#im jsut. SO passionate about this

[missazura]

obsession | possession

[cmiyczine]

I, personally, really appreciate the time you're taking to write emails. I think that's an incredibly kind thing to do, and coming from someone who doesn't think they necessarily hold their own against other great artists here on tumblr, it's actually very encouraging. Knowing that someone has taken the time to look at my work no matter what is the kind of thing that will motivate me to apply to similar zines in the future, even if I don't necessarily assume I'm technically 'good' enough for them. So thank you. For taking the time. It's genuinely a very nice thing to do.

While I also respect anon's point about time management, the key is that you've been very transparent so far. You reply to asks and communicate to everyone following you; and I think that also speaks to your character.

Thank you very much for your message. This is exactly the reason why I want the emails to be personalized. The technical proficiency of the artists that have applied varies wildly, but I want everyone to understand one crucial thing. It does not matter. Art isnt better because you know how to render light more realistically than someone else. Art is about the meaning you inbue in it. Stickmen drawings can have a stronger impact than a professional painting because the artist has put their soul in it, and it reaches us and transforms us. Some of my favourite pictures were drawn by people who only draw as a hobby. This is my policy in art and it will never change. As long as you take a pencil, you are an artist. You might think your art is ugly because you dontk know how to draw back muscles, but somebody can reach tears because they get the meaning of your drawing on a level so profound even you didnt expect it. All artists are equal, there is no stupid ass hierarchy, every art is valuable, from stickmen drawing to paintings that took years to finish. If you are a beginner artist, do NOT give up because you think you arent good enoigh. Because guess what ? to someone on this earth, you might be good enough, you might even be an already fantastic artist. You have stories to tell that are completely unique, and you should tell them. People who say that everything has already been said are STUPID. Because the way you express it is what makes it singular and intriguing.

This is what AI tech bros will never understand. This is why Ai images have no future. The soul of the artist is felt in every trait, each stroke is deliberate for the sake of a specific emotion to invoke, and is absolutely unique, no matter how many people have done this before, because you have done this in your name, and in your own way, which will forever remain singular and personal. Your art has value, wether it is a doodle youre making during a telephone call or a very technical commission. There is no hierarchy in art, there is no artist that is better than someone else. There are only artists who have found a voice so unique that it resonate with more people than yours might. And it shouldnt deter you from drawing and telling the stories you want to tell. Elephants have painted. Monkeys and dogs have painted, People without arms or feet have painted. Anyone can do it.

In the 13th century, a kid name Onfim In what is now Novgorod, Russia drew sketches on his homework on bark tree that has been preserved to this day. Today, people have some his art tattoed on their bodies. People share it still, people still laugh at the way Onfim has stylized the human figure.

You can be someone's Onfim.

[todayisafridaynight]

Why do I feel like Mine is a top for anyone but Daigo, for whom he exclusively bottoms?

its because youre right and your brain is huge and you're so so sexy

[thatpunnyperson]

For those of my followers who like optical illusions and geometric art, check out @mokartbox/@awellboiledicicle and their stores. I just got lost looking at their art for 20 minutes and have fallen in love with their pieces "Time Again" and "Petal" (which are both legit breathtaking but for different reasons), so I'm going to get a few pieces from their redbubble store lol

Anyone who's followed me for long enough knows that I feel very strongly about art, so when I say Mok's art diverted my attention and captivated me for 30 minutes While I Was Getting Ready For Bedtime, then you KNOW their art is amazing. Like, there's art that makes you feel things and then theres art that makes you Feel Things, and Mok's art falls into that second category. You may read "optical illusion and geometric" and think "oh it's just a bunch of lines" but when you see the actual artwork, you're like "this is depiciting a scene AND an experience, and the colors and specific shades chosen make me feel Very Specific Emotions" which is WILD and I love when art does that

So, yeah, if any of you who follow me want some really cool (and some incredibly pretty) art, check out Mok's stores and see their designs.

[caruliaa]

hmm girlies we may have acted a bit irrationally earlier this week. lol

[legiterallylunar]

i lied i can't pick a favourite. anyway here's my list of yummy harmonies across the entirety of falsettos!!

so i've realised after writing this that i've basically just written down every time there's overlapping voices LMFAOO it's just cos the harmonies are so good UGH. this is about to be the longest post ever under the cut i'm so so sorry

MARCH OF THE FALSETTOS:

- OOOOOOOOOOOOH!! from four jews i actually cant it's so fun

- five JEWS!!!! the last part of four jews in a room bitching UGHH i lovr it

- will you be my valenTIIIIINE!! in a tightknit family/love is blind. self explanatory. i've been saying this for years (approximately a month). it's so good. i literally cant get enough of it. it's so delicious. this harmony satisfies something deep in my soul

- loove is bliiiind when they all join in and build it up (in the proshot it's the exact moment where jason joins it and the camera zooms on him)

- passion DIIIIIIIES -thrill of first love. self explanatory

- loooooooOOOVE! at the end of thrill of first love YUMMM yum it's so good

- whaat a mess this is this family//photographs cant capture our magic i just love it so much

- whizzerrrrrr!! in everyone tells jason to see a psychiatrist. this isn't my fav harmony if i'm completely honest but it's cool anyway

- late for dinner late again late for dinner late again late fr dinner late again late for dinner late late late late!!!!!!!!!

