#im strong i wont do anything and even if i do have the energy to literally everyone is home and i dont have anything i can use to hurt mysel

[asbestieos]

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[greykolla-art]

Your art smells like jthm (COMPLJMENT)!!..

Also are there any kool headcanons you have about the characters??

Oh thank you! I love how many different things my art style reminds people of!😂❤

(Í think it's all the hatching and random thickness in the brush strokes.)

But yeah i have some Headcanons! At least for Alastor cause he's the one I think about the most.😜

These are just things I decided to keep in mind when I come up with scripts:

*Al's smile is stitched on him, so he can never stop doing it even if he wanted to.

*He normaly doesn't sleep, (except when hes injured and is using a lot of energy to heal.) at night he just wanders around the hotel like a creepy ghost.

*I don't think Lilith owns his soul. I think it's a third party character we haven't met yet. He and Lilith are connected in some way, obviously, but not a soul-contract way. I honestly have a lot of problems with that theory. for excample: Why would Lilith from the Bible give someone voodoo themed powers???

*Alastor is terrified of feeling exposed, weak or vulnerable. I think when he was alive he experienced that a lot and now he's trying to make himself impervious to any kind of emotional damage.

* He's also very prideful person. When he came to Hell he was like the new kid in school taking down the biggest guy's there to assert his dominance. Putting up walls as fast as he could and screaming: "Don't come near me or I'll bite your head off!"

*I think there's a voodoo doll of him somewhere, and he's desperate to find it. Or he has found it already and hidden it.

*he wants Charlie's soul because that would make him stronger than whoever owns his soul. Therefore be able to break his contract but still keep being powerful.

* I project onto him one of my own personality traits: Being aroace but very romanticly flirty without wanting really anything out if it. Just a proper gentleman. With a trail of confused, broken hearts behind him. (Im personally tryin not to do that but Al doesn't care, obvs.)😅

*People who want him sexually bore him. (Another personality trait I'm projecting onto him.)

*unless you're more powerful than him or are able to further his goals, he'll never go out of his way to dislike you. He never punches down, but he wont have any strong feelings about it.

Í probably have more, but these were fun to write down!😁

[miupow]

okay have to ask about *your* dad!txt thoughts since you've been in my askbox hehe

-ari

omg my dad!txt thoughts... i have so many but i will try to keep this short (i didn't)

txt as dads~

dad!soobin

╰⪼ has four or five kids, and none of them were planned TT they're all close together in age too, one after another.. soobin just can't keep his hands to himself when it comes to his wifey ><

╰⪼ certified girl dad omg but he'd have both... twin girls then a boy, then another girl, and then another boy hehe and they're all so sweet and shy like him :(

╰⪼ his kids walk all over him!! he just can't say no to them when they whine and pout :( gets them whatever they want and will do whatever they ask him to. tea parties and makeovers? nerf gun battles and dramatic storybook readings? doesn't matter he'll do it cos he loves spending time with his kids :>

╰⪼ he's just such a family man TT he loves his little ever-growing family sm and makes it known every day :(

dad!yeonjun

╰⪼ two kids cos he's a single child and wants his kids to have siblings :3 two girls, both spoiled absolutely rotten! they eat his credit card for lunch omg but he doesn't care, anything to make his baby girls happy ^^ they're such brats tho i know it TT have their daddy wrapped around their little fingers

╰⪼ even more of a girl dad than soobin oml... his daughters are his princesses and he'd move mountains for them if he had to!! literally melts anytime his daughters ask for something, he has to get it cos then they'll cry, and he can't stand to see his babies cry...

╰⪼ such a protective dad :( always holding them close, freaks out any time they fall or get hurt, even if it's just a little scrape. swoops them up in his arms n coddles them >< omg if kids were being mean to them at school or something.. full rampage on the poor teachers

╰⪼ always covered in glitter or has bows in his hair, carries their baby photos in his wallet, always running home as fast as he can every day so he can spend time with his favorite girls ;(

dad!beomgyu

╰⪼ he's such a boy dad nothing can convince me otherwise.. honestly that workman episode just solidified it for me. i think he'd have just one son, his mini me :( literally identical in every way, they even dress similar TT

╰⪼ his son is a little hellion tbh but it's okay cos he's cute.. just so energetic 24/7 and never seems to run out of energy TT somehow beomgyu manages to keep up with him.. i know the house is a mess

╰⪼ gyu has such a deep connection with his dad and i feel like it would be the same for him and his son :( they do absolutely everything together, with his son riding on his shoulders

╰⪼ i think beomgyu would be the least prepared to be a dad but i think he'd be such a good one :( before his son was born i think he would have a lot of anxiety about it :(

dad!taehyun

╰⪼ girl dad taehyun hits different im ngl, but i think he would have both a girl n a boy, two kids like yeonjun. they're both so polite and softspoken like their daddy :( n they both have his big brown boba eyes... crying

╰⪼ his kids would definitely be the most well behaved and respectful TT he would make sure that they behaved themselves and had good manners! they'd have good grades and play soccer and just be so intelligent.. he'd just have the best kids

╰⪼ science experiments and ant farms and bottle rockets :( his kids are so curious and he loves to watch them learn and grow <3 he always helps them too, his favorite way of spending time with them. they climb all over him like he's a jungle gym but he doesn't mind cos he's strong enough to hold them both even when they're older :>

╰⪼ like yeonjun he'd be so protective over his son and daughter, always wary about them getting hurt. he's that helicopter dad at the playground who wont take his eyes off of his kids lol. if anything ever happened to them he'd be absolutely beside himself

dad!hyuka

╰⪼ oh hyuka ;( two boys and a girl, opposite of him and his sisters. he'd be such a good girl dad because he grew up around girls but i think his sons would be such mini mes always following him around.. the huening gene is so strong they would look just like him :( he and his sons would be so protective over their daughter/baby sister too

╰⪼ just loves his kids so much :( he'd be such a good dad i can't even put it into words omg, would dedicate his life to them from the moment they were born. the fact that he was a dad would be the most important part of his identity from then on

╰⪼ i think he'd have kids later than the other boys so he'd be a lot more mature when they come into his life, a lot more prepared for the responsibility. omg that's all he would do is prepare when his wife told him she was pregnant, obsessed with learning as much as he can so he can be the best husband/father he can be

╰⪼ just dad hyuka. literally haunts me every waking moment

[afterhours-system]

omg transbipolar tips please? (if that's ok ofc!) if u do ty sooooo much (and no worries if not! ty anyway 4 being on tumblr :3)

hiii hello :33 heres some transbipolar tips from a cisBP II guything :D

general tips!!

track 👏 your👏 mood 👏!! i'd suggest one mood tracker for the moods/emotions you're actually experiencing (to track progress for example) (i use Daylio, it's great!) & one for the moods/episodes you want to experience! for BP specific moods (mainly depression/mania) i use Bipolar UK!

