#isolation and introspection ;; student musing

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So what does Xue do, anyway?

Good question, and not one she's particularly well-equipped to answer herself - Marvel verse discussion under the cut.

Because of the nature of her power, Xue becomes more proficient (and more volatile) the more time she spends exercising her abilities. From a calm baseline, she passively experiences physics a bit differently from others - the keen-eyed might notice that her stride takes her a little too far, she can lift things a little too easily. Nothing to imply that she's showing off, but a more casual relationship with things like gravity and momentum compared to those around her.

The first thing she'll likely make use of in a fight is good, old-fashioned hand to hand. Though Xue isn't sure what it is she's using, it could be observed by an outsider as a mix of taekwando, bajiquan, and karate. Though a well-trained vigilante or especially martial villain could beat her one on one, it's likely she'll scale things up relative to the threat in front of her.

Next, the psychic energy implanted in her shows itself, in the form of bright, violet flame alighting along her arms and legs - in more extreme scenarios her chest, the arteries on the sides of her neck and her eyes will start to glow the same colour.

In this empowered state, her already notable strength pushes to a second tier that enables her to crush thin concrete walls, put sizable dents in metal, and send anyone she strikes directly flying. While the flames produced self-extinguish quickly when away from her body, they produce a spectacularly uncomfortable feeling of nerve numbness in those struck.

However, if she remains empowered for too long without calming down, Xue's volatility starts to cause problems. While she could likely learn to control this state as well given time and practice, the things she can do in her third tier are instinctive at best. Sending psychic flame outwards as a projectile, short-range, eyeline-restricted teleportation, and further reduced physical limitations are all possible, though this may not be the extent of her abilities.

After spending any significant amount of time in tier three, her come-down will be lengthy, uncomfortable, and render her grumpy, exhausted and ravenously hungry.

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One of the most iconic filmmakers of all time, Andrei Tarkovsky was known for his philosophical themes and lazily-paced long takes, among other memorable tropes. All through his career, the Russian auteur had experimented with several genres, ranging from sci-fi (Stalker, Solaris) to war drama (Ivan's Childhood).

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His approach towards filmmaking lay heavy emphasis on 'sculpting in time' as Tarkovsky believed that a major motive of cinema is to alter the notions of time. With minimal cuts and long takes, his films succeeded at not looking like different shots arranged in one sequence. Rather, his narratives convey the idea of the passage of time in a seemingly realistic rhythm.

10 There Will Be No Leave Today (1959) - 6.5

Back in the late 1950s, film students Aleksandr Gordon and Andrei Tarkovsky directed this 47-minute-long war drama that recounted an actual incident from Russian history. There Will Be No Leave Today is set in a small Russian town that faces the threat of unexploded bombs from the Second World War. Hence, an army unit is tasked with evacuating the town and safely detonating these bombs.

After being broadcast on Soviet TV in 1959, the student film was then recovered in the 1990s. It offers an early glimpse at Tarkovsky's budding talent at showcasing human emotions and building atmospheric tension.

9 Voyage In Time (1983) - 7.3

The only documentary directed by Tarkovsky, Voyage in Time focused on his travels in Italy with screenwriter/co-director Tonino Guerra as they prepared to shoot the former's drama feature Nostalghia.

Voyage In Time serves as an interesting peek into Tarkovsky's psyche as a filmmaker and as a person as he and Guerra delve into philosophical matters among their usual conversations on cinema. Further, the director also touches upon his other influences that include Federico Fellini, Jean Vigo, and several others.

8 The Steamroller And The Violin (1961) - 7.4

The Steamroller And The Violin was Tarkovsky's third diploma film during his student days at State Institute of Cinematography, Moscow. It happens to one of his most emotion-driven films as it explores the friendship between a young violinist (Igor Fomchenko) and an aging steamroller operator (Vladimir Zamansky).

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Facing a general sense of isolation from society, both friends spend their evenings talking to each other about their day-to-day activities. While the boy usually plays his violin, the old man delves into his past telling his friend stories from the War.

7 Mirror (1975) - 8.1

For some cinephiles, Mirror would possibly be Tarkovsky's most enigmatic film largely due to its free-flowing non-linear structure and a sense of storytelling that would resemble the 'stream of consciousness' style of writing (popularized by James Joyce and Virginia Woolf).

In its essence, the film recalls a dying poet's final days as he remembers his life and remnants of Soviet history and society. There's a lot to interpret in Mirror easily making it a film worth multiple viewings. While Tarkovsky authored the screenplay, the film heavily incorporates poems written and recited by his father Arseny Tarkovsky.

6 Solaris (1972) - 8.1

Solaris, along with classics like 2001: A Space Odyssey, can largely be credited in ushering in an age of introspective, thoughtful space sci-fi that focused on human themes rather than just a fascination for the extraterrestrial. Solaris revolves around a space station inhabited by a crew displaying bizarre emotional traits, that are further analyzed by psychologist Kris Kelvin (Donatas Banionis) when he arrives at the station.

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Solaris won the Grand Prix at Cannes and established Tarkovsky as a visionary in sci-fi cinema. Many of his ideas would be further explored in Stalker.

5 Stalker (1979) - 8.1

Just like Solaris, Stalker is a sci-fi tale rooted in philosophical questions. Even though it drew mixed reviews initially, it is yet again regarded as one of the finest sci-fi films today.

