#it brings back bad memories

[foulbearobservation]

the homoerotic tension that happens when slasher camlil stitch up each other's wounds is insane -🌑

I wrote like 2k last night and literally all it was was just Lilith carefully washing Camila's hands after Lilith killed a man in front of her and Cami got caught in the blood spray. Their tension is crazy I genuinely don't know if it's better before or after they finally kiss.

Anyway!! Lilith is always getting herself stabbed, Cami learns to become a not half bad field medic after Jillian teaches her how to do stitches correctly. She has steady hands, even when Lilith is bleeding out below her and cracking bad jokes.

"Stop making me laugh, I'm gonna fuck up your stitches." Cami is still smiling despite herself because Lilith is soft around the edges and that doesn't happen very often.

Lilith, way too high after Camila forced her to take pain meds: "your face doesn't look right when ur not smiling at me"

"gee you really know how to sweet talk a girl."

[elekilokal]

My Fragaria redesigns

[thoughtlessthinkythoughts]

As we celebrate public domain day and the start of Letters from Watson, I just want to say....

All queer Holmes headcanons are good.

All of them are meaningful to a multitude of people, and everyone finally has free reign to explore them in published works.

And I want to see all of them. They aren't in competition with each other.

I love explorations of what it would be like to be gay in Victorian society and all of the intricate historical connections people make. Both the painful ones and the ones that say fuck it, let's show some joy.

I love when characters are allowed to be bisexual and all of their relationships are treated with respect. I love when Watson gets to love Mary and Holmes, and when this isn't made out to be some competition.

I love aro and/or ace Holmes, and I beg certain corners of the fandom to remember that these explorations are not the same as simply not addressing the subject of Holmes' sexuality. They are so much more, and these interpretations are fundamentally queer. I love explorations of what it means for a queerplatonic partnership to be the most important relationship in someone's life, especially when they don't have the words to explain it.

I love explorations of Sherlock Holmes and gender. Whether it is someone concealing their gender to play a certain role in society or it is an exploration of being trans historically. All possibilities have something different and interesting to say.

Sherlock Holmes and the relationship between Holmes and Watson appeals to so many of us for a reason, and there are so many stories we can tell. There are so many ways authors can now say "I have always seen myself in this. Let me show you why." There is no limit.

I guess what I'm saying is this. Sherlock Holmes is now legally allowed to be kind and compassionate (and treat female characters well).

Here's to fandom doing the same.

[masteraqua]

i put xion inside the centrifuge in my head to see what would happen :)

here's what i've got

i've long been enamored with the idea of xion looking like a patchwork of different people, and i chose to represent that idea through vitiligo here

she takes up athletics post kh3 because she needs routine and likes being part of a team, and this option is healthier than being in a cult

she has purple highlights in her hair! naminé helped her :)

she and pence like to talk about coding and hacker culture. they have a lot of nerdy in-jokes that no one gets

she has a running bet with hayner that if he can land a single hit on her, she has to buy him ice cream. so far the score is 12/0, but he hasn't given up yet

she and olette are the only morning people in the group so they meet up for breakfast at the café regularly

she still makes time to see just axel and roxas, but they had to find a new place to hang out since word got out about how easy it is to sneak into the clocktower. thankfully, twilight town has no shortage of good views

[gio-cosmo]

He has NO reason to be looking this joyful here 😭

[artbyfuji]

bumbleby psychic beam attack

[canisalbus]

Modern Machete likes NIN?! I’d absolutely invite him over to listen to dying machine noises and angst with me.

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[torqxx]

fanart for @waterfrontcomplex's Cycrane Killer Yanqing AU

suuuuuper normal about this au btw 👍

the eyes are red bc it looks better and i forgot yanqing has yellow eyes when i was almost done

another version without blood and without shadows

PLS CHECK OUT ITS AU THE AU IS SO COOL !!!!!

[willowser]

sometimes i get the very strong urge to write a comes back ??? fic for bakugou but the more i think about it, the more i realize how emotionally taxing and honestly horrifying it would be.

you and bakugou spend a few years in that weird will-they-won't-they stage before you officially start seeing each other seriously, and then it takes some time to adjust to having a pro-hero for a partner — so it's not always easy. until the time goes by and you have a break up scare or two and things finally level out, and you figure out how to talk to each other and you fall into the beautifully warm comfort of just being together, in love.

and then he fucking dies. in a heart-explodey, blind-in-one-eye kind of way.

the two years that follow are just — time passing, like pages in a chapter you can't understand the words to. you know grief in a way you never could have comprehended before, you wonder what it's all for and how you'll go on. you're angry at him for sacrificing his stupid life and angry at the world for taking him from you, but you're so deeply, down to your bones, heartbroken over losing him.

and you're not the only one; more than any of his friends that you see, deku is the one who is there for you the most. calls you daily and pulls you out of bed, makes sure you eat because he knows that's what kacchan would want. lovingly flings out a few gruff insults that make you laugh until you're both crying in your kitchen. it means something, maybe, that you both can just mourn in the presence of one another, without judgement or care.

