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clumsypuppy · 8 months ago

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act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

#THID FUCKING GAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEE #i have more i wanna draw but my hands not working orz.. maybe ill get around to it later idk #i finally FINALLY managed to get inside that star room.. my own clone!! now neither of us will be virgins!!!!#i dont have anything to go off of but when the journal mentions making another 'me' it reminds me of loop saying theyre like a mirror #theyre always able to read siffrins mind without actually reading their mind (or so they say) but maybe it could just be tone matching???#or smth like that.. idk if these two things are connected though so maybe its more like subtext #i hope im not the only one who made the childrens hospital joke when it came around to color lore part 2 #im also getting the sinking feeling of watching siffrin toe his way near the deep end like bro is so so close to losing it #i feel like if i knew nothing abt the game beforehand and why siffrin is looping in the first place my feelings abt this would be different #cuz id be pretty angry too if ive been stuck in a loop long enough to feel like everyone around me is pretending nothings wrong #than the fact that i have decided not to disclose im in a time loop and that everyone is living this day for the first time #although i also get hes doing this for a reason and when u believe in the universe i guess it also comes with sunk cost fallacy #'this is the path the universe led me down before i even knew what i wanted so all i can do is double down' THATS THE FATALISM TALKING #puppy plays isat #in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat act 3 spoilers #isat act 4 spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #sona #puppysona #friends #chipper #doodles

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kithj · 6 months ago

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some stories are written precisely to elicit strong emotions from the reader INCLUDING negative ones. some stories and characters are meant to be upsetting, they are meant to challenge you and make you uncomfortable!! when a story makes you feel Big Feelings sometimes you are meant to sit in those feelings and ask yourself why! fiction is a great space to explore these emotions in a safe environment. you, as the reader, are meant to think critically about the art you are enjoying and that includes asking yourself questions like why has the author presented their art in this way and what are they trying to tell me. and then you get to have fun picking it apart and figuring it out and deciding what, exactly, the art means to you.

#this post has been in my drafts since SEPTEMBER and it just gets more and more relevant lately #and sure sometimes we decide in the end that the art is bad and that we don't like it. that's fine. i'm not arguing anyone's right #to dislike certain things. it's fine!!! but why are you acting like it's a personal offense??? what's going on??#like idk what is in the water these days that people have become so averse to Storytelling #the whole POINT is to make you FEEL SOMETHING!!!#why are you getting mad at artists for making you feel something!!!!#between some of the asks i and other authors get to the recent stuff with mouthwashing and epic saga and fucking nosferatu #NOSFERATU. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SCARY???#i really feel like i am losing my mind. i keep thinking of that 'disco elysium but its a little girl looking for her lost cat in the alps'#tweet. like this is really where we're at. people would rather feel Nothing. no one wants to be challenged #no one wants to explore Themes or read social commentary anymore it's so dire #let's all just go read our bland cozy fantasy story with found family and No conflict & nothing interesting to say at all #i'm sure we'll all be safe there #fuck!!!#also this isnt aimed at that anon i got a few days ago this is just like. a general trend i have noticed that is happening Everywhere rn

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nabaath-areng · 4 months ago

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Been impossible to take photos of these nails due to horrible weather lighting, but since it was specifically inspired by Ieeha I needed to figure out a way... thank you closet for having surprisingly decent lighting and dresses for being a surprisingly decent backdrop!!!

#dont mind the wrist cuffs I just felt they helped todays joint fuckery LOL #while making it more aesthetically pleasing to look at #i hate being isolated at home i wanna go OUT and i wanna DRESS UP #lmao this was gonna be about the nails #accidental peek into silvis other hobbies (nails and egl. idk how tumblr acts with the actual name as a tag these days)#(so egl just in case to be safe)#from left to right the dresses are AP rose museum+infants little ladies portrait+AP wonder gallery&antoinette decoration #i used to be more into gothic (or kuro rather) but that was like over a decade ago #the last couple years ive been slowly accumulating a sweet/hime ish wardrobe #just a pity i havent been able to leave the house..... 😔 heres hoping we can change that!!!!#ANYWAY. NAILS. the polish is lurid laqcuers 'waiting for someone who never comes'#that and several other shades SCREAMED ieeha hence i got them.... this polish is reflective but idk if i can include video from phone #just know that its EXTREMELY pretty and even prettier irl and looks like golden dust in water in the bottle #so yeah..... shimmery sparkly blue beautiful + pearls butterflies lace? TIS IEEHA #not his only vibe but a major one nonetheless. i have other ideas i wanna try someday #(also for some reason my nails ALWAYS looks way shorter in photos than they are irl. idk why)#nor do i know why im mentioning that. probably because i spent so much time filing and shaping and you cant even TELL #anyway. im rambling. feeling better now than before though so i count tjat as a win #not ffxiv #silvi talks #(also these nails took me 3 hours ish. cause i fight against the flesh. but also its like 8 coats.#base coat + 3 polish coats (its very sheer) + glitter coat + top coat #also rip at all the phone typos for all the tags #and skipped words #infanta*** smh

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skunkes · 11 months ago

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can i ask why ur getting the surgery? /gen curious /no hate

i am getting a bi(lateral)salp(ingectomy) bc i never want to be pregnant or be a parent!

