#if i didn't have work today this would be done i stg

[valeriianz]

it is the last 👏 line 👏 tag 👏 gaaame! tagged by @magnusbae @quillingwords and @wordsinhaled

“Yes, Hob,” Dream sighs, the bashfulness from the admission gone and replaced once again by amusement. “I think about you often. Too often, in my opinion. It’s very. Distracting.”

i wasn't gonna post this particular one, but seeing as how much you enjoyed @issylra's "by the minute" (as we all did), N, i figured i'd tease a this little phone sex adjacent smut-shot (aka what i wanted to happen if Matthew hadn't interrupted Hob and Dream in chapter 3 lol).

not following the rules and tagging: @delta-pavonis @arialerendeair @staroftheendless and @littledreamling

[everythingne]

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ ➛ out of the woods - chapter eight (ls2)

Dhanishka makes a difficult decision, but after 76 days, finds its hard to stay away from both her boyfriend and the world that raised her. So, she decides to make the comeback no one was expecting--but hoping for.

tws/notes: like one breakdown but shes chill, logan and isa are my kids i stg

(series masterlist) (last chapter)

dhanishkadubey

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dhanishkadubey: As of this morning, I have chosen to fully step away from Formula One. It has been a long and hard conversation with my friends and family for the past two weeks, but alas, this entire situation and investigation are too much for me to handle at the moment along with continuing to race with Ferrari. That, plus my worsening injuries, are the main reasons I have decided I will be retiring as of today.

Ferrari will forever hold a special place in my heart. They are the ones who have trusted me since back in F2 to represent them in their Junior Drivers Academy, and since that day they have always been my family.

To Charlie, or Chuck, thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing me in. Thank you for always supporting me. The amount of things you have done for me are immeasurable, I cannot thank you enough for everything. Aiya says that there's a seat for you at our table next time you're in Bahrain.

To Logan, it has been a wonderful experience to fall back in love with you. Funnily enough, you're sleeping on my shoulder as I write this. If I had to do it all again knowing what would happen, I would come back to F1 over and over if it meant every time I got to have you in my arms again.

To Olivia and Lando, thank you both for the support. From me crying on your shoulders at 3am over stupid boys (sorry logan), to both of you supporting me in this insane moment of my life. I owe you both a big bottle of wine and maybe a whole vacation after this.

And Thank you to all of the other people who spent their days with me uplifting me, working hard to support me, and being absolute angels. From fans to my own managers and trainers and PR, thank you, all of you.

Oh, and best of luck little bearman, you'll be amazing ! ❤️

Forza Ferrari, upward and onward from here.

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My hands haven't stopped moving in hours. Each dish has been meticulously polished to perfection, my hands cramping from the force I apply.

"Babli." My mother comes up behind me, taking my hands in hers and squeezing them, "they're going to be packed away, [no need to wash them so hard.]"

"[Sorry, Mom.]" I huff, setting the sponge down and rolling out my wrists and stretching my hands, "I just... it's been..."

"A lot. [I know. You have been so strong, Babli.]" She smiles, kissing my forehead, and the use of my childhood nickname--something they had stopped calling me after Trident's incident, made my heart ache. She coaxes me to go sit back down at the table and I do, leaning my head into my hands as I open my laptop again. The notes Olivia had taken from my meeting with the FIA staring back at me.

'Purposefully loose bolts on DRS connectors. Break lines partially slashed. Paid around 10.000 Pounds per incident. Astrid Marina. Anthony Davis.'

I groan and begin typing back responses to her questions. This is being taken a bit further. Now William's is fully suing Anthony Davis for blackmailing, with me sort of 'curtopsey copied' on it. I was in a mess with Ferrari right now, so I didn't feel like dealing with another court case on top of that.

Or, moreso, the break I had after the Canadian GP was so bad I was forcibly sent home.

I can hear the Austrian GP playing on the TV. Anya cursing in a mish-mash of languages at Carlos for fucking up his drive or something, and I slam my laptop shut with more force than necessary.

"Dhanishka!" My mother goes to scold me until she sees I've stood, hand tight on the top of my laptop as I stare at the TV in a mix of anger and... regret?

"Danny?" Anya's muted the TV, turning to look at me and there's something in my chest that just snaps and I burst into tears. I hadn't cried once in the past few weeks of absolute hell, between everything with Ferrari, choosing to leave Formula One for the foreseeable future... it was a fucking mess.

And I'd done so well at holding everything together. I'd fooled everyone, even myself, into thinking I was fine.

My mother pauses washing the dishes as I scoop up my stuff and retreat to the safety and solitude of my childhood bedroom. Screaming in some sort of anguish as I drop my stuff on my desk and just drop to my knees.

My head had been a non-stop migraine for weeks, my ribs had been a constant ache, my shoulder only getting worse. I spent every day in long meetings that only made me more and more lost in my situation.

"Anya, [I told you not to do that and you did! Just watch it in your room!] You knew it would upset her!" My mother's voice rings from the hall until I hear my bedroom door creak open and then feel my mothers hands on my sides. She gently lifts me up and then sets me on the bed, leaning down to grab one of Logan's hoodies I'd stolen so I could throw it on.

She doesn't say anything, just kisses my hair and leaves me to sniffle it out as I wipe at my tears.

She comes back with some tomato rasam, urging me to eat it to calm my body down, and she soothes a hand through my hair and braids it while I shakily spoon the soup like dish to my lips. When I'm finished, my mother kisses my head and at my seemingly calm nature now, she leaves me be to the solitude of my room.

I don't know how long it's been until I hear shuffling in the hall again, but I've retreated to laying tucked as tight as I can be in my blankets.

