#ies becuz it died last week

[cl-babydew]

So I finished Kekkai Sensen Sunday night!!! A bit late in telling ya Cuz I had a super busy week last week! X,D Im honestly drained, ngl!!

Anyways!

I honestly enjoyed this anime!! Well, mainly s1!! S2 was honestly really messy and all over, and it kinda bored me a bit!! X,3 So that was upsetting a bit!

But s1, honestly is really good and enjoyable!! X3 It’s crazy too, cuz all of s1 is anime only, even White and Black!!! Which when I found that out, I was upset, and amazed! XD Upset becuz such good characters weren’t real, and that White died and Leo didn’t have his girl anymore!🥺 And amazed, becuz dang the storyline they came up with for just the anime?! It was really good!!!! Normally when an anime strays from the manga, it never ends well, tho in this case, I’d say it went really well! Besides s2, anyways, don’t know what happened there! X,D

Anyways!!

My favorite character would honestly be Klaus, he’s such a dad and I love it!🥺 He’s precious!!! Frankly would’ve loved more on his character!! X3

Not to mention more of Leo and White! X,3

As for my icon, well, that’ll be Leo and White! X3 So Here’s That:

I was gonna do a fanart, but it’s safer to do something from the actual anime! X3 So i chose that!! Gosh I miss them! X,3

Anyways, that’s all I got to say, sooo break time! X3

Byeeee, love y’all!!

[arinsanity]

ok so like. last week i got to play inscryption for myself using my uncle's ps4 YIPPEE

im just gonna ramble about my experience playing it here becuz why not :3 this is a very long post with large walls of text so be warned! only read if you wanna hear my dumb rambling :D (SPOILERS AHEAD!)

ACT 1:

i spent. way too much time on act 1..

1st play of act 1 went on as usual, ya beat the prospector then ya get to the angler too fast too soon then you fuckinf die yadda yadda yadda

so i think the game expects you to like beat the angler on the 2nd play of act 1. and i didnt. i made total misplays (becuz im a silly idiot :D) so i died to the angler and i had to restart.. i mean at least i wont have to restart at the trapper when leshy decides to pull out 8 fucking bears :3

ok my 3rd play of act 1! wow!! i should be able to get to the trapper now right? :0 no. i died at the angler. again. GRAHH

4th play. i think this was my best play yet becuz i got lucky to have squirrels with the 3 blood sigil and i was ZOOMIN thru the bosses! i made it to the trapper so i thought i'd be able to finally win! until i accidentally. switched the squirrel totem head. with a different one. which means. squirrels did not have 3 blood anymore. so yeah i died to the trapper :3

5TH PLAY RAHHH at this point i just wanted to get act 1 over with.. i realised my items existed (i am the world's dumbest inscryption player) so i just stole one of the angler's sharks to get it over with quickly. i made it to the trapper again and WON!!

FINALLY MADE IT TO LESHY'S FIGHT! i mean i didn't rlly have a good deck so i was pretty sure i was gonna die.. and i did :] on the first phase. so back to the start for me! at least i got to listen to leshy's amazing theme..

6th play! it went on as usual except i was stuck at the trapper and had to die and restart :D i'm such a good player! /s i'm pretty sure the scrybes who were still stuck in their animal forms are disappointed in me LMAO

7th play. i'd say i had a good deck going on for me so i managed to make it all the way back to leshy's fight! i was surprised it didn't take me that long to get back honestly..

LESHY'S FIGHT! again! :D my poisonous 2/2 mantis god quickly pulled me through the first phase but sadly it had to die from the prospector turning it into gold D: (RIP mantis god..) i managed to get through the 2nd phase pretty easily becuz i had some strong cards already on the board! then it's finally time.. FOR THE MOON!! which i immediately killed with my poisonous cat :3 WOO ACT 2 BABY!!

ACT 2:

YIPPEE!!

i finally made it to act 2! i was shaking from excitement seeing all the scrybes in the intro becuz the fixation on this game is real :3 (my family thought i was weird lol)

spent like. 10 minutes deciding which deck i wanted to use.. i ended up going with leshy's becuz i didn't trust myself with using any new cards yet :D

i realised that it may have been a dumb move becuz i forgor that act 2 didn't have the option to give you squirrels n it would just give it to you randomly.. so it took me a while to get going :']

once i had more cards i had a good thing going for my deck! defeated the prospector and angler but the trapper took a few attempts.. then i defeated leshy! :D yippee!!

went to defeat grimora next becuz skeletons :3 and becuz i wanted the tomb robber card so i can use tomb robber and field mice for.. THE RAT DECK. basically you use tomb robber to summon 2 skeletons, sacrifice them to put field mice on the board and repeat until the board is full of field mice! THE RAT DECK!! (if you know specifically who i got that from then ily /p)

magnifuck was next and defeating the students was relatively easy thanks to THE RAT DECK but i completely forgor magnificus's gimmick was that he replaces your sigils so uh.. i was screwed on his fight for a while.. but i managed to defeat him anyways so fuck you magnificus :3

i saved enough foils to get ourobouros so i could do the silly OUROBOUROS GRINDING. :D i grinded my ourobouros up to 30/30 using tomb robber with the training dummy! (tomb robber is literally carrying me lmao)

P03! the silly robor!! surprisingly didnt take me that long to figure out the puzzles and the inspector and melter were defeated easily :D dredger finds the OLD_DATA then it is time to defeat P03!

P03 had me stuck for a moment with the whole convenyor belt thing until my ourobouros pulled up and i quickly turned things around :D but then i also forgor it scans your best card and copies them on it's side of the board so uh.. yeah the ourobouros grinding was coming back to bite me :skull: THANKFULLY i survived the ourobouros apocalypse and defeated P03!

the act 2 finale goes on as usual, P03 pulls out the OLD_DATA and funni robor goes spin while the whole game glitches the hell out :D (my family thought i actually did something to break the game LMAO) TIME FOR ACT 3!!

ACT 3:

funni robor. sadly didn't get to finish this act becuz i had to go home D:

YIPPEE botopia!! i was pretty excited for this act becuz i could see my beloved archivist :3

i uh.. i struggled literally the FIRST battle of P03's act and even when i was done with it, i lost on the second battle and i was stuck on the first and second battles of act 3 for a while.. fuck you P03 >:(

i only made it until the first checkpoint before i had to stop and go back home :[ no archivist..

that's about what i remember! it was painful but i had fun and i love this game sm! thank you for reading the whole thing if you did, i hope my dumb rambling wasn't too annoying :D

have a nice day!

[pumpkzsafeplace]

m so tired. been workin all dis week at my day job n i spent a night wit my fren last night n i came home n everyfing wus all dirty becuz my family made a mess n left me to clean it up ;-; so now m tryna clean but dere’s so much to do n i feel so littl

also can be 🐾 anon pease?

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

hihi love 🌼

m’so sorry that you had a rough day yesterday,

in the future when you’re overstimulated like that, you could potentially structure out your cleaning and give yourself a positive treat once you’ve managed to clean a certain section 🧡.

that’s what i do when i’m feeling little but still have chores, it feels more rewarding! ⭐️.

and of course you can be 🐾 anon! welcome to the page! 🧡.

i hope you have a lovely day!

- 🍰

[certainpancake]

I watched quite a lot of shows this year and there are shows that I thought would be a major hit but didnt last, there are shows I started with quite a lot of doubts but actually finished them and loved them and there are shows that I put currently on hold becuz I am not quite sure where the show is going. As of 15/9/2023 these are shows I loved and these are shows dropped and there are shows I put on hold

Shows I watched with major doubts but finished them and loved a lot

Lost you forever - Just watched the show becuz I was curious who is xiangliu but the story telling and the way the actors carried the show was spectacular. Just realized how I like the stories to be told. Zhang wanyi accent was spectacular. Every character is interesting and I was still thinking about the show weeks after I marathoned.

