#it's the one year anniversary so we're going back to our roots

[winonaparadise]

Girls With Horns #1-#10

a comic about being a girl, with a little extra

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[ofmdrecaps]

9/10-17/2024 Daily OFMD Recap Pt 3

TLDR; David Fane; Lindsey Cantrell; Nat Torres; Damien Gerard; Dominic Burgess; Fan Events: OFMD Rewind; S2 Trailer (Because the Night, Belongs to lovers); Trends; Fan Spotlight: Relax I'm From The Future; OFMD Colouring Pages/Paper Pete; Love Notes;

Part 1 / Part 2

== David Fane ==

David is teaching at ICAN International! Check them out on their website!

"ICAN’s focus is to help create opportunities in work force development, build infrastructure and establish placement goals by amplifying training with extensive ongoing master classes, by bridging connections beyond Hawaii." More videos on the Repo

Source: David Fane's Instagram Stories

== Lindsey Cantrell ==

Our beloved set designer, Lindsey Cantrell has so much going on too right now! Did you know she's going to be at Comic Con LA! Our friend petrichor (aka gheyandwoke on twitter) is spreading the word about the OFMD Panel happening Oct 6, 1 PM PST featuring none other then Linds Cantrell!

Source: GheyandWork on Twitter Oh and in case you are a fan of Only Murders In The Building, it just won an Emmy for Outstanding Music Composition For A Series! This was another great show she worked on and if you'd like to check out some BTS/other things she shared for it, feel free to visit here!

Source: Lindsey Cantrell's Instagram

== Nat Torres ==

One of our fabulous writers, Nat Torres making a quick appearance.

Source: Nat Torres Instagram Stories

== Damien Gerard ==

Damien, our dear Father Teach has some WONDERFUL NEWS. Five Years Clear of Cancer! Congrats sir!

Source: Damien's Twitter

In other news, he's on Dragon Age: Vows of Vengeance Episode 1! Listen in if you're interested!

Source: Damien's twitter

== Dominic Burgess ==

Dominic, (aka Jeffrey Fettering) keeping up with the current events!

Source: Dominic Burgess Twitter

== Fan Events ==

OFMD Rewind Eps 5-8 with @adoptourcrew and @astroglideofficial is happening tomorrow, 09/19/24! Did you miss out on the fun on twitter on the 12th, or just don't have access to twitter? No problem! You can see the whole thread here on the repo.

"Join us and @astroglideofficial for our rewatch of Episodes 1-4 of S1 of #OurFlagMeansDeath! We’ll see you on Twitter at 2:30PM PDT to talk it through…as a crew 🏴‍☠️ #LubeAsACrew#OFMDRewind#ofmd"

Source: AdoptOurCrew's Instagram

== S2 Trailer Anniversary ==

Adopt Our Crew lead the charge with the S2 Trailer "Because The Night Belongs To Lovers" S2 Trailer, anniversary on Sept 14th! They asked some fun questions to boost engagement! Feel free to reach out to them to answer any of the questions! Don't know which trailer we're talking about? Check it out below!

Source: Adopt Our Crew Twitter

Source: Adopt Our Crew Twitter

== Trends ==

Oh and great job everyone, looks like some great trends on twitter from the 14th!!

Source: Politest Menace's Twitter

Source: AOC's Twitter

== Fan Spotlight ==

= Relax I'm From The Future! =

So this is VERY late because of my delays but I was given permission by the fabulous @citrussyndicate and all folks involved to share this phenomenal Relax I'm From The Future Cosplay w/Rhys! Thank you so much for allowing me to share this, it's so cool!

Source: @ CitrusSyndicate's Twitter

== OFMD Colouring Pages / Paper Pete! ==

Our fantastic friend @patchworkpiratebear is back with more colouring pages, and something new and exciting-- Paper Pete! These were all done as part of the @ofmdaction event, and they are awesome!

Source: Patchwork Piratebear's Twitter

== Love Notes ==

Hey there lovelies. Gosh, I can't believe it's been a week. I have to give it up to the ofmd fan crew cause they do week long reports and oh my god is it exhausting. I tip my hat to you lovely folks for all the work you did for so long with weeklong updates. Tonight, I wish I had more in me so I could properly express myself. I am so very grateful for all of you wonderful crewmates who have been patient, and kind and supportive over the past week to me. It's been a lot, and I try to keep people up to date, but I also try not to go too crazy cause it's a lots of heavy stuff going on (not just with me, with everyone on a personal level, with the world, etc), so whether you left passing hugs, or a kind word, I just want you to know you are so very incredibly appreciated and it means so much to me. So please accept so many hugs coming your way from me, and some ghostly forehead kisses.

Sometimes life hits us with some of the absolute craziest shit, and you know what helps get us through it? Each other. A hug, or a kind word makes a world of difference. Someone checking on you, or reminding you to drink water, it can honestly save someone's life/sanity and it kept me going this week. So please know that you make such an amazing difference, in my life and so many others. <3

But also, please remember. if you need support too, reach out, I know sometimes it's hard to ask for help, but we're here for you <3. We only have this one life, and there's no use going through it alone. Love you so much crew, thank you again for being such a wonderful group of kind hearted, compassionate folks. I am so honored to know so many of you <3.

Source: The Latest Kate's Tumblr

Source: BloomWithChristie Instagram

[batnbreakfast]

Zoom, Booze, no Doom

The 4th Year Anniversary Zoom

Hi everyone,

honestly, I feel like by now we're all kind of expecting to make the fourth anniversary happen - and yet it still comes as a surprise. Holby City might have been cancelled, but we're still going strong.

What started as a great idea by @danceswithcows01​ for the Berena fandom to connect during complicated times, became a weekly Saturday evening meeting for all of us who wanted to see our two favourite doctors being loveable idiots.

Then we decided to not just stop there, but to continue meeting up to chat and watch things.

Inspector Lynley, Bramwell, Chandler & Co, Frankie. Doctor Who, The Grid, Halloween specials, What The Butler Saw, Bernie's resurrection, the rooftop proposal, ESC, Buddha of Suburbia, and so many other things.

Last year we even had a live Zoom crowd meeting in the UK to watch Jemma and Catherine on stage (unfortunately separate ones).

The whole thing is great fun. A constant between all the changes during the last years. It transitioned the fandom quite a bit.

Therefore I hope that many of you who've joined in during the last four years will also join in to celebrate

Four Years of Zoom, Booze, no Doom

on

Saturday, 13th April

at the usual time

Germany 9pm

UK 8pm

Wisconsin 2pm

It doesn't matter if you haven't been part of this for ages, if you only joined in once, or if you always thought about joining in, but never actually did so. Message me if you got any questions.

We're going back to our roots and we'll watch the fandoms ten eleven favourite Berena moments.

I'm looking forward to seeing you all!

