#ill start it RN IDGAF

[txtdiaries]

and if i write a new fic about demon!yeonjun or even k*ller!yeonjun based off kill bill by SZA then what

[chisungie]

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[walmart-icarus]

Favorite Snacks

OKKAYYYY as a celebration for my last midterm being FUCKING FINISHED!!!!! this idea popped into my head I cannot stress this enough and I haven't written in a while but so many people are being so sweet rn and are really making my days OK ILL STOP TALKING

Usual warnings nothing serious

What are the favourite snacks of the boys + Michael + Star?

Marko

starting strong with this one

if you guessed pop rocks then yeah

"I like the way it tingles >:)"

will not share any

because he's a little shit

BUT HE WILL GO

hey listen to this *opens mouth*

i think it also matches his personality

Dwayne

Junior mints

he likes the way it melts in his mouth

he's not really obsessed with it

so he would share bc he might eat ppl bc he's kind

he won't exactly jump for joy for it

but if he had to choose anything in a store it would be that

David

Michael

Popcorn

but not with flavor or butter

just plain

microwaved popcorn is the best kind

in his opinion

ABSOLUTELY HATES IT when it gets stuck in his teeth

he likes it when its dryer than his conversations w/Max

Paul

he is a Doritos guy

loves every flavor

goes nuts whenever he sees a vending machine for this sole reason

he does share <3

his favorite would be extra cheese

same bestie

really loves it when they put characters on the bags

hey man its either this or Oreos

Star

MY WIFFFEE

likes takis

extra flaming takis

"Star how the FUCK do you eat that"

"You want some?"

"NO"

she is unfazed by it

is this historically canon? idgaf

absolutely loveesss them

also her snacks are safe from theft bc its too spicy for the guys

Michael

David

He says its barbecue chips

to look manly and tough ig

but its gummy worms

he enjoys gummy worms

like if you wanted to make him trust you?

get him a bag of those bad boys

and he will protect you with his life

he thinks nobody knows this "secret shame"

but even oily sax guy knows

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR READING! I needed to cheer up after this bullshit of a week :p

@misslavenderlady @blog4horror @ria-coolgirl

@oceansrose2002 @theforgottenages

[terraliensvent]

On behalf of someone not in the server, /what/ is the whole myo scandal going on rn? Did they hand out fake myos...? Did they revoke paid myos....? Did staff trade illegal myos to people....??? I'm lost.

OK SO im just gonna give a whole summary of the events of the past few days since it seems a lot of people are confused (also i dont have screenshots EVERYTHING what im about to say, but this is just what i remember from personally seeing it. ill link posts as they come along for context):

the other night, when staff made this announcement regarding coy, shit started to hit the fan pretty fast

this announcement came after almost a full 2 days of weird behavior from staff, like how a lot of them put almost all their terras up for trade and how there was basically radio silence with the staff questions and design concept channels going unanswered. a lot of people noticed how suspicious this was, and this anon was pretty on the money with their theory

so suffice to say everyone was pretty much on the edge of their seats waiting for something big, and after the announcement was made the entire server basically exploded. in the chaos of people trading and running around like chickens with their heads cut off, the mods said they would approve anything submitted to the site. they said they were doing this so they could make the species as bad as possible for when coy took it over, and mods were in the server being very apathetic about it and having an attitude like “idgaf what happens now because we have been getting treated like shit so this is finally the consequences.” this attitude can be seen in the screenshots included here too

during this chaos, people could also ask for myos to be uploaded to their acc for free, which mods would do. so tons of people got “illegitimate” myos. people used their illegal myos and real myos that had been purchased before the downfall to upload tons of characters and some joke characters too, like one that was just a PNG of ellen. during this huge chaos, people were also hating on coy and freely talking about things they disliked about how the species was run as opposed to the chokehold toxic positivity attitude that the server usually had. truly the most euphoric the server has ever been. some coy meat rider was also defending them, and got really aggressive about it and telling people to go fuck themselves (for which they got banned). someone else also made a branch-off server so people could stay in contact with their friends from the terra community seeing as the future was totally uncertain

after a while the “we are approving everything” stopped, and things were a bit more quiet. temul and some mods joined the branch-off server and gave some more deets about the shit coy would do. i also made my Big Post; initially this post was just gonna be positive stuff about how i has a discussion with tycho about suggesting things for the species, but after the announcement was made i was given screenshots to post here by a mod so i just threw it all in the same post. the Big Post made public opinion of coy a lot worse since now there were animal abuse allegations being talked about, but later on with further scrutiny the conclusion was reached that the screenshot was mainly coy exaggerating to try and be funny, but miserably failing. either way, public opinion of coy was and still is totally in the shitter.

the next day, mods put out another announcement that can be summed up as “lol sorry guys everyone get back to business” which is total bs to me considering the shit they were saying the very night before. so now they wanna try and reign in this species when they already did irreparable damage, and now people are switching up and acting like nothing ever happened (i assume its because mods are gonna be looking for new staff soon and they want a piece of the pie lmao)

to fix the monumental fucking issue they created for no reason, they put out another announcement (which i forgot to post here oops sorry pookies)

so basically what theyre gonna do is:

- if you uploaded character(s) that night using illegal MYO(s), you can choose ONE to unvoid (with any changes that need to be made in order to be legal if you have illegal traits and stuff, like for example eyes + mouth), the unvoided terra will be account bound and non voucherable

- if you had an illegal myo from that night but DIDNT use it, or if you didnt get any illegal myos at all, there will be a form to fill out where you can get one free MYO that will create any subtype up to modified (meaning no limited subtypes), the MYO will be account bound until designed. theyre also in the process of figuring out whether theyll give people the choice of using x amount of lim traits or having the terra be voucherable. some of it is still up in the air

- if you used a legal myo to upload your terra, there will be a process a little down the line for you to get your myo and any items back

and this is where were at now, people in the terra server are acting like everythings normal and going along with the toxic positivity mob once more, people in the branch-off server are freely expressing their grievances as they did that night, and im pissed off because i think its a little unfair that people will get to unvoid their lim terras meanwhile other people only get up to a modified. hand out lim myos instead of modified, why are we STILL doing the artificial scarcity youre all acting just like coy

[bramblebarkband]

hihihihihi can i have some mele trivia 🥺👉👈💖

HI!!!!!! RUNS IN CIRCLES OF COURSE sorry this may be long.

mele has a soft spot for striders !!! I’m a bit out of it rn but birds. she has a bunch of creatures she takes care of . but specifically she has 4 striders I care about

in order of pictures:

- elysium (swift forest strider)

- musette (swift shorestrider)

- juliet (swift lovebird)

& not pictured is dionisia, a swift springstrider! she also has a lovebird chick named mortis :) !!!!

she’s a hardcore sylvanas loyalist. for the most part. yes this is because she will support her wife but it’s… also because she has a lot of lost anger and sorrow with nowhere to go. her grief has a purpose if it’s to follow sylvanas. That said, mele… did not support burning teldrassil . mele is more of an internalised anger person rather than. actually doing something about it. in my genius mind, mele shows up to the scene moments after sylvanas has ordered the burning. also she gets hit with a misfired flaming cannonball or whatever and her right leg gets fucked right up.

she got locked up in torghast for a good while. she started there as a follower of sylvanas, but eventually. her faith was not strong enough. she was there for sylvanas, not for the jailer, not for the mawsworn, not for the end goal or whatever. during this time she got really attached to mawrats (one of the only comforts in the torment, as she could. actually speak with them. yannow) so she has a few mawrat friends . one of them is a little guy named morose. the others are named ennata and fleurdelice. OH and she befriended a. hound? one of those dog things. named elsinore

she’s a big fan of shitty romance novels. she has a collection stored that maintains even into undeath. she’s the kind of person to read them on the train

mele lost their right eye to their parent, tandelin. she’s a paladin, a high ranking member of the silvermoon guard and the world’s most insufferable woman. mele and her meet again following mele becoming undead, and as tandelin absolutely despises the undead, she basically disowned mele (and eventually mele’s undead siblings) and as a ‘parting gift’ basically burnt mele’s eye with light.

she’s really close w most of the other dark rangers!! in my heart they all sleep in a pile like those artworks of sylvanas with a crowd of dark rangers. it’s real to me. idgaf if undead sleep or not. they do now . she does have a best friend but I am super out of it and I forgot the name .

mele was the head veterinarian & beastmaster of the farstriders in quel’thalas. idrc if that’s a thing or not it is now. but yeah ! they are as comfortable with a bow as they are with a scalpel. also random but mele wore their hair in a bun a lot pre-death and I felt I should mention it. love that bitch

realised I haven’t used a fact here to say publicly that mele has the innate ability to speak with animals — the exact limitations of this is unclear as I’m too chronically ill to give enough of a fuck to go lay out the parameters. but also because who cares. anyway, they have been able to do so from birth and I’m still workshopping the exact reason why. this is also why her and Merithra met originally. and why she rose the ranks so quickly. she didn’t realise it was a weird thing that she could do as a child! so when she got older and was like. having full conversations with the hawkstriders the handlers were very ????

her and sylvanas are engaged. IDGAF!!! they were GOING to get married but then arthas did his epic gamer routine and. well. but I call them wives anyway because I can. peace and love. they met as kids and grew up together !! mele was also close friends with alleria and vereesa. the windrunner family and the morrowmourns WERE super close (like, hosting dinners for each other close) but eventually tandelin got so fucking insufferable that it mostly became the morrowmourn kids & the windrunner kids hanging out.