-I MET THIS MAN TODAY

- RICH MARVIN WHICH MARVIN!!!

- the whole why marvin try marvin bit from in this had better come to a stop UGH

-this had better come to an EEEEENNNNNNDDD!!! (both times obvi. it's so yum)

- honourable mention to im breaking down. she ate that up i love her

- why don't i/you feel alright for the rest of your life (the first time jason and mendel do it together and they go respectively up/down on the harmony) UGH it's so yum

- feel allRIIIIIIIIIIIGHT! at the end of jason's therapy UGH it's so good from the end of please come to our house

- i want- i got- i want it ALLLL from a tight knit family reprise I LOVE IT

- actually all of mendel and marvin in that section ITS SOO GOOD

- four men marching but NEVER MINCING!!

- ALONE IN THE NIIIIIGHT!!!!!!! i just am so obsessed with the way this sounds it's so scrumptious

- marching HOOOOOOME!! i love. i eat it up every time

- life's a sham and every move is wrong!!we've examined every move as we move along!! - chess game. it sounds good. not my personal fav and not one that makes me go WOW but solid and nice and i like it

- you are not required to phooone!! (and basically most of trina and mendel in makinh a home i jsut forgot to write each specific bit down)

- making beliieeeeve!!:(( when whizzer joins in making a home UGHH

- could/should he/she looovee meeeeee?:( it sounds so good omg

- HOWEVER sorry i want to say i don't really like the 'makiiing aaa' harmony that trina and mendel have near the end of making a home i'm sorry it's so dissonant and weird maybe it's a symbolism thing but it doesn't sound right

- not a harmony but !! honourable mention to the key change in the games i play

- pseudo-romantic and sick! from marvin hits trina i love that it's so fast

- we had fiiights and games!, marvin called us funnny names! from marvin hits trina it just sounds so nice in my ears

- help us ALLLL!!!! in i never wanted to love you OH MY GOD. i cant get enough of this one

- he's MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINE! in i never wanted to love you OMG i love this one so much especially with marvins melody over the top UGHHH it's so good it's so so good

- loooooveeee!!! youuuuuu!!!! - at the end of i never wanted to love you

ok that's it. time for act 2!

FALSETTOLAND:

- literally all of falsettoland i love this song as an intro omg

- give these handsome boys a hand!!

- welcome to falsettolaaaaand

- ooooh the 80s!

- (march march march of the falsettos march of the falsettos -what a world we live in) ooooooooooahhoooo!!! swanky lesbians!!!

- congregate in central park!

- what a world we LIIVE INN!!!

- HOMOSEXUALS!

- welcome to falsettoLAAAAAAAAAAND!

- it's about time! it's about time! it's about timeee!!!

- thiiiis is the yeaaar of jason's bar mitzvah!

- THIS IS THE YEAR OF YHE CHILD WHEN HE SPREADS OUT HIS WINGS (god i love this one so much every single time they do it)

- MYYYY CHIIIIIILD

- we'll have flowrrs galooooreee!!

- tuxeeeedooooos!

- WHAT A DAYYYY TO TEMEMBER

- UGH i love the year of the child bro it's so good YUM .

-YAY THE BASEBALL GAME (can you tell i'm doing this act's harmonies in real time while i watch it LOL)

- WE'RE SITTING! AND WATCHING JASON PLAY BASEBALL!

-we really wish he'd take this more seriously.

-up batting! and batting bad!!!!!

- SLIIIIIDE JASON!! SLIIIIIIIIIIIDE

- we're sitting! and watch the kid as he misses we're watching marvin throw kisses!!!

- boys field boys bat boys this boys that watchinh JASON!!

- my life would be! boring as shit.😔

- please god don't let me make the SAME MISTAKE!

- jason hits! THE BAAAAALLLLLLLL

yippee a day in falsettoland

- honourable mention to NOW I JUST SNOOOOOOORE!!!

- and the obvious EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT

- DOO YOU KNOWWWWW!!!!!

- anything you do is alright!

EVERYTHING WILL FEEL ALRIGHT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!!

FEEL ALRIGHT FIR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!

EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT

- what you mean you don't want a bar mitzvah???

how do you think we feel about that?????

