lmao (That's the only """death""" but I wasn't sad to see that bitch go)A character I wish died but didn't:The squip because it's not actuALLY GONE AND LIKE IT MADE RICH LOSE HIS MIND CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN IT KIND OF SNEAKS BACK LIKE HOW DOES RICH RESPOND TO IT does he have a panic attack????? Does he swallow it down?????? Does Jake help him deal with it?????????? I've thought about this a lot and I just want my kids to be happy oka yMy ship that never sailed:None. All the ships are canon literally all of them thanks Joe Tracz for my entire life no one is straight it's all real bye

[mnhynq]

literally cannot remember the last time I didnt want to d word

[pinkdolly6]

ex

i saw my ex and his new gf at the peach, they are on vecation, i didnt felt sad or anything, i felt very grossed out by there “cute” pics bc there tounges were out and it was white so... i am happy that he is happy, in fact i dont realy give a fuck what hes doing or how he is i have my own stuff to think about, but the vibes htat came from there whole relationtip is that his new gf is rich and older than him, thats his type. so thats really bad for him and the girl to when she realizes how fucked up situation she is in. how i feel is very weird im not fully joyful but at the same time i do not care about m ex or his happy times. i do not feel bad but still not fully joyfull. why do i feel this way? i am completly over him and tbh i d not even want to have someone romantic in my life, but why am i not fully joyfull?

i kinda need answer to why i feel his way, am i not comletly over? am  jealous? am i sad over there situation? am i lacking romantic love in my life? i have no idea but form thee pics such a bad vibe comes to me, like its dark and snakey vibes, idk why i have that but only thing i know is im not jealous or lacking rmanic love in my life. it feel like something is gonna happen to him in couple of months, its not good its bad. but whatever i dont care that that much aither. 

tbh after my ex its the first time how comlite and full i fell. i am happy and proud of myself and my improvements, i love myself the way i am and im starting to accept and change things that i dont like about myself.  i am fully gorwying myself which feel godly. i am in peace i feel like i am starting a new chapter,  i am becoming more sacsessful and i still do not know how to spell <3 ,but thats oka.  feel free and happy about myself and my improvements. 

 also i have this weird opssesion of myself i feel like my face become pretty and im more attractive han i was befoe, i really love how my face is looking. im focusing on myself mostly i do not talk to anybody i do not like anybody its only me and me building my better version of self. 

[ao3feed-buckybarnes]

Our Glory Days Are Ahead

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2nviYUt

by ZiaraDeRosa

Tony's hands are as gentle as an engineers hands can be when they reach up and grasp his face, in a hold that could be so loving but Steve knows better. He’s warm to the touch, and Steve finds himself forgetting the seventy years he spent beneath layers and layers of thick ice, trapped inside his mind with his own inner demons desperate to escape the field of craziness he had succumbed to— for all just a moment. It was gone, faster than Quicksilver, now all but a moment in the past.

(aka, Steve battles with insecurities and Natasha is the ultimate bro)

Words: 1219, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M, Other

Characters: Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Steve Rogers, Bruce Banner, Clint Barton, Tony Stark, James "Bucky" Barnes, HES MENTIONED BUT IDK MAYBE HE SHALL COME BACK, Thor (Marvel), Other Marvel people and SHIELD peeps

Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, One sided maybe idk I haven’t decided what I wanna do yeet, Steve kind of has the hots for Nat too but only cause Nat is hella butch oka

Additional Tags: Stony - Freeform, Steve and Natasha bonding, Insecure Steve, cause idk I feel like there isn’t that many fics of him being insecure, Bruce and Tony being bros, Science Bros, Steve has a whole lot of emotions in this yeet, ALSO IM REALLY BAD AT WRITING SO SORRY, Um sex, and stuff, Smut, Angst, sad boy hours ahead, Also yes I know Natasha has a freaky tea mug but shuddup, Trees are not life in this uwu, Nat gets real, Tony is kind of an ass maybe idk but everyone is an ass when you think about it, Jarvis is listening to everything, or maybe its friday, IDK THERE ISNT REALLY A TIMELINE OR SPECIFIC TIME IN THIS SO YEET, they out here praising god for tonys ass uwu

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2nviYUt

[survivorsolomonislands]

