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matoitech · 9 months

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What are your top-3 werewolf tropes (popular or obscure) or things you wish to see more in stories about/with werewolves?

ooo rly interesting question and surprisingly tough for me to answer.. i think 'tropes i hate' are probably easier to identify LOL but for some tropes i like hmmm:

i tend to enjoy werewolf transformations however it goes in that universe's werewolf lore, whether its painful and bone breaky and screamy or painful but feels good afterward or magical and painless or whatever, i think theyre all cool and they can all say a lot abt how u want ur werewolves to be viewed and what ur trying to say w them. i think my personal favorite is like, there is some level of pain but more than anything its a RELIEF to get to shift so its worth the pain. theres lots of things in life like that and growing up i could relate a lot to feeling like i was ready to burst out of my 'shell' as in body into who i REALLY was. on multiple levels lol

pack as being a better version of family was a huge one for me as a kid. i didnt have a good home life or childhood so i dreamed of finding out i was a werewolf and getting to run away and live in the woods as a wolf with a group of ppl that loved me, that was better than 'family' and meant more. tho it should also be stated this was more like a fantasy scenario for KID me; as an adult i love political dramas in fiction so complicated pack politics seem really fun to write now. i still wrote them to an extent when i was younger into my werewolf stories too but more than anything i had the dream of it being like a total freedom and actually getting to be loved as who you really were thing. i also like werewolf universes where they DONT rly have either packs of groups that function as packs, whatever works for the narrative and lore the best, but i loved the whole pack thing a lot growing up

i love werewolves being able to be used to represent so many things.. this isnt rly a trope in particular but i love the expressiveness and creativity and originality and fluidity their stories can have and i think its rly cool how many ppl can be compelled by them and attracted to the potential in these stories. theres so MUCH you can do w them that goes incredibly underutilized. if i wanted to always write a different way of looking at or approaching or relating real human experiences to werewolves, or even just slightly different ways the werewolves function (and you have so many different KINDS of werewolves; dif levels of animal and human mind combo as a four legged wolf, furry anthro werewolves, beast werewolves, etc) i would never run out of material or alternative ideas. thereis so much that can make a werewolf story a werewolf story and a werewolf a werewolf. theres so many personal reasons ive always loved and felt connected to them. this is partly getting into the 'what id love to see' thing, but just HUGE massive potential in writing abt stuff like disability for example that u just never see. werewolves r smth ive always rly deeply loved a lot and been fascinated with and i think it shows in how like Personal me talking abt werewolves tends to get lol. this wasnt rly a trope but im counting it

for more things i want more in werewolf stories.. lots of stuff specific and niche to me personally lol, but i want them to stop being so goddamn cisgender i think werewolf stories r one of those things where the way gender is handled is so unneccessarily bad SO much of the time for no reason i can see. i guess ppl want to be '''realistic''' to animals but gender does Not work like that for animals so theyre just being annoying for no reason. theres a lot of gender essentialism in a lot of werewolf stuff? which is incredibly grating. and obviusly shitty

anyway as a dif thing one of my biggest qualms w werewolf stories is that i rly dislike the incorrect 'alpha' dynamics + crazy aggression of the pack members against each other like werewolves r Biologically Evil thing that shows up a lot in werewolf stories by ppl who dont know anything abt wolves or wolf pack dynamics, or just dont care i guess. i dont care abt 'alpha/omega' shit at all i never write that kinda stuff. so i want more things that Dont use that. lol

id love to see more werewolves who Like being werewolves lol. being realistic abt like the pros and the cons here but there is NO reason why there r so few stories abt werewolves who actually like being werewolves or at least like some aspects of it. theres not enough furries writing these things i guess. oh i forgot to mention i like never think of lycanthropy as a 'curse' unless im writing it For A Reason. other characters viewing it as a curse while the werewolf doesnt, thats another story. i think its just boring and too like horror werewolf tropey to me. being able to turn into a wolf man is not a curse what the hell thats like the coolest power ever. i see ppl complaining abt how werewolves r 'too happy to just realize they have cool powers and start killing ppl they dont like for fun, i want to see them be SAD abt it' but i dont actualy see the 'enjoying murdering for fun' a lot in media so idk what theyre talking abt. i guess horror, maybe, where the werewolves r the villains? i see way more of them moping abt how hard it is to be cursed to be a furry. bite ME then if you hate it so much

i could keep going but i am gonna cut myself off now lol, tysm for asking! i could say lots more but its 2 am lol

#dord-the-whimsical-creature #asks #werewolves

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auradoniandreams · 1 year

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What are your honest thoughts on Lonnie and her family in Descendants?