- rather than humiliate her killing your mother is the merciful thing to do!😨😨

guys actually i cant deal it's what more can i say. someone kill me. i've gone insane. sorry back to harmonies.

- something bad is haaappeninh.!

- spreading spreading spreeeeaaaadddinngggg!!! ROOOUUUNNDDD!!!! from something bad is happening i LOVE charlotte and cordelia

- the backing 'everything will be alright' vocals after whizzer collapses :((((

- WHIZZER HELLOOOOOOO with charlotte and jason UGH stop i cant deal from days like this

- but toDAY you seem to be! on the way! to recovery!!!!!! with everyone from days like this ARGHHH

- as my heart falls out of SIIIIIIIIIIGHT with trina and mendel OMGG stop i cant . from cancelling the bar mitzvah

- i Looooooooove.. youuu.. with marvin and whizzer from unlikely lovers :(((

- iss it a baaad time!? ...... we'll come iiiiiin! with charlotte and cordelia

-and we need something sweeet!!!

-

- FOUR UNLIKELY LOVERS!!!!

- LEEETS PRETEEEEND!! THAAAT NOTHING!! IS AWWFUL:(

- actually i cant list it all. it's just all of unlikely lovers ITS SO CUTE i cant deal im sobbing on the floor.

-LOOOOOOOOOVEEEERRRRRRRS

special honourable mention to you gotta die sometime obvi

- the WINE is very soothing!!!! from jason's bar mitzvah

- everything is lovely..!:(

- i feel more helpless than i have in years...!

- but he looks... like marrvinnnn!!:(

- and godchild to the lesbians from next dooor!!!!!

omg kill me now it's what would i do

- WHAT MOORE CAN I SAY!

-AFTER BEINV SCREWED OUT OF TODAY

- TELL ME WHATS IN STORE

- ONE HOUR ONE HOUR MOREEEEEE

- IF I HAAAD NOT SEEN YOU

- WHO WOULD I FEASSSTT MY EYES ON

- once i was told that good men get better with aaaage.!!:((

guys actually kill me shoot me in the head i cant go on anymore.

i'm done i'm gone i'm dead and buried. send help

anyway that's it hope u agree (or disagree please talk to me i need to discuss). yay falsettos!

[wickjump]

HI OMG I JSUT READ UR CROSS YAP IT WAS SO GOOD STOP AHBDHSBDVF WAS KICKBGB MY FEET THE ENTIRE TIME I READ IT U ACTUALLY MADE MY DAY U DONT HAVE TO ANSWER THIS IM JS HERE TO GUSH APPRECIATION AT U CCMRBSHSHC I LOVED SEEINV UR PASSION LIKE U FR LVOE CROSS AND I AM SO HERE FOR THAT YESSS💥💥💥 UR SO FUCKING RIGHT ON EVERY POINT U MADE ABT HIM AND UR GENUINELY INSPIRING ME TO DRAW AND INTERPRET AND THINK ABT HIM MORE SO LIKE TYYY OMG PPL LIKE U R THE REASON IM ABLE TO CHARACTERIZE AND INTERPRET CHARACTERS I LOVE SO TY 💙💙💙 I APPRECIATE U POSTING THAT IK IT WAS PROB A DRAG TO WRITE BUT IT RLY MADE ME HAPPY SO YEA

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!! aww man i almost DIDNT post it because the writing tool i used collapsed BUT it autosaved which is the only reason it’s here now LMAO!!!!!! honestly i had a lot of fun with it, cross is my fave boy and i love him to death, even if most people only seem to like him at face value and don’t look into the intricacies of his character,, he’s my boyest of boys and he deserves the world!!!!!!!! i love rambling about him but my ramble jar is empty right now so it’ll take a bit for me to mindlessly rant like that again. BUT I RLLY ENJOYED IT and im glad people did too!!! honestly the fact anyone stayed and read it all is wild to me, thank u guys

[descendantofthesparrow]

What is so wrong with the Rise of Red?

mmmmmmmmm alot, its a clear cash grab, which hey its disney, it keep saying its a continuation from the main 3 movies yet its CLEARLY a soft reboot, it looks so cheap even though i know these fucks have some sort of budget to make it look good enough(the jewlrey, the designs in general, everthing looks plastic and fake unlike the main movies where the fakest thing was Ben's crown, i mean they made harry a REAL metal hook!!!! with little designs on it and everything!!), it just feels like it lacks the passion and effort the main 3 movie had, which even if d3 was a shit show-it FELT like lots of passion was put into it from all the actors and the set design and even just the little details of outfits and other stuff, rise of red jsut feels...cheap and theres some stuff that one of my actor friends(ifykyk) said about the casting stuff and other things that also soured the whole thing becuase they were awful and just-werent doing anything right.