"Babli..?" My fathers voice calls from the door and I huff, burying myself deeper in the blankets. he must've gotten home from work during my rush to my room to hide the tears that threatened to fall. He knocked once, then twice, then on the third he just chose to enter my room. It took him a moment to spot me amidst my blankets, but when he did he smiled and made his way over.

"Sorry I missed dinner, [I had to pick up a package on the way back from work.]" He smiles softly, sitting on the edge of the bed to pop down a little cardboard box, "[For you, babli.]

I sit up and wipe at my face, noticing how my father had used a marker to cover the shipping address. But I swore I could read a little bit of 'FL' on it. I gently open the box with the letter opener he hands me and find a little Williams logo looking right up at me on the back of an envelope. I laugh softly and take out the card, opening the envelope to find the card inside.

‘Isa,

I hope this reaches you before the end of Austria! If not, it’s still quite cute I think. Alex and Lily have these and I figured it’d be cute for us to get them too. Also, the Williams team has sent you a little blue care package to life up your spirits :)

see you in Austin baby, love you to the edge of the universe and back.

- Lo.’

I set the card aside with a wobbly smile and open the first layer of packaging to find a small black box. Slowly opening it, I’m met with two things, a red string bracelet and a small bracelet. I pull both items out and twist them in my hands before adding them to my right arm stack.

A logo on the bracelet, totwoo, catches my eye and I quickly Google it.

It’s a fucking touch band. A long distance bracelet you can press to send a signal to, and as I hear the announcer speaking to Logan I nearly throw myself out of bed trying to get to the TV.

And when the bracelet lights up on my wrist, it takes a second, before I see Logan pressing it on the tv. Three short taps. I love you.

Tears spill out of my eyes before I can explain to my family, but they see my wobbly smile and understand that for the first time in nearly three weeks, my tears are good. My father brings the box to the living room and hands me a second letter, explaining the two items and my heart swells again.

'and a red string! I've got one too. I think we were always destined to be together.'

The bracelets, plus the little dolphin plushie his niece said he had to buy me (with its fucking Miami Dolphins jersey because of course) makes my heart so full, I feel the ice that threatened to hide me melting.

dhanishkadubey

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dhanishkadubey: after six weeks i think i've started to heal. [i love you, bahrain <3]

tagged: anyadubey, totwoo, logansargeant

user1: LOGAN AND DHANISHKA HAVING LONG DISTANCE BRACELETS. SHOOT ME. OMG.

anyadubey: so glad to have u home habibti <3

totwoo: seeing love from austria to bahrain in real time!

user2: dhanishka leaving f1 makes me so sad but im glad shes glowing now <3

logansargeant: tbh i think this is the most i've ever missed you?

dhanishkadubey: stop ill start crying :( ft me

dhanishkadubey

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dhanishkadubey: some all new bts from my shoot with @ vogueindia x @ sabyasachi !! such a blessing to get to work with the amazing @ opheliapiastry , sabyasachi team, and the vogue india team ! [much love 🩵🤍 can’t wait for you all to see the final product !]

tagged: opheliapiastri, vogueindia, sabyasachi

sabyasachi: [an honor to work with you!]

anyadubey: i was there for this and im still just. jaw dropped, on the floor. wow

logansargeant: anya how do you think i feel?

anyadubey: simp.

user2: i need to see dhanishka back in a race car or ill die

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Oscar and Lando have done a pretty good job of hiding me while interviews are going on. Logan had done exceptionally well, placing top five, and I'm trying my hardest not to let my excitement get out of me early.

"Fucking Jenson-- hurry it up, man, we can only stand here for so long without looking weird." Lando complains and I stifle a laugh while Oscar whacks his chest. The sound draws Jenson and Logan to peek over, luckily I'm able to hide before they see us--or before Logan does. Because Jenson grins and nods to Oscar, who leans back partially.

"That might be your cue, Danny."

I poke my head out to see Logan has his back to me and smirk, running over as fast as I can without alerting him. Jenson, thankfully, keeps Logan distracted until I place my hands over his eyes.

"Yo, what?!" Logan laughs, grabbing my wrists and accidentally pressing the button on my bracelet, making his buzz. He pauses, presses it again while I hold in a laugh and the cameraman adjusts his angle to get Logan's reaction as he turns around.

"Isa!" he shouts, nearly knocking me off my feet with the force of his hug and I laugh now, wrapping my arms tightly around him as he hides his face in the crook of my neck.

"Hi, jaan." I whisper, feeling his arms tighten around me as I close my eyes and snuggle into his hold. One of my hands comes to take off his hat that's stabbing my shoulder so I can run my hand through his longer hair as I rest my cheek against his head.

Through a slightly teary strain he murmurs, "God, I fucking missed you so much."

"I missed you too." I whisper back, "and, I might've told James to go ahead and announce it."

"No." He leans back, holding my face and looking at me for any sign of a lie. When all he gets is a smile he starts to laugh and pulls me in for probably the softest kiss that we've shared.

"Yep." I say in response and he presses another kiss to my head, before turning back to Jenson who smiles like a proud father.

logansargeant

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logansargeant: a great surprise to end off a great weekend, i love you, i'm so proud of you, and thank you for everything, meri jaan 🩵

dhanishkadubey: MERI JAANNNNNNN <3

logansargeant: MERI JAANNN

user1: f1s number one power couple fr

dhanishkadubey: also this is YOUR WEEKEND MR P4???!!!!!!

user2: logan's face when he saw dhanishka im gonna cry

user3: get urself a girlfriend who leaves from her modeling gig to surprise you just because

williamsracing: it was lovely to have a bit of the future with us this weekend 💙 (iykyk)

user4: williams what does this MEAN???

