#its like 3am so this is a lot of word vomit im sorry

[relentless-endurance]

4, 7, 19 and 29 for Nature's Weave pls

thank you for indulging me because i have BRAIN WORMS

4. Does this change over time? What will always reliably make them melt with how much they adore the other character?

Its the little things for Zalia, those are the things that will always soften her. The small gestures and considerations, especially when it comes to her traumas/triggers. Those especially, even.

For Gale it is the fact that she loves the parts of him he does not, that he would sooner discard. The things that he thinks would turn her away, she embraces as readily as the rest of him.

7. Do they (or would they) pursue the other character’s affection, and if so, how? Do they tell the other character how they feel? Try to earn their admiration? Woo them with romantic gestures? Flirt with them, skillfully or otherwise?

They did but took different approaches. Zalia is quick to own her desires, and even her feelings, but opening up is a difficult thing. The moment they shared at the party (context: when he shares the magic trick, you can select an option to visualize kissing him, and that is. the one i picked) was an impulse, and I think if given a second chance she would have approached it a little more thoughtfully. That being said, she sort of said fuck it and just. Was straightforward about her feelings from then on.

to her credit, she did try to be more. flirtatious about it, but she had so little experience with traditional courting that it just. always came off very straightforward, which, for a man willing to admit watching you murder things is hot in front of the GODS and everyone, still flustered the shit out of him.

and Gale he. Gale he - okay. aside from the (romance spoilers). He's a romantic at heart so his side of the dance was a lot more. Skillful, all things considered. But beyond that again - its the little things. Its the patience and understanding. The things that ended up being the most romantic for her were just. Showing extra consideration for her comfort and sense of safety.

this is word vomit does this make sense?

19. Are they okay with public displays of affection? Do they like them?

In spite of all her bullshit, Zalia genuinely is. She doesn't ever take things too far, and really intimate or serious stuff she prefers privacy for, but otherwise she does not give a fuck who knows or who sees. At least not by act 3!

Again Gale was willing to admit in front of god and everyone that watching her fight was hot so I think that speaks for itself, though I think he maintains similar boundaries to Zalia's, and is mindful and attentive of hers regardless.

29. What compromises are they making in their relationship?

(Stares into the middle distance as I think about Gale's personal quest and sob). For real though, I think for Gale it does come down to what happens in his quest, but particularly acknowledging that what he had with Mystra was deeply fucked. Cause like yeah okay getting over an ex is one thing, but admitting that you were taken advantage of and that it was not a healthy thing at all is. Another. He had to confront it.

For Zalia specifically, it was the learning to trust but particularly the learning to just open up. She had to let go of the idea she was the only one who could protect him (and also the others, mind, this is something she had to compromise for them too) from whatever wrath she'd incur from her past; she had to accept that she needed help and support if she ever wanted to end that cycle.

hope that made sense

[raiswriting]

it sucks

warnings: drunk character, this is one of my first pieces so it’s a little sucky okay that was a bad pun

genre: angsty fluff

pairing: college!jaehyun x genderneutral!bestfriend!reader

summary: you and jaehyun have been best friends and neighbors for a few years now but you are getting tired of his antics; based on the song it sucks by avonlea

word count: 1.5k i just have a lot of feelings about drunk clingy jaehyun okay

3am your driveway

unbuckle you, grab your keys from your pocket

swing your arms on my shoulder

shuffle to the door unlock it

another saturday night. another party. no not for me. for jaehyun. lord knows i love this boy but this is the third Saturday in a row that i’ve had to pick him up from some party, drunk out of his mind, and having no idea where he was. this time it was a frat party on the other side of town. pulling up i could see the unbelievable amount of tipsy students littering the lawn. amidst the ever-growing crowd, there sat jaehyun. well, really there he laid, body spread across the lawn and curb. as I stopped the car beside him, i noticed him mumbling something into the night. a sigh left my lips as i got out of the car and walked over to him. as i got closer, the words became clearer. jaehyun was mumbling along to drake’s marvin’s room, a song that quickly became the theme to these kind of nights. jaehyun was an emotional, clingy drunk. so it was to no surprise that as soon as I was in his field of view, his glossy eyes lit up.

“y/n, you’re here,” the words tumbled clumsily out his mouth, as he tried to get up with an equal amount of grace.

i quickly lean out to catch his towering body. “of course i am jae. c’mon let’s get you home.”

the car ride was relatively quiet. i peeked in the rearview mirror, glad to see his sleeping face. my eyes then glanced down to the clock, 2:57 am.

i opened his car door and leaned down towards him.

“jae... jae... hey, kiddo it’s time to wake up.” I gently shook his shoulder,”jaehyun. hun, it’s time to go inside.”

“mmm but you’re car is comfy too,” sleep thickly coated his voice. i held back a chuckle after seeing him pout his lips like a child.

“alright jae but think about your nice comfy big bed,”stubbornly he shook his head, “and hey i’ll make you a deal. if you go inside, take some medicine and get some sleep, i’ll take you out to breakfast in the morning.” the promise of a free meal to a college kid was like offering ice water to someone in hell.