Stay with me - Another show I clicked becuz I saw it on tiktok. A show I picked solely just to spend time but I was pleasantly surprised by the family content. I am quite used to the fan service of thailand that this took me by surprise. I loved every relation and that made the show somehow more heartwarming than any show I ever watched. I love it when I have to actively search for clues that these two people love each other. Was hangover for a week lollll

My school president - Also another show I picked just becuz I was free on friday night. I was quite positive that this show is spectacular when first episode ended and they would achieve a position in the gmmtv fixed bl pairs but never knew they would hit this big lollll. I think I forgot the ecstasy when I watched it but I am looking forward for all of their projects

Moonlight chicken - A controversial show for me becuz the adults are not giving, atleast for me. Heartliming ate and this is sad becuz I would love jimwen's part a lot more if they were done justice.

A league of nobleman - A show I expected a lot but it was quite a chore to get it done but around ep 15-ish I can see that all of these are connected and became more enjoyable. They cut the episodes from 40 down to ep 29 but the story still run smooth. What would have they cut? The romance?? we will never know... p.s the goth elements in this... *chef's kiss*

Shows I anticipated a lot but was not giving what I want so I dropped

Legend of anle - It was announced when WOH ended and I lowkey finished watching the long ballad and was lowkey obsessed with three main casts in general. But It felt like the show is just going round with di ziyuan acting questionable so I dropped it.. I might pick it up one day but not for noe

The longest promise - It was announced not long after the untamed so I was looking forward to it but I normally am not a fan of xianxia so yeahhhhh

Shows that I am currently watching and is GIVING

Destined with you - Picked becuz I wanted to watch rowoon ( love him since extraordinary you days) . I do check his shows from time to time but didnt manage to finish most of them. Just tuned in becuz I wanted to watch rowoon rocking long coats and was sure that I would drop it around ep 4 ish. Currently 8 episode in and obsessed! One thing about rowoon is he is gonna get a hit half modern and half joseon dramas (extraordinary you)

Shows that are currently on hold

Mysterious lotus casebook and the blood of youth - watching two at the same time was a mistake lol. I keep confusing between the two. Also some says the plot of tboy became boring in the last few episodes so i lost motivation to finish them. MIght pick them back up when I feel like I could process some plot

My lovely liar - I somehow knew that I would not love this and I am sometimes right. I still will pick it someday but not near in the future

my journey to you - I am the type of person who loves to see a story flow, Not just people randomly happening to be an assasin member. But I like seeing yu shuxin in new light and I am waiting for zeng shunxi in costumes that shows him in a new light.. MIght pick it up again when I feel like ziyu is strong enough to be a sword wielder

[sebaby-l]

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[worldend]

tomorrow. ill get the items to ascend xiaos and fischls weapons becuz i think the domain that i need opens tomorrow in fischls case. i only need the item from the fatui agent for xiao but well i have to wait 12 hrs for them to respawn so

[obeiii-mee]

I am not sure if the request is open- fanfic or headcanon an angst of mc sacrificing her life to return Lilith to them and lilth come back so she told she's only here becuz the mc bought her back how would the demon brother cope with it- it is okay if you don’t want to write it :)

I haven’t written any angst yet on this blog so I don’t really know how this is going to turn out. I don’t know how MC would be able to bring Lilith back so I’ll just figure something out as I write along. It’s hard for me to write the brothers suffering help me-

I want to make it clear that I don’t know if it’s possible for a human to do something like this but for the sake of this request let’s roll with it. Lilith is back and MC sacrificed their life for that to happen. I really don’t think any of the brothers would react well because Lilith and MC aren’t the same person. They love both of them very much but they wouldn’t be able to make one suffer just to bring the other back. All the HCs are related, happening on the same day, in the same way. Lilith reuniting with her brothers one by one starting with Lucifer. Hopefully this makes sense but I don’t really have my way around words so——

This is obviously too long so I won’t be able to write for all the brothers in one post. Instead I’ll write about Lucifer, Mammon and Levi in this one and then continue this on another post. So this is part one. Thanks for the request!

Pt. 2

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The Brothers Reacting to MC sacrificing themselves to bring Lilith back, Part 1:

Lucifer:

-OK, realistically speaking, it should have been impossible for Lilith to be brought back. She lived as a human and died, that’s it, you can’t reverse something like that. But you really didn’t want to give up, seeing the way the brothers acted whenever the topic of their sister was brought up was too much for you to handle. So you kept looking and searching for spells, magical objects, anything you could get your hands on that could help. You even spoke to Solomon about it in secret, away from Lucifer’s prying ears. You were too determined to be swayed away from the task.

-Of course, after a long time of searching, you found exactly what you were looking for. And of course in order for Lilith to be brought back to life once again, you would have to give something in return; your life. It was a hard pillow to swallow but after hours of arguing back and forth with yourself, you decided to do it. For the sake of all the brothers and their happiness. It wasn’t the quickest of deaths but it definitely didn’t hurt nearly as much as it should have. And once your soul had officially been diminished, Lilith was given a tangible body and teleported to DevilDom. That also meant that she was completely aware as to why or how and she wasn’t exactly happy. It was an indescribable moment full of misery and despair for her. She was back and her descendant payed the price for it.

-Lucifer didn’t really believe his eyes when he first saw his long dead sister on their couch, supposedly staring at nothing. He first assumed that he was daydreaming which seemed like the most rational option at that point. Due to all the paperwork he had to finish by the end of the week, he had been rather sleep deprived and it made sense that he started hallucinating. After all, Lilith was on his mind quite a lot. But then she noticed him and she sprung into his arms before he could even get a word out. It always used to be like this. Her running straight into him just to show her affection back when they were both angels and happy.

-She was real, not a dream or a fiction of his mind and he didn’t know how to feel about it. He was torn, as if all of his emotions were threatening to come out at once and he didn’t know how to handle that. Lucifer uses logic for every situation he finds himself in, but this time, it was thrown out the window. It didn’t matter why or how or when. All that mattered was that she was here and he got to see her again after all these millenniums of dealing with the slow torture of having to carry the burden of her death by himself. He was ready to go get his brothers, the rest of his dysfunctional family and obviously MC had to come along too, them being just as important to him as everyone else. But Lilith grabbed his sleeve.

-His sister told him everything. Ranging from MC’s sacrifice to her waking up in DevilDom and to her wandering around until she found the House of Lamentation. His brain stopped working the moment the words registered with him as Lilith rambled on with her story. He almost wanted to ask her if she was joking but he knew her better than that; his little sister was never one to joke about something so grave.

-Lucifer always knew that their exchange student was a bit of a nutcase and definitely special in their own way. Considering how often they went to the extremes and overdid every little thing that had to be done. But this...this was something entirely different. They gave up their own life for them, for Lilith to come back and they did this because of him and his siblings. The second time MC had been ripped away from him, without even the satisfaction of saying goodbye because they were way too good for his family and for DevilDom in general. He wanted to scream and cry and curse his father even more so than usual for this cruel turn of events. Any more of this emotional suffering, and his heart may as well stop pulsating. MC died and he couldn’t help them in any way, he couldn’t stop them from making this mistake because he had just gotten over Lilith’s death and had begun to heal from the trauma. And now you left him as well.

-Lilith forced him to sit down and let him deal with his internal breakdown while she thought this out. At this rate her brother was either going to wind up in a blind rage and pop out another Satan or drown himself in depression and anguish. But Lucifer, despite the range of emotions conflicting him on the inside, tried remaining as calm on the outside as possible. Lilith was right there. He shouldn’t cry in front of his sister, he never did. He was always supposed to be the role model, be the strong protector that she could lean on if she needed help. With a single tear running down his cheek, which he quickly wiped away, he got up, abruptly much to the protest of Lilith and began walking toward the door.