[ahh-fxck]

If you've read Warrior's Blues anytime in the last four years, thank you. The fourth year anniversary of me hitting "publish" on the first chapter was the 26th, and as a result I've been thinking about this story a lot. I decided I wanted to share some of my process for writing it and the reason I decided to write this fic in the first place.

I was going back and forth about publishing this, but what pushed me over the edge was a movie I just watched. It's currently available on Disney+, the title is Swan Song and it stars Udo Kier. Of all the movies I've watched, TV shows, books, audiobooks, podcasts, this one piece of media hits me the hardest. Queerness was supposed to be invisible, shunted to the margins of society. But all of these queer men and women carved spaces for themselves and their joy. They made community and celebrated and loved and fucked and set their own standards for beauty and attraction. Our predecessors and ancestors (and most of them are ancestors now, far too soon) were everywhere, as unstoppable as flowers forcing their way through concrete. They connected with each other and their communities, they made spaces for themselves. Those connections laid foundations of love that set the stage, both literally and metaphorically, for the queer youth of today to thrive. We're here because of them.

Ancestors. Those who came before us, the roots from which we spring. They were on my mind when my friend @stressedspidergirlsfandomblog prodded me to write something for queer history month. I had just watched season one of the Witcher and I was struck Very Queer Feelings. My fingers got to tapping and I thought, I'll write a short little crack piece with some internalized homophobia and 90s nostalgia sprinkled on, I'll be done in a week, it'll be great. (LOL.)

But then it became so much more. Because somewhere in there I realized I was writing a love poem to the Witcher fandom about queerness, about queer history and queer love and the pressures of living before legalization in the USA. When I realized I was doing that, I started watching, listening to, and reading, everything I could get my hands on.

Four years in, I have taken in a ton of media as part of writing this fic (and I will take in much more before I'm done. Recommendations welcome!) Swan Song was especially poignant, but it's all been important in forming this story. When I'm not actively writing, I try to be taking in things that help me understand the times and places each of my characters is steeped in. I've been devouring everything about and from 1995-1951 for years now. I'm not picky, I've been trying to distill all of it- the good, the bad, and the ugly. Golden Girls has been a favorite. Pose too. Right now I'm watching the Simpsons. I've also read things like American Warrior, a book written by Army Ranger Gary O'Neal. When I do dishes I watch Cheers, or the Donna Reed show. Other days it's Seinfeld. Some of my research has been beautiful, like reading the works of Israeli poet Yehuda Amichai. A lot of it grates. It's painful to process all of the queerphobia, and it can be uncomfortable to wade through things that rub me wrong. But that's sort of the point. Queerness can be hard. It can also be so, so joyous.

More than reading, when I can feature vintage queer media in the story, I try to do so. Some of the easter eggs are subtle, and some of them much more obvious, like the Mapplethorpe photos in the bar. My hope is to honor their history and remember them with love.

I do want to make one special podcast shout-out: @makingqueerhistory has been an integral part of my research. Their archive of episodes is truly a treasure trove, and has enhanced not only my understanding of my characters' worlds but of the sheer depth and breadth of queer history itself. I am so grateful that this resource is available. I keep wanting to recommend them to you but I don't usually get around to talking about the media that goes into this story. So consider this a plug. If you love this story and you can donate to them, please do so, even if it's only a dollar or two.

As I mentioned before, this project got started during Pride month thanks to @stressedspidergirlsfandomblog goading me to write a fic. (Thank you friend, sometimes it helps to get a push) It is also my love letter to the Witcher fandom about Pride, about why it's important, about what our queer forbears did to pave the way to the world we live in today and what joy their hard work is bringing us. About why it's important to love what we have and also why it's so important to fight for our rights. I'm afraid for the future. I think a lot of us are, but what I see of our past gives me so, so much hope. We are strong, we are resilient, we have always been here. No matter what happens, we will persist. There is a reason that dandelions resonate with so many of us on this webbed site. Like them, we can flourish in the most adverse of conditions. They are fierce, and they are beautiful. Just like we are. We will keep popping up no matter what happens. I believe that queer people or all sorts deserve to exist. We deserve to celebrate ourselves and each other free of guilt, shame, or fear. And we deserve to experience joy. Cause you know what? Our joy is BEAUTIFUL. It's worth protecting! It's worth fighting for. Thank you for being with me on this journey. I'm in it for the long haul, and I appreciate each and every single one of you who's stopped in to enjoy this story along the way. You are wonderful.

And a special thanks to @stressedspidergirlsfandomblog. Without you, none of this would have happened. Love you, friend!

I hope this month brings everyone the joy they need. You all deserve it.

Happy Pride, family.

[sunshine-overload]

[BSTS] Main Story S5Ch6 ‘Jade Thread Handspun by the New Moon’ - Final

Part 2

Chapter 5

-rehearsal room, vaporize bgm-

saki: Hello, please excuse me.

zakuro: My oh my, are you here to watch over Aogiri's team?

saki: Yes.

zakuro: Then please, take a seat beside me.

saki: Thank you. Everyone looks so focused.

zakuro: Today our leader is so driven that they haven't even noticed us.

-song stops-

mokuren: Ok, we’re taking a two minute break to reflect on what needs improvement.

hari: (breathing heavily) ...Yes!

kasumi: You're really into it today huh, Hari~

hari: We're performing two shows at once but that doesn't mean only 50% effort is going into each. I intend to give it my all in both.

mokuren: First up, Hari. Your body still remembers remnants of the choreography from before we changed the costumes. Don't mix in the previous image, be sharper and flashier with your movements.

hari: Yes.

mokuren: Kasumi, take a half a step closer to Aogiri. Get as close as you can without crashing into each other.

kasumi: Roger that.

aogiri: What about me, Mokuren?

mokuren: You should know already. Improve the part with the kicks. Other than dance I can't comment, think about your singing yourself.

zakuro: My oh my, to leave him to his own devices there, your ruthlessness knows no bounds.

mokuren: Then are you going to instruct him, Zakuro?

zakuro: Why me? Unfortunately I am but a mere stone by the roadside. Rather than helping an enemy out we'd be in the same boat.

aogiri: It's fine. I will study by myself.

mokuren: Polish it off by tomorrow, got it? Next, Qu. You're thinking about unnecessary things again aren't you? Quit doing that, that's all.

qu: ...Got it.

—end

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Chapter 5 extra

-behind starless, night time-

yakou: Sigh...

-iwami walks up-

iwami: Yo, good work. You're working till late again today huh.

yakou: ...!

yakou: Iwami-san... Is there something you want from me?

iwami: I'm simply showing my concern for the substitute owner who's doing his best. I've brought food, I accidentally bought too much so please share them around.

