#im in sappy mode..

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[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

MERRY CHRISTMAS MY BELOVEDS <33333 or early christmas for some of you. happy holidays!!!!! etc!!!!!! will prob be sort of inactive today just know i love you all + i hope your holiday season is lovely and comforting regardless of whether you celebrate or not (or if you’re happy to do so or forced to meet up with annoying family members, etc)…. mutuals i adore you more than words can describe . thank you for existing and for making me happy <333

[tomwaterbabies]

Could you please draw Varian carrying Hugo bridal style please?

i CAN do this

he's showing him off

[certainarbiterphantom]

this is so lovely and sappy i love it

bradley’s house feels empty. it’s always a bit of a shock, to step over the threshold from sunny, sandy san diego into the gaping abyss of his old house. it’s felt that way for nearly as long as he can remember.

first, it was the absence of nick bradshaw. his mother, bless her soul, tried so hard–goose’s old knickknacks spilling over shelves and table surfaces, the ever-permeating smell of recipes gathered from the other military wives (always with just a tinge of burning), the garden she kept in full bloom–but she was just one woman and the house was built for a family, not a widow and her four year old son. bradley remembers pockets of silence. nights with carole staring blankly at the tv, the only source of light and sound, some game show host’s plastic laugh echoing into the ceiling.

and then carole died and bradley fled the nest for maverick (and iceman’s) home.

when he finally returned, a man now, he couldn’t even make it through the door. no dad. no mom. no maverick. but there was ice on the phone laying out his options. selling it is even more unthinkable than living in it.

so bradley rents it out. to families, couples, rowdy groups of college kids. he hopes it fits them better than it ever did him.

then the mission happens and recuperating in the barracks sounds even worse than if he’d just laid down in the snow and died, so back to the house it is.

natasha had dropped him off at the door, worried eyes as he took a fortifying breath and opened the door to darkness, but he waved her off. he’s been alone with the silence for a few days. no matter how many lamps he turns on or how many windows he opens, it’s all so cold and dark and quiet. hollow.

that changes quickly.

jake muscles his way through bradley’s door and bradley can’t even stop him, his and mav’s crash landing leaving him with a limited range of mobility.

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[darlingdaisyfarm]

r you still open for requests? if so and if you havent done this, stan twins taking care of reader on their period? im on my period rn and i lowkey am craving for it,, /nf!!

❥ Stan & Ford taking care of you on your period headcanons <3

a/n: oh anon this one's for you and for everyone dealing with the struggle right now <333 may ur cramps be mild 🙏

STANLEY

★ “what do you mean you feel like garbage?? you were fine an hour ago! what happened?? who do I have to fight??” and when you explain, he just. OH. THAT.

★ “okay, okay, don’t freak out, but,” he digs around in some closet and pulls out a very old hot water bottle. “this thing got me through some rough winters. i hope this will, uh. . . stop the angry uterus thing.”

★ if anyone (Soos, Dipper, some poor clueless tourist) makes a dumb joke about “mood swings,” Stan will protect you. “oh, you think that’s funny? let’s see how funny it is when I lock you in the Mystery Shack bathroom for a week with no toilet paper!”

★ will not let you lift a finger. so worried about your state he physically shoves you back down if you try to do anything. “nope. nope, nuh-uh, baby, don’t even think about it.”

★ if you're dying from pain and nothing helps, he just holds you close while dramatically saying “oh sweetheart, if only nature was FAIR, it’d be me bleeding instead! why this world is so unfair????”

★ of course he buys you snacks. SO MANY SNACKS. he heard somewhere that chocolate helps, so now he’s bought four different brands of cheap chocolate bars from the gas station

“uh, i got these. one of ‘em’s gotta be the magic one, right?”

★ “old man Mcgucket says bark tea fixes everything. should we. . . should we try bark tea?”

★ once Stanley pulled out a beer and immediately regretted it. “. . . wait, no, that’s for me.”

★ ofc he cooks for you. he’s a big believer that food fixes all things, even if he doesn’t understand the science of it. makes you the heartiest, greasiest, most filling meal he can. you might not even want it but it’s the intent. it's the love. (and if you actually ask for something? he’ll make it with no hesitation)

★ you look even slightly like you’re in pain?? immediate concern. hunched over? “alright, that’s it, you’re going on the couch.” he literally herds you over with his hands on your shoulders, forces you to get comfortable. “c'mon, c'mon, up ya go. feet up. blanket on. there ya go.”

★ lovingly teases you when you cry over dumb stuff, but only a little. “you're cryin’ over a commercial? sweetie, c’mon.” wipes your tears anyway. kisses your forehead after.

★ grocery store trip. Stanley standing in the feminine hygiene aisle, he calls you from the store like, “baby, what the hell is ultra-thin? why are there WINGS on these? you gonna fly away or somethin’? :(”

★ i have a feeling he'll get the wrong ones. Stan comes home proud of himself only for you to be like Stan these are panty liners. he’s FLABBERGASTED. “they were in the same aisle!! they had the same stupid pink packaging!!”

★ eventually, he settles into his caretaking mode, ruffles your hair, makes bad jokes to make you laugh even when you feel awful. if you get emotional from the hormones he panics a little but ultimately just lets you cry on his shoulder and pats your back

★ mutters “alright, where’s it hurt, lemme at it.��� then massages your lower back, rubs your stomach clumsily but gently. Stan is determined to physically get rid of your pain somehow even if that’s not how it works

★ makes you rest by putting on a movie and forcing you to stay put. he picks the weirdest mix of old action flicks, crime shows and one sappy romance he swears he doesn’t like. (he totally does.)

★ if you’re in pain he's gonna fix it. but since he can’t punch your uterus, he does the next best thing. distracts the hell outta you. "alright, sweetheart, what’s it gonna be? poker? tall tales? let's watch duck detective?”

you giggle. “Stan, just cuddle me.”

“oh, yeah, you got it, c’mere.” immediately pulls you onto his lap, wrapping his big arms around you, rocking his most precious thing in the world.

★ if you're up at 2 AM, restless from cramps, Stan notices immediately “owwh, doll, let’s getcha comfy.” guides you to the couch, sets you up with a blanket, turns on some quiet late-night TV. he stays up with you, spending sleepless night taking care of you. he sits there, rubbing your back, making sure you’re okay

in some hours more though, he falls asleep next to you, head leaning against yours

STANFORD

★ HE KNOWS BEFORE YOU DO. this man has studied interdimensional quantum phenomena. you think he hasn’t mapped out your cycle like a scientist mapping the tides???? PLEASE

“sweetheart, shouldn’t you be starting your period soon?”

“what? no?? I feel fine“ and twenty minutes later, you’re in pain

“ah. as I suspected.” Ford says

★ literally tracks it like a researcher. has a whole-ass journal with little notes. estimates symptoms, cravings, moods. he says it's because “I want to be prepared for you”.

you catch him writing in it one day. “Ford, what is that?”

he looks guilty and awkward. “a. . . documentation of your menstrual cycle?”

you take it, open it and your eyes widen. it got a whole-ass formula for predicting your moods

“wtf Ford, you made a menstrual algorithm??”

he rubs the back of his neck. “well, i wanted to ensure that i could be fully prepared for any and all symptoms—“

you’re just staring at the notes, not even listening to him. “did you seriously track that I crave sour candy more than chocolate???”

Ford pushes up his glasses. “i prefer to call it an empirical observation, yes.” next thing you do is kiss him senseless, because this nerd is the most devoted man on the planet

★ i assure you, he's already stocked up. you go to grab something and oh . . . heating pad? already plugged in. pain meds? already out on the counter. ur favorite snacks? somehow already bought. tea? brewing

★ of course! of course you'll get his lectures about periods. “did you know that menstrual cramps are caused by the uterus contracting due to prostaglandins? i read a fascinating study on ways to mitigate the pain—“ but let me tell you, he’s rambling because he’s nervous about you hurting. also because he thinks knowledge = comfort

★ his gentle hands, always. adjusting your blanket. rubbing slow circles into your back. fingertips ghosting over your forehead to check if you’re feverish

★ absolutely 100%, without a doubt, Ford takes notes on what helps you. if you ever say something like “ugh, this tea actually helps a lot” he writes that down. if you offhandedly mention “i think dark chocolate makes it better” he’s buying you ten bars of it next time.

