One thing I will always love about The Winchesters is how petulant it is about its romance parallels. It really is knocking you over the head with parallels to Dean’s feelings in particular.
The show is built around the choosing—the running your own race despite your circumstances.
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The thing is that Dean and his abandonment issues wants Castiel to stay, despite the fuck ups and the blame and the anger, he needs him to stay as proof that he’s not toxic that he can have good things and not break them
But Castiel, and his guilt chose to leave because that is his penance. Why does he deserve to be happy when he has caused so much suffering? How can he look at Dean smile at him when he’s fucked up so much? He needs to leave because how could he be around Dean like he isn’t a living monument to all the ways his fuck ups hurt the ones he loves.
Cas wants to help the brothers, so he leaves. He’s caused them so much pain what right does he have to be around them, when he can be out there getting them information, finding things they need, helping fix their problems. This is his penance. Because no matter how hard he rebelled or how far he fell Castiel has an innate, almost primal need to be holy, to be absolved of his mistakes and sins. And he’s made so many mistakes where else can he find penance but in misery?
And in almost every episode Dean is in some way or form asking Castiel if he'll stay this time, and every-time Cas says no. And Dean can be mean, he’s s a deeply angry man, and so every no seems like proof that he’s pushed him to far that this is it this is when Cas says he's had enough. He's not gonna stay and be screamed or laughed at anymore. Dean’s finally succeeded in driving him away as he does anyone that’s ever given a damn about him. That this is proof of how toxic he is; after all Castiel is a creature with wings, all he wants to do is fly, and here Dean is trying to keep him in a cage.
The more Cas leaves on his own, the more Dean feels the need to give him a reason too.
The ways in which we punish ourselves; depriving ourselves of the ways in which we love.
The narrative’s doomed them from the start.
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All I’m saying is that in the supernatural universe, I firmly believe that the most popular destiel fics are written and posted by one Sam Winchester under a pen name. And he doesn’t even come up with elaborate plots. He just dictates, almost verbatim, interactions he witnesses Cas and Dean having and then just tacks a kiss or a love confession on the end.
And everyone comments about how he just gets their characters, how he builds such convincing sexual and romantic tension, how the characters feel like real people instead of words on a page. Sam is the most popular destiel ao3 author, his fics on every single rec list, and it’s simply because he got tired of watching Dean and Cas pine uselessly for each other so he decided to make it everyone’s problem.
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there is some parallel universe where Destiel went canon in Season 6 and the show just… didn’t change. Dean and Cas just happened to be dating. They don’t stand any closer together. Sam still has to intervene when they fight. They don’t ever talk about it. Dean still flirts with every woman that breathes until after the widower arc. It’s just. It’s the same show.
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Today am thinking about how Cas riskily dangled Jack to Dumah with the intention of enticing Dumah and Heaven to nab him and “mold him.”
He knew what Heaven would rush to do with Jack’s power, because that’s what he pitched to motivate them (restore Heaven and brutally bending humanity to its will).
And yet, he acts shocked when they have Jack murder innocent atheists and brainwash followers. But it’s just that. Acting shocked. He’s not shocked. But righteous anger acts as a balm to the ugliness of his strategy.
This hypocrisy reveals such a crunchy, military-minded Cas. He was in a rush to find Jack. And his blitz strategy made things way worse for everyone. Jack was alone, grieving. He would not come to Cas, so I wonder why he thought Heaven would be a good option?
If Jack was indeed soulless, as Cas fatalistically verbalized in the bunker, he may have handed them a “weapon” that quickly aligned to Heaven and was unwilling to come back to them at all. It’s an incredibly flawed strategy.
Putting him in Heaven’s crosshairs hurt Jack and indirectly hurt innocents who found themselves at the mercy of his powers.
He manipulated Dumah the way Dumah manipulated Jack, because he felt it was the lesser of evils available, and it allowed Jack to stay alive. (Cas was convinced Jack was soulless.)
Then, he gets mad about The Winchesters manipulating Jack, because they felt it was the lesser of evils available, and it allowed Jack to stay alive. (They witnessed that Jack was actively killing innocent people.)
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what got you into jondami?
It’s kind of hard to remember because it happened like…freshman year of high school, but I think I stumbled across Jorge Jimenez’ cover art on Pinterest and I was like “oh?” Because I love to draw and look at composition—Pretty soon I looked into who they were and their backstories and just fell in love with Damian’s tragedy and Jon’s kindness, and how they both have a little of each in themselves that other people don’t realize right away (or ever) that they bring out when they’re together. Got myself some Supersons comics and Damian’s run and it was endgame right about then and there ❤️
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i think there is a lot about gardener cas. and rightfully so. but consider. gardener dean. dean who has spent his whole life feeling like a weapon, feeling like he’s only good for destruction, finally getting to make something grow. dean who loves to work with his hands, who loves to get dirty, finally getting to create something beautiful. and we know he loves nesting, we know he loves cooking for his family, why wouldn’t he love creating a garden? he wants cas to have a place to sit in the sun and watch the bees, he wants fresh vegetables for the people he loves. he wants to sit back on his heels at the end of a long day and wipe the sweat from his brow and look out over rows and rows of beautiful alive growing things and think to himself, i did that.
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Wish there were more (any) (good) comedies set in the mental hospital. What’s all this shit about “being unsupervised” or “having real friends”. Unrealistic. I want found family movie where they bond over distracting guards and trading meds for fun
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