-gives yakou a bag of food-

yakou: Sure... If you're here to run an errand then we can take it inside. 

iwami: No, staying out here is fine.

yakou: Then I'll hear you out personally.

iwami: You really seem to have settled into your work as the substitute owner. Completely different from how lost and disoriented you looked a year ago.

yakou: What do you want today?

iwami: I want to hear your answer once more to that question I asked back then. It's been a year since then and as you told me to, I've been observing things and this is the result of that.

yakou: ...It's true that Haseyama still hasn't regained consciousness, and that an official owner is needed. However, I cannot accept your conditions. Starless needs Kei.

iwami: Hey now, don't go misunderstanding things. It's not like I'm planning to just do whatever I want. All I wish for is to take Starless back from tyrants such as Haseyama and Kei. In order to create a Starless for the cast members. I mean, you all got to do what you wanted for the fourth anniversary performance without Haseyama's interference didn't you?

yakou: ......

iwami: How is Hinata doing? Is he proving useful to you?

yakou: We're thankful for the extra set of hands.

iwami: Jeez, so negotiations are a bust this time too huh. Just remember this one thing then, if I were to run the store, the cast members would be my priority. I wouldn't fire or throw anyone away by my own judgment. I can promise you that.

-iwami goes to leave-

yakou: Why are you saying this to me?

iwami: Because I'm rooting for you, Yakou.

yakou: (looks troubled)

—end

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Chapter 5 SideA 

-badkstage-

kasumi: Wow~ Aogiri's singing was pretty impressive today.

hari: Indeed. It may be a cliche way of putting it but it's as if he's finally come out of his shell.

qu: The guests were really fired up too.

aogiri: I'm still just barely holding on. But I am happy all the same. This is all thanks to all of your help.

mokuren: Hmph, this much is nothing. However I will acknowledge you for going along with my intensive training without a single word of complaint.

aogiri: Thank you. I will continue to work hard.

-starless office-

takami: That performance was quite the improvement wasn't it? Especially Aogiri, his efforts are showing.

kei: To stand on Starless' stage, that much effort is the bare minimum.

sin: He may be reaching out his hands to the unbreakable ore.

takami: In any case, it's clear he's not just your average person. If I were told he was a big name to those in the know I'd believe it. Don't you agree, Kei?

kei: At the very least, I've never heard of him.

sin: One cannot pass through the gates of hell without Virgil's guidance. What should be visited is the large boulder dusted with glints of light.

takami: If that's the case then Hinata is quite the actor as well.

kei: That one probably is probably not capable of keeping up the act past his initial introduction. It does not matter for what purpose or under whose directions they came to the store for. Once they're in, we can just keep them here.

takami: I have no objections to that. It's the preferred option to having them just run free after all.

kei: By the way... Takami, if having the ability to be an all rounder is suspicious, then are you not the same?

takami: It's an honour to hear you think of me as such. I'll take that as a compliment.

sin: Be as it may, from here on out the rabbit will sleep.

takami: Yes. Him not having any secrets would be the best case scenario.

—end

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Chapter 5 SideA extra

-starless office-

sin: The rabbit views the forest. Within the wind and rain, what is it that its eyes long for?

takami: The owner's prolonged absence has begun to lead to rumours spreading that he may not return at all. The risk that our current power structure will be reworked is still high.

kei: Didn't you put a breakwater in place to prevent that, Takami?

takami: Of course. I won't let any harm come to us.

sin: The arrival of the technician is the problem. The time they will spread their wings is utterly unforeseeable.

takami: Even if he makes a recovery and gets discharged from the hospital, can we even guarantee that he'll return to Starless?

kei: Before the store, he will have his own issues to prioritise. However, we at the store are also still trying to maintain things with the void Haseyama has left behind. Such as from those that are trying to take advantage of this and claim the store.

sin: The water streams that flow beneath the earth cannot be perceived. The places where the spring water gushes forth to humans grows sweeter. Even if the corruption dissolves gold.

takami: I can't deny that. Anyone that wants to get their hands on this store would be thinking the same thing right now.

kei: Heh, whatever you're trying to say is easy to guess. You two have no need to worry.

takami: Well, I suppose you're right. Actually, what do you think the owner would even say if he were to see this new version of C?

kei: If we prove to him that Aogiri's joining is profitable the I don't think he'd have any complaints.

takami: True, I can imagine him saying something like 'make sure you bring in lots of cash'. It might be good for us to follow his unique type of flexibility there.

kei: We don't want to go too far ourselves.

sin: A thread which is a lifeline is lowered down. Just like a night sky without any stars. What should concern us is the discord of the prisoners. So long as they are not duplicitous, that is.

—end

(note: these last two chapters kinda melted my brain so apologies if they made no sense LOL)

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Chapter 5 SideB

-behind starless, evening-

yoshino (on phone): Hello... Did something happen? Yes... I'm relieved to hear your voice though, you sound like you're doing better than I had expected.

yoshino (on phone): That's... Even if I take a day off the schedule will have to be changed around me. That was—! Back then I hurried back because I'd heard you were in a tough spot. I... know. Eventually I will have to follow in your footsteps... But right now, please just give me a little more time.

yoshino (on phone): It's not possible for me to train whilst I'm here. No it's not that, I just don't want to give up on sing—

-shock-

yoshino (on phone): You know about me being an understudy...? Just how much did you look into things... I'll explain everything to you properly soon, I'm in the middle of a shift so I'll be hanging up now.

-hangs up-

yoshino: The place where I... should be...

-zakuro walks up-

zakuro: My my, good day to you, Yoshino. Standing out here all by yourself, could it be there's something on your mind?

yoshino: I was just stepping out for some fresh air. What about you, did you go for a walk before the show?

zakuro: Yes yes, when my thoughts are swirling about and making me restless I feel the need to take a walk.

yoshino: I get that, when I'm thinking hard about a role I go for a walk as well.

zakuro: My, yet another coincidence. Say, I have a question for you, Yoshino. In your opinion, what meaning does singing hold?

yoshino: What...?

zakuro: Is there a reason that it must be singing that your pursue? If so, then what is that reason?

yoshino: Why are you asking me that...

zakuro: I cannot decipher the answer myself, but I figured someone like you would have one. Why is it that humans sing? What meaning do songs hold to us? I cannot help but feel as though finding the answer would mean finding out more about myself.

yoshino: ...I don't know the answer either. I don’t know but... I don't have anything other than singing. So, I think you just have to find out for yourself.

—end

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Chapter 5 SideB extra

-locker rooms-

kongou: Good work out there, Zakuro. Looking at that note again are you?

zakuro: Indeed. I am still yet to work out what it is.

kongou: Aogiri found that when he was repairing your costume didn't he? It seemed like it had been hidden away there on purpose. I thought it must've been something of importance to you…

zakuro: Hm... I have no idea either.

kongou: At first glance it looked like a lyric from a song.

zakuro: This arrangement of words does not exist in my repertoire. Even so, this definitely looks to be my handwriting.

kongou: Is that so? That's curious then. It's as if it's some kind of code.

zakuro: Hm, a code you say?