★ he tries to keep you distracted. puts on old sci-fi movies and nerds out over them. reads aloud from a book if you want because he knows you love his voice

“did I ever tell you about the time I discovered a species that only reproduces once every ten years?” he just TALKS to you. calmly. thoughtfully. lets his voice carry you away from the pain.

★ he will stay up with you if you can’t sleep. even if he’s exhausted, even if he has research to do. if you’re in pain, he’s right there. “sleep, darling. I’ll stay up for a while. you need to rest.” strokes your hair until you do and presses a kiss to your temple when you finally drift off.

★ Ford can’t stand inefficiency. the first time he hears you complain about normal period products, he rubbed his chin, thinking. you’re uncomfortable??? with a problem that science could potentially solve???

“hmph. there must be a better way.” he disappears into his lab for hours.

★ what he makes depends on what you complain about! hate pads? “ah. they’re inefficient, bulky and uncomfortable. yes, darling, I see the flaws.”

hate tampons? “too absorbent, prone to leaking at unpredictable rates. . . fascinating, but flawed.”

cramps?? “prostaglandin-induced muscle contractions. I can work with this!”

no problem is too small. he listens to every complaint

★ “i will revolutionise menstruation, darling!” you're so proud of him. Ford is proud of himself too

★ normally, he treats you like his equal, his partner, his greatest love. but when you’re sick ohh he secretly loves having an excuse to baby you. he brings you tea and tests the temperature on his wrist before handing it over. he fluffs your pillows, tucks you in way too snug. if you groan in pain, he’s immediately alert. “what is it? what do you need? tell me, dearest, I’ll get it.”

i can't believe i wrote an entire fic from Ford's pov journaling reader's cycle, im going insane

[canisalbus]

im so glad that vasco whisked machete away from everything (in denial) and took him to florence where they lived happily ever after (im denial) and im glad alonso wasnt ever mean to anyone (in denail) and and and (explodes) (this is a joke but also i wanted to say i love ur work and ur ocs :).)

;v;

You know, every now and then I think about that potential alternate ending, a scenario where things come close to falling apart but somehow the final blow is avoided, very narrowly. And maybe the bad times have taken their toll, they've changed for worse irrepairably and have to learn to live with themselves now, but it's comforting to think that there could be some light at the end of the tunnel for them, some kind of karmic reward. That after years of living on survival mode they get some peace and succeed in buying a little bit more time for themselves.

I've grown sappy and as much as I veer towards and appreciate good tragedy, sometimes it simply feels earned when characters somehow manage to save themselves and each other from a hopeless situation right at the end, even if it's a little cliche and unrealistic. It's nice to daydream about that.

It's just hard to figure out how that aforementioned whisking away could be arranged though. They're pretty backed into a corner as far as I'm concerned.

[itneverendshere]

what do you think all of your rafes will be doing in their birthdays ? lol

this is sooo cute to think about 🥹 ok let me seeee...

1️⃣ bartender!pogue x rafe: he’d be all soft and chill, probably doing a cozy lunch cute with bartender!reader and their baby autumn 🍼 maybe a little family day at the beach, or a cozy home cooked meal at their spot. bartender!reader would surprise him tho, let a bunch of their closest friends/relatives join in for cake 🩵

2️⃣ bitchy!pogue x rafe: lmao he'd be so fucking dramatic, probs trying hard to win her over on his bday—texting her all "it’s my birthday, can you make an exception?" 🙄 but he’s gotta know she's got him wrapped around her finger now 😌

3️⃣ pogue!rafe x sweetheart!kook!reader (invisible string): ugh they'd spend the WHOLE day together if they could :( maybe sneak away somewhere they used to go when they were seventeen (but like in a different city for obvious reasons, but something that reminded them of home). he’d be going wowowoow all day bc he got his girl back🥲

4️⃣ maybank!reader x rafe (osop): something spontaneous tbh!! feel like maybank!reader would pull him into some wild adventure for his bday, probably sky-diving or snorkeling cause they're adrenaline junkies, they'd end up sweaty and sandy but HAPPY 🫶

5️⃣ played me like a clarinet!rafe: he’d be SO sappy because he knows he almost messed it up 🥹 wouldn't let reader plan a THING!!! he's gotta prove himself to her, probs pull out all the stops, planning the best day ever (acting like it's reader's birthday and not his lmao) bc he’s still scared of losing her.

6️⃣ school spirit and all!rafe: golden retriever energy 1000% 💘 he’d probably be clinging to reader alllllll day, wouldn't let reader get out of bed for a SECOND, even when she tells him she made him breakfast to eat in bed. he'd be like....i know something i can eat.... he’d be all in bc she makes him mushy like that.

7️⃣ lyayw ex!boyfriend rafe: let's hope he's miserable as fuck on his birthday idcccc. i’m talking full-on emo mode, like sitting in his room thinking about reader alllll day 💅 topper would probably throw him a get together and he'd be moping the entire time bc what the fuck, how did get here. he's used to spent every birthday since he was sixteen with reader so it's a lot to take in [DESERVED]. wouldn't want to be around anyone else [hint], would probably drink or smoke himself to sleep if im being honest.

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This was sooooo good 😭 ugh it tugged my heart strings. Really enjoyed your writing and I really needed this sappy and fluffy fic (idk why I’m missing P+A so much) 😭

🥹🥹 thank you so much anon im so glad you liked ittt <33

i was on full crash out mode seeing that necklace and i don’t think i’ve ever written and finished a fic so fast LMFAOAO im glad you enjoyed it!! i miss p and a so bad too it’s been hitting hard despite all the content </3

[dutifullyshamelessearthquake]

holy shit IM LOSING MY MIND??? I’m done it’s over and

I- I’m running out of ways to express my obsession with your Sickfics… I need to invent new words? Or new ways to scream in text form because I need you to understand how fucking AMAZING this new fic is 😭😭😭😭

It’s so damn good???? It’s SO SATISFYING????? HELLO?? oh my word cyno cyno cyno what an absolute mess you are.🥺 poor poor thing!! I love everything in this fic. I love their relationship and how comfy they are together - how much Cyno loved spoiling nari (and tighnari deserves it let’s be real) I love the use of implied both ends!! I feel like it works really well in this case and it’s subtle but I love the implication that maybe Cyno was coming down with a bug before hand since he wasn’t feeling hungry? But then it’s like the heavy food expedited that process. I love the descriptions of fullness and how he just- very quickly - is NOT okay anymore. UHG HIS ANXIETY??? you captured the thought process perfectly of just being seen and being seen too much and the constant what ifs. Idk if Tighnari knew cyno hated being sick in public but he ABSOLUTELY gets the picture now.

OMG and Cyno just refusing to be sick in the public restroom sent me. I was genuinely shocked he managed to not lol 😂😅 like you know you just KNOW that’s so much worse feeling in that situation. Tighnari must have been so concerned and absolutely not buying it at all. Cynos little “I’m fines” when he sounds like he’s close to tears STOP. AH!! And the weakness??? OML his faintness was just so good and I’m feral over all the little details with nari being like “ok if he doesn’t sit he’s going to collapse it’s time for mom mode” and how he takes command in those moments. So damn GOOD. don’t even get me started when Cynos finally sick I can’t. My heart. Just all the worst things he wants to lay down his stomach feels so sick and now there is puke everywhere and- It was such a perfectly written scene 🥺🥺🥺 and the little FOX TOY THAT HE CUDDLES??? I’m gonna DIE?? IM TRULY DEAD?? I LOVE how attentive Tighnari is with his fussing and then very tactful more subtle support, just giving him the toy so Cyno can hug something on the way home cuz even if Tighnari knows cyno would never in public he knows him and knows he wants to be held rn and i -

I believe it’s 100% a tummy bug and not the food and that the ‘heat’ he was feeling was for sure fever and nausea and that maybe it wouldn’t have been this bad but anything he ate that day was going to more or less rot inside him. I have no doubts he was not done with the restroom for a number of reasons after getting home but I absolutely know he was 1000% times more at peace. Except for him replaying the events in his head for all eternity.

