#im just not good at responding to compliments you’ll have to forgive me

[cozytownz]

just a small appreciation post to people that reblog my art & talk in the tags

i hope you guys know it really makes my day to read them

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Request: Love is Not Enough Part 3

You smiled to yourself. You never thought it but now you couldn’t ignore it. This was a love story. A painful one, but a truthful one. Love wasn’t always easy. Love wasn’t always enough. It was work and your love for Alistair certainly went through the battle. It was work and pain. No tears but many moments you wish you could have, just to release some of the pain. There was anger, sorrow, disappointment and the most difficult thing came last. The ability to forgive ever single second of it. The hurdle that you usually couldn’t overcome. Each day you waited for the hurdle, knowing you’d give in and consequently, break Alistair's heart.

You hadn’t spent so much time with the Cullens as when Renesmee was born. You and Bella got along well, not to mention Renesmee loved you. It was unspoken that sooner or later you’d be leaving but Esme always somehow convinced you to stay just that little bit longer. Esme was built to be a mother. That you were sure of. Knowing of your predicament with Alistair must have made her insist that you stayed so she could keep an eye on you. 

Like it was rehearsed, Alistair contacted you to tell you he was coming. It had been a few months since you had last spoken and you didn’t really know how to approach the knowledge that you’d see him in a matter of days. 

Let’s be honest, the one bad thing about being a vampire...minus the essential murder, was trying to look horrendous and run down but instead looking like a super model. It doesn’t pass of the ‘im suffering’ element. That meant more effort to look a mess but the vampires genes won’t cooperate and simply just makes you look better. Even Esme complimenting your appearance as she passed. Not the look you were going for. Turns out neither human nor vampires could win the battle of getting your face and hair to cooperate. 

Emmett didn't seem to notice your frustration, or he didn't care. He continued to pester you over clothes. You didn't listen to the details to busy wondering how you were going to deal with Alistair but surprisingly, Emmett's constant ranting made you snap. “Look you’ve collected more money than any human could in a life time, just get lost and by something expensive.” You swatted at him. Emmett seemed to find it funny, hands up in surrender and backing away. You huffed, ruffling your hair once again. "It'll be fine! I'm sure you two will work it out." Emmett then assured you. “Do not make me an optimist. It’s the last thing i need right now and you’ll ruin my life if you do.” You said pointedly, eyeing Emmett.  “Oh come on, (Y/N)! Cheer up!”  “No, my life will be forever depicted as the sad face emoji.”  “What’s an emoji?” Your eyes widened a fraction. It was a new voice but you knew it well. Alistair. You turned to see both Carlisle and Alistair in the doorway. Slowly you rose to a stand, all of your emotions hitting you without notice. 

After a moment of staring, you hurried to him, arms held out before hugging him tightly, so much so he staggered back slightly. He didn’t hug you back but accepted the hug, that could have been seen as a kind gesture since it was Alistair. However, you wanted to call him a particular body part and kick him in the shin. He seemed to enjoy making your reunions so awkward you would rather impale yourself than endure another minute. It made you wonder just who the hell the universe was trying to impress? Was this supposed to be funny? Surely you were being forced into this painfully awkward situation twice? 

That was how things worked for a few days, both of you dancing around the subject...if dancing meant pretending it never existed. That was until the Cullen’s left for a hunt, leaving you two alone since Bella, Edward and Renesmee were already in their cottage. 

You both sat beside each other silently for a moment. It’s awkward. Why is that your only word to describe every encounter with him?  “Its a smiley face...a sad face specifically.”  “What?” Alistair sounded irritated by the break of silence.  “An emoji, you asked me a couple of days ago. Its an electronic picture of a sad face.” Alistair gave you a look of ‘who cares?’ Clearly not him. “Stop it.”  “Stop what?” You furrowed your brow in confusion. “Your internal dialogue! I can see it on your face, it’s practically screaming. Stop it.” Yikes. He’s more than observant. Maybe that’s his gift. Or your face was like an open book, whichever comes first? You turned to Alistair, smiling in attempt to lighten the mood. “Do you know what the wolf nicknamed Renesmee and it’s actually stuck?” Alistair stayed quiet.  “Nessie, as in the Loch Ness Monster.” It took a moment before Alistairs mouth twisted, trying not to smile. “Don’t make me laugh!” He cried out after his internal battle...which did remind you of constipation.  He put his head into his hands and you couldn’t help but make a face to yourself, perhaps Alistair had lost a few screws after you left. 