-He had to tell his brothers. The news would break every single one of them and he couldn’t do anything about it. He had the responsibility of going to every single one of them and privately discuss this because god knows what chaos would ensue if they were all in a room together with Lilith. He would have to talk to Lord Diavolo, get another exchange student down there but...not yet. Not yet. He had to tell his siblings first. His younger brothers that he swore he would protect with all of his being since he couldn’t do so with Lilith. And now he had to go and break their hearts while his own lay shattered on the floor.

-But first, he was going to go and cry by himself, locked away in his room, so he can regain the power of speaking with everyone properly. And he would just have to accept the fact that MC will forever be stuck in his heart, with no means of getting them out.

-Who would have thought a human like you would stir up these feelings within me?

Mammon:

-It was his fault. It was always his fucking fault. Whenever something bad happened to you, the first person Mammon blamed was himself. How could he not? He was in charge of you after all, he was supposed to be your protector and guardian during your stay in DevilDom. Honestly, at first, he didn’t really care about you. Your whole existence and the fact he had to babysit you was irritating more than anything. But it didn’t take long for him to get attached to you, he fell and he fell fast. Soon enough, he was about ready to just dedicate his entire being to you (and money, we don’t forget about money). You were his human. So how did he fuck it all up?

-That day, he was supposed to be with you. At least one of the brothers had to be with you at all times, per Lucifer’s orders, to make sure you could circulate DevilDom without getting killed. He had one job to do. Follow you around until you got bored and wanted to go home. Then, since you were left with the rest of his brothers, he could go do his thing. But a modelling gig had come up rather abruptly and he had to go get ready for a few shots. Mammon, being a simp great companion and actually a lot smarter than people give him credit for, was really hesitant at first. He didn’t really want to leave you alone and offered to turn the job down. He would never admit it, but his human was way more important.

-However, you insisted it was fine, encouraging him to go and implying you would be alright for an hour by yourself. Besides, you had something to check and would probably be home in no time. He couldn’t really argue back so he reluctantly agreed and left you to your own devices.

-And that was the last time he saw you.

-After his shoot, he couldn’t find you anywhere. Not at home, not in Majolish, not at any of your favourite places. He wasn’t worried at first because he thought you were with one of his siblings. But half an hour later, he was getting panicky and pushing himself over the edge. Sitting alone in his room, pondering on where the fuck you could have been while also debating as to where he should look for you first. He really didn’t want to bring the subject up with Lucifer because he feared his reaction and the possibility he would forbid Mammon from helping him search for you.

-And just as he had conjured up a master plan, Lucifer walked in. With Lilith behind him like it was regular Tuesday night. Her presence wasn’t acknowledged for a few moments, he was too concentrated on Lucifer’s face, scared out of his wits that he found out you were missing and now he was about to face punishment. His older brother didn’t look angry though. Grave and sad, but mostly solemn, like he was holding back. Then it clicked that his loving sister, the one that was supposed to be dead, was standing next to him. Mammon jumped. Physically jumped backwards and fell off the bed in surprise. If there was one thing he disliked more than giving his money away, it would be thinking about Lilith. His memories with her brought him nothing but tears.

-Lilith smiled, in an honest and slightly upset way, seeing her brother’s antics after such a long time made her feel a sort of nolstagia she didn’t think she would miss. Mammon was still staring at her like he’s just been told he had to give all of his money to the witches. He kept switching his gaze between her and Lucifer, as if confirming with him that she wasn’t a ghost while he kept his eyes wide in horror.

-“Stop that Mammon. Your gawking is giving me a headache.” Lucifer snapped, more ferociously than usual which was odd. Mammon thought he looked more tense, rigid but he didn’t push the subject. He wanted to get up, walk up to Lilith and touch her, see if she was real. And then he wanted to hug the living daylights out of her. But he froze on the spot until Lucifer finally managed to spit out that Lilith was, indeed, back. And then Mammon sprinted straight into her arms like a fired bullet, not planning on letting go for a long time. His sister just smiled again, happy to see her needier brother again and to know that despite being a demon now, he hadn’t changed all that much. That moment was sort of euphoric and he grasped onto it for as long as he could.

-Then came the devastating news that would hit Mammon in the gut harder than a moving truck.

-MC was gone. Forever. Forever, forever. Never to be seen again. Gave her entire being up for Lilith to come back to life. Lucifer told him but his eyes and voice seemed to be elsewhere, as if he struggled to show emotion in his voice during his monologue because he was directing those emotions somewhere else. Lilith tightened her grip on him, preparing for a meltdown, or even an angry fit, anything could be expected from this brother of hers in particular.

-Oh there was a meltdown alright. His reaction was immediate. He started shaking, uncontrollable trembling that he couldn’t stop no matter how hard he tried to and his vision blurred and swayed as if he was drunk and his nails were digging into his palms hard enough to draw blood. Everything felt unstable and he couldn’t take MC’s face out of his mind, like their face was printed onto his brain for keeping purposes. His throat dried up and besides the stream of tears rolling down his face, Mammon started sweating. In the span of a minute, he’s gotten too immeasurably hot and now he was sweating even though he lives in hell and should already be used to this kind of warmth.

-He became unresponsive after that. Not even Lucifer could get through to him. He just sat there, like a broken shell. His brother was speaking to him about things, replacements and a bunch of shit he wasn’t interested in. He didn’t want to hear any of it. He just wanted his human back, even if it meant he had to serve the witches for the rest of eternity. After a while, both of them left. Lucifer giving his shoulder a squeeze, something he hasn’t done in forever but the gesture was somehow comforting. It showed that his older brother was suffering too and he could tell from his voice alone. Lilith hugged him one more time and pecked his cheek and he wanted to grab her hand and keep her there because even though she literally just came back, he needed his sister to stay with him as he went through this. Mammon let them leave.

-He’s more closed off than before. He still steals shit all the time but it’s out of pity for himself more than anything else. He also took a bunch of your belongings too, something to remind him that you existed once. That you had a presence and changed his life and his brothers for the better. Mammon breaks down at the most random of times whenever he’s reminded of you and these sometimes take hours before he finally calms down. Somehow Lilith is the only one who happens to have an effect on him. Her presence at least helps. But not by a lot.

-Stupid human, letting him be an idiot and allowing him to leave you all by yourself. Stupid Mammon for being such a moron and letting the one person that understood him beyond the surface of the Avatar of Greed and actually associated him with being more than just scum, die. Stupid MC, leaving him all alone...

-He just hopes you’ve made it to the Celestial Realm...but seeing as you died in DevilDom, he doubts it.

Levi:

-Levi was sort of used to you showing up late to his gaming sessions. He didn’t blame you really, his brothers were sure to try and grab as much of your attention as possible so it makes sense you forgot about little old him. Except you never did. Sure you came by later than planned, but you always came no matter what so maybe he wasn’t giving you enough credit.

-Maybe he should have tried calling you, or even just texting you to see what you were up to. That’s why he had a D.D.D to begin with after all. But he didn’t. He assumed you were with Mammon or reading with Satan somewhere. Maybe sleeping with the twins. Levi reasoned with himself that you were probably fine and just got caught up on something on the way home. Yet the pit in his stomach kept growing with every minute that passed and before he knew it, he was pacing around the room.

-He heard Mammon having a breakdown from somewhere, and at first, he really had an overwhelming urge to check in with him and see what the problem was. Maybe something happened to MC. Maybe something happened to his older brother. Levi has a dislike for him sure, but he still wouldn’t want Mammon to suffer, no matter how much money he owes him. He didn’t leave his room. He assumed he was crying because the witches were at it again or maybe because he lost all of his money at the casino or even because Lucifer was punishing him for something.

-Then, a knock came on his door and he jumped to his feet faster than he had ever done so before. Password and all long forgotten, he opened the door to his room expecting to see you. Instead, he came face to face with his oldest brother, which disappointed him beyond measure. He was about to mumble something about MC and whether he had seen them at all that day but something stopped him. Behind Lucifer, just barely visible since she is slightly shorter than him, was Lilith. His reaction was definitely interesting.