Alexander Kaidanovsky plays the ominous 'Stalker,' a man entrusted with transporting people to the 'Zone.' This so-called 'Zone' is a region where anyone's innermost desires can be fulfilled. Despite its thoughtful musings, the film also brims with a thriller-like aura that would keep audiences guessing about the actual nature of the grim, distant future of Stalker.

4 Andrei Rublev (1966) - 8.1

Even though Andrei Rublev is set in medieval Russia, its dominant theme of artistic freedom is very much relevant in present times. The titular personality (Anatoly Solonitsyn) is an iconographer who opposes an oppressive regime while pursuing his art. For its direct jabs at authoritarian states all over the world, Andrei Rublev either faced censorship or a total ban in its initial run.

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Apart from serving as a fictionalized biopic of its protagonist, Tarkovsky's sophomore feature film was a bold case study of Russian society in the fifteenth century, an era characterized by religious power struggles and the eventual transition to Tsardom.

3 The Sacrifice (1986) - 8.1

Offret aka The Sacrifice was Tarkovsky's final directorial effort before he succumbed to terminal lung cancer. The film can be described as magical realism at its finest as it centers around a heavily nuanced take on humanity and religion. In order to stop an impending nuclear holocaust, an intellectual attempts to negotiate with God, a deal that would require a 'sacrifice.'

Opening to rave reviews, the Swedish-language film earned Tarkovsky his second Grand Prix at Cannes along with a BAFTA for Best Film Not In The English Language.

2 Nostalghia (1982) - 8.1

Nostalghia (alternatively released as Nostalgia) was Tarkovsky's first film shot outside the Soviet Union, incorporating some of his own notions of homesickness. It stars Oleg Yankovsky as a writer studying the life of a Russian composer who spent his final days in Italy. While exploring the Italian countryside, he himself goes through bouts of isolation and displacement.

The autobiographical nature in Nostalghia is clear to see with the narrative further adorned with memorable Tarkovsky elements like dream sequences and a hopeless protagonist.

1 Ivan's Childhood (1962) - 8.1

Barring his student films, Ivan's Childhood marked Andrei Tarkovsky's full-fledged directorial debut, going down in cinematic history as one of the best first films ever.

The movie endures as a brilliant example of expressing the human cost of war as it studies wartime trauma from the eyes of an orphaned boy Ivan (Nikolai Burlyayev). Losing his parents to German forces, Ivan struggles to survive as the Second World War rages on affecting both sides of the conflict. A hard-hitting feature, it boldly proclaimed its director's anti-war sentiments.

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subject #13 — filename: august.txt

- ̗̀ ❛ muse 13, kim jongin, he/him. ❜ ̖́- did you hear about the monaco trip? it’s legendary at ucla. august choi is going, i’m so jealous. their instagram makes it seem like they’re pretty introspective and they’re all about pencils tucked in ears & weekend e-sports marathons. can you believe they’re only twenty three and they’re going on a free trip to monaco for the summer? hopefully they don’t let their perfectionist side show too much on the trip. 

hey guys my name’s ari! i just woke up literally 30 minutes ago and i thought i missed opening so..... love that for me. this is my first tumblr rp in a long..long time so i’m a wee bit nervous but i’m really stoked to get this started so.. go easy on me?  if you wanna talk or plot feel free to hit me up on discord (I HATE THIS SHOW#7316) or in tumblr dms i don’t bite! anyway here’s my boy genius august!

full name: choi “august” gunwoo nickname: august, auggie faceclaim: kim jongin age: twenty-three zodiac: taurus gender: cismale pronouns: he/him sexuality: heterosexual occupation: student ( aeronautic engineering major )

positives: passionate, intelligent, intuitive, patient, resourceful, caring, optimistic, creative, handy, resourceful, introspective, humble negatives: gullible, naive, competitive, guarded, self-pitying, stubborn, reclusive, timid likes: e-sports, game of thrones (only until season 7. s8 is trash), mythology, astronomy, the marvel cinematic universe, comic books, traveling, adventuring, aliens, outer space, science, video games, engineering, conspiracies, buzzfeed unsolved, computer science dislikes: his stepfather, rudeness, not being good enough, proud people, rigidity, being limited, rules 

highest gpa of their class

considered to be very humble

think of: abed nadir, jimmy neutron, seth cohen, marco (star vs. the forces of evil), peter parker, hiro hamada, tadashi hamada, matt flamhaff (13 going on 30), noah foster (scream)

meet august:

i don’t know how else to describe him other than he is the next bill gates. for real this guy is the biggest whiz kid around, think of jimmy neutron child prodigy but with a much more normal sized head

he’s basically gifted with anything you can do with your hands. he’s been tinkering with “gadgets and gizmos” ever since he was a little lad and hasn’t stopped since. from building robots to playing the piano to creating cosplay suits of armor, he can pretty much do anything if he sets his mind to it. the gag is if he focuses too much on one thing he starts to get bored, so for him constant mental stimulation is a must.

grew up in san francisco california and raised mostly by his mother and older sister because they lost their dad pretty early on from a sickness. he is extremely close to them, being the youngest and only boy in the family, and he dotes on them every second he can. he is very big on family, and when his older sister had her own son he took on the role as favorite uncle so quickly. he’d die for his little nephew. unprovoked.

his mom eventually married this sleaze ball of a douchebag to the max.. he’s essentially a deadbeat and auggie hates his guts but he pays the bills and his mom can’t bring herself to leave him for her own reasons and august would never hurt his mother ever so. he has to live with it. the two guys always butt heads, with his stepdad being the more aggressive of the two always resulting in august holding his tongue and taking the brunt of it. as soon as he was old enough to move out he zipped outta there.