exaggerate your regular daily moods! if you've been in a good mood all day but suddenly feel a bit down play it up! i've gone from cruising in a very high mood (perhaps even bordering on hypomanic) to absolutely crashing for days because of one bad mood swing :P

hypomania & mania tips!!! (note: ive yet to experience a 100% manic episode, so i dont have as much personal experience there!)

hypomania: hypomania is characterized, for me, by very very high energy, high productivity (but never finishing anything), lots of inspiration & creative drive and feeling wayyy more social than usual!

also, completely losing track of my finances, needing less sleep (like. 2-3hrs & i feel well rested where i usually need 8-9,,), less need for food, almost no actual feelings of hunger (once in a month long ep i only ate One Piece Of Bread per day with the occasional (once a week max) pizza & was "fine") & being more open to drinking (and/or considering trying to get my hands on 'harder' stuff like psychedelics) where i usually straight up dont like alcohol!

i'd recommend going off of what's alr there for you; so if you notice you've been in a pretty good mood recently, say that's a hypomanic episode now! go out a lot (clubbing if you want to/can!), make efforts to meet new ppl & make friends, be very motivated & high energy and do everything (and i mean everything!) in excess (talk fast af & never stop talking, be restless and pace around, constanty occupy yourself w/ smth bcs otherwise you'll be understimulated af)

for mania: crank up everything about hypomania by about 300%. it's like there's a million bees inside your bones, you feel restless cant be still do a thousand things in a day, lose all sense of responsibility & become extremely reckless, either due to your extremely elevated mood or because of delusions or other psychotic symptoms.

oh yeah, psychosis! in a mixed ep i spent a day convinced i had somehow accidentally ingested alcohol (i hadnt)! intrusive thoughts, extreme anxiety around it, physical, olfactory & taste-based hallucinations around it, the whole package.

other BP based psychosis ive experienced: visual hallucinations (insects & spiders for me), jumbled & rapid thoughts (it felt different to adhd fast thoughts it was so weird lol)

see this article (link) for other psychotic symptoms during manic (or depressive!) episodes in pwBP!

i'd probably recommend "picking a theme" for delusions & halluciantions & the like, to make it easier to focus on them? tho i havent experienced psychosis enough to know if i have a 'theme' :P

depressive episodes!!

my least favorite (also, i feel like more things are known abt depression) (ALSO- i have seasonal affective disorder too which influences my BP episodes)

depressive episodes mean extreme lethargy for me. im tired 24/7 no matter how much sleep i get (& i'll be getting way more than usual. 10-12 hrs on average with the occasional 13 hrs 🥶).

very little movement. physical, mental, emotional, metaphyical. i often get stuck in bed, if not physically then mentally. spending my day anywhere but in my bed will feel weird & wrong. i will feel pretty numb/wont have access to my emotions anymore & often compltely stop thinking abt & processing my day-to-day life

^ this usually results in strong amnesia around depressive episodes but that might be a plural thing so. take it w a grain of salt lol

depressive episodes also make me self isolate as fuck. im talking forgoing my physical needs if theres a Chance i'll run into my roommate.

oh, yeah, also i just stop taking care of my basic physical as well as i do when balanced. i need to be starving to be able to get up & eat smth, & god forbid i want to actually cook smth rather than eating frozen pizza or eating out/ordering in

i also usually stop doing anything more creative than daydreaming (hashtag immersive daydreaming gang/silly) but even those are less immersive and less frequent. i'll be artblocked 24/7, have no inspiration or motivation and probably wont even miss drawing :P

& thats it! i hope you can find smth usefull in my rambling :3c /gen

and good luck & have fun with your transition!! you have my full support :D /gen

[sleepy159]

Firey Gaze

summary: fluff alphabet luka hsr

hey yall im not dead yet!!!! so heres some fluff :3 (might be ooc)

cw: cringe,other than that just fluff (i think dont qoute me on that))

wc: 1,238

also no beta we die like dazai

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A - admire - what do they admire about you?

•Confidence. He is very confident himself so, he honestly would be star struck if his partner was also confident, even just a little bit. It doesnt have to be confidence about your appearance just ANYTHING. A hobby, a collection, a friend, your boundaries, etc.

B - body - what is their favorite part of your body?

•Your eyes, he probably gets distracted by your eyes when hes fighting and gets hit.

C - cuddles - do they like to cuddle?

• At first he wouldn't because he would be scared his robotic arm would make you uncomfortable but once you reassure him, he warms up to it and loves to cuddle (would rather die than ask you to cuddle though, straight up drags you with him and cuddles you )

D - dreams - what do picture yalls future to be like?

•Luka would NOT wanna be tied down with kids. But hes always up for animals!! (hc hes a dog person.) Luka would like to eventaully live in the same house as you too.

E - early or late riser?

•He is 100% a morning person, wakes up at 5am with a shit load of energy and goes to do a full ass workout.

F - fight - how often do yall fight?

•Hes constanly fighting and getting beat up, coming home covered in blood and bruises on the verge of death.I think you would be worried and lecture him and he would say, "This is what i enjoy!" there will be fighting sometimes. Hes pretty good at apologizing though.

G - gentle - how gentle are they, emontally and physically?

•Ok, bbg is VERY emontally gentle, istg he will do anything for you, no questions asked as long as he gets a kiss or a hug as a reward. and physically? ok so he TRYS to be super gentle but because hes so strong and all that jazz, he might accidentally hurt you

H - honest - do they hide things from their s/o?

•ok he 100% shares almost everything with you, but,if you ask him if you look good in smth and he doesnt think so, he will be SWEATING."o-oh u-uhm! i-its...?" he wont give you a direct answer. but besides that, he wont keep secrets unless its for your own good. Also he wont give to many details about his past untill hes more comfy with you.

I - i love you - how long did it take for them to say ily

he hands you flowers and choclate before blurting it out, rubbing the back of his head nervously as he tries to act confident. If you reject him he will try to switch the topic. (awkwardly)

J - jealousy - how fast do they get jealous?

•Dont quote me on this but, he quite literality thinks Aphrodite (or Idrila?) came down and personally blessed you, hes very confident so he probs gets jealous like mediocrely fast but doesn't let it show until the person is like CLEARLY. hitting on you because he doesn't wanna be overbearing

K - kiss - where do they like to be kissed,where do they like to kiss you,what is kissing them like?

•he loves to be kissed on his nose OR knuckles, i cant explain why,also kiss his robotic hand and he will FOLD. likes to kiss right underneath your eye and your forehead because hes pure like that. hes probably not that experienced in kissing you so you might have to guide him but,hes like so confident when hes kissing you, you forget if he does smth wrong. will ask for kisses without shame.

L - little ones - how are they w/ kids?

•Hes fucking amazing with kids,tells them storys, feeds them, helps them, like hes amazing with them but doesnt want to feel tied down with a family so he visits the moles a lot.

M - memory - whats their fav memory of you?

