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fishyfishyfishtimes · 6 months

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I love you winter!

I love you, first snowfall of the season. I love you, powdery snow and frozen grass in the mornings. I love you, pink and purple sunsets. I love you, heavy snowfall. I love you, waking up in the morning to find a thick blanket of untouched white snow. I love you, skiing trips through the woods. I love you, hot berry juice. I love you, making running steps through the untouched snow to see how far you can leap. I love you, frost and snow in the tree branches making everything look glistening and perfect. I love you, grey cloudy days when everything looks monochrome except for the red trunks of the pines. I love you, downhill skiing. I love you, trying out new routes and tricks while downhill skiing and getting out of my comfort zone! I love you, hot chocolate and whipped cream. I love you, great tits and magpies flying about looking for food. I love you, clear days when the sky is blue and you remember how beautiful it really is. I love you, heavy snowfall illuminated by the street lamps at night. I love you, walking on the sea ice and lake ice and accessing places I never could before. I love you, glögi. I love you, snowflakes and inspecting your patterns. I love you, steaming hot saunas. I love you, ice swimming, even though you also frighten me! I love you, fairy lights in the trees. I love you, wind-carved waves and shapes in the snow. I love you, blue hour. I love you, warm blankets. I love you, tiny black streams still staying unfrozen and moving. I love you, icicles and other beautiful ice formations. I love you, crown snow-load and thick snow covering the trees. I love you, northern lights. I love you, fireplaces. I love you, waking up in the middle of the night in your warm bed, finding the house completely quiet as you walk through the hall, and upon looking out the window, all you can see is the calm snow slowly making its way to the ground, illuminated by the colourful fairy lights and the orange street lights. And you get this magical feeling inside of you, that you’re so warm, and calm, and perfectly safe and sound in this very moment. And you feel like you could stand there forever and just… take it all in.

I love you winter!

#parting words to the past season.#i would already consider it “spring” right now. heck; a week and a half ago is when spring started beginning this year i would say #however! the infamous “backwinter” surprised me and every other finn this past weekend and i wanted to say a few words about winter #just a little parting gift! it was so lovely of winter to pay a final visit before going away for a bit #i know northern lights and ice swimming might be a bit on the nose to some folks who live more south but these are all things ive done and #felt and seen and not just vague romantic winter-related terms ^^’#there is probably more things i love about winter im forgetting here. but no matter! i will remember next winter im sure :]#i want to do this for every season because i greatly enjoy all of them for many reasons #important

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pcktknife · 10 months

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stressed yet again 😏

#wake up every other day with the goal of just trying to survive my own thoughts and feelings ugh im tired #anyway thing of today just boils down to me not being able to put my own feelings before anyone elses n caring too much things i probably #shouldnt. the anxiety of a hypothetical situation just makes me wanns kms is all #its fine ill go to sleep tonight and only think about it when im reminded for the next few days until i forget and the problem inevitably #returns again sometime like a couple weeks from now its cool👍🏾#kae.txt

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snowtimeisbesttime · 1 year

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all classpect interpretations are equally canon- and this is why:

sburb/sgrub/sname is many things, but the first of those things we see is a computer game. said game's source code can be found in carvings in the frog temple, which comes from a Reckoning meteor; so each sthing version's code comes specifically from itself!

and considering every session we've seen has had an unique frog temple (beta kids: 4 land spires; beta trolls: two separate temples with 6 land spires each; alpha kids: 8 land spires, alpha trolls: at least one temple (with 12 land spires??), possibly located on beforus' moon), there's no reason to assume each and every temple's carvings are exactly the same…

therefore, two swhatever instances can have drastically different classpect definitions because they're running different versions of the game! for example, my own mirrorbent's sgame was compiled in a way where i won't have to go into too many specifics from their own, separate, 12 land spires temple (as opposed to being widely distributed like the beta kids' sburb), and classwise features active knights and passive pages, to pick an example that was recentlyish polled about.

of course, this mini theory thingy would be most applicable to fanventures, while most classpecting theory revolves about homestuck proper for obvious reasons. luckily, i've got some Key Insights about the canon classpects, just beyond this readmore:

get mutie'd lmao!!!!