I’m truly never going to recover.

amazing fucking work. I’ve already re read this and I will re read again and again and yeah. That’s it. I’m just. Simply. Deceased. 😭😭😭

Thank you for this gift 😭🩷

I AM SCREAMING, I WOKE UP TO THIS IN MY INBOX THIS MORNING AND I WASN'T ABLE TO STOP SMILING AS I READ THROUGH IT 😭 You have no idea how much these comments mean to me, you made my whole day with this!

I am SO HAPPY you enjoyed it this much!! Allow me to get sappy for a moment, it already makes me so happy that people are actually reading what I'm creating, but knowing people enjoy it so much?? It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and it makes me so happy. I enjoy writing sickfics so much, it's just a fun, self-indulgent hobby that I also happen to post online. And just knowing something I created, purely by having fun, is being enjoyed this much?? All the happy emotions!!

Alright, happy sappy earthquake out, let's scream about Cyno!

HE IS, he is such a mess, this poor boy 🥺 I definitely had it in my head that he was beginning to come down with something before the date even started, but having a heavy restaurant meal just made things go south so much faster. I'm really glad to hear I was able to pull off the implied both ends without it seeming too out of place!! It definitely felt like if I was going to have it anywhere, this was the fic for it, Cyno had a very unhappy stomach. He went from "i can handle this" to "i am NOT okay" in the blink of an eye and I feel so bad for doing that to him. THE ANXIETY! THE VULNERABILITY!! He can't stand that other people might just THINK of him as vulnerable, the smallest sign of weakness and he wants no eyes on him immediately. I definitely think Tighnari knew he didn't like being sick in public, but he didn't know it was this bad. He definitely hadn't expected Cyno's anxiety to go through the roof like that.

He BARELY held it together in the bathroom, I think Tighnari was just as surprised that he didn't throw up. Oh Cyno baby, I know you didn't want to get sick in a public bathroom, but you could've spared yourself getting sick in the parking lot. You just know he's going to replay this event in his head a million times thinking where he should've done something differently to make the day somewhat less mortifying.

THE LITTLE FOX!! PLEASE THAT WAS SUCH A FUN LITTLE DETAIL TO ADD. I have a feeling that little thing is going to become a big comfort item for Cyno. Only private because you know he would NEVER let anybody outside of Tighnari know that he even has a stuffed animal, but it'll become a massive comfort for him. We love Tighnari just knowing. He's so good at handling these situations and we adore him for it. He's giving Cyno so many hugs when they're home.

I definitely agree with you there, boy was feverish. His body temperature was all over the place, first the hot flashes and sweating, and then he was feeling shivery?? He's definitely sick sick 🥺 He's definitely not going to be done with the bathroom for a while. In my head I imagine even the drive home is going to be hell, I mean can you imagine being in a moving car on the road when your stomach is feeling as bad as his was? Yeah they definitely pulled over more than once.

ARGH THANK YOU SO SO MUCH! I'm genuinely happy you enjoyed it as much as you did!! Again, thank you so much!!

[araveninthedarknight]

brooookkkkeee please bless me with a Shibaman fluffy fic that takes place in the rain. Like maybe he gets caught in the rain or something and the reader shares her umbrella. She is from daruma (or whatever sword group you feel most comfortable with except for white rascals). A bunch of guys try to fight Shiba during their walk but they recognize the reader and flee in terror.

I use she but you can use whatever pronouns you feel comfortable writing. Thank you for opening requests ^-^)/♡

Of course my dearest leader (iykyk) I sall write you with one of your favorite boos UwU, hopefully this is ok, i had to restart because my laptop glitched wich is a bummer cus I was in sappy mode.

Warnings: Some swearing, slight mentions of fights, mostly tooth rotting fluffy cotton candy with darling Shibaman.

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Shibaman had been out and about all day, numerous errands had been done and now he was starting to feel a little tired, he decided to stop at an old bench that was once part of a bus stop, taking a rest was his best bet, only a few minuets he had promised himself.

The cool night air created a delicious burn in his lungs after many hot stuffy hours at Oya and various other places he had visited. His head rested back, eyes closed as he took in the crisp air, a faint breez sweeping across his face. The quiet was nice, and he had been glad to not need a jacket that day. It felt free for him. He felt himself doing an internal reset, one he had much needed and not even really known. Everything seemed to be going his way until the skies opened up and a downpour pelted him with hard crystal like rain, he had not seen that in the weather forecast today and he let out an annoyed sigh, now he was soaked and going to get cold fast. He saw the falling appart bush shelter that was unused, and went under it, the rain only drizzling in the enclosed space, keeping him from getting any more soaked in rain.

A few block away, Jay was walking out of a restaurant where she just picked up something to eat for dinner, she had had a long day at Daruma and was ready to unwind for a bit. The rain that greeted her made her smile, she had always loved it and decided that she would not be bothered by it ever even in unexpected times like this. She put her umbrella up, stepping into the col and rainy night air with her bag of food in hand, unknowingly walking to where her next great adventure would await her. She was in for a surprise and a half when the six foot tall teen would capture her heart.

As she approached the old run down bus stop, a smile on her face as the pitter patter of rain on the umbrella sounded, she saw a tall figure, soaked from head to toe and almost looking to be lost or maybe just having had a rough day. whoever it was didn't have a jacket and that was never a good thing.

"Are you alright sir?" Jay asked, her eyes falling on someone who seemed close in age to her and he looked almost like she had seen him somewhere.

"Im ok, just got caught in the rain that came out of nowhere." Shibaman chuckles, not hiding the fact that he was soaked to the bone on raindrops. "Well come with me, we can share my umbrella and I can walk you to where you need to go, I can't let you stay out here all night and get sick waiting for the rain to stop." Her voice was a melody to him, and he felt compelled to take her offer, so he did, standing under the umbrella with her, trying to hold it for her so neither was pelted with the rain. "Thank you for getting me out of the rain, Im Shibaman." The smile on his face was genuine and could melt even an ice heart, Jay decided. "Im Jay, nice to meet you Shibaman. Where are you going to?" She asked "Just Oya." He mutters, hoping not to frighten her, he had yet to realize she was from Daruma and was anything but skittish. "Alright, sounds good." With that they walked twards Oya, only to be stopped by thugs from a riaval school gang getting ready to attack the Oya student. Jay steps from the sheild of the umbrella and shouts at the new faces, not afraid to scare them off, "OI,Get lost you pieces of shit."

The guys facing her pale when they realize who they messed with, running off and leaving Shibaman confused and Jay going back to him, "That should keep them away." As they arrive later at Oya, Shibaman lets out an almost sad sigh, not ready to leave this lovley energy he had been talking with for thirty minuets, "Thank you again for bailing my ass out." "No worries big guy. Say, you wanna go out for dinner some time?" She asks, a small smirk dancing across her features.

"I would love to ms. Jay." The young boy nods, confirming with her he would meet her again, exchanging contact info before leaving inside of Oya and leaving Jay a lovesick mess, even though she knew Daruma would have a field day giving her shit, all that she cared about was now she loved the rain even more.

A/N: I hope this was alright Rain! thank you again for being my second request and for just being an all around amazing friend. <3

[j2zara]

Hiiiiii~ 2, 4, 7, 10, 22, 24, 30 for the fic writer game! 💖

Hiiiii friend! Sorry this took all day my brain is dead rn

2. a character whose POV you’re currently exploring

Lol i'm banging my head against the wall getting killed by LJ3porter fic so i'm like. Right in Girlfail Ellie J4 POV hell rn!!!! She's so fun and i do think writing for her is both easy and hard in that i enjoy doing it (and tbh i think i default to her pov usually when im in LJ3 mode) but i worry i make her way too sopping wet and pathetic. Which she can be pathetic but i worry im going like. way too sad wattpad girl with her.

4. a story idea you haven’t written yet

OK! I've talked about a few different things before so i'm gonna. Well. I'm two sentences into twelfth night j2 being sent to pursue Jace on Porter's behalf fic so i feel like that counts as "not written yet." I also talk about how. I think doing a reincarnation au for LJ3 or the clones in general would be so fun. i'm not sure what kind tho, the version in which they're all new teachers at aguefort is so fun and kinda stuck in my brain now. Plus i wanna write Barbarian teacher Tiefling!Ellie x Sorcerer teacher Aasimar!J3 like so so so so bad i think it would be such a funny way to have them never escaping the torment nexus. I also think it would be fun to write something abt LJ3 in their friends with benefits era. Or maybe one of their more official "date nights". I think if they got into doing roleplay in the bedroom is would be so so so so so so fucking funny. Like. Pretending the other is stranger they picked up at the bar or something.