•one time you needed to burn off some steam and he suggested that you could spar with him, with a little bit of convincing, you agreed and something about seeing you sweating and moving around in the dimly lit room just like made him feel butterflys, no i cant explain why.

N - nicknames - what do they call their s/o?

•alrighty, he would call you like weird nicknames as a joke to embarrass you, but fr? he uses "love" for a pet name

O - open - how long does it take for them to open up to you?

• About his past? depends. He doesnt really keep his past a huge secret but he 100% wont bring it up unless you ask because he finds opening up to be awkward and a sign of weakness (unless its someone else venting, then its fine just not him.)

P - patience - how quickly are they annoyed?

•Doesnt get annoyed fast because he quite literately spends his whole life training and then still fails sometimes, so hes very patient, and when his patience runs thin, either he is not aware and might snap at you, or hes very aware and runs away to avoid snapping at you

Q - quizzes - how much do they remember about you?

•Forgets his own age but he does remember the important things about you like your birthday, favorite candy, color, etc!

R - rainy day - what do they like to do on rainy days?

•he loves to take you outside and find worms, stomp in puddles, pull pranks on random people, etc. You gotta remeber hes still a kid (17) also if you get a cold the next day, hes apologizing like his life depends on it

S - security (hahahahah got you) - how protective are they?

•he knows you can protect yourself because he has probably taught you some self defense moves, but if hes there and some person is like trying to touch or or assault you, lets just say its a gorey sight<3

T - talk - what do they like to talk to you about?

•Everything and nothing, he shares all the gossip with you. also, bring up the topic of insects and suddenly hes reciting to you a whole ass book about them

U - ugly - what is a red flag of theirs?

•After a fight,he will just shower you in praises and everything to try and get you to stop being mad,now you might think "oh this isnt that bad!!!" to which your right in some degree BUT it’s a little manipulative core

V - vanity - how concerned are they with their looks?

•Considering hes a champion of Belobog, he is pretty concerned about his looks, he LOVES when you compliment him, will never forget it.

W - whole - would they feel complete w/o you?

•Would mange ok physically, his performance might falter a little but emotionally? if hes opened up to you, hes not recovering. But of course he plays it off because he’s to proud for that. (will beg for you back if given the opportunity.)

X- xtra - random hc for them

•Loves to show you off,basically the whole of belobog knows you two are dating.

Y - yuck - what is something they would not like in a partner?

• A overly sympathetic person, no i can’t explain this one and please don’t get mad at me

Z - zzz - what are they like when they sleep?

•if you guys are cuddling, you might break a rib or two from him holding you so tightly.

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a/n: i got these hcs out of satans ass,so if they are ooc,please tell me

[triglycercule]

WTF its 4 am and i just drew the most banger sketch ever. jk fashion au ideas rule bro. all because i found a new artist (x-x. what a unique name but their music is a fucking banger and their art is even cooler and it gives me energy to draw cute kawaii adorable stuff like this (this is my first time ever doing anything like this before. i'm glad i got the perspective with the back leg and front hand right though i think. no ref! seems anatomy is my only decent strong suit)

help i have a flight tomorrow i should NOT be drawing jk au dust. help help im gonna be so sleep deprived i wont have time to do the analysis or second translation on the airplane!!!! oh well who cares this is more FUN this new artist is so fun to listen to i love music i love art sometimes i like music more. anyways the perspective on those thingys killed me

[nicegaai]

I used to not care about Sweden ships that much but then my third eye was opened to his shipping potential and I now love every Nordic ship with him.

SuFin - need I say anything? Iconic. Next.

DenSu - Enemies to friends to rivals to friends again to fuck buddies to lovers

SuNor - surprisingly sexy. Ship that's able to simultaneously bring out the best and worst in both of them.

SuIce - why just give him Ice a big brother kink? Give him a daddy kink TOO

All this to ask, any headcanons for SuNor specifically or for Swe ships in general?

HELLO my dear my beloved my angel of the askbox. i love this journey youve been on, you are completely correct in everything and ur suice take made me scream out loud btw <3 i want my babybabyboy 2 have a daddy kink so bad <3

YES OFC 🫡 SYNTHESIZING MY MINDS VERSION OF MRSWEDEN INTO SM COHERENT FOR YOU POSTHASTE

(edit: this was not very posthaste of me.................... enjoy anyway if u are still out there... i love you...)

hard agree that sunor is So Hot. im obsessed w them as a concept. like. you dont even know

first of all sunor has the norice problem where ppl want to assign them Platonic Sibling energy but then u look at them and its like why is there clearly sexual tension here...... i suspect its norways fault for havign that sexy voice disease where everything he says comes off flirty. and sweden is -- 🧠💥 wait wait wait wait wait

its coming together. sweden spent a lot of his life as a closeted gay man and was very uptight about it (source: look at him), claiming to humans that nations dont do sex and that he is a good asexual boy with no impure thoughts and other times pretending to have interest in women to fit in, depending.

but norway is shamelessly himself in every era—at least in comparison to sve... he wont pretend to be something hes not. and he wouldnt hesitate to fuck a strange man for fun, even in times where getting caught would severely damage his reputation. sweden even in modern day would not do one night stands. or you know. never say never, but hes LEANING never. norway is leaning Always.

what im saying is. sve would be so jealous that nor is living his best life and doesnt feel shame, even in an era(s) where he really should. and i think due to a series of cinematically coincidental outside circumstances (my brain is writing a fanfic without me rn) (edit: i have since forgotten the fanfic), they would start butting heads about it, not in the same way su and den fight... theyre passive aggressively sniping at each other. sve wants him to represent himself better, and nor is like i can literally do what i want forever.

from the outside it looks like a brotherly disagreement over differing life choices, but its 100% sexual tension fueled. nor is like lmao why are you mad? are you jealous? and would come onto him to freak him out and sve would be like STOP this is WRONG but he wants it so bad and they both know it. he hates nor because hes hot and fucking everyone but him and the one thing he can't do is admit he wants him. ...all norway has to do to win is keep teasing him until he breaks, but it would take several years. not decades, bc even if the flirting is infrequent sweden is not strong enough for this treatment.

... in general, i think they have different views of sex. to me norway has a high sex drive, lower than average standards, and doesn't feel shame as acutely as he does and sweden cant stand it. that's my sunor headcanon. they fuck anyway ofc but in modern day sve has made nor get std tested at least once. but could they be exclusively together like a monogamous ship? .............. i could be convinced.