-zakuro suddenly looks serious-

kongou: Zakuro...?

zakuro: It looks as though a pebble has risen from the riverbank... This is my...

zakuro: ...!

zakuro: —I see, I see. In the end it appears this was a little love letter to myself.

kongou: What?

zakuro: Please excuse me, I will be heading out to continue this discussion on my own.

-time pass, old starless stage-

zakuro: Let's see here. Will a demon or a serpent appear? Or perhaps...

-looks at note-

zakuro: The answer that I'm searching for might very well be here.

-zakuro searches around the stage-

zakuro: Well well, this is…

-finds CD-

zakuro: There's no mistaking it, this is the jewel that I've been seeking.

-plays CD, blackstar bgm-

zakuro: —Aah yes this is undoubtedly it. This is what I had been lacking for so long. With this, my answer is finally...

-screen flashes-

zakuro: Ugh! ...Ugh...Tch…

-more flashes, zakuro falls to the ground-

zakuro: Ugh... Ah... Haha.... Hahhaha...

-black screen-

zakuro: ....Fufu.

-time pass, break room-

kongou: Oh Zakuro, you're back.

zakuro: Thanks to you I have taken back something very important.

kongou: You understood what the note meant then?

zakuro: Certainly, certainly. Why singing? Well that is once again because it is something that needs to be done. Moreover, simply asking 'why' was just a bubble on the surface. Therefore it is greatly different to that which is well known to most— It feels as though I've finally woken back up.

kongou: Zakuro...?

zakuro: Be as it may I too desire to carry out what it is that I must do.

kongou: I'm not really following what you're saying, but if you've found your own resolution then I'm glad.

zakuro: Yes yes, undoubtedly. From now on, I suppose I will act as I see fit.

—end

(note: I wasn’t really sure on how to word zakuro’s last line here as I assume it’s left intentionally vague, so here it is in JP too 「今後は、よきに計らえるかと。」 yoki ni hakarae is old samurai speak that can mean to ‘leave (task) to someone’)

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Chapter 6

-starless office-

unei: Everyone, thank you for your hard work all the way up until the closing performance. I will now announce the final result of the versus. The winner this time is... Zakuro-san's team! Congratulations!

saki: Congratulations, Zakuro-san.

zakuro: My oh my, it appears I have won.

hari: Appears? You don't seem to be too excited about it.

aogiri: It must be because this result is unsurprising to Zakuro. I almost feel as though I should apologise for making you participate.

kasumi: No no it's fine, it was on Mokuren's orders after all, so don't worry about it.

aogiri: Still, I am very grateful to have had this opportunity. I couldn't rival Zakuro but thanks to that I have come to realise the charm of standing on the stage.

qu: That's good to hear. Being able to entertain the guests starts with the actors after all.

zakuro: In that case how about we do a double singer show next time?

aogiri: Huh?

zakuro: Depending on the program I wouldn't be opposed to leaving the stage to you either. I'm certain you'd be able to follow through, Aogiri.

aogiri: ...I see, if the opportunity presents itself then of course.

hari: Is something the matter?

aogiri: No, it's just he really is quite the eccentric fellow.

mokuren: Anyways, this means that our stage outfits will remain the same. Aogiri, I will be using you from here on out as well. Don't get negligent with your preparations. Not only in the case of designing costumes but also your training.

aogiri: Understood. I will do as you wish.

mokuren: The rest of you too, if you decide to cut corners I'll kick you off the stage without hesitation. Prepare yourselves.

unei: Then, once again, thank you for all your hard work everyone!

—end

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EX 1

-shrine entrance, evening-

heath: (writing) ...Hm?

-gui's master appears-

heath: (gasps) You're...!

gui's master: Relax. I'm not going to do anything to you.

heath: Then get of of my sight.

gui's master: I will as soon as I give this to you. Call this number.

heath: A phone number...? 

-gui's master leaves-

heath: Hey, wait, whose number is...

-heath looks shocked before dialling the number-

heath (on phone): ...Akito-san? 

heath (on phone): Why did you have him give me this number... Yes, they're safe. You know that’s something I can't talk about. Not really. Why did you contact me? 

heath (on phone): Huh...? What do you mean be careful? Ah, wait—

-call hangs up-

heath: 'Be careful of the one who got involved recently'...?

—end

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EX 2

-bar-

man: As always you're drinking the strong stuff huh.

sotetsu: Since when did you start commenting on people's preferences?

man: I just thought since you're at a bar you could drink some whiskey every now and then.

sotetsu: Shochu and whiskey are both spirits in the end aren't they? C'mon, cheers.

-they clink glasses-

sotetsu: And so, how did it go? Find out anything juicy?

man: I got some info that'll probably interest you.

sotetsu: Ooh? This is surprising. I’d already thought he was awfully skilled but what is he, some kind of VIP?

man: It wasn't easy finding stuff on him. There wasn't much public information about him out there.

sotetsu: How come a guy like this is at Starless though...? Plus he didn't look like a completely inexperienced newcomer to the stage. He's at a level that wouldn't be out of place in the entertainment industry.

man: Who knows. From what I could gather on his background it doesn't seem like he ever worked in an entertainment related company.

sotetsu: Meaning there's still more to be uncovered about him huh.

man: From here on out the balls in your court. Use the info for bargaining or bribing, whatever you want.

sotetsu: No, I'll wait for now. I need to decide what the best time to use this would be.

man: Don't go crazy over it.

sotetsu: I'll pay the tab, if you find out anything else intriguing let me know.

man: Sure thing.

-man leaves-

sotetsu: Aogiri huh... It looks like one heck of an interesting guy just joined us.

—end

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EX 3

-yoshino's family home-

yoshino's father: Have you made up your mind?

yoshino: Father, I still don't plan to return...

yoshino's father: Waiting any longer then this would be a waste of time. Especially so if you're not even going to be appearin' in performances.

yoshino: That's what I've come here to explain today. It's true that the position of understudy is to be there as a backup for the team. In our last show, while I hate to admit it, it was decided that another cast member's singing would be better suited than mine. 

However, it doesn't mean that I won't be making any appearances whatsoever. For our off site summer performance, I was selected as the centre. So that's why, I'm able to take back my spot whenever, I can return to being a standard member—

yoshino's father: That's one overly positive outlook you've got there. If you can take it back 'whenever' then why aren't you doing anythin' about it right now?

yoshino: T-that's... I swear I will regain my spot as a standard member.

yoshino's father: You're going to be turning thirty in January. I'm going to watch that show at the turning point of your life with my own eyes. And I will be passing my own judgment based on that.

yoshino: What...?

yoshino's father: If that performance of yours can't garner a satisfactory applause from the audience, then you are to throw away this worthless dream of yours and return home.

yoshino: Please wait a moment!

yoshino's father: If you still refuse to return in that situation, then I’m cutting ties with you .

yoshino: A-are you being serious?

yoshino's father: Is that how weak your resolve is? In that case return right this instant.

yoshino: ...I understand. I will show you a result that will earn your approval.

