#ik i say that but lmao i never consider myself tagged

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

hai guys :3

[baconcolacan]

For Regimen: is Tom with VR happening? is Tom considered a villain himself? ik this is an opinion, i was wondering what the author themselves thought Does the outside in general, besides Matt, get informed of Toms capture? out of curiosity, what would Tord do if Tom were to kill himself just to escape? its a what if question, im guessing he'd just feel hollow And ik I'm looking too far into the future, but lets say that once Regimen is finished (if! no presure) are there any other stories you plan on making? I love your work and have been high on adrenaline by just finding out that you post here! You're an idol

Omg hahahaha, this is so funny, and cute, did you really make an account just to ask me a question?? Lmao

I wont go into too much detail as it straddles the spoiler line but I’ll answer the ones I can.

• :)

• Tom is my protagonist, meaning he’s the main character of the story, most people forget but a protagonist is just that, the main focus of the story. Whether or not he’s a villain or hero depends on the other characters. Tom has been a lot of things to many characters, and its never been the same thing.

• England gets amnesty, its enough of a tell. They are now going to be completely left alone by the Red Army, Red Nation, and all of its associates.

• This will never be an issue.

• I might turn to try to finish CG. Other than that? I feel like I wont write any major stories for a while, but I will devote most of my time to my ew Stay AU probably because I really like working on it, if you’re curious with what that is, its in the summary link on my pinned post + the tag I use for it.

And awww thank you! An idol? sidjdjfj you’re making me blush, I’m flattered by that really. I was just itching for a certain story and decided I’d make it myself. Though, I am sorry it’s delaying so much ^^;

[my-hot-awkward-turian-boyfriend]

Mass Effect Tag Game

I stole this from @onedismay and anyone can now proceed to steal it from me

I am a fan since: The release of Legendary Edition, which came out on my birthday. And--1500+ hours of playtime later--It's the gift that keeps on giving lol

Favourite game of the series?: Mass Effect 2 is definitely my favourite because there just feels like there's so much more at stake and all the new characters introduced are great

MShep or FShep?: Most of my Sheps are women but I do have a few men even though I technically haven't played all of them yet

Earthborn, Colonist or Spacer?: I know a lot of people probably consider this the boring option, but I do prefer Earthborn because, for whatever reason, I have a thing about my OCs never knowing their parents

Biotics or Tech: 100% tech, I don't fuck with biotics

Paragon or Renegade: My main Shep is renegade with a touch of paragon

Favourite Class: Infiltrator is my go-to class, but I'll admit that I don't have a lot of experience with any of the other classes

Favourite Companion: Uhm all the techies are essentially my faves lol so Garrus, Tali, EDI, Legion, Kasumi, and Mordin. I also adore Joker, who I feel like gets accidentally excluded a lot because he's not someone who can tag along on missions. Then I have a bit of a soft spot for Vega. Oh, and Aria is pretty much the only asari character I enjoy lol

Least favourite Companion: I might get hate for this, but Liara. I hate how forced she is on you in the first game, and the fact that that does change for the rest of the series makes me so uncomfortable. I literally don't even both talking to her. Ever. I forget she's there half the time. If it weren't for the couple missions in ME3 where you're forced to take her, she would never leave the ship

My squad selection: Garrus is almost always there. I've forced myself to broaden my selection in recent playthroughs and utilise (almost) everyone, but Garrus is still definitely a top pick. Tali is up there, as well. Frankly, this answer is essentially the same as my fave companion(s) plus Wrex

Favourite In-game romance: Garrus. The only romance I honestly give a shit about

Other pairings I like: Joker and EDI, 100%. I'm also into the Jack/Miranda pairing, and I enjoy the thought of Ash and James ending up together

Favourite NPC: This is probably the proper place to mention Joker and Aria, but I'm not going back to edit my other answer including them lol

Favourite Antagonist: I'm not sure I really have one. Saren had potential and it would've been neat if he had stuck around for at least another game, but obviously that didn't happen. The Illusive Man was kinda lame and just overall a nuance soooo idk Udina? lmao

Favourite Mission: I'm not entirely sure... I don't think I necessarily have a favourite because they're all mandatory, for the most part. Even if they're not mandatory story-wise, they are to level up so it's ike...idk none of them really stick out to me and I dread something about each of them, to be honest lol

Favourite Loyalty Mission: Obligatory Garrus answer, but then I also enjoy Tali's mission, uhm... Kasumi's is fun, Mordin's is good, aaaand that's probably it

Favourite DLC: Citadel, hands down. Just the absolutely campiness and insanity of it. I mean, it was a good way to lighten the mood of what the rest of ME3 is, so the ridiculousness of it was honestly much appreciated. A close second would probably be between Omega and Leviathan

Control, Synthesis or Destroy: I prefer Synthesis. I don't give a shit what people say about it, I'm not going through all that bullshit of ending a 300-year long war between the Quarians and Geth just to fucking destroy the Geth in the end. It's pointless. Plus, I could never do that to EDI

Favourite Weapon: While I usually am the Infiltrator class, I always choose assault rifles as my specialisation (or just use them in general when I can), so in ME2 my go-to is the Mattock while in ME3 it's the Valkyrie or Chakram Launcher. As for sniper rifles, in ME2 it's the Viper and in ME3 it's the Valiant

Favourite Place: I enjoy Omega and Illium the most. I wish we could've explored them more because I feel like there was so much lost potential there.

A quote I like: "I won't let fear compromise who I am." ~Shepard. I would honestly get that tattooed on my body lol Garrus has a lot of good/funny quotes, too, especially in ME3 but that Shepard one is always the first to come to mind

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Love me some angst!! So true though I can imagine it kinda being like the “want what you can’t have” thing where you’d have to be uninterested to catch his eye..also I’m so excited to read every installment makes me stan bestie a little more like where’s my irl girlie like this??

Oh yeah stagnant is the word I’m looking for…I’ve never prayed on the downfall of a duo so hard before they NEEDED that breakup no matter what all the fans say like please let them develop!! As you mention later in your reply I do think kaneshiro has something in mind for nagi I’m just hoping it happens soon!! What kinda also throws me off a bit is I think in a recent interview kaneshiro mentions that Nagi has no friends outside of reo even within bllk? And I’m like wait what about Isagi chigiri and Bachira at least they literally went bowling together and were gonna meet at a cafe together??? I don’t think you do that with people not considered friends but whatever ig :|

Based off what they’ve all spouted mid match they DEF have a mean streak LMAO gotta let out all that teenager rage somewhere…even polite mom friend yuki based of NEL scenes LOL but I love the duality of it all!

Loser on loser crime fr…reminds me of that one line from the mobile game where Nagi’s like “sheesh rin you have no friends” like boy ik ur not talking

The soccer freak always gets me because the way Rin’s presented makes him seem super popular BECAUSE of his soccer dedication flipping it around and making it his weakness just makes it hit harder

That makes sense! I’ll admit some scenes of him are done nicely but yeah also not exactly my type oops, when I was typing out my last response I was kinda thinking about how his backstory is uh…a little bland…like yeah a passionate boy about soccer but other than that he’s got a healthy family and basically no trauma (good for him!!) but yeah I mean other than his mindset on like evolution not much to explore imo

Get. Out. I was an MLP kid too LMAOOO you’re so right about rainbow dash I feel like maybe he’d try to cover himself up with like king sombra too (shadowy villain to match his ninja shadow steps thing or wtv) and I honestly don’t know how he pulls sm he seems like such a dork too like, ninja butt trap?? Saying bam (bakyuun) at like every other sentence….bro is a geek and it’s showing LMAO I bet he’d be into ninjago

OVER 15K we’re eating good guys…I’m also like constantly lurking the tags waiting for things to pop up which is where I first found you actually LOL I swear the karasu tag was dry as HELL for a good 6 months I kept finding stuff on a diff karasu from some other series and the Otoya and yuki tags are like even drier like please someone…you’re literally saving me rn I have never seen this much Karasu content like. Ever. I would contribute more if I knew how to write but for now I’ll just stick to ideas ig LMAO

That panel living rent free in my brain…more like I’m paying it to stay there omg I cannot wait…I’m also hoping that tabieitaken still get some spotlight in the manga too (I’m so glad Karasu isn’t obsolete in PxG) because how did they go from top 345, not score at all in the u20 match, and like we barely see them in nel (barcha done so dirty don’t even get me started…) like bring the boys back please I know they were the top in bllk for a reason!!