-“Oh-I....holy crap, this is just like that anime where the protagonist’s dead sister comes back as ghost and starts talking to him. Oh shit, am I going insane or are ghosts are actually real? And not Lilith, Lilith doesn’t deserve to live the rest of eternity as a ghost-“

-“Shut up Levi.”

-“Sorry.”

-Lilith slowly walked out him and hugged him, which debunked Levi’s theory. She wasn’t a ghost! She was real and she was hugging him! He missed her so much, he was actually still doubting the fact that she was back. Levi tried pushing her out of his mind so many times because it hurt too much to think of her and now she was right here in front of him.

-The moment didn’t last though. Lucifer had to interrupt. He himself was shaky, still processing a bunch of things and on top of all that, he had to break his brothers’ spirits. The words came out eventually and Levi’s reaction was a lot slower than Mammon’s. He couldn’t process it as well and it felt like his life was put on pause, like in one of his video games. Lilith was holding him, as a sort of support system but Levi just kind of drifted in another world.

-Sure, he missed his sister dearly. But that didn’t mean he wanted MC’s life to be exchanged with hers. It was such an unfair choice really, making him choose between two people he absolutely adores. Except he didn’t make that choice. You did. And it changed everything.

-Ever since you left, he hasn’t had as much energy in playing games or even watching anime. He can’t find himself sitting for too long, he always has be to pacing and chewing on his fingernails. Everything seemed pointless without you here. Nothing was right. Watching anime by himself wasn’t as enjoyable even though he used to do it for a long time before you even came to DevilDom. He doesn’t have the energy to participate in Ruri chan contests either, though sometimes he makes an effort to. In a way to satisfy himself knowing that you didn’t die for him to mope around all depressed.

-He just sort of lays in his room all day, speaking with Henry 2.0 occasionally or just trying to relax in his bathtub. But it never works. Your voice keeps ringing in his ears. He misses you terribly and his sleeping schedule probably worsened since he can’t sleep now at all, thanks to all the nightmares he gets every night, featuring you of course.

-Out of all the things the world could have taken away from him, it just had to be his Henry didn’t it? Maybe he was just cursed from ever finding a true friend like you....

Hey, yeah I’m not dead. Just been working on this for a while now. This is obviously too long already so I can’t write for all the brothers at once. I’ll do a second post continuing this ask soon but for now I’ve written and edited this for the eldest three. Sorry it took so long and that I only managed three of the brothers. I’m still working on the following four. Thanks for reading! Part 2 should done soon!

[aphrodite1288]

My analysis...

G*D's military scandal is a governmental problem. It's huge n serious! N I think Y*G was facing that since last year's summer when the rumors started circulating abt him not providing a good military service n being treated like a king there. N now everything is clear PLS go n check his scandal bcuz I can't say everything abt him now I'm busy at work. But Anygays...so Jen*kai was planned since summer last year n dis is the exact time someone threw us dis rumor of jen n K*ai  attending a fashion show tgt n going in the same plane to Paris remember? It was exactly when Jong*in just made his IG! So it was planned. Two months or three later, Exo's manager followers Jennifer! And boom in January Jen*kai was revealed dating n boom a month  later in February -I mean-, G*D's full detailed military scandal n the gouvernment  taking action n doing G*D some health examinations to check if he is up to military service or he must be discharged while he just joined few months ago!! I can tell y'all that Seungri's scandal was also a camouflage to GD's scandal. But Jen*kai is somehow also related to G*D's n many other reasons were behind jen*kai. This date was an anticipation for the fuckery that was gonna happen later which is wut is happening now with G*D n Se*ungri n the two i*kon n wi*nner members seen drunk n almost kissing n hugging in a night club. se*ungri's scandal MIGHT BE a Post-scandal camouflage, since right after G*D's Shit happened Se*ungri's prostitution scandal popped out..I dunno if Se*ungri's scandal is just a made up scandal to hide G*D's which is quite bigger n more dangerous or that Se*ungri's scandal is also a real scandal n all that shit was anticipated by Jen*kai n will be erased by THE RETURN OF JEN*KAI VERY SOON! Y'all told me that Jen*kai can't be back becuz it's ended n stuff but check my posts to know how many times I told y'all that I think jen*kai will be back n soon but everyone tells me No n I hope Im wrong becuz I don't wanna be facing another drama in our shipdom. But wait! Why r those Sasaengs everywhere, every sasaeng account I know is sharing that very same rumor that Jenkai didn't break up while they were the same Sasaengs that told before that Jenkai is fake!!!!???!! Now they say Jen*kai r dating n didn't break up??! N they are insisting on reminding us every now n then. Every week all Sasaengs make sure to remind us that Jen*kai are in luv n still dating. So they must got paid to share this rumor just how they were paid to share that Jen*kai were  going on the same plane as embassadors of Korea back in June 2018, this rumor spread like fire last year n THIS IS WHEN EVERYONE STARTED SHIPPING THEM n IMAGINING HOW IT IS LIKE IF THEY DATED N HOW A POWERFUL COUPLE WOULD THEY MAKE!  I SAW THAT WITH MY OWN EYES!! FEW DAYS LATER BOTH JEN n KA*I MADE INSTAGRAM. IN THE SAME PERIOD, Ppl thought becuz they are Korea fashion embassadors so yeah they need to share us their experience in fashion world. But I see that all planned!! Even Ji's IG was made up becuz of this purpose! Becuz remember his very first post was of Gucci's invitation, I think it's the same case with Jen*nie's iG she made her IG when she was announced as Chanel's Korean embassador. Two months later Jen*kai were in Paris n rumors of them meeting was circulating,  shippers started gathering n eyeing every moment they're close to each other, n in awards'ceremonies fans collected moments n made videos of them waaay before jen*kai was announced u can check the jen*kai moments videos'dates they were months before Jen*kai were announced to the public n fans kept posting matching clothes of jen*kai n things they have in common n clothes code they share as a couple n it spread all over internet n the jen*kai Shipdom has grown waaaay before so the rumor must have done well it brainwashed PPL'S brains just as it must have been supposed to, the June Rumor circulated real well n did its job n to confirm PPL'S thoughts n to make them believe they're rumor of June... BOOOOM JEN*KAI WERE FEATURED IN ELLE KOREA MAGAZINE AS EMBASSADORS OF CHANEL n GUCCI, N THE MAGAZINE HAD THE PHOTOSHOOT OF BOTH JEN*KAI n EACH PIC OF JI IS FOLLOWED BY A PIC OF JENNIFER! TGEY WERE RECTO/VERSO. JEN*KAI HAD A WHOLE MAGAZINE WITH THEIR PICS IN THE SAME PAGES! It's all planned. N don't be fooled or surprised if Jen*kai ever came back, plus another date maybe posted n Sasaengs kept saying since January that they've seen jen*kai skiing in Japan n somewhere in Spain too?? I dunno but that date must have been filmed n might be dropped when it's time n it might not be dropped at All if the fuckery n the mess in Y*G calms down n long forgotten!! So u can say they're leaving that date filmed n saved somewhere n won't post it until things get out of hand to divert PPL'S attention from G*D n S*eungri's scandals. Again I can't say if Se*ungri's prostitution scandal is a camouflage for G*D's or that S*eungri's scandal is itself another real scandal n Y*G is really fucked up now. @rimon4kadi @isaykaiyousaysoo @ayalafree @kadivinity @dika-dika @dika-kadi @just4kadi @jonginksoo @kaisooforever  @kaisoo @jonginsboyfriend @jonginksoo @jongintrinsic14 @fykaisoo @your-harry-potter-nerd @julycolibri  @kaisooforevercouple-blog @kyungsootrash120   @soaringsoon ,@ninis-nose  I'm sorry for tagging y'all n disturbing you but I don't know wut to think. N I wanted ur opinion.