413 zillion kitys attack!!!!

#no jumpscares or anything below the readmore- just two gifs #homestuck #homestuck413 #classpect #classpecting #fanventures #homestuck fanventure #fwiw my own classpect interpretations would be something like. retro plus #as in i developed most of them All The Way Back When but ofc ive absorbed New and Cool things that have been popping up #and of course same goes for Mirrored Bench my most of blorbos. like especially so.#so like (active/passive) witch/heir (manipulate) maid/sylph (create) knight/page (exploit) mage/seer (understand)#but no 'mages get screwed over forever by their aspect' as Actual Class Definition And Requisite #and ofc no gendered classes #But Also yes inversion theory (arc flavor) because im already going to have to rewrite Enough Shit without jettisoning an entire act orz #and also a few custom aspect palettes (earlier tealer fanon mind; richer less gray life; void with. more than like 3 shades)#also also Every godtier has super deep and convenient pockets. All of them. Pockets for Days.#And more things i'm probably forgetting.

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sorrowsaint · 4 months

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im going to bed

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heres a song i like goodnight

#......................#.............................................#..............................................................................#thats probably enough of a buffer.#last night i dreamed i was in the hollow below the tree that my body was in. when i woke up in the morgue all i wanted to do was curl up #my bones remember i think. even if i dont. sometimes i feel a phantom emptiness on my chest #like the arrows. like the knives.#its scary. its so scary.#im just a kid #will i remember it forever? how long will it haunt me?#people die all the time. people die and come back. people die and come back and they remember but it doesnt haunt them #i was trapped in death and i think thats... its not gone. maybe it is magically but i still feel it.#all i had for so many months was the vague knowledge that i was dead and this overwhelming sense of sharp coldness #my body remembers. i remember. how does anyone forget things like this? i dont want this. i dont want to remember.#i like it under my bed. ive put pillows and blankets down here. the vent that blows in cold air is here too so it feels comfy #and maybe it reminds me of being under the tree. and i dont know why but thats something im actually okay with #my body was under something for so long. the soil was cursed but i loved those woods. i miss the woods. my body hurts.#my mom is missing a leg and sometimes she talks about phantom pains. like her leg realizes it isnt there and screams #can you feel that way about a hole in your chest and your neck. can you feel that way about a tree above you.#can you feel that way about death #maybe i should get angry. but alone. so so alone so i dont hurt anyone.#i cant prove him right. because he was wrong and everything he ever said was wrong and he sucks and i hate him #im not like him.#im like gertie and my parents.#im so tired. im so tired. i want to sleep in dirt for a few more months. maybe sort myself out somewhere dark and quiet.

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3amsnek · 1 year

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new icon time bc the moment we hit double digits on the halloween countdown my brain genuinely straight up forgot it was still summer

#*changes my icon and immediately forgets so I get jumpscared every time I use hold to rb on mobile*#oh yeah and here’s this funky guy. haven’t posted him before #he exists bc my hand shook in the wrong direction when messing around with a completely different Weird Cat concept and I went o shit that’s #better actually #my art?#my oc art #character art #original character #oc art #furry #character design #ignore that this draft is almost three weeks old just don’t even worry abt it #life is. hahahaahaha. so much rn my summer has been Dog and Constant Stress and art is just. not able to be a priority rn #so ofc I have many ideas :’) someday im gonna be able to do things just bc i feel like it for more than five minutes again. someday #i do have like 4? i think? finished pcs of Bear Art from the past few months that i might post for fbw let me know if you want that perhaps #but that’s not for another month or two I think? i should know that im sorry brooks falls bearcam i have failed :(#there’s some stuff in the drafts i forgot I didn’t post too actually #maybe I’ll get around to that with my. very minimal free time the next couple of days (<- probably won’t)#on that note #if you commissioned something from me and I haven’t posted it pls don’t be sad i am simply attempting to survive the summer #my brain is not good in hot weather under the best of circumstances and this has not been those #I Do plan to post them they just take more brain than like. this quick silly doodle for myself to draft out #i know ppl probably are not worried i am simply. afraid.#anyways. look a creature

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onippep · 1 year

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i hope you're doing okay with all the fireworks goin' off, red!