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f1

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f1: 76 days after announcing her 'retirement' from F1, Williams has signed @ dhanishkadubey on to drive with them for the 2025 season.

user1: YESSSSSSS WILLIAMS WILL THRIVE!!!

user2: logan went 'nah y'all aren't gonna treat my gf like this' and got her ass in williams

taglist (thank you !)

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I’m pretty sure the “condition” where Wrex calls Shepard a coward is after they sabotage the genophage cure (because they’re racist) and what he actually says is that Ashley’s not there to shoot him for Shepard, because she was also racist towards him lmfao

No but I think saying "What's the matter, Shepard? Ashley not around to do your dirty work?" followed with "Oh right, you killed her too!" says less about Ash and more about Shepard :) (Also about the "coward" thing: I said it was implied, not what he actually said)

Confronting Wrex on the Citadel after sabotaging the Genophage cure would have been the second confrontation with Wrex after Virmire. And just like Virmire, Shepard doesn't even have to kill him. Someone else can. If you don't take the Renegade Interrupt, C-Sec will shoot him. Shepard, on both occasions, has the opportunity to not be Wrex's killer, yet Wrex dies because of their decisions anyway. Does that make Shepard a coward? Depends on the Shepard, I'd say :)

I will be honest and say I never had Ashley kill Wrex. But Ashley killing Wrex is her choice made out of the circumstances (the circumstances being "You are taking too long to get him to stand down and he literally looks like he's about to kill you"). Obviously doing that without Shepard's orders is insubordination, but the mission has to be done, no matter who has to die for it. And Shepard can either be mad at her for it, or not care for it. Clearly if you didn't want her to kill Wrex then just be a better talker 4head

Also Ashley says "I don't think so, friend" before shooting him, which has me 🤔🤔

Additionally, Shepard can signal to Ashley to kill Wrex. And Wrex knows it's happening, because his last words are "You bastard". Also Ashley says "Not today, friend" and that also has me 🤔🤔 but also crying

And also, during the Citadel party, Wrex will ask Ashley if she would have actually killed him on Virmire. Ash responds "If it came down to it? Yes" and he responds with "I respect that"

I guess it just sucks that we don't get to see the Virmire Survivor's interactions with Wrex more in ME3. That being said, it's free real estate for additional headcanons and interpretations, and I believe he had a respect for her from the beginning. Yes, even when she was like "Can we trust the aliens to have free reign around the Alliance ship". I like to think Wrex heard that and was like. Well. At least she's not stupid enough to not watch her back. And the elevator banter he has with her does clearly show they're not hostile toward each other and maybe even respect each other.

And I mean, with the banter with mind, out of all the squadmates I'd say Wrex is the most hostile against Garrus. But that's a different topic lol

Also partially related, but you have to understand one thing: in-universe, Wrex dying is something no one cares about. Not on Virmire, not on the Citadel. Shepard can be sad that it came to this, but that's it. The STG will unceremoniously dump his body on Virmire, as C-Sec will dump his body into space. They just dismiss the violence and death as something that's inevitable with the Krogan (which really is generalizing the Krogan, that's true). Talking to your squadmates on Virmire will show that they also thought Wrex's death was inevitable and for the better.

Except Ashley. (And also Kaidan, but this is about Ashley.) She says "I'd rather have Wrex on our side, but he chose this path." Not "This was inevitable" or "That's what happens with Krogan". She believed it was his choice to not back down

And listen. About the whole "Shepard sabotages the Genophage cure because they're racist". You make it sound like that can be the only reason it happens. Shepard is whatever character you want them to be and you can interpret/roleplay the motivations behind their choices to your heart's content. Sabotaging the Genophage cure is one choice you can roleplay. Having someone else kill Wrex when Shepard could have done it is another.

"Flames are you saying you can make the choice to sabotage the Genophage cure worse than what it already is" For the drama? Yes you can :)

But idk. I just play the games ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[raideo]

Bruh a lady came up to me while I was trying to finish up a phone call to the store that I previously put on HOLD to finish helping the customer I was helping, and the phone-customer's question was super solvable and quick and I woulda been done in like 30 seconds-but this lady comes up and tells me she needs to be helped because she needs to leave for work rn and she CLAPPED AT ME and told me to hurry up and...

Bruh in that moment I almost became the joker I stg- I am SO PROUD of myself for not immediately turning into a bitch, like I saved us a bad review today but I did tell her that she was gonna have to wait till I was off the phone, it would just be a minute and I apologized for the wait and explained that it is only 2 of us here today.

Like I even asked this family if they needed anything when they came in and the guy said they were looking.

What I WANTED to say to her was like: why in the FUCK you coming in right before work to get fish??? On a sunday???? And then I wanted to take as long as possible getting off the phone but I didn't 😅 god tested me lmfaooooo and i fucking passed I guess.

If you're a customer and you didn't already know that it's insanely rude to clap or snap at an employee here's a secret: if you want the worst most petty side of us to come out that's like the easiest way to do it. Speedrun strat. I literally felt the dial inside me that goes from Nice to The Pettiest Bitch on Planet Earth spike to the right so fast that it broke. You are so lucky lady omg. Have the day you deserve! 👋

[bandedbulbussnarfblat]

I had a rough week last week. Tuesday my dog gets sick, so I look up her symptoms. And bc I'm a crazy person, my mind automatically latched onto the worst possibility. So I spent three hours crying hysterically and having panic attacks bc I was so scared she would die. Then Wednesday I had to take my dog to vet and was still super stressed out. Thursday and Friday I have to deal with medicaid and disability paperwork. Saturday I had a panic attack so bad that I couldn't stop it and had to text my brother to come help me (he lives with me. we're too poor to live without a roommate, and we've basically lived together our whole lives, so it was whatever). Sunday morning I have a panic attack and can't leave my house to play my weekly dnd game bc the thought of spending hours with other people away from home was...bad. Sunday night, I got completely (and irrationally) terrified of being alone. I was so afraid that I called my mom, and of course she offers to come over. And I'm freaking out so bad I let her, even though it was late and I know she has to get up early for work. (She only stayed until my brother got back around 10:30)

BUT, today is a new day. I managed to get my blood work done today, and talk on the phone to my case worker, and pick up a pair of contacts from my eye doctor to wear until my order comes in. And I didn't have a panic attack. I mean, I still had to have my dad take me, bc leaving home alone isn't something I can do right now. (Mentally or physically. My brother's car broke down, and since he's the one who has a job, he's been using mine. i stg it's like a fucking family curse; every time someone is already in a financial bind, their car will break down.)