[sweetbunnykook]

Hon I was watching a k-program doctor taught abt y so many ppl can’t lose weight even tho they eat less. U need to 100% avoid sugar, it’s the no.1 cause of fat & cancer, also always eat carbs the last moment. So if u have a dish of meat, vege w/ noodle/rice/bread make sure to eat the meat + vege 1st then afterwards the carbs. Dis lower ur sugar level n make sure ur fat storage isn’t closed up n therefore can burn out fat.

(Cont) Also every time finish eating any sugar/carb rest for 20 mins then do a quick run or fast movement to lose the sugar level. Never eat before sleeping esp sugary stuff at least for 3-4 hrs. & if u can do a food fast once a week is really good 4 organ to rest and cleanse ur body. If it’s possible I know ur very busy bby. Also invest in healthy good food becuz it’s worth it 4 ur body~ Sorry 4 this long text I’ve just thought abt u when I saw the program. I hope everything is alright 4 u💕

Omg, thank you so much for sending me this 😭💕 I’m so touched that you thought of me while watching a program. I used to avoid sugar but my choices have been bad lately as I have a sweet tooth and I got hooked on sugary treats again. It might have been what contributed the most to my weight gain. I didn’t know about the eating carbs last trick so omg, that’ll be so useful!! I’m so happy you told me. 

I want to avoid bread/rice/noodles but it’s so hard considering that’s what my family makes on a daily basis. I hope I can work on avoiding it as much as possible and find healthier alternatives. Thank you once again and I hope everything is alright with you as well 💖💖✨

[entoman-created-by-the-tallgreys]

OOOHHHH !!! FUCK I FORGOT SOMETHING !!!

A Long, Long time ago I went out side and the Sky turn to rose’s, i saw thing's no one else did, the Moon was a 1000 time’s bigger but the Moment walked away it all faded very rapidly ... it felt as if rose Petal’s where being Showered all around Me ... but all i saw was the Gaia version of a Dark Rose Lit night Sky .. and Moon ... 

and the Air all of a Sudden had the Sweetest of Scent’s ... 

it was the Will of Gaia. 

Another time a random Flower Grew Right near my Window but didn’t last a week and wasn't there the entire week, not a Sprout nothing ... 

I’ve Seen all Kind’s of Shit ... 

i One time found a Mush Room with a Sun on top, i thought nothing of it ... in my Head i thought i wish a cartoon came on after it all ready aired ... and There was a pulse, the Tv Glitched, and the Mushroom died, i Picked becuz it was Pretty. a Sun Shroom ... The Mush Room Granted a Wish, THAT WAS THE WILL OF GAIA !!! 

Like i Said, Gaia Want’s her Kid’s back and She never want to put up with the Experiment of the 👽. 

but the Gray’s are also Faery’s, there insectoid’s. 

[sharpieismywarpaint]

RULEZ! answer 21 questions, then tag 21 ppl!

YAY BEST DAY EVAR WUT ANSWERING USELASS KWESTIUNS IS MY FAVORITE HOBBY XOXOXO 4 TAGGING ME @xxadam-antidotexx​

nickname: “ummm... Y r u eating all teh eggo wafflez at teh afterskewl committee PLZLEAVETHX X0″ i lubs this 1 cuz its what errybody is always saying 2 me. If u donut want 2 call me my official name (Mike Krotch B-]) then U can also call meh shaggy 2 dope

zodiac: capricorn.. according 2 all youze tumblr astrology posts im supposed 2 B the serious 1?? BOO bitch moan whine wut.

height: 5'3 but i stand next 2 short pepuls all the time so that i l00k taller i’m sumthing of a genious B]

last movie i saw: beverly hills chihuahuas It’s on FXX rn & the mexican chihuahua just said oh my tacos to the beverly chihuahua omg. I kno its just cuz they legits couldnt figure out how else to make it obvious itza poc-puppy but i am seriousleh considurring incorperating OH MY TACOS! into meh everyday vocab. GET CABLE BEYOTCHEZ!

last thing i googled: spitfire 99a 52mm. (Thos R my skateboard wheel measurements cuz i broke mah old 1s. o well at least it sounds badass on teh internets, gaiz?)

favourite musician: mindless self indulgence. JIMMY PEE MAN IZ dOpE.

song stuck in my head: rich girl gwen stafanafani cuz its in the beverly hills chihuahua soundtrack & iZ playing rn. also coco jambo becuz some1 had that as her autoplay on her blog..

other blogz: i have my main & my art blog i-dee-kay if i alreddy linked teh art blog on here or sumthing butt its @tonyhawkofficial 

followerz: 727 oh gawd i barely evan look at my follower count cuz numburrs stress me out but dat iz a LOT i mean i culd organize a rave or sumthing IRL <3

following: 179 & even then most of it iz inactive blogs Ono

amount of sleep: ~7h butt dubble that on the weekends. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

lucky number: 13 perHAPS. it iz just 2 spookay.

dream job: ceo of a powerful companey and i ware cat eye glasses all the time and throw money at people who want it while driving around in mah honda civic and I also have a feather boa but when midnite strikes my secret identitty is a really good glostick raver and i come to yur party and rave teh nite away with ppl on ecstacy or sumthing & then I go olone into teh desert and turn into mathematical equations. Plz & thankyouse. 

what im wearing: shirt I got when I went 2 florida a century ago i wuz like 9 years it has a gator on it & these orange parachute pants they look EXACTLY like the 1s christina wears in the genie in a bottle video let me show yu gaiz these bootaykicking pants later 2day okai!

favourite food: OMG TUMBLR RESET TEH NUMBERS!! F U TUMBLR!!!! O ya and while I’m at it WHY DIDN’T I GET TEH MEMO DAT I WUZ TAGGED IN SUMTHING UNTIL I CHACKED MEH ACTIVITY GRAPH MEHSELVES, HMMMMMM?? Listen Tumblrs U  R really addiction central sumtimes but U SUCKS! n. e. way have yu gaiz ever had a white castle slider... I luuubs the jalepeno ones. O yesh. Also reeses (which iz also meh favorite malcolm in the middle character which i watched the entirety of dis week 4 sum gawrshdang reason, YAY!)

language: english (JK, ive actaully been faking it this whole tiems :D), korean, rellay crappy fijian evan though I spent meh whole childhood thare WUT? a little french hon hon hon & spanish 

can i play an instrument: i can plink a mean piano... but mostleh the guitar. Trying 2 learn sum lemon demon songs on there cuz knowledge is power!? I can serenade U with a sublime song or sum nirvana songs if U liek.

favourite song: the chaccaron maccaron song XDDD. Um forreal I dont wanna say sum msi song becuz i am feeling UNPREDICTABUL 2nite how about ravers fantasy by tune up its like teh classic? Or maybe teh entirety of the first happy 2B hardcore CD idk i alwaez just listen to teh whole album in 1 go & pretend its just 1 song anywai. Happy 2b hardcore roolz guys liek anabolic frolics entire discography i mean relly hamana hamana.

random fact: in 2012 I met 1 of teh kids who yelled aye aye captain in teh spongebob theme song OMG cray-zee i wuz liek OH U KID, TIGER!! but his dad worked on spengebeb so yea he relly did do it frickin ruled

describe yourself using aesthetic things!: a-aesthetic thing... dafuq is an aestheitc thing? Kittehs. Boobies. Winamp mp3s. Randumz pandumbs. Kandi. Glostix. KANDI KANDI KANDEEEHH. Wheeee. IDK WHAT 2 DU HERE I AM SHAMEFACED D:

i tag: @tyleroakley @trishapaytas @bob (not a real gai I just luvs teh name bob. Beb.) @amelia-lb <--- porn bot that just followed meh that i have 2 applaud for persistence & ANYBODEH READING THIS RN OKIE i freaking lubs haveing an xCuse 2 do these things.