Firew--

(oh GOD OH GOD OH GOD.)

#;pizzasks #;peppino speaks #leaddyart #my ass forgetting july4 is a thing (im not american)#needless to say the fireworks have probably been going off for a few days now))

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unnonexistence · 2 months

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an important writing question to ask yourself is "how much time and effort do i want to put into figuring out what this character's legal documents would look like"

#newt has THE MOST BULLSHIT COMPLICATED backstory for this i stg #born out of wedlock in west germany in 1990 when the two germanies were IN THE MIDDLE of reuniting but not done yet #and then almost immediately moved to the united states with his dad because his parents broke up #which seems to imply his dad got full custody?? which seems at least a little weird for the time period #could not figure out if it was even legally plausible because TWO GERMANIES #but both parents wanted his dad to have full custody so like... maybe??#anyway what fucking citizenship does he have. i dont even know #was thinking dual but germany doesnt like dual #so that might only work if his dad transmitted american citizenship to him like a bloodline curse #but i think that only works if his dad was already a citizen when he was born and his dad is german so THAT would mean-#*insert that one gif of charlie day with the pepe sylvia conspiracy board*#so maybe he just has american citizenship???#i dont know how that works either...#and then when im writing him hes trans on top of all that #which makes all this relevant unfortunately! could this man have gotten a legal name change circa 2010?#i THINK so?? im probably just going to handwave it?? but AARGH #i dont LIKE handwaving these things because like #anachronisms with trans characters & the transition process always bug me a bit #im almost 10 years younger than newt but i remember shit was DIFFERENT even back in like. 2014.#this isnt a legal thing but i remember before there was a nonbinary pride flag. we shared the purple-white-green genderqueer one #well. 'we' including me at the time. im a man now #and surgery has changed! no-nip top surgery was really rare to hear about before like... even just a few years ago?#im sure it was happening but it's way more common now than it was in like 2020 #and i didnt even know trans people existed until like 2010 #the first time i saw a trans character in ANY work of fiction was 2011 #personal #unscientific aside #im way off on a tangent now i forget if i was going to say anything else #good enough hit post

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dizzysilhouette · 5 months

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“Rockstar” gets super anxious, and so Foggy Jack sits him down and checks his pulse.

He then makes him take propranolol, lays the scared guy down, and watches as the glad rags-clad musician slowly calms down.

Foggy Jack takes “Rockstar”’s pulse one more time before letting him sleep whenever he needs to.

#silhouette speaks #we kinky few #oc: rockstar #inspired by the fact i take it now (prescription ofc)#ik this is teeeechnically #drugging kink #at least somewhat but also?#foggy jack (in the au rockstar is from) really loves rockstar #and he just wants him to be okay #uhhh what else. rockstar’s real name is mark #Mark Phoenix is his full name #im probably gonna forget i wrote this #love you guys #kisses you guys on the mouth platonically~#last note- i mention the pulse thing bc it’s an important thing when taking the medicine!! dont forget to do it before and after you take it #‘tay i go now

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abra-ka-dammit · 5 months

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listen. mutuals isnt a special relationship, (assuming mutuals is the only "relationship" you have w the other person.)

you're not besties. so if they keep accidentally forgetting to tag some of your 25 random innocuous triggers, instead of vagueposting and causing drama, or having a hissy fit in DMs, u can just. unfollow. its okay. youre not lovers. youre not family. youre not even friends. youre two people who happened to like each other's post content on the internet. just unfollow. cater your internet experience to yourself if it's important for you to have a safe place. dont put it on strangers to cater it to for you.