-yoshino goes to leave-

yoshino's father: You're still fine for now but what do you think will become of your future in ten years time? Can you even picture it yourself?

yoshino: ...Please excuse me.

-yoshino leaves-

-time pass, starless hallway-

yoshino: Kei, could I talk to you?

kei: What is it?

yoshino: I have a request. I know I'm not in a position to be saying this but... Please allow me to stand on stage in our January performance.

kei: For what purpose? Is this a proposal that will improve our show?

yoshino: .....

kei: Your personal circumstances cannot interfere with the stage. Whether you shall perform or not shall be decided when the time comes.

-kei leaves-

yoshino: I don't have any more time left…

—end

[waynewifey]

A dream of you and me—

soulmate!au

Pairing: Sirius Black x Reader

Summary: In a world where a dream means something more, trying to save the boy from your dreams can change your life.

Warnings: angst, crying

Words: 1900.

A/N: Thank you so much for the amazing feedback on my last fic! I’m sorry it took me so long to comeback, please remember that my requests are always open! I hope you like this.

I've always liked dreaming. It's the moment of the day where I'm taken to a random place with random people to live a priceless adventure. Tonight I dreamed with a boy. Well, I was the boy. We were running through the Hogwarts corridors, but somehow no one saw us. It was like we were invisible. We ran up to the bridge, staring at the moonlight. He was sad for an unknown reason, I could feel it. I saw his black locks blocking the vision when it winded. I've never seen his face before, but, somehow, he felt like... home. He let out a deep breath and I heard some footsteps approaching. Suddenly, the image became blurred. I let out a gasp, waking up. I stared at the ceiling for a moment, before opening my curtains, looking around and noticing it was still night. I got up and walked to the biggest window in the room. The moon looked exactly like the one in my dream. Maybe it is happening right now, I thought. But that was impossible. Well, not really impossible, more like improbable. The soulmate link was a very rare occasion. One would dream about the day or the moment the other were living for days or years, until they meet and recognise each other as soulmates. But they wouldn't see faces or hear voices, so that turned the meeting more difficult and rare. I've never met soulmates beside the ones in fantasy books.

The morning after, I woke up earlier than usual, as I could barely sleep. I got ready quickly and ran to the Great Hall. I was looking for someone who looked like they haven't slept properly, someone who may be up all night. But, to be honest, all seventh graders looked almost dead, thanks to the exams. A red head sat beside me, putting some books on the table.

"I have something to tell you." I immediately said.

"Not even a 'Good Morning'? Fine then. What is it?" Lily Evans replied. I rolled my eyes at her, beginning to speak.

"I dreamt with someone. I know it's rare but I really think it may be... that." She looked disinterested, picking her food. "Lily, I'm serious! It felt so real! And I could feel his feelings too! What should I do?"

"There's nothing to do yet, I guess. You'll have to keep dreaming and collecting clues. But maybe you could forget about it and help me with my charms assignments." She bit a piece of bread and I gave her an yellow smile. By the corner of the eye, I saw a group of boys approaching.

"Or you could ask your pain in the ass boyfriend." She scoffed, turning around and smiling at James Potter, whom were now sitting beside her, embracing her back with his arm and laughing loudly about something I didn't knew. Remus Lupin sat on my side, as usual. He was the only tolerable one in the group. He often helped me with my studies, but our relationship was very far from a friendship. Other two boys sat in front of us.

The day went by normally. Too many classes for my last two neurones. I was exited to go to my dorm and sleep, to test my theory.

I could see the dark sky and the Whomping Willow. A rat ran to the roots of the tree and pressed a small knot. The tree stoped moving. We dove into a hole next to it. After a long time walking inside of a tight tunnel, we arrived at the gardens of a house. The Shrinking Shack?! What is he doing here? We entered the house and walked to what looked like a living room. I watched as a gigantic creature approached. Some kind of wolf, but it was standing in two legs. It's arms were thin. It was looking a bit... tired? I analysed the beast carefully. A werewolf! Why was he around that monster? He was in danger!

I jumped out of  bed, running to get my robe and my wand. I left the dorms, running to the Castle Grounds. The wind was extremely cold, but I kept running. I searched for the knot on the Whomping Willow. After a few times being thrown in the air by the tree, I finally got to the secret hole. It seemed like it took me forever to get to the house. I heard a howl and a growl, which made me desperate to find my soulmate. Would he even be alive by now? I came across a bizarre scene. A werewolf, a huge black dog, a stag and a mouse – the mouse in my dreams – all laying on the floor. The werewolf turned its head to me, growling at me. The dog jumped, getting in front of me. Where was my soulmate? The werewolf tried to attack me, but the stag got on its way. They were protecting me? Why? The dog barked at me, getting my attention. He ran to the exit door, turning his head back at me, as if he were calling me. I followed him. I ran to the gardens, but the dog was gone. Suddenly, a boy came out of behind a tree, wearing a black fur robe. I annalized his face in the moonlight. I recognised his black locks from my dreams. Sirius Black.

"What are you doing here? You need to go back to the castle right now." He said, eyes not focusing on me and ears on alert, still taking care of whatever was happening in the house.

"What are YOU doing here?! Did you know that is not a regular wolf, but a werewolf?! And if it bites you-"

"Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Now, you. Leave." He cut my speech, making me roll my eyes.

"I can't let you die! Every night I have these dreams, you're always getting yourself in trouble and-"

"You dream with me? You saw Moony?"

"Yes, Black, keep track. Stop interrupting me. Wait, who's Moony?" Sirius looked around, getting closer and lowering his voice, like he was about to tell me a secret.

"Remus Lupin. He's a werewolf. The stag is James Potter. I'm not sure if you've seen it, but the rat is Peter Pettigrew and... I'm the dog. Yeah, yeah, woof. We're animagus. Remus is under control... well, kind of. But it's still not safe for you and I need to take you back to the castle." I was stunned when he grabbed me by the elbow and made me walk all the way back. My thoughts wouldn't process, my mind was a mess.

"You're supposed to drink the tea, not stare at it, you know?" Sirius said, his voice echoing in the empty common room. I blinked for the first time in a while. I took a last look at my teacup, glancing upwards. I stared at his obsidian orbits, frowning my eyebrows trying to figure out what to say. Sirius Black was my soulmate. This guy I've never really talked to before, whom I know practically nothing about, and now I discover he's an illegal animagus, friends with a werewolf and will probably reject me so badly the angels will pity and and let me escape from hell. Because I made it quite obvious by telling him about my dreams, and he ignored it.

"I dreamt about you, you know what this means, right?" I couldn't keep the eye contact for long and quickly went back to staring at my tea. I moved in the couch to a more closed posture.

"Yeah, I understand it just fine." He said. I couldn't figure out his emotions by the tone of his voice, so I looked at him. His expression was as neutral as his tone, not helping me at all.