Personally, I've always liked Lonnie, but I have to admit that at this point in time I feel like I'm more attached to the fanon version of her (who has actual motivations and a backstory), than the canon version whose personality changes every 5 seconds. I feel like she had real potential as an AK who likes the VK's, and who's also not afraid to challenge Auradon's status quo, but something got lost along the way.

I don't really have any thoughts about her family, tho (outside of the og Mulan movie, anyway - but we're talking Descendants now). They're barely mentioned, and when they are, we're reminded that Disney doesn't know what to do with ethnic characters (*cough* Lil' Shang *cough*). I'm not Asian/Chinese myself, so I can't rly speak on the representation aspect (if you're Asian, and would like to, feel free to share your opinion in the replies/reblogs! I'd love to hear them), but it's obvious that Lonnie is not a Chinese name, and from what I understand, naming a kid after their parents is a big no-no in Chinese culture.

So...yeah. I have a lot of thoughts on her characterization tho, so if you wanna hear me ramble about her character arc, click on the read more link.

Before D1: The first time we see her, in the School of Secrets webseries that was released before D1 as promo, she's spying on the other AK's, trying to expose the shady things that happen behind closed doors, and to challenge the idea that the upcoming arrival of the VK's signals an imminent doom for Auradonian society. Granted, they never confirmed the fact that it was her behind the shorts, but she was voiced by the same actress that played her in the movies and if I remember correctly she also had the same bracelets.

Based on this appearance, she sounds like an incredibly interesting character, as the only other AK besides Ben and Doug who wants to give the VK's a chance. Additionally, she's standing up for what she believes in like her mother did, without turning into a carbon copy of Mulan.

D1: Her attitude towards the VK's is kind of confusing; one minute, she's asking the girls for a haircut and showing the c4 sympathy for their shitty childhoods, having little to no problem with them. The next, she's screaming and running along with Audrey and her princesses. Peer pressure? Personality shift? Fear of Mal's dark magic? Go figure.

D2: She sneaks out to the Isle of the Lost, helps the c4 fight Uma's crew, and she uses a loophole to enter the R.O.A.R. team as its first female captain. I loved seeing them develop her character more and give her a plotline, but I also kind of wished they hadn't turned her into a full carbon copy of her mother. I think this is when the writers also started getting confused abt her character, because in the first movie she was a lot more girly, and not necessarily athletic. Obviously she can be both at the same time but it felt like a sudden change.

Wicked World: Her personality (??) mostly stays the same, but for reasons that I can't figure out, she forgets she likes fencing, and is suddenly into...music??? She has a side gig as a DJ??? Uhh ok

School of Secrets: Lonnie's Warrior Sword: We're reverting back to her D2 characterization: she's athletic, headstrong, and anxious about her mother's legacy, or whether she can fulfill it. The plot also borrows a lot of elements from the og Mulan movie. It's an enjoyable read, but it's pretty much what you'd expect from a daughter of Mulan, and I wish they'd done more with her.

I liked her relationship with Jay, tho. Their dynamic (esp in the books ) is fun and they make a good team. That was a highlight for sure.

All in all, I like her, but she suffers from the same problem that every side character in this franchise does: inconsistency.

#answered asks #disney descendants #li lonnie #lonnie descendants #lil shang descendants #descendants wicked world #descendants 1 #descendants 2 #descendants books #descendants school of secrets #lonnie's warrior sword #this was sm fun lol #i love getting asks

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floorpancakes · 6 months

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top 5 songs i would make xxxholic amvs to if i had the mental space to make amvs rn

1. GIRLS by nature

this song is so fucking good and itd be rly fun to do transitions to. the song itself is abt feeling like a helpless child in the face of love but the original music video is about HORROR BABEYYY

2. HEAVY STARRY CHAIN by tommy heavenly6

talked sooo much abt this lately but its peak doumeki music. also it goes hard

3. I WANNA BE YOUR HEART by yurrycanon

peak douwata music to the point its kind of concerning. yurrycanon is so real for this one. also there's a lot of moments you could tie directly to the lyrics. seriously just listen to it it's so GOOOOD

4. CUTLERY by ewe

peak douwata also but of the rou entropy variety. id probs wanna include a lot from the manga so it'd be kinda tricky to get it to look good but it's so fitting in a fucked up way. obviously it extra extra fits the ring chapter

5. BIKYAKU SENTAI SLENDER

oh you fucking KNOW i would just take all of the jank scenes from the anime and smashcut them all together for funsies. this song is so horny and camp and funny and im obsessed with it but above all it is GOOOOFY ....so is holiani....potential...

#idk #xxxholic #shrugs???