OTHER SU SHIPS, QUICK FIRE ROUND

sufin - need we say more? i want to anyway... i love them married with kids i love them divorced i love them in a 500 year unlabeled situationship i love them one-sided and i dont really prefer one dynamic over another tbh. actually wait i do have a hot take. i think finland deserves to top sometimes. FinSu nation rise up <3

densu - what can i even add to this... they should look like the happiest couple on the surface but be crazy & toxic behind closed doors. theyre perfectly normal guys when separated but when left alone together they scare me. this is a good thing to me btw

suice - jsgdk gjk s klga liwi egi j tjil 2 t. g 8aw9e gae0jo d ;gawj dp2gjawodgijl aij e 0g;eglj aw irgl ajoweg lahrigawi egji awlji dg d i need to write them together more i could get so insane ab these two & i have a scene planned for my longfic where they fuck like crazy and i think ab it once a week. suice is so cute. theyre so cute. AHH

[allfortzu]

i just realised i have never read a dubchaeng fic... my musician babies ughh...

but about the jichaeng thing (love them)

i really like your idea, in my opinion jihyo would be a realist, not wanting to get her hopes up for anything. chaeyoung is a dreamer, thinking about every possibility that exists (maybe even a strong believer with the multiverse theory???)

i could imagine them both as soloists, them meeting at an award show or something and they get to know eachother

chaeyoung ofc shoots her shot and like tries to go out with jihyo, which she accepts but there is always a disturbing thought in her mind?

her thoughts giving her an inner conflict - on one side the love for chae, on the other the whole idol thing, "we cant just easily date" or "im afraid that i wont be able to continue with music if i do it" because jihyo is very passionate about her work!

in the end, thats something u can decide what happens

this is just a random thought i got, when i was thinking of jichaeng during my class :)

I absolutely adore dubchaeng as a platonic duo!!! they always try to match each other's energy and I love that abt them <3

I have to admit I eat this type of angst up!! the whole right person at the wrong time trope, and it's resolved by them actively trying their hardest to make this the right time for them 🥹

I love what you've come up with!! I 100% agree that chaeng would fearlessly jump right into it -- she's a lover, after all, and she's always striked me as someone who would put her loves first (just like in my popstar chaeyu fic, I think this is a core part of her personality that she's never failed to show us 🥹) jihyo would definitely have some reluctance, but I have no doubt that at the end, she'd be willing to fight for their relationship -- the fighter to chaeng's lover, if you will 🫂

I'd like to think that after chaeng gives up (for the sake of respecting hyo, not because she's fallen out of love), hyo would be the one trying to get chaeng back 🥹 maybe she'd do a subtle public declaration of love, like thanking a certain someone while she's receiving an award.. and they'll have a dramatic reunion with all the forehead presses and I missed yous 🤧🤧

[seoafin]

I think Akutami is just going for a tragic end. Like, it's obvious he hates Gojo, and ending the series with Gojo being the last standing would add even more to the "Throughout the Heaves and earth, he alone is the strongest."

Which SUCKS bc even gojo wanted the kids to get strong!!! He wanted strong allies so he WONT be alone!!! Akutami could have kept him in there longer, and have the kids actually do something, since they couldn't fall back on gojo anymore. I wish Yuji had that win against Mahito, instead of Kenjaku just absorbing him like a Pokémon. Or better yet, NOBARA. LET HER GET A WIN. SHE COULDVE WON, AND SHE SHOULDVE. Killing off Yuki, for what? Sidelining shoko and miwa and every other female character except Maki?

And what was the point of the culling games? Bringung in military forces? If Gege has a plan and is somehow able to tie this all together I'll be impressed. But only if he finally utilizes his female characters the way they should have always been, like he did for Maki. He did SO good with her, what happened to the rest?

Sorry I'm still ranting, but to add on to Akutami's misuse of his female characters-- Shouldn't women in the jjk universe have an advantage?

Momo was talking about how woman in jjk need to be perfect, just to be accepted. Disobedient woman in the zenin clan can have their mouths sewed shut. Adding in the general woes of being a woman, wouldn't that lend for greater storage or a more unique type of cursed energy?

Add THAT onto what our female characters have faced. Miwa lost Mechamaru, and she even tried to go up against Kenjaku even when he warned against it. And he almost used that Uzumaki cursed thing (i believe) on her. Her brother is in one of the colonies. (Honestly I feel she's one of the most underutilized characters). Nobara isn't from a great clan like Megumi or freakishly fast and strong like Yuji, even if we haven't seen I'm sure she has some problems with feeling left behind, that little girl in her still searching for a grand escape, her Saori. Momo already has spoken of the troubles of women sorcerers, so I'm sure she's been battling this image and ideal for a while. Do I even need to mention Maki and Mai?

NO BUT I DO NEED TO MENTION SHOKO.

"I was there too you bastards." Like??? She was in the generation with the two greatest sorcerers! She bore witness to it all!! What about Riko??? The Star plasma vessel, who im sure wouldve completed the trio of the strongest sorceres had she lived, and then there's Shoko, again.

Why is it that even when Akutami uses his female cast they always end up as some sort of character growth or regression or stepping stool for the male cast? Yuki and choso. Riko and gojo/geto. Kenjaku and Tengen (who I think is female). Angel and Megumi. TSUMIKI and Megumi. Nobara and Yuji. Like????

no i agree it just doesn't make sense. like is the whole point of jjk not gojo ushering a new age with strong allies??? why would akutami bring him back when the students have barely begun to actually do anything without gojo's help. AND NOBARA'S STILL NOT BACK???? ig this is confirmation that she's never coming back ugh. akutami killing off characters when he has no more use for them is so detrimental to the narrative. i truly believe nanami should've survived. but oh well :/

i just feel like his unboxing reiterates how dependent everything is around gojo! it's to the extent that other characters begin to become static because of how much everything revolves around gojo's strength. i was really looking forward to the students getting more of a spotlight.

the thing about akutami is that im pretty sure it's not even as intentional as other mangakas. akutami follows a pretty perfunctory story structure and when it comes to utilizing his characters he seeks to have his characters perform a single purpose and then when he doesn't need them they're gone. instead of dynamic characters we get flat characters or they just die before they ever really get a chance to shine (nanami). it sucks all around tbh but i do think gojo is going to die. akutami's kinda sick like that so. i'd also rather gojo die than any students LOL

[mrs-galaxy-m]

dadzawa a/b/o

Scenting can sometimes happen for dominance, it means the submissive has to smell like their 'dom'

Or comfort, the scent of a loved one makes them calm. Healthy relationships + parents scent this way

But kats was shopping with his pack and izuku was restless

"Hes still not back?" "Nope, none of them are" hizashi says as he takes a sip of his energy drink

"Hn! Well! I'll go find him!" "He took the car and youre not allowed to go out, youre in pre-heat, all you need is his scent okay?" the alpha tries to ease his nerves

"I dont want kacchans clothes I want him! The nest wont feel right without /him/" the omega cried out

"Nope!" "AAA youre not helping!"

"He /cant/ help, midoriya. Hes an alpha, the best his mind can do is give you a pat on the back" aizawa tiredly says

"I-I help you tons dont lie to that child!" "Lying would mean there is no truth behind my words" he glares "Which there isnt!"

The black hair rolls his eyes "Sure, love" "YOURE LYING JUST NOW WITH THAT-"

"izuku" aizawa calls out and the omega sniffles "h-hm?"