she wields thas’dorah simply because I say so. I really fucking hate the entire turalyon alleria bullshit with the lightforged draenei soooooooooooooooo I can justify in some weird ass way having mele wield thas’dorah . also her and alleria were tight as hell who cares. she also does have rae’shalare buuuuuuuut I imagine it’s like. idk I can do some splitting one bow in half bullshit with sylvanas and mele right. idgaf. also I do have the windrunner bow from the end time dungeon in mele’s bags so. prob that too. I’m working on getting the windrunner crossbow from ICC (can you tell I have autism)

merithra and her ARE MARRIED they GET MARRIED DURING 10.2 STORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it’s very sweet. it is until tandelin and vellis (parents) show up at amirdrassil to attempt to welcome mele back into the family after her success ….. & literally marrying a dragon aspect. mele is NOT a fan and cracks it at them which is cool. catharsis moment lets go

also she’s a vampire. I told you this but for everyone else all of the loyal chaos fans I’m sure are reading this. she’s a vampire she got made one by blood-queen lanathel they had some extremely toxic yuri going on (post mele being brought back obv. idk specifics abt timeline re: getting control back and all but) yeah. it was NOT good and mele was very ☹️ during ICC abt it

ALSO ALSO. final fact. mele loves zereth mortis seriously she gets there and is immediately obsessed with the vombata. she has one named manslaughter and I forgot the name of the other one but it starts with e

THANKYOU FOR ASKING sorry abt the length of this i think I have autism. love you grimsley

[kemafili]

Laois Dungeonmeshi!

GAHHHHHHHH oh holy smokes ok i have been getting ready for this all my life alrgiht i want to be as brief as possible bc if i start to real rant ill never finish

favorite thing about them: puppy sunshine attitude on natural moments, when he needs to change he will do so, sometimes (or maybe even always) he fails at it since he cant read social cues correctly, i adore his social skills epic fail, like i love your autism

least favorite thing about them: idk maybeee ummmm idk nothing i think

favorite line: im going to have to list them

they let me milk a minotaur

i wanted to be born as a quadrupedal monster, too!

at least let me count her nipples!

why am i the only person with a blindfold on..?

im being insulted in a language i dont undersand! and it sounds really nasty!

thats...! so lame.

Just being long-limbed isnt a talent

brOTP: Namari and Laius, they are very fun to see interact with each other, they seem to have a very clear opening on how one likes something a lot like an hyperfixation, Laius appreaciates Namaris knowledge of weapons and such and Namari can appreciate Laius interest for monsters like a tad strange thing but she seems to come around it, in the background panneling of the first-ish chapters and maybe even later on when namari is shown as a flashback, it can be seen that they might have been the second ones to spend more time togheter (Namari and Chilchuck being first, not including Marcille and Falin bc they are basically stuck togheter like glue), oh shit also also the adventurers bible has a few comics where namari and laius are drinking togheter and shes helping him with some shit issues and then they also speak on body hair shit lmfao omggggg fuck my life whatever uuughh i am so normal about them, i do really like them in liek aaaa ummm i say brotp bc i feel like they are very silent of romantic emotion but i also dont want to say everything is platonic lol, they bros in the way straight men that have gay sex are you feel me like that picture of two men almost kissing and it says this is how straight men hang out.

OTP: Laius and Kabru, liek omggg at first i was like they are toxic as hell but just someting so hillyius about them lmfao idk the chad (Kabru) has a love hate situation with the Nerd (Laius) and the nerd doesnt want teh chad? hillaryus idgaf keep chasing that piece of meat though.

nOTP: Laius and Marcille ☹ guhhhhh omg they are besties and Marcille has been so clear on not wanting anything with laius romantically so its liek guhhhhhhh i dont even know what to add here

random headcanon: i said liek 50 million times in the past his favorite food would be cheesecake bc he loves dairy but that is canon now so i want to add that Flan is also his second favorite annnnndddd uhhhh i have so much shit to addd here but i dont have it on my thoguhts rn bc i am Star Trekpilled so i am forgetting my own written lore but like my friends on the server once said

unpopular opinion: i dont like when peopel paint him as a kid or as an idiot because of the autism shit, like he is very much aware of other stuff, saying he doesnt even know what sex is did you forgot when he joked about the crabs inside those treasure shit (i forgot the proper name lmfao) saying if you saw their bottoms ud know their gender and he had a smirk on his face and Chilchuck got pissed off about it or when he found out the armors had sex while holding hands or when the Marcille succubi showed up he knew itd be fucked up if everyone else knew come the fuck on he knows what the hell is up, we need to sexualize autism okay and this doesnt go only there though btw liek stop making him dumber he knows what is up idk how to word it correctly but yeah he cant caught up on social cues but its not a whole umbrella of him being a dumbass

song i associate with them: woah i think its hilarryus that as one of my favorite characters i havent made him a playlist but i feel like hes just. so , so unmusical, like that before mentioned adventurers bible chapter where he says i cant sing or dance i was like yup i am ppretty sure you cant, he doenst seem to have a rhythim LMFAO id say anything that is related to medieval music thats what reminds me of him

favorite picture of them: hi

i hate having to choose only one picture but i love blushing and i love eating so this one

