#it's like 4 am tho im sleepy but i wanted to post

[lovebvni]

i got love! (motivations)

oopsies my bad guys i know eyes r like scary to some people but for some reason, recently they’ve been a sign (the left is an older one from like a week ago, the right is from today) (that was as or typing the blog.. which was almost 2 weeks ago as it has been posted. i’ve seen more tho)

anyways! i wanted to make a blog on the things that have kept me going through the three years of being a reality shifter and working towards that goal of shifting

one thing i do want to say before we start, is the universe provides help, guidance and support when we’re feeling down. i genuinely believe i would not be this far into my shifting journey if it wasn’t for the universe + the tools they have given me. these are things that may also help you, but are not 100% guaranteed as we are different souls with different interests and understandings <3

anyways long blog ahead blah blah blah… 💀💀 LMAO OK

so, i’m neurodivergent and a really driven person. it isn’t easy for me to let things go either, but whenever i did feel like giving up or leaving shifting behind, here are some things i keep in mind.

love

wow i sound… dumb as hell 💀😔 LMFAOOSF OK BUT FR HERE i don’t have a good relationship w my parents, nor have i had… good experiences w exes (WHERE R MY BITCHES THAT ALWAYS FALL FOR THE TOXIC ONES🗣️💯‼️) anyways yeah. i remind myself that that’s the main reason i started this. i mean with love comes happiness, right?

2. my inner child

dude i feel like i’ve been having dreams abt shifting since i was a kid. i remember i was first introduced to daydreaming by my 2nd grade teacher, i’ve deffo had dreams abt being in different worlds, i’ve manipulated my daydreams, and more! there’s always been a “one-up” thing in this. dreams -> daydreams -> shifting. and i eventually learned/im learning how to do each of them.

i know i’ve been damaged since i was a child, i want born into a great place, but i can change where i am. plus, i’m someone who has always wanted to have superpowers n shit so like…. why the hell not?

3. friendships 🤭🤭

girl i lose friends like every other year, so why not have some i can talk to every day? i mean i wanna have fun, right? i want to be happy and talking to people and friends makes me happy

4. for others

dude i want people to be able to experience it he change, transformation and growth i have — along with sharing the successes. i believe every soul has the ability to change and mold into a better soul, so everyone should have that opportunity. i want to be able to teach and guide to goals and success. that’s one of the main reasons i stared this blog.

5. for understanding

i want to spiritually ascend, and get over my fears of it. so i want to experience it. that’s why im doing it, that’s why i do a lot of things. to experience and see the outcome.

that’s all i got for now! i may add to this blog, depending on what happens or if i think of anything else. but for now, im sleepy n i wanna get my drafts cleared. this is my last one 🤭

i love you all!! i hope this helps someone <3 666

[kamil-a]

sorry i stayed up very late last night drawing comic but not posting it here yet in case i ever am inspired to edit the parts that look extremely drawn at two am (its on twitter if u want tho). and then couldnt sleep. so im a bit too snzzed out to post caps and summary like i often do. were just rolling with sleepy peripheral commentary

-everything nightmare does is about Avoid All Harm And Discomfort and then this creates very funny situations where he's like ouuugh T_T i hope my gf wont hate me for all the lying (>_<""")and the manipulation (>//_//<""") which i did in the first place to try and relieve HER of discomfort. and she even points out that if he wiped her brains to prevent her from ever learning something about him that she'd find distasteful (which like ummm huge clue that he did shit to you personally now that i think about it because otherwise thatd be squarely a problem of unconvering future info, yea?) it would also erase her love for him but he was prepared to risk it all just to get away

-i love love love that it is by getting her on board with the confidence needed to lucid dream stuff away she can defeat his plan

-but also integration Will lead to more permanent and wider reaching repression huh. so its kind of a do you wanna do this the frantic hard way or the natural easy way. the long con.

-qr themselves probably didnt even know at this point but spade's gimmick of full amnesia including of the past 4 games is like. extremely long con. you just have to wait. all turning out well for you huh

-would love to see hnkna reinterpret this convo as "no i will never go through personal growth and maturation, and i will make sure you dont either, (cause that stuff is painful ><)"

[dreamingreality00]

71 and 69 hmu w that good pshmirtz content fam ;0 (its okay if theyre separate or joined fics whatever works

“Perrrryyyyyy,” Heinz whined at his companion as he swiped the card to unlock the door to their hotel room. He heard his voice crack and he knew he was pouting, but he was too sore and tired to care. His back felt as if he just slept on a pile of rocks, and his neck like he’d done it standing up. His arms and legs felt like dead, cramped up weights, and in all honesty, he would have stomped his foot at Perry had he been able to lift it high enough. “Perry the Platypus, I’m never going to be able to move again in my life. I’m going to fall right here on this dirty hotel floor and sleep until I die, and it’s all because of you.”

Scoffing and rolling his eyes, Perry opened the door and gestured to the bed. After his mind took a brief trip to the gutter, Heinz groaned and shuffled his feet across the room and over to it, glaring at Perry as he passed. Never before had he been so thankful for the small size of the room they were staying in, taking about six shuffles before flopping down on the bed. He hummed in satisfaction as his back sank into the soft mattress and his head into the cool pillows. The physical relief he felt with finally being able to lay down almost made him forget to continue complaining at Perry. Almost.

Without raising his head to look at Perry, he started up again. “I don’t even see why we had to dance that much anyways right before going to look for clues. What did it do for the mission? Nothing! Maybe I should go back to being an evil scientist and make an -inator that would prevent dancing forever. Yeah, I’ll do that!”

He looked up at Perry, who was used to the empty threats by then and shrugged it off. You’re my fake husband, deal with it. And besides, the dancing was so they would assume we were too tired to do anything other than come back up here and go to sleep, Perry signed to Heinz.

Too tired to come up with a retort, Heinz settled for groaning again, this time louder, until Perry picked up some clothes and disappeared into the cramped bathroom to get ready for bed. Heinz briefly thought of waiting for Perry to get out and doing the same, but really, it wouldn’t have been the first time he slept in his day clothes, and it probably wouldn’t be the last. Besides, unless a fire decided to start up in the hotel, Heinz wasn’t sure he would be able to get out of that bed until after he got some sleep. He settled for kicking off his shoes, removing his belt, and taking off his sweater, tossing everything on the floor next to his bed.

He heard the shower start up in the bathroom, and figured he would be able to drift off to sleep before Perry got back. He hoped so, at least. Working with O.W.C.A. was fun, it really was. It was also fulfilling, it gave him a sense of purpose. If it weren’t for certain things, he probably wouldn’t have a single problem with the job. Certain things including being forced to do this mission, being forced to pretend to be married to Perry, and being forced to share a bed with the man. Certain things that made it harder and harder to hide his feelings.

Sure, he’d always felt something for Perry. Even as his nemesis, Perry made Heinz’s stomach do flips and his throat tighten up. He had thought that when they started to become friends, his affection for Perry would be revealed and ruin things, but it didn’t. Even so, the more time they spent together because of O.W.C.A. and the lack of a nemesis-typical boundary between them, the harder it got for Heinz to hide how he felt.

Then Monogram decides to put him on this mission.

Fake marrying Perry was fine and all. It might have hurt to look at the ring on his left hand and know it wasn’t real, but he could deal with it. But having to be around Perry every second of the day? Going out in public and holding hands, sharing loving looks, light kisses on his face or lips, and arms around his shoulder? Sharing a bed with Perry? It hurt. It hurt more than his back after the hour of dancing he did, more than when he was forced to be a lawn gnome, more than when he and Charlene got divorced. Every kiss, every look, every night spent in a bed too small for personal space with the man he cared about who didn’t feel the same way, it all hurt. What hurt the most, though, was knowing that it would all be gone as soon as they figured out who was behind the recent kidnappings and got them behind bars. It had only been a week of this mission and already he’d forgotten what sleeping alone felt like.

He was screwed.

Covering his face with his hands and letting out a bitter laugh, he turned over in the bed and curled his knees up to his chest. He remembered what Major Monogram had told them before they left to go undercover.

“Now I know acting like a convincing married couple will be pretty hard, especially with your history as nemeses, but you need to remember what’s at stake here. Heinz, you most of all, seeing as Perry has had his training already. Just remember-”

“All you need to do is act like you care about each other a million times more than you do,” Heinz finished out loud, his face scrunching up in anger. Being this tired really wasn’t helping him keep his emotions in check. “Funny, Monogram. I’m a good actor when I need to be, but if you can find a world where I can do that, you let me know. I don’t think I could love him any more than I already do.”

His anger and hurt exhausting him further, he gave in and decided to fall asleep. He pulled a blanket up to his shoulders and turned around to get more comfortable, a flash of teal appearing in front of him as he did so. Closing his eyes, he sunk further into the bed and-

Wait. Fuck.

Reluctantly, he cracked open one eye to confirm his suspicions. Yep. In front of him stood Perry, mouth open and eyes wide. Cringing, he sat up and opened his other eye. Well, he could at least try to salvage their friendship.

“Um, I, you uh, heard that, didn’t you?” He stammered. Shaking his head and blinking, Perry seemed to get it together and nod. Stomping down the urge to pull the comforter over his head and never come out, he continued. “I, um, that wasn’t… wasn’t what it sounded like. I, well you see, I was um…” he rambled off, trying and ultimately failing to come up with an excuse. There went that. “I’m sorry.”

Suddenly, his stomach twisted making him feel sick, his chest squeezed so tight it hurt, and a chill went through his body. His eyes filled up with tears and his throat felt tight. This was it. He finally did it. He screwed up the best thing that had ever happened to him, and all because of some useless mission and his carelessness. He knew as soon as he looked up he would find the same disgust in Perry’s eyes that he had seen countless times before. In his father’s, Charlene’s, his brother’s. Instead, he pressed his palms hard against his eyes and choked back tears. He wouldn’t guilt Perry into feeling sorry for him. Despite his efforts, a sob worked its way up through the knot in his throat and past his lips, spilling out as some sort of watery hiccup.

Immediately, he felt a familiar arm around his shoulders. He instinctively leaned into the attached body as he broke down, feeling hopeless. His eyes burned and his throat was sore by the time he calmed down enough to notice the hands rubbing small circles into his back. Remembering who it belonged to, he pulled back, opening his mouth to stammer out another apology. “I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to… I mean I know you don’t feel the same, the same way and I just don’t-”

He stopped and clamped his mouth shut when Perry held up a hand and gave him a gentle look. Tentatively, he waited for what Perry had to say.