"Im not your alpha but as your parental figure, would you like me to scent you in the meantime?"

Ever since izuku has been disowned by inko the omega has been using aizawa and hizashi as his 'caretakers'

All omegas needed one but sadly all might's scent glands are messed up and he passes as a beta

"Hm.." the green hair thought about it, nbervously looking at the door

"But..its your birthday and..you have to go out with.."

"Its fine pup! I dont mind!" the blond smiles "A birthday is just a day, your mental health isnt-" "But its your birthday" izuku repeats

"And I wouldn't I be happy if you are happy? How do you think I would feel by worrying if I left you?"

Izuku gives in and grasps aizawa by his shirt

"Nest?" he asks, sheepishly "I'll be in charge of looking after everything!" Hizashi says, taking the role of looking out

Something alphas used to when looking out for their omega and child But izuku was too nervous to notice

"Come on, at least for once Yamada didint forget to scent things" "I never forget!"

"Sure, love" he repeats as he takes izukus small hand and guides him to the elevator

"YOURE DOING IT AGAIN"

**

Aizawa made sure to fix a couple of things before letting izuku enter, he placed a few of midnights thing at the bottom and one of all mights shirt to the side

Even if the man cant let out strong enough pheromones to scent when he wants things he wore still smelled like him

"Done"

The moment he said those words izuku dived in Or tried to, he really made sure to not move anything as he entered, common curtsey for the omega making the nest

He curled up at the corner where aizawa covered the way to get to him, again in a way of protection

The smaller omega was letting our purrs and happy scents

'Happy! Pack! Nest!'

While aizawas was more of 'Pup, nest, Alpha keeping them safe'

He scented izuku with his wrist before humming, he already saw izuku as his child, not just a student

But he doesnt know when he would be ready to tell him that

the way he needs to know where izuku is at all costs, that he was eating right, that his scent wasnt off, it wasnt things youd worry with your students

And yes he has bared his fangs silently when bakugo raised his voice /too/ loudly at his pup, the blond knows

He /knows/

The door slams open making izuku flinch and the dark hair omega glared at anyone who-

Oh, katsuki

"Shit-sorry shitty hair saw this new store and-" When bakugo took a step inside he quickly stepped back at the pheromones the older omega giving him as a warning

"ah-right-Can I go in? I want to see deku"

Better, dont these brats know their manners?

"You may, shoes off" "Right, im removing my hearing aids too"

Aizawa made space for katsuki to enter deeper and the alpha instantly hugged izuku, letting out his pheromones

Izuku was already fast asleep by the time katsuki got to him, he found too much comfort in everyone's pheromones and soft nest

It really showed how experienced aizawa was with making them

"I got you a few presents" bakugo whispers "Are you bribing me?"

The blond snorts as he holds izuku tighter

"Bribing you so I get to keep seeing him? What timeline is this?" "Is the time you shut it so he can sleep"

"Ah" bakugo huffs "But-" "katsuki" he warns

"He thinks of you as his dam and hizashi as his sire, okay? He says it by accident when speaking about you guys" "He speaks about us?"

The alpha gives him his annoying grin "All the time, just trust me okay?It would be a good bday gift for you to have him officially as your pup"

"..I'll think about it"

"Hurry before you turn into ashes, old man" "Youre running 7 laps tomorrow"

The dark hair omega closes his eyes, a small chuckle came out when he heard the younger alpha curse under his breath

"But thank you Katsuki" "Oh? So the bribing worked?"

"..eight"

The end, please follow me on twitter

[valdederon]

FLAMES JOURNEY CHAPTER #22 novas first dungeon dive

nova,valdederon and raykore continue training over the next few days when she finaly can create a golden shield around her self for atleast an hour per day.. or for short burst in combat.

valdederon--- im so proud of you little pup.

raykore--- you did well but you still have a long way to go.

nova sticks her tongue out at raykore and giggles.

nova---thank you big brother.. mmmph im so sleepy now..

valdederon--- ok my sweet princess come on into the tent and you can sleep in my tail fluff again.

nova blushes and nods taking 2 steps forward before falling face first into the grass promptly flalling asleep with a heavy snore making raykore valdederon and draggo laugh softly.

valdederon smiles nad gently picks up the conked out aura pupy and gently takes her into the tent with him and draggo preparing some food for when she wakes .

draggo--- ha ha ha looks like she fell asleep while walking.. hope the little one gets some good rest

valdederon sets her in his tail and rubs her back as she grabs hold with her paws purring happily as she wiggles instinctualy to burry her self in the warm furr.

valdederon--- well i think we should look for a low level dungeon quest at the guild and get her used to how they can be.. before we go to it we need ground rulles for her to follow number one among them do not fight . shes only going to be there to observe.

draggo--- are you sure on that

valdederon sighs with a sense of pain and worry recalling near death experiances from his training being put in dungeons by rakore making her chuckle as she sees the look in his eyes.

valdederon---yes im 100% sure.. my training was brutal and part of it was going alone.. into dungeons..unprepared and with only light armor my magic and a dagger with a shield off hand. nova atleast has us to guide here.. and raykore.. make now mistake if you throw her into anything unprepared.. there will be consequences.

he throws her a look of pure murderous malicious confirmation that its a promise and not a threat making her yelp startled by the once obediant aprentice's sudden firmness

raykore--- well youve grown alot havent you my young pupil… i have to say that was rather unexpected.. ha ha you were never so direct in our old world.. im proud of you and you have my word i wont put her in danger like that.

draggo looks between them throughly confused and sighs

raykore-- so draggo waht was your species called again.. im curious to learn more about this world.. what i wouldnt give to eat some meat again.. and actualy fuking taste it god spiritual food has no….. has nothing.. no taset no depths no feel.. ugh im going insane over here..

draggo--- well my species is.. techincly 3 different animals there is goomy sliggoo and then goodra.. the world of pokemon even to us pokemon is still a mystery to us all.

raykore burst out laughing quietly.

raykore-- aint that the damed universal truth.. i havet met a single speceies who truly knows thier kind inside and out we all have mysteries in us.. even my own kind were mysterious.. i was the runt of the litter. even so most humanoids are shorter then me.

draggo--- interesting got any preferences on what youd want to be if you were pokemon.

raykore-- i havent put much thought into it honestly.. ive been cofusing my energy into training our star pupils little sister.. ha ha even he fell asleep.

draggo---he sometimes doesnt sleep well.

raykore with a heavy sigh and flick of her smoking pipe.

raykore--not surprising honestly it honestly terrafied me at first just how strong willed he was as a kid one look into his eyes and i knew he was angry..wasnt untill the knights told me were and hoe he was found that i took him in, nightmares.. flash backs.. ha ha ha, i had to put him back in diapers because he couldnt stip wetting or soiling his bed at night.. that passed pretty quick though only about 4 weeks before his body adjusted to his stress.

draggo--- did you ever wonder what he would have done if you werent there to guid him..to divert his rage some what.