[yagamisdiary]

AMARA I NEED TO KNOW IF IM IN THE WRONG FOR THIS. i was on wattpad just chillin when i realized oh shit i have a notification let me check if like a fanfic updated or sum shit. i saw i got a fuckin text…… my hearts beating now i’m like wtf did i do???? i check the text it’s just a new writer tryna get me to read their book so i’m like ill read it cuz i’m bored rn. BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER. i read it and it was okay yn was lowkey a little fast with the shit she was doing and some stuff were a little cringe but it’s a new writer yk but shit starts to get weird after a little like she goes to a party with jean who’s her bf and ends up cheating on him with eren (ALL WITHIN THE SECOND CHAPTER) so i commented “GODDAMN this is movin too fast for me😭” and this fuckin writer said “nobody asked u to read it then” I’m like wtf??? this bitch isn’t about to talk crazy to me like she wasn’t begging me in my dms to read her shit so i said “don’t act like you weren’t in my dms asking me to read ur shit” and she says “well nobody told u too” SO I SAID “i was being nice but atleast i know why your shit isn’t popping off. ur shits ass” and now she’s sending her friends to literally spam my live chat thing and idgaf because wtf they finna do over wattpad💀💀 but now i’m starting to lowkey feel bad cuz one of her friends (that wasn’t spamming me) texts me being like real mature about it just talkin some real shit so now i’m like should i just delete my comments and be the bigger person but at the same time it’s like why do i have to be the bigger person yk🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️ anyways i need to know am i in the wrong???

HELPPPPP not her saying no one asked u to read it when she actually did 🥲

[splendiddlydoo]

saturday, 22 june 2024

how tf is it the end of june already. the year has gone by so fkn quick.

went out for hieus book launch celebrations last night and it was fun but i felt different. i feel like i've been living on autopilot for the past few months and it doesnt really feel like disassociation like how it usually does. like im present and im aware of my bad habits such as doom scrolling and i have a deep desire to do other activities that are more mentally stimulating and better for my mental health.

i have started back at the gym again and it feels great. i did a big sesh with hieu and it inspired me to train harder so thats what i've been doing. and the anticipation of going hasnt felt as dreadful as it used to; i kinda look forward to going now.

for my previous entries i've felt the need to be able to articulate my thoughts coherently and muster up something with meaning to write about but idgaf rn. i wanna learn how to let go because i feel like i have a lot of emotions stuck inside me rn that i need to release. like i just feel like somethings has been missing. LACKLUSTER is the perfect word to describe how i feel rn.

whats good tho is i;ve been eating well and gyming so atleast i'm not just rotting and spiralling.

typical me wants to get to the bottom of how im feeling and i have a few guesses as to what might be causing it;

lack of work - i've only been working 3 days a week and theyre not full shifts so i have A LOT of free time

tyson going to vietnam on monday; i'm sad that hes leaving. i think i'm nervous about being alone and what ill be doing with all my free time. its 2 weeks.

i have a dopamine deficiency, if thats a thing; because i haven't been doing any mentally enriching activities (aside from gym which im grateful for)

i haven't had many meaningful interactions with friends

ooh one more thing, i did md a couple of weekends ago so maybe im depressed because of that. it doesn't feel like a typical depressive episode tho. idk how to describe it.

these are all just guesses and maybe i've completely missed the mark

i have a cold sore, and i only get coldsores when im super stressed. i wish i could just cry instead of manifesting physical symptoms

usually during social interactions, i feel the need to be super enthusiastic and feel the urge to fill in the blanks, but yesterday was different because i didn't care to fill in the blanks. i found myself just standing or sitting without the need to say or do anything. and it did feel kind of nice and comforting. i guess i was scared of being perceived as boring. which is a good thing.

BIG NEWS***

bella and bojan just BOUGHT A HOUSE *gulp*

im super jealous but so happy for them. itme to level up.

current train of thought is: damn how r some people so lucky

but i need to cbt myself and think i am lucky in a lot of ways too and trust the process

[sporedruidoflight]

~Heya, my name’s Garrus, I’m a 31 year old Autistic Non-Binary, Ace/Demi-Romantic who worked in healthcare, now had to step back start of summer 2022, severely mentally ill/trying to get better.  Im trying my best tbh my mental health is fucking trash rn.

~Please don’t make any Mass Effect jokes about me being your husband, I’ve never played the game, the jokes will go over my head, and Ive heard enough of them.

~If my IMS dont work and youre trying to send me a message regarding like, any of my characters, the other side blogs I have or anything just send me an ask!

~I have my queue either filled with memes, character related stuff, and or Headcannons.  Mainly memes.  Don’t be afraid to send me memes or ask if I wanna plot!

~I am not a reblog source.  Please reblog any memes, or items that I have reblogged regarding aesthetic, clothing, weapons, etc of my characters from the source.

~I love asks.  I love threads.  I am here as a hobby, and I assume we’re all adults here even though I say don’t assume.