“ooohhh can we get waffles at ruby’s?” his puppy dog eyes looking over at me, shining in the street light flooding my car.

“anything you want.”

“then what are you waiting for. chop, chop, let’s go.”

i chuckled at his antics before throwing his arm over my shoulder and practically dragging him out of my car and into our apartment building.

im so honored that you’d aim your puke right at my chest

i clean your vomit, turn out lights, kiss your forehead

one second jaehyun’s body is basically melted over mine and i’m struggling to hold his weight, while opening his door. the next we’re inside his apartment and i have his vomit covering my sweater. i took a few deep breaths before leading jae to his bedroom. i placed the trashcan next to his head and left to get medicine.

upon entering the bathroom, i was rudely confronted with my reflection. i peeled the disgusting sweater off of my body and tossed it into the trash. the cold air quickly nipped at my skin, drawing my attention to my less than conservative, and very thin tank top. quickly i gathered the medicine and a glass a water, trying to quickly leave so that i could once again bask in the warm embrace of my own bed.

in the time i was gone, jaehyun had managed to remove his shirt and one shoe. now he was lying on his side struggling to get off the other one.

“okay hold on jae. take this medicine first then ill help you put on some pj’s.” his head turned to me as his arms fell heavily onto the bed. his eyes looked up to me, deep frustration locked behind them. as much as jaehyun and i shared with one another and as long as we’ve been best friends, there were emotions of his i only got to see in these moments. most of the time he put on this strong mask that was caring, bright and impenetrable to any negativity. in a ridiculous situation like being unable to take off his shoe, the mask melted away and bright eyes clearly shown through. after a few attempts at bargaining his way out of it and a gentle reminder of the breakfast i’m buying him tomorrow, he begrudgingly swallowed the advil and 2 full glasses of water.

his head softly hit the pillow as i pulled his leg into my lap. in his efforts to remove the shoe, jaehyun had managed to entangle his laces in the gnarliest knot i’ve ever seen. in the time it took for me to take off his shoe, my fingers were sore and he was fast asleep. i simply sat there for a second, admiring him in his most calm of states. being able to see him like this was a treasure; his cheeks flushed from the alcohol and his hair a mess splayed across his forehead.

it sucks that i love you

it blows that i want you to be safe and I know

you’ll keep tearing you down and i’ll be around

you know i can’t say no

gently, i laid his leg onto the bed before standing over him. i pushed his hair out of his face, carding my fingers through it. a small smile graced his features, one mirroring my own. slowly i pulled my hand from his face and began to leave. before i closed the door behind me, a weak voice called out through the darkness.

“y/n wait.”

concern flooded my mind, “what happened jae? what’s wrong?” i turned on my heel, crouching beside his bed in no time at all.

“i’m sorry,” his speech was no longer slurred but his voice was shaking.

at this point i was genuinely confused. after all the times i’ve dropped him off, we have developed a routine. i’d pick him up, take him inside, make sure he took some medicine and went to sleep. then i’d leave a drink next to his bed and walk next door to my apartment.

there were some nights where he’d want me to stay a little longer with him while he talked about nothing and everything, it was usually very sentimental and heartwarming. then he falls asleep and i leave. those nights were the hardest. leaving him sleeping there. peeling his arms from around me. abandoning his warmth for a cold lonely night on my own. those steps to my own bed were always the heaviest.

“what do you have to be sorry for, hun?”

his eyes glanced away from my own, “for always doing this to you. you’re such a good person for always putting up with me.”

i scoffed and chuckled slightly, “oh shut it. go to sleep we can talk in the morning, okay?” i went to stand but his hand quickly grabbed mine. my eyes darted from our hands to his face.

“seriously, y/n. i don’t deserve someone as good as you. you’re so magnificent. so kind. so caring.” he sniffled slightly and i noticed a few tears fall onto his nose.

“aww jaehyun don’t cry. trust me, i don’t mind being here for you whenever you need me okay. ill be here no matter what. forever and always.” my free hand reached up to wipe his tears before caressing his cheek. his head leaned into my hand and its warmth spread weaseled its way into my heart. which was racing and aching at the same time. i needed to go but couldn’t find the strength to stand, not yet at least. our gazes met once again before jae closed his eyes. it took me a second to register his lips on my palm and by the time i had, they were gone.

my hand found a path away from his face and back to his hair, once again raking my fingers through it. we sat like that for a few moments, just enjoying one another’s presence. everything seemed to melt away around us. jaehyun then broke the silence once more.

“y/n. i love you”

in that moment, my heart stopped. i couldn’t breathe. the silence that hung in the air was suffocating. i couldn’t have this conversation tonight, not when i didn’t know if he’d even remember it in the morning.

so I pushed his hair back placed a kiss on his forehead and told him the truth.

“i love you too jaehyun…”

i stood up and left his room. the door quietly shutting behind me.

“…more than you’ll ever know.”

cause you know, babe, you’re tearing me down

but ill always take you home

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a/n : alrighty, this was my first post on this account and the first piece i’ve done for an idol. i hope you enjoyed and please feel free to leave some constructive criticism, i am always looking to improve :)

part two . part three