Also I really hope it also gets revealed somewhere the tracks of all the teams?? I wanna find out how they get yuki eventually LOL I tried making a chart myself but lost my mind 3/4 of the way in because I realized things didn’t match up and the many locked off npcs make it hard to accurately discern anything eugh…but trust once 1) that epinagi chapter comes out 2) the light novel for yuki comes out I will be back here flooding your inbox…(as if I don’t alr oops)

- Karasu anon

yes exactly i think you would have to make him feel smth different from how he normally does for him to remain interested long-term. w fwtkac bestie it’s the fact that they dislike another which could lead to a possible romance because he’s so used to girls liking him and him liking them in return that their feud would force him to get to know her in a diff way almost?? idk if that makes sense. and hehe i just posted the last part and bestie is VERY prominent in it so i hope you enjoy!! she truly is such a funny character i love writing her and reader together

YES the breakup was needed!! and everyone who talks abt nagi falling off…yeah he needed that too or else he’d never be able to have a proper character arc 😭 i think w regards to that he just said that nagi isn’t CLOSE to anyone but reo!! which does make sense to me. we see him interacting and being friendly w bachira isagi and chigiri (even karasu surprisingly) but he seems like the type who wouldn’t let anyone in right away. i do think he enjoys hanging out w them and probably considers them chill buddies but he wouldn’t invite isagi to his depression nest apartment the way he did reo. or maybe i’m just overthinking it and he actually just hates everyone 😫

yuki is honestly willing to throw hands at any moment he just seems chill compared to tabieita because those two are on another level 😭 HAHA actually though i’m p sure otoya is the least mean on-field…he kinda just dgaf meanwhile karasu and yuki actively degrade other players 😔 but otoya is so…interesting…off field that it makes up for it (negatively)

HAHAHA omg loser on loser crime fr…pls nagi is actually so mean tbh which makes sense because he is a gamer but also it’s so funny because we’re introduced to him as this apathetic chill guy and then the instant he meets barou he pulls out an entire ARSENAL of insults 😭 yeah i think outside of bllk that dedication to soccer is not making bro popular…like he has no time for friends or hobbies or anything because he’s busy practicing so it’s very much “the best but at what cost”

shidou def has some cool scenes!! and some uh. well. LMAOO but same with isagi like there’s some scenes where i can kinda see the appeal but for the most part he’s too chill and basic looking/acting for me. i also think it’s so funny that some of the characters have such crazy backstories (kaiser, yuki) and then isagi just grew up upper middle class 😓 zero issues in his life just vibes

OMGGG MLP FANS RISE UP my fav was rarity because she’s literally me but i also really liked princess cadence!! and that whole movie w her wedding actually was really good although i obv haven’t watched in ages. HAHAH no you’re so right though he is such a loserrr i honestly think if he ever got over himself and settled down he would be one of the best bfs in bllk just because he’s so secretly unserious. he’s definitely the type to have been super into like. pokémon (projecting because i love pokémon) or smth and he would give entire speeches about why his favorites are the best ones (NOT clickbait 3am gone wrong) and how he plans on beating the champion. he also is so chill i feel like if you tried to prank him or do smth like put makeup on him he’d just be like “ok 👍” and go along with it 😪 IF ONLY HE WASN’T A CHEATER 😕

omg no because i thought the karasu tag was empty and then i tried looking for otoya content (help he’s grown on me so bad) and it was EMPTY. forget abt yuki broooo nobody even knows him 😭 and YES it ended up at 16.1k as i’m sure you saw!! sooo long 😫 also wait that’s so funny…idt i had posted any karasu fics before your requests which post did you find me through??

if you ever do decide to try writing lmk i will def read it!! honestly it all comes down to practice + i’m sure you’re much better than you realize 💖

YES BRO WHY ARE YUKI AND OTOYA GHOSTING ATM??? i can even kind of understand otoya because he’s on a diff team and whatnot and at least his nel ranking is good but yuki is quite literally on bm why did he vanish after mancity 😓 also yesss omg bm vs barcha didn’t even feel like a nel game at all!! i saw a post where someone said they would’ve rather seen tabieita heading a nel team instead of reonagi and honestly i agree because that’s 3 and 4 in bllk right there plus they were introduced as having the best teamwork in all of bllk and that was just never brought up again after third selection?? ig it might’ve seemed redundant but in my dreams tabieita have reunited and are eating it up together 👆🏻

YAYY can’t wait!! i’m so excited for the ln chapters and the new epinagi chapter so i will be ready to yap once they’re out 🫡

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get to know me tag

tagged by: @ultvisual thanks love;

rules: tag 10 followers you want to get to know better!

birth year: ‘03 lets gooo

star sign: virgo

height: 5'3 (almost)

put your playlist on shuffle and play the first four songs: ok i have my kpop and i have like three english and two spanish so like. here have my thumbprint radio

I’m Born To Run by American Authors

Ponle by Faruko, J.Balvin and Rvssian

Esta Rico by Marc Anthony, Will Smith, and Bad Bunny

Sin Pijama by Becky G and Natti Natasha

(i think its all espanol bc i was listening to spanish music a lot in school last week so maybe its chronological?? idk)

grab the nearest book to you, turn to page 23, what is line 17? “Earlier in the day, Tess has traded five Notes for a bucket of pygmy pig’s blood from the back alley of a kitchen.”

ok the only thing i can say is that Day is extra asf and also homeless soooo (it’s from Legend by Marie Lu btw)

ever had a song or poem written about you? not that i know of?

when was the last time you played the air guitar? uhhh idr but it was prolly to a day6 song lets be honest

celebrity crushes: mmm ok so: choi hyunsuk and loewkey noah urrea ig?? i don’t really have crushes but i find ppl v attractive (@korea)

what’s a sound you hate? love? omggg forks on plates 🤮 ok and running water and conversation / white noise in general

do you believe in ghosts: huh naw b if i did idv shit myself like a thousand times

do you believe in aliens? yes?? this universe is big as hell ofc there’s gonna be smth else

do you drive? if so, have you crashed? i was literally just telling my little sister how i’m gonna start learning to drive this year and get my permit but yeah no not yet

last book you read? last book finished would be Legend by Marie Lu but last book read is The King’s Blood by Daniel Abraham (read itttt its like the less fucked up version of game of thrones)

do you like the smell of gasoline? yes no its bad for you

last movie you’ve seen? uhh infinity war? before that was naked

what’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? idk if it counts as an injury but was nasty asf and yall don’t want to know

so you have any obsessions right now? um kpop but lets be honest thats been an obsession for over a year and THE SWEATER IM WEARING ugh its so good and its the coziest, fluffiest thing ive ever owned

do you tend to hold grudges? not as much as i used to but like. piss me off and you bet i aint forgetting it

in a relationship? lmao *sobs*

i tag: @sejunhee aka @sonqmingi, @parkseonghwa, @seonghhwa, @fellateez (wow i have a lot of seonghwa based mutuals) @ateezly, @harutonotnaruto and ofc anyone who wants to do this!! consider yourself tagged by me

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@loiteringdiligently tagged me!! thank u tiff ive been eager to do this one <3 (also im so sorry it took me this long ik this went around months ago it just took me a while to get to >.<)

who was your first favorite artist? 

I'm super vast in my love for many artists and I never considered that i had a favourite until i got into depeche mode, there was a love there like no other artist i had ever heard before

who are your current favorites?

depeche mode, bowie, duran duran and the pet shop boys are constants but ive really fallen more for stromae and måneskin lately as far as musical obsessions

are you into musicals?

I seldom get into whole musicals but when I had friends who were I'd like the odd song here and there, i knew two hamilton songs by heart for a while lmao

are there songs you consider so special you only listen to them very rarely?

I take breaks from special songs sometimes, i get this irrational panic that i can't play on loop a song i love or ill stop liking it. but regardless of what i get into I'll Always come back to those special ones and feel just as fondly of them as the first time i heard them.

what’s your preferred way of listening to music?