Heinz, he began, a soft smile on his face as he signed, it’s okay. Stop and let me finish, he signed sternly when Heinz looked ready to speak again. The only reason Monogram assigned you to this mission with me was because I told him I wouldn’t do it with anyone else. Nobody else could even act like they know me as much as you do, and… he paused before finishing, there’s nobody else I’d rather be here with anyways, because I love you, too.

Heinz blinked once, twice, then three times. Searching Perry’s face to make sure he heard right, he felt the knots in his chest loosen and form again for completely different reasons.

“You… you love me, too?” he asked. A giddy smile made its way on his face after he received a nod and smile in return. Unable to contain it, he suddenly doubled over giggling.

As he caught his breath and calmed down, he looked back up at Perry, who was giving Heinz a look similar the ones he put on for their mission, but one that felt somewhat more real. Leaning in, he pressed a kiss to Perry’s lips. Pulling back, he let out one final huff of laughter.

“As much as I would love to sit here and talk about this, I’m officially worn out beyond measure. Can we talk in the morning, Perry the Platypus?”

To answer, Perry leaned back down onto the bed and gently pulled Heinz down with him, taking Heinz’s arm and wrapping it around his middle. Heinz hummed and snuggled into the warmth of the smaller man’s body pressed up against his, and fell asleep instantly, feeling lighter than ever before.

[bokutosbestie2]

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

I kinda want to make a playlist for this story ☻

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Y/N pov :

" HEY! I recognized you! ARENT you the Origiris guy!"

" Yea I am, the name is Osamu. "

" Ok OSAMU why I'm I here? "

" HEY don't ask me! Ask Atsumu he the one who brought you here. I JUST GOT HERE! "

" YOU! OREO-LOOKING HAIR! WHY YOU BRING ME HERE HUH! " pointed at him as he jumped up from the couch.

" YOU WERE HELLA DRUNK! ALSO, YOU WERE WANDERING AROUND ALONE!? SOME DUDE could've TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF YOU of how DRUNK YOU WERE! "

" HMM GOOD POINT!... BUT WAIT HOW COME I'M IN YOUR SHIRT! "

" HEY, YOU THREW UP ON YOURSELF! I DIDN'T CHANGE YA.. YOU CHANGED AND SHOWER ON YER OWN! " Atsumu held up his hands defensively.

" Yea the look of panic on my brother's face shows he telling the truth," Osamu said as he tries to compose his laughter.

" HMM I GUESS I'll BELIEVE YA.. "

I only remember me showering and putting on a random shirt now thinking about it..

" WAIT never mind your right I did shower on my own...I kinda remember. " I say sorta embarrassed.

" WELL THEN! I guess I should be going! "

" No stay here it's LATE! It's 3:15 IN THE MORNING!" Osamu said

" Are you sure I already cause enough trouble for your brother.. "

" Nah ATSUMU PROBABLY deserved all that trouble!"

Atsumu turned around to flip off his brother.

" Atsumu that sounds familiar?! "

" OH SOO YOU KNOW WHO I AM! " Atsumu smirked

" No.. Your name sounds familiar tho "

Osamu burst out laughing..

" HAHA YOU JUST RUINED HIS EGO! "

" I'm confused.. " I say honestly

" Well OSAMU ISNT GOING TO TELL YOU THAN I WILL! " Atsumu said offended

" Ok then wHo aRe yOu? " I mimic Atsumu's tone.

" I Play on ONE OF BEST TEAMS IN JAPAN.. IM ON MSBY! " he said in a cocky tone.

" OH, SO THAT'S WHY YOUR NAME SOUNDS FAMILIAR! " I shouted

" WHERE YA HEAR MY NAME?! " Atsumu got excited.

" Clam Down Atsumu! " Osamu hit him on the head.

" OW! "

" WELL, I do photoshoots! I do the photography, not the modeling! "

" Yea we can tell! " Astumu said

" ATSUMU! WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?! " Osamu looked ashamed.

Did he just called me unattractive.. THIS GUY OH HELL NAH!

I grabbed my shoe and aim it at Atsumu's head... and I miss ..

" AH WHAT WAS THAT FOR?! "

" YOU DESERVE IT!! I'm STILL PRETTY CUTE FOR NOT BEING A MODEL " I stick my middle finger at him.

" HMM, I LIKE THIS GIRL! " Osamu elbowed Astumu.

" I'm sorry JUST FINISH THE Story miss I THINK IM PRETTY CUTE! " he rolls his eyes.

" ANYWAYS! Some of my friends work with athletes all time. She did a photoshoot with the MSBY team! So that's why your name sounds FAMILIAR! "

" Oh so you didn't know that I'm an amazing volleyball player...." Atsumu looked disappointed about the story.

" No.. "

" WOW first time a girl didn't fangirl over Atsumu and He seems Heart Broken! " Osamu said laughing.

" She not my type anyways! " Atsumu said in a petty tone.

DAMN, HE JUST NOT SAY THAT..

" Oreo looking hair "

" WHAT YOU SAY! "

" YOUR HAIR LOOKS LIKE AN OREO! "

Osamu was watching us bicker until he started to yawn out of tiredness mix with boredom.

" SHEEZ you guys fight like a cat and dog! I'M GOING TO BED NOW! DONT be too loud! " Osamu said as he walked off towards his room.

I and Atsumu gave each other dirty looks.

" WELL, I GUESS ILL BE GETTING MY GUEST ROOM BACK! " Astumu snapped

" UH, NO ILL BE SLEEPING THERE! " I say annoyed

" NO ME! "

" BUT I'M THE GUEST! "

" NO, YOU WERE SOME RANDOM HEARTBROKEN GIRL WHO got drunk!

Oh, I forgot..about my breakup.

My mood was now ruined with the comment he said.

" You can have the room.. " I looked at Atsumu

" Oh umm, you sure? " Atsumu looked concerned

" Yea I'll just go on the couch. " I walked to the couch, I hear the door close behind me.

I sit on the couch as I remember when Kageyama broke up with me.

Damn, why couldn't I be a better person...

Atsumu pov:

As I close the door behind me I felt guilty for bringing up her breakup. It's not even my business, I shouldn't have mentioned it.

I lay in bed as guilt was all over me.

Maybe I Should Apologize?

No, I can't do that it's 3:50 am, she must have fallen asleep already.

I'll just apologize in the morning.

Around 7:30 am:

Y/n pov:

I wake up to the smell of bacon. I sit up from the couch to see Osamu cooking breakfast.

" I expected you to wake later! " Osamu said as he placed eggs and bacon on a plate.

" Ah well, I have a habit of waking up early because of work! " I say as I walked over to the counter.

" Here take this is then. " Osamu place the plate in front of me.

" OH NO, IT'S FINE! I'm planning on leaving now I already been too much of a burden. "

" No, it's fine! Your the surprise guest after all. "

" Gosh even tho your brother can be full of himself... you and he are such nice people. "

" Well, that's how we were raised to respect everyone."Osamu smiled at me.

After conversing with Osamu for 30 minutes a sleepy blonde comes out of the room.

" ATSUMU YOU ARE FINALLY AWAKE! " Osamu shouted.

" SHEEZ WHY YER SO LOUD! "

" Stop being so grumpy. " I tell Atsumu

" WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE ! "

" Because your brother gave me breakfast, but I'll be leaving now! "

" WAIT- "

" Yes? " I look him annoyed.

" I- uh I'll take you home. "

" No it's fine I can just call my friends to pick me up. "

" No, let me take you! "

WHY does he want to take me so bad.

" Ugh fine. "

" Ok then let me go get changed! "

As Atsumu went back to go get changed I look at Osamu confused.

" He probably wants to see if you will fall for him or something. "

" As if! " I laughed at Osamu's comment.

" Oh before you go can I get your number? "

OSAMU WANTS MY NUMBER?! SCORE!

" UH, YEAH SURE! "

Me and Osamu exchange numbers then Atsumu comes into the scene.

" OSAMU YOU SLY DOG! " Atsumu shouts

Osamu gave Atsumu a death stare.

" Uh we best get going y/n ! " he said as he pushes me to the front door.

" BYE OSAMU THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! "

Osamu waves bye, and now I'm stuck with this dude.

Atsumu joyfully gets in the driver's seat as I sit in the passenger.

" Why are you so eager to take me home? "

" Uh-well... I wanted to apologize. "

" EH FOR WHAT?! "

" For the comment, I said last night.. "

" Oh, don't worry about it's not that serious, " I say giving him a thumbs up.

" Yea if it's not that serious why you get so drunk. "

" UGH, WHY ARE YOU PUTTING ME ON BLAST! "

" HEY I'M JUST SAYING WHAT I SAW! "

" WELL don't worry it was just over a stupid boy.. "

Atsumu looked concerned.

" Ya a stupid boy! " he said in sarcasm.

I looked at him annoyed.

" OK don't give me that look! "

"Let's get going! " I say.

Atsumu started the car and ask for directions.

" Oh wow you only live 15 minutes away from Osamu."

" Ah, that's nice to know! " I smiled.

" Sheez DONT tell me you like my brother! "

" Oh CALM DOWN! He just cute that's all! "

" Oh, so you think I'm cute then huh! " Atsumu smirked at me.

" No! You look like an Oreo because of your hair...." I say trying to keep my laugh in.

" STOP CALLING ME AN OREO and IM almost AT YOUR HOUSE! "

" AH YAY FINALLY! "

“ Is this your house? “

“ Yup you can stop there now! “

“ Ok then” Atsumu stop by a post light.

" Thank you... For umm everything even tho I was a stranger you decide to be nice and help me out... " I say as I can feel my face getting hot of embarrassment.

" Aww, you're being nice to me for once! "

" It was no problem I would've felt guilty if something bad happens to you. " he said quietly.

There was an awkward silence..

" Uh well, I have to get going! "

" Um, yea you go ahead! "

" Bye... Atsumu! "

" Bye! " he said as he drove away.

FINALLY I'M HOME!!

Atsumu pov:

Did she just finally called me by my first name?

Chapter 4

[catharrington]

Fic writer tag

Thanks so much @gideongrace for the tag!!! Thanks for linking lots of your fic im so going to stay up to the morning reading ;).

a03name: catharrington

Fandoms: just this is the only active one I’m in. I’ve written Mchanzo from overwatch but I never posted it lol.