“Are we going to keep ignoring this?” Your eyes widened slightly. “Ignoring what?”  “Us. You. Me.” He made a noise of frustration. “You are the most annoying addictive person i have ever met!”  “...I don’t know if that’s a compliment or not?” “Take this seriously! This isn’t a good situation!”  “Yeah, well, we aren’t a good match.” You shrugged trying to deflect where this conversation was going. Though Alistair appeared to be on a roll, and refusing to back down now. “You make me doubt myself! I’m afraid to be with you but afraid to be without you!” “That’s what happens!” You finally argued back, your own frustration with him rising to the surface. “You’re dragged out of your comfort zone! Everything changes!”  “Oh because i’m sure you have it all figured out.” Alistair snapped.  “No! Not even a bit!” You argued in complete exasperation. “But i don’t run from it, i face it head on or else what’s the point!? What’s the point in any of this eternal life if I know everything that will happen!?” You wished you hadn’t said it so harshly, especially in anger...but you did and you couldn’t take it back. Despite that, it felt good to get off your chest. Suddenly, Alistair grew quiet. This was it, the end was beginning. You knew it.  “Tell me,” he finally spoke up, avoiding your gaze. “If we weren’t immortal, in other place, another time. Would you still choose me?” Silence filled the room, you lost the ability to look him in the face, gaze falling to the floor.  “No. I wouldn’t be able to wait for you. If things were different, my love for you wouldn’t be enough and if things keeps going this way, love isn’t enough for this life either.” This was it. You had finally said it out loud. Love is not enough. Not for you and Alistair. Alistair walked away and you squeezed your eyes shut. 

A few hours had passed and you were lying on the bed in the Cullen house. It had turned nightfall, the Cullen’s wouldn’t be back until mid day the next day. You immediately sensed someone close, Alistair’s scent drifting toward you. You looked over at the doorway and there he stood. Alistair was silent, staring at you for a few minutes. You blinked and immediately he had climbed on top of you, eyeing your lips, back to your eyes, to your lips and back to your eyes.. Your eyes flickered a brief moment of surprise before resorting back to your seemingly permanent look of sadness. “We aren’t doing this again, are we?” You said solemnly, Alistair hovering above you, his lips dangerously close to yours.  “Shut up.” He said before pulling you up to meet his lips for a moment before breaking away. “I think i know my decision, but i don’t want to tell you here. I want to tell you outside.” He climbed off of you and you looked down, that didn’t sound good and this kiss was likely a ‘good bye forever’ one. Not to mention he always felt better outside. 

Nevertheless, you went outside sitting on the porch steps, staring out into the dark forest in front of you. He soon followed standing behind you for a second before stepping down the stairs to sit beside you. You kept your gaze to the ground, trying to prepare yourself for what he’d say. After a number of minutes of silence he took your hand, just as he did all those months ago, letting your locked hands rest on your thigh. Your gaze trailed to them.  “Don’t break my heart.” You felt relief rush through you, a smile growing on your face.  “Only if you don’t break mine.” You responded. In the corner of your eye, you saw Alistair turn his head to look at you but you didn’t meet his gaze. He seemed to really look you over before saying his next words. “I love you too.” It sounded genuine, just as it did all those months ago. You slowly nodded, before giving him the same look you had when he had first said it. The look he’d come to know very well each time he said it, he’d be saying it for eternity after all. It was the look that said ‘I know’.

[xxbeautyinthebreakdownxxo]

Always Mad

I dont understand that no matter what I do or say youre always mad. I try to do what I can not to make you mad. I ask a question and im wrong for that, you say I should know by now but I still dont seem to understand. I dont do anything bad to you and thats what makes me sad. It hurts when people ask me simple things like "where is he working at today" "when is he coming back" "when is he leaving" "where is he going" "are youse coming" and lots of other questions all with the same reply "he doesnt tell me anything". Heres what I dont understand at all:  