Even if i do change my mind later about the parent thing (not super likely but things can change, sure) theres noooo shortage of single parents lmao

And even if I never End Up In The Circumstance(s) Where I COULD Become Pregnant in my life, I'd want the peace of mind anyway...

I've always felt disgusted that this is something my body is capable of. I want it to be MY body and not a site and vessel for potential tragedy in any direction. And I want it to be something permanent and not dependent on access to services/medicines or even laws!!! Dis is a gender affirming surgery for me honestly...

#anonymous #skunk mail #in the past ive always thot about how id obvs immediately get an abortion if anything happened #but along with living in texas idk #like. id obvs get it but just the thought of ever being pregnant in my life for even a little bit makes me feel sick.#idk what id do. what a betrayal by the shell im in that would be.#my mind wld be frayed forever. ive had nightmares abt it. i dont think i cld ever Enjoy Anything if i was always worried about BC failure.#pregnancy is so unnerving to me i dont even like seeing or being around pregnant animals especially when ppl start calling them Mommy or #Mama it just makes me extremely uncomfortable.#my life was destined to be tragedy as soon as I was born in this body‚ i might as well do one of the only things I can do to ease the horro #of it #ive literally had my day ruined by just remembering its something my body can do. it makes me so miserable #it feels so disgusting etc #without the surgery my life would continue to feel like its counting down to inevitable tragedy #whether it be by Scare or Assault #and why wld i continue to live my life like that if its always going to be unwanted!!!!! need permanent solution and not just a bandaid #its not like the opportunities come up often but honestly ive even been avoiding sex bc of this. id rather just not ever do it at all #than risk anything

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raddest-laddest · 4 months ago

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ok. someone’s gonna have to come get my dad or i’m gonna tweak.

#no bc he does this fucking thing where he talks to me like a dog? it could be for any reason. any. sometimes i just walk into a room.#and i can’t even BEGIN to understand what he means by it; if he’s trying to belittle me or if he just.#doesnt know how to talk to me any other way. but it pisses me off to no end cus it ALWAYS feels like the first one.#take last night for example: it was my brother’s birthday; and none of us had expected him to be visiting around this time #this is especially important for my little sister; bc she planned a sleepover with her friends several months in advance—#—to celebrate some of them graduating and one of them moving away.#so all night she’d been trying to get away. my mom told her after cake; so that was the original goalpost;#but then my dad just kept ADDING THINGS. first it was “after cake” then “after this; after that”#and this thing just keeps getting pushed further and further back #then he said “it’s trash day. collect the trash first and then you can go” AND MIND YOU ITS LIKE 7 PM AT THIS POINT #I CAN JUST SEE HER GETTING SO UPSET so i step in; tell her “i’ll take care of it; lets just go.”#AND MY DAD. MY DAD. MY DAD. omg.#he goes “wow!! so good!! 😁😁” WITH THE SAME TONE THAT HE TALKS TO THE DOG. WHY. WHY.#look idk what he means by it; he could just be filling empty space for all im aware; me and my dad have weird communication skills #but the message that it sends me is “who the hell do you think you are helping her right now.”#and that. makes me angrier than anything.#who the hell do you think YOU are trying to keep her from her friends. who the hell do you think YOU are TALKING TO ME LIKE THAT.#and i swear he could see that in my eyes cus then he goes “want some icecream 🥺?”#so i tell him “i don’t know what you mean by that.” in the flattest voice i can give #and he just throws his hands up in the air and g r o a n s as if to say ‘HERE WE GO AGAIN’#and i just. bite my tongue and drive my sister to her friends house.#but i swear he does this all the time. he just uses different code words. an old one used to be “mom made curry!” (my favorite meal)#and he’d use it every time he had something negative to say to me. yk. the same way you’d tease a dog with a treat to get them all excited.#“positive sandwich” is what he’d call it. a positive; then a negative; then a positive to make the whole thing ok #but yk a sandwich is always gonna taste like what’s inside. and brother; i can taste the shit between your buns.#yes i know how that sounds.#but yea. as soon as i got home he asked me if i wanted ice cream again.#rubbing salt in the wound? or just trying to curb my anger? i’ll never know. but it drove me upstairs for the rest of the night.#but yea that’s my little rant. someone come get my dad.#stan’s forum