7. your preferred writing fonts

Tbh i kinda would like to find a perfect writing font? I tend to default Arial and it doesn't look perfect its honestly kinda offputting but. my strategy is. When I feel like my writing looks so so so busted i switch to Verdana which is closer to the ao3 font so i can better visualize how it's gonna look. And that helps a bit. Idk im sick.

10. what is the longest amount of time you’ve let a draft rest before you finished it?

That's a good question. Actually? A couple years i think? I abandoned my old talentswap for a couple years before picking it up again in college. (tbh my current ch 3.3 is STILL unfinished so i abandoned it again). Tbh i'm not good at letting drafts rest and returning back to them. I either try to power through or end up abandoning it which i don't love

22. do you ever worry about public reaction to what you’re writing? how do you get past that?

I try not to but like. Yeah. I'm stressed basically every time. I joke that when i write original fiction that i have a hoard of angry twitter pearlclutchers that live in my head ready to rip everything i do to shreds but i try not to listen to them. But i'm worried every time. This has nothing to do with how i feel about you guys tbh i wildly underestimate your guys kindness and goodwill just bc im very hard on myself

I was anxious abt IYWD (I was worried it was gonna come across as too soft or too apologetic). I was anxious that nobody would take to Dyke!Jace/Zara in Who Can Blame a Girl, or i wouldn't be able to sell it

I probably MOST anxious of all about Almost (I was SO stressed that ppl were not gonna vibe at all with Bluejay or not gel with the whole "what if the clones were actual characters" , "born to love porter cliffbreaker, forced to do menial tasks for jaceprime" etc etc thought experiment. and i was so so so so so so scared about dropping the nickname Bluejay i was worried it was gonna be completely stupid and i was completely off the mark)

I was anxious abt Biggest Lie (i was worried it wasn't hot enough or maybe too violent or that it was maybe too shamelessly just like. smut lol).

And after Almost i was probably second most anxious about Stay / Leave. It was just a wip i really struggled with and idk it was so.... insular i guess? b/c it was so niche and the wip ended up being SO LONG and kinda emotional and sappy? Like again i think i was having the same doubts i had abt j2 in which i was like what if i can't sell people on this relationship. What if i've failed to convey something sincere. (that one was crazy tho bc i really really really really tried to release it and not care what happened bc i knew only a handfull of ppl would read it and i really really really tried to be cool and for a while i was but it was just hard i was so nervous and i don't think it was anyones reaction is really was just my nerves that were putting me in such a bad and upset mood and then over the next day or two i. I made this joke earlier that like. I PROMISE and hope i'm not overinflating my ego when i say this like i'm perfectly aware that i just write silly smut online but it really was so so so so funny. to see everyone practically overnight be like.... wait. Are LJ3..... in love??? And now LJ3 is like such an integral part of clone lore.

24. how do you recharge when you’re not feeling creative?

That's a good question bc i feel like. When i'm stuck in one medium i tend to just try and distract myself with another so when im bad at drawing i write and when im bad at writing i draw. But thats not exactly recharging. Tbh i do think i need to find better things in my routine that rejuvenate me i think i haven't been particularly good at treating myself well lately

30. share a fic you’re especially proud of

I'm cringe and usually will shill if you want divinity (you're gonna have to go through me) as one of my favorite things i've ever written. But im also extremely confident most of y'all have already read it. I'm very very hard on myself so i swing between thinking the things i make suck and also being like. Fairly proud of all of them.

But idk it was my first ambitious thing i wrote and FINISHED in a long time and honestly? I do think its slightly better than the rest bc the iterations are all reliant on the original so they're very intertextual and repetitive which isn't BAD but. The extra work it took to make IYWD work makes it feel different to me. There's a LOT of stuff in it that i'm proud of that i honestly kind of miss b/c Porter is so smitten for Jace in a way he hasn't been in things i've written in a long time. I'm a softy who likes when jaceporter are soft and kinda in love... sue me... And like. i always feel so self congratulatory talking about the Loving To the Point of Invention Detect Thoughts + Teleport but i really felt good about coming up with that. And i still like the flashbacks a lot. It always feels so embarrassing to admit that i like. Get emotional thinking about the flashback of them on the bed. Sometimes i tailor make a scene just for me. "I promise i'm never going to let anything happen to you ever again" "as a paladin or a barbarian" "both" is like. Such a scene just for me. And I think the ending is good too. "I'll take it. I'll take it all" just felt so. fitting. It's so him getting to hear himself say to porter "i'll take the thing with you that is broken and fucked and full of compromises even if it has to end". Sigh. Sometimes you're an english major and you agonize over being a good writer for like two decades and realize that you might not be as horrible as you think.

(For the record. i think if i were to rank what i've written for fantasy high from fav to least fave, i'd say IYWD, Biggest Lie, Stay / Leave, Who Can Blame a Girl, Almost, Tell Me How, and it feels weird to put Almost that low bc i do like it. Tbh i regret making it so short i think i could've pushed it further)

Anyway!!! This got long winded as hell. Thanks for the asks they were fun to do!

Send me Fic Writer Asks! / Here are the questions!

[whollyjoly]

hi em!! sending positive vibes your way ✨ ✨ thanks for doing the positivity ask game! this is a super cool idea, and i knew i couldn't not stop by to send you an ask :) 1, 3, 11, and 18 !!

hi blu!! 💕💕

im so glad you're enjoying the ask game!! i hope a lil positivity will make everyone smile a little brighter today!

1 - what is your fav part about being in the fandom?

i answered this in a long and sappy way here, because i am a sappy gal apparently 😅

3 - what are some fics that you go back and read again and again?

ohhhh my god i am both so glad and so sorry you asked. fuck. there are so many?? i have an embarrassing amount bookmarked, so i'll try to keep it to a sane amount of one per ship

winnix It Happened One Night by raquelelpillo (M, 7.7k) - the fucking timeloop fic every fandom needs. i've read this fic three times in the last three weeks, i read it again last night and i've never been happier. it makes me laugh it makes me cry lip is an absolute gem in this story, and i LOVE their nix so hard!! 10/10 would recommend

baberoe Baby, You Can Drive My Car by anonymous (M, 16.1k) - Baby Driver AU in the canon era?? i know that makes no sense, but hear me out - babe fucking steals cars in germany/austria and runs errands with the boys?? its that perfect golden vibe in points, the war is almost over and its sunny and warm and beautiful and they are alive, and it is pure shenanigans. i don't think i stopped smiling once reading this fic. if i had a qr code on my tombstone it would be to this fic.

speirton A New Mode of Living by Perpetual Motion (T, 155k) - i mean...what do i even say about this fic. it's everything. you know a fic that completely just defines canon for you? that you read, and then no matter what else you read you can't help but think that it isnt right, because this fic is the canon in your head and nothing can overwrite that?? yeah, this fic is that for me. the most perfect post-war story, i love carwood SO MUCH, i love their ron, i love all their supporting characters (george especially and also mama are such gems!!), and the dog is a metaphor. fuck. i love this story so hard.

11 - songs that you associate with a certain character?

heh i like that you asked me this after we nerded out over sleeping at last songs the other day 😏

(also, i'll try to steer clear of killers songs cause that feels like cheating lol)

Seven Nation Army (Postmodern Jukebox Cover) - this gives me BIG speirs vibes?? the song seven nation army feels very right for him ("i'm gonna fight 'em off / a seven nation army couldn't hold me back"), but the added vibes from the postmodern version just hits so right. is it the brass break in the middle?? maybe. do i love it?? yes i do

Saving Me, Saving You (Ruen Brothers) - is ABSOLUTELY eugene roe coded. like holy shit. "broken me found broken you / while you're saving me i'll be saving you" ?? like are you kidding me?? the absolute power this song has over me, i dare you to listen to it and not feel the urge to do something dramatic and romantic

Agnes (Glass Animals) - if you really want to make yourself fucking sad, think about this song as nix during why we fight (and even sadder if you imagine it being sung from dick's perspective 😭) and fucking SOB like i do every time i hear it ("where went that cheeky friend of mine? / where went that billion dollar smile?" and "your head is so numb / that nervous breath you try to hide / between the motions / that trembling tender little sigh")

Piece of Me (Britney Spears) - look, alton more is That Bitch. not fucking a week in normandy and all everyone can talk about is the gossip about speirs, and more's talking back to him without giving a goddamn shit. he took a joy ride on one of sobel's fucking motorcycles. he snagged one of the most incredible trophies of the war and lied to ronald mf speirs face about it. do you want a piece of him?? more will absolutely look at you dead in the eye and not even blink. "i'm mrs. oh my god that britney's shameless / i'm mrs. extra extra this just in" bitch he IS and he is KILLING IT. and i am obsessed with him for it.