You're always mad, but I always cook you breakfast, lunch, lunch for work, and dinner.. every day. Even when im mad and that makes me mad. You're always mad but I always do your laundry, fold your clothes, and put them away nicely, you've never said thank you.. and thats what makes me mad. You're always mad, but I always tell you how handsome you are even when I never nor have I ever gotten random everyday compliments from you, and that makes me mad. You're always mad but I always tell you how much I love you, even though you never say it first, and alot of times have attitude abojt saying it back, so its said with no meaning only annoyance, and thats what makes me mad. You're always mad, but everyday I ask you how your day was, while mostly all of the time you just give me the "its fine" head nod, followed by silence, and that makes me mad. You're always mad, but ive never missed a holiday, birthday, special occasion, and Ive always thought of you when I go places so I get you things "just because", even though its been 3 years with you and I've never ever ever received anything, not even a flower picked off the side of the road, and that makes me mad. You're always mad, but I have always taken interest, showed some type of interest, asked questions about your interests, took some type of interest in your interests because it makes you happy and you YOU, even though you never take any interest in my interests, and when im excited to tell you about something that interests me you shoot me down and I feel myself go from excited to hurt, and that's what makes me mad. You're always mad, but I always make sure you know and feel that I love and care about you, yet I never feel love, nor have I ever thought you really cared for me, and thats what makes me mad. You're  always mad, but I go,above and beyond to show you I only want you, and no one else gets my attention, yet every couple weeks or months another girl pops up either from your past , or new ones.. and that's what makes me mad. You're always mad, but while were out in public you refuse to hold my hand, and you make sure you are the furthest away from me, basically walk away from me and thats what makes me mad. You're mad, but when your actions cause me to hurt and react you try and turn it on me.. because you can't communicate and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad , but we made a promise to each other that things wouldn't escalate when we fought to the point where pur hands are on each other again... yet the last 3 huge fights we had I was in shock and disbelief that you broke that promise, I kept my hands to myself and didnt even defend ,. I sat there asking why you hate me..,and thats what makes me mad.  You're mad, but you told me you put your hands on me because you dont k ow how else to react, because you so desperately dont want me to leave so you dont let me.. I stay because not only am I in love with you, but because I know this isnt the real you, you're angry and although I forgive you and never left your side especially when your demons came out. Yet you never said sorry or showed appreciation for any of it and thats what makes me mad. You're mad, but ive always been by your side when you needed me with anything, even take care of you when you're sick, even though anytime I needed you mostly all of the times you were nowhere to be found and ive never even received a "do you need anything" when im sick, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but when i found out I was pregnant you were so mean to me, you called me a whore, and spread mean things around about me .. youre mad, but when you said we should abort agreed even though I didn't want to. Youre mad, but an hour before my appointment  you begged me not to do it and that you'd be there and not let me do it on my own. Last minute I cancelled the appointment, and you never ever made it to one  baby appointment, never once asked how I was feeling, never once felt him moving, never once showed concern about him, you didnt want me going anywhere so you kept me very close , and as I was pregnant sleeping in your bed every night, you would leave all night long and screw around on me, you,never bought one thing that the baby needed, you never came to the birth even after I begged multiple times, you told me that you hope I die right before I went into get the c-section.... you didnt speak to me for days, and you never came.. and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but I forgave you and 2 weeks after our son was born you were fucking an ex  fling .. THEN you finally met him, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but after telling me you wanted to try and make a family work, and that you loved me , you were going around denying him and telling people you didnt want a family with me , and thats what makes me mad. You say youre mad.. we came so very far from those things for a little while we had peace, you were faithful, and I had my little family, I felt loved somewhat ... we moved in together.. you started treating me bad again, then you were caught doing things behind my back that you knew would hurt me, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but I asked why out of all your options you chose me .. you said "because I was the only one dumb enough to stick around" .... and in a way that makes me mad. Youre mad, but im completely in love with you, stuck around and believed you'll eventually change because you were broken when we met and "hurt people hurt people" .. nothing youve done made me love you less, it just made me feel a different kind of hurt. . Yet every day I dont feel loved or appreciated back and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad , but if you ever read this youd find a way to leave becUse you cant take honestly and credibility.. and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but you know there is alot of things I didnt write because my fingers hurt from holding this tablet for so long as youre iracing, and havent spoken to me since you got home other than teing me I was making you mad for asking questions, and im an idiot because I should know by now.. even though all day long I waited for you to get home bc I missed you... you responded with a sarcastic laugh and shook ur head no and havent spoken to me since .. and thats what makes me mad. Most of all what makes me mad is knowing you can love , communicate, care, and treat me better .. it makes me mad because you must think I dont deserve that from you. It makes me mad you dont appreciate me or the unconditional love I have for you.. and thats what makes me mad . Youre mad , but I love you so much that I wont leave or give up on you because I know youre my person, and you know you,can get away with anything because of that and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad, but the good days are so good I never want them to end .. good and bad days you make me happy .. you show things very seldom, but still in your own fucked up way.. I know under your hurt you must love me bc you,never let me leave and youve once told me you never loved someone as much as me and thats why I dont understand how you treat me this way, and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad but people think im mad for staying, I just know youll come around .. its 4:18am ive been writingg for over an hour , maybe its been two , but you said to stop talking , so I started writing, you havent spoken a word to me and ur still racing. Youre mad because im writing and not talking as yiu said.. you keep glancing ocer and sighing .. youll come to bed in silence and turn ur back to me like I did this .. and thats what makes me mad. I love you so much and I wont ever give up on you because as fucked as all of this is , I want you forever. I deserve it after all .. what makes me mad is I can feel that youre going to leave .. it hurts and scares me.. and thats what makes me mad. Youre mad but knowing you never read this, or somehow find this you wont read it all and realize what u have right here. You wont care to change and fix this.. and thats what makes me mad. 

One last thing, you're mad, but I know there's someone else.. yet you wont be honest with me.. youre mad but I dont understand why someone else gets the best you.. meaning you treat them like they mean something, n I bet u talk to her nice and with respect, im sure you compliment and confide in her and I bet you tell her ur problems and about your day and how much you want to leave because you hate your life with me , I bet she gets the best you, and that makes me mad, but most of  it tops everything else.. its killing me and you dont care. How does she get the best you ive n begging for, an waiting for.. how does she deserve that so effortlessly.. yet ive been out through just about everything , all the emotions , all the hurt, and stuck by you.. it makes me mad and kills me that you think still after everything.. I still deserve nothing from you other than hurt. How could you.. it makes me mad bc ill never get an answer... 

Youre mad, but I loved, love, and it will always BE YOU. I showed and still continue to show unconditional love and u dont care thats why im mad. 

You're mad but I loved you the most......

And thats what makes me mad. 