her ears twitch as she rolls her eyes perking her tails up with force.

raykore-- gods.. i dont even want to know just how much damage he would have caused if i hadnt trained him magic.. its a living thing and if you dont have a grasp on it..anything froma town destroyed to the ground shattered acrosss continents.. even the fabric of reality could be shattered by un controlled rage filled magic like his..

dragos eyes widen realising the gravity of what that would entail.

draggo---..thats..wow..

raykore looks up at the rising night moons all 7 of them.

raykore--- 7 moons.. when was the last time i even saw a single moon rise.. let alone 7 moons at once,. you know despite the chaos this world is in.. i feel .. valdederon can realy grow.. heal..and be happy here. ha ha ha.. some times i think he forgets he was a human once. and im ok with that.

the night drags by slowly evryone byt raykore sleeping while she stares at the moons thinking back on her long life then looking back at valdederon and novaa sense of pride welling up in her soul as he turns back into spirit form to rest.

the next day nova yawns waking up beeing carried by valdederon into the guilds quest board room. nova looks around yawning and rubs he eyes and while at the quest board gets out of valdederons tail furr with a heavy thump and a loud puppy like yipe startling valdederon as he looks down were nova faceplanted grogily onto the hard wood floor and she sits up holding her nose witch had begin to bleed alittle .

valdederon--- are you ok hun.

nova---mmmmph..do i look ok.. i just bashed my face into the floor.

he chuckle using healing magic on her nose and ruffling her head furr.

valdederon--- well how about you head on into the mess hall and draggo and i will meet you there and we can have a big breakfeast.

she smiles tail wagging and bolts down the hall to the mess hall ocasionaly stumbling evryso often still half asleep.

draggo--- hows this one sound.. looking for a team to clear a dungeon full of goblins and rescue a lost miltank and a clutch of snivy hatchlings..

valdederon--- perfect goblins are weak so her aura shield will be more then enough to keep her safe but make no mistake goblins are a big threat.. they tend to explode in numbers and reproduce like rabits on drugs.

draggo--- oooofff that sounds bad.

valdederon-- if unchecked goblins can eventualy overun kingdoms plunging them into hell basicly.

they both grab the quest paper and get it stamped and head to the mess hall were a charmeleon is laughing while nova whimpers covered with food and draggo looks directly at valdederon who fell dead silent the moment he opend the door to the site and in seconds the once loud mess hall falls spookily silent as evryone picks up on the sudden rage boiling forth from valdederon .

draggo---.well…ill see my self… out.

he bolts as valdederon fists clenched walks into the mess hall all mon inside avoiding eye contact seeing the death glare coming from them all accept the arrogant charmeleon who laughs at the sudden arival of a bright pink delphox.

( WARNING LIGHT BLOOD AND HEAVY VIOLENCE IN NEXT PARAGRAPH)

valdederon with out a word kicks the small lizard pokemon with brutal force witch sends him flying into the wall shattering several glass windows on impact and making him cough up a spurt of blood and fall down only to be grabed by the throat .

valdederon--- THINK ITS FUNNY TO BULLY OTHERS DO YA… well target my little sister. and youl find a verry pissed off delphox.. i havent seen you… you new around here

the charmeleon curls his tail up a silent pitter of liquid hitting the floor beneath him as he nods terrified of th sudden outburst of rage his face turning red realizing hes in full view of the mess hall

valdederon-- dont ever cross me or my sister again.. i wont hesitate getting rid of you in a second if you become a threat to us.. or the guild.. i dont tollerate bullies and clean up your mess

valdederon drops him into the pungent puddle formed by fear and walks off and cleans nova up and takes his lunch hers and draggos out .

valdederon--- were gona go on a mission later on after lunch hun will you be ok.

nova--… you made him have an accident.. that was mean buba.

valdederon-- i wasnt trying to do that.. it just happens when some one is scared stiff like that..

nova--- i hope he and i can become friends.. i think hes lonely

valdederon-- well he will have to apologize for bullying you first.

nova nods and eats with valdederon and draggo. all 3 of them staying silent mean while in the mess hall the charmeleon whimpers and begins to sob runing out embarrased confused and scared eventualy ending up in the infirmary to recive treatment for the minor wounds he got from his encou nter with valdederon.

nova--- so whats the mission.

draggo--- a dungeon clear and rescue mission a miltank and snivy hatchlings got lost inside

valdederon--- your there to watch and learn as we clear it .. youl also carry a bag with medical supplies. be sure to keep up your aura sheild in combat ok hun.

she nods nervous but also excited. later on that day they head out to the dungeon. while on the wy there nova keeps close with valdederon and draggo both of them also keeping an eye on here and around them as they move soon entering the dungeon entrance heading down inside whilemoving slow and steady.

nova whispering-- this place feels creepy.

valdederon--were inside the dungeon keep close and quiet watch around us as well. gobims are near probably already watching us.. if you see side paths let us know.. those are places they ambush un aware adventurers from..

nova nods keeping an eye out un knowingly pusling ora like a radar pulse. after a few hours nova yelps and puts up her shield up as an arrow flies out.

nova--- BEHIND US THEY ARE ATTACKING

she whimpers and holds to valdederon as he lifts up his staff and unleases fire ball attacks burning 40 goblins at once thier scraches echoing through the cavernous dungon before falling silent more coming from the other directions as they are at a divergance point with 12 different tunnel openings…

valdederon--- well done nova--- now keep that shield up and let us fight…

draggo--- i wont let a single filthy creton touch you little pup.

nova---… im an adult already…no ..fair…

she pouts but does as shes told knowing she doesnt have any combat experiance and for the next few hours they fight on and off while going through and ending up finding a miltank tinged green with goblin blood and bits and pices evry were her eyes heavy with exaustion ..

valdederon-- nova go check them out ok.. check for injuries.. goblins use poisin so give the hatchlings and

nova rushes over as the miltank falls over into valdederons grasp panting body burning with fever having been fighting for days on end with little food and water..

draggo--- she doesnt look to hot.

valdederon--were lucky we got here when we did.. malnorusihed dehydrated.. dam it shes been holding of goblins alone for god knows how long..

nova--- the baby snivy are all healthy ..

draggo--- come over and help the miltank over here hun

valdederon.. can you speak hun.. whats your name

the miltank wheases and nods..

nina-- my name is nina.. please get the little ones out leave me.

valdederon bats her on the nose with his paw and sternly looks at her.

valdederon--- were here to get evryone out not just the snivy..

nova gives the miltank a pile of berries to eat while draggo stands guard at the entrance.

nina eats the berries and sits up as valdederon starts cleaning her furr then bandaging it up while nova helps were she can after a few minutes they all group up with the baby snivy who are all hungry

nova--- come on kids hold out paws .

valdederon--- we will be heading back to the guild via teleport… nina you might end up throwing up so fair warning

Draggo--- im ready to head back.

valdederon makes sure evryone then taps his badge in a flash evryone is inside the guild psychics lair and nina whimpers and holds her stomach but manages to hold it in before promptly passing out .

valdederon--- call for ever green we need him. urgently

the psychics nod and teleport evergreen who falls on his tail with a yelp and sees the week clutch of snivy and the week miltank and begins getting them taken care of having his assitants come dwon and carryi the miltank while he walks with the snivy.

nova--t..that w.was scary.

valdederon--- this was the lowest of low level dungeons we could take you on hun..from here on they only get harder and more dangerous… after a couple days rest we start more combat training when you can land a hit on me… then ill let you go with us on a dungeon were you can get some fighting experiance.. but you have to listen when we tell you to do somthing.

she nods and hugs his leg shaking heavily.