18 - your fav fandom meme?

i mean...we know the obvious answer (bottom text)

BUT i also want to give this post a fucking shoutout because it lives in my head rent free, i literally spent an hour scrolling through tumblr the other day trying to find it for my bf. WHAT MURDAAAA

thank you so so much for stopping by, and im sorry my answer is kinda long 😅 i love that people are enjoying this game so much!! 💕

from this post!

[kristailine]

If I speak my truth, I will be damned

But with the budget Tekken 8 has for story mode, I think they have enough money to include a cutscene of Kazuya and Jun hugging 🧍‍♀️

Like Xiaoyu and Jin had a hug scene in Tekken 6, and tho that's just Xiaoyu's dream, well at least they had a hug scene ????

For kazujun, it's just crickets and dusts over here im crying

EDIT: Hell even Lars and Alisa got their fair share of sappy moments like Alisa jumping on top of Lars like come on now 😭 Kazuya and Jun you better do something istg I have my eyes on you

[maoisarap]

im in full sappy mode rn ilypsmmm

ilypsm2~

[knicks-knacks]

my fics only have two modes, unbearably sappy, or unapologetic smut. this presents a problem with first fics in a new fandom though bc which rug do I pull. do i lead with the kink or do i abruptly dump an entire bottle of hot sauce onto the cake

these are questions im asking instead of writing

[causenessus]

HI MY LOVELINESS!! good morning afternoon or evening!! I HOPE YOUR DAY GOES WELL OR IS WELL! (whenever you read this) and i hope you’ve eaten!! make sure you eat !! you’re actually the cutest like when i first read ur response i was smiling and giggling like UR SO CUTE STOP i miss you tons too my love literally like that other night when i was really tired i was like I MISS NESS SO MUCH so even in my tired state i was writing up a response for you because i <3 you so very much (NOT UR FAULT BTW)(LIKE I GENUINELY MISS YOU SOMETIMES WHEN YOU DONT POST ANYTHING IM LIKE D: I MISS NESS) like i’m like oh she’s probably working or at school so she won’t be active until at night but i miss her very much the aura is different when you’re not around <//3 (in a good way ofc ofc as always) i’m writing this one a bit early today so you can wake up to see it in ur inbox! I GOT SO SAD WHEN YOU WERE LIKE “i haven’t seen anything from mango anon yet” LIKE MY HEART CLENCHED so im writing this one up early for you since i unfortunately have another 9-5 to tend to(GRUELLING GRUELLING SHIFTS) like i literally just came back from my “vacation” and THEYRE SCHEDULING ME SO MUCH HHHH literally blink once if i should quit(i blinked just now)

im really curious now i wanna try almond butter! USUALLY im not a nut person(?) because like my brother has a treenut allergy so we usually don’t have that in the house BUT YOUVE HAD TO SM AND NOW I WANNA TRY! (pokebowl and almond butter now on my try list) ALSO STOP NESS UR LITERALLY THE CUTEST I LOVE YOU TOO <3333333333333333333 (releasing my love and affection through the threes) like you’ve become part of my daily life now where like I DONT EVEN USE MY JOURNAL ANYMORE LOL(i barely used it in the first place) but it feels nice to kind of talk about my day and it’s even better to read about your day! like it’s part of my daily routine now i swear my day goes like

wake up!

eat!

catch up on ness’ blog

catch up on the hashtags i follow

read ness’ response(actually this is funny because i read your response TWICE typically) (i read it when you first post it then i read it again when i write a response)

write response to ness

eat

sleep!

AND I LOVE IT i think reading your response is like the best part of my day because for one i get to learn more about you and two like i just I JUST LOVE READING WHAT YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO SAY LIKE it genuinely makes my day when you write long responses back i read every single part of it and i always make sure im like sitting down so i can fully pay attention to what you have to say like you’ve become such a priority in my life now it’s just (omg i’m becoming sappy too now)(SAPPY SEASON WOOOO) BUT WE ARE SO TWIN FLAME !!! SO SOULMATES SO TWIN FLAME like mango anon is in love with ness everyone mango anon is ness’ (ness’ mango anon forever)

ALSO PLS THE CHEFS AT YOUR WORK?? let me just go guard dog mode here rq like maybe they just think they’re being nice but sometimes it’s weird AND I GET IT because like it’s nice to be appreciated at work or complimented but it’s also kinda weird and uncomfortable because it’s like ermmm okay! you’re old enough to be my father but i’m gonna just try to pretend not to notice that !! fortunately or unfortunately there’s not a lot of men at where i work and i think like idk most of it has to do with the fact that we specialize(?) in women’s clothing so like there’s more women workers but i do have one male manager which is like my least favourite manager LOL not anything he really did but idk i’m just closer with my other managers(there’s 3 in total) because it’s hard to kind of be chill with him like heyyyy sir manager yup everything is fine here! and sometimes i feel like he just has higher expectations for the store but it’s like sir we get paid minimum wage, i will not be breaking my bone for these customers or this store very much respectfully!! BUT HHHH THE WEIRD OLD MEN INTERACTIONS WHEN UR A MINOR?? GET AWAYYYYY like they could be ur father or damn UR GRANDFATHER like AHHHH its so weird and YEAH THE HOUSEWIFE COMMENT LIKE PLEASE SIR PLEASE but also with our name tags its like if you’re 18 and under you get a little sticker that says minor on it now (like i think they started doing that at the beginning of the year?) i still don’t wear it because i get so caught off guard when i hear “have a good day mango anon!” i literally WHIP my head over like ??? oh!! umm!! you too!! ITS JUST WEIRD TO ME LIKE IT SHOULDNT BE?? but i’m also scared of them putting in a bad review for me with my name so there’s that too LOL

I THINK PROPS IS EASY TOO BUT LIKE i meant kinda like it’s more hands on i guess? in a way? like you got to be more involved IM NOT TOO SURE but yeah props and runners were like very very popular when i was in the play and i just kind of assumed it was because they liked being on stage but not really on stage as a cast? if that makes sense? I THINK LIGHTS AND SOUND IS DEFINITELY INTIMIDATING LOL because like one mistake and everyone just looks at the booth (IK WHAT UR TALKING ABT WITH THE BOOTH!!)(also i get the caps like why are we shouting)(I LIKE SHOUTING THOUGH) like the little booth that’s behind the audience with a separate secret little door and like the two windows for the lights and the big window in the middle where the motherboard is (sorry that made no sense) but that’s how my little area looked! for my crew there was 2 people on sound plus the stage manager did help out sounds a bit usually (more like she would stand behind us and loom over us most the time) and lights i think we had like a lot more people but they were all in like the upper years so when they all graduated we just had two or three lights people (idk one of them never really showed up) I HATE WORKING WITH PEOPLE TOO THOUGH! especially if they’re slow because like i know what i’m doing so i’m just there sitting waiting for them to do something and i don’t wanna be arrogant like erm actually it’s this one! SO I JUST SIT IN SILENCE but i swear if i was in theatre with you as my lights duo i would cry(with love) like it would’ve made my experience so much better because literally after my first year i felt like a BABYSITTER LIKE AFTER THE SENIOR LIGHTS PEOPLE LEFT I WAS LITERALLY A BABYSITTER(okay time to stop shouting it is not that deep)(IT IS DEEP TO ME THOUGH) also theatre kids do yap SO MUCH but like sometimes it’s too too much where i miss my cues and the director looks up at our little booth like waiting for the next scene to come on and i literally get so embarrassed LOL but it’s so awkward when the director is literally yelling at a certain group then switches up right after like okay everyone! let’s go from scene 23! LIKE OKAY IM JUST GONNA ACT LIKE IM NOT EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED but oh my god the panic attack?? no because theatre environment is so so toxic like i swear it just automatically comes with being in tech theatre because i forgot if i said this already but one time our director was keeping us late and we were literally HUNGRY because like we didn’t expect rehearsals to go out so late and one of the cast members literally fainted because we didn’t get any breaks!! so it was probably the lights overwhelming her or idk MAYBE THE FACT SHE HASNT EATEN but it was so terrifying and scary then the director was like erm okay ill order you guys pizza let’s all take a break like YOU THINK?? it was so so scary like thankfully she was okay but its like DAMN it takes a cast member fainting to get a break like that’s crazy