it just feels like such an unessecary addition and i really wish they would just say ';'hey! this is a soft reboot!' and honestly THAT would make me complain less but they're trying to make it seem like its a direct continuation somehow even though Uma/china is the only returning cast and the plot feels lazy the costumes are lazy and the fact that they made it seem like dara renee was goign to be chloe at the annoucment thing last/two ish years ago and on the first insta post of it and then suddenly she wasnt chloe anymore and i feel like thats fucking weird as fuck becuase they instead casted a lighter skinned and skinner girl to play chloe and dara was recast/cast as Ursula's sister and im like....thats WEIRD

idk just from teh start d4 wasnt something the franchise needed, it ended with d3/the royal wedding, d3 was okay enough to be closure for the series and feels like an okay enough ending for the francise but they just keep milking it and milking it to the point where its just not fun anymore-rise of red doesnt look fun, we got no behind the scenes, not even from teh actors-unlike d3 where we got a WHOLE production for behind the scenes and just that alone makes me like d3 becuase it looked so fun to make! everyone had so much fun making it! and yet for rise of red-or pocketwatch as it was known-we didnt even know they finished/started filming until we got a random post saying it was a wrap??? like-no bts? no songs? no fun moments with the cast? no teasers?? nothing?????

idk i just-am not excited for this movie and i dont think im gonna watch it, maybe watch a few scenes on youtube and def listens to the songs and look at all the outfit designs, but im not interested in watching this shit show for...whenever it comes out, it just very much feels like not even the production was fun and if the production insnt fun, the movies not gonna be fun.

[grasslandgirl]

I genuinely can't comprehend the level of discipline it takes to hold back a 100k+ piece until it's completed. In vague terms if needed, what scene in noble pining are you most excited for people to read?

awww thank you!!!! i've just found for me personally that like. i tend to get blocked on wips and jump between projects really frequently depending on what i feel interested/inspired/motivated by at any given time. and a big motivation for me in my wips is like. getting to a point where i can post and share this thing that i'm working on!! and i've found that when i post multi chap works as i write them instead of finishing and posting all at once, i tend to give up on them halfway through because it's weirdly easier for me to abandon a wip i've half posted than it is to abandon a wip in my docs forever-- maybe because i feel like it's easier to go back to an unposted wip than one that people have already read?? idk there's not a clear a-to-b reason it just. is how my brain works skfjnsb

so yeah. ive been working on noble pining for three years now, and i've gone like. over a year at times and not worked on it or touched it all !! and a step i take when im blocked is to go back and reread and workshop and edit old chapters, so the whole thing is a little bit fluid and always under progress, even chapters i wrote back in 2020 !! i ike having the option to go back and change things early in the story to suit what i'm actively working on later in thes tory, and ifeel like i wouldn't like having to go into ao3 and edit an already posted chapter if i needed to <3

all this to say, it doesn't really feel like self control to not post noble pining until it's done, that's just always been the plan from the beginning- even before i knew how long and involved this story was going to end up being!! and i don't think i ever anticipated having so many people be so excited for an invested in this story !! in my head, noble pining was always jsut for me as a silly little passion project and for my close friends who i'd bully into reading it for me; so the fact that there are people on here that are enthusiastic about a story just from what i've blogged and talked about it is amazing to me forever <3333

ALSO. its not a full scene but my aelwyn pov chapter is one of my favorite things in the whole of noble pining thus far, it makes me crazy to think about and reread it, and so i'm sosooo excited for people to get ur hands on it :))

[strawberry-selfships]

don’t wanna be weird in the j jonah j blog notes so I’m just making a separate post to ramble . I uhh I think it was literally last night I was like “FUCK jjj isn’t real.” (wishing I could be held and loved) (got dramatic about it) and then seeing that post all “OF COURSE IM REAL” just made me smile sooooooo fucking wide. he is real !!!! :) ❤️

it’s jsut so nice that jjj is. idk. a thing im this world that i can think about. like .. idk. his passion, his little niceties. hes really wonderful

[gayspock]

ehrm

you know thevery day self involved spiral rant etc etc here it comes. i odntknow. billionand one fucking messages of reinforcement that just dont help because none ever apply, all ever make me feel worse; most are usually insanely patronising as a result or just rub it in how littlethere is to live for cuz if therewas just one fucking thing mabye it wouldnt be like this. whatever and a bit.

i jsut feel so fucking emtpy. i dont fucking care about any of it. i dont know. at least somepeople have something they careabout. im alone. i dont know what to do. i dont have any interests. theres nothing ilike doing. theres nothing imgood at. even if idid try to survive what do ifucking spend my time doing. itjust all feels like a miserable fucking slog . nothings worth it. i feel fucking sick withmyslef all the time. i keep trying to find things. i just fucking tire myself out and get miserabel no matter the approach. i dont fucking know.