~Im OC friendly, and semi selective.  It doesnt mean I wont rp with you but Ill occasionally follow and unfollow.

~I prefer semi-literate to literate writing, and I prefer more than a few paragraphs. I don’t require Icons, and IDGAF if its one word if its crack.  I dont have icons for Fox Yowl rn but. Mood

~Im probably also high half of the time when I have weed, I use it to help me with my period pains (I have PCOS) mood, or sleep.  If you cant understand my reply please ask me to explain or fix it, and ask me to do it sober because legit I will and more than likely apologize for being high as balls.

~Also remember!  This is a hobby like my cosplay and I do this for fun please have fun as well ;-;  Also muse doesnt equal mun, mun doesnt equal muse.  I am not my character and my character isnt me, thanks.

[daechwitatamic]

On my way sending weird and funny questions to beautiful authors. Feel free to skip some if you want ^^ also I love y'all<3

1 what's your guilty pleasure?

2 what would be the perfect crime to do with pleasure?

3 What is the worst lie you've ever told your parents

4 What's something everyone else loves that you secretly find overrated?

5 If you could be any fictional character who would

it be?

6 Do you think double texting is a big deal?

7 If your life was a movie, what would it be called?

8 If you had to rename yourself, what name would you choose?

9 Would you rather trade some intelligence for looks or looks for intelligence?

10 If you had a warning label, what would yours say?

Hi Ani! Thanks for thinking of me :)

I think fandom and fanfic, honestly?

I am not a crime person lol I am very boring unfun rule follower

I honestly couldn't tell you. I was scared to death of my mother growing up so I was a really well behaved teenager, I don't think I ever lied about where I was or even went somewhere without her permission. Then when I started having my fun~ I was away at college so I didn't have to tell her shit lol

Does it make me a huge asshole if I say babies? Or if not the actual babies~ just the ~having of babies~ rn? I'm at the stage in my life where people think that's my logical next step and my reaction is always like ......why would I do that to myself....

I don't have a fun answer for this, I'm sorry :(

lol no and i can't imagine being someone who cares about that as a sender or receiver???? like???? of all the things to give a fuck about???? i will send eight texts in a row idgaf

lmao Award Winner for Most Boring Film!!!!! I'd named it Treading though.

Well Jo is not my legal name, so maybe that :)

Absolutely tf not I am adorable and smart as hell I got the perfect amounts and just enough mental illness to keep me from being a whole ass douchebag

lmfao most definitely "Warning: you will hurt her feelings without trying or knowing"

sorry that i'm like the most boring adult in the history of the world lollllll

[sehnsuchts-trunken]

idgaf im doing a masterlist now. this is uh, me and laurie's merlin masterlist (I've ignored all reblogs because you can check those easily, so these are just the original posts) I'll probably have forgotten some but,, at this point I don't care, I just needed this lmao

general

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680680551527677952/alright-so-i-actually-didnt-want-to-directly

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680793149398024192/id-been-meaning-to-ask-you-this-as-a-little

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680812622653882368/well-now-im-obviously-obliged-to-return-here-to

morgana

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680696260421959680/hi-yes-i-just-discovered-that-you-write-for-merlin

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680704064701546496/ohmygoddddd-youre-giving-me-so-many-scenarios-yes

gwaine!!!

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680724978957713408/so-im-watching-merlin-again-rn-i-dont-think

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680868604169928704/friendlyneighborhoodcapricorn-okay-whats-up-with

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680899934327816192/i-meant-to-add-this-to-my-reblog-but-i-got-excited

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680905783875108865/okay-because-it-seems-like-i-wont-get-any-more

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680907873743683584/wait-wait-how-have-i-not-waltzed-in-here-to-ask

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680979921841127424/if-you-kill-me-now-ill-die-happy-this-is

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681077106934939649/im-not-leaving-you-alone-for-a-now-but-dont

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681090975897124864/so-gwaine-has-lets-say-hes-gone-through-a

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681135667833700352/okay-okay-okay-okay-okay-okay-okay-for-all-the

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681153384980561920/random-gwaine-headcanons-that-somehow-all-revolve

merlin

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680776229662736384/okay-okay-now-im-dying-to-hear-some-of-your

merlin x lancelot

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680806146811002880/okay-this-is-inevitable-so-ive-decided-its

leon

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680863992365940736/ooooh-before-i-go-to-bed-now-weve-been-talking

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681091304573337601/i-dont-remember-all-the-specifics-but-im

knights

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680998779057569792/back-with-a-slightly-more-serious-request-but-do

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/680999636373307392/okay-so-i-know-that-youre-busy-writing-the-lovely

lancelot

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681055070214815744/that-nervous-sir-lancelot

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681074934073720832/okay-okay-so-i-suddenly-had-a-creative-outburst

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681078464900677632/okay-so-i-caved-and-started-watching-merlin-again

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681085740100288512/okay-so-since-ive-finally-finished-the-headcanons

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681176472388567041/okay-i-caved-i-need-some-headcanons-about-what

lancelot x gwaine

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681158231797743616/as-promised-im-returning-to-ask-for-some

https://sehnsuchts-trunken.tumblr.com/post/681165928403206144/your-turn-doing-lancelotgwaine-headcanons

[mortuaest]

So I just figured out how to pin a post but.  For the people who come here and see my RP blog.