PLS WE WOULD LITERALLY DOMINATE AS A LIGHTS AND SOUND DUO IDC!! the professionals can step aside and see how WE do it because i know we would kill it like put us on like phantom of the opera or like hamilton or something LOL(like i unironically love hamilton)(NO SHAME AT ALL I WILL RECITE EACH MUSICAL ON THE TOP OF MY HEAD) also you were 100% right because during show nights she was NOT louder like you did not save anything please get out of here with the vocal rest excuse because miss girl you were NOT LOUDER like i could see the colors on my stage managers face DRAIN when she had her first scene because like it’s so terrible when someone is a good actor but they’re so BRATTY AND STUCK UP LIKE PLEASE!! (the pent up rage is so real because i feel like i could make a podcast and just RANT about this on and on)(i will never forget you shirley holmes actor i still have rage over you)

ALSO THE SHIFTING DISCORD IS SO FUNNY LOL i always wondered if shifting actually worked?? like the discord i joined was just for online gaming so we did a lot of minecraft, roblox, phas! and they moved to VR but i literally was too broke for VR so id always just watch someone stream it LOL or me and sock would just play minecraft(sock if ur out there im still very very sorry)

ALSO OMG I CANT BELIEVE U REMEMBER? like i feel like you get a lot of asks like daily so i was like omg i wonder if she’d remember this like i can not scroll down to find it because i literally just fill your blog now LOL but i genuinely remember being so like IDK I JUST FELT SO SOFT AND LOVING LIKE IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT? i didn’t wanna like bother you or overwhelm you so much but i was like ness seems so piled up with everyone right now i hope she’s taking care of herself and eating :( and that’s what awakened me out of my little mango peel but like LITERALLY UR JUST THE SWEETEST LIKE I KNOW IVE SAID THAT SO MUCH BUT LIKE UR LITERALLY <333333333333333333333333333333 like google what are synonyms for sweet bcuz like real real realness you’re literally one of my favourite people actually i lied UR MY FAVOURITE PERSON EVER LIKE genuinely reading ur responses are the best part of my day and like if some days you are too tired to reply DO NOT EVEN WORRY AT ALL! the main thing i always wanna get across is like i want you to eat and i want you to take care of yourself and have a good day because you deserve nothing but the best! like not everyday can be a good day unfortunately but i want you to have the closest to a good day everytime!

ANYWAYS ITS TIME TO WRAP IT UP AND GO TO SLEEPPP!! but ness literally if i had a genie wish i would dedicate three of those wishes to you like i would wish for you to always have a good day, for you to have good health and GOOD WEALTH!! like i would fish the moon with a measly little fishing rod for you and i would fetch stars for you with my BARE HANDS!! i love you very much and i hope you have the bestest day ever and everything goes well <3333 make sure to eat and take care of yourself!! and you should totally just fly here anyways !! I WOULD BE UR HOUSEWIFE AND FOLD UR CLOTHES PERFECTLY FOR YOU AND GET YOU ALL THE ALMOND BUTTER AND BAGELS THE WORLD CAN OFFER <333 DONT WORRY ABOUT BEING TOO SAPPY OR YAPPY!! there can never be too much sap and yap when it comes to you my love so do not worry at all! you have the bestest bestest day ever and i can’t wait to hear from you again !!! xoxoxo

AAAAAA MANGO ANON OKAY NOW I CAN FRFR SAY I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH OMG I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY??? WHY WAS I SO TIRED OH YES I WAS OUT UNTIL 9PM HOLD ON I MAY DELVE INTO THAT but oh my goodness good evening mango anon i cannot tell you how much i've missed you and the way i've also been formulating my entire response to you over these past two days like yesterday i came home and was like "I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL MANGO ANON" and then passed out </3 BUT MY HEADACHE IS GONE!!! AND I AM ALIVE AND WELL AND EATING "DINNER" (it's 10 pm. it's the same thing i ate for breakfast bc I'M SO TIRED 😭 I'M SORRY MY HEAD IS SO JUMBLED I WILL TRY MY BEST TO MAKE THIS SIMPLE TO FOLLOW!!!)

aaa i literally hate how i've had to move like answering all my asks to like 10 pm at night bc i am just not alive during the day and the THOUGHT that i will be BUSIER september-novemeber is KILLING ME (and actually that's all started already, "that" ofc being my stage managing duties at my old high school </3 CAN U TELL MY HEAD IS JUMBLED I'M SORRY HOLD ON WITH ME I'M HOLDING YOUR HANDS AND KISSING THEM RN MANGO ANON MWAH <33) i hope that your 9-5 went well!! AND OFC DO NOT WORRY ABOUT SENDING IN ASKS BY ANY CERTAIN TIME!! i am just happy to see messages from you everyday (AND OBVIOUSLY ALSO NO PRESSURE TO SEND SOMETHING EVERYDAY!! I JUST LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ANY DAY WE DON'T INTERACT </33 YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW TORN I WAS ON GOING TO SLEEP OR TRYING TO ANSWER YOUR ASK LAST NIGHT UGHHGFHKJDHGKFD)

I AM BLINKING SM RN LIKE WAIT I'M GOING TO DO THOSE 2020 QUARANTINE TIKTOK REACTION EMOJIS 👁👄👁 ➖👄➖👁👄👁 ➖👄➖ 👁👄👁 ➖👄➖ 👁👄👁 ➖👄➖ I AM BLINKING!!! U SHOULD QUIT!! WATCH THE BUSINESS CRUMBLE WHEN THEY LOSE THEIR BEST WORKER 🔥🔥🔥🔥 COME WORK WITH ME AT MY LITTLE FRAME RETAIL JOB!! <333 and in all seriousness PLEASE DO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!! 9-5s are GRUELING so please make sure to take breaks and eat and drink lots of water!!!! and make sure you get proper rest especially after i KNOW u have to deal with so many people i am so sorry for u </3

I'M GOING TO CRY AT YOUR SCHEUDLE AND EVERYTHING OMG HOLD ON WHERE DO I EVEN START <333333333333333333333 I AM ALSO EXPRESSING ALL MY LOVE THROUGH THOUSANDS OF 3S FOR YOU!!!!!!!!! AND YOU'RE SO SWEET I LOVE YOU <3333333333 AND AA!!! i'm glad we're both like influencing each other's food lol 😭 AND I ATE THAT STUPID IMITATION CRAB POKE BOWL AGAIN TODAY BC I'M LITERALLY SCRAPING BY ON LIFE RN AND JUST TRYING TO EAT AS MANY PROPER MEALS AS POSSIBLE and now everytime i eat i think of u!!! <3333 i love almond butter because i hate the taste of peanut butter and just like,,, everything about it,,,, and i DON'T like normal almond butter i love cinnamon almond butter!! it like balances out the really prominent nut taste but idk <3 IF YOU TRY IT LMK WHAT YOU THINK!! but i totally get like your brother having the tree nut allergy and everything!! my dad's allergic to onions so i've just never grown up using/eating onions i'm not used to it at all,, like if a recipe calls for onions i immediately just replace it with more garlic it's crazy!!! AND YOUR SCHEDULE AGAIN PLEASE OMG :((((

mine is something like this:

wake up -> eat -> school </3 -> try and write/read asks -> work -> drive home -> eat -> answer asks (mango anon <3) and try to write -> sleep