Episode 9 “Find out who your true friends are” -Aromal

I DID IT I BEAT 15 DAYS I BEAT 13TH PLACE AND I MADE JURY AND PROBABLY MERGE I FEEL HOT

(a little bit later)

I'm so sad bc Dana has been the REALEST w me since day 1 and Mitchell lied to me about his idol so idek if I can fully trust him anymore and aaaaaah Looks like its me Mitchell Matt willow allie aro and whoever Mitch can pull over from the other tribe but I'm really sad my mom was idoled out its just not fair

i hate double tribals i really do especially if its one world since everyone has to say something to someone else in order to save their homies and ALLLL offense i still hate the small talk so like what else is there for me to do besides get ma plants and chill. so the round started off with willow trying to talk to me but then completely going missing but then talking to johnny (home boy af btw. squad in the house) about how she can save all the newbies using mitchell and danas vote which basically confirmed what i already knew of the old makiura alliance being tight. but that only leaves 2 people to get voted out and that is me or ryan which 1. duh and 2. not today satan. i quickly established ma thang with johnny even more so he can continue to give me info that i needed on the newbies like aro/zak having an idol to use on each other, lily having the makiura one, etc but it also got me thinking that maybe i should continue to try talking to the newbies cause they seem festive but then willow goes and lies so i said fuck dat. ryan and johnny made like 2 alliances with us on the same day which i high key didnt see the point of doing bottthhh but ya know be festive. they came up with this idea of splitting votes which i never like doing really since it is really sus af but i told them ayy great plan whatever just to make them not yell at me for not being alive but thEN! i was like this high key makes no sense to do??? so if there is a rat then im just going to stfu so no one can have tea on me and guess what. RYAN THE RAT???? [4/24/17, 8:52:11 PM] Dana Barry: So i know there's a vote split [4/24/17, 8:52:20 PM] Dana Barry: Not to be blunt [4/24/17, 8:52:49 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Okay :S [4/24/17, 8:54:07 PM] ~~Johnny~~: How do you know about the split? [4/24/17, 8:57:19 PM] Dana Barry: Ryan is blowing up your alliances game to gain favor on the other side [4/24/17, 8:57:31 PM] Dana Barry: They literally all know and have been in contact since the plan was conceived [4/24/17, 8:58:50 PM] Dana Barry: I know we havent talked a lot, but i really didnt think you were going to vote me [4/24/17, 8:58:56 PM] ~~Johnny~~: And I’m assuming that Ryan has been getting you guys to vote for someone else? [4/24/17, 8:59:00 PM] ~~Johnny~~: That isn’t LA? [4/24/17, 8:59:09 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Because Mitchell just said that he wasn’t voting for LA [4/24/17, 8:59:13 PM] Dana Barry: Nah it isnt [4/24/17, 8:55:19 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Why do you even think that though? [4/24/17, 8:55:36 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: Is it not true though? [4/24/17, 8:56:42 PM] ~~Johnny~~: It is [4/24/17, 8:57:12 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: I figured lol [4/24/17, 8:57:25 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: If we're being honest I've never been voting for LA [4/24/17, 8:57:37 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Who were you voting for..? [4/24/17, 8:58:07 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: If y'all tryna sneak split vote me out why would I give that up ! [4/24/17, 8:58:40 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Well, I didn’t want you out, and you were getting 2, but now I’m being told information about how you guys found it out [4/24/17, 8:59:06 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: Someone's got some pretty loose lips on ur side [4/24/17, 8:59:15 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Ryan? [4/24/17, 8:59:22 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: Not to name names but there's a reason this person went 6 times without making single digits idk mitchell and dana are savage as fuck fdkughdk (but yeah we all know the rest. and dana got voted out by someone who was too busy sleeping to know what the fuck was happening. if that is not me!) the alliance chat is popping tho of ryan and johnny arguing. turns out mitchell is just annoying and likes to spread shit so who is really the rat. hm. the answer to that is good ol' matt. the most annoying guy to talk to and the main person i have been dying to leave for ages. god. literally he has been against my side since the start of this game and he continues to make things hard for himself.... if you are going to be a rat dont be obvi? i still dont 100% trust ryan but i do trust that matt is fucking ratatouille in the flesh so there is that. cant even just pay attention to his own tribal ctfu. I HATE THESE PEOPLE ESPECIALLYLYLLYYLYLYL HIM