Tropes: for some reason I always write fuck buddies who have to solve their feelings. And I write a lot of hurt/comfort, especially dealing with Billy’s home life. I write a lot of Billy being whipped for Steve. And I love writing Aus lol.

Number of fics: 15 on Ao3 but I haven’t put my drabbles or short fics fron tumblr on there yet ;).

Fic I spent the most time on: oh Sleepy Hawkins id say. I wrote that pretty quick but it’s my longest complete one and I spent a while editing and getting the ending correct.

Fic I spent the least time on: ohhh I need you to make it hurt, but that’s running still. I wrote the first two chapters drunk in one (1) night and now I’m just waiting to get drunk to finish it lol!!!

Longest fic: Sleepy Hawkins 21k

Shortest fic: on Ao3 hunters in the night 1.9k. It’s a short piece for horrorscopes. Part of my two vampire au that there will be much more of tho!!!

Most hits: black silk and wild flowers at over 2000 because y’all are horny and so am I.

Most kudos: black silk and wild flowers.

Most comments: ohhhh I have a tie on 4 fics they all have 9 comments lol. But I think I’ve gotten the most feedback on pretty boy mixtape because you guessed it y’all horny.

Most bookmarks: black silk and wild flowers. This is a sign I need to write more ABO lol

Favorite fic I’ve written: actually i was thinking about this today and it’s he ain’t me, babe. I love love love Billy in this fic and the jealousy he feels and o baby I am just getting started.

Fic you want to rewrite/expand on: I would love to stretch Sleepy Hawkins maybe show them getting together instead of starting with an established relationship. Maybe showing the after more than just an epilogue. But it’s all pretty standard I feel like the story is told. I wouldn’t mind writing more radio host Steve in the future tho~

Share a wip: okay because I was tagged by @gideongrace I’ll put some of my Ace Steve and roommate Billy I’ve still been working on I haven’t forgotten about it!!!

Billy watches them both curiosity as he holds the door open and they shuffle past each holding two potted plants. Steve is furiously blushing and can’t hold his stare. It makes Billy only watch him closer.

“Didn’t take you for being a green thumb, Harrington?” Billy said, walking up to the dining room table now crammed with plants and a watering can. He felt along green leaves surprisingly soft. “Taking care of rug-rats ain’t enough, you take care of a green house too? Now that’s just downright,” cute is what he wanted to say, but Robin cuts him off with a slap of her palm on the wood table.

“That’s just round one, Rocky. We have another car load with more heavy stuff for people other than Stevie to carry.” She’s sarcastic and gives Steve a push of her shoulder.

Steve just pushes back. “Don’t say it like that,” he groans. He’s using his hands to free his floppy hair from his face, and smiling with one side of his lips nervously. Then he flicks his eyes to Billy without moving his head, and Billy is sure he would carry anything he asked. Thankfully Steve doesn’t ask, but Billy still gives him a smirk and a shrug.

“Hurry on then, man.” Billy doesn’t stop petting the leaves of the plant until Steve and Robin close the door behind them.

[t-underneaththeradardancing]

fuck - idk how  - well to do lots of things  - and we do know tech hate t  - thats not quite on point or en garde either  - but tonights post performance post mortem - paint it black 

the good - tree climbing leaf and dirt hair  - once unconfused t can plaze guitar  - lox and bagel  - some made up on the spot music  - some magic  - lots of love  - love aint always enuff  - uh chili dogs and fries - vitas voice  - liam showing and again doing the hard but right thing/s  

the bad    chili dog hair    t gets confused sometimes ez tho we find workarounds  - its not cheating to tell him the key and a couple chords specially if u usin a capo on a song he never herd - just sayin 

the ugly    uh duz blood and pain count   im ok      shame       the people and soul less beings who cause/d the feelings of shame  ketchup hair 

we end up laffing way too much  -  thing is  - today  started fucked up and pretty much stayed on track  - u know its been uh different since the biz  - and yah there still is one  - its changing gonna change more  prob  - maybe not better just different 

we cries a lot also  

we heal then 

well when u wear ur heart on ur sleeve and ur food in ur hair  

a step back may be in order 

me i prefer to wear my food on my clothes  - it stains better - hair is ez to wash 

did i mention i lissened to crywolf angels ep like 3 or 4 x yesterday  and some el vy   - theres maybe half a dozen ppl readin who will unnastand  - if i mention sad bastards duz it help - no - well just move along then it dont matter much 

( translation  - t is being maudlin again cuz he depressed and future trips heartache and rejection  - no not a romance  - tho the looks - nevermind )

so y is ketchup hair ugly - its a condiment  - now we know that dirt is an excellent conditioner - ask any potato u happen to  - i have gazed more than a few x at the moon  -  this eve tonight   - i wuz gonna say that life had gotten 2 surreal then forgot when it even more happen  - and not the good kind of surreal either  - another luxury problem the wrong kind of surreal - did u get it a amazon  or ikea and yah - that splains it manstyle  - if u cant laff about ketchup hair - i mean wtf 

ok t  - u so fukken cryptic and in group mindfuck - can u bottom line it or readers digest condensed milk  - damn it - its contagious - ( another editor quits ) 

it started a little fucked up - was sposed to meet for acupuncture b4 java - things ran late - acu close early on weekends earlier than i thot so no - vita been going thru lots of hard uh lifestuff  - it manifests and affects  - we both been uh stressed at best - self destructive on various levels at worst w a little delusional thinking inna mix moi at least  - we feel deeply and connect and empath sometimes for an instant completely - its not always pleasant cuz we human  - despite everything going on - we go to do wat we do - play music  w transcendence aim for attained rarely for more than glimpse but sometimes - magic  - we trance in and out and different levels  and different reality layers conflict  - and too much too soon specially w a broken heart  ( no not me  - my heart is good - well yah the heart attack thing but we talkin soul heart )  and some ugly inna mix but not aimed at  and self directed  - we at our different homes safe  or mostly  - hope so - its late now unless u a musician or a barfly and last call wuz a few minutes ago even at the hardcore - there is love in my heart - a bit of dread  - hope a smidgen maybe an ember that i fan boy - oh yah  - we played  - some barely ok - some goodish - a few really good moments  - hearts not completely but then in it  - a baddish incident  - then we play a couple more songs like something proving  not a victory lap not at all sir  - prolly vita and i and i last performance in a while  - slight chance madrone tomorrow but not prolly and im exhausted but maybe  - we get together maybe 2 x this week if we lucky  - she has a last jazz concert i think sat  - imma meet her mom who tuff as nails north korean  born and raised - really  - that will b uh - interesting t  interesting  and a pleasure - maybe ask vita her name and practice - nah - she might as well meet the awkward fucktard  albeit a well behaved version  - but i will do wat i always - apologize in advance and assure by the 3rd time i will at least b very close lol   prolly not socialize much after  - it would b nice if she likes me but tbh expecting disapproval - extreme wariness at least - i would if i was her   - then off to college  - imma wait till she settle in maybe has a friend  - dont want ppls 1st impressions of her to b w a weird af and old as guitar playing friend  - at some point we b recording maybe podcast of some healing writing she been doing w music  cuz low key but an ep  - or album - theres enough good songs and we fuck around w a few more half maybe mostly written inna works  

its after 2 am exhausted not sleepy wired cuz its been that kinda day - sorry but not for the cryptic  - things happen not to b ashamed of  - we played music and performed as well  - real as fuck if nothing else  - it could b a month or more before we perform again together  - there is still a biz  - how much vita will b able to contribute uncertain   - sometimes fucked up things happen - nobodys fawlty towers no guilty party 

love

[minimickzy]

TomHolland2013 posted  || Tom Holland

Request: Just something I wrote long ago 

Summary: Social Media style Imagine! Reader is in a movie with Tom and hangs out with him and the cast of Spider-Man HC. Please let me know what you think!

Characters: Tom Holland x Reader, Zendaya, Harrison, Jacob

Word count: 2200+

Warning: Fluff, soft make out 

a/n: I took this off my wattpad and changed a bit because I think I’ve grown as a writer at least a little! Infinity War has launched me back into the Marvel fandom so feel free to send in requests <3 also idk why I’m posted this so late but hey, why not?

Instagram 4:21pm July 5th

@(y/u) posted:

[picture of Tom sleeping on table]

Wake up, I want a wrap on set so I can go home! #[movie title]

TomHolland2013 and 170,693 other people liked this

17278 comments

4:31pm TomHolland2013: wow stalker much??

4:32pm (y/u): wow professorial Much?? @tomholland2013

User1: oh my god I ship it

User2: CUTE!! ❤❤❤😩

User3: agh Tom is toooooo Hot, my eyes BURN!!

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Instagram 2am July 7th

@TomHolland2013 posted:

[photo collection of you, Tom, and Harrison with cake smeared on faces]

Fun night out with the mates!!

@hazosterfield @(y/u)

10:34am (y/u): delete this, I look like shit!

User1: OMG (Y/N) IS SO HOT WTF SHSJSKAKAKAN

12:37pm @tomholland2013: um? Bish where? @(y/u)

User2: Um, did @tomholland2013 just call @(y/u) hot??? IM DECEASED

12:38pm @(y/u): you did not just quote a vine

5:32pm @hazosterfield: stop bickering like a old married couple!! @(y/u) @Tomholland2013

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Instagram [Dm] July 13th

12:34am Tom: oh my god!

1:53am You: what?!

1:53am Tom: Tessa just shook my hand

1:54am You: I thought this was serious

3:24am Tom: I don't know what's more serious than my dog putting her paw on my hand and moving it up and down??

3:27am You: Tom it's 3:27 am go tf to sleep

8:35am Tom: I think it was a dream

8:37am Tom: I tried again this morning, She doesn't know how to do it anymore

8:43am You: 😢😢😢

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[(y/u) is live on Instagram]

9,367 viewers July 15th 3:45 pm

"Hey guys, it's me (y/n)" you say, "and me, Tom Holland!" Tom pushed you aside to get in the shot. You laughed and shoved him over a little so you both fit in the frame. "We're on set here in uh, Toronto. It's kinda boring actually." Tom laughed. You started to read though some of the comments:

User1: LOOK AT MY PARENTS

User2: Tom please say quackson for me!!

User3: ILYSM

User4: Hi from London!

You nudged Tom, "say quackson." He shot you a gentle glare, "No, absolutely not." You gave him puppy dog eyes in a lame attempt to change his mind, "Please." "Why." "Because the viewers are asking for it.... I'll give you a peak on the cheek." He rolled his eyes, "if you want me to say it that bad.... Quackson." You smiled at him and kissed his cheek, then went back to the comments:

User1: OTPPP

User2: are they dating??