it's always try to write bc i'm always SO pressed for time or tired 😭😭😭😭 like jsyk this is the only ask i'm answering today bc i want to finally draft the tonic chapters that were SUPPOSED to come out today if my wifi wasn't horrible AND I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH AND I GENUINELY LOVE TALKING TO YOU SO SO MUCH MANGO ANON I TOTALLY GET WHAT YOU MEAN ABOUT LIKE ENJOYING TALKING ABOUT YOUR DAY AND I ALWAYS FORGET TO JOURNAL AS WELL BUT THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER <3 I LOVE TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR DAYS AND REPLY AND ALL THAT STUFF IT IS SO FUN!!! AND LIKE OFC I LOVE EVERYONE AND WILL EVENTUALLY GET TO THEIR ASKS <3 BUT U AND ME????? WE'RE SPECIAL TWIN FLAMES SOULMATES <333 AND I HAVE BEEN DYING TO ANSWER YOUR ASK FOR LIKE A DAY NOW!!! everytime i go into my inbox and read "hello loveliness!!!" I START KICKING MY FEET AND IMMEDIATELY CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME SO I CAN START DRAFTING A RESPONSE GENUINELY I CANNOT EXPLAIN TO YOU THE AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN MY BRAIN RELEASES EVERYTIME I READ THOSE WORDS!!! i am so obsessed with the nickname loveliness by the way you are so smart and i am so honored and you make me so so happy i love you mango anon <333

AAA PLEASE AND LIKE I GO BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN TWO TABS ONE TO READ YOUR ASK AND THE OTHER TO ACTUALLY START ANSWERING YOUR ASK IF THAT MAKES SENSE?? (or i just scroll up to read whatever part of your ask i'm on next) BUT SEEING HOW YOU TALKED ABOUT US BEING TWIN FLAMES RIGHT AFTER I ALSO MENTIONED IT?????? THIS IS WHAT I MEAN WE ARE SO CONNECTED AA!!! and i absolutely love hearing about your days and learning more about you!!! please i love hearing every detail <3 AND NOW U HAVE TO TELL ME ABOUT TODAY AND TOMORROW SINCE I UNFORTUNATELY WASN'T ABLE TO ANSWER YOUR ASK YESTERDAY!! (no pressure <3 but literally was at work and i was like "I WONDER HOW MANGO ANON'S DAY WAS </333 I HOPE SHE TELLS ME TOMORROW </33333") aaa i cannot tell you how much you genuinely mean to me and how much you cross my mind every single day!!! i literally consider you such a good friend like i love you so so much mango anon i'm so so happy to hear from you <33 (back on sap yap again) YOU ARE MY MANGO ANON FOREVER!!! AND I SWEAR THE WAY WE'RE JUST SAYING THIS ALL TO EACH OTHER 😭😭 LIKE I DIDN'T EVEN READ THE WHOLE PARAGRAPH YET BC I IMMEDIATELY HAVE TO YAP/TYPE DOWN ALL MY THOUGHTS THE MOMENT I GET ONE WHILE READING SO I JUST GOT TO THE PART ABOUT U SAYING I'M A PRIORITY IN MY LIFE RIGHT AFTER I HAD MY ENTIRE YAP SESSION ABOUT YOU BEING LIKE A BEST FRIEND TO ME 😭😭 YOU'RE SUCH A PRIORITY IN MY LIFE AS WELL!! ONCE AGAIN WHY I'M JUST ANSWERING YOUR ASK TODAY BEFORE I SLEEP <33 BECAUSE YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME AND I FEEL SO COMFY WITH YOU YK LIKE AAA JUST EVERYTHING I LOVE YOU SM MANGO ANON <33

and HELP you're so right like some of them are old enough to be my father and even the younger ones....it's still weird... 😭 like i'm not even kidding the watermelon thing was real!!! someone brought in watermelon to my restaurant job and my mom asked if i wanted some and i was like "if u cut it for me ♡" and she did and then this one sushi chef was like "i can cut more for her" and it's this sushi chef that's def had a crush on me since i came back to work there but like.....no bro i don't want watermelon cut by your fishy nasty hands sorry....LMAO I FEEL BAD BUT ALSO I CAN'T BC YEAH THEY JUST STARE WHILE I TRY AND EXIST 😭 I GET THE ICK WITH MEN SO QUICKLY IT'S NOT GOOD

but NO bc like male managers in things like a mainly female clothing shop like girl what r u doing there??? like at least imo i just cannot wrap my head around it like ik u did not become a full fledged adult just to manage a women's clothing place when ur a MAN like i just do not understand it AND I WOULD BE UNCOMFY WITH HIM TOO!!! ALSO THE MINOR STICKERS ON YOUR NAME TAGS???? 😭 i just cannot believe they have to clarify that like i'm not sure if men being creepy is such a problem at your work they have to do that??? but i'm sorry nonetheless 😭 AND I TOTALLY GET IT i remember being in like a target line once (bc self checkout was closed </3) and so it was the guy in front of me's turn to get his items scanned and IMMEDIATELY off the bat he's looking at the cashier's nametag being like "oh what's your name? how do you say it?" and she had to tell him and mind you it's like 9:45 she def just wants to go home and does NOT wanting to be interacting with this sunburned man buying like aloe vera and idk febreeze i forget what the other thing was and then he ALSO told her "have a good night [cashier's name]" LIKE DON'T USE PEOPLE'S NAMES YOU DON'T KNOW THEM IT'S JUST WEIRD??? IDK

AND OMG YES OKAY TECH TIME I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL U BUT LET ME RESPOND TO U FIRST!! OOOO the thing u said about like props people like being on stage but not as actors is CRAZY but SO TRUE like i'm sorry but most of those people are def attention seekers....like not them purposely trying to be seen in the wings and dancing and all that stuff like get out bro (once again unresolved tech anger coming up again) ALSO NO YOUR BOOTH DESCRIPTION MADE PERFECT SENSE!!! I FORGET WHERE I WENT THAT THEIR BOOTH WAS EXACTLY LIKE THAT where was i????? hold on.... OH i think i was at this university i visited when i thought of going to college for lights bc their soundboard was behind the audience but the lightboard and stage manger and like projections were all above in like a booth ABOVE the audience idk how to describe it i'm sorry 😭😭😭

my school was so poor and sketchy like the booth had a door and a sliding window (there were like four levels for no reason bro. so that it was sound proof or something???) and basically like the floor was littered with condoms (unused. they were from our sound people bc we literally put our mic packs in sound packs to keep actors' sweat from ruining them and we have like an infinite amount of condoms bc someone years ago sent it to us as a joke. i one put a condom on my hand so i could unscrew a light bulb that was still hot and put in a red light bulb so we could use it during shows. the condom was not a good glove btw it broke on me ANYWAY), the table our lightboard sat on was NOT made for it so the board like hangs off the counter LMAO and the two monitors we have for it (our board is OLD literally like an element one. she's not advanced at all) barely fit with that giant thing on the counter AND UGH THERE'S SO MUCH SORRY but anyway the counter it all sits on is also way too tall so ig when the school first opened they built this creaky af platform and then screwed in literal auditorium chairs (so like the ones where you push the cushion down you sit down yk??? or else they flip back up IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT SORRY) so like that platform is SO creaky everyone can hear anyone walk across it or just sit up from the chairs OMG IT WAS HORRIBLE AND THEN THERE WERE LIKE THOUSANDS OF TOOTSIE ROLL WRAPPERS IN THE CEILING AND BLACK MOLD SO I ALWAYS ENDED UP GOING CRAZY LIKE I WAS LITERALLY HIGH OFF OF SOMETHING EVERYTIME I WAS UP THERE (people also sometimes like hotboxed in there so maybe i was literally getting high but WHEN I TELL U BRO IT WAS CRAZY IN THERE IT WAS SUCH A SAFETY HAZARD IN EVERYWAY I'M GOING TO STOP YAPPING BUT THERE WAS SO MUCH WRONG WITH THAT BOOTH)