Well this has officially been the craziest episode whatever you can call it of the season. Jacob went home as planned after complete chaos with Willow. Basically she told him I was targeting him just because she felt bad and it's cute and all that she has a good heart, but seriously she needs to get it together before I vote her off too. I think I have a lot of enemies now, obviously Jacob voted me and RTP played an idol and saved his ass after somehow Mitchell and Dana got everyone to vote him which was wild. I am so sad about Dana it's unreal I loved that girl. Now I still have Mitchell who hopefully hasn't lost any faith in me after I told Willow he had the idol, oops, and then lied to him and said I didn't say that because I can't own up to anything I did. Right now I am cooking I think, I got numbers, Mitchell, Allie, Willow, Zak, Aro, and even Johnny, and hopefully when it comes down to it I will be at the tippy top of the alliance since I believe firmly I have close relationships with many of these people. I flushed two idols tonight btw, and Daisy who had one, so in my two tribal councils I've literally just triple flushed idols like a really stinky poo. Ryan is mad at me but is willing to play the game but I don't trust his ass really.

Final Confessional! I just got voted out, and I'm not actually very sad because i went out WITH A BANG and i'm on jury, where I will make it my mission to ruin lives. Effectively, nobody is this damn game can keep their mouth shut, which was both the best and worst part of this season. As I said in my last Conf., Matt was feeding us info, but basically fucked up that line of communication by getting himself caught as a snake. But about 2 hrs before tribal, Mitch and I get word that the other 5 on our tribe are splitting votes 3-2 for me to go out because they thought I could have an idol I guess. So at this point, Mitch and I were voting RTP and it looked like i was definitely goin. Mitch's idol wasn't going to be useful for us there, because even if he had given it to me (which he wouldn't have), there would have been a tie for him and RTP and his ass was grass at that point. So basically, we're tryin to think of options like 1.5hrs before tribal, and so Mitch and I just start goin nuts. I'm saying all this crazy shit to LA to make her vote with me: [4/24/17, 8:30:29 PM] Dana Barry: Listen- i know you guys are splitting for me tonight, but i wanted to talk to you first. [4/24/17, 8:39:09 PM] Dana Barry: I know we havent talked a lot- and there's not really much incentive for you to want to vote with me, but Ryan has been throwing you under the bus for days, basically since the game started. He wants nuTemoana to be a thing post- merge, which automatically leaves you out of any plan he has. [4/24/17, 8:44:06 PM] Dana Barry: I love ryan as a person- but he isn't with you long term, and i know you'd be taking a risk, but at merge we would have numbers. Also i'd be willing to vote whoever you are interested in taking out tonight, which would be a big move for you in this game, because inevitably you will make it far. This would build a lot of trust, which i DO NOT betray unless i find people are coming for me in this game. Sorry this is a lot, just something to consider as someone outside of the core alliance. [4/24/17, 8:45:53 PM] Dana Barry: Obviously this means I have no idol, so if you don't want me out and want options down the line, i'm here and i have no more options. And Mitch is on call with Johnny tellin him about how shady RTP is, and then eventually I get on with them where i'm literally hiding out in the bathroom of the bar to talk to them. So then we're all about to vote RTP, and for a minute there is some consideration for Lexi, but then Johnny is like nah RTP doesn't have an idol. OK-so at this point the four of us could just vote RTP. Then someone tells Lexi to also vote RTP, which she does. EXCEPT SOME FUCKER TELLS RTP TO PLAY HIS IDOL BECAUSE WE'RE ALL ABOUT TO VOTE HIS ASS OUT. LIKE OMG PLS EVERYONE HAVE SOME CHILL. So I know that Mitch has the idol, and i'm the only one on our tribe, so both he and RTP play idol, meaning that because Luca was asleep and voted me, my ass gets voted out. While I'm not sure how RTP found out he needed to play the idol, my best guess is Lex? Idk her well and she would be the most likely to be close to him and then just vote him as a cover for herself. Alternatively, some things were getting funky with the other tribe, where basically Matt and Willow (who was also being fed info by Johnny. like what?) also knew how desperately Mitch and I were trying to save me, and so maybe they reached out to RTP for some odd reason. Am I happy? NO.  But also I was so problematique tonight and really caused a problem, which is absolutely my aesthetic and i wouldn't have played it any other way. So, peace out Solomon, get ready for your most vocal juror. Please Mitch- you better be dancin and win this. 