because of his exceptionally bright capabilities, he was granted a full ride scholarship to ucla where he’s currently studying aviation and aeronautic engineering. yea he plans on exploring outer space. boy’s got big dreams and if there’s anything you should know about august it’s that once he sets his mind on something he won’t back down til he reaches it. he’s been fascinated with planes and rockets and spaceships and aliens since he was still a tiny kiddo, and even now he sometimes slips and blurts out astronomy facts in random conversations.

as for his personality, despite his incredible roster of skills and capabilities our boy is actually a very timid one, very introspective and chooses to keep to himself most of the time. not that great with social cues (as a kid he was bullied for being somewhere on the spectrum but now he sees it more as a “superpower” of sorts, if you will) — doesn’t have that many friends but the ones he does have he cherishes with everything in him. he would do anything for pretty much anyone — even to the point of blindly following them — which more often than not leads to him getting walked all over. cue the people in his life who try to sway him to do what they want (bad influence plots anyone?).

the running gag is that august here is very much the human equivalent of a robot. if something of relatively minor inconvenience pops up: System Malfunction.. ERROR! Rrrrrr

he’s very sweet it’s just that for all his intelligence, he can be very naive? he puts his trust in people a lot, even if he just met them, cause he thinks it’s only right to give every one a fair chance. as mentioned before he doesn’t bode well in social situations — he’d much rather sit at home playing a game from his collection or rebuilding a scale model of the mars rover from scratch. he’s a bit of a loner, he tends to isolate himself a lot because he likes a bit of peace and quiet. his mind is so full of things he needs a little space to process his thoughts. he is not good at reading people although he is very very loyal. when things go awry he tends to panic because there’s no manual for this?!

I FORGOT TO MENTION!!!!!!! auggie is a big animal lover and his best friend is his aussie shepherd named clifford. they go pretty much everywhere together. yea.

that’s it for now but like this to plot !!

[kindcstguardian]

MISC.

Name. Armin Beilschmidt. Nicknames.  Birthday. 7th June ( Gemini ) Nationality. Irish &&. French. Languages. French &&. English. Gender. Cis male. Sexuality. Asexual biromantic. Status. Single. Occupation. Student &&. IT intern. Speciality. Beta-tester &&. coding. Hobbies. Gaming &&. cosplaying.

BACKGROUND.

 PRESENT.

Over the passing decade, Armin grew up close to his dad and ended up sharing a bunch of interests of his: coding, hacking, developing his own programs, etc. His father even recommended him to the company he’s working in as computer security expert for which Armin is grateful and ended up as intern to learn how things work and potentially work there.

Besides that, the ravenette took an interest in videogames, comics and manga. Although he doesn’t leave much the house unless he goes to another friend’s house or, well, school or his part-time job ( to this day, he fears bees and spiders ).

 EARLY LIFE.

Born and raised in Northern Ireland, County Tyrone to an excited couple for having two children and a proud older brother waiting to teach and protect them. However, life was only peaceful for five years of his life before an accident took place which costed the life of his biological parents—and because all of them were minors with no relatives alive either, they were sent to adoption.

Ethan was adopted right away leaving Alexander and Armin to themselves for a year alone waiting until a couple that had been married for some good ten years ( Arnaud and Victoria ) chose to adopt them.

While it wasn’t hard for Alexy to open up and express himself, toys that he could want or thoughts that crossed his mind—it was the entire opposite for Armin: to speak more than a sentence or even ask what he wished for.

VERSES.

Main verse. TAG.  「 001  ／ Armin ;  ᴀ ɴᴇᴡ ᴍᴀᴘ ᴛᴏ ᴇxᴘʟᴏʀᴇ. . | 」

Highschool student, 17 years old.     Alongiside Alexy, they both find themselves a little puzzled at this pink and straight-up from a shojo manga of sorts school—although Armin isn’t about to complain but rather crack jokes about the typical cliche   ( which only deepened upon further inspection ).

   Still, much like in the previous institutions they both had attended thus far, Armin sticks to his game console and avoids leaving the interior of the school, the whole bees and insect fear never quite leaving him. Plus, social events are not his thing—that’s more of his twin’s thing.

MCLUL verse. TAG.  「 002  ／   」

College student, 23 years old.     Tba.

Infamous second son verse. TAG.  「 003 ／ Armin  ;  you want 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘦 and I want 𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙙𝙤𝙢 」

Runaway, 20 years old.     The traumatic event that took place during his childhood was   the trigger; however, it didn’t manifest itself right away - given Armin played quite often with a gameboy, at nights whenever he’d wake up from a nightmare at the orphanage, he’d see his ‘imaginary friend’ which was Link but, soon enough, Armin realized     it wasn’t just that,  given Alexy could see it as well and warned him not to do that in public or a place where others could see it too.

   A decade has passed with many changes, the younger twin no longer invoked said videogame character  ( not as often, at least )  but rather craved to possess certain   traits   or   habilities   for himself     which he did, sucessfully. Although always when left alone or when the blue-haired was around to supervise, keeping everything in check.