"Oh, okay. I wasn't expecting this." I rested my cup on the coffee table in front of us, getting up. I felt a slight spark of anger inside of me, starting to burn everything. He scoffed, leaning back on the chair. "Well I don't like that either! It's just- It seems unfair to condemn me to literal hell just because you're not happy about me being your soulmate!" The words bursted out of my mouth without a previous warning, tears forming in my eyes. I had waited for so long to see if I had a soulmate and he just scorn me like that? "I'm sorry if I'm not what you expected, but this isn't my fault!" I blubbered, gathering all the small amount strength that kept me on foot to turn around and walk away. But before I could do so, his arms embraced me in a harm and desperate hug. The smell of his hair made me dizzy, and I could honestly live there.

"I never believed in this. I never thought fate would bring someone to keep company to a person like me but- seeing you cry made my heart ache... So please stay. I don't care if we're soulmates or not, I just... need you here."

Epilogue — 3 years later.

I finished mixing the coffee and placed it at the silver tray. I took a final look: scrambled eggs, fried tomatoes and mushrooms, and bangers — it all looked delicious. Not the kind of thing I was used to do, but I definitely am good at it. I walked to our room and opened the door. He was in the same place he was when I left earlier: the bed. I put the tray on the nightstand, preparing myself to wake him up. I sat beside him, staring at his unique features. The sunlight coming through the curtains lightened his nude torso and I got myself admiring his skin.

“Breakfast in bed? Who are you and what have you done to my girlfriend?” His husky morning voice, massaged my ears. “Fiancée, actually.”

“Well, I thought this was a great way to celebrate your first day of work and our three year anniversary.” I kissed the top of his head as my hands danced around on his curls. “But don’t get used to it, you’re the cooker in this relationship.”

“I love you, Y/N L/N Black.” I stared down at his face. The same face of the boy I fell in love with, a long time ago, and I remembered the first time we kissed through sobs and hugs. This was when I realised I loved Sirius Black more than anything in the world and I knew we were forever. I smiled at him and kissed him passionately.

“I love you too.” He smiled widely at me and pulled me to under the sheets, throwing my apron across the room. “You’ll be late, Siri.” Sirius rolled his eyes at me and got on top of me.

“I have more important matters to deal with right now.”

[damonsvftie]

𝐎𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝟏

Draco Malfoy x Reader

MASTERLIST☁️

Summary: y/n celebrates her one year anniversary with Draco as well as remembering how they even ended up where they are.

Note: This is based of the song “Only 1 by Ariana Grande’ I highly recommend you listen to it it’s such a good song! ALSO THIS IS 1.6K words

‘Lookin' in your eyes, makes me wonder how

I got so much time, with you and there's more around

I know all the competition that's after you

So I get to thinking, is this to good to be true’

It had been a year since me and Draco have been dating and today marked our 1 year anniversary (we finally reached that milestone!). The whole day I was too excited to focus on any of my lessons as I sat in my seat contemplating how on earth I managed to finesse such a fine man who treated me like an absolute princess. Ever since the Slytherin Prince set foot in school, pretty much every girl was practically drooling over him and they still do! But now that I was with him it felt as if it was too good to be real. Almost as if it were too good to be true.

‘That we're living

In a fairytale no malice in our lives

Baby oh, it's hard to believe

All the love you have inside is only mine

That's how I know’

There would be days in which things seemed not so realistic as if I were living a fairytale and as if the whole thing was my imagination or even a dream. So far things were running smoothly between the two of us. Nothing to be worried about as we lived our fairytale themed lives. We were and still are inseparable.

‘I can't, be your, only one

No I can't, be your only one

'Cause you look twice as good as anyone I ever met

And your love is three time better, how could anyone forget

No I can't’

I remember the first time he asked me out I threw my head back, hysterically laughing at him as if he cracked some hilarious joke. “Your kidding right?” I asked seriously once I stopped laughing.

“No, im not,” he huffed looking annoyed.

“For Merlin’s sake Draco! Stop it! Your only asking me out so you can embarrass me in front of everyone,” I replied back agitated, clenching my fists by my side.

“Why would you say that?” He asked looking slightly hurt.

“I can’t be your only one! I mean look at you and pansy-,” I muttered while he pinched the bridge of his nose.

“Y/n, she’s just a friend,” he explained calmly while he took a step further towards me, his face inches away from mine.

“Draco I’m gonna need you to stop right there,” I backed away from him as I crossed my arms in frustration. The past month, Draco was trying to flirt with me and I found it awfully unusual as he despised all muggle borns(which would include me since i wasn’t a half blood let alone a pure one).

However, I secretly liked it. I managed to always put up a front as if I didn’t care about him In any way but his love was just three times better than any one else’s and let’s not forget that he looked twice as good as anyone I’d ever met.

I remember hesitating to take up the offer but in the end I eventually gave in. I already knew the next day he would dump me and make me look like a fool in front of everyone however that never happened.

‘As I'm layin' down, with you every night

It still gets to me, that you remain by my side

I ain't saying that I'm not deservin' of you

But I was dreaming, bigger than I ever knew’

Time progressed and me and Draco were still together. I honestly thought that he was just playing with me but he was dead serious about taking things to the next level.

One day we went stargazing, we laid on the freshly mown grass as we looked up examining the beautiful balls of fire that hung in the blanket of darkness.

Everything felt so unreal, I mean I found it hard to believe that he was so pensive about the whole ‘I’m dating you and your dating me’ thing. As I laid beside him it got to me how he was still by my side after 6 months of putting up with my crap. I mean hadn’t he like given up already?

In the last 6 months, I felt as if I had really gotten to see the real, vulnerable side of him and I was elated to say that he was everything I had ever dreamed of in a boyfriend. He was so caring, respectful (I know right? Draco Malfoy and respect) and overall he was the biggest softie I had ever met.

I wished for living

‘In a fairytale no malice and no lies

Baby oh, it's hard to believe

All the love you have to give inside is only mine

That's how I know’

In the next 3 months, doubt started to take over my mind since Draco was beginning to spend most of him time with Pansy Parkinson. She was always with him wherever he went.

—

“Where are you going?” Asked Draco as he held my wrist Loosely.

“I have homework to do, I’ll catch up with you later,” I replied as I dipped down to kiss him on the cheek then proceeding to walk out the hall.

Obviously I lied about doing my work. I left because I couldn’t bear how Parkinson kept clinging onto him whenever I was present and It made it hard to believe that all the love he had to give was only mine. It made me jealous. I envied her.

‘I can't, be your, only one

No I can't, be your only one

'Cause you look twice as good as anyone I ever met

And your love is three time better, how could anyone forget

No I cant’

That rest of that day I couldn’t help but feel miserable about my self. He always seemed to reciprocate Pansy and I seriously loathed it. I was planning on calling things off with him and I was determined to do so.

—

“Are you trying to break up with me?” He asked, his face distorted.

“If you want to put it that way..then yes,” I mumbled while I fiddled with my fingers.

“Why?” That was the only word that came out of his mouth as he leaned himself against the wall, avoiding to meet my gaze.