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dykephan · 3 months ago

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i genuinely think i've been in a bad mood since there was no gamingmas..... the universe split that day

#also man... i've been sober like almost a year now and i'm still on edge every day #like. when is this going to end i'm so tired of being annoyed all the time #idk why gamingmas and my sobriety are so intertwined in my mind but they are #not that its dan and phil's fault fksjfks i did it to myself

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skitskatdacat63 · 3 months ago

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Wish I had it in me to color all of these rn but alas! Let me know which Rüß you like best...?

Comparison to this same concept from more than 3 years ago(urghhh the passage of time kills me):

I didn't realize how bug eyed my style was atp LMFAO

#god i truly love her big stupid ears #theyve kept getting bigger over the years......#icl they're now influenced by my dog 😭😭 goofy but so expressive and beautiful #also regarding the hat. they live on a planet of animal eared people so the hats are made w that in mind !#anyways idk how i feel about the colored one just yet #I was avoiding doing schoolwork so thats mainly why its there LMAO #idk whenever i do portraits its a 50/50 whether i like the painted version or not #i just am really fond of my lifeart #especially for her particularly idk why!! i always find her most handsome there #her 36 year old version is who I mainly ponder about #though ive been thinking a lot lately about the other two #especially 27 year old Rüß with controversially young Noir THAT DYNAMIC MAKES ME CRAAAZYYYY #actually i was drawing that and then it went very badly so i drew these instead yaya #anyhow this is my beautiful wife and i love her dearly <3 #aagaghhhhh i CANNOT believe how long its been since i drew her its genuinely a travesty #context. i literally think about her every day. i think about her almost every time i go to bed #but her visage was not coming to me easily :(#so im really happy to have drawn her aaghhhhh #maybe ill color the others idk. i just end up drawing portraiture SO often #should i post the drawing compiled w her and noir 🥹🥹 my shippy <33333 #also plesse ask me questions abt her if you see this– i mean.#catie.art.#rüß

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halfdeadwallfly · 4 months ago

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yall my dash has been weird lately.........

#boink #bc WHO is putting harry potter fanart on my dash in the year of our lord 2025 #respectfully when i find u #im just not enough of a fandom blog specifically atp ig #sorry to all my old good omens mutuals i just had to move on #ik it's been like a yr now but man as soon as everything came out i just couldnt do it anymore #i could not process that story without thinking about all of those women #and i just cannot bring myself to not be disgusted at anything hes created #and i esp cannot monetarily support his work anymore. obviously.#anyway weve gotten off topic #ive just not been too into fandom things recently #not that i mind that on my dash but its been a little bizarre recently lol #really it's mostly just been podcasts that ive been into these days #tma and the everlasting wolf 359 #and severence recently ig #its fun to follow smth still coming out #and ive enjoyed talking to ppl abt it!#(shoutout myco lmao idk why u wld be in these tags but if u are <3)

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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sequel to this lil thang

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bellamyblakru · 11 months ago

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i will never understand how some people can actively shit on something they know someone loves and finds joy in right in front of them. how can you hate something that makes someone else happy in this absolutely fucked world in front of them.

its the passive aggression for no reason i will never ever understand or do to others. if you have a passion, fucking LIVE it. if nothing else, passion gets us through every shitty day, and i will always support it.

have passion in spite of those who hate.

#its absolutely mind boggling to me #and genuinely makes me so fucjinf upset #i was sitting next to my sister who has been nicer to me than usual as she is talking to her online friend and im doing my nails silently b #its her polish and i didnt wanna take it out of her room. but i look up and shes ranking music genres which is all cool. but without #hesitation as the first one at the most bottom tier she put kpop. like i understand its not her cup of tea but i was like okay thats #something that actively makes me wanna keep living yaknow. and she knows that. so i was like #‘interesting placement for kpop’ and she didnt say anything so i said ‘im not sure youve listened to it enough to have such a violent #opinion on it’ and she immediately got angry saying shes ‘heard enough’ and then got mad at me for saying that saying why was i being ‘like #this what the fuck’ and my heart genuinely sunk into my ass but i couldnt leave even though i felt like crying bc i only did one hand and i #was drying at that moment plus i didn’t wanna make it a big deal. but this is not the first time she’s actively hated on my music without #prompt from me and it just makes me ????? like. music taste differs with everyone i understand this and i respect it. if something brings u #happiness then i would love to hear and listen even if i wouldn’t choose it myself. but being a bitch about it. idk #ultimately its the fact of being mean for no reason over someone else’s passion makes u a fucking asshole #:)))) im not crying bye #ashley rambles #to delete later #my mom and brother do it too btw. hating on it and making sure i hear it.#my mom was doing it the other day and my 7 year old nephew kept saying ‘pook i love it. i think its cool’ and it made me cry because kids #have the capacity for such unaltered kindness as the world has yet been cruel to them #idk man