I primarily listen to music when im out and about on the train with spotify. I have a long commute to work and i take that time to enjoy my music! however i absolutely Adore vinyl and am trying to find ways to set up my record player so i can listen to them frequently again.

what would you say is the most niche music you listen to?

the music my dad's band makes lmao theyre famous but indie by all standards

what’s your favourite music related movie/tv show that’s not a musical?

ok idk if this counts, but the first season of the umbrella academy had such an incredible soundtrack that even if it wasn't a music related show the the music is the biggest thing i took away from that show, more than story or acting.

albums or playlists?

playlists! i find its easier to organize my taste since I'll end up skipping half the album songs if im in the wrong mood

favourite albums?

Music for the Masses and Some Great Reward by depeche mode, The Hurting and Raoul and the Kings of Spain by tears for fears, Behaviour and Introspective by the pet shop boys, Aladdin sane and the Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust by bowie, Seven and the Ragged Tiger by duran duran, Discovery by daft punk... i could go on and on

is there an artist you’re trying to get into?

i’m really loving måneskin rn but i havent been able to sit down and run through their discography properly

whose music do you find overhyped?

taylor swift's recent release.. i just dont think i understand whats so special about it

what’s an underrated song?

Flexible by depeche mode, its a b side we dont talk about enough. also Love is a Bourgeois Construct by pet shop boys :)

what’s a thing a bunch of songs do that you love every time?

any sort of yell or whoop or gleeful howl that i can yell along to, i always know when they're coming and i can match them just as well as singing along to the lyrics :P

what song is better acoustic?

I am Big on songs with a groove or beat i can dance to so i tend to really dislike acoustic covers. I will burn at the stake the man who took Mad World and made it a slow sorrowful ballad that eclipsed the orginial >:(

what’s the worst song of all time?

I cant name one but any modern song with one verse repeated over and over with an electro riff in between. i Hate those songs and i listen to daft punk :/

do you put individual songs on repeat?

As i mentioned earlier i have an irrational fear of repeating a song i love so much i hate it, so I'll let myself listen to it a few times over and the move on so that excitement stays alive.

do you make your own playlists? if so, what’s your most entertaining playlist title?

I dont have very interesting naming conventions usually, "get your ass out of bed" is a particular fave for when i was badly depressed and played upbeat music to motivate me out of bed.

headphones or earbuds?

Earbuds, i wear mine most hours of the day especially when im out n about

do you always sing the lead vocal or do you harmonize sometimes?

oh i sing lead all the way, I'll match the lead's voice however i can regardless of whether its good or not

a musical confession?

i love and post a lot about kate bush, but ive listened to Barely any of her music..........

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not to be that person who asks a googleable question but wtf is hazbin hotel bc i googled it and the only “critical” thing i could find was a typo-ridden article of someone saying it has good animation and its haters are stupid. i was able to glean what it is/what it’s about but idk about the discourse lmao

Im actually so glad u asked this. Here's the lowdown, this is my definitive answer to hazbin shit from here on out, unless new info comes about of course.

Hazbin hotel is an independent cartoon by vivziepop. Most people (that ive seen) have agreed that the pilot of the show really isnt that great but the reason it has so many fans is bc of the entertaining livestreams, massive amounts of canon content produced (she has had these characters for years), unique art style, and the characters. (Ass ugly but unique.)

Its haters are totally justified bc of some of the "controversial" (read: bad) things vivziepop has done. Here's the conclusion that my friends and classmates (several of whom are Black, one Hispanic woman, and one trans woman...nellie if ur reading this i 💜 u) and i came to after discussing this stuff. I am NOT saying "well my black/trans friend said it's ok so i dont have to think about it!" this is based on a few different conversations that my friends and i have had about this topic so what im saying is that my opinion was formed by talking about this situation with multiple people affected by the controversy.

One controversial thing is a drawing u can easily find on google (called beastiality.jpg i believe?) It's a cropped (chest and up, but hes obv naked) drawing of vivziepops character, drawn by vivziepop, moaning, with a snake around him. The character is 17. Many people have interpreted this as child porn. I dont think this image is pornographic, i think it's a stupid joke (it was even tagged as a joke iirc) and completely inappropriate but since it's 8 years old on top of not being porn, i think it's just an example of a dumb drawing. That being said, i would NEVER argue that someone who is uncomfortable w the drawing (im uncomfortable with it! It's gross just not porn) or considers it porn is wrong. They are entitled to that opinion and i would never expose them to vivziepops work or talk about her stuff around them if they expressed to me that they disliked the image.

Another thing is that she drew a doodle of two racist TERFs. This is the one where my friends of color, my friends who are black, and my friends who are trans women took the lead. I sat back for this part and here's their and my opinion on this after talking about it and verbally going through this whole situation.

She was following these women (who had done blackface and stuff) and drew art of them. The art was a "quick doodle" that she did apologize for and she said she didn't realize the extent of their beliefs. She knew they werent great but hadnt consumed much of their content in depth. I believe her bc while ive never followed anyone as bad, ive certainly followed some pieces of shit and didnt notice for months simply bc im not online all the time and bc of the volume of people i follow, combined with the non chronological algorithms lately.

At the risk of screwing myself, im going to admit that there was about a year or so of my life where i enjoyed The Amazing Atheist. I was even subbed to him. I was a nonbinary lesbian (2 things he cant stand lmaoo) in catholic school and therefore i strictly watched his videos about theological stuff since thats what was frustrating me at the time. I had no clue the type of evil racist, transphobic, homophobic (yes ik hes bi), misogynistic things he thought, said, and did, bc i didnt watch those videos. I literally only watched select theological ones that could be of use to me while edgily debating my teachers (sorry mrs macdougal but u had it coming). I was about 15 at the time and im 19 now. Im sorry to everyone i hurt by ever having supported him. I had one of his quotes written in the inside of my religion notebook in high school. I regretted it and ripped the page out the moment i discovered the truth about him. I cant stress enough how much I HATE HIM. Thats an example of what i think happened here tho.

One of my friends who is a trans woman said (paraphrasing) "i think the worst thing shes done is that terf art but i believe the apology especially bc it was a quick drawing."

That being said, i would NEVER argue with someone who wanted nothing to do w vivziepop bc of this. That's their right. 100%. I would never expose them to her work after that.

The last thing i remember is something about a pedophilic couple in a comic but i heard it was a 17 year old and a 19 year old. Im 19 and if one of my peers did that i wouldnt say pedophile but id say ur a fucking weirdo, BUT, the kids were fake and being written by an adult so i can totally see her thinking that age gap is much less of a big deal than it really is. Like she forgot what it's like at this age. Idk how true any of that part is tho, i heard that info entirely secondhand.

Another thing to do with racism is that there's a joke within the show where one character says to the other

"don't get your taco in a twist"

"Was that supposed to be racist or sexist?"

"Whichever one pisses you off more"

I thought that was gross but one of my friends pointed out that vivziepop is of el salvadorian descent so that's her business. Like if i made a lesbian joke of equal or greater offensiveness than that and someone tried to call me lesbophobic over it id be like "that's literally my territory."

Oh speaking of which that character's name is vaggie and shes a lesbian but it's not pronounced w the same G you'd hear in "vagina." Vivziepop seems to name characters weirdly (like how in helluva boss theres a guy named blitzo and the o is silent) so maybe it's a pussy joke but i have no idea.

The animation was.................better than i could do, i wanna say the faces and gestures were good but god i remember there was a part with a car and my gf had to pause so i could laugh my ass off at it. I wouldn't describe the animation as a highlight but i liked the style in motion i thought it was a fun change. Vivziepops style is not appealing imo but i appreciate it as an art student and as someone whose friends all like she ra and steven universe where every character looks the goddamn motherfucking same, and while its chaotic and i dont care for it, the style actually works way better in motion than you'd think.

A good rule that i def use is to assume hazbin fans are guilty until proven innocent. If someone says they dont care about the discourse surrounding it and like it no matter what, RUN! They would support the show even if the creator was in fact a pedophile, or had done the blackface/was a terf herself! They probably support some horrible ppl and are probably "anti antis." A lot of them are minors tho so i'd say block and move on.

So, do i like it or not? Im an art student and all my friends like it so while i didnt think it was funny, i do fuck with it. At the convention this weekend my friends and i had a convo that led to me drawing an ahego hoodie where the faces were angel dust (a character's) face. It was a joke that i could make a killing by selling that in a booth at a con.