SORRZ IF I RUINED UR DASH 4EVER! KLOVECHUBAI KISSIES & GLOMPZ ^^^ <---(kawaii triclops)

[buzzdixonwriter]

guest post: The Story of the Old Ram by Mark Twain

(One of my all time favorite books is Mark Twain’s Roughing It, an account of his days in the wild & woolly west. It’s a great memoir filled with hilarious stories, but the best of them all is the one about Jim Blaine’s grandfather’s old ram… — Buzz)

Every now and then, in these days, the boys used to tell me I ought to get one Jim Blaine to tell me the stirring story of his grandfather's old ram but they always added that I must not mention the matter unless Jim was drunk at the time just comfortably and sociably drunk. They kept this up until my curiosity was on the rack to hear the story. I got to haunting Blaine; but it was of no use, the boys always found fault with his condition; he was often moderately but never satisfactorily drunk. I never watched a man's condition with such absorbing interest, such anxious solicitude; I never so pined to see a man uncompromisingly drunk before. At last, one evening I hurried to his cabin, for I learned that this time his situation was such that even the most fastidious could find no fault with it he was tranquilly, serenely, symmetrically drunk not a hiccup to mar his voice, not a cloud upon his brain thick enough to obscure his memory. As I entered, he was sitting upon an empty powder-keg, with a clay pipe in one hand and the other raised to command silence. His face was round, red, and very serious; his throat was bare and his hair tumbled; in general appearance and costume he was a stalwart miner of the period. On the pine table stood a candle, ar~d its dim light revealed "the boys" sitting here and there on bunks, candle-boxes, powder-kegs, etc. They said:

"Sh ! Don't speak he's going to commence."

THE STORY OF THE OLD RAM

I found a seat at once, and Blaine said:

"I don't reckon them times will ever come again. There never was a more burlier old ram than what he was. Grandfather fetched him from Illinois got him of a man by the name of Yates Bill Yates maybe you might have heard of him; his father was a deacon Baptist and he was a rustler, too; a man had to get up rusher early to get the start of old Thankful Yates; it was him that put the Greens up to jining teams with my grandfather when he moved West. Seth Green was prob'ly the pick of the flock; he married a Wilkerson Sarah Wilkerson good cretur, she was one of the likeliest heifers that was ever raised in old Stoddard, everybody said that knowed her. She could heft a bar'l of flour as easy as I can flirt a flapjack. And spin? Don't mention it! Independent? Humph! When Sile Hawkins come abrowsing around her, she let him know that for all his tin he couldn't trot in harness alongside of her. You see, Sile Hawkins was no, it warn's Sile Hawkins, after all it was a galoot by the name of Filkins I disremember his first name; but he was a stump come into pra'r meeting drunk, one night, hooraying for Nixon, becuz he thought it was a primary; and old deacon Ferguson up and scooted him through the window and he lit on old Miss Jefferson's head, poor old filly. She was a good soul had a glass eye and used to lend it to old Miss Wagner, that hadn't any, to receive company in; it warn's big enough, and when Miss Wagner warn's noticing, it would get twisted around in the socket, and look up, maybe, or out to one side, and every which way, while t'other one was looking as straight ahead as a spyglass. Grown people didn't mind it, but it most always made the children cry, it was so sort of scary. She tried packing it in raw cotton, but it wouldn't work, somehow the cotton would get loose and stick out and look so kind of awful that the children couldn't stand it no way. She was always dropping it out, and turning up her old dead-light on the company empty, and making them oncomfortable, becuz she never could tell when it hopped out, being blind on that side, you see. So somebody would have to hunch her and say, 'Your game eye has fetched loose, Miss Wagner dear' and then all of them would have to sit and wait till she jammed it in again wrong side before, as a general thing, and green as a bird's egg, being a bashful cretur and easy sot back before company. But being wrong side before warn's much fetched him from Illinois got him of a man by the name of Yates Bill Yates maybe you might have heard of him; his father was a deacon Baptist and he was a rustler, too; a man had to get up rusher early to get the start of old Thankful Yates; it was him that put the Greens up to jining teams with my grandfather when he moved West. Seth Green was prob'ly the pick of the flock; he married a Wilkerson Sarah Wilkerson good cretur, she was one of the likeliest heifers that was ever raised in old Stoddard, everybody said that knowed her. She could heft a bar'l of flour as easy as I can flirt a flapjack. And spin? Don't mention it! Independent? Humph! When Sile Hawkins come a- browsing around her, she let him know that for all his tin he couldn't trot in harness alongside of her. You see, Sile Hawkins was no, it warn's Sile Hawkins, after all it was a galoot by the name of Filkins I disremember his first name; but he was a stump come into pra'r meeting drunk, one night, hooraying for Nixon, becuz he thought it was a primary; and old deacon Ferguson up and scooted him through the window and he lit on old Miss Jefferson's head, poor old filly. She was a good soul had a glass eye and used to lend it to old Miss Wagner, that hadn't any, to receive company in; it warn's big enough, and when Miss Wagner warn's noticing, it would get twisted around in the socket, and look up, maybe, or out to one side, and every which way, while t'other one was looking as straight ahead as a spyglass. Grown people didn't mind it, but it most always made the children cry, it was so sort of scary. She tried packing it in raw cotton, but it wouldn't work, somehow the cotton would get loose and stick out and look so kind of awful that the children couldn't stand it no way. She was always dropping it out, and turning up her old dead-light on the company empty, and making them oncomfortable, becuz she never could tell when it hopped out, being blind on that side, you see. So somebody would have to hunch her and say, 'Your game eye has fetched loose, Miss Wagner dear' and then all of them would have to sit and wait till she jammed it in again wrong side before, as a general thing, and green as a bird's egg, being a bashful cretur and easy sot back before company. But being wrong side before warn's much difference, anyway, becuz her own eye was sky-blue and the glass one was yeller on the front side, so whichever way she turned it it didn't match nohow. Old Miss Wagner was considerable on the borrow, she was. When she had a quilting, or Dorcas S'iety at her house she gen'ally borrowed Miss Higgins's wooden leg to stump around on, it was considerable shorter than her other pin, but much she minded that. She said she couldn't abide crutches when she had company, becuz they were so slow; said when she had company and things had to be done, she wanted to get up and hump herself. She was as bald as a jug, and so she used to borrow Miss Jacops's wig Miss Jacops was the coffin-peddler's wife a ratty old buzzard, he was, that used to go roosting around where people was sick, waiting for 'em; and there that old rip would sit all day, in the shade, on a coffin that he judged would fit the can'idate; and if it was a slow customer and kind of uncertain, he'd fetch his rations and a blanket along and sleep in the coffin nights. He was anchored out that way, in frosty weather, for about three weeks, once, before old Robbins's place, waiting for him; and after that, for as much as two years, Jacops was not on speaking terms with the old man, on account of his disapp'inting him. He got one of his feet froze, and lost money, too, becuz old Robbins took a favorable turn and got well. The next time Robbins got sick, Jacops tried to make up with him, and varnished up the same old coffin and fetched it along; but old Robbins was too many for him; he had him in, and 'pe…red to be powerful weak; he bought the coffin for ten dollars and Jacops was to pay it back and twenty-five more besides if Robbins didn't like the coffin after he'd tried it. And then Robbins died, and at the funeral he bursted off the lid and riz up in his shroud and told the parson to let up on the performances, becuz he could not stand such a coffin as that. You see he had been in a trance once before, when he was young, and he took the chances on another, cal'lating that if he made the trip it was money in his pocket, and if he missed fire he couldn't lose a cent. And by George he sued Jacops for the rhino and got jedgment; and he set up the coffin in his back parlor and said he 'lowed to take his time, now. It was always an aggravation to Jacops, the way that miserable old thing acted. He moved back to Indiany pretty soon went to Wellsville Wellsville was the place the Hogadorns was from. Mighty fine family. Old Maryland stock. Old Squire Hogadorn could carry around more mixed licker, and cuss better than most any man I ever see. His second wife was the widder Billings she that was Becky Martin; her dam was deacon Dunlap's first wife. Her oldest child, Maria, married a missionary and died in grace et up by the savages. They et him, too, poor feller biled him. It warn's the custom, so they say, but they explained to friends of his'n that went down there to bring away his things, that they'd tried missionaries every other way and never could get any good out of 'em and so it annoyed all his relations to find out that that man's life was fooled away just out of a dern'd experiment, so to speak. But mind you, there ain't anything ever reely lost; everything that people can't understand and don't see the reason of does good if you only hold on and give it a fair shake; Prov'dence don't fire no blank ca'tridges, boys. That there missionary's substance, unbeknowns to himself, actu'ly converted every last one of them heathens that took a chance at the barbecue. Nothing ever fetched them but that. Don't tell me it was an accident that he was biled. There ain't no such a thing as an accident. When my uncle Lem was leaning up agin a scaffolding once, sick, or drunk, or suthin, an Irishman with a hod full of bricks fell on him out of the third story and broke the old man's back in two places. People said ir was an accident. Much accident there was about that. He didn't know what he was there for, but he was there for a good object. If he hadn't been there the Irishman would have been killed. Nobody can ever make me believe anything different from that. Uncle Lem's dog was there. Why didn't the Irishman fall on the dog? Becuz the dog would a seen him a-coming and stood from under. That's the reason the dog warn's appinted. A dog can't be depended on to carry out a special providence. Mark my words it was a put-up thing. Accidents don't happen, boys. Uncle Lem's dog I wish you could a seen that dog. He was a reglar shepherd or rusher he was part bull and part shepherd splendid animal; belonged to parson Hagar before Uncle Lem got him. Parson Hagar belonged to the Western Reserve Hagars; prime family; his mother was a Watson; one of his sisters married a Wheeler; they settled in Morgan County, and hŠ got nipped by the machinery in a carpet factory and went through in less than a quarter of a minute; his widder bought the piece of carpet that had his remains wove in, and people come a hundred mile to 'tend the funeral. There was fourteen yards in the piece. She wouldn't let them roll him up, but planted him just so full length. The church was middling small where they preached the funeral, and they had to let one end of the coffin stick out of the window. They didn't bury him they planted one end, and let him stand up, same as a monument. And they nailed a sign on it and put put on put on it sacred to the m-e-m-o-r-y of fourteen y-a-r-d-s of three-ply car - - - pet containing all that was m-o-r-t-a-l of of W-i-l-l-i-a-m W-h-e "