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jrueships · 11 months ago

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guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

#MY MANAGER EMAILED LIKE 2 HOURS B4 I HAD TO GO IN #she finally changed my schedule (1 day) to the night shift today #(i emailed her to be safe just kinda casually reaffirming im going in at the new time & then asking if any other shifts wanted 2 be changed #bcs that sounds great to me whstever option she goes with #she ignored that question & i get a new email from her asking if i completed a training. lets called it DOC #basically a long time ago she said 'i will send you DOC instructions soon' .. a few days pass and i get three 50 paged packets #one is called NAVIGATING DOC #im like oh ok cool that must be the DOC training shes talking abt bcs the other 2 packets were abt various trainings #NAH BRUH. APPARENTLY THE DAY IM SUPPOSED TO GO IN. SHE MESSAGES ME SOME ENTIRELY ALIEN PROGRAM #and is like 'u completed this right? cus if u didnt u cant come in today.'#LIKE?? MAYBE I WOULDA IF U SENT THE SHIT #but it's also like. dam i shouldve emailed prompting her to send what she said she would n clarifying BUT FUCK #WHY DO I GOTTA?? IM NOT THE MANAGER #she literally told me the name of the program rn thru email so i type it in and see like four hour long modules to complete #mind u i aint never even been informed a WHISPER abt this new program. nothings even labeled DOC TRAINING #but my struggle is. was i notified this?? and i just didnt see??? was i supposed to clarify with her what the DOC training was exactly??#the only thing ive heard abt doc training b4 this is 'i need to send u DOC training soon' in EMAIL. so i expected an alert #abt THE DOC TRAINING... in an EMAIL notification. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS #idk man #i dont even care bro like im busy as hell & the work is just to build clinic hours so i dont care abt the money factor #it's just like. can we get this first day jitters thing over with already?? im so over this bro #yaddayadda i emailed her an apology n ill be on that ASAP shit. but i did let her know i am basically justnnow seeing this site #n if there was any email or notif that couldve/tried to inform me of its existence 2 pls let me know / figure out how to find it #so the issue doesnt occur again & i dont have to keep botherinher which im so srry of bcs med is stress n shes just trying to get by #but still bro im a lil miffed bcs she probably thinks im stupid now and now im wondering if i AM #bcs WDYM ONLINE MODULES. AINT NOBODY SAID SH IT EVEN ABT THE EXISTENCE OF THEM!!! i wouldve pressed harder 4 clarification #if i knew it was an ONLINE MODULE i had to look out for on some randomass site i didnt even know the name of until now #instead of the EMAIL UVE BEEN 'COMMUNICATING' WITH ME ON #ARREGHHHHHHHH IM NOT STUPID. I SWEAR IM NOT STUPID FUCCK MY BAKA LIFE

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loz-chainsofcorruption · 28 days ago

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Preemptively saying captain it's Tuesday for a Tuesday all the way in September ✌️😔

#scary appointment has been scheduled for a Tuesday of all days #and i know its months away but i am SO good at being anxious about stuff months in advance!!!#ri rambles #on another note i need to work on finalizing designs and refs for Gerudo link at minimum #but also midlian ganon and zel at besr #best*#before i post my dtiys thingy #so people have them as options #ive got pretty good concepts for link and king g i just need to figure out some details and draw them nicer #all ive got is a hairstyle for zelda LOL but ive also got a sort of direction in mind of pretty but plainer than most zeldas we get to see!#shes not blessed by a goddess in this world after all shes not as important #idk why i always say most of what ive got to say in the tags of posts #i guess in case ppl dont wanna read that much LOL they stay hidden for the disinterested ones :9

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council-of-beetroot · 4 months ago

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There's something about say doing a whole bunch of laundry or hand washing all your dishes after cooking a large meal when you're twenty that brings me this strange childlike joy and sense of accomplishment when I do it

It's like sure, I did this stuff prior to adulthood, but that was out of obedience to my mother. Now I am an adult living on my own and now I am doing these things because I have to for me and only me and have to willingly choose to do them

And it's like wow I did it I'm so grown up!