Theres really nothing compelling about the show but my friends like it so i join in on their conversations, and i do have a soft spot for angel dust bc he's like a worse, less amazing and gorgeous version of one of my characters, Candy, the love of my life.

A lot of people say the show was edgy/offensive and maybe im just desensitized but besides the taco thing i didnt pick up on that whatsoever??? The Archer episode "Swiss Miss" is worse than helluva boss and hazbin combined and even archer isn't offensive.

Im probably not aware of all the "discourse" (aka people being reasonably uncomfortable by weird and bad shit this random woman has done, and other ppl saying their opinions are wrong when it's literally just an opinion about a show) so if anything she's done isnt included in here it's not to defend vivziepop, this is genuinely all i know. I wouldnt describe myself as a fan of hers.

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nickname: Lena to pretty much everyone but my family and teachers and like. professional relationships lol. so basically Lena to my friends and on tumblr

real name: eh

zodiac sign: cancer

height: 5'4"

what time is it: 12:41 pm

favorite musician(s): oooh so BTS, Hozier, Infinite, Monsta X, Panic! at the Disco, Journey, Elton John, Queen, Twice, SHINee (including all their individual content), and Ateez. that’s the music that I most listen to lmao

favorite sports team: none probably lol I don’t follow sports

other blogs: technically? I have one url that I saved and I made a theme for it (as in I picked out two pictures for the header and profile pic) but I’ve never used it

do i get asks: occasionally??? usually just when I’ve just posted one of those ask games and I’ll get maybe one or two people ask me lol

how many blogs do i follow: 616 lmao it’s a lot but I have like certain blogs on notification so I don’t actually scroll through my dash that often

any tumblr crushes: sldkjsfkj no sorry

lucky number: 5 and 10 maybe? idk if I would count them as lucky they’re just my favorite numbers

what i’m wearing right now: shorts and a t-shirt lmao these are my pj’s I’m just chilling until I go to bed which will be soon cause I’m tired. my t-shirt is the one that my mom got for me last summer for my birthday which is a bristol va/tn shirt cause that’s where I grew up and I don’t live there anymore hnskfdnd I miss it

dream vacation: ooooh this is a good question uhhh is it a cop out to say that my dream vacation would be to travel around the world? I really really wanna see so many countries and have all those experiences so idk if I could pick just one place to go. wherever I chose though I would want to be able to experience new people and things and have fun and travel with people I love and also be able to relax and not feel guilty about tasks for once in my life PLEASE

dream car: oh god I don’t even know. I want like a smallish car so I can park easily (I currently drive a grand marquis and it is HELL trying to park it. I feel safe in it but like other than that…..i just want like a stylish car too although I don’t actually know what counts as a stylish car…..i would like to have enough money to deck it out with all the cool shit like the alarm that sounds when other cars get close and automatic parking for if I ever have to parallel park and bluetooth capabilities (yeah my car is old enough that it doesn’t have that lksdjflksj it doesn’t even have an aux port so I have to just listen to music through my phone speakers) also seat warmers hsnksdfl

favorite food: strawberry shortcake maybe? or pickles….I will eat a ton of strawberry shortcake if it is available but every time I think about pickles I crave them

drink of choice: alcohol or just regular drink? I’m still 20 so I can’t technically legally drink but I have wine coolers sometimes and those are good. does that count as alcohol? Idk lmao they just taste good. maybe I’ll have a different opinion once I turn 21 and to try more drinks. for regular, non-alcoholic drinks I really like soda. basic and sad ik but I love like pepsi and dr. pepper hskjdfljdkfs

languages: english and a little bit of ASL. I’m taking ASL 2 right now and I think I’m getting pretty good but I’m still very very slow omg. I also took Latin in high school but I really don’t remember much rip

instruments: I can play the very beginning of hedwig’s theme on piano and I know like the basics but other than that I can’t play anything. I own a guitar because I watched August Rush and was inspired but uh I haven’t learned yet whoops sorry @ my parents

celebrity crushes: maya hawke maybe???? idk like there are a ton of celebrities that I admire like bill hader and emma watson and brie larson and janelle monae and eugene lee yang but crushes? does that include like “I would date if they were interested, available, and my age” cause like idk lmao maybe???? they all just feel so far away and while I love them to pieces I honestly couldn’t see myself dating any of them so idk

random fact: ummmm well today I got assigned (sort of) a research project for my lab! it’s more of a literature review I think? I have to research this topic and then put together a poster for the human factors display that my college is doing later this semester and I’m really stressed about it cause it’s gonna be a lot of work and I’m already stressed about my own school work and then I’ll also have to present it probably and THAT’S stressful and I’m not good at getting things done so like. idk how good of an idea this is. but I’m also excited cause this is going to be really good experience and I’ll have the help of the grad student who I’ve been working with and the faculty member from my lab and then this will also distinguish me from my peers somewhat when I apply to grad schools in a couple years so. I’m definitely excited but also stressed hngfnksld

[lnsouke]

Rules: Answer the 10 questions, write your own 10 questions, then tag 10 people

@senjutobiirama tysm for the tag!!! 🥰

- I want to tag @tmakisamajiki @urarakas @billthepickle @whoresuke @silverstonemanor and @beekugou if you’d like to do it!

1. The object closest to you right now — what would you say to convince me to buy it?

- listen you will NOT be able to live without this salt shaker. Your fries need some salt? Maybe you forgot to add a little when boiling your pasta, this shaker will be able to deliver

2. Fanfiction or fanart?

- Fanart!

3. Do you like your name? Do you think it suits you?

- It’s alright I guess, & everyone I’ve talked to did say it suited me lol but I usually go by nicknames though!

4. Warm colors or cool colors?

- Cool!

5. If you read fanfiction, what’s one fic that you think deserves more love? If you don’t read fanfiction, what’s one fandom that you would consider reading fanfiction for?

- Sadly I don’t read fanfic too often 😭 I really want to read some more haikyuu fics though! Like seriously if u guys have recs lmk! I’ve been looking for some inotan fics here and there too but haven’t read any of those yet either

6. Headphones or earbuds?

- Ik I call them headphones but I actually use earbuds lmao

7. What anime/manga can you rewatch/reread over and over without ever getting bored of it?

- definitely haikyuu! Something about it just never gets old,, that and the promised neverland! I’m collecting the manga & always find myself rereading them...

8. Are you right-handed, left-handed or ambidextrous?

- right handed!

9. Do you have an all-time favorite character? Or does your favorite character change often? Or maybe there are so many characters you love that you couldn’t possibly choose just one?

- there are way too many characters I love but if I absolutely had to pick I’d probably choose Inosuke

10. Anime or TV shows?

- Anime!

My questions!

1. What’s your favourite show or game? (Or both!) what’s that one thing that really makes you love it?

2. Do you have any pets? (If you do, tell me about them!)

3. What’s your favourite thing to do in your free time?

4. Do you cook any? If you do, do you have that one go-to recipe you’re always making?

5. Is there a skill you’re currently working on? & has it been going ok?

6. Do you collect anything at? Like books or figurines or plants? Which is ur fav!

7. Who is someone you really look up to or admire?

8. What’s your favourite song right now?

9. Do you have any hidden or special talents?

10. Where’s somewhere you’ve always wanted to go? What made you want to go in the first place?

[theproofinthisong]

50 questions you’ve never been asked before

the great @flamboyant-louie tagged me so here i am! thank you angel!

1. what is the colour of your hairbrush? basic black bitches.

2. a food you never eat? meat that is cooked rare. just thinking about it i’m disgusted. most cheeses i hate too, i only eat the ones that have no taste lmao. it’s purely personal but i can’t understand why you people wanna eat something bloody or rotten and smelly lol.

3. are you typically too warm or too cold? too warm hands down. there is not too much warmness in my book tho, i think kindness is really one of the most important things in the world. but i do think i could have used some coldness in the past, considering i gave too much second chances or trust to people who didn’t deserve it.

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago? watching a documentary about families of disappearing children. really heartbreaking.

5. what is your favourite candy bar? bounties without a doubt. snickers come next with kit kats.