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crackedpumpkin · 1 year

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“Chicken and croffles” I had flashbacks at that man. There’s this person I watch and they were telling their story of trying to rizz someone through food, and by rizz I mean they tried to impress an attractive waiter, but fumbled a bit and ordered chicken and waffles. He got so nervous they ordered the first thing he saw, which was chicken and waffles. How attractive was this waiter? So attractive that his friends literally had to warn them and also tried to clean him up a bit to look more presentable LMAO

Really liked this chapter!!! Love the sceneries and how Miles and “Ray Paynt” interacted!!!! Something about how you write feels real, like even in the little things with Miles’ “It’s a choice.” And when dragging him along to the cafe at an unexpected notice. Stop writing food so deliciously it’s nearly 8am for me and I’m wanting some nice fruit-ade or something!!! 😭/pos

From one Michael to another, MICHAEL STAHP WITH THE TOUCHING YOU’RE GONNA GET YOUR WILLYIAM CHOPPED OFF FR

omfg i felt that fr im not even kidding. what i would give to be on the receiving end of that starstruckness.... okay in all honesty I'd probably be that very dude dropping my utensils.

WAIT OKAY STORY TIME BECAUSE IVE GOT ONE OF MY OWN:

So i recently went to korea in june and i went with 2 other friends who went to queue up at the NIKE store in the morning for their customization stuff right? So I wake up later and i go grab a coffee first at this store my friend recommended because it's cheap + rly good.

As such, I casually stroll along the street with my earbuds in bc im cool and swag and feeling myself right? I finally find this coffee shop and step up to the counter to order, except what do i see?

A GORGEOUS, STUNNING GIRL MANNING THE CASHIER.

At this point i am in full blown panic. I have never met anyone so pretty in my life. Her hair was silky smooth and dyed a light platinum-ish shade, and her makeup was flawless. her skin? dewy like a morning glory in bloom. Her entire figure and being? goddesslike.

at this point i am sweating buckets just from the thought of talking to her. but it's fine, right? its just a cup of coffee. i can do this.

i then proceed to ABSOLUTELY FUMBLE MY WORDS.

I just wanted this pretty drink called a franobe guys. thats all i wanted. but i got so shy and she couldnt hear me saying franobe so she kept going 'ah, latte?' and guys. i almost died on the spot.

I repeated it like 2x before she got what i was trying to say. Quick PSA that i am not fluent in korean at all, and understand more than i can speak. she asks me something in korean and i just go 'ne?' with wideass eyes like id just seen my newborn child or some shit.

anyway i finally manage to pay and get my drink and i walk away with my head practically in my hands. up till this day i am paranoid she thinks im an idiot. this is my chicken and croffles story for all you guys out there.

also im straight but this is one of the rare exceptions i lost my composure fr. what can i say? im w e ak.

im really glad you liked this chapter !! if it's one trait i could've given my characters or reader oc its the endless funds to go cafe hopping. cafe hopping is so, so fun, but so, so expensive like goddamn let me live my main character life in peace fr....

it's euphoric to hear that you liked the little moments !! i enjoyed thinking through those and just going like ah yes, he would say this! i really love writing or thinking about the small moments that lead up to the big picture. (also @buthowboutno-spamming gave me such great advice regarding this, and i wouldnt have been able to flesh out my fic and vision if not for his advice)

michael deserves to get his dick chopped off fr. but it's okay!! I plan for all my characters to go through developmental arcs lmfao, ive gotten too attached to the two idiots to let go of their potential now :)

Go get some fruit-ade or make some yourself bro it's super easy super good. lmk if you want a recipe and im more than happy to provide~

#CPRambles

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the-bloody-sadist · 1 year

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hii sadist! its the "shy anon" from before,, i just wanted to say that i loved ur new fyozai fic and it was really interesting seeing a different kind of perspective/side of their relationship ^^ i was wondering if you were planning on doing any content related to sigma or nikolai? the anime did a rly crappy job at sigmas backstory but i think as we see more of Nikolai, he would translate really well into your writing style.

thats all have a good day :3

Oh helloooo!! Welcome back!

Aw, thank you so much. I was really happy during the writing of that one, and it's been a while since I wrote a fic out of interest instead of...emotion? If that makes sense. Usually most of them are born out of a depressive episode or otherwise some form of coping, but that one just came from an idea that I liked and Fyodor's POV carrying the narrative. I'm glad to present a different version of their relationship!

For Sinner, it's definitely way less canon, so the main reason I wanted to play with it is because that's more of how I see FyoZai's actual relationship, if one existed outside of Sinner. Especially the banter back and forth.

Oo, yes, I'm happy for the chance to talk about Nikolai and Sigma! So far, I'm very into adding them to my roster of art projects and new relationships to play with in that area, but I'll need to gather some more info from the upcoming 5th season before I can tell if I'd want to write any fics with their pairings.