"ERM ACTUALLY IT'S THIS ONE" is SO REAL LMAOOO like i do not have the patience to teach people like i will show them how to do something and if they don't understand....well i'll try my best to explain it but i am NOT sitting thru watching them figure out things they can watch me do it 50 more times at the speed of light and force themselves to understand what i'm doing 😭 (also your stage manager just looming behind u is SO REAL LMAOOAO) AND OMG I FORGOT TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT YES LIGHTS AND SOUND IS SO INTIMIDATING BC MISTAKES ARE SO PROMINENT AND OBVIOUS AND YES LIKE SOMETIMES MY CUES WOULD GET MESSED UP and my director would be like "ness this isn't the right lighting cue mimimiyapyapyap" and i'd be like "I KNOW YOU DERANGED 50 YEAR OLD MAN STFU AND LET ME DO WHAT I NEED TO DO CAN U SEE HOW I'M OBVIOUSLY TRYING TO MAKE THIS A BLACKOUT I DIDN'T NEED YOUR INPUT" (dw this stuff is def deep. like unprocessed trauma that we are getting thru together rn) (mango anon and ness sound + lights duo for the win oml literally) AND IT'S THE WORSE on like the first day of tech week and no one's given me my cues yet so like actors are waiting on ME to bring up lights EVERY SINGLE SCENE or they have to wait for me to write cues and i'm like "I'M TRYING TO GO FAST GUYS I'M SORRY U HAVE TO WAIT FOR ME </333" AND UGHHGHGH HEARING ABOUT YOUR ACTOR THAT FAINTED IS SO REAL AND SICKENING like theatre is so sketchy and like....def not legal/oscha approved (which is a given but like THE WAY THEY KEEP US SO LATE AND NEVER GIVE US FOOD?? THAT HAS TO BE A VIOLATION SOMEWHERE) like i could FEEL that girl's hunger omg i def understand her tho (AND THAT'S WHY IT'S IMPORTANT TO MAKE SURE YOU'RE TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF MANGO ANON!!! I HOPE YOU'RE DOING GOOD AND EATING WELL <3)

LMAOOOAOAOAO WAIT MANGO ANON AND NESS RELIVE THEIR THEATRE TRAUMA/RAGE MOMENTS PODCAST WHEN??????? WHAT IF WE QUIT OUR RETAIL JOBS AND START A PODCAST I THINK WE COULD DO IT AND MAKE MILLIONS LMAOAOAO AND THEN WE ADVERTISE OUR SKILLS LIKE "anyway...since we went thru so much...who wants us....broadway????? hamilton???? u guys looking for new sound and lights people????? we're right here 😌"

ANYWAY LET ME GO ON THIS SIDE TANGENT RQ MB I HAD TO TELL SOMEONE THOUGH AND YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO WOULD UNDERSTAND 😭😭 but the reason i say that my duties for stage managing for my old high school has already started is bc like,,, technically everything starts september 5th but my tech director asked me to come in yesterday, today, and tomorrow BC GET THIS OMG i cannot even sorry like idek what to say but that school and the theatre department and him are SO sketchy like please bro i am a fresh young adult AND MAN HAD ME COME IN TO SUPERVISE HIS TECH CLASSES. MANGO ANON. I WAS SUBBING FOR A CLASS AND I HAVE NO PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCE OR ANY DEGREE OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT I CANNOT BE DOING THAT. like he had an "actual sub" in that class but she handed me his papers bc he was like "yeah he said u were going to be teaching the kids how to use drills" and i was like "oh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃" sorry i am typing this with tears in my eyes because like what is my life bro how do i get into these situations AND YK WHY HE WAS GONE?????????????? HE'S PULLING THE PLUG ON HIS FATHER IN LAW BRO omg. (if any of my irls see this like it would be so obvious who i am BUT IDC BC I'M HAVING A CRISIS RN LIKE WHAT WAS I DOING IN THAT SCHOOL) i can't i'm sorry and like i can't make up any of this either like when i was a STUDENT he would also do this where if he was ever absent he usually just had the "tech mom" of the department in charge bc yk how it is. you join tech and u sign ur life away so i was always in tech classes and then i did tech after school and </333 BUT ANYWAY YES SO I HAD TO TEACH KIDS HOW TO USE A DRILL AND I WAS DYING AND JUST SO ?????????????????????????????? AND THEN THE REASON I WAS SO TIRED YESTERDAY IS BECAUSE I GOT LOOPED INTO HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS FOR LIKE THE ENTIRE DAY WHEN I PLANNED TO LEAVE EARLY BC I HAD A HEADACHE AND WANTED TO WRITE BUT INSTEAD I SAT IN MY CAR WITH ONE OF MY FRIENDS OUTSIDE OF THEIR HOUSE FOR FIVE HOURS AND WE COMPLAINED AND GOSSIPED ABOUT A SINGLE MAN THE ENTIRE TIME (i can't remember how much i've said about him or what u remember and ik it's hard without names and for that i'm sorry but it's the same guy i was talking about that i used to like and was helping me like clean and blah blah blah WHATEVER the point was he had like 10k problems and was hurting EVERYONE around him so we went into great detail and study about that and idk. we connected the dots and realized he was literally just regina george and then found out he's literally said before he kins regina george and like ?????????????? HOW DO YOU KIN REGINA GEORGE??????????????????????????? anyway. sorry. that probably makes no sense but just know ground was broken last night)

OKAY CONTINUING ON bro i honestly have no idea like i never shifted but i have a friend who said she did but like..... who knows..... trust issues xxx LMAOOO THE WAY I RECOGIZED THE NAME SOCK IMMEDIATELY FROM WHEN YOU FIRST TALKED ABOUT HIM I LOVE HOW DEEP THE LORE GOES i also played roblox and minecraft with some of the people on there 😭😭 one of these days i'll pull up screenshots of really funny moments in that discord server bc they're lowk actually funny like let me just tell u one now but basically we had a literal account named jesus christ in that server so this was a conversation in that server once:

random person: i'm going to shift today

jesus christ: u can't do it

random person: what

(JESUS CHRIST MEANT TO SAY "U CAN DO IT" BUT MESSED UP IT WAS SO FUNNY AT LEAST TO ME 😭 AND I CAN'T TELL IF IT WAS BC YK IT'S LIKE JESUS CHRIST, PFP IN ALL, OR THE TYPO)

AND AA YES OFC I REMEMBER!! MY BRAIN IS VERY GOOD AT REMEMBER SMALL NICHE DETAILS <3 AND ALSO YOUR ASKS WERE ALWAYS SO SWEET I COULD NEVER FORGET THEM!!! THEY LITERALLY STAY WITH ME FOREVER AND MAKE ME SO HAPPY <3 the "little mango peel" is SO CUTE AWH AND PLEASE!!!!! YOU'RE MY FAVORITE AND I THINK YOU'RE SO SWEET!!! YOU'RE THE RIPEST BEST MOST PERFECT MANGO OUT THERE MANGO ANON <33 YOU ARE WHAT EVERY MANGO ASPIRES TO BE AND WHAT PEOPLE HOPE TO GET WHEN THEY BUY MANGOS <3 YOU ARE THE BEST AND SWEETEST AND MOST AMAZING PERSON EVER AND YOU'RE MY FAVORITE!!! ik i shouldn't play favorites and like i tried to play it off.....but obv u are like i'm only answering your ask today because i love you so much!!! <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 and i want you to eat and take care of yourself too please!!! i love to hear about what you eat and your days so definitely please always update me!!!!! <3 i hope that you had a good day today!! and i can't wait to hear about it tomorrow hopefully <3

AND HAVE A GREAT SLEEP MANGO ANON!!!! IF I HAD A GENIE I WOULD WISH U COULD FLY TO ME OR ME TO YOU (that might be better. i hate the u.s. also hope this isn't weird 😭😭😭😭) AND WISH YOU ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD AND WEATH!!! AND THEN WE COULD BE LIKE THE MOST AMAZING DUO LIKE HAIKYUU SMAU ROOMATES TYPE BEAT BC ROOMATES IN HQ SMAU ARE ALWAYS AMAZING LIKE THAT COULD BE US!!! i would get the moon and the universe and every single thing for you mango anon i love you so so much!!! PLEASE MAKE SURE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!! I WILL ALSO GLADLY BE YOUR HOUSEWIFE OR GUARD DOG FROM THE CREEPY MEN <33 I CANNOT WAIT TO HEAR FROM YOU!!! YOU'RE THE BEST <33 THANK YOU FOR BEING THE KINDEST COOLEST PERSON EVER <3333 I LOVE YOU <333 AND HAVE THE BEST DAY EVER!!!!!