i think about dating apps andabout meeting new people. its likeidontknow how to talk about it any more. i feel so embarrassed. like itsnot just loneliness because im alone. but ialso know realisticlaly theres nothing for me to try and talkto people about . just basic questins like how do you spend your time. i dontfucking know. i just spend it trying to make it all fucking go away and i hate it. the onlyway i can fucking cope half the time is just trying to not think about it and thats the only fucking thing there is and idont rememberwhere any of the days have gone and ive spent so manyyears at this point in fucking limbo and i fucking resentevery second of it.

and theresalways fucking something. likesome corny fucker and im sorry for being mean but i cant fucking. ugh. like just let go~ just make ugly art~ just do things imPEErFeCtLy~andfeel it~ ^_^ ,. like dude i dont fucking feel anything ijsut fucking space out i cant connect with anyofit its like onehand in front of the fucking oteher i try to go out i reallyfucking do i try to dothings i fucking feel myself justmiserable there and just wanting to go homewhere no one can see me again ebcause ihate it and thatslike the fucking shameful thing its alwyas the like

yeah. yeah nobodylikes you because theres nothing to you. youre a fucking blank and emptyfucking husk of a person. why cant you just grow up and develop into something. i dontfucking know. i fucking hate all of it. im fucking miserable. im just fucking miserable and i thinkthats all i can be . and itsnot nice . its not nice. itsalways jsut sthut up stop being fucking miserable be better . likeyoudont think i treid that . i jsut burn out. i feel so fucking phony adn fake and sick iwth myself and i tfeel like everyone else can tell. i dontknow. i fuckinng wish i hadany fucking modicrum of fucking passion or lvoe or whatveer the fuck inmy body but i think im just a negative fucking space and its jsut draining and i hate living and its like i wish i coudl bepropeely like toxic or there as soemthing genuinely fucking rancid and its jsut fucking seepsinto everything and i cant conenct with anyhting and i jsut

you know like itsreally embarrassing and dumb actually like how areyou so uncultured howhave you not read this seen this watched this done thais hadthis whatveerhtis i force it down my throat somethingsomething try to bea fucking human for once i feel like im crying all the fucking time lets pretend i gaffff for some approvalthat never comesbecause i cant feel itmyself no matterhow hard i trryyyyy but what but what god i dontknow i fucking

its likestupid shit likeart. god i fucking hated drawing i fucking hated writing i fucking hated singing when iw as younger i fucking hated school i fucking hate sports i fucking hate spending time withpeople i fucking hate being alone i fucking hate eveyrthing every time ifucking do anything i just want to smash it up because i hate it i wish i fucking didnt i jsut fucking hate every fucking singel second of being fucking alive what is theretolive for why wouldyou want that why wuld you fucking bother and the only fucking solution peopleowuld ever suggest is. dont hate it. just dont. but thatshwat i do. i cantmake it stop i cant make it stop ifeel like im fucking running on fumes and fuckingjust forcing it so hard and everyones like HAHAHAHAAHAH JSUR FORCE IT! FORCE IT FO RUS! IT'LL HAPPEN EVENTUALLY!! YOU HAVENT DONE IT WNOUGH! YOU GAVENT FUCKING TRIED HARDENOUGH!!! and itdoesnt matteryoure alone and crying and fucking hateit even more in the end because its too fuckignhard to keep oding it and i cant i fucking cant care i cant fucking car eany more you do nothing but fucking zone out youexist in your own littlefucking world and try not to exist and nobodu would ever want that you dont want that is anyone crazzzzyyyyy i dont know why im alive i dont know why im alive so much i feel like itsjust never worth it its never been worht it imjsut desperate and uckign begging it for to notjust be this FUCKKK BROOOO LOL

[hearts401]

ehhhm question time /nf

for the "ppl trapped in a train that never stops" thing where were they supposed to be going? Do you know how many people or main characters you want there specifically? if so what are they like/do they have backstories? how are uehhm .what do they do abour it

OH IM SO GLAD U ASKED ABT THAT ONE SPECIFICALLY

im thinking each of them were going somewhere different. but the one thing that connects them all is strong emotions of some sort. specifically like passion. someone who just got a bad call and is now super angry, someone whos sad, someone whos happy, someone whos scared, ect. and at some point they find the other people in their train are gone, and theyre in a new, much older looking train iwth different ppl.

i havent worked out each individual character but we do have hte conductor, who appears to be the youngest character there. she looks about 14 or so, and greets everyone casually. shes a strange little thing, and the only consistency is that shes brutally honest about the train. about herself? not so much. they dont even know her name. so they call her Conductor.