User3: AGH I WISH I WAS (Y/N)

User4: @User2 THEY SAY NO BUT I MEAN WE ALL KNOW THEY’RE LYING

User5: SHE KIISED HUS CHEEK OMG OMG JANSINSSMMAMA

You laughed and started to answer questions left by the viewers, trying to ignore the pinkish tint on both your and Toms cheeks.

[live ended]

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iMessage July 15th

5:33pm Tom: hey

5:33pm You: what's up?

5:35pm Tom: no hi?

5:36pm You: hi, what's up?

5:36pm Tom: better 😂, and Haz and I are meeting up with Z so I was wondering if you wanted to come along?

5:36pm Tom: we could pick you up around 7ish?

5:42pm You: um, sure. What are we doing?

5:42pm Tom: idk, Z invited us over to just hang out and maybe watch a movie

5:43pm You: okay, I'll be ready

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Zendaya's Snapchat Story July 16th

1:32am

[video from the side, of you asleep in toms arms under a blanket while Harrison is pointing and smirking with the caption 'this is what you guys get for falling asleep after one movie' and Zendaya laughing in the background]

3:24am

[picture from front of you and Tom with Zendayas Bitmoji blowing a kiss]

7:45am

[picture of you hiding your face with one hand and flipping the camera off with the other. Your hairs a mess and you’re wearing Toms shirt from yesterday. Tom’s in the background laughing and Haz is pulling a funny face. With the caption of '(y/n) is not a morning person']

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Interview with (y/n) (y/l/n) and Tom Holland, July 20th [cut to 6:34 minutes in]

Interviewer: "So, on Zendaya's Snapchat, 4 days ago we saw some cute sleepy cuddling snaps of the two of you. And fans want to know if your dating or what's the story behind that?"

Tom: "I mean no, we're just friends, and the story is that we were both just really tried and fell asleep."

You: "yeah, I just needed a pillow."

Interviewer: "so then that morning shot of (y/n) in your shirt... that was just..."

Tom: *chuckles* "she was just cold and spilled something on her shirt so I gave her mine and got one that I had forgot at Z's"

Interviewer: "oh so you and Zendaya then" *smirks*

Tom: "no, we're friends, nothing more."

Interviewer: "So, you two have no feelings for each other?"

Tom and You share a awkward glance

Tom: "uh..."

You: "do you mean Me- an-and Tom or Tom-"

Tom: "well I mean yeah we have a great time together. Thank you."

Tom put a hand on your back and moved you along still rambling.

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Instagram [Dm] July 20th

4:02pm You: That lady really grilled us, huh?

5:23pm Tom: I know right

5:32pm Tom: do you think I was too rude?

5:32pm You: no, you saved my rambling ass tho, Thanks

5:33pm Tom: don't mention it

6:18pm Tom: Z's house? 8:30ish

6:19pm You: meeting there or driving together?

6:20pm Tom: pick you up at 8

6:20pm You: 👌🏻

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Instagram July 20th 8:37 pm

@TomHolland2013 posted:

[photo of you driving and him pulling a goofy face]

stuck in traffic with my favorite lady @(y/u)

163,827 people liked this, 12437 comment

User1: where you going?

@Zendaya: so I guess your running late than, huh?

User2: date night?

@TomHolland2013: oh yeah, whoOps. Sorry 😢 @zendaya

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Instagram July 20th 10:47 pm

@Zendaya posted:

[picture of Tom, Zendaya, Jacob, Harrison and you]

We're going live in ten minutes!! Playing truth or dare so give us some good ones!

462,729 people liked this, 19299 comments

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[Zendaya is live on Instagram]

15,682 viewers July 20th 10:58 pm

"Hey guys!" Zendaya waved to the phone and then spun it around your small circle so you all could wave. "Okay so how this is going to work, is we'll go around and ask truth or dare and then you guys pick what we do... so... yeah and I'm gonna start!"

The game was fun, viewers ate it up. You went around a few times before Zendaya clapped her hands together and said goodbye to the watchers and turned her phone off for the night. "Okay, now for the real ones." Harrison smirked. You knew it was coming but you hoped they'd just leave you alone. "Tom, truth or dare?" Jacob asked with a grin you knew too well playing at his lips, "Uh," Tom shot Harrison a nervous smile, "dare?" "Okay! well you both had to have known this was coming, but... the sexual tension is actually killing us." Zendaya said motioning to Jacob, Harrison and herself. You felt your cheeks turning beet red.

"I'd normally say just kiss, But... this time I'm thinking the classic seven minutes in heaven." Harrison pipes up. "Okay. (Y/N)," Tom stood up and put his hand out for you. You took it and pulled yourself up, shooting a glance back at the group and then let Tom pull you to a closet that was out of earshot.

Harrison came behind you and shut the door so you were now surrounded by darkness and you were trapped. "So..." Tom chuckled, "we don't have to actually do anything, but we should talk, I mean there's something here, you can't tell me you don't feel it." He trailed off almost to a whisper. "I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel it." You smiled as His hand brushed against your arm. You reached for it holding it tight in your grasp.

You reached with your other hand up to find his cheek. "Maybe... we could, you know, just to defuse the tension." You let a shaky breath. "Well I mean- I don't- we should really give them something right?" Tom said stepping closer to you. "Most definitely." You pulled yourself up to meet his lips.

It just felt right, you fit together like two pieces of a puzzle. He lightly pushed you against the wall and you put your hands in his hair, "this feel so good." "Agreed." You let out a small laugh, "Tom? Remind me why we didn't do this sooner." "I have not the slightest fucking clue." You moved your lips back his and melted in his arms. "should we tell people? The press I mean." You asked "I don't even know," Tom laughed and joined him going back into a makeout session. 

But sadly the two of you were met with the door swinging open. "So, how was it." Harrison smirked, you patted down your hair and smiled a little. Tom came out behind you and Harrison started laughing. You turned to see what was so funny and saw Tom had your lipstick smeared all over his lips and a little on his neck. You chuckled and used your thumb to wipe some of it off. When you went back to the living room Tom clapped his hands and yelled "we're official." You smiled and sat down as the others lightly cheered, this time not afraid to let his arm find its way around you.

"We're not going to release it to the press yet. We don't want or need the extra drama." You smiled. Zendaya nodded, "as long as the air is loose I'm good." And it was. Tom and You were a lot more relaxed and could exactly act on your thoughts that you used to push aside.

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Instagram July 26th 2:16 pm

@TomHolland2013 posted

[picture of you and Zendaya laughing at a beach]

Feels great to have such a beautiful view @(y/u) @zendaya

278,352 people liked this, 43,680 comments

User1: oh my god is Tom and Zendaya dating??

User2: @user1 Or Tom and (y/n)

User3: HOT DAMN BBY GALS

User4: ploy anyone?

User5: I wish I was Tom

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(y/u)'s Snapchat Story July 27th

[picture of you driving looking away in the background of Toms selfie. Caption: hacked]

[video from lap of you singing to the radio and then Turning to Tom. "Are you videoing me?!"]

[picture of you at stop light smiling at the camera. Caption: paparazzi following us for like 10 miles, we just want to eat 😢😢]

[video of you ordering food at (y/f/ff)]

[video's of the women working at the window freaking out because you and Tom are talking to them, you laugh and take a selfie with them and Tom though the window and sign a napkin for each of them]

________

"Those women were so nice." You smiled, walking into your apartment with Tom trailing behind with the food. "Yeah" Tom plopped on the couch and turned on E! News as you put your bag and keys away. "Seriously, you want to watch that?" You laughed sitting down next to him. The host was taking about the latest 'Hollywood break-up'. "I wanna know what's the drama in the entertainment world." He smiled as you rolled your eyes at him. "But the love in LA wasn't lost today," The host said, "Tom Holland and (y/n) are rumored to have a relationship behind closed doors, today Tom and (y/n) posted riding together to pick up some fast food and surprise the employees working in the drive threw window." She spoke as the video's and photos played on screen. "We're the drama" Tom smirks, and you let out a little laugh. "Can we watch a movie now?" He nods and changes to Netflix.

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@TomHolland2013 Instagram Story 11:56pm July 27th

[picture of you asleep on his chest. Caption: goodnight Instagram]

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Instagram Dm July 29th

1:47pm Tom: (y/n)

1:47pm Tom: (y/n)

1:47pm Tom: (y/n)

1:47pm Tom: (y/n)

1:47pm Tom: (y/n)

1:48pm Tom: (y/n)

1:48pm You: yes?

1:49pm Tom: I think we should tell people

1:49pm You: Its been 9 days

1:50pm Tom: so can I post a happy 10 days love, tomorrow?

1:56pm You: Really?

1:56pm Tom: yes

1:57pm You: okay... but I get to post one too.

1:57pm Tom: THANK YOU!

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Instagram July 30th 10:22am

@Tomholland2013 posted:

[picture of him holding you bridle style]

Happy 10 Days love @(y/u) 😘   📸// @hazosterfield

162,729 people liked this, 102,478 comments

User1: HOLY MY GOD OTS OFFICIAL

O F F I C I A L

User2: IM CRYING IN THE CLUB

User3: REPORT RED ALERT OTP OTP CANON

(y/u): ❤❤ can't believe you used this picture!

User4: I want death SKSNSNAKNS

Zendaya: congrats you crazy kids

Tomholland2013: I love this photo @(y/u) and thank you Z @zendaya

[let me know if you’d like to be tagged for marvel/peter parker or Tom holland imagines in the future]

[topeve]

enjoy :) 4, 7 (what is your opinion on baby by justin bieber covered by ana ivonne being the villaneve anthem), 13, 15, 31, 37, 53, 64, 66, 75, 82, 83, 93, 94, 96, 105, 114, 118, 134, 145, 151, 163, 164

I’VE NEVER ANSWERED ASKS ON MY LAPTOP BEFORE BUT THIS PHYSICALLY MADE ME GET UP AND LOG ON BC I CANNOT DO IT ON MOBILE

4: What was your favorite video game growing up?

hmmm honestly it was probably super mario world 2 on my gameboy advanced. it’s been like………….literal years but i’m in the LAST world of levels so m gonna beat it SOMEDAY

7: What’s your opinion on baby by Justin Bieber covered by Ana Ivonne being the villaneve anthem?

i SAW ur post about it and my immediate reaction was, admittedly, mixed emotions…………mostly bc like……….i wouldn’t associate Justin Bieber of all people w one of my favorite ships. HOWEVER upon listening to it?????? it’s growing on me! i like how sultry the cover is & i’m really thinking about adding it to my villaneve playlist! so thank you for that!!!!

