#im so shy about posting this cuz its really goofy

[2008hondacivic]

Doodles / little comic bits from a silly AU idea where post-rescue Shauna gets haunted by REAL ghost girl Jackie. The idea is that Jackie wants Shauna to help her spirit "move on" but Shauna keeps sabotaging their efforts because she doesn't want to lose her friend again. Maybe Jackie doesn't really want to move on either, even though she's holding onto A LOT of (earned) resentment toward Shauna. She's also pretty cynical, like she was towards the end of season 1. They initially believe that ghost Jackie is tethered to the necklace, but later find out that she's tethered to Shauna, so destroying the necklace won't exorcise the ghost. Calling it "Cold Comfort" for funsies.

The idea is just for fun and the girlies are probably at least a bit out of character -- its just supposed to be a silly Scooby Doo-ass AU for me to doodle about when I'm bored!

Guide to the drawings:

1)/2) After realizing that the ghost she keeps seeing around is not just a figment of her imagination, Shauna tries to keep her cool and decides to say hi. Ghost Jackie is not having it.

3) Jackie wishes she could change her ghost outfit.

4) Shauna listens to music late at night and suppresses her feelings (ignore that the song came out in 1999 -- actually, maybe that could work with the timeline).

5)/6) Jackie and Shauna brainstorm some ways to exorcise ghost Jackie at the library.

7) Jackie and Shauna consult The Bible for info about ghosts, spirits, the afterlife, and exorcisms

8) Title card I made to fill the empty space lol

[madfantasy]

I haven't seen you post in a while, I hope you've been doing okay? How is everything? Hope it's been a good year so far for you 💕💕

You're too kind, u & everyone who made inquiries, bless ur hearts.. im sorry for disappearing, but yeah, I don't have net— using my phone credit and hope this posts..

I tried to record my voice answering this, like I sometimes did on tik, suddenly ended up trying to muffle the floods of my burning tears, so now I have an awkward vid of me talking then weeping out of nowhere, which a good reason for me to keep up the no cry habit, heh.. but seriously, I suppose I'm fine till I be conscious of it.. its much easier for not to talk .. even tho I'm aching to be back in thy company, lonely in my foresight to catch on to the present that joins us, hand held out to reach like minded souls but shying from the fear of forgetfulness occurring..

I'm fine tho, did few new stuff, merely drowning in too muchness and nothingness as usual, this month I guess you could say I took an act of mad fury in search of any happy source because the echoing silence and the swarm of sadness nipping on my brain cells thickened, and the reasoning merged with the obscene. So instead of giving my guardians the usual of 3/4 of my earnings last month for net and groceries, I spent it all. Ya know, as it was told to me it mine to do as I please? As being prevented any chance of work if it was possible, 't was supposed to be spent on art supplies & measly delights craved for years ?

Before hand, I've been begging them to take me for months to get any clothing or whatever, be it the first time I ever see a shop, then just to drive around, then just me peaking to the outside when the front door is open, merely seeking change I suppose. They kept vaguely promising me until they refused point blank— getting tired of my nagging, then their car just stopped working till this day. Its in the workshop rn..

Anyway, befouled by despair, needing the mere basics of life and not granted, I was delighted when i found a site to buy from cheap & pretty, I pressed buy without any further considerations, or taking their permission and thrilled to be able get gifts for my siblings too. I say gifts but really they are deprived necessities too and not even much just one each cuz well, they are 5 of my babies and to start with the top of priorities; we all draw

I could already see it, they can't help themselves; heck seeped through the clenched gates of their mouths, trying desperately to poison me with undirect attempts this time, cuz I bought for my sibs they're out of the option of calling me selfish. I was upping the same trance like state of vague existence dealing with them, absorbing their insults and degrading just to make sure my shi arrives safe.