#stupid shit #i know its been said by others more eloquently #but i was just reminiscing on a person who lashed out at me for forgetting to tag Deep Water a few times and im still befuddled to this day #and im not exaggerating. im probably understating the amount of trigger tags this person needed #and it was all just. things in life that a normal person wouldnt even think could be a trauma trigger #deep water was one of the ones that made a LITTLE sense to me but i still would like. forget when im reblogging a fish or smth. sorry #i have bad enough memory to feel like things id clearly done at work on friday never happened by monday #im not gonna remember the dozens of tags of someone i barely know from adam

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motherforthefamicom · 2 years

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aib is fucking wild actually the attention to detail is just. it drives me crazy theres so many jokes in the background constantly theres so many things where youll be like 'wow thats a fun visual gag' or 'thats a nice little bit of characterization' and then you realize while rewatching thats there was MORE set up to that or it just keeps staying consistent and builds on it more later. and like all of this is awesome on its own but also its all animated in FUCKING *POWERPOINT*?? insane.

#ive rewatched aib like six times this week. help #also im pointing this out becuz well ive just noticed a lot of little details i hadnt picked up on until now but im rewatching #episode 5 rn and like. few days ago honeycomb made that post abt how alef doesntlike sit in the pool float consistently #during the elimination AND YOU CAN LITERALLY SEE HIM STRUGGLING TO TRY AND SIT IN IT NORMALLY #BEFORE THE ELIMINATION PROPERLY STARTS??#oh and also in episode 4 before team 3 starts working on their art you can see bone drawing shot put and glassy #becuz they were in the previous scene and you can also see them walking by and #theres like so much more im probably forgetting about theres just so much and im living for it #i fucking love it when things have tons of fun little details and background jokes and just shit where you can tell #they had a lot of fun making it and wanted to leave all these fun little easter eggs for the people who care =)#inquisitivewaltz.txt #animated inanimate battle #osc #oh and also i still cannot comprehend the fact that its a powerpoint show. like how does he do it how does it look so good

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piplupod · 2 months

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are you the most annoying person in the world or do you just need to eat something: a memoir by me

#i feel like absolute shit rn fsdjkl #i think i talked too much today even though i barely spoke at all #but every time i talked someone else had smth to say and then the leader guy had to keep coming back to me like ''what were u saying?''#which was rly nice of him but like. if i just kept my mouth shut then he wouldnt have had to do that at all fdjskl #i mean like. he did ask me questions directly a few times. so he was trying to help me have opportunities to speak #but fsjkl i just. i feel bad for talking bc i know everyone else wants to talk constantly #and i can do without speaking fsdjkl i just... i kept stumbling over my words so badly and it was rly embarrassing ;-;#but i'd get nervous and panicked bc i knew i'd be interrupted at any second so i was just trying to find the shortest way to say my thing #but then i'd trip over my words bc i was so nervous and it'd take too long #and i just felt like i wasn't putting enough effort into my tone so i probably sounded rly flat today and i just. urgghhh #holding my head and tugging at my hair. why can't i just be normal dgjkl why am i so fucking annoying and weird and difficult #i dont know 😭 today was rly difficult bc i was just feeling kind of awful and like i was in the way all day #i did find some yarn colours i need at a flea market though and also some dip pens that i've always wanted to try #i figure $3 is a steal of a deal to try out dip pens instead of buying them brand new for like $30 fdsjkl #so there was something good from today! i just feel like i was annoying to be around all day idk fdsjkl #i honestly probably was totally fine sdfjkl i just. argh #and i hate going to stores w the centre bc i end up following the group leader around after a while bc i dont ever buy anything #i look around at the stuff i like to look at and then i am done and don't want to be a nuisance by being hard to find when everyone-#-else is done so i just figure sticking by the group leader is the best idea. stores dont like when i hang around the front for long fdsjkl #but then i just feel like a weird little kid trailing after their parent 😭 i wish i could just be an AdultTM but augh augh augh #what a fucking weird thing for me to do dsfjkl i just. dont know what else to do bc stores get annoyed w me if i wait at the front #and i dont want to wait outside bc then they'll forget im out there and look for me inside when theyre done LMAO #if i had income then maybe i'd be able to spend longer looking at things but fdsjkl theres only so much looking u can do when u dont buy #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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dnangelic · 9 months

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mw the LN 2 post is 50 times the length of the LN 1 post

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT.#AAAA AAA SUMMARY?!?! FORGET THAT #IM BASICALLY TRANSCRIBING/TYPING UP THE ENTIRE THING 😂😭#NVM NO IC REPLIES TONIGHT PROBABLY. OR AT LEAST NOT FOR A FEW HRS. LET ME FOCUS ON THIS #IM ONLY AT PAGE 57/200 #HELP ME!!!