13: Are you a cat or dog person?

i would Die for both of them—i like them for different reasons???? sometimes u jus really want a more interactive presence (dogs), but then cats are so independent……. the overall verdict is prob cats tho…..cats purring or doing the brrmph? poetic cinema

15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber?

jenna marbles jenna marbles JENNA MARBLES

i dont watch anyone else because i dont really have time but if i want to see some QUALITY content i watch jenna marbles……..i beg of you……watch the green screen video…..you’ll know what i mean when you see it

31: Do you get scared easily?

uhhhh idk it depends on the circumstances. i can get real nervous over stupid things like a party but if i almost get t-boned by another vehicle i’m perfectly fine (because i’m dead inside)! 

37: What is your eye color?

dabs on that beat. theyre a deep brown. i like em

53: How are you feeling right now?

i’m ok! i’ve been really stressed lately but right now i’m super chill and sleepy

64: Favorite animal(s):

penguins (my best friend is actually a penguin i met in a german aquarium type thing), tigers, frogs

66: Favorite emoticon:

THE ONE I USE THE MOST OFTEN IS 😅

75: Can you do a front flip?

that, my friend, is a resounding no!!!!!  on a trampoline i can but not normally. also, i am scared,

82: Something you really enjoy doing:

i love my guitar……..i went on a weird hiatus with guitar playing because i just didnt have the time but someone left a guitar in the classroom the other day and it was like rediscovering an old flame 

83: Favorite person to talk to:

oh god idk there’s too many people i like talking to???? though a friend sent me a rly sweet message out of the blue the other day and it was super refreshing 

93: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day?

if it’s hot coffee usually i max out at 2 but iced coffee????? no limit, no limit at ALL i dont CARE if i get the jitters it be like that sometimes!

94: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds?

THERE ARE SOME THINGS I DONT WANT/NEED TO KNOW so i’d much rather fly my ass around in a circle than read minds idk like….hearing people’s uncensored opinion of u or others….Dont Like That

96: Winter or summer?

summer!!!!!!!! the winter is SO long here it’s like 6 months so by the time we dont have snow on the ground i’m DYING for the sunshine

105: Do you drink milk?

JFGHEIURHGIRUGH i answered this one already but YES i’ll drink it straight out of the carton i have no sense of self preservation

114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days?

sunny! kind of for the same reasoning as the winter/summer question. it gets really tiring when the weather is so gross all the time so my body is like permanently soaking up sunshine whenever it gets the chance. the only thing i hate are the flies bc theyre nasty

118: Do you have freckles?

my brother does but i dont?????? if im in the sun a lot i tend to get some speckles but my face is normally clear of anything

134: Do you like roller coasters?

YES I LOVE THEM i DIE for rollercoasters i went on this SUPER cool one where it was literally going upside down and backwards the ENTIRE time i’ll NEVER forget it

145: How many languages do you speak fluently?

i’m bilingual, so two! i speak english & french fluently or super close to it—french is sort of in a complicated spot bc i dont really get to use it a lot which results in losing some

151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose?

probably ancient egypt they were real cool and funky and its amazing how developed they were at the time in comparison to other civilizations

163: Last time you cried and why:

not 2 be emo but yesterday just bc of general stress and stuff yknow?? sometimes you just really need to cry and get it out of your system to feel better 

164: Do you have long or short hair?

SUPER long—doesnt look like it at first because my hair’s naturally curly but when it’s wet or straight it’s nearly butt length,,,,,,, i dont really like it since it gets in the way all the time so it’s almost ALWAYS put up or tied back and out of my face. hoping to chop it off sometime this summer and do smth different!

holy HECK that was an adventure. thank you sm for the ask u are the REAL mvp!!!!!!!

[wingroad]

Fic year end review

again, long, boring fic talk. 

Chronological breakdown:

January

Priorities 01/14

February

Noticed 02/12

Change of plans 02/13

Culture Difference 02/15

Chocolate Kiss 02/17

Don't tell anyone 02/22

March

Chance meeting 03/01

Your own medicine 03/15

Limitations 03/19

Champions 03/28

April

Nine months and counting 04/05

Status Quo 04/10

Privilege 04/14

A New Beginning 04/17

Interval 04/20

Into the wild 04/22

May

For a pretty girl 05/05

Voyage 05/05

Before your eyes 05/06

Up in the air 05/09

We need to talk about Satsuki 05/19

Waverider 05/21

The difference 05/22

Inspection 05/23

Experiment 05/27

June

Courage test 06/25

July

visit 07/29

August

Dissonance 08/02

the present  08/02

Lost (and (not) found)  04/14

check mate  08/17

The Most Beautiful Man In The World: The cute guy three doors down.  08/19

The Most Beautiful Man In The World: Mixed Signals  08/26

Heavenly  08/26

I got you.  08/31

September

The Most Beautiful Man In The World:  The dog incident 09/02

Chores 09/05

The Most Beautiful Man In The World: Reconciliation 09/08

The Most Beautiful Man In The World: tree months later 09/11

October

KINKTOBER:

Chapter 1 10/03

Chapter 2 10/05

Chapter 3 10/07

Special Day 10/11

KINKTOBER CONT:

Chapter 4 10/14

Chapter 5 10/18

Chapter 6 10/21

Chapter 7 10/25

Chapter 8 10/28

Chapter 9 10/29

Chapter 10 10/30

November

Focusing 11/10

Detour 11/27

December

Romance  12/10

Ritual 12/13

Favor 12/13

Exchange 12/13

(I’m counting all three since I finished them still in December and send them out before Christmas)

Frosty bites 12/15

Emotional Support  12/21

Overall Thoughts:

most productive months: May, August, October,

least productive months: January, June, July, November

full fics: 20 (im counting every kinktober fic separately)

drabbles/ficlets: 32

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted?

I need to start keeping track of word counts lmao. It feels like I wrote less, because I wrote more in some months and less in others, but I also wrote (and finished!) my first multichaptered fic and did kinktober so I think it’s…a bit more? Dunno.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?

So…much…smut *shakes*

As for ships I wrote kagakuro again with a (slightly bigger) dash of aomomo and a sprinkle of kikasa with one mayuaka on top. So the usual.

What’s your own favorite story of the year?

From full/longer fics: Beautiful man, definitely, I had so much fun writing it.

From short drabbles: Emotional support I think. It turned EXACTLY how I wanted it, so that’s rare.

Did you take any writing risks this year?

I wrote porn for a whole month, what do you think?

Never mind that it was all tame and vanilla and extremely boring and no one read it XD

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year?

I wanna do comic scripts this year! I have a bunch of ideas in my notes already. Also two bigger birthday projects which I should start on right now I guess lmao. MORE AOMOMO (multichip fic in the works orz) . Learn kikasa finally gdmnt. A special thingy for a special knb project 😉 I think that’s enough for now lol.

From my past year of writing, what was…

My best story of this year: and once again I have no idea lol.

My most popular story of this year:

Culture differences has the most hits on ao3.

Most Beautiful Man the most kudos and comments and I have 16 subs :O

According to tumblr:

Focusing – 41 notes

The present – 43 notes

Your own medicine – 40 notes

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: dunno but I think I tried hard on kinktober and the response was kinda lukewarm XD Also I really liked that kikasa Christmas drabble but I just posted it recently that’s why the response is delayed.

Most fun story to write: BEAUTIFUL MAN.

Story with the single sexiest moment:  I liked writing the sex scenes for this fic and this general premise but it seemed no one even read it xD

Most “holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story: that one kinktober fic…

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: I don’t think there was one.

Hardest story to write: that one kinktober fic xD but also beautiful man, even tho it was fun. And that aomomo pregnancy fic.

Biggest disappointment: kinktober xD I’m sorry I’m terrible lmao

Biggest surprise: people not seeing the end of beautiful man even tho it was like…the most predictable thing ever lmao.

Most unintentionally telling story: dunno

Highlights + Wrap-up:

Favourite Opening Lines (3):

1.       Kagami’s eyes are hurting from how hard he is rolling them.

2.       Satsuki woke up to two birds screeching outside the bedroom window.

She groaned and buried her face in the pillow and tried blocking out the obnoxious sound but that didn’t work.

“Shut the damn window.” She mumbled and when she didn’t hear a familiar groan, she finally opened her eyes and raised her head.

3.       For what it’s worth, Chihiro thought he did a good job with not freaking out when the huge door of the Akashi mansion opened and a butler assaulted him as soon as he stepped inside.

Favourite Closing Lines (4):

1.       “Why are you- Dai-chan?”

“What?” Aomine snapped wetly and sniffed again. Big, fat tears rolled down his face.

Satsuki panicked for a moment, her eyes bulging, because she hadn’t seen Aomine cry like that in years.

Small hands reached out of the bundle in his direction. Aomine looked down and frowned.

“What? Are you making fun of your dad?”

Satsuki couldn’t help it and she burst out laughing.

“Shut up.” Aomine grumbled and Satsuki chuckled.

2.       “Okay?” He asked unsurely, not knowing who he wanted to comfort anymore.

Kuroko shifted again but not too far away from Kagami and let him hold him. Or was he the one being held? He didn’t know anymore.

“Okay.” Kuroko’s voice was quiet but it sounded loud in his ear and Kagami shivered again. “But only for a while.”

Kagami nodded against Kuroko neck and heard him hum softly into his hair.

It was a little longer than just a while.

And when they untangled, the movie was long forgotten.

3.       She looked at the necklace tucked against Aomine’s cheek which would no doubt produce an imprint of her name on his cheek in the morning.

She touched the chain of her own half and sighed.

Well, this has gotten considerably more complicated now

4.       “You have ten more minutes.” He said while pulling gently on a strand of Kise’s silky locks. “And then I’m kicking you awake.”

Kise made a sleepy noise.

Yukio sighed again.

“No, I am not carrying you to bed.”

Kise frowned and Kasamatsu snorted into his cocoa.

“Nice try.”

Favorite 5 Line(s) from Anywhere:

1.       But still when Kagami moved forward and slid his hand to Kuroko’s hip he couldn’t help but giggle against his mouth.

Kagami moved away and he looked annoyed.

“Stop. Imagining. It.” He gritted out and Kuroko hiccupped from laughter.

“It’s stronger than me!”