[funkymbtifiction]

hello:) your recent post saying how soc blind struggles to care about maintaining casual relationships made me curious about myself because that’s something i relate to but i’m unsure if it’s to the extent of being soc blind and would like your opinion!

for me being unable to do “casual relationships” mean that if that person isn’t in my life i simply cant and wont bother trying to talk to them much less befriend them even if i see them all the time from being in the same class for example. but i’m still “appropriate” and “nice” when approached (might be due to Fe or 9?)

i would think about what “flavours” they give off, i want to see through them, unravel what’s hidden, unearth their skeletons, how are they attractive?, how are they different?, what is it about them?, and as much as i don’t like to admit it i would infuse their flavour into mine, i care about my image a great deal in the sense of am i attractive? what about me attracts? on the outside i do really look like any other person with instagram, hanging with friends and all, nicely curated and put online to feed into this “image” i have in mind. but this could be social instinct couldnt it? because i do very “normal” things talk very “normal” things with those that i hang out with although im wonder if it’s normal to be constantly breaking down in my mind a persons “flavour”, seeing how i interact with it, what side of me does it bring out and how mentally and emotionally immersed am i. but i’d sometimes do this from afar or from across a screen because i don’t know how to approach the person because the opportunity just doesn’t seem to come up.

the friends that i’ve kept friends all stimulate a different side of me and let me fulfill and explore these different sides. another thing is mental and emotional intensity, vulnerability, i realised i subconsciously am drawn to and look for this in relationships be it mutual or one-sided intensity but the thing is even if it dies down i’ll still maintain the friendship and i don’t know why, perhaps i just simply do or perhaps i think that there shall be more opportunities in the future for the intensity to rise again. and other thing is, i cant tell if i do anything “provocative” per se, like an sx would. although i know i’ve stuck out (not sure if it’s generally or occasionally) because i’ve been told i have this “weird energy”, i don’t know why or how. (this is funny because my sister has told me how low my “self awareness” is even if my “others awareness” is well not so low and the way im not even aware that it’s that low)

thank you for your time and have a nice weekend

This is very 3 rather than sexual, so you may either be mistyped or have a strong 3 fix behind your 9. It's all 3ish attentiveness to the environment, thinking about and deconstructing what makes other people have their own flavor, that flavor being different from yours, curating an image, comparing yourself to others, fitting in, being different people around different friends, etc.

[qualityrain]

ive heard of honkai impact but i never really got a look at the actual game itself whats your favorite guy like??? how do they work with the plot?? love you bye<3

there is sO much to say and absolutely nothing at the same time

this isnt going to be coherent at all

whats your favorite guy like???

this is going to be very inaccurate because at this point i cant tell what is canon or not + rlly disorganised

tbh. like a generic emo guy. a family guy. ride or die. his love language is dying for you. actually really chill??? and like kind of straightforward (at least to one of the main characters in the game. whether it is for plot or an actual character trait nobody knows) shows no emotion whatsoever(never explained). will kind of crack jokes. highly efficient, won’t do more things than necessary(this is definitely canon). hasnt slept well in like 10 years (vibe). takes promises really seriously. the i owe you and i WILL pay you back guy. he’s an older brother. has STRONG annoying little brother energy with another character that is literally my favourite dynamic in this entire game with 5mins of screentime together. a piece of shit. will talk stupid shit to lighten up the situation. he will do anything for his goals(probably). this guy definitely has trauma and mhy wont ever address it and he’s repressing it like crazy. like has this dude ever processed the whole i almost fucking died and everybody i love is dead thing properly yet. i could tell you his height but not his birthday. its 173cm. i refuse to believe he’s taller than 170cm. there’s probably more but i don’t know what else to say. this guy’s barely a character in the game, there’s absolutely no depth at all. all i have are vibes and my brain ran with it and now this guy has been in my head for 2 years now.

how do they work with the plot??

short answer: they don’t.

long answer: his role in the plot is to parallel another main character(mei) and it is done so so so soooooooo poorly. he appears in one (1) arc in the game and appears in 2 chapters and its imo the worst arc in the entire game and its almost irrelevant and every new chapter that gets added makes me wish more and more that this arc doesn’t exist. I genuinely do not know why this parallel needed to exist like. why? why do we need this parallel to see the main characters with an outside perspective?? there’s probably a reason its just this arc is terrible. they couldnt even get meis arc right in this arc like its sO BAD.

mei has this whole ass scene where she just accepts having to kill this guy!! my fave!! the blorbo!! shes like oh i cant hesitate anymore i have to do this for my girlfriend(basically)!!! AND THEN SHE HESITATES AGAIN AND DOESNT KILL HIM AND IM SO SO UPSET AND ANGRY BECAUSE WHATS THE POINT. she has this whole moral dilemma of ohh noo if i kill this guy its like im a hypocrite or smth cos im doing the same as this guy but i gotta to protect somebody i care about!! for this arc and then SHE DOESNT KILL HIM. he dies another way!!! resolving to kill somebody is not the same as actually doing it!! im so upset abt this because its so. whats the point of the whole scene where mei literally collects herself to strengthen her resolve to not hesitate and kill this guy and shes like oop i guess i wont!

im going to be real i try to forget as much as i can from this arc because i hate it and its probably all wrong and inaccurate but i still hate it to bits and i wish mhy wasnt scared to make mei commit murder

this isnt proof read at all this is a word vomit ive spent over half an hour on this and 3 days thinking abt this. there are definitely things i wanted to add and forgot almost immediately.

thanks for the ask!! 🫶🫶🫶

[ericislonely]

i wish i was built with passion, every part of me is broken, ugly, unworthy.

i wish i was created, crafted, molded, like the rest of the humans, so pretty and perfect, i wish i was like them, with dimples, beautiful hair, legs strong to spin, hands gifted to paint, voices that change minds, eyes that see beyond the stars, feet that run for miles, and arms that hug even in tears.

i see beauty in every human, in every person, so i doubt if i am human myself because i dont see anything pretty in me.

i can kneel and beg for an answer, my creator doesnt respond, i wonder if the god that made me feels ashamed of me, i wonder if they didnt made me with love, i wonder if they did and now is sad because i dont like what they made. and for that i say 'im sorry'.