   However, this came to a stop when Armin saw the news: people like him were a threat and should be stopped, locked up; if proved to be a genuine danger to society, then killed without a second thought, as if their lives did not matter and were crushed like mere insects. Isolating himself in fear he might hurt his family, Armin’s   anxiety   and   paranoia drove his thoughts wild, borderline a panic attack to which he decided to escape from the house. Intrusive thoughts taking over, clouding his mind from any rational thought, telling him that he could harm his family. Without a single word, he left.

   Armin became a traveler, a gamer who ocasionally smoked drugs to ease his alarming stress and anxiety levels which could blur his judgement again and cause him to make poor decisions - and, sometimes, he was a trief ‘cause, a guy gotta eat, right ?

Fourth wall breaking  or Spider-man: Into the Spider-verse TAG. 「 004 ／ Armin ; my 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 is a bit different 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 . . | 」

Tba.     Much like Gwenpool, Armin was sucked into the comic he was reading by some unbeknown magic to him—although, to make matters much worse than it already was, it had to be in the middle of the entire world glitching thus causing him to land in   the movie   rather than Ultimate Spider-man universe known as Earth-1610.

   Stuck in the movie and watching the world glitch though this   didn’t   happen to him at all ( worrying him even more because he had no money and, therefore, no means to survive ), Armin decided to steal the blonde’s idea and pretty much became Novapool—a college dropout since there’s no hope for him to return who is a part-timer in a comic / geek store and full-time mercenary.

Persona 5 verse. TAG. 「 P5 ／ Armin  ;  𝔐𝔞𝔎𝔢𝔰𝔥𝔦𝔣𝔱 𝔍𝔲𝔰𝔱𝔦𝔠𝔢 」

Highschool student, 17 years old.    It wasn’t particulary strange for Armin to land in an entire different country to continue his studies alongside his brother; however, for him and his group of friends to tag all along? Mrs.Shermansky surely wanted Sweet Amorris to have an impeccable name if accepting an exchange student program was an idea that fixated in her mind.

   Still, assisting to Shujin academy school proved to be a good experience the first three weeks, the fourth one started in a peculiar manner when   the Phantom Thieves   first made an appearence.

   From that point onwards, as time passed by, many things started to happen which irked Armin off. If he previously had difficulty fitting in or attempting to interact with other students outside his circle, the atmosphere surrounding   certain students   made him back away completely. That was until Iris was affected.

   Alongside Lynn, they both were investigating who kept harassing their classmate and friend to the point she would have bags under her eyes and her body would be trembling, too weak to even properly walk and constantly trip—this caused Armin to steal her phone when Lynn took her away. Deducing her password correctly as he was on the run due Charlotte catching him and calling the police on him—she wasn't working alone on   torturing   someone as innocent as the redhead.

   Although this escaping of his had made the ravenette end up trapped in the metaverse alongside   the Phantom Thieves  whom were confronting Kaneshiro in his own palace. Terrified of such place and creatures, Armin dodged most attacks albeit he still got hit yet stood up quickly and ran as fast as his legs allowed him before stumbling paths with them: upon hearing what disgusting words left that monster’s lips, a voice started resonating inside his head.

   I am thou, thou art I, it was a man’s voice that was driving him insane. Armin dropped to his knees and held his head but he had to bear the pain that was blinding him, tears formed in the corner of his eyes yet he clenched his jaw, perhaps God will give you justice, but you can make your own until the time arrives.

   His persona awakens upon hearing the injustice many students have to go through, thinking about how Charlotte was part of all of this, going as far as to push Iris beyond her limits, how she dragged many other students into that hole with no return—the power of Monte Cristo made him stood his ground and raise up; accepting the contract, the blue-eyed codename is Dantès.

Danganronpa verse TAG. 「 ᴅᴀɴɢᴀɴʀᴏɴᴘᴀ ／ Armin ; 𝘎𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘯𝘰 𝘱𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘩. . . | 」

Reserve Course student, 17 years old.  Based on UTDP.   Previously enrolled in Sweet Amorris, that was soon to change after getting involved in a situation two years ago: hacking the devices of his friend, then the school system and soon the police to track the individual harassing her. However, he had been sloppy in his work since he hadn’t thought of the consequences due to his blood boiling.    Much to his surprise, aside from spending a few nights locked and under the supervision of the police, he didn’t get a punishment since there weren’t charges towards him. That and... they received a request from a prestigious school, that alone made Armin freak out because what’s with that, his case didn’t even make it to the news because of his father’s influence.  What was their deal?  Nevertheless, he joined and uh, everyone here as an oddball     luckily, Alexy was there to keep him sane.

Eldarya / Fantasy verse TAG. 「／  」

Tba.

TAGS.

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／   𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐲 𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫┊ aceplaycr 」

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／ INQUIRY」

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／ MUSINGS 」

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／ VISAGE 」

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／ MANNERISMS 」

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／ INTROSPECTION」

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／ ROMANCE 」

「 Armin Beilschmidt ／ CRACK 」

RELATIONSHIPS.