the main characters i have for now are all unnamed, so im giving htem temporary names. but theres a few college students, a girl (Jessie) who lost someone close to her and was ont he train to go to a funeral, and a boy (Rene) whos twin brother went missing a while back and was never found, hed been on a train back home for his college vacation. and then theres a girl (Rhea) and her guy friend, (Ivan) both of which had an argument on the train. theyre the only pair who know each other. therye also not. doing that great LMAO

i was thinking of having a doctor (Abel) as well, whod gotten on a train home after losing a patient, a mother (Mia) whod just divorced her husband, ect. nothings set in stone tho.

there are other ppl on the train too, not all of them innocent, and not all of them good people. but each of them want to escape the train. and the best way to do that is to get to the conductor's car and stop it themselves but thats easier said than done. the conductors not jsut gonna let them leave, yknow?

and ofc strangers dont always get along very well, especially when they were already riled up abt smth before getting there

[halo-lll-odst]

HELLO WTF UR OCS ARE SO COOL IM GOING TO EXPLODE. HOW R U DOING THAT LIKE UR SO GOOD AT TRADITIONAL AND ?? DIGITAL ART LIKE DAMN !!! ARE YOU LIKE PROFESSIONAL OR SOMETHING ANYWAYS HAPPY NEW YEAR. EPIC ART. KEEP IT UP WOO

ARE YOU THE PREVIOUS ANON? WHAT THE FUCK? WHO ARE YOU???? YOU ARE SO NICE???????????

THAKNYOU IM JSUT. REALLY PASSIONATE ABOUT WRITING AND ART AND I'M NOT A PROFESSIONAL!!!! I JUST REALLY LIKE CREATING!!!!!

[mumuqings]

hi yams. hope you find a cool boredom buster. im doing the one thing i swore i would never do which is watching BNHA. so far its kind of like eating salt by the handful where i hate every second but can't stop. other than that. i had a fun conversation a few weeks back with a friend about what animals the mp100 cast would like. i feel very passionately about mob loving sharks and isopods. the shark thing is from sharks being MY special interest (i think hes really like baby lemon sharks because theyre born and partially raised in mangroves!! so cute. those and cookie cutter sharks, because they remind him of dimple.) the isopod thing jsut makes sense. tell me he isn't roly-poly-esque (pill-bug-esque depending on the region you live in). shigeo autismyama.

shigeo autismyama SO TRUE!!!! I just looked up baby lemon sharks and they are. so cute??? so friend shaped??? I also think mob would be really into them!!! I also looked up the cookie cutter shark and the fact that they would remind him of dimple is sending me lmao that’s so endearing of him actually. isopods also make so much sense, round boys for the round boy :’) speaking of special interests, one of my main interests for a really long time was dinosaurs, and this just reminded me that months ago I had planned to draw smth w/ mob and ritsu looking at dinosaur fossils at a museum… maybe I’ll pick that up again…

also omg bnha… tbh I was really into it a few years ago, but haven’t been able to pick it up again yet. I’m obsessed with how you described it as eating salt by the handful tho lol I’m adopting that into my vocabulary immediately

[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] seeing that ask answered and speeding thru 382983 mph reading and the questions and i go >:] cracks knuckles eats em like french fries i read the answers and honestly i have no brains to answer back What than just to handshake back 4 times and it rlly made me happi!!! ALSO QUESTIONS TIME FOR ME TO ANSWER DAMN?

a) i dont think i have like a main?? but like back in 2.7 it literally. got me back to Loving xiao to the extent I Am Now and its my whole personalith for the 848274th time so i took every chance jsut to have him in the team so i can hear his jp voice (i am very biased at his jp voice i can never unhear him and im not regretting it) so like hes now the Main Guy in my exploration teams ever with yelan nahida zhongli peepaw and i think the others speaks a lot too LMAOOOO