So I have decided to take the next few days to just relax. My two besties that I've been friends with since middle school both have kids with autism and they said I'm probably going through autistic burn-out. I'm pretty sure I'm autistic and my doctor thinks I'm somewhere on the spectrum, though on the lower support side. I'm gonna play bg3, and unwind. And try to work on some fic. (bc I have the next chapter of 16 Days damn near finished, and it's the last chapter that ties up the current plot, then there's an epilogue that takes place later that played out like a movie in my head, so writing it will be a breeze.)

Side note, did y'all know that some school systems still use 'high/low functioning'. I've had to say to my coworkers that autistic people would prefer not to use those terms. But it isn't surprising; one of my cousin's kids was literally diagnosed with Asperger's. Which has fallen under the autism spectrum disorder since like, forever ago. And also there was a TA in the autism classroom I worked in once who literally told me that autism was caused by demonic possession. I'm so glad I left the school system. Bc I eventually was going to fucking explode with rage after the way my kids were treated. (My students, not my actual kids. I don't have or want any)

Working in EC has really shown me how little the school system actually cares about helping the disabled; they will cut corners and do shit that 'technically' meets a kid's IEP, but doesn't do a damn thing to help them. And if you say something like, 'i don't think that counts' your coworkers will not be happy. But to a certain degree you can't be too mad, bc there is literally not enough time or resources to meet every child's needs, bc they cram as many kids in one EC classroom as possible, hire the minimum amount of TAs required by law and expect one teacher to be able to magically meet all their needs. My last job had 3 kids in wheelchairs in those tiny ass mobile units schools started using, that literally did not have room to move around, unless the other students stood up to let them get by, and sometimes even move their desk. We had multiple kids with autism. One of them stimmed by screaming, another was triggered by loud noises.

This post kinda went off on a tangent. Anyway, heads up to any parents who have kids starting school, make sure you get a copy of your child's IEP. If you think they aren't being serviced, contact your local Board of Education, and tell them that you have a child with an IEP who isn't receiving adequate services. Then threaten to sue them if they don't start providing your kid their services. It does not matter if you can actually afford to sue them or not, an IEP is a legally binding document. You have the right to sue, and most of the time the threat alone is enough to kick their ass into gear.

[newbie-whovian]

I have Feelings™ about 4 and Sarah and some song lyrics/parallels

This ended up sorta long so-

So um Out of the Woods by Taylor Swift is giving me such 4 x Sarah vibes I am physically in pain, like maybe they don't actually relate at all and I'm doing another "I've connected the dots" "you haven't connected shit" "I've connected them" but---

Their entire time together honestly feels like they're running from something together. It's not even from something specific, maybe it's just that they don't want to be alone. And at the beginning of series 13 when Harry decides he'll stay behind, 4 asks Sarah if she'll come with him and you can see plain as day that he needs her to say yes. And then she joins him and they go back to running and it genuinely feels like if they had the choice, they would have kept running forever.

I will forever be cringey about associating lyrics with characters and this is absolutely one of those cases. Like you're a better person than I if you can hear "we were built to fall apart" and not go absolutely feral. "We decided to move the furniture so we could dance, like we stood a chance" oh my gooooooooddddd I am such a sucker for the doomed romances/friendships in dw and what makes 4 and Sarah so brutal to me is the fact that it almost tricks you into thinking it'll work.

They're best friends, and they look out for each other and make fun of each other, but at the same time it starts to feel comfortable, you can't help but be reminded that it can't last. Something happens, it always does. Sarah jokes about wanting to go home all the time, but we get to The Hand of Fear and she threatens to leave right as 4 is being called back to Gallifrey. And Sarah says that she didn't mean it and it sounds like she's about to cry and for once 4 looks serious, not necessarily concerned or resolved, but almost scared, and oh my god this show---

Neither of them want her to go and--- "the monsters turned out to be just trees, when the sun came up you were looking at me" I am foaming at the mouth-

While I'm on my Taylor Swift lyrics bullshit, "the worst thing that I ever did was what I did to you" from Betty--- I know the Doctor has done much worse things than accidentally abandoning Sarah but in the context of The Sarah Jane Adventures, when we see her working through her abandonment issues that he unintentionally gave her, it seems so much worse, and I made a post about that and I'm not gonna get on my soapbox again but I love that the show didn't abandon her too.

But then I go back and watch series 12 and 13, and it's so easy to forget all of that and pretend that they keep running away together and this show will be the death of me I stg

Guys one day I will be ok about 4 and Sarah but today is not that day.

[admiringlove]

“wait, really?”

— welcome to sam’s brewery, where we commemorate reaching 500 customers! this event lasts for one week, and will only take up to twenty orders(as above that can become quite overwhelming).

+order: hey :) if there are still spots open for your event, could I maybe ask for "I hate you" "I love you" "wait, really?" with Sugawara Koushi as angst to fluff or hurt/comfort (something in that direction)? Please take all the time you need and if you don't feel like writing this, don't worry and just delete this ask ^-^ [submitted by @x-whyareyoureadingthis-x​]

+word count: 1k.