Unfortunate for me, the site chose the worst carrier in this country

I did everything in my power to make it into their convenience, by embarrassingly messaging the carrier daily, they took a week of promising to deliver and flanking so my guardians reached a heated level of threatening, waving their hands nd almost tossing shi at mE saying that they don't care if they came and if i dared to order something again they'll do this and that. Not allowing me to open the door for the delivery guy when he comes, blaming me for missing vaccination dates (they kept missing them even before)& missing going to important places(again, they just didn't go to for ages), made them loose sleep, etc etc— in turn, I seen red and regretfully blew up.

I screamed at them its literally the only time I ever did this, it BECAUSE it easier on them & I'll do what I want whatever anyway, & to stop interrupting me while I try to explain things , then they suddnly back done and be like I'm not mad at u I'm mad at the delivery ppl, that they are proud of me for being able to do all this, and such sort. I left them to cool in my room, Idk how I did it but must have slam-gripped something so hard it chipped most of my short nails & cracked one, was glad I didn't hurt my drawing hand but yeah, goofy mani

They robbed me of the joy of anticipation & the dissipation of apathy, I started to lose sleep again and my liberating dreams left me and I don't think I remember leaving bed.

But still, If not force myself to do things.. there'll be nothing for me if I don't.. at least I know im able of that

I got my guardians happy tho after another tiresome refusal, by trying out one of those Uber-eat like local apps here, since they have no car and being disabled & ill, I ordered McDonald's for the first time. Slythry behind their backs per habit, told them someone coming and they had that look again, but thankfully the guy came through and didn't steal my money, heh. For a big 1800 calories meal I suppose it was passable, the happy fam faces I got was the real treat..

Oh with that thing with the credit card stating I owe them money, waited weeks & nobody got back to us? They started taking from my guardian's account directly to pay it, saying oh we did send you warnings--- TO THE SHADOWY LINES OF THEIR POSTERIOR A.K.A NOWHERE. Thankfully the account is mostly empty nd just for random transactions, i alerted my guardians not to use it. And again, my god, another round of endless calls and promises started, and we wait again so they just don't act as if we owe them a frking 17k dollars that we don't have.. was panicking cuz I have nothing and but my guardians were weirdly comforting about it and told me not to worry

One thing good bout no net is it made me stop thinking about life in general, and stop the tiny unnoticeable prick of misery when I have no input to share, trying not to helplessly compare people just living, in inflated style or not, in media, to my isolated-most-of-my-life style and missing much of that organic "life experiences and chances", heh. At least, my situation would be favorable to me if it was ever possible for it to let me have peace, or have the simple knowledge I'm not virtually imprisoned and have never familiarised with nothing of this world but the surrounding walls.. its nice to have more time to be consumed by muse and day dreaming that flutters life through my dull being and sing chorus of inspiring means for art to flow and finds its way delicately onto my realised canvas.. but no, I continued drawing whilst sight blurred with salty droplets contradicting that happy tintin dance on tiktok I worked so long on just cuz I couldn't stop, not the tears or the mad scribbles of determined intention to visualise the mourned excitement I need, hating everything I make

Somehow the lilac dream still intrudes, visualising me friends, living, in a quaint home, maybe we roommate, arm in arm we go to make every fracture of fate's encounters a disgusting adventurous thrill, like building a maze of cardboard or chasing each other in the dark.. maybe getting that half bleached head and endless ear pericings ... then it dies and I totally forget it..

But what those awesome headphones helped me do, literally blocks all their voices listening to Sev losing it and I can Waltz around not feeling gutted to go and interfere or play the referee each time. But I can't wear them forever, gives me a bad headache, and honestly; I can't be too neglectful.. my sibs hates me for it already hehe

At least these clothing came true to their measurements, felt the new sensations on how everything I wore hugs me & learnt the baffling ways on how "gender" and region plays different tunes on the same measurements. Getting fitting things felt like suddenly there's hope to be, for myself to be me, and ease this severe disassociation between who I am, and what my body is .. from how little I see myself nd consider it worthy of anything because of how long it been living like a phantom among people.. to numb this dysphoria until it be gone one day

Saddened that the only site I can't order from again if they keep using that awful carrier

...