「 ❝ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃʳᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃʷᶠᵘˡ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵐʸ ᶜʰᵃᵒᵗⁱᶜ ⁿᵉᵘᵗʳᵃˡ ❞ / ᴀʀᴍɪɴ + ᴋᴇɴᴛɪɴ 」; 

✘ · Armven ♡（ ❝ ᴴᵒʷ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵐʸ ʷʰᵒˡᵉ ˡⁱᶠᵉ ? ❞ ）

✘ ·  ♡（   ）

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Zoey Shikoba

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Tribe: Makah Age: 24 Birthday: 31 Dec 1992 Gender: Female Location: Neah Bay High School: Graduate

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Appearance:

Since young, Zoey had always appeared as a buck-toothed, brace-wearing, short girl with frizzy chestnut coloured hair. She was often looked down upon by friends and relatives ever since her kindergarten days for her less than average looks, back when Zoey and her family still resided in Illinois. Going to elementary school changed her a little. She dropped her glasses plus the braces, but still, her classmates snubbed and ignored her, thus planting a shy seed in Zoey herself. Her less than pleasant history made her the shy person she was now, and there weren�t many comforting memories at her old hometown, either. Puberty brought about a huge transformation in her appearance, when she first moved to Forks. Her hard complexion features softened to reveal a sweet, angelic face with large hazel eyes, mixed with a slight indigo tint inherited from her grandmother, and was the only thing that seemed to stand out in her features. Her frizzy hair soothed out into a long mane of coffee coloured hair that reached her waist, and her skin has a similar but slightly lighter brownish hue, giving her a sun burnt kind of look. Her short and stout bodice shot up a few good inches, and her waist eventually shrank. Zoey may seem small and petite at first glance, her body a fragile and tiny frame supporting her heart-shaped face, but since joining the Spartan cheerleaders, she'd gotten herself plenty of exercise and is fit as a fiddle. Zoey as a Thunderbird shifter has dark brown feathers and a bright yellow beak. Like all Thunderbirds, she is huge in size and it was the enormity of her size that had scared herself when she first shifted. Post-shifting Zoey as a human has also experienced a change in which she lost a lot of weight and looked more haggard than her bubbly cheerleading days. She had permanent dark circles under her eyes and constantly looked as pale as a parchment. However, after her brief move to Finland, she managed to make herself look better, though not as good as her pre-shifting days but good enough. Hence, that was one of the reasons she was most reluctant to move back to Forks after three years.

Personality

Zoey was ostracized from society ever since she was young, and things didn�t exactly turn well for her for the next few years. People often gave her disdainful glances that indicate that she was not worthy of their appraisal. Therefore, being the only child in her family, Zoey grew into a shy person, avoiding attention and crowds if she could. Although many people thought being the only child was a privilege, Zoey saw it as a tormenting experience, as there often was no one she could confide in. Her secrets, her thoughts, her opinions� She had to keep them to herself, and more often than not, she wished herself a sibling to be her guardian, as her workaholic parents were playing the negligent game on her. Many people think that introverts are, in actual fact, proud and ignorant brats, but Zoey was anything but one. She merely had an introspective personality and preferred to muse over her thoughts alone, undisturbed. In her opinion, she hadn�t done anything impressive, what was there to brag about? Nevertheless, she was one of the �losers� and outcasts in Fallbrooke High of Illinois, and once again found herself alone and isolated with no one to keep her company. Despite her shyness, Zoey�s brittle temper can be quite a flare once she was triggered, and her rebukes were often less than polite. It was as if the loneliness she had felt since young had piled up inside her, and resulted in a more than sulky attitude whenever she was infuriated. However, it doesn�t take much to relief her of her anger. Say, books and music were her best remedies. More often than not, her mood swings would take over her feelings, and people were often taken aback by her volatile personality. Meeting her new stepfamily brought out a change in Zoey. Perhaps it was the bubbly aura of the Baileys that had infected her system and caused the upward curving of her lips every time she meets people. Indeed, her step-sister, Linden, was a caring sibling, and Zoey�s childhood wish was finally fulfilled, and at the same time, she got herself a new best friend and was not lonely ever since. Unfortunately, great things do not last long, and Linden�s sudden death made Zoey replay her old past life again. Her loneliness and helplessness returned with a force so tremendous, it was exhausting. Once again, she shunned herself away from everybody, meaning to mend her broken heart all by herself, but was later guided back to her route of happiness by her newfound best friend, Chelsie Overton. Things went downhill again after Chelsie was bitten by a vampire and Zoey started shifting into a Thunderbird. Her old snarkiness and moodiness returned and she was her bitter self once again. The move to Finland however, opened her eyes a little and she matured greatly over the years. She was not prepared to be forgiving during her return to Forks, but Zoey knew better than to completely sink into the deep pits of her old bitter self once again.

History:

The Shikobas can be regarded as an ancient American native family of the Makah tribe that dated back to the �30s. Born in the 1960s, Troy Krueger Shikoba was a lucky son, as he didn�t have to go through the poverty condition the Shikoba ancestors had to endure. It was the most fortunate year for the Shikobas. Therefore, it can be said Troy Shikoba was the luckiest of the young Shikoba generation. Troy Shikoba met Nathalya Sparrow in university, which he went to after graduating. And, of course, they fell in love with each other and there were no objections between the two families towards their marriage, although the affluent Sparrows weren�t exactly appeased by Thalya�s choice of a bridegroom. The arrival of Zoey Ishka Shikoba on the 31st of December 1992 to couple Nathalya and Troy Shikoba was greatly anticipated, as they were childless for a decade since their marriage. Relatives and friends often marvelled at the cherubic child, and her parents couldn�t have been prouder. Years �specifically fourteen years- after Zoey�s birth, Troy was ordered to Forks, due to working reasons, and after several weeks of exhausting trips to and fro the two towns, Troy Shikoba announced an official move to Forks, a tiny town located somewhere in the Olympic Peninsula. Of course, Zoey was both sad and elated, but excitement soon triumphed over solemn as Zoey was utterly glad to leave her traumatic past behind in Illinois. Despite the move to a smaller town, the Shikoba couple remained busy as ever, hardly paying attention and regard to that little child of theirs. Although she was the only child, Zoey was never spoilt by her parents, but was brought up strictly and primly instead, even when they still lived at Illinois. Her past time were spent juggling several curriculum at once; academic tutoring, piano and violin lessons, swimming and netball lessons. Although Zoey kept on comforting herself that her parents was doing this for her own good, she found herself in despair every time she saw other kids enjoying themselves in the snow, or running around in meadows near to her house. Despite people�s incessant comments about her being �the perfect child�, Zoey felt anything but whole, anything but perfect, for all she ever felt deep inside was a huge, yawning void, waiting to be filled by someone who loved her dearly. Zoey only found comfort in the stories her grandma often told her about the Makah tribe, a tribe both her parents were part of. Due to the amount of time Troy and Thalya Shikoba spend on work, Zoey�s own dear parents never had the chance to tell those tales themselves. So when Grandma Shikoba eventually contracted schizophrenia and had to be in a ward on a long term basis, Zoey felt left out of the world and often retreated to her own thoughts, which had now became her own personal sanctuary. Zoey started school at Forks High and was usually classified as one of the �freshman freaks�. Her so-called friends weren�t even enough to fill a raft, and she was frequently snubbed and ignored by her student body for one, being an outcast, and two, scoring the highest grades on every test. To everyone, she was the haughty Zoey Shikoba from the rich Shikoba residence; the spoilt princess of her parents. Even though Zoey was hurt by those remarks, she tried to hide her feelings with an imposing fa�ade, determined to be oblivious in this school of hell as she reckoned that she couldn�t have felt lonelier than she already was. The excuse of �work� eventually became the reason of the divorce between Thalya and Troy Shikoba, as they brought up the subject casually during dinner, as if it was merely an idea to repaint the kitchen walls. Surprisingly, the divorce wasn�t quite a surprise for Zoey after all the time she was neglected by her parents, and the only feeling felt during the separation was nonchalance, and perhaps a wee tinge of regret as she watched her father leave the threshold. Her mother had put on a stony expression that was unreadable, and even though Zoey knew she was the one who had suggested the divorce, she knew Thalya Shikoba was still filled with an influx of regret towards her first love she met 20 years ago. Zoey had stayed with her mother in a secluded suburb in Forks ever since. Thalya Shikoba �who didn�t bother to change her surname-, was a single mother for two years, until she met Dirk Bailey, and surprised Zoey by announcing the news of her remarriage over the dining table. A wave of jumbled emotions swept over Zoey and she realised that they were mainly made up of fear and nerves. She already couldn�t cope with her classmates at school, much less a new family. Under that layer of fear and apprehension, there was also a tinge of agitation and irritation towards her mother, possibly triggered by her quick and rash decision to remarry and build a whole new family with a complete stranger in the said stranger�s house. When the time had arrived, sensitive Zoey was afraid to meet her new family in the magnificent and majestic Bailey house in Seattle. She was afraid of their reactions and judgments towards her, the shy and sulky Zoey Shikoba. Worse, she was afraid she wouldn�t be able to accept what was in store for her, as she was never a fan of new changes and surprises. However, surprisingly, she found herself comfortable with her newfound father and stepsister, Linden Bailey. It thrilled her more that they were in the same clan, the Makah tribe, and truly believed that things would start to get better after all. And she got her wish, as Linden was the best sister and friend she had ever had in her sixteen years of life. Stories about evil step-families were now considered taboo in Zoey�s mind, and she couldn�t believe she could ever fear the Baileys. Zoey�s blissful dream was destroyed on a rainy day in the month of May, when she found her step-father and mother crying in the living room. She herself was shell-shocked when her mother blurted out that Linden was dead. Zoey could feel her world crashing down around her and refused to accept reality. No one and nothing could confirm the real cause of Linden Bailey�s death, except that she was covered with lots of brutal and severe lacerations that were fatal and was believed that she was killed by a wild animal when tracking through the woods at an ungodly hour in the morning. Zoey didn�t believe any of it, and was sure something was behind her sister�s demise, and vowed to find out the real truth by herself even though she was reprimanded constantly by her mother for her paranoia. Linden�s death brought out the old Zoey; the isolated and grumpy and lonely girl she was at her previous hometown. Suddenly, school turned out to be a great bore, and the few friends she made at her first few days at Forks High School realized her change in behavior too and started to avoid her. Zoey couldn�t help herself, but thought it was probably best for her to avoid people, and for people to avoid her. However, a few weeks later, she met a new girl, Chelsie Overton, apparently hailed from San Francisco and a small class-skipping act brought the two teenage girls together, and they were best friends ever since. Zoey still couldn�t forget about what happened to Linden, but in the end, she promised to not ever fall into the sunken pit of her life again, and returned to her bubbly and cheerful self, which earned her even more friends than before, including her newfound boyfriend, Blake Matthews. Thanks to Chelsie's encouragement as well, Zoey decided to join the Forks High Spartan Cheerleaders in her junior year and that was what Zoey liked to call her "golden era". She had everything she could ask for: a best friend and close friends from the cheerleading team. However, Blake and Zoey drifted apart gradually and both agreed it was for the best. Since then, Zoey had never been in a serious committed relationship, and she preferred for it to be that way until she found someone she might, well, imprint on. Her golden era collapsed the day Chelsie and her went to the Olympic Forest for an innocent jog, which ended up with Chelsie being bitten by a vampire and vanishing thereafter, leaving Zoey to phase into a Thunderbird for the first time. Fortunately, she was discovered by the Makah Alpha at the time, Roswyn Sands who had stopped her from going after the vampire that had turned Chelsie. Chelsie's "accident" had a huge impact on Zoey's life. She was her old self again until a few weeks after the incident, when her mom and her stepfather decided a move would be appropriate, and the whole family packed up and left for Finland without telling a soul. At the time, Zoey hardly cared but in retrospect, she probably should have told the Flock about her move instead of leaving them hanging. The three years Zoey spent in Finland helped her to mature greatly. She knew she could never become the same bubbly cheerleader she was again but she was determined not to sink into the deep pits either. There, she had the privilege of leaving her past behind and learned the brand new cultural ways of the Finnish. She didn't mind staying at the Scandinavian country forever. However, the world isn't a wish granting factory and three years later, Dirk announced that they would have to move back to Forks because he was needed there by his company. Plus, both her parents thought it was finally time to return to reality. Zoey was less than pleased, but she knew her parents were right, and that she would have to face her problems eventually. Her first sights of Forks were painful, and the sight of Forks High was even worse. Memories of her and her girls practising on the field every afternoon, her hangouts with Chelsie at the cafeteria...she was relieved she had already finished high school. She was also surprised to find that almost everyone in Forks was a stranger to her, and the same could be said for the Makah Flock. Despite the fact that she crave for familiarity, she decided she could work with a whole new environment too, just as long as it didn't give her headaches as her old environment had.