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callmehere-iwillappear · 10 months

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FOR LIKE. CONTEXT. idiot's guide is broken up into two arcs, arc 1 is... almost done i think. hopefully. there's still kind of a ways to go for arc 2

so essentially i'm thinking about, once i do finish writing and editing arc 1, starting to post those chapters on a once a week schedule. then if i haven't finished arc 2 by the time i run out, i'd take a break from posting until it does get finished. if it is finished by then i'll just continue posting lmaofjdsklfjd

#talk tag #HOPEFULLY THIS MAKES SENSE LMAO #uhhh. idk what else #like okay i knowwwwwww i know i said im waiting and i WILL if thats what the poll says but also #i am very excited for some of the stuff i already have written LMAO #and i feel like posting it and getting like feedback and shit will help motivate me maybe????? idk shrugs #I REALLY REALLY WANT TO SEE PPL FIGURE IT OUT #i like. legit. always forget that ppl dont know as much as me bc its My Fic #and i assumed ppl would know [redacted] only to realize that. its not explicitly stated or even heavily implied. just lightly implied #so it makes sense that ppl Wouldn't know. and now i am very very very very very excited to see when people figure it out LMAO #among other things #yes there are MULTIPLE secrets to be figured out #though one of them i think is probably not. like. i don't think anyone's gonna figure it out until it's Actually Revealed In Text #or very few people anyway #either way i'm excited akl;fjdklsjfd #i looooooove seeing ppls theories whether they're right or wrong tbh

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ifyourereadingthisblinktwice · 3 months

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i need to stop forgetting things exist the fucking second they leave my field of vision. why is is impossible for two things to occupy my mind at once especially when im tired. like. i feel like a sim. i feel like actions are being canceled and i just. move on. and completely forget what i was doing moments before. i fucking hate it

#i feel like it’s getting worse too #like its always hasn’t been great but the past few weeks have been especially bad #why can’t i remember things!! why is my short term memory sucking ass!!!!!!#like if i don’t write/type things down i loose it #making me wanna rip my hair out what the fuck is going on!!!!!#gonna start playing those phone games that improve memory or whatever #it’s either that or going to my mom for an essential oil recommendation #i know it’s probably some undiagnosed shit but im also like. i can’t keep blaming whatever is wrong with my brain because its a problem with #/me/. ya know?? like. yeah it is something with my brain. obviously. but i need to take some sort of action to fix it. and i dont know what #that action is #besides the two options i said before #or carrying a fucking notebook around and writing down everything. which is stupid also and i know won’t last a week #problem is im gonna forget about any rule i come up with since as soon as im preoccupied with something else. i’ll forget the rule #i would need a hat with the reminder on paper tapped to the hat #so it’s always dangling in front of my eyes #i don’t know what else to do at this point!!!!#it’s making me so worried about going away for college. cause yeah i did really well at community. but if i have the deteriorating memory #of a goldfish who’s constantly banging its head against the glass. how am i gonna make it through university.#i love writing essays in the tags that no one will read <3 #having a ball rn. a great time. not feeling like a waste of resources at all rn. feeling great.#if my mom doesn’t let me wear my earbuds tomorrow i think ill scream #anyways. gonna bake some blueberry lemon sweet rolls tomorrow #me rambling #i love being undiagnosed #but let’s be real #being diagnosed won’t give me anything other than more of an excuse #because i can’t go on meds with my current living situation #and i also don’t really want to go on meds because i don’t trust them #feeling silly i think ill actually post this one maybe someone has a suggestion for what to do #vent

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barkingangelbaby · 4 months

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venting so much i ran out of tags lmao