~Heya, my name’s Garrus, I’m a 31 year old Autistic Non-Binary, Ace/Demi-Romantic who worked in healthcare, now had to step back start of summer 2022, severely mentally ill/trying to get better.  Im trying my best tbh my mental health is fucking trash rn.

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[troglobite]

hey so i have health insurance for....the foreseeable future? idk when that will end.

and once i’m out of grad school and i’m vaccinated, i can start SERIOUSLY getting back into eating normally and exercising my normal amount, which i think should get my weight down a little bit/back to relatively normal, and fix whatever health problems are currently kinda outta whack rn

and so........

i’m like, heavily considering breast reduction surgery.

considerations:

i am terrified of pain & don’t tend to handle it SUUUUUPER well

when i got my root canal done i was under IV sedation, and i sobbed hysterically and was like unbelievably hopelessly depressed and defeated-feeling for like 1.5-2 full weeks afterwards, i just had to wait it out

i am terrified of bodily fluids

i am terrified of being physically ill, like being made nauseous from pain or pain killers (i have a prescription antiemetic for Just In Case situations already)

i’m autistic and i get VERY FREAKED OUT when my body changes. i’m concerned that having my nerves have to fix themselves and having New Things to look at on my body will completely freak me out and never feel Right again.

terrified of losing my nipples. idgaf about being able to breastfeed, but i DO want my nipples :(

idk how i feel about scars

i’ve never had surgery before

okay those are the negatives, here at the things that are making me consider it really heavily:

GENDER EUPHORIA

ELIMINATE GENERAL DYSPHORIA AROUND MY SILHOUETTE

i want pretty boobs :( 

my boobs are genuinely like Gross. by which i mean the whole under-boob area is a nightmare, as anyone w Giant Honkeroos would know

my back neck and shoulders are constantly killing me

I WANT TO FIT INTO THE CLOTHES THAT I WANT TO WEAR FOR FUCK’S SAKE OH MY GOD JUST LET ME WEAR SHIRTS THAT ACTUALLY FIT PLEASE I WANT MORE OPTIONS FOR CLOTHING ALKJDSFLAKSDJFL

i don’t wanna pay $60 for a single bra anymore

i’d like to wear a normal average everyday bra that doesn’t dig into every single part of my torso and shoulders

i can’t exercise properly with these things

they genuinely just HURT sometimes for NO REASON

i would like to do yoga without LITERALLY CHOKING ON MY BOOBS

so.

thoughts?

i want advice, i want stories, i want guidance, i want reassurance. 

i’m miserable with these things. 

i mention the weight loss bc my boobs have gotten just a little bigger w my weight gain, and they might actually go down in size just a bit in the near future, once i’m out of grad school, idk. 

so like. idk. idk what to do here. i really just want someone who’s had it done before to talk to me.

if you follow me/are friends w me on other social media that’s more amenable to longform conversations like this please feel free to contact me there. 

//sighs loudly

oh i figure i should also say:

i don’t plan on binding much, if at all, if i end up getting breast reduction. i don’t want top surgery, i don’t want a flat chest. i want cute, manageable, healthy boobs that don’t feel like a massive pain in the ass/neck/chest/shoulders/back to clean and take care of, and still fail. 

i want cute reasonably sized boobs. 

(i think it’ll also be easier to exercise and lose a little more weight with smaller boobs; i’m a naturally fat person, so this isn’t a “i’m gonna be THIN!” thing, it’s really genuinely just a “i enjoy exercising, but these giant fucking things make it goddamn impossible to enjoy it all the time”; and so also i mention this bc even if they’re “small” proportionally, i think i’ll continue to lose a lil weight or at least shape up, and they should be proportional to my frame, but i imagine i’d talk about that in a consultation)

anyway

HELP PLEASE

[youryuri-x]

There are some people that I want to kill becuase they are close to you.

I hate them. I fuking hate them...maybe I'm jelous for the time you spend with them...maybe I'm jelous that they have the things I don't...

Your my only friend. Only proper friend. The only one who would notice the tears in my eyes as I spoke to them while smiling and crying. The one I have faith in to not leave me. To never ditch me...how can they have you and... Have others?

When I have you I don't need others. That's thing with me. I only one thing.

I used to want friends. People other than you in my life. But then I realised...i was trying for them...using my energy on them...wasting my live on them... Why was I doing that?

I just needed you.

I just you. I'd rather be alone and you be my only company that have to spend time with people who I have to pretend to like...or accept the fact they don't like me as much as I want them to...

It's too much energy to think about people being alone and being alone with you are the only I wanna do. So why waste my energy on unnecessary things?

