#it's been A Lot

[teaboot]

Is Ollie doing alright?

Yes

[revvethasmythh]

I just need to share that my friend and I about 10 minutes ago commiserated that this was, and I quote, "the most out of pocket dming we've ever seen on cr" which is SAYING something after Calamity, and anyway it's much MORE SO NOW

[its-time-to-be-silly]

Man, people say your identity gets more settled as you get into adulthood, but since 27 I've just been changin and changin and changin

[warrantcanary]

hello i am alive

[myymi]

eating random ass sweets while watching sonic shit at night after a super stressful/busy week>>>>

[distinctlywhumpthing]

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[kukkakisu]

I've been going through a lot of changes in my medications in the past week or so and it's really starting to take a toll on me mentally. I'm probably not going to post much art until things settle down a bit so if I'm more inactive than usual, that is why.

[54prowl]

i miss my girl x

[taylor-all-intents-and-purposes]

at this rate what will be left for denver in july

[emahriel]

the panel of hell will be the cause of my death, im going to perish

[houkagokappa]

Time for Suisei no Majo :)

[kindahoping4forever]

Pre-show Back Content... Black Vest and Tie... Ashton's Unusually Loose Shirt...

Simply too much to handle 🫠

[magisterhego]

My dad is in hospital with pancreatitis that appeared out of the blue, it can't be treated with antibiotics, so they have to keep him there until it gets better on its own. And he's not allowed to eat or drink at all, so he's getting nutrients and fluids via IV. :( I hope he's going to get better soon, my mum is worrying so much.

[pynkhues]

I hope that you will come back in the ao3 GG fandom someday. Your stories were the best !

Ah! Thank you so, so much, anon, I'm definitely keen to. I miss writing about this toxic ship a lot, and still have stories I want to finish. I'm hoping sometime in the next few months I might have a bit more time on my hands again and get to work on a few things. But yes! Messages like this are very motivating, so thank you again <3

[atomicc]

finding your blog years ago lead to a very convoluted chain of events to our system discovery years ago so it's funny to check in and see you're questioning your own level of brain alone-ness (or lack thereof) - your local collection of guys

FOR REAL? it's crazy how that kind of thing happens...

[luasworkshop]

Apprenticember - Day 28

“Are they afraid to die?”

No... and yes, and no.  Lua spent time in their younger years very afraid of death, which, as they grew, settled into a gentle acceptance of the concept, and into managing grief into their adulthood (even manifesting into well-meaning humor and lightheartedness on the topic.)  Aleis has always been pragmatically close to death, and as they have grown, their bonds have become tighter, smoother, and all the more thoughtful and clear.  However, Lua, in their coming terms of acceptance with loss outside of themselves, failed to reckon with their own death.  For much of their adult life they had a sort of hubris that comes with one’s own death being a blind spot in their thoughts.

This is what endangered their life, and left them traumatized in any continuity.  However, this close contact with death has given them perspective to work through their own fears and concerns.  They have pretty well come to terms with the inevitability of their own death, how it will end all that they are, but there is nothing they can do about it.  This still raises fears and worries for them of what they can do for their loved ones, but they try very much to remember that the grief of others is not their own responsibility.  Love is worth the cost of grief.

It is an idea they sometimes still chew on, but generally, they have come close to peaceful acceptance of death.