#i think im hallucinating ?????#i have my headphones on (listening to boyfeel on repeat n choppin up some paper)#and keep feeling / seeing shadows in my peripheral vision #im probably just dehydrated and having bad floaters but i dont like it :)#today has also been bad dramatically awful #life isn't serious there's no reason to feel this heavy #oop very emo thoughts incoming #life can't be meaningful or ill miss my parents too much but can't be meaningless or im living without them for nothing #im just. struggling very hard this year. idk #i had so much health bullshit going on for months that i put off going to a psych n now im so busy that it feels bad taking time off for it #and im also scared of getting on meds bc the idea of being dependent on something that i might not have access to is.. auuughhh #idk dude my adhd has been debilitating lately and i feel so stuck and sometimes i think i have ocd bc my compulsions are so fucking bad and #all my mental bullshit with my breathing has slowly been driving me wild and peaks my anxiety #and sometimes i worry abt being bipolar bc my mom's mom is and my mom's best friend told me she thought my mom might have been #bc the way my moods are so low or so high is exhausting it feels like i haven't had a “normal” day in so long #but also atp when im happy i feel manic bc idk how to healthily experience happiness anymore #idfk y'all !!!! im also very nonverbal these days #ugh and still going back n forth on telling my therapist ive been suicidal again bc i dont want him to have to report me or anything idk #a few months ago i made a joke about offing myself and he got rly serious n said he'd have to take action if im serious so im leaning no #like. i wouldnt actually kill myself. i just don't want to exist sometimes in this life #its just been very very very very very very very very very very very very very very hard lately without my parents or grandma #and even after all these years it's still heartwrenching to think about continuing to live this life without them #like. i just want to make them laugh. i just want to feel their arms around me in a warm hug. i just want to dance to their favorite songs.#i don't want to think of them and see their dead bodies anymore. i want to remember them healthy and smiling.#i would take care of them again in every lifetime but fuck dude. i just want to remember their good days instead of the end. can i please #please fucking invision them at their best. i want to remember the dad that played baseball and video games and whose laugh filled the room #i want to remember my grandma who was so sassy but kind. whose button nose crinkled when she smiled. who taught me to happily be dramatic #i don't want to remember them being frail. i want to forget the frustration i saw in their eyes. i want to forget seeing them struggle #(insert sadness about not remembering my mom at all)#just. fuck dude. my life is simple and i am safe so i shouldn't complain. but things feel so fucking hard sometimes. i feel so heartbroken

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ajdrawshq · 4 months

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on the note of you not getting the best grade at DMing (but a good grade at friend!!!) did you ever get around to reading Kay's zero escape fic I don't even remember when I mentioned it but surely I mentioned it to you right did I :0

... also I have been getting a bad grade in getting back into playing rpgs I'm sory 😭

OH SHIT DID I...... I DONT THINK I HAVE..... i swear i remember u mentioning it to me at some point but i mustve just completely forgot after a while im so sorry;; maybe its somewhere in our dms.. ill check for it there after i wake up (< FOR REAL THIS TIME..) but maybe itd be easier if u sent it again just in case? thank u SO much for reminding me bc i would Not have remembered this myself,,

#ik theres a few things i either have yet to read or have yet to like . write down my thoughts on and i dont remember which this one was..#i have a feeling its the former bc i dont even remember anything besides the fact that its a ze fic.. 0(-(#also!! no worries abt getting a bad grade in playing rpgs KXHSKD it wouldnt be as fun if u tried to rush thru it!! play at ur own pace :3 #WAIT ON THAT NOTE BEFORE I FORGET THO. do u happen to remember what part of isat ur at. either the act number or #whatever happened last or smth like that. i can probably figure out p easily based on that #(asking specifically so i know what posts i can let escape my drafts so i dont risk spoiling u on something Big)#oh ALSO also. are u open to recieving hints for things . that are both Major Important Secret Stuff and also Super Fricking Missable #hints can range from very vague to just telling u directly #the only reason im asking is bc u probably wouldnt wanna play the game twice just for This One Thing KXHSKS but also its. its so. . yeah.#oh shit i should probably ask kay that at some point too . hm.#oh and by telling u directly i mean telling u how to do the thing that does the thing not just telling u what the actual secret is #if that . made any sense #ANYWAY.#i might look thru our dms before sleeping tbh just to cnfirm its there but im gonna pass out right after either way #TY FOR THE ASK!!!!! :3 #ask #mortellanarts

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