#im gonna get to my moms house on thursday and im just gonna collapse onto the floor in a puddle of tears

[dissociativedoe]

do nondisabled people realize how petrifying it is to know that you will walk into an event and most likely be the only visibly disabled person there?

the only one with a mobility aid, communication device, service/guide dog, physical deformity/difference, etc.... you dont even step foot in the door and you already stick out. EVERYBODY stares at you, even the nice, accepting people. are you an attention seeker or someone they should pity? you dont get to make that decision; they already decided the moment they saw you. are you going to be respected, babied, or insulted? or will they completely ignore you because talking to the cripple is too awkward? if youre there with somebody else, are people going to talk to them and ignore you, like youre not capable of interacting with them? is the venue even accessible, or do you get left behind as people move elsewhere? does anyone hang back to walk beside you, keep you company, or are you left to trail along behind them, alone? are you even included in what's going on? what is even the point of being there?