#im overflowing with feels

[wojtekaneko]

It just keeps coming at me in waves, rolling over me, filling my head with such awful sights.

Bonus:

While drawing the upper one i was wondering why am i even drawing Jon without clothes? Like I know, its for the ✨aesthethic✨but! it got me thinking like in what situation would that happen?? (og post, without the bonus drawing)

[normal-thoughts-official]

transfem wyll is so fucking top tier though

like. okay. first of all, the obvious. wyll's forced transformation as a metaphor for the expectations forced on trans people's bodies. because nonconsensual body modification aside, the problem with wyll's transformation is and has always been the way this will make him be perceived by others, not the form itself. this works whether you have transfem wyll or transmasc wyll, but transfem wyll opens the door for transitioning as a form of healing from that transformation, too

wyll hasn't had any bodily autonomy in, well, pretty much ever, considering the pact was made when wyll was still a kid and it's heavily implied that ulder had a pretty military style of raising wyll (making wyll recite the four principles every morning and shit like that). mizora could, and would, change that body to her own will, pretty much whenever she wanted, as a natural extension of owning wyll's soul. wyll frequently refers to himself as mizora's puppet; a metaphor that directly evokes a lack of control over one's own body

so in that context, transitioning also means reclaiming herself. it's taking that body back and making it hers, to represent who she is, and now who mizora wants her to be or what other people expect someone with her body to be. that is always the case with transitioning, of course, but it also adds an extra layer of more obvious healing in that context

i also think wyll's core issues as a character work very well as an "egg" metaphor; wyll is a person who lives, first and foremost, for other people. he (and I'm using "he" here because I'm referring to wyll's canon character, not my hcs as a transfem wyll) is what he thinks he needs to be to be able to help others, what he thinks others want him to be. he is not himself. he is constantly playing a game of pretend, to be this picture perfect hero, more of an image (and a myth) than a person. if that isn't the pre-transition experience, i don't know what is

it also adds a new layer to why wyll has these issues in the first place. like, don't get me wrong, i think they make perfect sense in canon. but if she's transfem, then her willingness to endure pretty much anything for the sake of others makes even more sense. she's already constantly uncomfortable, constantly feeling out of place, constantly feeling like she's coming up short of what she needs to be, is expected to be, and feel and act like. so what's another discomfort, and another, and another, and another, and another? what's giving up one more part of herself when she doesn't feel like she gets to be "herself" anyway? what's constantly ignoring her own needs for the sake of prioritizing other people?

more of the same

and that's easy to do

and so she does it, and sacrifices every part of herself she has to give, again and again and again. wyll's fundamental disconnect with wyll's own personhood (as in being a person who has needs and flaws and is more than just a means to help other people) makes even more sense if she's an egg, and, in turn, also helps explain why she hasn't realized she's trans. she's never stopped to think about herself as a person with needs and wants, so why should she?

also, that sense of guilt trans people often have, of trying to compensate for their whole existence, feeling like they're gonna be "found out" and not even knowing as what, goes so well with wyll's obsession with moral perfection. if she is trying to compensate her innate sense of wrongness and unbelonging that she doesn't understand and can never quite get rid of, of course she would try to be the most picture perfect person ever. who can do no wrong, always puts others before herself, never makes any mistakes. again, wyll's reasons for acting like that make perfect sense in canon, but wyll as a transfem adds even more layers that i think are juicy to explore

and of course most of what i cited here is also experienced by transmascs, but i think wyll's issues are so much more fitting for a pre-transition experience. also, im a transmasc wyll enjoyer too. we should all kiss about it

in short: wyll's character as a metaphor for living pre-transition works exceedingly well, and that also means that transitioning can be an experience of healing from all the trauma wyll went through. transitioning is always healing, in my opinion, but in this case it can be a culmination of finally allowing herself to think about herself and her needs first, and taking her body for herself, which makes it more powerful

disclaimer: im not claiming these are universal trans or transfem experiences or that everyone deals with being trans this way. im just saying those are common feelings among trans people that can find reverberation in wyll's character

[jadelemonadee]

doing my annual (every 5 minute) scrolling through the seabury tag and being bombarded with The Asks

[winterdusktales]

koo junhoe debuts as an actor as yang jinho in true to love (bora! deborah)

[butchyena]

this is so fucking god awful. jesus fucking christ. emotional and mental health aside. my fucking body. i now have a smaller pool of nursing staff who are all versed in whats going on and what my needs are so i do feel more secure but my. body. has multiple dime-sized holes that are being propped open

[littleporksausage]

Remember how tumblr was full of tips and advice for texas snowstorms and uk and canada heatwaves

And even uk flooding

I remember

[microwavetoaster-selfships]

hi kane !! if u were in charge of writing the story for a cars 4 movie, what would u want it to be about ? 🤔 (@dmclr)

Ouughh. Ohhmgugish. I don't know why I'm like all "you're asking ME??🤧"

GENIUNELY NO ONE IS OBLIGATED TO READ THIS. I know the whole "I yap a lot" thing sometimes but this is geniunely like a rediculous length. I mean no one is obligated to read any of my posts but yknow.