+author’s notes: pls i had so much fun writing this i stg 🥺 i hope you don’t mind me changing up the dialogue just a lil to suit the scene better <3 here is the link to the event masterlist.

You never thought falling in love would be such a pain. 

And you never understood how or why you fell in love in the first place. Maybe it was because of his obliviously pretty smiles, or his caring yet forgetful nature, or the way he always greeted you with that same glint in his eyes—Sugawara Kōshi always managed to make you feel giddy like a child. Your heart always beat faster around him, and your smiles almost always were wider when you spoke to him. 

You didn't know how to avoid these unnecessary feelings of yours; even after brainstorming for days on end, and trying to get rid of them, you couldn't. It felt impossible, having to meet him every day while walking to school, or having to walk home with him because he actually didn't live that far away. Between your high-school years, you never knew how you fell deep for him. And now, being the smart Senior you are, you come up with a fool-proof plan, and that is to avoid your friend—whom you are hopelessly in love with. 

You decide to take the longer routes to school(you were almost late on the first day of your oh-so-perfect plan, so you now set your alarm a little earlier to manage your time better), you hide in the bathroom for a bit before leaving(because he always waits outside the gates for some time till you get back from your club activities), and you make sure to leave the class as soon as the day is over, so he doesn't have time to even call your name. 

It hurt you. It really did, but it had to be done. You knew someone like him would never reciprocate the feelings you have. What was the point, if you simply built your hopes up, only for them to be shattered in the end? What was the point, for you to build a skyscraper full of expectations if they were to only end in tears?

So you cower behind this game of hide-n-seek. It was your ultimate method to forget.

It was all going perfectly—or so you thought, really, because your feelings still remained. It was like someone put a fake screen in front of your eyes, hypnotizing you into thinking that every single aspect of your so-called plan was working when it actually wasn't. You still subconsciously cared for him; because every morning, you'd think if he was doing well. Every night, before bed, you'd think if he still smiled the same way. Every time you successfully avoided him, you'd let out a shaky breath, thinking if you're hurting his feelings while doing the same. 

Today was supposed to be the same, really. You'd gotten up at six, taken the route that was to the opposite side of his home, gotten to school just in the nick of time to avoid being late. And even in the gym period, you ended up making small talk(something you really didn't like doing) with a few classmates to avoid him. 

Emphasis on 'today was supposed to be the same'. Because soon enough, you started realizing that today was, indeed, turning out to be a disaster. Your club, the student council, finished up later than you thought. You were handling accounting, and when the calculations were finally finished, you handed them to the President and left in such haste that they'd never seen before. You could swear you heard the President of the Student Council say, "Are they okay?"

"Shit," you mumble under your breath when you see the same pewter mop of hair walking out of the gym. You stop dead in your tracks, and you're sure your shoe screeched loudly as you turned on your heel and headed the opposite way. 

You could definitely hear his footsteps. The bathroom was nowhere nearby, and all you could see was the turn towards the library, and at this point, you had no choice. 

You stood there, back against the wall with your eyes closed until a soft yet familiar voice spoke in your ear, "Who are we hiding from?"

You definitely screamed. 

"What the hell are you doing here?" you ask him, his usual smile playing on his face as if you hadn't been avoiding him for the past month or so. He laughs smally, then says, "Oh, I just came out of the library and saw you standing here with your eyes closed. So, who were you hiding from?"

"None of your business," you grunt, walking towards the exit(you're mentally yelling at yourself now, because you could've just walked out instead of standing there like a fool).

He follows you—well, not really, because he has to walk in the same direction anyway. This feels like the first time someone ever tries to go to the gym and ends up burning themself out instead because all of the progress you've made until now has just sunk. Seeing him again, being this close to him again, making eye contact with him—it all makes your heart flutter with such intensity that it hurts.

"Well, you've been avoiding me too. You know, that hurts my feelings, [Y/N]," his teasing tone invokes a blush out of you. And before you know it, you're mumbling out, "I hate you."

"Ouch that hurt," he holds his hand to his heart to fake being offended, but then crouches down to your level and mumbles softly, "I love you though."

Your eyes go wide, the blush on your cheeks evident as you turn to look at him, "Wait, really?" 

"Really," he throws you a smile, ruffling your hair as he continues walking, "I'm guessing you avoided me because you knew?"

"No," you shake your head as he looks back, "No, I was avoiding you because I think I love you too."

It all comes together now; all the strings become untied, and it's in front of you. Falling in love with Sugawara Kōshi was the easy part. It's admitting to yourself that it happened which was hard. You had built up many walls around you, but he always found a way through. Why, you may ask? Because the boy you've fallen in love with decided to build a door to walk through.

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[hello-yue-here]

About your atla ship songs, I have a couple of questions (sorry if my phrasing comes out wrong, english isn't my first language and I worry it might across as accidentally defensive): how did you end up with the choices for zukka, jetko and yuekka (note: I haven't seen the great comet, so feel free to obsess over it, I'm intrigued now and the hype is appreciated!)? Sidenote: I think the mailee choice is HILARIOUS and the tokka one just make me sad, I didn't expect to be attacked like this😭

kdjfha;s i love you im gonna obsess SO HARD over great comet now. you may regret this

this is gonna be so long so the rest is under the cut whoops

yuekka: no one else from great comet

where do i even begin. WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN

okay so background information on this show: it's based off of a 76 oages excerpt from war and peace and its centered around a woman named natasha (and this guy pierre but he's irrelevant to this song so we wont worry about him) and natasha's bethrothed is off fighting in the war right now. she hasn't seen him in a while but she is in love with him.

every single lyrics of this song SCREAMS yuekka to me. the innocence and purity of their love. the love at first sight. and even the melancholy ending just- i go apeshit for this song. i love this song so much. and denee benton's voice??? kljsdhflwksugf please listen to this song if you haven't already. listen to the whole show. your life will be changed forever.

onto the lyrics (i stg this is ab to be the whole song whoops)

"the moon"

THOSE ARE THE FIRST WORDS ON THE SONG. natasha and andre (her bethrothed) met underneath the moonlight. Sokka and Yue first spoke to eachother at night and always met each other for their most intimate moments under the moonlight. also yue is LITERALLY the moon so like: right of the bat with those two words it's yuekka.