2.       “Okay, ladies.” Aomine said and stood up suddenly between them.  “You can continue this girl talk after practice, and after I kick your ass again.” He said pointed a finger at Kise.

“Huh? I thought you said you didn’t want to anymore after yesterday, because it was boring.”

“Well, I changed my mind.”

3.       “Don’t tell me you made yourself sad while talking about middle school.” He tentatively tried with a joke that would distract him.

Kuroko laughed suddenly, voice a choked a bit and a few fresh tears rolled down his face.

“A little.” He said with a heavy sigh. “It’s been…a very long day.” He said and smiled at Kagami. Taiga thought the smile was supposed to be reassuring, but it looked more forced than anything.

“But it also made me feel really happy.”

4.       This was the moment Kuroko chose to put his own hand on Kagami’s face and he realized how warm it was.

“You’re blushing.” Kuroko said and the dimple near his mouth depended.

Kagami wanted to be annoyed, but he wasn’t able to say anything coherent for a moment.

“Go to sleep.” He sighed finally and leaned forward to kiss the top of Kuroko’s head.

Kuroko shifted when he was pulling away and planted a sudden kiss to his mouth, letting Kagami have a full taste of his smile.

[iyliss]

Was tagged by @lily-liegh and @scattered-irises (and i can't believe i now have more and more friends out there. I love you guys so much).

Rules: Write down 10 facts about yourself and tag 10 followers you want to know better

1. I have some weird aesthetic taste. IRL, I only like the female spectrum. I just can't judge the appearance of someone more male, while I can always say if i find a girl pretty or not (and usually they are omg girls are so pretty).  In fiction, it's the opposite. I can't say much about female characters' design, but some male character are so visually pleasing. In the end I have more friend on the female spectrum, and more fav characters on the male spectrum.

2. Even weirder is that i prefer het broship and gay/lesbian ship. Somehow, in a bond between two characters of the same gender, I can easily see a romantic attraction. But between two characters of different gender, it'll be more platonic. Well i can still ship het pairing and i have some boy/boy and girl/girl brotp  but i have this strange favoritism

3. I just love relating nightcore to ygo characters. I can spend hours going through the weebest nightcore, and imagine what character it would correspond to and imagine how the fan art would be and all.

4. I like 13 feet long verse. I sometime write poetry just in 13 feet cuz i like the rythm of it. Also, I love alliterations and asonances.

5. Speaking of poetry, I like to write some stupid song lyrics based on my current obsession. I don't usually save them, I only write them to get out a bit of my overflowing passion.

6. I have two type of fav characters. Those I imagine only fluffy stuff about, how they grow better in their relationship and just really pure things; and those I imagine only angst about, and hardly find any good end for them. I think it's mostly because I relate more to some of my fav more than to others.

7. For all the time I make fun of alloromantic people for how messy their relationship with their crush are, I am actually incredibly awkward when it comes to tell a friend I love them if im not used to. I can spend hours just telling someone I love them and Im so glad they exist in my life but I feel like it's to strange so I avoid doing it. Im mostly afraid of them thinking it's romantic while no I just love my friends a lot.

8. Even tho talking with other ygo-loving friends made me slowly open up about it and more comfortable, I still have a hard time talking about it with strangers or showing how much i love it. I can see my progress tho, and I could never be thankful enough to all the people I met through ygo that made me braver.

9. I have a lot of stories, aus, and hcs about ygo ive never posted here. either because I can already talk about it with someone and I don't think anyone would be interested, either because it's just too strange (like i have two whole stories based on ygo, one being a classic series, one about the card game and it's strangely well developed. the only common point is that they have the same protagonist).

10. I paint shirt with ygo stuff. It can go from making a character's shirt (yusei, yuma, and even if it isnt a shirt, vector, astral and ignis) or just references (the most glorious one is "came for wars, stayed for pancakes" that no one in the world could ever understand). I now have enough of them to never wear anything that isnt ygo-related and im incredibly happy about it. Im currently hesitating of making a "it's d-time" shirt, I don't want people to think Im allosexual.

So I guess I only have @sleepy-space-nerd to tag (but if you want to do it please do, that why I can see who'd like to be tagged in the future).

[fairydance]

30 Questions Tag

Rules: answer 30 questions and tag some blogs you would like to get to know better

I was tagged by @yourstrulytaebwi ! tysm I feel so honored! I hope this helps in getting to know me :]

1. Nicknames: Chels, Cookie, and a bonus! my dad used to call me chicken little when I was younger lol

2. Gender: Female

3. Star Sign: Capricorn

4. Height: 4 ft 11 in wooooo

5. Time: 10:50 pm

6. Birthday: January 4th

7. favorite band: I think hairbands are pretty cool ;)

8. favorite solo artist: Conan Gray hands down (he counts right?)

9. Song stuck in my head: a japanese christmas song bc my class went caroling today

10. Last movie I watched: uhhh i think Logan Lucky....or the christmas special with Rudolph the red nose reindeer, frosty the snowman, and frosty returns I can't remember haha

11. Last show I watched: HAHAHAHA im literally always watching Big Bang Theory. no joke it's kind of a problem. it's my comfort show so I just play it in the background (plus I have 9 seasons on disc)

12. When did I create my blog: January 24th, 2016 fun fact! same day as @kingarin

13. What do I post: I reblog a lot of positivity, artsy, dog-related, and plants/flower posts. I tried to be general as possible haha

14. Last thing I googled: colleges in WA with early childhood education/child development programs (hahahaha help me)

15. Do I have any other blogs: yeah it's a studyblr @procrastinatingbuttrying it's not very active lol I just have it for reference

16. Do I get asks: occasionally but not often

17. Why I chose my url: story time! so im not very good with words tbh but i really love instrumentals and scores so i used those as inspiration. i was listening to scores and then the score fairy dance (from peter pan 2003) began to play. i was filled with so much nostalgia bc ive always loved that scene and as soon as i looked at the title i knew it was the one. i was really lucky it wasn't taken either tbh

18. Following: 308

19. Followers: 367

20. Favorite colors: purple, mint green, yellow, and lately I've been liking light pink too

21. Average hours of sleep: 6-8 hours

22. Lucky number: 4

23. Instruments: I've played the violin for like 4 years but stopped in hs freshman year

24. What am I wearing: legging sweats?? idk what they're called but it's the same material as leggings but baggy haha and an oversized self cropped shirt

25. how blankets do I sleep with: haha uh since it's winter rn I have 4

26. Dream job: a preschool teacher!

27. Dream trip: um maybe going to like Thailand, Japan, or Rome would be cool! or Disneyworld haha

28. Favorite food: yall I love cookies sm. they're so great. also rice and mangoes (not together but) so good tho

29. nationality: Filipino American and proud!

30. favorite song: definitely Grow by Conan Gray

I'm tagging (only if u want to):

@pressedfloral @kingarin @augustflynns @dustblush @peachisty @cafelite @vtiredgrl @daintyquiescent @whatskidbackwards @spoopyapricot @sleepy-bookworm and anyone else who wants to do it! I would love to read more about you guys!

[littlelovelymemes]