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Isolated System

“ In an isolated system, entropy can only increase ”

It’s something which I was taught for the first time in Thermodynamics in Chemistry in 11th Grade but the real reason I still remember it after 2 years and after leaving Science is because of the Muse song titled Isolated System which has only that line repeated throughout the whole song. Even though this principle applies very well in the field of Science I believe when it comes to social situations, isolation leads to a decrease in entropy. 

There have been so many things and people who motivate me and inspire me to work towards improving myself and usually every time this happens I try to frame a basic plan in my mind of things to do & not to do to achieve a specific aim yet somehow that plan doesn’t seem to get implemented and I’ve pondered a lot about why it tends to happen and one reason which I’ve come to realize is the cause of this is that there are too many dynamic factors in life which I cannot seem to calculate when I chalk out plans for myself and the best way possible that I can think of to reduce these dynamic factors is to reduce the causes of such factors and that I believe can only happen through isolation.

Absolute isolation even though is possible, isn’t something I aim to achieve, and it isn’t something which should be sought as man truly is a social animal, something I’ve realized after my past trifles with isolation. However an Isolated System for me seems to be a more ideal way of working in comparison to working in an environment where there are several factors to influence & distract you. This may be because of the fact that I’m not a very social person myself and have always leaned towards introversion on the Introversion Extroversion Scale. The silence of a dark room somehow always has a more stimulating effect on my mind than a social gathering with groovy music. 

It is tough to find a time & place to create this isolated system in college where you have over 300 students in your batch, 50 in your hostel and have to share your room with another person. You’re constantly surrounded with people, people who unlike you, are great at socializing and in order to not isolate myself absolutely I tend to socialize as well however, this whole experience of interaction, being surrounded by people is a concept which is very much new to me, and it is tough for me to observe & analyse my surroundings and introspect my life like I used to and currently I do find a growing need to create an isolated system around me in order to be able to live my life like I did at my own house. 

Somehow as much as I disagree with the application of the 2nd law of thermodynamics in real life situations, I can’t deny that in order for there to be equilibrium (in life), the entropy either has to increase or remain constant, and cannot decrease as I hope for it to be.  

[warwaited]

Back in the day when I was still trying to make this a Street Fighter blog, @oddlies and their A.K.I. were the first to sit down across from this curt, stiff, largely closed-off character and get writing with her. Shoutout to a real one.

Art made by the oft-mimicked, never-duplicated @rosallora who you should all go and commission right now.

[warwaited]

What is your character arc?

hero arc

well done - you did things right. this may seem like a boring answer, but i promise it isn't. you believe in goodness and you believe in doing good, and through everything, you work to keep that goodness. you have seen so much blood, and your instinct is always to stitch. you grew and fought and won, and i'm glad you did, because someone had to. i'm glad you kept believing in the world you were trying to save. you are far braver than most could ever be.

redemption arc

your story had a pretty rough start and you did some things you're not proud of, but you made the choice to change. i won't go through how important it is to accept responsibility and keep striving to improve or whatever because you know that already. what i think you should know is that your fuel does not need to be shame. you don’t need to stand over the bathroom sink with your blood in your hands until you can no longer make out your reflection. you will look at your face and you will see the person you used to be, but that person no longer exists. today, you are looking, and that makes all the difference.

romance/friendship arc

you started this story a little hard, or awkward, or stubborn. that's okay. it's harder than it should be to admit, but what you really want is love. that's what your story is all about - not just the act of loving, but the allowance of it. the confession that you do not want to fight or bleed or save the world, but to simply feel the way two hands fit so easily together. you will have two chairs and a table and you will shut your blinds, and you will say the word love without faltering. this is a happy ending, and you do not need to feel guilty. it hurts our hands to fight - never to hold.

tagged by @estarion

[warwaited]

which tragic death would you suffer?