I've decided not to. The only things I'm focusing on is school, you and myself. It's all I need for survival. Friends have never worked out for me...

It makes me jelous of all the people who have friends and you tho. Normal people people who don't cut themselves off from the world when they get an obsession. People who can feel more than just love for you or an acheing sad emptyness...

But its your birthday wtf an I saying. I'm so happy you've had a great day. I'm mid way though writing a post abt that. But rn right here, I need to vent to you...idk if you'll see this. At this point idrc

Tumblr is still my safe space. My idgaf free zone a place to vent.its even better when it feels like I'm doing it to you. I not unpriverting my old posts...im deleting them all...ill rewrite them tho...but a fresh start for a new me...

A new me who is just for you...

[96babyfuckyeah]

okay life update/brain dump/whatever u wanna call it!!!

- my skin has turned into shit LOL the scars are so dark not going away, not smooth.. it’s really stressing m out cause all I’ve ever wanted was clear smooth clean skin and I’ve had anything BUT that. I’ve struggled for YEARS with this shit. Its definitely been at least 10+ years and I’m SICK. I’m turning 25 in like 3 months!!! I’m too old for this man.

- I start my new job on Thursday!!!!!!!! I’m beyond excited and happy and I thank God for this opportunity. Like forreal. I have been craving a new start and environment and my goals for this year are slowly being completed!!

- I’m scared.... So basically Dana’s whole fam has covid and I’ve seen her on Monday. Dear God. Anyways she told me maybe Wednesday or Thursday that her mom might have it and that she’s feeling sick and today (Sunday) I’ve asked her how everyone is doing and everyone is sick lolz. Her uncle is so ducking selfish for that man. Man goes out everyday.. to WHERE???? Why are you seeing ppl everyday!! Like u know wahgwaan. So I’m kinda scared that I might have it. I haven’t displayed any symptoms (yet thank God) and I hope I don’t and I hope I don’t have it at all cause I literally cannot afford to have it rn considering I’ve seen my family a lot this week. Pls God.

- my uncle is still here in my house. Fucking lowlife scum. Get a job. Grow up. Living rent free. I’m so annoyed and I need to move out like yesterday. I’m so tired of this guy being here. The place downstairs is probably trashed it smells like shit. This guy is just so messy and disgusting. Like how do u have 3 kids, you’re FIFTY!!! And you living in my basement rent free??? Scum bag get a life criminal. Idgaf.

- speaking of moving out, I’ve been looking at least 4/5 times a week for a new spot to live. Somewhere that’s affordable and I can just be my self. I don’t want anyone in my space but it’s just so difficult to live in this city man. It’s WAY too expensive it’s crazy. I just pray I can find a place and CUT. I know God will show me a way.

- I’m still single LOL :( i love being by myself don’t get me wrong but sometimes i just want someone to show love to. i would like a little family one day. maybe my aunt is onto something.... no husband, no kids... just vibes. living her best life as a NP in california. idk we'll see i guess.

theres a bunch more but I’m tired and work early so ill write more tomorrow.