✰ * º ❛ more popular text posts starters. ❜

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LMAO bitch me too why are we like this  ’ ‘  special thanks to all the 10 year olds out there for making all those music lyric videos on youtube  ’ ‘  i am so gentle and kind hearted... and stupid  ’ ‘  there she goes again being over dramatic and by she i mean me  ’ ‘  just letting everyone who’s ever told me a secret know that its safe with me (and my mom)  ’ ‘  me n my eyebrows…………we been thru a lot  ’ ‘  i wanna jump off a building and not die just relieve stress by slamming onto the sidewalk and then get up and go get a slurpee or something  ’ ‘  all I want is vintage lingerie and good skin  ’ ‘  nsfw: nobody’s safe from wonderwall  ’ ‘  do you ever wish you could unmeet someone…. like,, we had fun times,, but it’s time for me to wipe my memory Sorry Bud  ’ ‘  date a boy who reads. or better yet date a 37 year old recent divorcee with a highly diversified stock portfolio who’s looking to feel young again and can treat you to what you deserve  ’ ‘  if you knew me in 7th grade i’m sorry  ’ ‘  *cha cha’s real smooth away from academic responsibilities*  ’ ‘  anyone else feel like they’re inherently worth less than everyone else  ’ ‘  be open with your love and loud with your laughter. life is so much brighter when lived genuinely.  ’ ‘  i really wish i could get a refund for all the love i’ve wasted on people like! repay my emotional labour your bill is in the mail  ’ ‘  i’m such a tease. i’ll tell you how bad I want to fuck you and then probably fall asleep.  ’ ‘  i’m crying my best  ’ ‘  i want to be known as someone who’s full of love and radiates light  ’ ‘  i’m in philosophy and were talking about how you can doubt everything’s existence except for your own consciousness and the guy that sits in front of me just turns around tears streaming down his face and goes “i am on so many drugs”  ’ ‘  how fucked up would it be if an astronaut was coming back to earth and everybody hid for a bit  ’ ‘  some kid just skateboarded down my street crying  ’ ‘  do you ever get in an “i don’t know” phase in your life. where you literally don’t have a solid answer to anything. you. just. don’t. know.  ’ ‘  which of the three pillars of modern music is your favourite, burnin’ up by the jonas brothers, beautiful soul by jesse mccartney or lucky by britney spears  ’ ‘  i guess at this point i should just consider dating myself  ’ ‘  there is no doubt in my mind i’m really that bitch  ’ ‘  after you hit 21, you start forgetting your age cause ain’t nothing else to look forward to, besides sweet death.  ’ ‘  why am i not currently in the italian countryside with a fruit plate wearing a light linen dress? unacceptable  ’ ‘  hands are weird because one of them can do absolutely everything without a problem and the other one can’t even hold a spoon  ’ ‘  remember to drink a fucking shit ton of water every miserable day of ur life  ’ ‘  is he………you know…….*makes football throwing motion*….straight?  ’ ‘  mATH, deATH -- wake up america  ’ ‘  does anyone else have a resting bitch face™, but kinda enjoys looking intimidating  ’ ‘  time flies when u take a 2hr depression nap in the middle of the day  ’ ‘  roses are red, i’m going to bed  ’ ‘  u know when ur hairs greasy and it makes u feel so so so bad about urself. and ur entire life. everything is awful bc my hair is greasy  ’ ‘  i’m just so glad the word “ugh” was invented  ’ ‘  just another day of loving with all my heart and believing in the universe  ’ ‘  you know when dogs sit outside with their face turned towards the sun and their eyes closed and they look so relaxed and when you pet them they’re warm? that’s how I want to feel always  ’ ‘  come into bed and listen to the rain with me  ’ ‘  people are so petty and then here i am, me, an angel,   ’ ‘  can someone please be proud of me like fuck i’m trying  ’ ‘  concept: a really nice Italian restaurant but it’s spelled “spagooter” on the menu and the waiters won’t take your order unless you pronounce it like that  ’ ‘  just found out neanderthal passed on the dna for depression and now we know why they stayed in caves and painted horses all fuckin day   ’ ‘  i want kids but i’m scared they’ll blame me if they’re ugly  ’ ‘  does anyone have any tips for not thinking about it  ’ ‘  “what’s a queen without her king?” well, historically, better  ’ ‘  i want something that doesn’t taste like alcohol but has a lot of alcohol in it  ’ ‘  my kink is getting some fuckin sleep  ’ ‘  i’m alive out of spite  ’ ‘  not to vent but: fuck  ’ ‘  i think i accidentally break my own heart a lot  ’ ‘  can’t wait to be balls deep in love  ’ ‘  why are there so many days?? i feel like we just had a whole day yesterday… they don’t stop  ’ ‘  i walked in on my 4 year old nephew sitting alone on his bed eating grapes in the dark and i didn’t even get a chance to say anything before he said “i don’t have answers”  ’ ‘  *adjusts my tinfoil hat* y’all are crazy  ’ ‘  do raccoons have people hands or do we have raccoon hands?  ’ ‘  mark your territory by crying on things  ’ ‘  any size titty is lit  ’ ‘  love lemon trees! i too am bitter but growing  ’ ‘  my only constant is the black hair tie around my wrist. no mans gonna be there for me like this hair tie has. no ones presence is gonna be as reassuring  ’ ‘  me???? tired???? sleepy??? yes constantly  ’ ‘  the box says “four servings” but my heart says one  ’ ‘  the lengths i would go to to both get attention and avoid it….astounding  ’ ‘  i hope everybody is doing their best even tho we’re all doomed  ’ ‘  young adult things: washing your colors with your whites because you don’t care you JUST don’t fucking care  ’ ‘  I just want to help out all the people with no money but i am people with no money  ’ ‘  bricks are just domesticated rocks  ’ ‘  being nice is so easy just do it  ’ ‘  lets start wearing cloaks and swords again. its time  ’ ‘  classes are like a high level dora the explorer episode. person up front asks a question, stares at you blankly for a few seconds, and then answers their own question.  ’ ‘  the average orgasm is 7 seconds. keeping a feral hog in your basement lasts for 5-16 years depending on your ability to care for it. the decision should be clear  ’ ‘  will i ever have my shit together  ’ ‘  i live in a time where a major selling point for food is that it uses “real” ingredients.  ’ ‘  “what the fuck” is an emotion now and its the only one i have  ’ ‘  it’s not a real party until you sneak away to the bathroom to question your existence as you stare at yourself in the mirror haha  ’ ‘  every hard day you make it through makes you one day closer to stranger things season 2  ’ ‘  assert your dominance by calling your friends by their student i.d. number  ’ ‘  i feel like each year has progressively gotten worse since the year of luigi ended  ’ ‘  um that’s u’re* not ur  ’ ‘  i wanna be a villain so I can just saunter everywhere. the heroes are always sprinting, always running. you ever seen darth vader run? hell no. and I ain’t about to either.  ’ ‘  i have nothing to say but will i shut up? No  ’ ‘  i cannot believe another week is like beginning we just finished one  ’

[qorillas]

a comprehensive humanz listening experience

henlo friends i wrote this as i listened to the entire humanz album for the first time. here are my thoughts and revelations written in real life as i went through this life-changing and at times harrowing experience. i hope you enjoy

intro: i switched my robot off

is that russel’s voice

that FUCKIN TRANSITION INTO ASCENSION??? damn

7/10 im fuckin ready

ascension

gets me fuckin pumped as always

BE A PUPPET ON A STRING HANGIN FROM A FUCKIN TREE

9/10 after like 50 plays over the past few weeks it’s still great 

strobelite

oh this is a cute intro. very bouncy

sounds like a hip and trendy remix of the seinfeld intro. im digging it

this is the type of song you go swaggering down the street to wearing ur fancy new 70s disco duds

just had a mental image of murdoc dancing disco to this

i feel like this is gonna grow on me in the coming weeks

noodle’s falsetto is so cute she’s going so hard i love her

7/10 i like how happy it was

saturnz barz

honestly after how joyful strobelite was this tempered the album really nicely

i still can’t listen to this song without thinking about murdoc’s dick. minus one point

honestly i’m only four songs deep and the album already has got a really strong electronic pulsing haunting vibe going and i love how well it all goes together

death by 2d. those vocals? WHACK and by whack i mean i want to cry it’s so beautiful

6/10 always a classic and gave us THE BATH but honestly i’ve always liked the other singles a bit more and i don’t want to think about murdoc’s dick

momentz

what is happening

MOMENTZ that scared me

HOLY SHIT

HOLY SHIT HHOTLY SHIT

THEY’RE GOIN OFF

DAAAAAAAMN 2D

dirty

im gonna SCREAM THIS IS SO FUCKING GOOD THIS GOES SO FUCKING HARD GOD FUCKIN DAMN

whose voices are those?? the high voices saying plastic on the ceiling

is that 2d and noodle omf

honestly the fact that this is in a major key makes it like. really psychedelic party hard i can see people headbanging and on hella drugs listening to this

i think i liked the intro part more than when it got all dreamy at the end

7/10 kind of petered off at the end but the intro was really amazing

interlude: the non-conformist oath

i promise not to repeat things other people say lmao

4/10 obligatory weird shit from damon

submission

ohhhHHHHhh the vocals

OOOHHHHHHH THE BACKING VOCALS

ohhHHhhHHHHHHHH fuck fu cku fucK i love the backing choir it’s so gorgeous 

all the choir backings make me think of the whole band just singing quietly together in the back and. idk it’s such a good image of them all being so deep into their music and jamming together and on the same wavelength

what the hell kind of noise is 2d making in the background of this

i feel like this is gonna get stuck in my head in the next week 

HOLY SHIT THE RAP i like his rap style very erratic 

the choral vocals behind the jumpy rap is so good

this is honestly something i think of when i think of the word celestial

8.5/10 this is gorgeous but i’m saving 9s and 10s for things that really knock me off my feet 

charger

is this the orange juice lady

super tough leather jacket vibe murdoc def wrote this

fuuuuuuuuuuck stu’s lil breathy speaking voice. honestly im weak for high pitched breathy stu voice he’s so cute fuck me up

a cha cha cha

i feel tough listening to this like walking into a gritty bar and smirking at everyone. the beat is really stalky

idk normally i don’t really like songs without very much melody but its p well done 

OHHHHH the electronic whistles that’s good

murdoc probably was fuckin his bass for this one

okay more melody at the end!!! choral backing vocals are back too i like it more now

6/10 2d’s vocals got me wet ngl

interlude: elevator going up 

wait that was so short

uh 5/10 because the guy says going up like gooOOOooing up which is nice

andromeda

ohhHHHh okay honestly with the interlude before it it’s nice it feels like im taking a fast glass elevator up to space 

OH I JUST GOT WHY THERE’S LIKE AN ELEVATOR SOUND AS THE FIRST NOISES

this like. cleansed my palate and calmed me down after charger. 

the drum? ??  poppin. smooth backing instrumentals. noodle’s little humming in the background? adorable. 2d’s falsetto? magnificent

the little melody right before take it in your heart now lover always gets me it’s so dancy i always bounce around to it. so great

andromedaaaaaaaa (andromedaaaaaaaa)

when does damon cry

8/10 another hit single and it reminds me of like neon signs and retro roller rinks

busted and blue

OH FUCK IT TRANSITIONS

OH FUCK THIS IS THE ONE THAT MAKES EVERYONE CRY ISN’T IT

ohhhHHHHHhhhhh god oh god this is gonna fuck me up 

FUCK

death by 2d 

ohh. oh my god. fuck. fuCK. fuck the vocals. fuck. the vocals. 

my heartstrings

is it about 2d? because if it is. oh god that’s so sad

amplify the sirens more like amplify my sobs because there are tears

so deep and ethereal i feel like i’m sitting on a roof staring up at the stars about to fall into space

I CAN’T GET BACK WITHOUT YOU

this is another love song on par with to binge or on melancholy hill

murdoc niccals or stuart pot or SOMEONE IN THIS BAND is in LOVE WITH SOMEONE and it’s BREAKING THEM APART 

THE BACKING VOCALS oh noooo oh noo oh no

fuck i’m really actually tearing up i [note: i had to stop here because my breathing was getting funny and i was tearing up and my rommate is asleep so i had to calm down]

he sounds like a lost little child looking at the stars through his window 

the deep bass sounds and the minor chords and the gentle snapping. im floating

THE SLIDING NOISES this is what it feels like to be in space my heart is so cold and empty but so full 

the ending satellite. the gentle rain noises. the setting down of the music. goodbye i am dead tell damon albarn that he has killed a person on this day