[lansizhuis]

hello! okay i didn’t want to spam your already too full inbox more than it already is, so yeah thats why i’m submitting something <3

i haven’t been in the mdzs fandom for long, but let me just say this without a single trace of doubt in my heart, you are my favourite mdzs blog thus far. 

from the short time that i’ve been in the fandom, i’ve always enjoyed looking through your blogs and reading the headcanons you’ve written, the beautiful ficlets you’ve written and overall just enjoy the calming vibe of your blog. we can’t really find that much in the fandom where i came from, so really this is certainly a refreshing change to my fandom experience <3

this message is partly just an overall thank you for your contributions, despite your carefree exterior, you’re probably super busy in real life and yet you still take the time to contribute your fair share of love in the mdzs fandom and i really can’t express the gratitude that i feel <3 i’m grateful to have across you during my first few days of being in the fandom and i have never regretted following you on here and twitter.  with that being said, please don’t mind me rambling about your story the sky of blood. i understand if you’re not feeling any muse for it yet and i don’t wish to pressure you, but i simply can’t help but be in awe of your writing. it’s almost just mxtx had actually written it! just to be clear, the sky of blood is my first fic that i’ve read on ao3 from you, but still <3 — i’m already quite infatuated with how you write so elegantly, so simply. how you overlap the important details, the clues and the intentions of others so well that it took me twice to read through it and catch on the hidden meanings. i love your execution on dark!lwj since it isn’t too far off from canon interpretations and can i please just say i’m in love with the idea of lwj writing letters to wwx when he died? because i do and i’m obsessed now. again, i’m not here to pressure you into writing the next chapter, but i must say i look forward to the updates and other future works you’ll do <3 you have an amazing sense of creativity!  forgive me if i jump around a lot through my message, but i really can’t help but ramble on how amazing you are <3 thank you again if you’ve taken the time to read my silly message <3 please have a good day <3

you don’t have to respond by the way <3 just know that you’ve made a little fan of yours super happy after a stressful day ;;w;; <3 i wish you an amazing day!

Thank you for everything, Notti <3

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HELLO @ichinose-s ~

Oh goood I was legit shaking when I read through your entire message. It's honestly humbling to be able to receive such high compliments especially from someone whom I share the fandom space with. I hope that I'll always be able to deliver and more every time for all of you. I apologize for my late responses on some asks (i have no excuses except that im dumb at time management haha) and when I make mistakes. Thank you for being patient and for supporting me in all ways ahhhh IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. /sobs And omg im sorry for always talking about bichen up wwx's ass in twitter and all my shitposts there sdfghjkl tbh you're the MVP for being able to last with my mess hahaha

And ofc I def don't mind (in fact, i welcome it) your rambles about my stories haha For my writing in TSOB to be compared to MXTX has got to be one of the top 3 best compliments I have ever received as fan of her works asdfghjkl I'm super glad you're catching the small clues! Reading the theories thrown by my readers depending on the nuances they go from what is currently posted makes my day~

Thank you, thank you so much for sending such an amazing and uplifting message (is that the ocean or are those my tears lmao) And I will ofc always, alwayes respond to all the messages you guys send despite being late 50% of the time whelp AGAIN, THANK YOU SO MUCH and I will forever treasure such a heartwarming message <3

[tenaciousarcadeexpert]

The Visit

@marvelfanlife​, @dontshootmespence​, @princesswagger14​, @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars​, @itsmeedee​, @literallyprentissstwin​, @cynbx​, @jaqren​, @ultrarebelheart​, @stunudo

   It had been a year since Matt visited his grandmother and although the two managed to bond in their first interaction, it was still hard to rekindle a relationship with a grandmother who had abandoned his mother and has never met in years. Before returning to the States, both Matt and his grandmother In-Sook promised that the two would keep in touch and that he would someday return along with his family.

“I have a family.” “How wonderful, I would like to meet them someday.”

“You will, grandma. You will.” He hugs her one more time before leaving.

 Since then, the two kept in touch. Not as often as one would expect but just tiny conversations via phone and email. One day, Matt gets an email from his grandmother and clicked on it, translating the letter from Korean to English in his head as he reads.

   Matt,

      I appreciate you coming to see me ever since our first meeting. I know that I was never there for you and Mi Young and it’s something that I truly regret. I may not have been the grandmother I should have been and I want to make it up to you in any way I can. I remember how you told me you have a family. That you have a loving wife and four kids and I’d like to meet them. Anytime would be okay, I just want to see my grandson again along with his family. Take care, my grandson, I wish to see you again.

 Once he was done reading, Kristy entered the room carrying a basket of the kids clothing and saw Matt on his computer.

“Hey hun, what’s that?” “Oh.” He turned around to face his wife. “Just reading a letter I got from my grandmother. “I see the two of you are patching things up.” She gushed just as she placed down the basket to the side. “What did she say?” He took a deep breath. “She’s wants me to come over with you and the kids.” Just then Kristy smiled and gently clapped her hands as she hugs her husband. “Wow Matt, this is great. Now the kids will get a chance to see their great grandmother and a good time for me to improve on my Korean.”

He chuckled. “Yeah, that would be nice. That would be nice.......”

Suddenly, Kristy took notice as his smile slowly fades.