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event? if you’re thinking NBA matchs or something like that, no. only straight people do that for fun. i did go to a dance competition once and it was awesome.

7. what is the last thing you said out loud? considering i’ve been in lockdown for two months i’m starting to speak out loud to myself lol. it was along the lines of “well, he’s right” watching the documentary.

8. what is your favourite ice cream? mango, litchi, banana, pear, coconut, peach, cookie...too much of them really.

9. what was the last thing you had to drink? had to drink? this disgusting thing supposed to help me with my stomach aches.

10. do you like your wallet? i don’t have a wallet sorry.

11. what was the last thing you ate? some homemade french quiche i did myself.

12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend? nope because everything is closed :( i miss it though. come to me summer sales.

13. the last sporting event you watched? the finale of world cup 2018 which we WON...i’m not even kidding.

14. what is your favourite flavour of popcorn? it used to be salty now it’s just sugary. never tasted any other flavour but i’m curious.

15. who is the last person you sent a text message to? my mom!

16. ever go camping? once in a true camp 6 years ago during a festival it’s a great memory. last time i slept in a tent was for one of my friends’s wedding tho :) 

17. do you take vitamins? almost never.

18. do you go to church every sunday? i never did and i’m not interested in doing it now. i’m not religious and my parents never educated us in that way either.

19. do you have a tan? it’s may and we can’t go out so nope :(

20. do you prefer Chinese food or pizza? chinese food for sure!

21. do you drink your soda with a straw? i sometimes do. takes me back to my childhood!

22. what colour socks do you usually wear? white. i prefer black but i own more whites. super interesting ik.

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit? don’t have a driver’s license and it’s for the best. if i did i would never because i’m too scared.

24. what terrifies you? i had many phobias before: slugs, blood, spiders, creepy crawlers...only one that stayed is heights. i can legit go into paralysis when i’m in crisis mode. 

25. look to your left, what do you see? my phone!

26. what chore do you hate? ironing.

27. what do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? that it sounds cool as fuck and a bit funny too.

28. what’s your favourite soda? coca cherry.

29. do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? i go in. only used the drive-thru twice. the real tradition to me (understand going with friends during the night) is going in.

30. who’s the last person you talked to? my mama <3

31. favourite cut of beef? rumsteck.

32. last song you listened to? part of your world reprise by auli’i cravalho.

33. last book you read? all 1657 pages of the misérables. true masterpiece.

34. favourite day of the week? friday usually!

35. can you say the alphabet backwards? if i focus yes, otherwise no.

36. how do you like your coffee? i’m team tea but either completely black or with a tiny drop of milk.

37. favourite pair of shoes? my black boots with little silvery pearls all over it. very harry. it’s not the one i wear the most tho!

38. at what time do you normally go to bed? depends if i have work the day after. in that case it’s between midnight and 2.am. around 4 during the weekend and free days. the lockdown wrecked my time schedule and it’s more...between 5 and 6. I KNOW.

39. at what time do you normally get up? 8.30 when i have work, 11.00 when i don’t and now... 13 p.m or worse lmao.

40. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunset bitch always.

41. how many blankets are on your bed? one rn but it’s usually two.

42. describe your kitchen plates? just white. wish i was more original and fancy.

43. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? i love lots of alcoholic beverages my favorie fancy one is pina colada and favorite casual is either cider or beer.

44. do you play cards? i suck so bad at them and i just don’t enjoy them that much.

45. what colour is your car? i have no car lol.

46. can you change a tire? not at all.

47. what is your favourite state/province? favorite place i went to (and there are still many to go)...it’s a tie between london, new york, rome and lebanon. 

48. favourite job you’ve ever had? i love my current job as a librarian! it was always my goal so yes!

49. how did you get your biggest scar? i don’t have big scars but it’s this one on my thumb when i burned myself cleaning the oven. so clumsy.

50. what did you do today that made someone else happy? listened and supported my mom through phone even if i wish i could do more!

that was cool! i tag anyone who wants to do this!

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

no dont apologise! i didnt check until just then so np :)

mmm yeah it is a bit trippy. hehe ITS TRUE THO. yeah sadly i think ur right, and tag blocking is probably a good idea. sometimes smut written well or not in excess is okay but goddamn when its abt 01 line and thats the whole fic... *silently blocks tags*

hehe i do that all the time lol this conversation is carrying on threads from a month ago :) mmm yeah ur probably right sadly, same. HA HE DIDNT HAVE A CHOICE and now i have someone to talk to abt them, so thats good! I KNOW felix was actually the one who got me into skz with his iconique gods menu line so i guess i have a soft spot for him. i always tell myself my bias is chan but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ guess im more whipped than id like to admit. mmm yeah that does make sense dw i hope they do that as well. YES king seungmin hIMSELF. GODDAMNIT DONT GET ME STARTED ON MINHO IN GODS MENU I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE WAS PART OF THE GROUP UNTIL I STARTED GETTING MORE INTO THEM. BITCH (affectionate) THE LINE DISTRIBUTION HAS BEEN UTTER DOG SHIT but *deep breath* its better now so were moving on adn hoping it stays that way. sis same but i may or may not have gone thru a rlly depressed phase and actively sought out the elimination episodes so i could actually force some tears out of my emotionless shell of a heart but what cna you do? lmaoo i feel that irl, binnie deserves more vocal lines. yesss channies accent is rlly prominent then, i think also the way he structures his phrasing? is more english speaking than korean? but yeah i totally get what ur saying. AJKSAL lmao

okay then! im excited for whenever it gets done! (maybe tag me?) ahh the cold shrivelled heart of a dark au writer beats again at the thought of torturing another poor characters very soul (/j) :(( yeah that would suck not being able to see them. ohhh ur on the other hemisphere to me! were just going into spring rn. mmm smth to look forward to! YES you put it into words. they rlly are pretty independent from the company (remember how jyp rejected that other dudes songs after like 3 seconds and then how he was apparently nervous to show the song hed written to chan cos chan was so good at writing hits ahhh sweet revenge) mmmYES we rlly need a mute and remove notifications button for our brains dont we?

YES CORRECT i totally agree. some people jsut dont give it a try, adn assume its bad cos its korean smh racist assholes. yes! im coming up to my 6 month anniv actually! sis sAME, i feel like theyre being tugged into appealing to the western american market and theyre not staying as true to their artistic flair as a group, especially with only writing english songs atm. *sigh* ah well, at least theyre bringing recognition to the kpop world. AHUH dead on, theyre going to be discarded pretty soon and then where will bp be? theyll prob go solo paths which is rlly sad but what can you do when the company is run by a prideful asshole? yg is not going to last much longer in the big four if they keep this up.

hehe you get it. oooh very cool! whos ur ult? (sorry if youve said this before) mmmm yeah good decision, i feel liek thats probably a wise decision. this is my first album release as a kpop stan (not counting mixtape oh) so i think ill get it for sentiments sake. yeah! im excited for the new music! mingi was the one who got me into them, but atm my bias is seonghwa followed by san, wooyoung and ateez but jonghos high notes man *swoon* he, yeah atm ive got jake, jay, nikki, jungwon and sunoo down so just trying to get the rest :) heh, yeah kard i rlly only got into cos of bm, ive seen him like interacting with a lot of idols and he seemed nice so i decided to check out the group. ikr gunshot man *another swoon*

no noe! i didnt know what it was until i got it lol. thx toffee ill try and take that to mind :) yeah lol im on a waiting list thats not going to be free until late september so hopefully i can hold on until then. hope ur okay, that sounds like it sucks, hope you can find someone. maybe ill just take you along on my phone and the therapist can get a two for one patient deal lmaooo. mmm, sorry no i havent mentioned it before, i dont rlly talk abt it much. uhhh basically hypermobility? if you google it, it doesnt seem bad, jsut joint flexibility but ive got the severe end of the stick, leaning towards ehlers danlos syndrome so thats fun. basically it just makes it hard for me to exercise, run, jump, stand or just walk for long periods of time and gives me a lot of joint and muscle pain so... thats fun! but obviously so many other people have it worse than me, so i try not to complain. normally in young people it will improve as they get older, but my doctor said bc its severe in me, its unlikely to get much better. but again, i dont have the worst lot in the bunch, so its all g.