Jim Blaine had been growing gradually drowsy and drowsier his head nodded, once, twice, three times dropped peacefully upon his breast, and he fell tranquilly asleep. The tears were running down the boys' cheeks they were suffocating with suppressed laughter and had been from the start, though I had never noticed it. I perceived that I was "sold." I learned then that Jim Blaine's peculiarity was that whenever he reached a certain stage of intoxication, no human power could keep him from setting out, with impressive unction, to tell about a wonderful adventure which he had once had with his grandfather's old ram and the mention of the ram in the first sentence was as far as any man had ever heard him get, concerning it. He always maundered off, interminably, from one thing to another, till his whisky got the best of him and he fell asleep. What the thing was that happened to him and his grandfather's old ram is a dark mystery to this day, for nobody has ever yet found out.

— Mark Twain, Roughing It (1872 )

[psi-scribe]

So I completely forgot to post about last week’s DnD session which is a shame becuz wow, a lot happened.

I completely forgot to mention that one us nearly died fighting a young wyvern (Yay for our first encounter?).

But hey! We got half of our payment up front and the Governor and his lady friend (Lady Chasity) are giving off vibes and they are not good. They did ask us to stay the night before we headed out which was nice. We got more info as well (World lore and the fact the settlement is 3 days away with mounts, so we need those.)

And then the weird stuff happens.

We all get dreams, each different and guess who got the nightmare? Nothing like vague sleep paralysis; hearing whispers, seeing the door open and a hand come out of the mirror in my room (Hey thanks I hate it.) Freaky thing is that my character was sure that the door was shut when she went to bed. It wasn’t when she woke up. (Haha I’m in danger).

We woke up and prepared for the journey, aka we got 2 horses and a pony. I named my Daybreak and apparently my character has some background with animals. Might try and expand that in her background.

The journey to the settlement was mostly mundane aside from a storm and managing to avoid an encounter with some dire wolves. Then...we found a shard...of a ship...a warship. A warship that belonged to an Archdevil. My character touched the shard got a vision of war and heard a voice say “Be careful with what you play with, little girl.” (*Quiet sobbing*)

Things got quiet from there until we come across a cobblestone path and just ahead of it, several big bright tents and a sign saying, “Welcome to the carnival.” And that was where we ended.

Today’s session was shorter and waayyy more relaxed. We got into the carnival after stabling our mounts with the...petting zoo keeper (Sus) and making a contract making sure we’d get our mounts back (Cuz sus). Got in and decided to play a few games before trying to figure out what is going on. My character didn’t get an owlbear plushie despite 6 tries qwq.

We ended the session going into a place called The Hall Of Horrors...so that’ll be fun.

[angelblumes]

food ment. Helllooooooo ugh would you like me to beat her up perhaps end up like her namesake, og mischa?(jk im not a (cannibal)) time to bust out the therapy voice tho , you will find your people and they will love you. Ok. ok wtf is happening? are we like the same person or something? wellbutrin buddies ❤ my room needs to be clean and moved the whole sha bang but I cant😔 life needs to be lived and such. I hope you arrived safely and happily and that everything is slightly better for you than it was last message and that you didn't get too carsick. my power went out today for like 3 seconds everything turned off everything , it usually takes alot for that to happen for my house just because its old and other reasons that I dont actually know. I've had a jam out session yesterday, it was so relaxing 😌 🙌 danced my little heart out to them guys I told you about. There's something abt the murders in hannibal that just does it for me... the artistry of it all. I love it when we talk outside of the 5 daily things too!!! hey, did you get that 'you're so mature for your age' as a kid or 'you've got an old soul' ? whats ur thoughts on that? I personally cant really imagine saying that to a kid maybe its a generational thing? ok 🙄😁 I like commentary ive been watching reactions? on youtube its a guilty pleasure, also I've been getting into some reality tv. Wife swap is crazy I love it alot and then the dating ones because ofc. whats one of the 1st reality show you remember watching and not hating? Honey Boo Boo and I Am Jaz (I think?) were my top two choices of reality. maybe a rewatch is in order for me. ok daily things um a guitar got brought into my house today i... its very.. it made me weirdly happy I love music and its instruments. thank goodness tbh my med were just a little later than usual, the pharmacy gave me emergency 3 days for they can figure out whats up because this is the second time we are having the same problem 😅 I had the best brownie of my life, it was store bought but like from the bakery fav dessert. I got this "new" shirt on so comfy, its tie dyed splattered different blues with an astronaut and nasa logo in white, its cute but also like 3? sizes too big (its a hand me down) dont worry abt the guy if a next time happens ill be ready for it 💪 it will go down, I personally know the man's family I will ruin his life if it comes down to it (we live in a town idk if it's small)or realistically just sic my family onto him. I found out my cousin has a gf now and is apparently very much happier than she was with her ex man (who made awesome cheesecake btw off topic tho) gay people stay winning, I did not know she was not straight tho so happy little surprise 😁 jeez its a lot of words uh I hope you're doing good and you had a good sleep and other nice stuff happen to you and you had a good trip🌷🤟🤙❤

