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jabberwockprince · 1 month

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seeing friend groups die slowly is always such an experience cause its like. wow. ive been here since day 1 clawing at everyone's doors for attention and to hang out and to keep everyones schedules in mind and to be as inclusive as possible so we can all hang out

only to be met with the most increasingly dismissive, lukewarm response. and now that i no longer do that, yall would rlly prefer to let the whole friendship die slowly than ping your own fucking friends once or twice to hang out. you'd think years of friendships would do smth to yknow. bypass that anxiety of pinging ppl. bc youve known them for so long, or to be considerate and keep them in mind and remember things about them. yknow. treat them like fucking friends instead of walls that you can talk at abt your fucking interests, but i guess i wasnt that fucking relevant nor important each and every fucking time and these friends would rlly prefer to drift away than risk being vulnerable for 5 seconds

#it wasnt enough for it to happen once #it had to happen a second time #and a third one #and a fourth one #in the same fucking span of time #im just rlly tired im super tired #bc all of this keeps reinforcing this awful thought in my head #that im always going to be too much for everyone #and i'll either have to tone it down for ppl to give a shit #or just be eternally lonely over it #bc no one gives enough of a shit to reach out to me bc Prince Is Always Gonna Be There!#stop. taking me for granted please. im tired of being your extrovert friend to pass on the burdens of social interaction #i keep making a fucking fool of myself to get friendgroups to stay together #but you guys couldnt even ping me to hang out. yall would rather wait. and wait. for me to take that first step #bc god fucking forbid this friendship is a two-way thing

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enden-k · 4 months

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May I ask if Kaveh is in the Ratiotham uni au or he's nonexistent in this timeline 👀👀👀

I was blind to the potential in Ratiotham at first tbh but I'm a hardcore believer now 🙏🙏🙏 also I'm sorry if this has been asked before!

i was thinking about having him around but i fear that some ppl want me to have him involved or more active even tho hes not the focus or romantically involved w hthm in this so yea. bc of the fear of some ppl being annoying and having all asks revolve around kaveh again, im unsure yet if i even want him to play a role and consider have him just get mentioned when hthm is napping bc of him being too noisy in the nights

#its not like the au is gonna get smth super deep and big w complex story or smth. i just want ratiotham lolol #also dont misunderstand me i rlly like kvh its just tiring when all messages revolve around him all the time #even when hes not even brought up in any way #reply #maybe its partly bc of the whole drama that i need some space from kvh/kvthm bc it leaves a bitter taste #bc im still so disgusted by some ppl in the fandom starting ship fights w hkvh ppl and bullying that i feel ashamed in their name #which is stupid bc i got nothing to do with them #but yea thats why im distancing myself a lil

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#oooof... sleep was rough bc my face was super itchy. all of a sudden i got rashes in my face yesterday ?!?!? i have NEVER gotten that wtffff #hopefully it's just temporary nd will go away. it's still a tiny bit itchy but not as bad as yesterday :o #istg my life is a JOKE!!!! a joke!!!! rashes?!? what? maybe stress nd anxiety?? idk it's wild tho i cant deal w this #so i couldnt really fall asleep but i rested for a few hours #then i got up. took my dog out. had oatmeal. called the surgeron clinic.#and like... i told them abt my weight and they said im underweight?! and that my bmi is 18.9 and u need to have 19....#i told her that i cant gain weight bc i cant eat anything. that i cant have more fat than i already do bc then it hurts too much #she said she'll talk to the anesthesia doctors and call me later. she hasnt called yet #i rlly hope they understand the situation?? and that i can still have my surgery bc what else am i supposed to do???#ughhhh why cant anything ever just be easy and smooth for me??#i am sooooo tired of all these hardships piling on top of eo #then i walked to school.. took me an hour and im spent now bc im so weak nd malnutrioned skskskks #and im in class... it's a long one. still more than an hour left :'( my head hurts #ugh i just wanna be fine for once in my life #but yeah im like 75% thru all the hard things i need to do today #just need to finish class nd then walk home nd then hopefully get a call back and then i can relax (as much as i can lol)#i hope the itching goes down (still wtf is my body doing? i have no patience for it anymore) nd i hope im not too underweight for surgery om

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cephalopaints · 2 years

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My pieces for the Splatoon 3 Concept Zine!! I'll be honest, I'm kinda emotional about it- This was my first ever zine and everyone's pieces were gorgeous, I'm so happy to know and be friends with people who love splatoon as much as I do. Please go check it out, everyone in there is so skilled and it's dedicated to someone important to us.