I need like two read more bars for this post yall. I don't know why I'm yapping so much. In case it wasn't clear I had a lot to say here and thank you for asking me this(<- more thankfulness filled than I can properly express at the moment, so sorry). I didn't proof-read much of this I'm so sorry if it's like incoherent and has the punctuation of the "I'm eating, Grandma" vs "I'm eating Grandma" grammar tool.

Okay I'm like. Blaming the fact I messed up my sleep schedule and it's 11:27pm and I just woke up like an hour and a half ago and I side-tracked myself like absolutely crazy but keep side-tracking myself into different rants or tangents so it is just a forever increasing ramble, but TL;DR, I actually prefer media that is dead or left alone because I get so anxious when new stuff comes out cause I'm afraid of what they'll do to my faves or if they'll butcher them or add slap-stick love interests, etc., and when Cars on the Road came out(idk how aware people are that it exists), I spent the whole first watch through not really enjoying and savoring it cause I was so anxious over what was gonna happen that I spent the whole time making sure it was 'safe' and I wasn't going to have a pit in my stomach. Which, it turned out lovely and I actually have some things from it that I super love and adore, but I have actually unironically predicted my F/Os so strongly(among other listful factors) that I'd rather them finally put it to rest before it starts getting into beating a dead horse territory, cause I don't know if there's really much of anything left for them to expand on anyway.

My serious answer?: I'm not entirely sure, but I would enjoy seeing them just expand on some more smaller stuff, and I'd like it better if they didn't try to do 'revivals' of characters from past movies(ily Chick but Cars 3 was a bitttt of some injustice to you), I know they're supposed to be more action-y movies but I love slice of life stuff and I'd totally just watch an hour and forty minutes of Lightning just like playing around Radiator Springs or something(every Cars game ever). Though my ultimate ideal scenario is just none at all.

My slightly less serious answer that probabblyyy isn't gonna happen but the odds are never zero(he says humorously)?: They should spend the whole time doing documentary style movie about how it would've gone if I was in the previous movies +sketches/storyboards or reanimated scenes of small moments but I'm thrown in there. ALL IM SAYING IS Cars 2 would've been SO funny if I was in it okay. Would've been exhausted running around the entirety of Europe(+like US and Japan for a moment) nearly the entire time and someone watching would've been sick to their stomach cause the movie WOULD CONCLUDE with it all ending via the power love, and I'm not sorry. Would've had my 'Mary Sue' moment of like nearly every major(and some minor) cast role having SOME sort of feelings for me, most typically romantic. And it being reciprocated. You want an action movie?? There, now tell me THAT ain't action-packed. I refuse to believe the outcome of anything would be predictable. Every last interaction is gonna leave the viewers asking "what the HELL is going on and what will happen next". Pixar(and Disney) I am right here but it's okay if ur busy cause I'm busy too.

The stuff under the cut is basically the same thing I said here(mostly focused on my 'serious' answer bit), but veryy elaborated upon, so it's fairly lengthy. PUTTING MY PHONE DOWN AND HITTING POST NOW BEFORE I SOMEHOW ADD MORE. BUT THANK YOU THNAK YOU FOR ASKING THIS I DIDNT THINK I WOULD WRITE AN ACTUAL ESSAY I AM SO SORRY.

I don't know how much I really mention this, cause I think it a lot but I don't wanna like drive my blog viewers nuts if I say it so much over and over again, but I get like so anxious over whenever knew stuff or content of my F/Os come out believe it or not! There was only like.. one or two medias in the past where I was actually like.. excited whenever the person posted new stuff! Somehow I've had the luck of most things that I F/O from are dead upload-wise. I get so anxious that it'll go down hill(especially if the media has been going on for a while now, which.. Cars starting in 2006 I'd count that) cause I've watched some shows just go downhill or randomly butcher characters or add slap-stick romantic interests that it just makes me far too anxious!! Honestly, I thought Cars WAS finished and through with, but for whatever reason there was the release of Cars on the Road(don't know how many people know of that) and DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVED IT and I still do and think about it fairly often, I actually really really love and adore some of the qualities they expanded on with Mater and Lightning but that's a whole thing for another time probably-, but what I didn't enjoy was being so anxious over it that when it came out I practically spent my whole first watch through making sure that it was 'safe' and something wasn't going to happen that makes me feel like I swallowed a rock and my stomach sinks. Which thankfully didn't happen at all, I loved how it turned out and still rewatch it occasionally, I think they nailed it, but I didn't like the so nervous experience I had in the first place😅