10/10 this song is one of those rare ones that catches me by the heart and reminds me of dark blue and stars. thenks damon albarn for my life and someone please comfort 2d 

interlude: talk radio

why are there so many interludes in this damn album

wtf

uhhhhhhhh

is this guy okay

2/10 what the fuck

carnival

what the fuck

oh okay that opening beat was cool

is someone knocking on a door. let them in

the keyboard in the back is cool i guess

someone please let whoever’s knocking in 

very bobby womack-y vibe. pretty intense between the dark instrumentals and the KNOCKING WHICH DOES NOT END

hyeAUp

3/10 i didn’t really like it. very spinny tho and it goes well with the rest of the album as like a filler song

let me out 

MAMA MAVIS OH MAMA THEY TRY MY PATIENCE

OH OH OH IT’S GONE WHO IS LEFT TO SAVE US

OH OH OH WE MOURN IM PRAYIN FOR MY NEIGHBORS

THEY SAY THE DEVIL’S AT WORK AND oh IS CALLIN FAVORS

honestly the little electronic oh oh oh’s in the beginning are what i live for

plus they bleep out trump which is hilarious drag him damon

let me out let me out let me out it’s DEL LET HIM OUT

fuck this was my favorite out of all the singles i listened to it 15 times today

2d’s vocals are adorable yeah yeah yeah 

the whispering gets me SO MCFREAKING PUMPED im ready to OVERTHROW THE GOVERNMENT

the build up gives me legitimate shivers. the whispering and the choral vocals ugH i love it

you gotta die a little if you wanna live

the ending is so haunting

let me out 

9/10 i love this song so much please let del out. my only problem with it is that i sound dumb when i try and sing the first lines with the electronic oh’s 

interlude: penthouse

REALLY ANOTHER ONE

damn someone’s goin hard

ding

5/10 sounds like one of those audio posts where people do some song but heard through the wall 

sex murder party 

just looking at the title i know murdoc wrote this

oohhhhh nice beat

this is like going to a cool underground house party with lots of smoke and colored strobe lights somewhere in germany

is someone playing the kazoo

idk i don’t think 2d’s sleepy sad vocals really go with this it sounds like he’s mourning while walking down a runway

on that note: model 2d walking down a runway. he would fall off the stage almost immediately

this sounds like something that would play in forever 21

the deep voice has some cool lyrics 

why are they whimpering the words sex murder party 

the kazoo is back

murder murder murder muuurder 

4/10 didn’t love it but it was better than carnival and it had a kazoo 

she’s my collar

ohHHH i like this very punk pop

oH SHIT damn stu those vocals tho

wait what is he talking about a collar

DID HE JUST SAY SHE’S MY FURSONA

i likE IT IT’S VERY DARK AND BOUNCY AND ETHEREAL BUT UHHHHH IS THIS A REFERENCE TO ALL THE BDSM AND FURRY SHIT GOING ON THIS PHASE

the panting .. . . mmmmmm

2d’s tryna get some 

KALI DAAAAAAAMN

this is a really sexual song but i really love it 

i really love when 2d speaks quickly and semi-raps 

kali’s vocals are gorgeous. also her snapchats were great

she’s my collar she’s the one i’m running with 

im jammin out this is gonna be my new jam 

FUCk the panting came back i. wasn’t expecting this

9/10 2d’s into some kinky shit but i’d still let him fuck me 

WAIT THE PANTING IS A REFERNECE TO DOGS FUCKING SHIT IT’S A PUPPY PLAY REFERENCE WITH ALL THE 2D DOG STUFF THIS PHASE FU ck

i am. kinkshaming. minus one point for making me suffer through this realization

interlude: the elephant

COME THE FUCK ON THEY’RE NOT INTERLUDES ANYMORE IF THEY TAKE UP THREE QUARTERS OF THE GOTDAMN ALBUM

uhhhhh again. what the fuck

2/10 these are getting annoying

hallelujah money

so unsettling and weird but that’s what it’s going for i guess

ben clementine’s voice is so good and it sounds like a sermon esp with the choir in the back i love it

idk it makes me sad because it reminds me of the night of the election and how everyone cried and was so scared

i love the chord progressions

haaaaaaallelujah moneeeeeeey 

again 2d’s vocals kill me i have been slain thrice

we are still humans, how will we know, how will we dream, how will we love

what fantastic lyrics. the crux of the album tbh i feel like i’m being told a story

this song terrifies and creeps me out but makes me feel warm and strong like i can face the scary things it brings up??  i don’t like it as a song per se but as a piece of art with a message it’s absolutely amazing

HALLELUJAH MONEY

where is my spongebob scream

8/10 i never loved this song but i appreciated the chord progressions a lot this time around and it adds a lot to the message of the album. also it fuckin destroys donald trump lmao damon what is ur damage i love it

we got the power 

honestly it’s upbeat and i like that but it’s a little bit too cheesy for me

the claps in the back remind me of that shitpost where it’s like the people in the 80s doing that weird dance yoga

this is a good song to do jazzercise to. imagine murdoc doing jazzercise

 never mind don’t do that

“on the m1″ is that a reference to m1a1?

oh oh oh stu ur so cute

the backing instrumentals are so powerful i feel like i am being propelled through the stratosphere on russel’s back

5/10 it’s cute and happy but i never really ever got into it even after having had time to

interlude: new world

P L E A S E N O M O R E I N T E R L U D E S 

this sounds like an electronic soap opera intro theme song

the elevator? ? i guess the elevator is the new thing this album

oh fuck this is creepy 

yikes yikes YIKES 

honestly it has an actual uhhhh music ish thing going on so?? ? i guess there’s that

i just wanted to be close to you BITCH NO GET THE FUCK AWAY 

2/10 because i don’t want to be close to whatever’s whisperin in my ear and also because apparently damon albarn does not understand what an interlude is 

the apprentice

so great. so jazzy. so cool and suave. 

clap clap clap cla-cla-clap i love the beat 

I AM A BROKEN SCREEN I’M A MAP ROUTINE

this is also going to get stuck in my head isn’t it

I’M INSIDE YOUR HEAD ya u are

oooohhh the electronics are so bubbly

THE FEMALE SINGER’S VOICE? ? ? SO SMOOTH SO GOOD so gorgeous im dead

this song reminds me of a lava lamp 

YO NEW BLACK KING NEW YORK DREAM 

IM THE FIRST BLACK PRINCE OF A NEW WHITE KING

god this rap is so great 

normally i don’t like slower songs but this one just. takes its time and jams out and knows exactly what it’s doing. what a bop

8/10 a solid addition to the album and holds its own really well 

halfway to the halfway house

this album is so long but i’m not complaining. actually i am a little because i have a writing sample due in an hour and a half and my computer is dying but this is more important 

nice spaceship sounds

2d’s really jamming out on those bloopy keyboard sounds isn’t he

it’s like floating in a pool of static kinda

i like the chorus esp since everyone in the band is singing together which i still think is so cute

everyone singing on it has really good voices but idk the fact that there’s no real melody kinda distracts from that 

it sounds like a congregation or a gospel choir which is super cool 

3.5/10 it was pretty cool but a little too aimless for me

out of body

pipe down pipe down

tHIS IS CREEPIN ME OUT

oh SHIT WAIT THIS IS SO COOL DAMN

i don’t know who’s rapping right now but i love her and her voice

THIS GOES OFF DAMN

i love it. i love this song this is so bouncy and cool and it’s so cute too with the lyrics telling you how to dance

noodle wrote this. noodle 100% wrote this

i feel so cool listening to this 

this is definitely going to be in a commercial for like. fashion or makeup or something 

this is the new runway song

this is something you listen to right before going out to some fancy european club with like models and weird plastic architecture

oH SHIT OH SHIT 2D’S RAPPING IM SCREAMIGN

FUCK 

FUCK IM YELLING his voice is so high im screeching

they made this fucking dork into a suave motherfucker 

9/10 i was briefly transformed into a european model and stuart “two-dents” pot makes his debut as a falsetto rapper and also establishes himself as the coolest baddest hippest raddest mofo out there despite not being able to tie his shoes 

ticker tape 

it’s almost over :(

very dreamlike and chill 

awwww the way he sings ticker tape is so cute 

the whistling!

okay this one’s cute it’s like. very dreamy and sweet

cauterized and beautiful wow i like those words 

i can see stu or russ singing this gently under their breath while just doing work. what a cute and sweet song 

it’s about healing? maybe they’re healing their relationships with each other. i hope so

a sudden draft and quick chill, a single snowflake falls and that is all damon your imagery is fantastic as always

ohh the acapella is so nice. this means murdoc had to go buh buh buh in the back which is cute 

the sudden stops are so quirky 

again i love the crackling of vinyl at the ends of some of these 

7/10 super cute and not what i expected at all from such a dark album

circle of friendz

the final song? ?? i hope it’s good i wanna give it a 10

ohhhh what’s gonna happen with this buildup

who’s breaking shit

aw these lyrics are cute even though they’re a little juvenile 

a circle of friends :))))))

the growing instrumentals in the back are so sweet 

stu and noodle singing my circle of friends as the last thing in the album rotted my teeth and gave me diabetes

a cute ending!!!! even though it didn’t wow me it made me smile

7/10 they are a happy family 

faves: ascension, saturnz barz, momentz, submission, andromeda, busted and blue, let me out, the apprentice, out of body 

overall: not going to give it a numerical rating because i would just give it a 10 because i was so excited for it. honestly i think it was a pretty solid album there weren't any breakout hits like feel good inc. or whatever but they did a really solid job on it in total. thenks damon albarn for my life please tell 2d and noodle and russel and murdoc i love them 

[hobibonito]

Get to know me tag

Tagged by @hop-ie <3 thank you Saraaaah ^^

Rules: answer 30 questions and tag some blogs you would like to know better

1. Nicknames: Javi or Java or hoseok’s wife whatever

2. Gender: trash/girl

3. Star sign: Taurus;

4. Height: 1,55 :)

5. Time: 06:03 am but im not sleepy that’s why im doing this gdjahs

6. Birthdate: April 23 <3

7. Fave band: Bangtan and 17

8. Fave solo artist(s): Bruno Mars <333

9. Song currently stuck in my head: 0 Mile from nct 127 a jam tbh

10. Last movie watched: a movie from netflix (literally they made it) the name is ‘you get me’ the story is about a psychopath girl who falls in love idk

11. Last show watched: ---

12. When I created this blog: in june from last year maybe??

13. What I post: bangtan, but like 96% hoseok aka the love of my life <3 :*

14. Last thing I googled: bon voyage ep 4 hjdgjahs

15. Any other blogs: @chweehansol (i just rb gg and other kpop groups in general tho) dont follow me zjhsgdjahs

16. Do you get asks: yeah but i like to respond them when im at the pc ^^

17. Why I chose my url: tbh i have like 687632 urls saven related to hoseok so i already have changed it like 4 times, but i like this one bc i love hobs <3

18. Following: 553

19. Followers: 1.601 beautiful people <3

20. Fave colors: lilac and nudes *eyes emoji*

21. Average hours of sleep: now that im free from the practice like uhm the whole week

22. Lucky number: idk i like 8

23. Play any instruments: Piano i try

24. Currently wearing: pajamas x2 its 6 am im at bed ajhdja

25. How many blankets I sleep with: now??? 3 its winter so ew

26. Dream job: graphic designer :( (currently being a nurse lol)

27. Dream trip: Italy and Korea (the whole europe tho)

28. Fave food: empanadas :’) de pino o de queso, da lo mismo, son todas ricas sjhdgjs 

29. Nationality: Chilean! aguante chile locoooo jshdja

30. Fave song currently: uhm ko ko bop tf jsdhjadgjsa loving every second!

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