“Draco.. I just... I feel as if you and Pansy are meant for eachother,” I whispered, exhaling deeply right after.

“Y/n what makes you say that? I don’t belong with her I belong with you,” he responded softly as he pulled me in for a tight hug. I inhaled his sweet scent as we stood their for what seemed like hours, cradling one another.

—

And here we are now. It’s been one long year since we’ve been together and I couldn’t have been more fortunate. Once all of my classes had ended, I ran to my dorm wrapping up the gift I had bought him.

I tried my best to make my wrapping skills look neat as possible. Once I was finished with that I waited impatiently until it was way after curfew since me and Draco planned on meeting at the Astronomy tower.

—

Tiptoeing down the vacant corridors, I managed to sneak all the way to the top of the tower.

A tall figure with platinum blonde hair was leaning against the railings looking up at the stars above.

“Happy one year anniversary babe,” I whispered from behind causing him to jolt up and turn around.

“You scared the life out of me,” he muttered, letting out a soft giggle that warmed my heart.

Making my way towards him he caressed me lifting me off my feet.

“I got you something,” he said as he pulled away, his hands behind his back.

“You did?” I gasped excited. “You didn’t have to-,” I added meaningfully.

“I hope you like it,”. He pulled out the small box that was behind his back as a small smile plastered across his face, his eyes glimmering in the moonlight.

“Go on, open it,” he insisted as I took the small box wrapped up in black paper.

As I slowly unwrapped the gift, I opened the box revealing a beautiful emerald green gemstone attached to a thing golden chain. It was absolutely mesmerising.

“Well do you like it?” He asked curiously while scratching the back of his head.

“Draco.. I love it!” I gasped giving him the tightest hug ever. He wrapped his arms around me as I snuggled into his chest.

Withdrawing from him I gave him his present that was horribly wrapped.

“I’m sorry- you know.. for the wrapping paper,” giving him a grin as I played with the hem of my robe.

As his fingers unwrapped the gift, he opened the small box that contained a ring with a thick black band with the snake wrapped around.

“Do you like it?” I asked my heart beating fast.

“It’s perfect,” he gasped as he slipped the ring onto his pale finger.

“Here let me help you with that,” he persisted while he took the necklace between his fingers. I turned myself around so my back was now facing him. His fingers slowly grazed my neck causing me to shudder. He then gently moved my hair to the side as he put the necklace around my neck securing it from the back. His body was pressed against mine as I felt his warm breath fan across my neck, causing me to flinch. His hands wrapped themselves around my waist before he pressed a soft kiss to my neck making my head fall back onto his shoulder.

Letting out a small giggle, he turned me around before pressing his lips against mine. Deepening the luscious kiss even more, I pulled on the roots of his hair softly as his tongue softly swiped my lower lip causing me to jolt at the sudden action.

My cheeks flustered as he chucked pulling me close, “cheers to one year,” he muttered before pecking my lips once more.

‘Only one

Be your only

Only one’

He really was my only one.

[pbandjesse]

My jaw is hurting me a bunch right now. Sinus pressure I think. Which has got me bummed. But today was an excellent day. And thats really cool.

I slept alright last night. Had weird dreams. But i woke up feeling good. It was a bit to hot again. But i felt cute in my outfit and was having a good morning.

I enjoyed my morning. Just chilled for a while. I decided to go show my sculpture to the dentist but i accidently broke off one of the roots/legs of the thing so i had to fix it. But they are still really excited about it. They kept asking me if I came up with the idea and were really nice about it. It was cool.

But because it was broke and I didn't want to carry it around with me. I didn't want it to get worse. So I biked right back home to drop it off. I glued it back together while I was there so it would be dry when I got home. And then I left.

I biked down towards the Harbour. And I went to Chipotle. I got nachos and a soda. I ended up giving half of my nachos and cheese to a homeless guy outside. I rinsed off my soda cup and gave him ice water two. I felt bad giving him a spicy food if I didn't also give him a drink. And it was way too hot outside. And he was being nice holding the door for everyone who came in and out of the store. It just felt like the right thing to do.

I went back and got the bus to work. I walked in the school at 12:30 and Tiffany was getting there too. I went to get the lunches and everyone else slowly got together while we figured out where we were supposed to meet with our kids. A whole bunch of stuff went down in the interim so we ended up leaving almost a half an hour late. I have so much more sympathy for field trips now than I ever did before. Because trying to Corral 65 kids and about 20 adults was way harder than I thought it would be. And there was a teacher who holds on to some of the kids phones during school time and she wouldn't give two of my kids the phones back because it was still daytime but we're leaving the building and won't be back until almost 7 and it was just a whole thing. And then one child was approved to go but his younger sister wasn't so then he got really upset. It all ended up being fine and we all got on the bus but was very upsetting for a few minutes. I had to reassign groups because of some drama. But everybody seemed fairly happy with who they were partnered with. We got on the bus and Chelsi sat at the very back and I sat in the middle at the end of where our kids and the next group of kids started. I had Mackenzie come and sit next to me and that was perfect. Because both of us just want to listen to wear headphones and be quiet. Everyone else sat in their groups and off we went.

It was a pretty long drive out to LOL station. About an hour. But it was a nice ride. I listen to music for a bit. A little bit of a podcast. It was nice. We got there and there was confusion about where we were supposed to go in so we drove around the parking lot for a while but it was all good we got there and got inside.

My group was really good about staying together and being with their partner. I was very proud of them. The police was inside of a mall. Which is a weirdly popular thing in Baltimore or Maryland. Having big attractions in malls. But that was cool. We got there and their condition wasn't working super well so it's a little warm but not the worst thing. I was very sweaty by the end of the day but I had a really good time. It was extra good because there was no other people there. That was excellent! Because then I don't have to worry about someone kidnapping my child. Or getting lost in a crowd. It was just us. It was great.

It was decided that Mackenzie would be my buddy for the day. Because she felt like she was a little bit too mature for all the other kids. So we went on the roller coaster together. Which was really just a small spinning one on the ground but that was great.

I don't like heights anyway.

We did the bumper cars. And we did the two obstacle courses that they had. I liked the inflatable obstacle course better than the other one which was more like a ninja challenge. Because I couldn't get up the ninja challenge wall and had to go up the easier one. I still beat Mackenzie all three times. Even when I had my sock fall off in the middle of one of the races.

I prefer the inflatable one though because it had two big slides in it and I really enjoyed that. I wish I could just have done the slide part. It was still really really fun.

We had lunch a little after 3:30. We had brought sandwiches for all the kids but most of them brought money so that they could get something else as well. I bought french fries and shared some of them with my students that didn't have money. And it was really nice. Right after lunch we were allowed to use the roller skating rink. And I have never in my life used four wheel roller skates. I only ever use the inline kind when I was a kid. So this was a new experience.