#splatoon #splatoon 3 #splatoon 3 concept zine #artists on tumblr #nintendo #clownin' around #art tag #ocs #portfolio #im not too proud of the second piece; seems too bland- i couldve put stickers and grafiti in it but i couldnt rlly grt it right #im super proud of the first one though!!!#you can tell im tired cause im being cringe and mushy #me using proper grammar? CRINGE #i read through the zine while listening to the credits songs and GOD that fucked me up i was crying like a lil bitch #i was just really happy to be a part of this ajcskfjs #we played some celebratory pbs and minigames and we had fun when it released!!#and yknow. im really happy to just have friends like that #I KNOW I KNOW VINNY IS BEING CRINGE FAIL ON MAIN EVEN THOUGH THIS ISNT HIS MAIN ITS JUST MORE POPULAR THAN HIS MAIN #i was caught giving a fuck ... devastating #its past midnight and my eyes are drying up so im heading to bed #some stressful stuff happened earlier too so i think thats enough feelings fo 2day ... schnorr mimimi #july 2022

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bonniesband · 2 years

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Sorry if they don’t make sense, I know most of my doodles do not

#doodle #jsab #just shapes and beats #jsab square #the cool sempre drip near the middle is inspired by one someone drew on artfight :0 it was cool and I rlly wanted to draw something like it #sorry bout the lack of posts. super tired from school and it doesnt get much better. Once I recover on the weekend Im just tired out more #Ive not a chance to draw much at all recently

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razzafrazzle · 2 years

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just some teens

#wanted to do a bigger drawing but im very tired and im going to the flea market with my mom tomorrow so i need sleep :o)#hopefully i can get some more clown dolls for my collection there!!!#on one of my trips to this flea market i found a japanese copy of the original sims which was super neat!!!#thats also where i got my angelic goose clown.... just a rlly good flea market man #doc talks #my art #my characters #eyestrain

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oh-gh0st · 8 months

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im gonna take the fattest nap once i get home later today

#ghosts rambles #just arrived. already thinking of leaving #i git 3 hours of sleep last night cause we were being silly in aggie… super fun tho hehhe #ill post my drawings later and then other stuff from the canvas i rlly liked #somehow im only somewhat tired…

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dino-anarchy · 11 months

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updated my sona for artfight (my back already hurts T-T)

#my art #my sona #artfight #omg the real dino you'd thought you'd never see him #overall im rlly proud of this especially the arms and hands #ive gotten a lot better at those + the nose and shoes #tho im not rlly sure why my face. looks like that?#i tried to capture how i actually smile but it doesn't look super happy imo :/#but yk thats just me looking with my tired eyes idk how it looks to yall

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sunnydice · 10 months

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man.

#i had this whole post ive been trying to formulate for so so long. abt my issues w ceewilbur and ccwilburisms and #to clarify i do like cwilb he is one of my faves. ik it may seem i wanna bite his arm off smtimes and i Do but #its mostly bitterness directed to the stuff Around him if that makes sense. yk the response to lots abt him #the way the overcompensation abt how he can be villanized swinging into a state where he Cant and never Did and wrong and if you critique #or acknowledge it you get snipped at and demeaned and treated like its a targeted hit on the mentally ill when its like #a mild disagreement with one of the most popular characters in the fanbase Easily #and w cc wil i do think he is just sm guy. im sure he's a nice dude idrc abt the ccs usually but he seems alright enough even tho he has v #goofy ahh takes and opinions but that doesnt make you Evil #but when i dive into what really has made me feel so alienated and snippy its. llmao its the racism yeah lol its super very much the racism #its very very prevelent and very common and very unchallenged. and it like. upsets me so bad its why i keep bailing on making my actual #full detailed post abt it. cuz everytime i try to formulate my thoughts i just get upset and frustrated i wanna rip my hair out #its hard not to feel like im talking to a wall when its so common and unchecked and. ive seen rightful critiques of these spaces and how #ppl interact with them Openly Mocked and brushed aside and treated like 'petty sensative internet drama' that ppl need to 'just get over'#sorry man im a fucking 🇲🇽 i cant exactly log off and Stop Experiencing Racism. and sorry that me feeling alienated and tired and sad abt #it is an inconvenience for you llol #and like idk. im not upset w anyone in particular this isnt a call out post or vague who give a shit and.#eh maybe im stupid but i really really believe a lot of ppl arent doing it on purpose #its just bein parroted ik i get it but #am i rlly not allowed to be tired? why should it feel like my responsibility to hold ppls hand and go hey mb treat poc and darker skinned #ppl like ppl. maybe you should examine why you need so many things made palatable to you through conventionally attractive whiteness first #idk. idk!!! am i crazy who fucking knows #but it has been weighing on me stupid style so bad #the shrinking fanbase and primarily yk common stragglers has just. rlly felt like a magnifying glass to my already existing issues abt it #idk man. idk im tired and im at work its 100°+ and my head hurts so this is all yr getting. lea me alone #and again this isnt a vague who Cares. just wanted to get it off my chest finally #huri.txt #discourse #<- ig