I missed our country's 91 national day, too. They made sales everything 91 riyal so.. but knowing the sellers here, I don't think most of em went true with their offers.. Horrible news tho on the celebrations, sigh

I turned this into a dear diary, guess bothered you enough today, sorry

So thankful to yous, Idk if I can be back, but I'll remain creating, and will keep the thought alive of being tickled when sharing my creations with your viewing pleasure somehow

'till then my precious dears, take care 💛🙏

26.9.2021, 8 pm, sleeping

[miriossunshine]

hiya my name is helene and i’m 21 so i’d like a pro hero or villain match. can i ask for both? if not then idc which one, either works! im bi and enby but femme leaning and bi! i love playing with my hair color and currently have green hair. im not exactly mean to people i don’t know but i can be a little chilly and reserved, but not shy. im not scared of talking to new people, i just don’t usually care to. i have pretty low empathy if im not attached to you (1/2)

continued: (and i’m only attached to like 5 people in the world) but tbh i’m just terrified of letting people near me and trusting them. if u manage to get past the massive walls, i’m a hopeless romantic, cuddler, and softie. hobby wise, i really like writing + watching anime, and baking. i was a really weird and morbid kid, like playing with roadkill and wanting to be a mortician kind of weird, but i’m better abt not being creepy anymore. all in all, i’m pretty average i think (2/2)

aw yes ofc u can! 💞💞💞 ILYYYY~

i ship you with ms. joke!

the contrasts in your personalities is so cute~ emi is really optimistic and playful, whereas you’re more reserved! i can see her being really persistent in getting to know you, therefore getting through your walls to see your more vulnerable side 🥺💞

when i tell you she was ecastic when you started showing empathy toward her- you could’ve done something as simple as text her if she made it home safe, or ask her if she was okay when she wasn’t as cheery as usual, and BAM! a GOOFY smile makes its way onto her face when she realizes how much you care about her~ (and then she playfully teases you about it hehe)

she likes hearing about your odd interests as a child, and she giggles at all of your stories. you think you’re average, but emi thinks you’re the most interesting person she knows! ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

matching green hair >:D emi LOVES helping you dye your hair!! you guys have the best time and watch anime during the process!! (о´∀`о) when it’s all finished she begs you to let her take pics so that she can post them and show the world how cute your new hair is!!!!

you’re both such romantics omg. constant affection, the warmest cuddles, and the most thoughtful dates!! emi loves telling you jokes to see the grin that forms on your face and hear the laughter that falls from your lips \(//∇//)\

i also ship you with dabi!

you remind me a lot of him! youre both not super empathetic, you’re reserved, and don’t really have any motivations to talk to new people. i can see dabi being really interested in you because you’re so similar, and you guys develop a friendship from there :D

dabi smirks when he sees new boxes of dye and bleach in the kitchen where you left them, and he surprises you with a back hug when he finds you in the bathroom trying out a new hair color. >:3 he just kinda lazes around while you apply the color, but he always gets up and helps you even out the back of your head T^T💞

he understands why you’d have walls up to avoid getting hurt, and he doesn’t think it’s a totally bad thing. but this only motivates dabi to want to get past them more, so that he can always be there to help you through any hardship you go through ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

when you guys watch anime together he has his arm extended behind you on the couch, while you snuggle up into his chest \(//∇//)\ he likes this position because he feels like it’s a way to say that you’re his and he’s yours ><

dabi snorts when you tell him stories about your childhood, and thinks it’s cute in a weird way bcbdnsnsnsn. he pinches your cheek and ruffles your hair because you’re his cute soft bb no matter what your childhood was like 😤💕 he might call u a weirdo but that’s just cuz he likes to tease you bdbfndndn that’s how dabi is -3-

[ratmonky]