And I had a blast! I first the skates I got on where to big. I didn't realize they were men sizes. So I had to go and change and get size fours. Which put me way better. And I was able to skate forwards and backwards. I was able to do a couple small tricks that I can do with figure skating. I wasn't as good at first but by the end of the half-hour I was skating around them like crazy. I hope the couple of the kids but it's hard to explain how to push on skates and a lot of them were doing the shuffle thing and it does not work very well on four wheeled skates. So there's a lot of kids on the ground. But I'm really glad that they all got to try. It was a lot of fun. But oh my God was I sweaty.

Just overwhelmingly hot. But we were finishing up and everyone got together and threw their cups away once we all have water. And then we went to get on the bus to go home.

We were leaving after 5 so there was a lot of traffic. And that was hard on some of the kids. About half of the little kids fell asleep and three or four of mind it as well. Including Mackenzie who fell asleep on me which was absolutely precious. I just lay there and listen to my podcast and enjoyed the ride.

We got back to the school at 6:30. And all of my kids got picked up and it was time to go home. Miss Elaine and Marcus give me a ride home. My bike was still at streets though so once they drop me off I walked home for a second and then walk down to get my bike and then came home. I made dinner and worked on fixing the tooth sculpture. I took a shower. Washed my hair again because I was so sweaty. And now I'm laying in bed. I'm going to go to sleep soon probably. I want to watch scary videos even though they always freaked me out. And then tomorrow I get to see James. We're going to celebrate our one-year anniversary and I'm very much looking forward to it. We have a full day planned. We're going to be disgusting and romantic and it's going to be great.

Sleep well everyone. Be safe out there.

[womenofcolor15]

Pastor John Gray Apologizes After NEW Cheating Allegations Surface, Still Blames His Shortcomings & Claims He’s In Therapy

Pastor John Gray issues an apology to his wife, Aventer Gray, and his church congregation after videos sent to an alleged side chick were exposed. He claims he’s in therapy and promises to change. Hmph. Read more inside….

When it comes to adultery, it’s more than clear Pastor John Gray struggles, hard.

Last year, the Relentless Church pastor was accused of cheating on his wife, Aventer Gray. And here we are a year later with the same accusations, except this time, the alleged side chick provided video footage – which included footage of his son - to prove the megachurch pastor has been creeping behind his wife’s back in these streets. Not only that, he allegedly was sending the woman money and would take her on trips. Oh, and their Facetime/Marco Polo calls...he included his very young son in those.  His son even witnessed Pastor Gray roasting his wife and her shortcomings to his sidepiece.

Chile, you hate to see it.

Now, Pastor Gray is apologizing…again.

The last time he spoke before his church following cheating rumors, with his wife Aventer was right by his side, preaching about his “rest In Brokenness until he wakes up and understands who he is.” We weren’t surprised at her defending her husband since months before that Pastor Gray opened up about how his wife "birthed" him and kept him "covered" as he grew into a man.

For this public apology, Pastor Gray sat alone on a darkened stage to issue an apology to his wife and his Relentless Church congregation.

“I just want to take a moment to say to you Relentless Church, to the body of Christ, to those who have looked to me as an example of leadership and pastoral oversight, I want to take this moment to tell you I’m sorry,” Pastor John Gray said during his lengthy sermon last Sunday. “I’m sorry for the areas of my life that I left unattended, that I was apathetic about. The areas where I have treated the calling of God, the grace of God and the hand of God casually in my life. For every area of behavior that has dishonored the holiness of God, I want to tell you I’m sorry."

The former OWN TV reality star said he’s taking responsibility for his actions and noted a number of reasons why he made some “bad decisions.”

”Church is not a game. Pastors are held to the highest of standards. Moral integrity. Character when no one is looking. Fidelity and faithfulness in marriage. And for me, not submitting to process, not staying accountable, and not utilizing the voices available to teach me the tools, have caused me to make bad decisions.”

”And I want to make it very clear again that no one carries that but me.”

The megachurch pastor apologized to his wife publicly for humiliating her and the pain he has caused her.

"As I’ve said to my wife, I say to her now in the moment, Aventer I am sorry for the pain that I have caused you. And my prayer is that the life I live from this moment will be one worthy of the love that you have extended and that our family receives from. I am grateful for you, for our children and I pray that God would restore the joy that we had in the days when we would drive around the city dreaming. You know more than everyone else the areas of pain that I’ve carried for years. The horrific, self-fulfilling prophesies. That you told me stop confessing those things. But I believe that this moment had to come so that God could make me the man that I need to be. But I’m sorry for that pain that I’ve caused. You don’t deserve it. You’re an amazing woman of God and I love you. And I will face me so that the man that comes out of this moment will be able to honor you in a way that I never have before.”

Pastor Gray - who pastored for several years at Joel Osteen's Lakewood Church in Houston - revealed he has been undergoing extensive therapy for a while, both with his wife and individually. He said he’s not sure how long his therapy process will take and told his congregation they may not see him for a few weeks. With that, he said he’s working on becoming a better man.

“But I want to make it very clear, no matter where I’ve been or the things that I’ve done, I am not that person. Because none of us are our worst thing or our best thing.

”I found myself running from accountability, running from the safety of wise counsel, making decisions from my anger, my rage, my pain and my emotion. Because of that I have put everything that God has ever entrusted to me in harm’s way. A consistent pattern rooted in a lack of identity and a shame that I can’t shake. But God in his mercy has given me this chance to be an example to my son and my daughter and to the body of Christ.”

Towards the end of his sermon, he concluded by telling people to still "support the church," likely meaning money wise.

You can listen to Pastor Gray's full apology/sermon below:

Last week, Pastor Gray was put on blast by his side chick, Mary. The woman shared several videos he sent her where he bashed his wife for not cooking, asked her if she wanted to take a trip to Cabo, and how he’s going to cook for her.

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  John and Aventer have been married for about 9 years and share two children – a son named John Gray IV and a daughter named Theory Gray. The couple made their home in South Carolina after they were appointed lead pastors of Relentless Church in Greenville, South Carolina, in May 2018.

The couple went through several ups and downs last year. Pastor Gray gifted Aventer a $200,000 Lamborghini for their 8th wedding anniversary before confessing to his congregation that he cheated on his wife. Folks dragged Pastor Gray for filth on social media for it.

To clear up rumors surrounding the cheating scandal last year, he went on “The Real” and said he did NOT cheat on his wife. However, he did participate in an “emotional affair,” which he said is not the same as actually cheating. He also said his wife's "coat" she covers him with wasn't big enough to cover up his childhood trauma that led him and his ego to cheat.  Oh? The anonymous woman begged to differ and offered up receipts. Oop.

Chile, at this point - just let the man cheat in peace. Because folks are going to keep buying the B.S. We're TIREDT. In the meantime, he should step away and maybe separate while he gets himself together and continues HIS counseling, and stop dragging other people and their wallets through the mud incessantly while he does so. 

  Photo: Aventer's IG

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