im sorry for being blinded by the words others said or did not say, i apologize to myself and to them for i was hurt and i was broken, i believe i would think i am perfect if i was a stranger and saw myself in the streets, but im not, im me in flesh, bones and thought.

i wish i could see who i truly am and not the labels i was pushed into.

i also wish, hope and pray for everyone to realize they are perfect just the way they are, with their insecurities and flaws.

i believe, i know, i comprehend, everyone is fine, pretty, talented, kind, worthy, lovable.

i just dont see myself in the "everyone".

if i could talk to my maker ill ask them if they are disapointed, i wonder what will they say, i wonder if they can fix me, fix my eyes, my heart, mind and soul, clean my everything from all the dirt and evil i have acumulated over the years, kiss my soul and make me pretty again.

in death it will not matter, for i will talk to them myself, and as my body is laid on the bare ground, the worms feeding of my corpse, trees blooming of me. when i become nothing but bones ill think im beautiful, when the birds rest in the branches, and the people stomp above me.

when the ashes become ashes and the energy transforms.

when i speak to the gods themselves and i apologize for i didnt knew what to do with the gift of life because it was stained with hatred and shame. i know ill be fine, because there will not be such thing as wrong or right, ugly or pretty. ill just be, and they'll let me be.

and ill feel everything. and i wont have to cry because im not like my sisters, or because my parents dont like me. i wont cry because i dont feel worthy, because nobody likes me, im always alone and everyone ignores me.

i wont cry anymore or maybe ill do one last time, because its over.

and everyone loves people thats gone.

[normalestgirlblog]

well

dont i have a few things to say

#1 i texted him bc i did actually have something to say that related to him, and it was nice to hear from him but also idk its hard and then i posted something mildly messed up on my insta and he didnt like it even though i let people opt in to hearing the joke. whatever. and then i apologized and he left me on read which usually i wouldnt give a fuck but the urge to say why do u hate me, do u hate me now was so strong that i did it and unsent it. i dont know how to be normal about him and i wish i could. i think no matter what i really want him to come back to me. and if im being totally honest it seems like he doesnt have anyone to talk to. because that boy can talk, msotly about books but like he can talk. i need to get over him and i have no idea how. someone please lobotomize me so i forget about him and who he is and how much he means to me and how much he hurt me.

#2 My mother. its so hard to talk about her with people because no matter how much i explain just every piece of her and who she is and our relationship and why it has gotten so hard recently, it wont make any sense unless u know her. nobody knows the real her. and i love her so much but her behavior is completely unacceptable and its so hard to even talk to her when every conversation we have just ends in tears. i cant do it. and all she wants is me to live with her and i just dont know if i can do it. and its taking up so much mental energy that i block her out and then when i block her out it gets worse. so i just have to deal with it. i think we should honestly go to family therapy. she keeps telling me that we are the reason she came back, we are the only reason for her living, that we are eerything to her. But a year ago, we werent enough. SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS OVER BEING A MOTHER AND WANTED TO FIGURE OUT WHO SHE WAS. which like fair enough i support her in that endeavor. but what the fuck. like u cant just switch up like that and make it our fucking fault and our fucking problem that you are so mentally ill becuase you cant see your kids.

#3 i am so desperate for love and i feel like right now i am not doing a single thing right with myself or my life or i just always say the wrong things. and choose the wrong people. but mayhbe im the one thats wrong. its so hard having this many thoughts and not being able to do anything useful with them. i really get people who start podcasts now. like yeah let me just talk in a mic for an hour and make money off of it.

#1.5 I am so fucking stupid i am going to shoot myself in the foot and walk until I learn how to not be stupid.

[official-mistah-j]

>:D

i will support, if im able to use freedom of speech.......tumblr and im sorry if some of this is adult lol..

im cracked out on energy drinks lol

iif u drink with them its -- similiar to cocaine

tweakin around town, the devil said.

he is, not me. methademic.

we were snugglin and i fell asleep next to him.

they want to use my imagiination to make things.

i got a special thank you. buying some books. like they knew who iw as. "the giver" yes. imparting the old ways to the youthful

you know, when they take our guns, they're going to kill you.

a ti found out you can make them with a 3d printer. be my bodyguards. im building an army.

she calls canada the mother land. and i smil ea bit. people are appraochable, friendly to visitors, and i am a southern gentleman, --

i have this book---

"the ladys tutor"

yes i am a bit older than harley, yet so is she in her ways--

the men are lobotomizing anyone who dares challenge them, my typos are hilairous, and saying women are hysterical and too emotional.. and they're saying they're not. and trying to control our bodies (it wont end there) and put "trans-guys" in thier place,, some people call us "goys" and shemales, drag queens ugh lol, no one says anythin gto my face, they know i got assault charges, i scream nine and one and on ein my head because it lights me up in a way when you add too muhc blackpepper loll i love pepper...they drain my strength ugh.... mom still threatens me lol.. i know not to hit a lady, esp in the face, lol.. but she be driving me.. im surprised im not dead .., and it fucking sucks so bad, i hate them so much, or hermaphrodites, two souls, they are saying im a gift from god, DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM....DO NOT TOUCH THE HOLY MAN, *KOOZCO MODE*

when i even consider some veterans to be manchildren compared to me. Im the f******** Joker. Jester. They can make fun of The King, and do anything they want. Its partially intentional. It aint a genetic thing,I had severa,got banged up, and lumps, fell down and i got right back up. it was astral bullets, with satan, i gave him my life force, as a vampire count, and he said im strong as 2ooo lions, and Ikiiinda need it back, but thanks for not letting ppl do the thing they were doiing um--, .

they , the hallucination slol, the v2k idk, were calling the cigarette butts were bullets, they said they're real. they played pictures in my head. or. or. i made it up. is this real??? i am playing in psychosis, and playing hatter, and giving harley a world where nothing can hurt her...or my brain showed me the picture somehow. or a combo.

by the way i want to seductively play mortal kombat.

i have a ps4.. not very fun by yourself.. =//

sims and god of war and skyrim and some otha shit.

sims was f******* wweird man asking me

kinda excellect questions, but im a newbie oto this. im from the south. lol. theres not ... im from nola, and am trapped in the tart pit of its fucking retarded cousin.

our family was the advisors of the town, and the warriors, brains beauty N Brawn..but we were crazy.. they made deals with demons.

im telepathic. with eminen, listening to them old songs. i had albino birds, fish, bunnies....trying tell me a thing.. but i hate the sun, and it burns. im allergic.

im Walter-- Lmao.. rescuing my family, who could care less. The devil hangs around idk, idk, I pray. I felt like The joker abt to be baptized in the Mississippi lmao, avoiding white, I want to go the Satanic church and get unbaptized, lucy in the sky with diamonds (years ago), makes u see all that weird, and Set is a desert god.. Like it makes u think differently about water.

And bullies are losers.

its not f****** funny either.

have you ever noticed evil peopl kinda hae small heads. lol.