“Uh Matt.” “Yes?” “Is there something wrong?” “What? No, there’s nothing wrong.” She sighs. “Look, I know that look and it means that you have something in your mind.” She grabs a chair and sat down. “Is it about the letter?”

He nodded. “Yeah, it is.” Kristy sighs. “Alright, what is in the letter that’s making you upset.” Matt rubbed the back of his head, trying to figure out what to say and how to put it into words. He took a deep breath. “Matt...please don’t tell me that you’re not insisting on letting us see your grandmother.” “It’s not that. I know how much you and the kids want to meet her, I’d love for you guys to see her. It’s just that I fear that she won’t.......” Matt looked away as he continued to rubbed the back of his head.

“Accept me because I’m not Korean? Is that what you’re trying to say?” He looked back to her. “Kristy, I didn-” “It’s fine, I understand if this is what’s bothering you. I remember how you told me the time your other grandparents rejected you because you and your mother were Korean.” “Yeah.” Kristy watched as her husband tries to hold back the tears. “It’s been a long time ago, but it still hurts. They didn’t understand how bad it has affected me since then. I been through rejection so many times for who I am and I fear that the same thing could happen again with the only other living relative I have left. I just don’t want you and the kids to go through what I’ve been through. I don’t want them to grow up where my relatives wanted nothing to do with them. I just patched things up with my grandmother and I don’t want to make things worse. I just don’t.” He groaned in frustration just as Kristy stood up and tilted his head up by the chin. “Matt, you’re a kind, loving and honest man I have never met. I know your grandmother thinks so too. You shouldn’t let something from the past hinder the potential future you have with her. I know your grandmother will accept us for who we are.” “What if she doesn’t?” “What if she does? You’ll never know till we find out.”

He sighs. “You’re right. I shouldn’t have been so scared.” “Well, it’s okay to be scared, it’s the first time that we’ll see each other. But we should never let the past get in the way stop us from being happy.”

“I know.” She smiled as she leaned over to kiss him.

“Oh Kristy, what would I’ve not done without you?” She smirked. “Not responding to that email.” He chuckled. “Yeah, I’ll get to it.” “Okay.” She walked away as Matt took another look at Im Sook’s letter. Not long after, he types in his response in Korean.

“My family are excited to meet you. I plan to return to Korea and bring them with me.”  After typing his response, he leans back against his chair, thinking about his grandmother seeing his family for the first time. Hopefully, things go well.

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   A few weeks later, Matt arrived in Korea along with his family just to introduce them to his grandmother. Before he could knock, he noticed Kristy feeling a little tense, just as she was rubbing her hands.

“Are you okay?” “Yeah, I’m fine.” “Okay.” Matt took a deep breath and knocked at the door. Just then, he heard footsteps approaching as he sees his grandmother open the door. “Grandson!” She shouts. The two smiled as they embraced into a hug.

“Oh grandmother, it’s so nice to see you again.” The two of them greeted in Korean while Kristy watched. Matt’s grandmother took notice at the sight of her and the kids standing outside.

“Grandson, who are they?” She asked.

“Oh uh grandmother, this is Kristy, my wife.” He said as he gently grabbed her hand. He then gestures her to the kids. “And these are our kids. They’ve been wanting to see you.”

”Hi, nice to meet you.” Kristy gently waved, only for her to not respond back.   Matt felt his heart pounding as his grandmother was silent, only staring at the four young children and their Caucasian mother with a blank expression on her face. This was it, he had a bad feeling about this and was bracing for being potentially disowned by her. Suddenly, she turned to Kristy and walked up close to her, analyzing her appearance and features before turning to Matt.

“Grandson......” “Y-yes?” He croaked.

“You never told me that your wife was...........so beautiful.” Just then, the blank expression fades into a smile, prompting Matt to chuckle in amusement.

“Matt, what did she say?” Kristy asked.

“My grandmother thinks you’re beautiful.” “Really?” She turned to see his grandmother grab her hands and cradling them.

“And your skin is so soft...” Kristy slightly chuckled as Im Sook compliments her beauty. “It’s nice to meet you, Im Sook. Forgive me if my Korean is a bit rusty.” She soothed. “It’s okay.” She responds as she pats Kristy on the back. She then turns to the kids. “And they are...”

“Oh, that’s Jake, David, Chloe and Lily. The girls are twins.” She resumed. “Hi kids.” She gushed while the kids shyly wave at their great grandmother.

“Would you like some cookies?” “You made cookies?” Matt asked.

“You said that you had four children, so I baked some chocolate chip cookies for them.” “You hear that kids? Grandma made you some cookies.” “Yay!” The kids cheered as they ran inside the apartment. The three adults laugh just as Im Sook pulls Kristy inside.  “Please, don’t be shy, I’d be happy to make you some tea.” “Oh that would be nice.”

Matt smiled just as he walks inside, glad that his family has the chance to meet his long lost grandmother and that she loves them as much as he does.

[jamnstories]

Jin Jin- Elemental Powers AU

Word Count: 1,573

Prologue/ Jin Jin/ MJ/ Eunwoo/ Rocky/ Moonbin/ Sanha/ Epilogue

d/n= Dog name (im not good with making names lol) y/n- snow JinJin- lightning/electricity

A cafe date and.... are those stars???