oh its good that its not the bad type of rain, a light sprinkling can be relaxing sometimes. aww thx darl, the concern is appreciated but it went pretty well and i managed not to cough too much on stage or kill myself trying to run around to the other side of the stage in the pouring rain so thats good! oooh tea buddies! my dogs a labradoodle, but shes a bit more of a feral poodle lol not much labrador in her at all, unless its her relentless urge to hunt down every bird that has ever walked this earth smh :((( hopefully they can come back on soon, does uni have dances?

ahhh a mood if i ever heard one. hopefully things will get better for you soon, ik anxiety sucks ass. ooh thats always good! when its sunny here, its always melt ur thongs to the pavement hot so the nicely cool sunny days are a lovely change. hehe impatience is not so good for you, but good for us that get to see ur beautiful theme early. ahh no worries, itll come eventually hopefully. and if not, then just things that make you not anxious are good. it doesnt have to be black or white, sometimes gray is good. mmmmm sames i have midterms this week to catch up on and then two weeks of end of terms so thats fun! i hope u can overcome that a little, heres some channie to be ur motivation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8LWyNjzOww. hah! i hear that all the time, he seems to be everywhere. did you see that tiktok of hans slowed back door rap, i stg it sounded EXACTLY like namjoon, it kinda scared me. also teh beginning of another day, sounds so much like joon i swear.

that reminds me! idk ur biases! i feel like this should be smth i should know so please! feel free to elaborate!

ahh im glad, i was worried it is. mmm same, so no hard feelings if either of us misses a day or smth. ill start worrying if weeks/months have gone by, but if its just a little while thats more than fine. ill just picture you studiously completing notes and i wont worry lol

<3 w.a. 🐺

at some point i really think i'm going to start blocking accounts because blocking tags won't be enough. i saw ask tags the other day and it just made me want to bleach my eyeballs.

i could talk about god's menu felix for hours man. the teaser for god's menu that featured his part on the bridge made me look forward to the mv release. you: biases chan, also you: lixiesbabyhands. yes you are more whipped than you think. i can't believe orange haired minho was given NOTHING during that era but they kind of made up for it in the b-sides. i also hope it stays that way. the distribution for this era was pretty fair.

"torturing another poor character's soul" in all honesty, i used to live for this. 2017 me leading up to early 2020 wrote nothing but angst. i have another aussie friend on twt and tbh i'm still really (O.o) about the seasons! jyp should be terrified skz could easily take over that company. heck if skz grow old and start their own company, they'd probably do a great job at running it. PLEASE. i have issues on muting/notifications both mentally and in real life. sometimes, i just wish to disappear.

some people in my country are just disgusting tbh. not only racist but homophobic too. they label kpop as 'gay' and it DISGUSTS me. it's a problematic behavior/mindset people in my country need to fucking get rid of. anyway, HELP ME 6 MONTHS??? and i've been in this shit for like a decade eye. tbh, i’m not fond of kpop groups trying to appeal to the western audience :// it feels like they’re losing their identity in a way. yes recognition but at what cost? yg has my favorite groups but that’s one shitty company when it comes to promoting.

okay my ult! it’s haechan from nct but i consider chan an ult too. like a close second above my whopping list of kpop boys. oh yes! you should get the album just for like a keepsake? remembrance? how did mingi appeal to you? omg did you start getting interested in ateez back when he was still on hiatus? NOT YOU BIASING THE SAME PEOPLE I DID WHEN I FIRST STARTED STANNING. the infamous ateez thot-line. jongho is easily one of the best fourth gen vocalists out here, no one can change my mind :( good luck with memorizing the rest of enhypen! just in time for the comeback too. i hope i’ll get into kard soon but i’m pretty content (and a tad bit overwhelmed) with the amount of groups i stan right now.

please hold on though, feel free to vent here if you like. thanks for the offer tho HAHA but like i’ll try to get checked here too when the cases die down a bit. i’m sorry to hear about your condition though :( please don’t ever overwork yourself to the point that your joints/muscles would ache. it’s completely valid to complain about it tho. i get that you have others in mind but keeping that mindset really doesn’t do you (like you internally) any better? so if you need to, vent your frustrations out and don’t keep it in.

oh my god, about your performance last sunday. was the stage out in the open? glad you didn’t cough too much and did well on your concert. i’m proud of you! i can never understand dogs and poor birds T_T uni doesn’t have dances unfortunately. i think there’s just one party at the end like a graduation ball. what year are you in anyway? if it’s something that you’re fine with sharing. if not, it’s cool.

good luck with your exams! and thanks for the link! AHA what a cutie. i think he does this motivation thing once in a while during his lives and it’s just comforting. yeah joon and han my irl just freaked when we made that discovery. ult crumbs for her. oh god not me forgetting about every biases when you asked. you can ask for my biases in a few groups just list down the one’s you’re interested in knowing. 

i missed yesterday because i was grinding and finishing what if we stay + school work. finally did it today. i’m sure i’ll reply in like a day or two, definitely not a month unless i state otherwise. if i ever decide to abandon this blog, i’ll let you know.

[owmygiantbluehead-blog]

thank you for tagging me, @ramendobe <3

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you would like to know better

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true

APPEARANCE: I am 5'7" or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people People tell me that I’m funny Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: I can sing well I can play an instrument (sorta, i plan on getting a violin so i can teach myself since i’m sadly unable to take classes atm) I can do over 30 pushups without stopping I’m a fast runner I can draw well I have a good memory I’m good at doing math in my head I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year (lmao i straight up haven’t been to one since birth) I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts (do solo musicians count?)

RELATIONSHIPS: I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair   I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life I speak at least 2 languages I have made a new friend in the past year

TAGGING:

DJKASFKLS idk who to tag! everyone ik has basically been tagged already. can i skip this part? :’)

[vanillastudies]

Question Tag

rules: answer the 92 questions and tag 20 people

I was tagged by @study-the-past tysm!

since there were so many questions i put them under the cut

Last...

drink: water

phone call: my mom

text message: “do you have a bike helmet?” 

song you listened to: uhhh im listening to Bruno Mars Radio on pandora rn

time you cried: i was watching the OA (great show) and this guy was describing the effect ALS had on his wife (my grandpa died of als)

Have you...

dated someone twice: never even dated anyone lmao

kissed someone and regretted it: no

been cheated on: impossible as ive never been in a relationship

lost someone special: yes

gotten drunk and thrown up: no

List 3 fav colors

burgundy, teal, light blue

In the last year have you...

made new friends: yes

fallen out of love: What is love? (baby don’t hurt me)

laughed until you cried: several times- it’s very easy to get me to cry when i laugh

found out someone was talking about you: I came to a realization that I exist to people outside of just seeing them so like, yeah but not in a bad way?

Met someone who changed you: probably not

found out who your friends are: yea

kissed someone on your facebook list: ew no they’re all relatives

General

how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: all of them

Any pets: my dog Jackson :)

Do you want to change ur name: u know, I don’t exactly love mine but I also can’t imagine going by another name

What did you do for your last birthday: I was on an orchestra trip on my birthday and didn’t realy celebrate it but then when I came home my parents surprised me with chinese food and cake :) (and presents ofc) and my aunt took me to get pedicures

what time did you wake up: 10:00, but i prob wouldve woken up later if my dad wasn’t blasting country music downstairs

what were you doing at midnight last night: trying to sleep

Something you can’t wait for: gee idk im a p patient person but I guess going to Europe after senior year?

when was the last time you saw your mom: like 30 seconds ago

one thing you wish you could change in your life: as a studyblr I’d probably say my study space. My house is really loud and as someone who needs basically absolute silence to consentrate, there’s not really a good place for me to do homework there. So I guess I’d like to be able to go to the library more (except I need my licence for that)

listening to rn: Animal by álvaro soler

Ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah, he was this annoying guy in my middle school orchestra

Something getting on your nerves: my dad’s insistence on playing country music

most visited websites: tumblr, ao3, school website (for grades)

Other info About myself

moles: none

marks: I have a red splotchy birthmark on the right side of my foot, and a few chicken pox scars if thats what ur looking for

childhood dream: i have a hard time recollecting many memories and thoughts from childhood but probably to be an author or sth

hair color: dark brown

long or short hair: short hair definitely! long is so hard to manage (although it’s easier to do cute hairstyles)

do you have a crush on someone: does a celebrity crush count? Fictional characters?