"and i saw your eyes / and i saw your smile / and the world opened wide"

sokka fell in love with yue the moment he saw her in the canal. she literally enchanted this motherfucker. everything about her made his heart go crazy. and 'the world opened wide' to me is from yue's perspective. Yue had never left the north pole and sokka had seen a good chuck of the world at the point. He took her on appa, he told her about his adventures. he saw the world yue wished to see and you know damn well that Sokka would have done anything to give it to her.

"oh the moon /oh the snow in the moonlight / and your childlike eyes and your distant smile / ill never be this happy again / you and i and no one else"

natasha sings fondly about the moon and the snow, seeing as it was where she fell in love with andre. yue and sokka LITERALLY fell in love in the same place: in the snowy nothern water tribe under the light of the moon. childlike eyes: THEYRE CHILDREN!!! distant smile: this is where it gets a little sad. theyre both children with way too many duties during a world that has known nothing but war for the past century. they want to be happy but yeah, theyre smiles are distant and far away because happiness seems out of reach for them most of the time. i'll never be this happy again: the moments yue and sokka shared together were probably the happiest either of them ever were. they were able to ignore the war and the world in the moments they shared together. and with no one else. no one else would be able to give each other this sense of peace and happiness and love.

"joy and life inside our souls / and no body knows just you and me / it's our secret"

Yue and Sokka had to sneak out in secret at night to go and see each other. Yue and Sokka couldn't be together for real because Yue was already engaged, but they were literally in love so she decided to see him anyways in secret. kasdjfhklasjd im losing my mind over them at this point.

"this winer sky / how can anyone sleep / there was never such a night before / i feel like putting my arms around my knees / and squeezing tight as possible / and flying away"

these are my FAVORITE lines in the entire song. yue and sokka had never felt this strongly about anyone before and that's why they are so drawn to each other. they had never experienced love before and they wanted to hold onto it for as long as they could even though they knew they couldnt. Sokka takes yue up on appa and she is wistful and wishes she could live like he does every day: ie flying away. oh my god these two deserved so much better. so much fucking better.

now for the saddes part. the saddest fucking part.

"maybe he'll come today / maybe he came already / and he's sitting in the drawing room / and i simply forgot"

natasha misses andre so intensely at this point. when i first listened to this show and heard this song i was like "wait a min... is andre like... dead?" and im sure i wasnt the only person who assumed that this was why natasha felt so sad by the end of such a beautiful song. (spoiler alert andre is fine)

but this line really exemplifies how sad natasha is, and hints at the fact that andre may never come back. it implies that their relationship is doomed (at least in my opinion) and that's all yuekka. Sokka misses yue intensely when shes gone. Yue accepted her fate almost immediately but sokka was in denial. he thought there had to be another way. but in the end it wasn't meant to be. and sokka will go on, loving yue, wishing for her back, even though it's not possible.

fuck im gonna cry.

zukka: all i've ever known- hadestown

"i was alone so long / i didn't even know that i was lonely / out in the cold so long / i didnt even know that i was cold"

sokka is from the swt so theres where the cold comes in. also in the gaang (initially) it was just him katara and aang. and katara and aang were much closer to each other than sokka was with aang and the two of them were benders so sokka was kind of an outsider with the two of them. He also represses a lot of his emotions and feels the need to do everything himself so i do see a lot of loneliness in sokka. and the fact that so many people in his life have left him (his mom, yue, his dad, suki briefly, etc...) he is known to keep people at an arms length. i see a lot of loneliness in sokka.

zuko's loneliness is a lot more obvious: he has literally been cast out and abandoned by everyone except iroh. and even then he still feels the need to be alone (remember zuko alone? thought so) these boys look after themselves and push others away and revel in their loneliness in order to keep themselves from getting hurt. at least in my opinion on canon and also some fanon because id be a liar if i said fanon didnt influence how i view ALL my ships (not just zukka)

"all ive ever known is how to hold my own / but now I wanna hold you too"

COME ONE MANNNN, they just wanna hold each other. theyre both very big protectors as well and kljhflkasdhg they wanna protect eachother like kljdhfl im gonna lose it rn.

"You take me in your arms / And suddenly there's sunlight all around me / Everything bright and warm / And shining like it never did before / And for a moment I forget / Just how dark and cold it gets"

SUNLIGHT SYMBOLISM. zuko is literally powered by the sun. i don't think i even NEED to elaborate on this one anymore lol. They find comfort in each other away from all of their trauma. when they're together nothing else matters and i personally love that for them. they both deserve love.