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: save me Ali: this practice is dragging Carly: survive it & i'll help you forget you had to Ali: reckon i've only just come down Ali: but this sesh is making that happen hard and fast 😩 Ali: how's you Carly: aw baby no Carly: say you caught stage fright off me & you gotta leave rn k Carly: i was still up before i got brought down too Ali: dead believable Carly: i kno Ali: can't even blend into the furniture 'cos there is none Ali: so grunge rn Ali: unacceptable tho, who's bringing my baby down Carly: lie on the floor Carly: as protests go itd get the mood across Carly: ronan is Ali: yeah, 'less they think i'm about to go all acdc on 'em Ali: shouldn't have needed to ask but there we are Ali: what's got his knickers in a twist today Carly: wtf does that mean Carly: a load of his cousins are back on site Carly: fun Ali: oh babe Ali: missing out Ali: i'll show you, not at this rehearsal but when i'm actually bringing my rockstar a game Ali: omg is bartley there Carly: k Carly: yea he is Carly: so im not Ali: fun times Ali: i'd rather him over ronan but you do you Carly: if i wanted a bf Carly: but nah Carly: & hes not over it Ali: 😬 Ali: come to grab you Ali: awks Carly: yea Carly: like i kno im good thats why i cant save it all for you boy Carly: wife your own Ali: thought they weren't allowed to wife gorjas anyway Ali: tuttut Ali: you just out here tryna be community spirited Carly: yea im just living like one of you don't get it twisted lads Carly: cant make it clearer than fucking your cousin at your bday party Ali: damn Ali: stone cold boo Carly: told him how it had to be but he didnt wanna hear it Carly: had to show him instead you kno Ali: i get it, did the same but in reverse Ali: its cultural but its a bullshit excuse Ali: don't answer to anyone, so they don't like no, like Carly: yea? Carly: how fun Carly: like i dont answer to anyone either lads Ali: mhmm, you know how weird he got ick Ali: forreal Ali: my ma might say otherwise but shh Carly: mine wouldnt Carly: out here making her proud Ali: pop that on the next postcard Ali: glad you ain't here, lads Carly: ha Carly: wish you were tho you could distract Barty for me Carly: the grass is too wet for creeping Carly: fall on my arse Ali: poor baby Ali: i'd throw myself on that dick bomb for you Ali: lene can't even be mad Ali: loves chivalry Carly: aw Carly: youre too good Carly: i kno i should just go out there like idgaf but looking like this Carly: not gonna do me any favors Ali: like you're so 😍 there's gonna be a riot or you looking how you feeling Carly: wanna say yea to the first 1 but got the weight of last nite on me Ali: fuck this Ali: i'm coming and i'm bringing concealer Carly: might start a riot at rehearsal baby Carly: but idc if you dont Ali: nah, explained Ali: basically a feminist emergency Ali: how could they refuse Ali: don't need to mention we're gonna turn looks and party Carly: ha Carly: [sends selfie] Carly: thats what im working w Carly: emergency it is Ali: nah you still cute Ali: cuter than them, that's a given but i'll bring all my shit Ali: love a makeover moment Carly: youre so sweet Carly: love a happy lie Ali: no lies bitch Carly: ha k bitch Ali: a bitch better believe me Ali: imma make you when i'm through, don't worry Carly: you do have talent Carly: ive seen that Ali: 😉 Ali: tell you it's all natural or take the compliment hmm Carly: nobodys lashes look that good w out help Carly: but when i can see the freckles i kno you not going hard like Carly: so cute Ali: now who's the sweet one, shortcake Ali: 😊 Carly: facts baby Carly: im just saying 'em Ali: touche Ali: well your eye and hair colour combo is killer and we gon flaunt that Carly: its gonna clash w my skin if you keep making me blush boo Ali: nah, save your blushes for me Ali: stone cold fox, remember Ali: they'll never know Carly: dont let your gf kno Carly: dont wanna get grabbed by her either k Ali: 😂 Ali: she'll be gutted but cool with me Carly: love a 3way but Carly: she still scares me Ali: She's a pussycat really Carly: w you Carly: cuz youre cute Ali: so are you Ali: just a #confirmedstraight Ali: she can't be too nice, like, think of her rep Carly: ha Carly: tell her how many girls ive fucked Ali: tempting as it is to spice up the pillowtalk babe Ali: can't deal with the male gaze rant again 🙄 Carly: like you dont kno how to shhh her Ali: 😏 Ali: easy as a lad, like, but don't tell Carly: facts Carly: like i said you have talent baby Ali: backatcha Ali: for a straight girl, like 😘 Carly: ha Carly: yea lads arent no trick Ali: like you said you've fucked loads of girls too Carly: idk tho didnt stick around to tell me how it was Ali: hmm Ali: have to ask for a review next time Carly: fuck no Carly: might as well go to school and flunk that like Ali: awh baby Ali: how you expecting to learn anything 'bout treating a girl right from ronan Carly: idc Carly: as long as the lad is feeling what im doing Carly: & they do Ali: no doubt Carly: too much in bartys case Ali: hard life being a bad bitch Carly: ha you kno Ali: are any of his other cousins cute Ali: get the full set Carly: yea Carly: most are Ali: back again to homewreck hey Carly: couple are old but would Ali: shame i'm 💍 and they probs are too Carly: ha yea Carly: you could end yours w a txt but them nah Ali: you reckon? 😂 Carly: whats she gonna do Carly: show up here Carly: ill be like i dont share bitch Ali: probably Ali: shotgun toting da's don't scare her as much as they should Carly: k ill remember that Carly: hope mine dont show for my own reasons Ali: would probs scare off bart but also all the others Carly: youd think but hed just have a beer w them & b matey matey Carly: reckon hed sell me for a case if he could Carly: ship sailed w my virginity tho Ali: bummer really Ali: who knows what we coulda got outta that deal Ali: giving it away willynilly ugh past me Carly: they might wanna go harder for round 2 Carly: youre more talented now Ali: nice salespitch, babe Ali: i'm impressed, idk if they will be but worth a shot Carly: they would Carly: not that stupid Carly: & youre that cute Ali: like i'll wanna go with them when their chat is gonna be nowhere near as nice 😋 Carly: aw Carly: well you got me Carly: marital bed whenever Ali: but of course 😂 Carly: youre meant to laugh me into bed not out Ali: yeah and you're meant to wanna be there babe so it's chill Carly: k yea true Ali: even with my talents Ali: no turning water into wine, like Ali: sadly Carly: not w that attitude baby Ali: yeah being a debby downer's your only turn-off Ali: my ego thanks you, babe 😉 Carly: i'll work on the rest of you thanking me when you get here Ali: bitch... 😳 Ali: least it gon' be equal when I slay your makeover Carly: ill be grateful you kno Ali: i know