b) the ones mentioned alrd part of the lil list of i will die for them forever <33 and those in my past asks too like the chasm crew gets me Thinking of them no matter how i Dont Know them a lot more than theyve shown themselves (or i jsut didnt bother to be chronically obsessed 2 read them I LOVE SHINOBU AS SHE IS BUT DO I WANNA GO TO HER HANGOUTS AGAIN AND PICK EVERY SINGLE ONE OF HER LINES FOR LORE IDT SO i kiss my love <33) tho ei is that kind of Fav more like that i can understand her flaws even if its unjustified and she can be a bit childish so i just. Look Away sometimes now that wanderer got his own solace and have a new life with nahida whos a way better caretaker/friend (i will Die for their dynamic), i still get a lil irritated of the asian mom memes she gets put in too. the lil hcs of her with xiao is very much the silly self indulgence i like and separates her and the shogun cus i still think she has her twin's influences!! just Bad at social cues (unperceives her first story quest tho. that is not the Bad At Social Cues or Living in general that im looking for they dumbed her down So Bad) ANYWAYS did u know i missed albedo's banner once and i spent a year mourning endlessly worse than xiao until his rerun and got lucky in 40 pulls if xiao is for lumine then albedo is for ME. kazuha my beloved wanderer i would put him in a burrito blanket but will also willingly throw him off the cliff for the fucking snarkiness he has. venti has an entirely special place in my heart like another category like i do for xiao and lumine and zhongli bc hes. idk!! i think hes a very Comfort guy to me that i look so far past his drunkard ehe flirty femboy common perception of him, which is how i got too passionate on that one unpublished too. hes not the Little Guy type of comfort hes the 'he has this indescribable feeling of closeness and comfort and warmth i want to have in someone that i will meet one day', and i could go On and On about the little things ive thought of him while at the same time i dont focus too much to dig his canon lore!! more like, i pick off the important ones for sure and can already see the core parts of who he is and stick there :((( <3 the major thing is that i love seeing him as a love-all typa guy with no preferences as a god of freedom and his vibes are just so. aspec. so aro so ace he Doesnt Care more than he cares for everyone. which is why the ships can Tick Me Off esp the most famous one!! LIKE JEEZ!!! anyway Again the guys i Find Cool and digging thru my brain 2 remember rn; diluc (my lil tall gentleman) kokomi (queen) dehya (i just dont like her exposed midriff design can u feel) jean (her and diluc kaeya as a trio is Such A Dynamic!! i love trios!!) klee (actually id die for her too for being the canon sib to albedo) qiqi (the same for being the Headcanon sib to xiao) alhaitham (asshole. also ive delved into analyzing a Little of his character and i like his sense of neutrality to some things) kaveh (his Fucking Existence being a funny spectacle + i only focus on his briefcase friend Mehrak) THERES PROLLY MORE BUT IM NOT SURE IF I CANT RMB

c) ppl say mondstadt feels very homey and since its the first region we're introduced to i can agree!! and its home to a Lot More Mystery regarding the traveler since its the least explored i still think about the upside down statue a lot. but i cant rlly say if i have a Certain favourite that doesnt tie to my favs than my personal taste (the chasm rlly ingrained a Permanent Influence on me regarding sentimentality of loss) so i cant rlly choose!! liyue's got my boy and his peepaw + chasm, inazuma is the start of Really Great World Quests despite how hard it is to thru the region in general + enkanomiya is so Pretty and such a concept, sumeru has the same reasons and the caves are Irritating before the underground layouts are finally integrated in their official interactive maps. i just like to explore!!

d) idt i have much expectations that doesnt feel Petty like the ongoing issue of hyv prioritizing aether as their poster boy that lumine barely has any official work EVEN as the abyss sibling, 'both twins canon travelers' my ass. i think i would very much like a trading system but i Can understand why that wont work profit-wise for hyv BUT BELIEVE ME NOW NY SOLE REASON FOR IT IS JUST ME NEEDING SWEET FLOWERS FOR MY SWEET DREAM ALMOND TOFU HOARDING. i need sugar so bad. i have 300+ in the making i can never reach 1k. i need another xiao-centric quest cus lantern rite doesnt rlly center him and the chasm was a cultural reset But I Get that chasm occuring once is exactly why ir should stay that way to be Infuential and not repetitve and def not abt xiao being hyv's favourite guy SO HOW ABT BRINGING ALBEDO LORE BACK THIS YEAR. nahida venti 2nd story quest when. i think they should buff the traveler so much they shouldnt be ranked B as any role of a team!!! it's kinda sad theyre fun At first in sumeru then not anymore. i think thats it atm!!

note to self swap to jp voices if you ever get xiao. just looked up the voice and OHHHHHHHHHHH MY GOD DO NOT BLAME YOU ONE BIT WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK. suddenly i am down bad oh my GOD.

and with yelan nahida and zhongli oh my god i Love that for you so bad that sounds like such a funky little crew..........

CHASM CREW <33333 shinobu especially youre so real for that like ohhhh my god. oh my God. love her so bad. fully understand ei being the fave tbh and also understand the looking away, im so mad at how they handled her story quests and her writing she deserved SO much better but the concept at least is There to think about and build off of and i love that for her... HAVING HER TWIN'S INFLUENCES so fawking good god i LOVE that.