"I knew you before we met / And I don't even know you yet / All I know is your someone I have always known"

these two are extremely similar in canon. many parallels. older brothers overshadowed by their prodigy little sisters. longing to make their fathers proud (granted one dad is good and one is fuckin evil), both are pretty bad with emotions. both are seen protecting others before themselves (sokka protecting suki during the serpant's pass, sokka protecting toph on like multiple occassions, zuko protecting katara in the final agni kai), the list goes on. they know who the other is because they see themselves in the other person. they already know each other because they are each other (in a way, not entirely, but the similarities are strong in my opinion)

"I'm gonna hold you forever / The wind will never change on us / Long as we stay with each other / Then it will always be like this"

i just think this line is so cute and sweet (ignoring all the symbolism and foreshadowing that comes with the last line in the musical itself. im gonna pretend this is nothing but happy) and i think these boys deserve happiness so yeah. this song is zukka to me lol.

jetko: thrill of first love- falsettoes

if you've never listened to this song go an do it now. you will know INSTANTLY that it is jetko because of the dynamics alone. marvin and whizzer are pure jetko and i take no crticisms.

marvin and whizzer are both extremely stubborn, and they don't always get along, and they fight a lot, and they get mad at each other a lot, and they are both passionate as hell, and they will bring this passion into everything. they love each other that is without a doubt, but they arent perfect and they are once again stubborn and determined as fuck.

sound familiar? it's literally jetko.

the lyrics aren't what remind me of jetko, but the dynamic itself. the lyrics are too on the nose for a gay couple in 1970's america so that rlly cant apply to jetko all that much. but the way these two characters bounce off of each other and get annoyed with each other and argue with eachother reminds me of jetko. because let's be honest: these two are the most stubborn characters in the whole show. they will fight for what they believe and it will take literally everything to change their minds.

i love jetko but i think they would have petty arguments all the time and get aggravated by one another so easily. and this is even seen in canon: they work so fucking well together but they did not even HESITATE to fight one another after neither of them would give in and let the fight about whether jet was right or wrong about zuko being a firebender. like i cannot say it enough they are stubborn as fuck.

but underneath all that stubborn pettiness and bickering: marvin and whizzer still love each other. and jet and zuko would still love each other. because even though they are stubborn when it comes to arguments, they are even more stubborn and determined when it comes to each other. these two passionate motherfuckers are in love.

(now when i chose this song i decided to ignore the fact that this song literally spells out the fact that marvin and whizzer's relatinoship is doomed because they literally say passion dies. thats the difference between jetko and whizzer and marvin because i dont think passion dies. i chose this song strictly for the bickering lmao)

and i know you didnt ask about tokka but,,,,

i rlly wanna talk about the tokka one

so im going to

tokka: on my own- les mis

look. i KNOW this song is about unrequited love and i love tokka as a couple but,,, the unrequited love in this song just SCREAMS unrequited tokka to me so thats what i went with.

eponine is a girl who has neglectful parents who lives life by her own rules: toph. eponine is shown to be tough and confident and spunky to others but behind all of that she has emotions, she feels love, she hides her vulnerability so much: toph. she is in love with a guy she cant be with because he loves someone else: TOPH

eponine is toph to a t and toph is eponine to a t. this is not up for debate lmao

"without him i feel his arms around me"

toph is always seen grabbing onto someone (and its almost ALWAYS sokka) when she's somewhere where she can't use her feet to see. FEEL and ARMS cmon. look at it.

"and i know / i know that he is blind"

COME ON. IMAGINE TOPH SINGING THIS LINE. this line is already powerful enough in les mis but having toph, a blind character, sing it just makes the symbolism even deeper. toph sees the potential relationship they could have together. toph sees that sokka is oblivious to this. toph is not blind to the truth or the potention, but sokka is blind to her feelings. im about to lose my mind over this line.

"I love him / But every day I'm learning / All my life / I've only been pretending / Without me / His world will go on turning / A world that's full of happiness / That I have never known"

i need to sit down for a moment. toph grew up in a household where her parents did not understand her. she has learned to hide her true emotions and vulnerabilities from everyone. and its the fact that toph knows that she and sokka will never be together and the fact that she still loves him in spite of that is what makes this even more heartbreaking.

"but only on my own"

TOPH AND EPONINE SWEETIES I LOVE YOU

thank you for indulging my theatre kid nonsense. you are very sweet and kind and lovely and awesome and i hope you have a lovely day bestie :) <3

ask me why i think these songs go with these ships

[yuvon-writes-letters]

Wow..you really replied...

In case you want to know, I'm laughing now. Maybe you can, too? :)

When I wrote my first letter I only had access to your first one...All the others, also the ones from Rai, came through shortly after I sent mine. And I am still mindblown.

Sooo, where to start now? [Words crossed out mutliple times] Oh, I know! You are right, I am still able to hold contact with everyone in my world (it feels so weird to write that!!) except for the Duskwood group. It is my third stasis and the last one took almost 4 months, at least if counted right. But it seems..different than before.

What I mean when saying this is: I went out today and I saw some of the 'I am Jake' stickers (this happened with you too, right? I still cannot believe that) that people put everywhere in my city. When the whole I thing started I saw some boys from my neighborhood putting some stickers in place, even filming a video. I have to admit, I only trusted myself to do a picture when it happened... [the next words are a bit difficult to read] But I a_ dig_ess__g.

[They're readable again] Sorry, I had to search a different pen!! So, continuing my weird story. I saw those boys again when I went out to buy some things to cook tonight (I wanted to make something chinese...). And I don't know why, but I got the absoluetely GREAT (not) idea to ask them about the stickers. Why they put them there.

Maybe my time with the Crow-Crew (hehe, I like that) from Duskwood made me do as dumb things as just breaking in somewhere.

But the reply of the boys was very weird...They asked me what stickers I meant and when I told them they said they looked cool but never once saw them before. And I know those boys. Normally they would not lie to me. But maybe I'm just becoming paranoid, too.

But yeah, that was what happened...And still no message from anyone in Duskwood. Honestly, I really miss my Jake. It was complicated, but...he started to open up so much. Started imagining what would happen if the both of us just would run away together (even though he'd never do it..my safety...) :) But yeah [again there is a single tear stain], could you tell your Jake I said hi? It's not the same, but..yeah...