what do you like about yourself: I love my eyes, and also my nails? Idk that’s a weird thing to like but they’re very paintable

piercings: just the standard one on the lobes of my ears

blood type: i have no idea

nickname: kenzie is a nickname, or kenz. I’m not really a nickname person

relationship status: single

zodiac: taurus

pronouns: she/her 

favorite tv show: ahh there are so many good ones! Prob Gilmore Girls, Sherlock, and The Good Place as my top three

tattoos: none, but id like to maybe get a flower tattoo or sth when im older

right or left handed: left

surgery: none

hair dyed a different color: I bleached the underside back in the beginning of april

sport: i literally just quit swim team so none i guess

vacation: ik ive already talked about this but im really excited for my europe trip in 2 years!

sneakers: i have one pair that i wear and they’re these awesome nike skateboard shoes

More General

eating: rn im not eating anything but for dinner im having chicken and baked beans

favorite thing to eat: a local grocery store sells this amazing sushi that ive found in few other places- it has a good sauce and cruchy stuff on it

drinking: water

im about to: eat dinner

waiting for: dinner (im rly hungry ok)

want: uhhh now im thinking abt food but aside from that i want some zebra mildliners and the grayscale tombow brush pens. Also some cozy sweaters and sweatshirts

get married: i dont think so, but i have a while until i’ll have to start thinking abt that

career: smth in law or politics? 

Hugs or kisses: hugs

lips or eyes: probably eyes

shorter or taller: shorter, but I love when tall friends lean on me

older or younger: if we’re talking abt relationships then neither??? otherwise i prefer talking to ppl older than me 

sensitive or loud: i consider myself sensitive but im prob more loud

hook up or relationship: relationship bc im a minor

troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant, definitely

Have your ever...

kissed a stranger: no

drank hard liquor: just a sip

lost glasses/contact lenses: glasses, yeah (how do u lose contact lenses)

turned someone down: nobody’s ever asked me out, but on other things yeah

sex on the first date: ew no

broken someones heart: not that i know of

had your heart broken: no

been arrested: no

cried when someone died: yeah

fallen for a friend: maybe a small crush? but not like in love

do you believe in...

yourself: i guess...

miracles: only like, metaphorically, not religious miracles

love at first sight: no

santa claus: no??? why

kiss on the first date: no

other

current best friend name: chase :)

eye color: light blue

favorite movie: rn it’s definitely spider man: homecoming omg i cant wait to see it again

Now tag 20 ppl

alrighty @rainbowdrink @gloomstudy @coffeeandcommerce and anybody who wants to! (this is a lot of questions, I don’t want to burden anybody with this responsibility that doesn’t want to lmao)

[firelxrdazula]

I was tagged by @kataracy to this and she called gio, michelle, & me a fidget spinner. basically we represent the ends of a fidget spinner

🎀 - Are you named after someone? I think I was named after Stevie Wonder’s child. He said “life is Aisha, the meaning of her name” in Isn’t She Lovely, and my dad loves that song and thinks of me whenever that plays. 🎀 - When was the last time you cried? I think earlier this week. There was this test in my bacteriology class, and everyone failed but I was so close to passing. I was just really clumsy when answering and I forgot to put the values of crystal violet to use, so I failed. I was just really disappointed that I couldn’t help it. Ik, really petty, but yeah 🎀 - Do you like your handwriting? Meh, it’s okay. I can read it. But it really isn’t consistent, so sometimes it’s good, sometimes it’s bad so like meh. 🎀 - What is your favourite lunch meat? I really love barbecue. Like, probably, nothing can top barbecue for me. 🎀 - Do you have have kids? No, I’m in my 3rd year uni, and it’d really fuck all that if I had a kid. But in the future, I’d want one but really far back into the future. 🎀 - If you were a different person, would you be friends with you? I think so, because generally, I pick friends who have similar interests with me because that way, things are smoother. Plus, Kataracy’s answer to this was legit. I do it too. I think if I met myself, would I be proud of me? And sometimes, I’m just thinking probably not yet, but soon. 🎀 - Do you use sarcasm? No, only Michelle uses sarcasm. 🎀 - Do you still have your tonsils? Yes, and I won’t let them leave them me. 🎀 - Would you bungee jump? I’m hella afraid of those things, but I’d probably try it out of impulses so… I mean, I tried the fastest rollercoaster in the world on an impulse, I’d do this to. 🎀 - What’s your favorite cereal? Frosties. Michelle says they’re called Frosted Flakes. I’ll come with receipts about how they’re called Frosties here soon 🎀 - Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No, I also don’t really wear trainers a lot since I’m usually wearing Toms or doll shoes, but knowing me, I definitely do not untie them. 🎀 - Do you think you’re a strong person? Emotionally? No. Physically? No. Mentally? I thought I was then I entered 3rd of medical laboratory science as my major in uni, and realized that I was weak as shit. 🎀 - What’s your favorite ice cream? I’m pretty basic so I just like chocolate and mango. In Gelatos, I really like tiramisu and this like thick chocolate flavor from Baskin Robbins. 🎀 - What’s the first thing you notice about someone? If you mean physically, it’d be their face. But usually, I don’t notice people much that way, I notice the way they’re talking and their intellect. 🎀 - What’s your least favorite physical thing about yourself? Eh, probably my face because I don’t have a clear face anymore. I used to but then, I haven’t been sleeping properly, and I’ve also not been drinking enough water soooooo 🎀 - What color trousers and shoes are you wearing right now? I’m wearing Adidas sweatpants right now with purple socks, so… I just woke up so, this is what I sleep in lol 🎀 - What are you listening to right now? Generally, I’m listening to LANY a lot, but currently, OneRepublic’s album called Oh My My. 🎀 - If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Uhhhh, I’d like to be white because I really don’t wanna be used. Like, I’d also want to be my fav color which is sea grey but like uhhh i cant choose dam 🎀 - Favorite smell? lmao i like the smell of hospitals FOR SOME FUCKIN REASON. i also really like the smell of antiseptics and certain lysols. i like it when things smell “clean” so im always like disinfecting stuff because i love the smell lmao 🎀 - Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My dad, yesterday. he wanted me to like attend my cousin’s graduation on wednesday and i rly tried to refuse 🎀 - Favorite sport to watch? Azula playing Kuai Ball. (idk i never actually watch sports like when im on tv, im usually just watching documentaries so i never even watch other shows anymore) 🎀 - Hair color? BLACK idk ive been thinkin of coloring em but like, my uni is Hella Strict 🎀 - Eye color? dark brown 🎀 - Do you wear contacts? no i thankfully still have 20/20 (hah) vision and i feel like wearing em would be too tedious 🎀 - Favorite food? TOO MANY. I love shrimp, i love bbq, i love chinese food, i love like a lot of things ok TOO MANY 🎀 - Scary movies or comedy? Comedy is my favorite, really. I watch them quite a lot, but my other fav is sci-fi. yall should watch interstellar 🎀 - Last movie you watched? I rewatched Moana for the nth time lmao i still have consider the coconut in my head 🎀 - What color shirt are you wearing? white im always wearing white 🎀 - Summer or Winter? winter bc i fuckin hate the summer heat 🎀 - Hugs or kisses? hugs i love hugs 🎀 - Book you’re currently reading? Urine and Body Fluid by Susan King Strasinger. I have to study soon because I have exams tomorrow. 🎀 - Who do you miss right now? eh probs my 2 year old brother hes v cute and jolly 🎀 - What’s on your mouse pad? i dont use computer a lot bc i cant be assed but its a v basic mousepad on the table like literally just black 🎀 - What’s the last tv program you watched? Genius on NatGeo. It talks about Einstein’s life story and I love that 🎀 - What is the best sound? The sound of my bacteriology prof telling me “very good” 🎀 - What’s the furthest you’ve ever travelled? I went to Saudi Arabia abd Qatar before it was gr8 🎀 - Do you have a special talent? UHHHHHHH i guess my sheer ability of fucking everything up is amazing 🎀 - Where were you born? Idk what hospital man LIKE I JUST KNOW I WAS BORN IN THE PHILIPPINES IDK

I’m tagging: @senshiofthewild @seyaryminamoto and anybody who wants to do it!!