Hey! Remember me! I'm still here! Barely.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3ykj-8n1M4&feature=youtu.be 

Mitchell is the gayest straight boy I know and I know myself when I was 12.

Yay I made both jury and merge! :D Double yayy for making merge with a majority alliance! :D First merge vote is looking like Ryan and even people outside our alliance wants him gone. Rip

This flag making challenge made me mad because I had an okay idea, but then the app I was using crashed like 50 fucking times, and so I lost all my progress. Since i kept loosing all my progress I didn't even finish with the extension oops. But if I had more time my idea was gonna be to also add quotes of what people have said in the tribe chat next to their icons.

Pino Noir Caviar, Myanmar, mid-sized car You don't have to be popular Find out who your true friends are Pino Noir In the boudoir (in the boudoir) Pino Noir, smoke a cigar Revenge can be spectacular Pino Noir x4 (Pino Noir) Pino Noir, leather bar Oh so close and yet so far Pino Noir x4 (Pino Noir) Pino Noir, you're a star Listen to Tom Berenger Pino Noir, Rosenbar Pino Noir Au Revoir

I won my first individual immunity !!! *screams* I didn't think I'd actually win this one but yay. I'm excited but I'm also really worried, people say I'm good at challenges and this win is definitely gonna put a bigger target on my back. It doesn't help that we tried to vote out Ryan either, cause obviously we are gonna have some trust issues now, we're still working together cause he says it's fine but he could just be saying that. It was weird having to talk to someone after voting them, usually the people I vote go home so this was the first time I had to talk to someone and try and fix the relationship and be like it was nothing personal. I'll see how this goes though, I need to try and be more social, its still my biggest problem.

ayo! its time to party aka have a heart attack for the rest of the night cause i hate major votes like this and this is the most important vote since the start of the game.... im gonna die. anyways so prior to the merge i guess some of the female newbies were tired of the attitudes given to them by the returnee males like matt and mitchell (which understandable lmao i hate being told what to do even tho i dont show it most of the time) so they came to pretty much everyone and expressed their interest in switching to the other side namely ryan johnny and i's side. the thing is, i know i can trust allie since she hasnt proven otherwise that she can't but willow is just a very shady person to talk to and she is very much not talking game with me so as of now, who knows what she is actually doing. it also concerns since she is the one that told mitchell and dana about the plan we had to split the votes so that obviously doesnt make me want to trust her to any extent. in hand with that, luca has also been very weird and i can't trust him as far as i can throw him which isnt very far since im barely 5 feet so... bleh. he was trying to get ryan out before the start of the reward challenge and i just do not know man! these newbies suck ass. and not in the good way! but yeah i won the reward hehe and got the idol clue hehe but found nothing... so 2/3 isnt bad i suppose for this round and i knew i wasn't winning immunity since everyone in this fucking community talks the exact same way like what is in the juice? speaking of the juice... these people got very drunk last night and normally i love drunk people but last night.. a moment in time. funny enough karen was also drunk but she was a nice convo to have. but yeah about the drunk people, i dont know if johnny is trying to be the next parvati or he actually believes what he is saying to me for some reason but i will not take the bait. at times like this i appreciate my lack of social skills. but thats all folks. hopefully matt leaves (or ryan tbh as long as it is NOT me) and that alliance is shook to the core.

So we just all said it's supposed to be Ryan and people are deadass so quiet rn that I'm like getting paranoid it's gonna be me but I don't wanna be that person who overthinks and then cut to me overreacting and making a dumb move and losing everyone's trust, so I'm just gonna keep my cool and if it's me tonight or something crazy allow this confessional to be proof that my ass ain't surprised.

DO I HAVE A LOT TO FUCKING SAY IF IM STILL HERE IN AN HOUR!!!

fuckfuckfuck the vote was set to be Ryan but apparently Willow told Zak something about another plan god im so nervous now