#its just. idk. im pondering

[himbopunk]

just like. a did read of lucanis was never intended or if it was i dont believe it was done so in good faith (possession=alters rarely is even though its a legit way ppl view their shit sometimes) but like. hmmmm considering all the trauma lucanis has spite does really just kind of read like a protector doesnt he.

[nabaath-areng]

I have this one "OC" that does not yet have a name that I've drawn several times for a couple years. I was thinking that if I tried making them in FFXIV that I'd use elezen as a base... but then I remembered what other race have their near exact hairstyle... and now I'm like damn... I played myself...

[o-sunny-day]

I AM GOING TO COME BACK TO THIS ONE I HAVE TOO MANY IDEAS AND I WANNA GET TO OTHERS BUT THIS WILL BE ADDED ON TO.

THANK YA @f1ns FOR THE REQUEST AND THE BEGINNING OF AN AVALANCHE!

[skitskatdacat63]

Wish I had it in me to color all of these rn but alas! Let me know which Rüß you like best...?

Comparison to this same concept from more than 3 years ago(urghhh the passage of time kills me):

I didn't realize how bug eyed my style was atp LMFAO

[cconfusedkat]

Like any normal person would do , i am normally drawing kallalamb as gelphie ,

Kallamar in glindas bubble dress !!!! Allure in elphabas cloak !!!!

[captainseamech]

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[drawfee-quot3s]

around the age of like... thirty, i became a big baby because i learned what mortality was

at thirTy you learnt what mortality was??????

- julia + jacob

[vinbitism]

oh great lord vinbitism.. are you a SYSTEM!! we are more similar than i originally thought...

I am far too repressed to be able to confidently say anything and i can't afford a diagnosis... but I am infact a couple of small dudes inside a bigger dude flesh suit ifykwim

[sadhorsegirl]

i just do think that a lot of leftist conversations surrounding works of art that want to talk about violence or god forbid pacifism at all are severely limited. which isn't to say that i don't believe violence can be a liberating force or that some narratives around all violence being bad are poorly written. but it can so easily spill over into this extreme way of reading that basically considers all literature and media to be guidebooks for real action rather than just kind of authors giving an idea a ponder lmao. like. i think stories that talk about how hurting other people can provoke complicated, even negative emotions in us have value

so seeing people argue that wicked is too liberal or whatever because elphaba didn't want to hurt the kids to get to madame morrible is always kind of funny to me. like 1) it always reads as I'm A Tough Guy posturing to me 2) people complaining it's just a transparent thought experiment when like yeah duh it is lol you got em there 3) i don't think the book is even necessarily saying she made the right call on that one; if she'd successfully killed madame morrible at that point a lot certainly would have been different! there's no guarantee that fiyero would have lived but it's certainly a possibility, and either way i think it would have changed the way elphaba saw her own agency in the world at the very least. i think we are supposed to consider it and ultimately look back on it and go maybe she should have risked killing those kids.

but beyond any moral argument i think it's another case of totally ignoring the actual themes of the book as it stands in favor of a surface level reading that takes everything in the book as "truthful" and at face value. the story is clearly fixated on the difference between good and evil without ever giving totally clear answers, but one of the few it seems to lean towards is the idea that children are uniquely positioned to be good, and are slowly morally weakened as they age and grow more knowledgeable about the world. which is an argument that also doesn't exist in a vacuum! maguire has a PhD in children's literature and when you pair that with how clearly he is writing wicked as a kind of excavated Victorian novel it makes sense why he might engage with these ideas.

both boq and glinda have scenes that associate their sexual awakening with death, the fact that it's also a pseudo-campus novel about how much potential college students have in their youth that they slowly either cash in on or lose entirely as they settle into their adult selves, and the positioning of dorothy v lurline as child saints that can (in dorothy's case, inadvertantly) save oz really all speak to this kind of perspective that children and adolescence are a precious class that need to be carefully guarded and are also capable of radical change in part because they can see the world and it's problems with new eyes.

AND THEN you pair all of that with the fact that elphaba is positioned as the only child within the narrative that sees herself as of unworthy of that supposed purity. she takes on so much shame from her childhood, and ultimately from how frex perceives her as a spiritual punishment, that she literally believes she does not have a soul as an adult. so it's kind of like she is at odds with the moral calculus of the entire narrative in how she perceives herself, and watching her struggle with moral issues generally is interesting because of that but anything that has to do with children specifically even more interesting. also. she very much almost certainly killed manek aka a known child via magic bad vibes glare so like. what's going on over there

[inlustyoucanheartheaxe]

wip ill finish tmrw. goodnight!

[kkoct-ik]

i know its the dissociative disorder but god basically everything thats happened to me feels like it happened to a different person. i recall memories from when i was 15 or so and it feels like im looking into someone elses life. i know their name and personality and identity and its not mine. i know intellectually this is me, but thats purely a fact ive had to learn. and now my therapist wants me to go into memories i dont even have access to because they belong to the children. the children who i know intellectually are me but on all other levels have come from a different life and are different people. because i dont understand how they could be me. and she wants me to look into what happened to them through their eyes. even though ive never been told what happened to them. and im supposed to process what happened to them. and realise that that happened to me. that theyre me. but i cant. whatever it is that happened to them, cant have happened to me. i dont even know what it is but i know that it wasnt. so i dont want to look at their memories. because im not going to recognise it. and i dont want to either

[goldenguillotines]

Maybe it's hormones and mood but man... Sometimes I feel like a lot of people push a "This character is ultimately the strongest over any of yours" on me and I'm just like //scratches my head// sometimes. Not inspired at anyone or anything just a thought

[bearsizedant]

maybe i will just change my fucking major again.

[ducktollers]

sorry ive got more spideryapping to do i gotta get it out of my system

[namelessprince]

hm. ashe being the Girl could go one of two ways. either i stick closer to pd or i get a little silly with it.

[draklorn]

i need to think of a hc to write about so i can rotate devan around in my brain in a productive way