“Mmmmm the person I choose is... Jin pup! I think I’ll contact him first. He looks like a sweet guy.” You said with a smile on your face. “Don't they all?” Your friend said sarcastically earning a snowball to the face. “Y/N!” You laughed as she went to go dry off her face.

With her phone still in had you decided to message Jin pup. “Hi! My name is y/n.” You hesitated but decided to press send anyways. To your surprise you got an instant response. “Hi y/n! I’m Jinwoo! You can call me Jin Jin tho... I mean if you want.” You smiled at how sweet he was being and relieved that it wasn't as awkward as you had thought it would be.

After talking to him through your best friend’s phone for a while you decided to give him your number. Mainly cuz she glared at you being all smiley on her phone for an hour. A few days later he finally asked:

“Hahaha! Ya! I’m the one M-shine accidentally blinded >.< I couldn't see for weeks. I thought I’d never get my vision back LoL”

“Wow! I still can’t believe all of you know each other lol. It’s like you all talked and said ‘let’s all tell her were interested! Let the best man win!’ hahaha”

“Lol of course not. We didn't even notice we did that... Anyways... I’ve had something on my mind.”

“Shoot”

“So we’ve been talking for almost a week now... and i’m really interested in you so... I was wondering if you were free tomorrow?”

“I thought you’d NEVER ask! Yes! I’d like to go on a date with you ^.^”

“Cool! I’ll pick you up at 11 then. See you tomorrow :)”

You ran to your best friend’s room to tell her all about the development and help pick an outfit for tomorrow. Meanwhile.... “Hyung, how come your jumping up and down?” Sanha asked. “I’ve got a date tomorrow!” He yelled as he ran around the room in excitement. “Hyung! Sparks! Sparks!” “Ya! Hyung, your going to cause a blackout again!” Sure enough the lights turned off and the appliances stopped working. “Well I don't know about you guys but I'm still happy for him” the eldest added as he started jumping up and down with him.

It was exactly 11 when you heard a knock on the door. Nervous to finally meet him in person you walked to the door slowly. You were all dressed up and ready for whatever he had planned. As you opened the door, you both stood in silence just staring. In his eyes, you were the most beautiful person he had ever seen yes even more beautiful the eunwoo. In your eyes, you were shocked. From his pictures you didn't think he was so good looking. Cute yes. Handsome, stylish, and good hair NO. But here he was; the cutest and most handsome person you had seen. again yes more than eunwoo.

“Hi” you smiled shyly as you closed the door behind you locking it. “Hi” he responded obviously still in shock. His voice was deeper than you expected but it still sounded sweet. “You look beautiful... It’s nice to finally properly meet you.” He held out his hand and gave you the sweetest smile you had ever seen it almost made you faint. 

“It’s nice to finally meet you too.” You smiled shyly at his compliment. As you reached out to his hand, almost touching, you felt a shock and winced at the sudden shock. “Ah! I’m sorry! I got excited and forgot to control my power...” He bowed his head as he pouted. OMGOSH he was so cute he was like a puppy! How could you not forgive him!

“Haha its fine don't worry. Shall we get going?” You smiled and reached your hand out to him and this time he didn't shock you.

As the two of you walked hand in hand, Jin Jin suddenly snapped his head towards you. “Oh! I forgot to ask you. Your not allergic to anything right?” You shook your head. “Do you like dogs?” You nodded curiously “Why?” He gave you his angelic smile and avoided the question. “You’ll see.”

After walking and chatting down the road for a while, you stopped in front of a cafe. “I always come here when I’m stressed. It’s a nice place to relax and I thought I’d share it with you.” He smiled as he guided you inside. It was the cutest place you had ever seen. Why? There were dogs running around all over the place! There were toys, doggy beds, and an obstacle course.

“I love being able to play with the dogs here since I can’t have one of my own.” He explained as the two of you sat at a table. After ordering your drinks he continued, “You know all of the dogs here were either abandoned or lost. Sometimes I would be here and someone would come in excited to find their lost dog. Or like one time, a couple was playing with a dog for a really long time and asked if they could adopt it.” His smile was sweet and calm. You could tell how much he cared about the place and it made you happy that he wanted to share such an important place with you.

A small black lab probably a puppy still came up to you and got up on your thighs. “Hi, what’s your name?” You giggled at how cute she was. “Wah. Amazing” Jin Jin gasped as he pet a larger dog. “Thats her name? Amazing?” you laughed. “Haha! No~ Her name is d/n. I’m just shocked. She’s usually so shy and scared around people... It must mean I made the right choice!” he smiled. “What do you mean?” “If she likes you right away- it must mean your naturally a kind hearted person.” You tried to hide your reddening face from him.

Jin Jin giggled and looked at you in awe. “She’s so cute when she blushes.” As you look up back to him, Jin Jin was getting kisses from the larger dog. Giggling, you told yourself “I never knew a dog kissing a puppy could be so cute!” After the dog’s slobber attack he walked away to play with another dog; Jin Jin saw you giggling and pouted “He left me” making you laugh at his cuteness.