I've heard some people talk about someone who did an interview with someone who supposedly works on the Cars stuff about how they still had stuff in mind they wanted to do with the characters, I'm HOPING I don't somehow jinx myself wildly but honestly I'd muchhh rather prefer it just gets dropped and they let Cars just be what it is for now. Sometimes I question if they just do this stuff because they milk a crazy amount of money out of how well the diecasts sell, which is why they have so many one-off diecasts like the off-roading ones or the glow in the dark ones, or just random sorts of themes. Which, entire tangent for another day, can't BELIEVE they put Jackson anywhere CLOSE do a dirt racing series even if it was just the diecast. But anyway.

TO ACTUALLY ANSWER YOU QUESTION... I'm not super sure!!! I've heard some people talk about seeing more stuff about how Cruz and Lightning race together would be interesting, I think I'd prefer something like that as opposed to a revisit of characters from previous movies or such(ily Chick but they tampered your voice in Cars 3 and I'd argue your personality a bit as well), truthfully I'm not super sure, I've never thought about it so much before!! They should include me in the movie(/hj). Truthfully, normally each movie has been sort of centered around Lightning having some sort of character development arc he has to go through, I'm not sure what else he could be put through! Don't get me wrong, he's absolutely not a perfect character, which is what makes characters so enjoyable in the first place, but he doesn't have as big of a staple thing to go through like he did in the first movie where he was a "I can do it all by myself" i-use-my-ego-to-hide-my-feelings rookie. I don't entirely like how the third movie took it truthfully, with the whole "McQueen is getting older..😢😥..how will he still race?!" Cause like one of the staple differences between F1 and NASCAR is that so many NASCAR racers(especially if they made it good) stay racing until they are like in their 60s+ or their hairs are graying(which, arguably could happen whenever but for the sake of my point, stereotypical age-related graying). And Lightning is like in his mid-30s in the third movie at the LATEST. So I don't know what any of that was about. I know there was the whole new gen of racers thing but he honestly wasn't doing too bad keeping up with them until things got into his head and he freaked himself out(on top of the crash, and the like. Literal depression he falls in to). And then there's the whole thing of he actually had it in him the win the last race in the movie at the Flordia 500 blah blah blah but he wanted to switch out with Cruz so she could have her moment, which, I'm not entirely ecstatic over how they paced Cruz's development, I wish they let it marinate a bit more but I get they had crunch-time in the movie.

[savcir-faire]

taichi, he’s back!

…he’s back. arata’s come home.

[lemorgo]

hikaru is so bpd

[mae-i-scribble]

I wish I had more to express how much i love spiderverse other than just sitting with my thoughts and vibrating intensely as my emotions bubble forth. Like. This is everything I’ve wanted. Yes it’s not perfect but its flaws are so ignorable that it doesn’t matter in the long run and more than that I just love it. I love good superhero content- good spiderman content. It’s managed to almost singlehandedly REVOLUTIONIZE what was a dwadling cgi landscape- and I suspect ATSV is gonna do that again. The fact that they managed to hit it out of the park not once but twice. As someone who went to see spiderverse the opening week and fell in love, I’m just so fucking happy rn

[leafatlaw]

Jay ferin who pushes down her anger, who makes sure to never get mad. but when she does the anger boils over and she burns everyone one else. Jay who hates her friends fighting and arguing but when she does its because shes right. Girls who wear their fathers hand me down anger even when its a few sizes too big.

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

Realizing that the past few weeks I’ve been in a very stressed out anxious state and tbh the act of finishing and posting art would make me feel better BUT I’m rusty and so wrung out that making art going badly or being frustrating would make me feel much worse

I’m also torn by feeling badly like I want to learn new skills and push myself and just wanting a finished piece to feel good about

[swampstew]

Thanks to everyone who's reached out! There's more in my ask box but I'll answer tomorrow. I'm eepy and my Kid mugi plush is calling me for cuddles.

[yuukimiyas]

this might not make a ton of sense but do you guys ever love a blorbo sm that you forget to be super vocal ab it? ૮꒰ྀི ∩៸៸៸∩ ‎꒱ྀིა

[yoloyeahhh]

if you see hearts pulsating in my eyes, don’t freak out. i’m just so dreadfully full of love, i need to become a bit of an eldritch horror.

[kuromi-hoemie]

i think it should be completely normal and encouraged to tell people you love them if you love them, and to say when you're in love with them when you are.

i don't want to say ily i want to say i love you because I Do, i am simply not in love with you. ykwim