[eleanorshellstropp]

92 truths

tagged by my farkle @darkvaders and my mulder @boddirook<3 

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose however many people you want to tag!

i tag: @jynesso @nadiahilker @stardustrebelprincess @nadiahilker @nicholashemmick @molliiholmes @killianjonez @misswitsandsarcasm @singinglikeapenguin (love that u still have ur christmas icon linux)  and whoever cause this are the only urls ik

LAST

[1] drink: water [2] phone call: best friend [3] text message: @the-unburned-tiger [4] song you listened to: i’ll just, click here [5] time you cried: yesterday, 13rw finale broke me in so many levels

HAVE YOU EVER

[6] dated someone twice: no [7] been cheated on: no [8] kissed someone and regretted it: no [9] lost someone special: yes [10] been depressed: “been” [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no, but don’t jinx

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

[12] black [13] purple [14] blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

[15] made new friends: yesss [16] fallen out of love: no [17] laughed until you cried: often, thanfully [18] found out someone was talking about you: just everyday [19] met someone who changed you: yes [20] found out who your true friends are: depends on what u mean

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: next question pls

GENERAL

[22] how many of your tumblr friends do you know in real life: hmm 2, but they were already irl [23] do you have any pets: i got a plant today, does it count? [24] do you want to change your name: nope

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: I studied math, lmao (and went for dinner with parents and sis) [26] what time did you wake up: 8:30am, slept 4h what is life? [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: FINISHING 13RW, AND CRYING A LOT

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: minutes ago, she came say goodnight [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wanna be able to just do and not have to think about it. like i already try doing this but sometimes u just have to think about it, i wanna get to a point in my life where i can consider myself free [31] what are you listening to right now: i think my neighbour just got home [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: i live in Portugal, is anyone named tom in Portugal? c’mon [33] something that is getting on your nerves: my neighbour is a loud bitch and i don’t need to listen to his fucking lame music [35] elementary: done [36] high school: almost there fam [37] college: next year [38] hair color: dark brown [39] long or short hair: long i’d say [40] do you have a crush on someone: pass [41] what do you like about yourself?: i’m so ironic, i love it [42] piercings: 3, 2 on the left and one on the right ear [44] nickname: @killianjonez calls me asshole, counts? [45] relationship status: <3 [46] zodiac sign: aries [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show: himym [49] tattoos: soon [50] right or left handed: right

FIRST

[51] surgery: back in 2015, that year can really go suck dicks uh  [52] piercing: i was 12? [53] best friend: tete [54] sport: BASKETBALL [55] vacation: what’s this? [56] pair of trainers: puma

RIGHT NOW

[57] eating: nothing [58] drinking: nothing [59] I’m about to: who knows tbh [60] listening to: this again? [61] waiting for: last day of hs [62] want: to be 23, done with college, get a job, move out and be able to finally leave without wondering if i’m going to pass that test or not [63] get married: i don’t believe in marriage [64] career: informatics, an engineer

WHICH IS BETTER

[65] hugs or kisses: both [66] lips or eyes: both again [67] shorter or taller: taller [68] older or younger: older [69] romantic or spontaneous: both smh [70] nice arms or nice stomach: stomach  [71] sensitive or loud: both at due times, this questions are stupid [72] hook up or relationship: hook up [73] troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER

[74] kissed a stranger? no [75] drank hard liquor? yes [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? thankfully no [77] turned someone down: yes [78] sex on the first date? "date” [79] broken someone’s heart? maybe [80] had your own heart broken? not really [81] been arrested? no [82] cried when someone died? nope, i lost someone i cared deeply and managed to never cry at that time. cried 8 years later at @the-unburned-tiger [83] fallen for a friend: talk later, bye

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

[84] yourself? u funny [85] miracles? oh yeah sure, like the big One ever did anything for me [86] love at first sight? i believe in physical attraction at first sight [87] Santa Claus? ofc smh [88] kiss on the first date? yes [89] angels? never thought about it

OTHER

[90] current best friend’s name: tete, viv (and @the-unburned-tiger but like after almost 7 years, we got this figured) [91] eye color:  brown [92] favorite movie: PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER AND THE BOOK THIEF

[10gravity]

long post, personal//

Something I’ve kinda realized now (after what…. 6 years now?) is that I keep coming back to this website bc it’s somewhere I can vent and now it’s at the point where I feel compelled to vent here and nowhere else. I mean, yeah, there is the fact that this is literally the only piece of Internet space I have that isn’t connected to ANY irl people at all but? I don’t know if this is healthy anymore tbh, like…. I have a best friend?? I have someone I call best friend and someone who calls me best friend but how do I call her that when I don’t even tell her half the personal shit that goes on with me all the time? I’ve been questioning myself for years and years if I had depression ever since I found out the thing existed?? I have so many untold stories and pent-up feelings abt my mother and my friends and my self-image that I just,,, keep totally locked up and away from everyone I know irl. I feel comfortable telling internet strangers so many things but lately I’ve been wondering: well, why? Why is that?

I feel ok telling tumblr followers just bc people don’t interact with me. I don’t talk to people on a regular basis here, I don’t reach out, people don’t send me asks and I just? Stay isolated. I’m not even saying this to blame anyone like that’s literally just a me thing. God knows how many text posts I’ve ever scrolled past lmao. It’s hard to reach out and get personal on this site.

But then it’s like, well, okay….. why is THAT then? Why do I need to know I won’t get a response when I talk about myself? Do I only feel comfortable talking abt my feelings when I can pretend I’m not actually talking to another person, that no one’s actually there to listen?? Because I can’t even handle talking about my most personal feelings to strangers that I know won’t judge me so it can’t just be the fear of being judged holding me back. Ik it’s there lmao I’m just saying it’s not the /only/ thing, ya know? I want conversation with someone I’ve known for a while and feel totally comfortable around but I know what the fucked up thing is? I don’t actually have a person like that. It’s the strangest thing, it’s like internally engrained in me - oops no can’t talk to ppl that don’t know you they can’t fully get it if they don’t actually know you irl…. but at the same time i would rather actually choke then ever tell an irl person abt anything ever?? The closest I’ve gotten were fucking terrifying and only cause they happened to catch me in the middle of being too upset to care??

But back to my point,,,,, I guess what I’m getting at is that I think I’m realizing that I’m kind of in this self-made box rn bc I don’t want to talk to irl ppl abt Things bc they know me but I don’t want to talk to internet ppl abt Things bc they don’t know me like wtf knowing me or not can’t be the only reason but idk! what! that other reason is supposed to be!

And idek if I should stay on tumblr anymore bc on one hand it’s how I cope, and this account is much better (I went back the other day and holy crap I had such a depressing dash?? My personal tag is LOADED on that thing) but on the other hand idk how much it contributes to me letting myself get immersed in Sad bc boy oh boy is it real easy to look up so many emo posts…. haha….. I mean, I’m glad that I decided to remake as a full-time exo blog bc I just focus on pretty pictures of ppl I like and dumb memes and screaming about exo legends only instead of worrying abt which irl person is gonna go “why is there a kpop boy on my dash” and which person is gonna see my personal reblogs and scroll past again or maybe respond or /now/, if _____ is gonna see even though we both blocked each other and I haven’t been on in months :^)))))))))))

And idk why exactly I’m deciding to post this here instead of my private side blog lmao (yes….. I even have one of those in a space where no one knows me irl gjdksksks) but I guess I’m just trying smthg new? I’ve never really shared my thought process in a long ass post like this before and also I’m kinda feeling weird oddly un-feely kind of funky rn so maybe that’s also that at work here lmao 😂 I do this on peach all the time so I guess I could do it here? Idk. I’ve been considering starting up a journal again to keep more of my thoughts offline and maybe help with getting less attached to my phone…. if I don’t need to vent online then I don’t need to reach for tumblr & peach every single time something happens right?? Idk. Journals can’t really keysmash back at me :/ also they’re not around n available 24/7 sooo :/

Idk. You’re not obligated to like this. If you’ve read this far (LOL sry) bc ur like me,,,, a curious bicth,,,, you don’t have to like or whatever I’m literally just putting this out here for the sake of having it out here.