Without realizing it, the two of you had spent hours at the cafe playing with dogs and it was already five o’clock. As the two of you walked along the streets you could feel your stomach growl, “Shall we get something to eat? My treat!” You offered but Jin Jin shook his head. “I shouldn't make you pay on the first date. Plus, I have a surprise for you.” You took his outstretched hand and continued to follow him down the streets chatting and talking. As time drew on, you could feel his nervousness through his hand as you could feel bits of shocks hit you.

Finally, as you stopped right in front of a building, you felt a huge shock go through your hand. Jin Jin noticing you wince in pain immediately apologized repeatedly and let go of your hand. “It’s ok! I was just surprised is all!” You laughed and jokingly said, “One day I’ll get you back with a snow ball~” He laughed and guided you into the building.

“Sorry it’ll be a bit dark for now so just hold onto my arm for now.” You wrapped your arm around his and continued to walk into the darkness. You could vaguely make out a table and two chairs in the middle of the room. Motioning for you to sit down you let go and carefully sit, watching him sit in the chair across. You could hear him take a deep breath in and out.

“I wanted to surprise you. But, I thought maybe the other guys you dated have done everything. So I thought about how could I make it different and then I realized well... we are different.” You could just barely see him raise his hand to the ceiling. You watched as beautiful sparks went straight up and hit something. Suddenly, one by one, tiny lights of different sizes filled the room. “Are those...” “Stars?” he finished. “Yes, they are.” You smiled amazed at the site. Living in the big city, it was difficult to see the beautiful stars you used to look at back home. Tears began to fill your eyes. “It’s so beautiful... thank you!” wiped away the tears, got up, and hugged him.

For the rest of the night, you enjoyed a delicious meal under his home made stars and afterwards, he walked you home. As you said your goodnights, Jin Jin turned back around towards you and said,“y/n, I really enjoyed tonight and I want to continue to get to know you more... I was thinking if you felt the same way that...” “Yes! I’d love to go on another date with you... As long as you don't shock me next time.” You smiled, gave him a kiss on the cheek and quickly ran inside.

Jin Jin stood there shocked and then excitement hit and he began to jump and run about in excitement. He stopped in his tracks to answer his phone “Hyung!!! You caused the whole city’s black-out didn't you!” Ignoring his friends’ yelling he quickly ran home in the dark streets to quickly tell his friends the news.

Weeks later (by texting): “So... I was wondering if you wanted to meet everyone?” “I’d love to!” To be continued in epilogue...

[lovemesomesurveys]

Have you ever had a secret that you really just couldn't tell? Yes.

Has anything happened today that has upset you in any way? Yes. I’m having a particular issue that is making it difficult to eat and I’m just really frustrated and tired and hangry.

Is there someone in your life you tell every little thing to? No, but I share a lot in these surveys. Whoever reads them comes closest to that.

Do most of your friends have a significant other? One is married and the other two are single.

If I say "psycho", who is the first person that comes to your mind? That infamous shower scene with Janet Leigh screaming and you see the shadow of the guy with the knife doing the stabbing motion from the movie, Psycho.

Are there any stressful situations in your life right now? My life is a stressful situation.

Who has made the biggest sacrifice for you? My mom.

Would you rather live in the city, suburbs or the country? Hmm. I like a bit of something from each of those. When I finally leave this hellhole city I live, I’ll have to figure out if I want to keep that city life or try something else. We shall see.

Do you think you could handle a day in jail? Nope.

How do you feel about middle-parted hair? I don’t feel any kind of way.

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now? Yes.

Did the last person you kissed have piercings? Nope.

Do you believe that your first true love can be your only love in life? No. For me, I think I’ll always care for him because he was my first love, but I have moved on. I could love again. I’m terrified because I don’t have any luck whatsoever in that department, but it could happen again.

Is anyone mad at you right now? I don’t think so.

Have you ever given up on anyone? Yes. Including myself.

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? Yes.

Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up? Nope.

Who's the biggest douchebag you know? I don’t know any douchebags.

If your ex said they hated you, you'd say? I wouldn’t know what I did to feel so strongly about me in such a negative way.  I have the right to be hurt and heartbroken, but I don’t hate him. I don’t know why they’d hate me.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a D? Yes.

Did you ever waste too much time on someone that treated you bad? Mhm.

Who was the last girl you talked to? My mom.

Who was the last guy you talked to? My brother.

Was it a boy or a girl to last text you? A boy.

How do you feel right now? I described that in the first question. I’m still feeling the same way.

Have you ever dreamed about falling? That’s a sensation I have experienced a lot during sleep.

Who is the most obnoxious person you know? No one.

What was the last thing you 'liked' on facebook? Something funny, probably.

What was the last compliment you received? The girl at the place I got food at the other day said she liked my hair, and that the color looked good on me.

Do you cross your legs when you sit? Sometimes.

Do you still talk to your FIRST love? Not since last July.

Someone calls you at 3:00 AM; who do you expect it to be? someone with bad news <<< Same because no one calls me that hour.