your relationship gets a little — dependent. not romantic, at least not for you, but it's like you need the other person for the bits of bakugou they hold that you don't. the memories and the laughs and the bad times as well as the good. the secrets katsuki would never tell you, and the tenderness izuku was never shown.

it never gets easier. every day is just another day. if you think about it for too long, it all comes crumbling down. you're almost having to disassociate through your life just to make it, and that's hard when the whole city mourns him, too. but you do it. every single day, even on the worst of them.

izuku calls you a little more than two years after, in the middle of the night.

sounding way too awake and out of breathe, though you don't think that's necessarily out of the ordinary, considering his profession. he's a very hyper-fixation kind of guy; you can only imagine what hobby he's picked up and also mastered in the last 48 hours.

he asks if he can come pick you up from your apartment because he "needs to show you something important" and you agree, even if it doesn't feel like it usually does, when the nights are long and you both need someone to talk to. this feels — urgent. a bit worrisome.

you don't know where he takes you, but he's quiet the whole way there. in an old sweater, hair mussed, bags under his eyes like he really hasn't slept in the last 48 hours.

("stupid flighty fucker," katsuki would say, sometimes, when the weight of the world was weighing too heavily on the number one hero's shoulders, and even if he would huff and puff and grit his teeth, you'd notice him checking his phone more often than usual. taking every phone call that came without hesitation.)

you almost want to tell izuku that, in the car, because that's what you do, that's how you've kept him alive between the two of you; kacchan would make a point to tell you that's not how generators work, in the shitty horror film you and deku go see, that kacchan wouldn't dare sit through.

("no, he would," you argue, solemn as the lights in the theater warm back to life, as it empties. "he would."

and after a long, heavy beat, izuku would agree. "yeah. he would.")

izuku brings you somewhere that's too clinical to be as quiet and as dark as it is: inside, the walls and floors are sterile with anti-septic but the lights are off, in every hallway. the only visibility comes from a small lamp that's in a lobby of sorts, and there is a small handful of people you don't know, at all, already there. waiting.

you say his name in a small, concerned question, and when he takes both his hands in yours, they're warm and too wide and sweaty. his eyes glow, but in a way you don't recognize. everything he says to you is — gibberish, a mish-mash of worry and half-sentences and all the warning bells are going off in your head.

"y-you can't freak out, okay? you have to—i can explain all this when...when the time is right."

"you said that you would give anything to have kacchan back, remember? you said—you would do anything."

"i know this sounds—i know how this sounds, okay? but nothing is impossible!"

"i just need you to trust me."

and up until now, you had no reason not to. but you're not sure when he slept last, or even when he ate last, or why he's muttering things about his quirk, how he and katsuki are connected somehow, in ways he's not able to explain.

or why you can faintly hear the steady beeping of a heart monitor just beyond the only closer door in this wing of the hospital.

[d4rk-x-w0lf-17]

forced to reminisce about hetaoni and how obsessed i was back in like 2012-2013

the concept is so novel cuz it takes what is essentially a fairly normal horror game with bland, one note characters but takes an insanely popular (at the time) series and slaps them in with a fresh coat of paint, even adding new elements and features

the idea of time travel, time loops and having immortality being ripped from you is such an interesting idea cuz it adds so many possibilities, problems, personal challenges and forces characters together that have rarely interacted both in history and just in the show. then you also have characters that are on the sidelines that have to find ways to help the 10 main characters that are stuck with minimal knowledge of what is ACTUALLY going on

(from what i remember, only italy and england were the ones aware of the time loops)

imagine being forced to witness your friends and loved ones dying over and over and OVER and you are absolutely powerless to do anything except reset everything and just hope for a better outcome; even at one point watching the point in time where you find out that you were the one who doomed everyone from the start but you can't intervene

[evanpeterswifeyyy]

GUYS I FOUND A VIOLET X KAI SHIP ACC AND THEY MADE EDITS AND I’M ACTUALLY CRYING

[thepringlesofblood]

anyone else having to go through fhjy at a snail's pace bc every time there's a teacher-student interaction (even the positive ones!) you want to set something on fire because of how much you hate high school and american academic culture and it throws you back to the Bad Old Days of actually being in high school, but also you really like fantasy high and you really like the characters and their story and the players and the way they're exploring & critiquing the US school system and basically everything about the show but actually watching it makes your brain explode?

[agenttommykinard]

being told you were "annoying" or "too much" in your formative years by people who were supposed to love you unconditionally really ah... fucks you up

[l0ganberry]

nothing like a late night homemade funnel cake with the boys!

[shobiolovechild]

chainsaw man makes me so anxious. i love it, it's original, it's well written, but when i can't predict the ending makes me so anxious. Like, mha, the end is gonna be the end of the war. Jujutso, defeating sukuna. Ok. We get it. We are curious to know how

Bur csm?? I dont even know what we fighting. Everytime i predict something bad happening, fujimoto manages to make something so much worse. I can't picture in my mind how's gonna end. The only possible good and happy endings for my boy i, deep down from the heart, dont think its likely to happen.

If i think too hard maybe i'll have a panic attack

[spotaus]

Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.