HELPPP u are an angel. thank u❤️. and right exactly. normalize thinking fictional murders are artistic or something . thinkin abt how i used to think criminal minds murders were interesting but never had the right words so i'd just be like "woah he *kills them weirdly*? cool"😭. BUT YEAH i did get that all the time omfg "ur so mature for ur age!!" like thanks it's because i have issues and problems 💀....hmm i hate reality tv HAHA. this gc i'm in was just talking abt wife swap the other day how crazy !! idk if i've EVER liked reality tv .... i like watching commentary abt it (like uhh cody ko's stuff) but watching it myself... nope😭. daily things lets see!!! i went to the baltimore aquarium:) i was exhausted tho. saw that a tiktoker i like (hello fem will graham cosplayers...) went there a few days before me. how funny! i wish we had met and fallen in love or something. i went to bed at 5pm yesterday and slept til 3am. then went back to sleep from 6am to 10am. i think my new adhd/anxiety meds are the cause. sadly. cuz they work! but by making me too tired to be nervous or start thinking too much🥲. i'm tired 24/7 already and thats not helping LOL! i had this fancy meal ok multiple fancy meals and it was really nice. i got chesapeake chicken (haha like chesapeake ripper am i right?!?) and it had crab but i'm crazy i'm crazy i didn't eat the crab. the texture was soooo bad. anyway at another place i got a burger bc i'm lame i don't eat seafood (besides shrimp. which i am allergic to.) and i ate almost the whole thing and my friends mom said she was proud of me😭❤️. i always feel so guilty after eating a lot and that made me feel good. i've started watching more vampire video game play throughs. what can i say. vampire masquerade: bloodlines did something to my brain where i like vampire games now. it's the same guy which is cool. i dont like finding new youtubers becuz i've never kept up w whose problematic or not... like what if i get really into someone and mention it and someone's like oh yeah he preys on women. wtf. like umm cry? is he a youtuber? is he evil? cuz i was looking for a pathologic gameplay and he had one and i was like hmm... he sounds familiar. he has probably done something ? maybe? mm lastly.... i read this hunger games hannibal crossover WEEKS AGO but it's just still on my mind. i don't particularly love the hunger games but it's only bc i don't really know a lot abt it. i enjoy it but i've only seen the movies and read the first book (until rue died. never picked it up again after that! i cried a lottttt) and there's like an absurd amount of hannibal crossovers. i guess bc hannibal would totally rule in the hunger games. like come on a CANNIBAL? the uh.. capitol? they'd go crazyyyy for that. the fic itself wasn't even that groundbreaking or anything i have a lot of criticism for it tbh but it opened my brain to the concept. i have another one opened in a tab but it's super long so i haven't made much headway. i want one where it's like.... the one where the old winners come back for a game! and then they escape😈. but in the one i read will and hannibal sort of just escape anyway in a normal hunger game. like ok cool but i don't think that's plausible. but then how would it work ? like could will win a game on his own? maybe i should write my own fic. but then i'd have to understand what happens in the hunger games /j. ugh ok i was thinking abt that one scene where idk they do the little hand signal thing and drag katniss away and go to shut the door like right as they shoot that guy in the head. THAT WAS SO CRAZY. or when katniss shoots the lady instead of president snow and then everyone just descends on him💀 i feel like there's a level of nuance and understanding that i just don't have so i say "woah! cool :)" i hope ur doing well too ily❤️❤️💗

[fxckdolanz]

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  THE LAST -

1. drink: soda

2. phone call: my mom

3. text message: ma bestieee

4. song you listened to: Sorry Not Sorry by Demi Lovato

5. time you cried: today from laughing lol

6. dated someone twice: no

7. kissed someone and regretted it: no

8. been cheated on: no

9. lost someone special: yes

10. been depressed: ya

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: im underage lol

3 FAVORITE COLORS - 12. pink

13. cyan

14. black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU -


15. made new friends: yes and I’m super grateful for them :)

16. fallen out of love: not really

17. laughed until you cried: yes, literally a few hours ago lol

18. found out someone was talking about you: yes and ignored it becuz haters gonna hate

19. met someone who changed you: YES 

20. found out who your real friends are: yes and again super grateful

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: maybe idk

GENERAL -


22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them becuz my list is only family and friends

23. do you have any pets: i mean, i had a fish for a few weeks when i was younger, does that count lol

24. do you want to change your name: no because it’s unique :)

25. what did you do for your last birthday: went out with friends :)

26. what time did you wake up: like 10 am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: facetiming my friend

28. name something you can’t wait for: to see my friends back in school because most of them are away :(

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: LITERALLY a minute ago haha

31. what are you listening to right now: Fetish by MA GIRL SELENA

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: no tf so random lol

33. something that is getting on your nerves: my brothers, I’m the middle child -_-

34. most visited website: YouTube, Tumblr, and Buzzfeed

35. hair colour: Dark brown (natural)

36. long or short hair: a little short if it’s curled, mid back length if i were to brush it

37. do you have a crush on someone: kinda

38. what do you like about yourself: my personality

39. piercing(s): I had my ears pierced when I was younger but I hate wearing earrings so I’m positive they’ve closed

40. blood type: i think A positive??

41. nickname(s): Rube (my names is Ruba, fun fact)

42. relationship status: single

43. zodiac: capricorn

44. pronouns: huh?

45. favourite tv show: RIVERDALE

46. tattoos: none

47. right or left handed: right handed

48. surgery: none

50. sport: i don’t play on a sports team but I like watching baseball, American football, and basketball

51. vacation: LA, London, and Aruba

52. pair of trainers: Nikes 

MORE GENERAL -


53. eating: idk, I just had a peach lol

54. drinking: nothing

55. I’m about to: watch Youtube after answering these questions

56. waiting for: the twins to notice me

57. I want: food

58. get married: when the time is right

59. career: hopefully a photographer

WHICH IS BETTER -


60. hugs or kisses: BOTH

61. lips or eyes: BOTH

62. shorter or taller: taller

63. older or younger: depends

64. nice arms or nice stomach: BOTH (i suck at picking)

65. hookup or relationship: relationship

66. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER -


67. kissed a stranger: no

68. drank hard liquor: no

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no

70. turned someone down: yes


71. sex on the first date: HA NOPE

72. What…


73. had your heart broken: kinda


74. been arrested: no

75. cried when someone died: yes.

76. fallen for a friend: no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN -


77. yourself: depends on how I’m feeling


78. miracles: yes.


79. love at first sight: eh

80. santa claus: no.

81. kiss on the first date: depends

82. angels: yes.

83. What…

OTHER -


84. eye colour: hazel

85. favourite movie: can’t pick :)

[animal246]

so my betta fish dale died sometime today from unknown cause...… he would eat at all today which isn't like him but I thought ok its fine a betta can go a day without food but then I found him this afternoon and he was stiff he had been gone at least a couple hours. I wish I had been there so he wouldn't have gone alone  I was there for perdu's death it sucked watching her die but it was comforting to me that at least she had me there to be with her before she went ya know? these last few weeks have been brutal first opty was murdered and eaten now dale less than a month later this doesn't feel like a good sign...…. I hope my other pets stay alive..... I know Lucy's been having issues with her arthritis and bladder control lately flo's diabetic so that's always a problem fin's poops are dark again fluff seems to be doing well lola's just lola. Its weird to think I now only have 5 pets total I haven't had less than 6 in years...….. im so glad I have therapy on sunday (yes she works some weekends). I have a lot to talk to her about...…. yesterday was rough after the fight with my 2 faced shitty ex friend but in the end its for the best he thinks im faking DID(total bs nonsense lies) and blames me for him shutting down the DID group then just going thru the am I faking? am I real? feelings but reminded myself I am diagnosed I am valid I am real no matter what anyone else thinks. found out yesterday my brother's moving out soonish and his friend is now living with mom and him so my room is now being used by another stranger. everyone gets to use my amazing bed but me! that's fucked up and unfair...….. but sadly no one has cared about my thoughts or opinions or side in years if ever. I just feel jealous becuz he gets to move out while im stuck in a toxic environment for god knows how long its already been over a year. im now stuck here til flo dies cuz I cant take her with me not an option and dad will claim hes gonna do the shots but I know he won't cuz hes useless with anything medical or involving the pets. ugh depression is crushing me I literally just wanna curl into a ball and cry. I did cry like a week ago cuz I was in sooooo much pain meds not helping and knowing theres really nothing anyone can or will do. at this point Im just trying to distract myself and stay as numb as possible becuz numb is better than depressed