I hope you're feeling well,

Liska🐾🔥

[The text seems to be written very hastily] Ps. Oh my..I [words crossed out]. I didn't think I would add more to the letter. But I just wanted to send it (like the last one). In this moment I'm staring at a call I'm getting. Unknown...

[Heyho, real person behind Liska. I hope that's not too far-fetched xD]

Liska,

Huh. I wonder why it sent like that. Maybe the eldritch entity of trees and whatever the hell is happening anymore messed up? If so, that’s actually pretty relieving, knowing it CAN mess up.

Four months? Oh hell. I do NOT want to be stuck in this damn place for FOUR MONTHS. I need to find a way out asap.

Yeah, the #IAmJake happened here too; and while Rai didn’t specifically confirm nor deny whether it happened in their world they didn’t ask surprised at all when I mentioned it, and their Jake was okay with us using his name. So, it seems like our universes have that in common, at least.

Crow Crew XD   I’m gonna have to steal that sometime.

That’s... very odd, about the stickers, though. I have no idea what the hell is up with that. Maybe the entity has trouble filtering everything related to Duskwood in your world? Maybe that’s why I’m in here instead, easier to control one person and freeze a world than to specifically filter for things relating to the Duskwood case. Maybe some stuff slipped through the cracks.

Jake is probably I can understand Jake fairly well. What I don’t understand is his stance on our feelings. I tend to take the attitude of “shove it all in a box and forget it exists” towards issues like this, but you saw how well that worked out when I finally told Jake everything.

I left out some of the more personal stuff, since I wasn’t sure whether or not you wanted Jake to hear it, even if it’s not “your” Jake, but I said hi to him for you. He says hi back. He’s been fairly sympathetic towards you in between trying to deal with the damn trees, and he told me to assure you that whatever was keeping your Jake from contacting you, it had absolutely nothing to do with Jake himself nor his pursuers.

“Unknown”? That, uh, sounds. Well. Interesting. Let me know how that one turns out. There’s a limited number of people I can think of who that’d likely be (plus spam callers XD), and only one of them is someone I’d particularly like to speak to.

Thanks for the well-wishes, Liska. You too, especially since you’re actually in a place where you can be injured...

—Yuvon

(The letter tucks itself in the paper clip with the others.)

(For the most part, I’m going to try to avoid going out of character on this blog. However, I’ll make an exception this time.

I already have my entity, its MO, its motivations, and the very basic plot progression of this blog (if Yuvon and Jake can stop obsessing over the fucking trees for ONE second, I stg I made Yuvon’s character and I still don’t understand the shit she does sometimes) mapped out, plus exactly how much I’m going to address the current pause between episodes. Some bits of all this are going to be kind of insane, so don’t worry about things being far-fetched. However, whatever Yuvon thinks, the entity she’s dealing with and whatever’s causing your character’s situation don’t quite match up, so our characters can’t work together on that front.

Feel free to make your own entity, though, if you want to. There’s definitely enough of the reality warping amoral bastards to go around, and Yuvon will still help Liska however she can.

Oh. One tip for interacting with this blog, since no one’s quite done this yet, and you sort of need to very soon for Yuvon’s next little plot arc.

Yuvon is not a reliable narrator. Yuvon lies.

Sometimes, you may need to confront her on this.

If you ever need a hint, ask or message @yuvon-augold79​ the word “hint”, and specify what you’re stuck on, and I’ll come up with one.)

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

Correct me if I'm wrong, but you work/ed in a pet store iirc? It's just I was looking at fish today and noticed a semi-translucent fish with a severe spinal deformity (it was twisted like an "S" I STG; I've never seen anything like it that was still alive). I brought it to the fish attendant's attention, and I think it needed to be done, but I feel kind of bad too? I hope they didn't take it as some kind of accusation - I know it's likely just a supplier issue they didn't notice.

Oh my gosh, that poor creature... Yes, I worked at a pet store for nearly 5 years. i miss it terribly And I, for one, would’ve appreciated that you cared enough to mention that something was wrong, and had the knowledge and compassion to realize that it was Not Okay. The people that I worked with wouldn’t have taken it as an accusation towards us, unless you gave us a speech about how WE shouldn’t do that. (But you better believe we were talking behind the scenes about how irresponsible that fish’s breeder was.)

At my stores, we actually would have sent the fish home with someone for free, with a release form stating that the fish was non-returnable and non-refundable, and the reason why, and let them know that the fish might have special needs or a shortened life.

Unfortunately, the suppliers for my store never seemed to respond or take action, even when three consecutive months of certain shipments came in with a highly contagious disease...

(And, well, the managers at other stores RECEIVING such shipments might not want to bother filling out all the paperwork to file that claim. The stores I worked at did our very best to treat every fish affected, in that situation...)

With an at-home breeder, once a singular fish turns out like that, they can check their livestock, and make sure that there are no nutrient deficiencies, food-outcompeting, water toxins, or environmental factors that caused it. (Because every single one of those can cause deformities, even if the fish’s genetics are perfectly healthy.) But with mass breeders, it’s a lot harder for them to control every factor for every fish.

And the really sad thing is, especially for fish like fancy goldfish and balloon-belly mollies: breeders sometimes ENCOURAGE spinal deformities, for no other reason than “the aesthetic”. Despite the fact that these fish are now prone to constipation, swim bladder issues, they sometimes have to fight much harder to get to their food, and it essentially crams their organs together and makes them more susceptible to stress-related diseases and water-quality problems... it’s possible that this particular fish was the result of a breeder trying to create a more compact version. :c

Anyways, I really hope your store takes action for them, and if they decided not to euthanize, the fish’s remaining days are swimming somewhere clean and safe.