"if xiao is for lumine then albedo is for ME" THIS MADE ME CACKLE I LOVE THAT FOR YOUUUUUUUU albedo is so. my baby my babyyyyyyyy. kazuha is my everything his Snark is also my everything i love him so bad for it hes soooooooo.

and venti !!!!!! venti. on god venti gets done SO dirty SO frequently i fucking LOVE the way you talk about him like. "he has this indescribable feeling of closeness and comfort and warmth i want to have in someone that i will meet one day" HELLO ???????? FUCK YEAH. and the love-all super aroace vibes YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS idk man IF youre gonna make him all flirty. at least make it flirting as a form of banter/teasing/friendship and still super aroace on top of it likeeeee <- says girl who is super aroace and flirts so fucking much with her friends. um. oops. Anyways. DONT BLAME YOU ONE BIT FOR BEING TICKED OFF im gonna think about this forever now im obsessed.. venti aroace KING............ bc yeah no the little guy ehe flirty drunkard is so. mmmmmmmmmmmmm. he's a whole ass character with a whole ass personality and a god on top of it GIVE HIM SOME FUCKING CREDIT GIVE HIM SOME RESPECT CHARACTERIZE HIM BETTER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (sent the venti bit specifically to one of the besties while writing this and pls know that they were so excited and enthusiastic and think you are so very based like they already ready most of the asks/answers but this especially made them so <333 it made Both Of Us So <333333)

diluc <333 KOKOMIIIIII she just like me fr. like so different in a few ways but So Similar in so many others i have so much love and respect for her... the healing the jellyfish the pastel vibe the being held to impossible standards still doing her very best to live up to them wanting nothing more than a) to not have to deal with people but simultaneously b) to make everyone happy.... DEHYA IS SO GOOD and huge agree on the design like. okay. w/e. thanks mihoyo. JEAN DILUC KAEYA TRIO BEST EVER I LOVE THEMMMMMMMMMM jean <3333333333333 klee my best friend klee.... another of the besties is a HUGE klee fan and i love her sm because of it i know so little about her and yet i would do Anything for her ever. qiqi my Everything absolutely feel you there, ALHAITHAM AND KAVEH ARE BOTH. together and separately god they are so fucking stupid i adore them. YOU ARE SO VALID I CAN NEVER REMEMBER FAVES PROPERLY ITS SO DIFFICULT THERE ARE SO MANY AND THEY ARE ALL SO BELVOED

no because ive accepted that hoyo way prefers aether traveler lumine abyss sib but. the way there's just So Much More Aether Content Than Lumine Content. idk man IDK MAN......... fucked up. im coming to terms with it and i almost prefer it just bc it gives me more creative freedom with lumine characterization but also man. MAN. TRADING SYSTEM WOULD BE SO GOOD IN SO MANY WAYS ON GOD id kill for that shit. characters weapons materials mora w/e id LOVE that so bad. let me gather ridiculous amounts of resources for my friends itd be so fun....

would KILLLLLLLLLLLL for another xiao-centric quest holy shit ohhhhh my god. give me my boyRight Now. AND ALBEDO LORE AND SECOND STORY QUESTS FOR NAHIDA AND V ENTI SO FUCKING REAL !!!!!!!!!!!!! BUFFED TRAVELER EVEN MORE REAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even if the traveler was like. idk a fawking healer. but a good one. id kill for that if ur gonna make the traveler more support make the mthe Best SUpport Ever Please they are my everything i want them to be the bestest <3 as someone who protjects onto the traveler and loves healer roles i am definitely not biased at all. not even a little bit. smile

why do you have the best thoughts ever i love hearing All of this i am exploding as we speak. on the ground in a million little pieces. blowing away on the wind. landing in the sea. evaporating into thin air. eventually falling down as rain. repeat. sorry my brain is fried again i am about to take my silly little adhd meds crack my knuckles and Get To Work

[hopeheartfilia]

My brother asked me if id like Gen as much if he hadnt asked for a cola when joining. I said probably. (i have a cola problem)

were now on season 2 of dr stone. I have a lot of thoughts, ive tried making a post about if before but i lost the plot

anyway, i like it

It took some time to grow on me, the first few episodes had moments where id just go "i think id rather be watching ascendance of a bookworm" which. different flavor of anime but it was in large part a consequence of the basic survival part of it

My father has had a passion for survival content for most of my life. I knew too much so i was comparing it to bookworm, which covers things i know a lot about in a way i find entertaining. But the thing is shounen characthers just sometimes take a bit longer to grow on me and thats fine and normal, the hook doesnt tend to be the same and thats fine

I really love the characthers and thats what was needed. Senku is great, and personality wise i just. Adore guys who are like Im a terrible selfish person. Also i care so much for my friends. I dont have normal people morals. But i do have my own very specific morals. I find it relatable. Also while he is focused on the branches of science ive left off (im more of a. biology, psychology, culture, philosophy sort of person.) (not that i dont love chemistry and physics, my grandmother is a chemist and my grandfather is a physicist) (i jsut feel like ive gotten behind on it) (it did hit at a good time, i had juat recently gotten really intresting on how nuclear fusion worked on the quarks side) (basically im getting back into science and its nice having something to do with my brother that is connected.)