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solardistress · 1 year
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people suck and then i remember my mutuals and friends and nice people and im just a puddle on the ground
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dreamwinged · 1 month
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im going to say something . ilove my beautiful wife
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strwbrymlkshake · 1 year
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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(
#mine#oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times#but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry#like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie#im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc#i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me#thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related#anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that#ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired#// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always#because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life#like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing#me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little#so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die#every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he#is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him#every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again#but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh#i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT#I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time#like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me#he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do#he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away
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could i get an obey me matchup perchance :o
i’m bi and i use any pronouns. aries sun, virgo moon, taurus rising and entp
appearance: i’m like 5’9 or something idk also can’t tell if my hair is blonde or brown. i have heterochromia and i gotta lotta moles/freckles. i like to wear bright colors and i rarely wear makeup. im 24 but ppl say i look 16. skinny af but i have been told many times that i have a pixar mom dumpy
personality: a lot of people have told me i am very calm but also chaotic. i see humor in everything so i inevitably become the designated “funny friend” in every friend group 😔 i am silly but i’m also smart and responsible i graduated college with a 4.0 gpa and double honors. i have a bachelorettes degree in animation and now i’m getting my masters in creative writing. i wanna be an artist or writer full time someday but for now i teach college fiction writing and that’s pretty fun too. i like to tease ppl and start arguments but only when it’s lighthearted, i avoid real conflict like the plague cuz i’m bad at standing up for myself/setting boundaries. i also hate asking people for things i don’t wanna be a burden. i wouldn’t call myself a perfectionist but i’ll work at something until it’s more than decent bc i hate letting people down. i love to entertain ppl ^_^ i can be flirty with people i don’t like but when it comes to ppl i am actually attracted to i become smooth spongebob it fuckin sucks
likes: iced black coffee, raccoons, cats, birds, blue flavored things, swimming, acting, graphic novels, hyperpop, shitty b movies, punctuality and respect for other people’s time, nature, long car rides, karaoke, fellow creatives and people who treat me niceys
dislikes: spiders, sand, driving, cooking, germs, bad smells, early mornings, dress codes, email etiquette, people telling me what to do “because i said so”
hobbies: writing, digital art, animating, going on walks, making parody songs, ice skating, making and taking online quizzes
other: i have 2 pet birds 4 younger siblings and i’m horrible at sports/dancing i am not in tune with my body at all, also i suck at math. my love language could be whatever they need tbh but i do appreciate quality time a lot
Hi Anon! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took a while; life's crazy at the moment. I hope you like your matchup!
In Obey Me, I match you with...
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Mammon is definitely your best match in Obey Me! You're both funny but can be serious when the mood calls for it.
You're both awful at flirting with each other, much to the chagrin of the other brothers. You can flirt amazingly with anyone else, but when it comes down to the people you actually care about, all flirting skills go out the window. The brothers are so tired of it...
Loves watching B movies with you. They're one of his favourite types of movie so you'll hear no complaints from him when you suggest watching one.
Will do all the driving. He's pretty protective of his cars so he prefers to drive anyway. Mammon would love going on long drives with you; he gets to spend time with you without his brothers butting in.
Will also take care of any spiders around the house. But not without demanding a kiss as payment. Feel free to either give him a kiss or a punch.
Loves watching you work on your latest animation project! It's one of the few times Mammon will sit still for more than a few minutes. He just thinks you're really clever for being able to make what you do.
You will definitely be asked to tutor him. You're good at studying and get good marks and Mammon is the exact opposite. He'll try his best when studying with you but it's still a struggle for him. Just be patient and give him rewards when he does well.
Lucifer hopes spending time with you will make some of your responsibility rub off on his younger brother. He also hopes Mammon's irresponsibility doesn't rub off on you...he can really only handle one person in his life acting like that.
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expfcultragreen · 3 years
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Sept 13 and as of the 9th, Im out of the hospital and i have already on hand a pair of crocs that fit comfortably both feet! (My leg that got nicey-slicyed is twice the size of my other leg still, apparently it'll mostly go away over time).
Adam Frankenstein is so fucked working with the running disability, those villagers are ableist af. He feels vulnerable because he can't run away. So he holes up in places that are defensible. Then everyone stigmatizes him.
Look at the face on the heart in the heart of the strawberry. Its good to have friends share a birthday but its glum when theyre gone, so its a mona lisa frown. Not my mood, but i cant say a 25% full glass is half full. So im not renarrativizing it as a halfsmile. Its like my palmtree tattoo upside down. I only do see the smile from the palmtree tattoo when i look at it with my heart, said a voice that wasn't mine when I'm crying from some ptsd related emotional issue.
The canine unit destroyed my left legs artery and im lucky i have my leg because the tourniquet severed blood flow so long i got fasciitis and they opened up my leg a few places and unzipped a lot up to get to the artery & to take one from my right leg and tie it off to a vein. Then i had to skin graft the openings in my legs, which are almost healed except for some granulation up top where the zipper went necrotic along the staple line and had to be excised and it was joined up to a fasciotomy location so anyway i have this one huge staple-teeth-lined scar up top on the left but im much more concerned about the shoes i can fit because i was thrifting and tried on any number of affordable and cute boots that fit the right foot and not the left. $5 a pair and I'd have bought five. I saved a lot of welfare up in the hospital, it turned out i had two full cheques. My September cheque is greatly diminished now. I'm going to have to be very thrifty all month. I bought a $50 full size, anatomically correctish semi-articulated glow in the dark skeleton.
I think the strawberry is smiling, i see the corner closest my hand curve upward, making it a mona lisa smirk (different from a mona lisa smile. It may mean mystifying, the mona lisa prefix)
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Part 1 Im pretty sure i was emotionally abused as a child, ive done my research and it all matches up. But now im 20, its been 2 years since i moved away from my parents ( i still see them once a month bc they pay for my rent) but since im away i dont have to see or talk to them everyday, we only chat through messages and its mostly about money or something like 'how are you?'and thats it. We almost dont talk at all. But when they do visit they act all nicey and loving caring parents and i start
for some reason I can’t locate part 2 of this ask, I’m so sorry! it’s very common for emotionally abusive parents to act all nice and loving when they know you're trying to figure them out, but it doesn't negate that they emotionally abused you, and you are still suffering the consequences of that. I know it’s hard to believe in your own perceptions when they start acting so differently it's somehow hard to believe those same people would abuse you. But their niceness is mostly an act, and it's there for them to be able to feel good about themselves, it doesn't negate their past actions. Good people don't just switch between cruel and nice how it fits them and based on their moods, good people are good all the time, towards their young children as well. People who take the opportunity to abuse small child and then act nice are abusers.
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