the prophetic hero

you die saving the world, as you were always supposed to. peace comes only with your blood. the world will remember you for centuries. they will write poems, create art, and film movies all about you. no one will remember what you were before your death. maybe you don't even know it either. you have spent so long saving the world time after time that there is nothing left of you except the heroism. you die never knowing love.

the forgotten

you die alone. maybe they find you right away, maybe it takes weeks. it doesn't matter because no one will remember a few years down the road. if people come to your funeral, it is not a memory they engrave into their mind. you leave no mark in the world, no legacy at all. your grave grows moss and collects dust, cracking under nothingness. soon, someone will think of you for the last time.

the sudden

it happens so quick you won't even realize it. like being hit by a car, or having a heart attack. one moment you're here, the next you're not. you don't get to prepare. your family will spend months sifting through your belongings, not knowing what to do. your friends online will never know why you don't come back. you die thinking you're alive, face still preserved with your last emotion. you don't get to say goodbye.

stolen from @avernusfuries, steal it from me

[warwaited]

What do you need to hear?

you are enough.

I see how hard you’re working. I see how your body aches under the weight of it, how you lose sleep and rub the red out of your eyes in the hopes that they can’t tell how desperately you’re clawing at “good enough.” I know how that dirt feels under your nails, that filth of never being what they want. you’re running yourself into nothing trying so hard to be good for them. but you are already good. you are already enough. you have nothing to prove. you are beautiful and what you bring to the world, what you have to show for the space you take up is perfect. it is enough. you are enough. you can rest. you don’t have to try so hard to be more than what you are. you are, and that’s enough. you’re already perfect.

there is no such thing as sin.

you are not dirty. you are not broken. you do not need to be saved. you are whole. you are pure. you are human and you are perfect. they’ve tried for so long to make you believe that you are something that is filthy and broken and this is not true. they do not define you. they do not tell you what is good and what is evil. as long as you are not hurting anyone, you are good. you are doing good. they cannot make you something you are not and you are not dirty and you are not broken and you do not need to be saved. you are already perfect. your life already matters.

you matter. yes, you specifically.

yes, the universe is infinite and full of things infinitely beyond our comprehension, and yet, here you are. you, in all your infinite complexity and uniqueness. here, now: you. in an infinite universe it is easy to feel insignificant, but you can’t forget that the likelihood that you would exist at all is unintelligibly small, and yet, just as small and just as grand, here you are. you are here because you are meant to be here. your place in the world is uniquely yours and could never be filled by anyone else. the universe made you because it needed you. yes, you specifically. yes, you are just one microscopically small piece in an unfathomably huge infinity, but you are entirely irreplaceable. you are impossible and you are inevitable and you are beautiful and you are so, so important. yes, you specifically.

stolen from @mxchineherald

[warwaited]

💡(Student)

Student is not generally very discerning about what she puts in her mouth. For a while she lived off of cup noodle and ordered-in pizza, but one night when she was reading up on the usuals she ran across a post online about eating coffee beans "for energy".

She's also not very discerning about what she reads online. It's unclear whether her increased energy levels result from the coffee beans or from not trying to squeeze every available drop out of herself by daisy-chaining energy drinks, but she swears it works.

[warwaited]

what's stu's tent like ?

The Student will only get a tent and bedroll in the first place at the rest of the party's insistence, which is a grim omen of how much she thinks of it as home. Since she doesn't make a habit of collecting things except to trade for what she can actually use, any tent she does luck into is near barren, aside from a similarly-foisted bedroll and maybe a change of clothes.

[warwaited]

when are their birthdays.

Rakatak's birthday WOULD be December 15th in the Gregorian calendar - a day much celebrated in the Empire with parades held in larger cities and a break from the stern and demanding work of the lower classes. Rakatak is a Sagittarius.

Student doesn't know her birthday. It's October 4th. Student is a Libra.

[warwaited]

once you're stripped clean, what's at your core?

acerbic wit

you're a mentor — an old scarred wolf, an injured soldier, a disgraced paladin. your teachings read as shamelessly pretentious, speaking in rhymes and biting down hard into anyone stupid enough to make the wrong move. this isn't your first life, nor your second, nor your sixth — you'll make the most of your time shackled to this world, no matter how many loops it takes to get it right. with every defeat, you reincarnate; a little smarter, a little quicker, crueler and nastier. will you choose to be brutal, equalizing, that final strike in the face of your enemies? will you go soft, become tender and domesticated? the choice is yours. it's not like i can stop you.

stolen from @grief-worn

[warwaited]

what happens when u spam click on student LMAO

"Do you know what happened to the last person who irritated me?" "Eyes wide, pants loose..." "I could be training right now."

[warwaited]

What kind of tragedy are you?

doomed from the start

there was no way of winning, and you knew it too. but you still tried. you tried again and again and again to change it. you fought tooth and claw to change your fate, but she cannot be easily manipulated. it’s not your fault. the game was always rigged against you. from the moment you entered the narrative, your fate was sealed. you didn’t stand a chance.

self-inflicted

you were given the choice to live, a thousand times over, and yet you never choose it. not intentionally, oh no, you didn’t know it was a grave you were digging. but with every turn, you were twisting the knife deeper. every decision doomed you more. had it been anyone else, they would have made it. but you? you are so perfectly you, there was no escaping it. the true tragedy of it all, is how preventable it was.

tagged by: @shimmerbeasts

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