What brings out the worst in you? When I’m extra moody and irritable, stressed, and hangry.

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? I feel like people judge me, yes. I also feel like people in my life think bad things about me. That’s probably because I think so badly of myself, and I feel like I’ve just been a shitty friend and person and blah.

In December, were you in a relationship? No.

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? No.

Have you ever kissed under water? Nope.

Have you ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyed person? I have not.

Has anyone ever said they will never let you go? Something like that.

When's the last time someone asked you to hang out, but you couldn't? That’s how it’s been for the past few months. I haven’t hung out with anybody in a long time.

How do you feel about people not replying to you? I always feel like I’m annoying people anyway, so when they don’t respond that only fuels the fire. I just think the worst, and I know it’s stupid, but that’s how I am.

Are you in a relationship? No.

Do you have self-respect? Not so much.

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around? Not completely, but pretty close.

Do you know how many people your best friend has had sex with? No.

Are your boobs real? Yes.

What was the last thing that made you laugh? Something on TV.

Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other? Yes. This question is dumb.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you? Not that I’m aware of? I don’t know why he would be.

Who was the last person you talked to in person? My mom.

Who was the last to call you beautiful? I don’t know.

Are you an official couple with the last person you kissed? Nopeeee. We never were in the three years we had whatever we had going on.

Is there that one guy that you'll always have feelings for no matter what? Yes.

Are you losing feelings towards anyone? No.

Ever liked someone who treated you wrong? Mhm.

The person you fell hardest for, do you still care about them? Yes.

Think of the last person who hurt you, do you forgive them? Yes. I had to, so I could move on. It doesn’t mean that you’re saying what they did is okay, it just means you’re not letting it dictate your life anymore. You’re not holding onto what was holding you back. It’s taking back the power that you gave them from harboring those emotions.

Has someone ever called you at midnight on your birthday? Yeah.

Would you ever be a stripper? No.

Do you ever wonder how other people see you? Yes.

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at? I don’t know.

Do you donate blood? I haven’t.

What was the last Youtube video you watched? A vlog one of the Youtubers I’m subscribed to posted this morning.

Is there any accent that you find sexy? I find Alexander Skarsgård’s accent and voice to be sexy.

What did the last IM you sent say? I don’t remember. It was something on Facebook Messenger.

Is there anyone getting on your nerves right now? No.

Do people underestimate you? I don’t know. I probably underestimate myself, but I really don’t give myself a lot of credit. I am my worst enemy.

Would you take your ex-significant other back? No.

Are you 100% over the last person you kissed? How many times as this been asked in some way or another? This is probably multiple surveys in one cause damn.

Who was the last baby you held? I think it was my cousins’ baby. It’s been a long time.

Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? Yeah.

Is it worth crying over a guy or a girl? I’ve sure done it a lot. If they meant a lot to you and they hurt you... well, it hurts. And when I’m upset, I cry.

Are you a flirt? Maybe a little, but only if I actually know the guy and have started to feel more comfortable. It’s subtle, though. They probably can’t even tell. Well, I know they can’t because I’ve been told, “I didn’t know you felt that way” when I thought I was being obvious.

Has the last person you texted ever been mad at you before? Probs. We’re siblings, it happens.

What was your worst mistake in your life? Oh boy.

Would you fall apart if the last person you kissed walked out of your life? He did walk out of my life for almost three years. I was heartbroken over it and had a hard time for a long time. I just felt so used, played, and incredibly stupid. I didn’t feel like I was good enough, and I blamed myself.

Why did you last tell someone you hated them? I haven’t told anyone that.

Who has your heart right now? Me.

Have you ever felt so hurt you can't move? Yes.

Have your parents ever caught you kissing a guy? No.

How many friends are on Facebook chat at the moment? I don’t know, and I don’t care to check.

Which one of your exes hates you the most? None that I know of. Damn. A lot of hate in this survey, too.

Do you believe there's two sides to every story? There always is. No matter how flat you make a pancake, there’s always two sides.

Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again? You are obsessed withe exes and who I last kissed. This has to be multiple surveys in one... anyway, no I don’t. And I don’t want to be with them again either.

Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today? No. There isn’t anyone in my life that I don’t like.

Are you talking to anyone right now? Nope.

Where did your last hug take place? In my living room.

Who was the last person that apologized to you? I don’t know.

Last shocking news you heard? One of my younger cousins is pregnant.

Are you named after anyone? Nope.

Does your password have numbers? Don’t worry about it.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? My brother.

Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you? No.

Have you ever had sex on the beach? Nope.

What reminds you the most of your last relationship? Blah.

Have you ever rejected someone but they still wouldn't give up on you? My only real ex tried for years to get back together even when I kept saying that I didn’t feel the same way.

Who gave you a hug last? Okay yeah, definitely more than one survey in one. I need a distraction, so that’s why I keep putting up with this survey. And it’s almost over now. Anyway, it was my mom.

How do you feel about guys who smoke? I don’t like smoking at all regardless of who’s doing it.

Is there anyone you would do anything for? Not anything, but just about.

Have any of your friends died of an overdose? No.

What woke you up this morning? My alarm.