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yukinyaminyato · 11 months

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i just realized i haven't eaten a single proper meal the whole day......... but in my defense i didn't plan to be out from 11am until 1:30am 😭

#i was at a picnic & at pride (was fun yayyyy but also super hot ugh) & then hanging out w/ friends #but yeah i didn't rlly have any chances to eat lunch or dinner???#so ive just eaten a sandwich. and grapes. and crackers. and my fav tomato focaccia that was even on sale in the grocery store <3 #i do have some pasta in the fridge but i don't wanna be that person who goes to cook smth in the kitchen at 2am 😔#also i rlly need to go to sleep.... im tired #my posts

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marblerose-rue · 1 year

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my fursona (kaden, my pfp!!) is nine years old today :-)

#not art #meandering #idk if ill do anything today im in a really weird funk/im super tired #but i just think its rlly silly :-) a close friend of mine said shed be in 4th grade and its crazy bc hes right #shes not my oldest oc but she is my most special one <3 #sorry for not keeping up with requests!! been a little chaotic recently on top of (*gestures vaguely*) but hopefully ill get to some this #weekend :-)

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zhuhongs · 2 years

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i am so painfully american in so many ways that I never even realized,,, like the Pain. Today I went out with my friends mom who doesn’t speak any english and oh my god was I a deer in the headlights all day. I feel soooo bad, also like she refused to let me pay for anything and gave me sooo much food and drove me around all day. I really don’t know how to thank her enough. I tried to give her a gift and she returned it to me without me even noticing... oh my god. ms. huang.. rlly.... TT thank u also I’m so sorry i’m so painfully timid and awkward

#i've never eaten like.. so many kinds of meat bc like.. yk.. americans only really like the "desireable' parts of the meat. so yea.. also i #have like a fear of swallowing bones.. long story. if u were here u were here for it. if u dont know .. its a Story. but yea so i was like.#this is... a painfully awkward meal. also i dropped my chopsticks TWICEEEEE.. pain. also I've never had shirmp with the head on so she #put one on my plate and i was like... uh.... i dont know how to eat this but I just looked out how the ppl around me did it so i got used t #it.. kinda.... god yea. and then she really kept giving me food but I have a small appetite due to the aforementioned fear of bones thing #it was a spell of disordered eating in hs. left me with a damaged throat and a reduced appetite. not body image related but trauma related #etc. etc.. so yea. i felt so bad. I was so full. she bought me so much. im sooo sorry.... but good news is i wont need to buy food at all #tmrw... and then sometimes she'd ask me a question and I'd legit have no clue how to respond. I;m so used to speaking multiple languages #with my classmates and my roommates so if i ever forget smth i can just use a diferrent language to explain and its.. so much harder to #speak only one language than i thought and hhhhh. also sidenote i COMPLETELY understand why my friend is the way she is... like yea no she #IS her mothers daughter hundred percent.... forceful. kind. not afriad to bargain. overall big appetite for life and yea no.. it makes sooo #much sense... i understand it ALL now...also her little brother is so rude.... god i don't like him. i see why she doesn't like him #like id never blame someone for hating their family but yea no i get it #hhhh so yea.. it was rlly fun but also.. a lot. super super grateful tho.#🐌.txt #also i am so tired.. what not getting enough sleep for a week will do to a mf

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lonelyplanetfag · 1 year

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i think i am one of the worst people alive