HOLY SHIT SO i’ve written to you before and i’ve been on your blog for a quite a while now like.. last year or more? i was always too shy to write even with anon on but i’m trying really hard to write comments to you! idk if you’d want comments even on your older docs or writings but im gonna try and make an effort to write to you more! ANYWAYS, YOUR ENGLISH IS SO GOOD!! i always wanted to say this— but like, you literally write so much better than many native english speakers. LIKE YOU WRITE SO WELL I CAN’T EXPLAIN IT— YOU’RE ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUTHORS. also, when you write for jjba, i was so happy because you wrote for a fandom i found relatively hard to find good writings about. and then when i got into jjk, I FOUND OUT YOU WROTE FOR IT TOO AND I’VE BEEN IN LOVE WITH ALL OF YOUR WORKS. i literally even read the five you make of fandoms i don’t even know because your writing is *THAT* good. and lately, i’ve been getting into using AO3, and then i also became really obsessed with gintama. i was searching for gintama fics on ao3 cause it was so hard to find any on other platforms and i read multiple really good ones AND THEN FOUND OUT IT WAS YOURS. I WAS SO HAPPY YOU DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND. anyways— i don’t know where im going with this ask, i’m sorry that it’s getting too long. BUT I REALLY LOVE YOUR GINTAMA FICS OMG. THEYRE LITERALLY A MASTERPIECE. the shinsuke one literally was so GOOD. like i re-read your works on the daily. YOUR SAKAMOTO ONE IS SMTH I READ BEFORE I SLEEP i really hope you make some more sakamoto ones in the future or maybe even katsura. i don’t really care, i’ll read everything you write anyway. sorry for the bother! please stay safe, healthy, and happy! thank you for writing for us! 💗

OH MY GOD A VETERAN WHO HAS SEEN MUNKEY EMBARRASS HERSELF FROM THEE BEGINNING TwT

a lot to unpack here ahh, first of all thank you for this ask!! it made me really happy!!!

please, you don't need to force yourself to comment! sending an ask is fine too and OMG getting comments on older fics are sooo wonderful for me cause i get to go back and reread my stuff! i post so many fics that sometimes i forget about the things i've written lol

thank you!!! i try to listen to audiobooks and podcasts to learn more words and improve my english!! i am so happy that it's working!!!

SO BASICALLY, I'M ALL OVER THE PLACE HUH? NHEJKVBJ

i write for many fandoms and like you can't predict which fandom i'll write for next, it's like a gambling without knowing the rules but still going all out hehe

i'm so so happy you've enjoyed my works and i'm so glad i've been able to provide you some sort of entertainment with different fics from different fandoms.

ok now fangirling time. gintama is the only fucking fandom i will never be able to leave, it had me in its clutches. it's the first anime i've ever watched, it has characters that made me into who i am today and if you met me irl you'd actually see the similarities. whether it be me being bullied (lovingly) by friends for being a munkey, me being unable to go a day without smoking or putting mayonnaise into food that shouldn't have mayo in it, me being emo and doing cool stuff my friends make fun of me for and lastly just me being the exact person gintoki is like. gintama is really and literally just me, as if it was made for me lmao (i know i don't make sense i just talk so fucking much when it comes to gintama because i love this show wayy too much and i hate that i will never be able to experience it for the first time ever again. i was fucking 8 when i watched this shit it's amazing how i'm still so invested in it)

okay okay back to the ask, uhhh i loved writing smothering silence omg, it was my favorite work in gintama before that shinsuke fic i wrote recently. ahh, don't worry, i'll definitely write more for gintama and omg... zura... i forgot about his goofy ass. hit me up with requests and i'll choose my favorite to write for him, it's so hard coming up with stuff for him when his whole existence is about wanting to fuck forlorn wives and having an ntr fetish???? like idk anymore this guy is too much for me hjwefbrgjr

again, thank you so much for this ask!! i... it reminded me of why i like posting here. it's just that i enjoy talking about the things i love and someone talking back. idk. i don't have weeb friends irl cuz i hide that part of myself (like toshi lol sorry i had to)

anywayyy i'm talking too much but yes thank you so much, you made my day!!! <3 <3 <3