It's funny, though, because I was watching it with my buddies and laughing about how much Sigma's backstory was a fanfic generator. Like I feel like that man was written to be fanficified and it cracked me up. Not complaining, though, there's so much potential. But I have this thing where I can't really build up a satisfying, canon-esque relationship with characters unless I've seen them on the screen interacting with one another, where I can base their mannerisms and dynamics off of what I see. So art works (especially FyoLai since I've been messing around with that), but definitely not any fanfics, just yet.

Maybe I'll feel like reading the manga at some point and get into it, we'll see!

Sigma is adorable, though, no matter how little screen time we had of him this season. I'm very interested. And already drawing him, because he's very pretty. Sia wolfcut hair is fun to draw.

#shy anon #sadist’s answered asks #bsd discourse #sigma #nikolai #fyodor #bsd season 4 #sinner reference #sinner fanfic

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yandere-monoma · 1 year

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good evening it is 4am and i have writer's block so imma reread one of my fave recent fics and reminisce about having the ability to write lmfao

so WHOO, eat your young: director's commentary:

the fuckin song gets stuck in my head every time i read the title HJGKFGS originally i was stuck between this one or another title from aNOTHER song but i forgot what that song was so note to self: edit this post when i remember LOL

lines like these are ones that potentially make me dissociate to reread HAHAHA. i don't even know if it quite portrays the atmosphere i'm usually referencing with lines like these (there's something about the lighting that accompanies irl traumatic memories for me that i always end up focusing on and trying to allude to in writing even when i'm not necessarily trying to project... being drenched in darkness with only one point of light to focus on... @_@) but idk its tasty and i love how i opened this fic teehee

this opening scene is very much a love letter (and quick summary of) all the FUCKIN stridercest fics i've read throughout the years, like one of the many things i love about any darkfic niche part of fandom is that there tends to be these few locations that everyone settles on and obsesses over for their ships. for todocest it's the dojo, for goyuu its the basement, for a lot of stridercest fics it's bro's couch/futon. i wanted something that was quickly recognizable for anyone who also has been reading their way through the tag like i have HJSKFG

one of those teeny tiny lil motifs that i had fun sprinkling in ghsdjfkg very fun to play with homestuck's use of color motifs and what it could provide for dave in this new context. it's also a reference to the epilogues, which i'm more obvious about when i bring the motif back later:

in the epilogues, there's a few moments where john waxes poetic about the slightly unsettling environment of earth c

and the thought of that drove me crazy. earth c and the way it's supposed to represent this unfitting paradise that's just a little bit wrong and a little too perfect and the way that perfection grates at you when you start to notice it. i love the metaphor of paradise being uncomfortable because of all the trauma and grief and fighting that preceded it. rly reminds me of how hard it is irl to adjust to happiness and love and comfort after being abused and hurt for so long 😩😩😩

don't even ask me where the bro drinks hibiki hc came from but it's something i carried over from the brorose pornverse because ~consistency~

nothing to say besides being proud of this LOL

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man i have such a love/hate relationship with writing dave dialogue and by that i mean i hate it cuz i never think it's enough LMFAO. i envy anyone who can adopt homestuckian humor and wit easily because i can Not. like i try my best but just know every second i gotta write this idiot talking i'm screaming in agony and bleeding out my ass about it internally JHKFGS

wonder if i'd feel differently if his dialogue was in the pesterchum fonts tho...

CRAZY how much i like that better HAHAHFGKSDFG

one day i'll do a fic where the dialogue is done like the epilogues but until then i suffer and die every time i have to use proper grammar for dave's speech, anyway,

ANYWAY john being a terrible parent is one of the sexiest things that has ever been done with his character i'm so thankful for it godjskfgsdfg and i love thinking about dave's misplaced guilt on the matter. "You want to be on your best friend's side for this, sure, bristling with the instinct to defend him, but you can't commit to it. The sad kid in front of you, put out and missing his father's love, that's who has all your sympathy right now." dave being unable to keep from projecting onto harry from the start, unable to keep from instantly empathizing with the child's point of view in this scenario (partially because he can't unsee himself as anything but an abused child even despite his growing age) and immediately feeling himself distancing emotionally from john at the thought that he could be anything like bro as a guardian.

it's actually a shame i didn't rly get a chance to elaborate on this further because i think there's a lot of fun to be had with thinking about dave's reactions to john's parenting from this point on, like... GOD. when john tried to kidnap tavvy as a kid???????????? feel like that's a fucking GOLD mine of possibly triggering ammo against dave's psyche goddamnit

if harry didn't change the subject here, he would have started bashing john for his drinking habits and canon tendency to traumadump on him while drunk HJSKFG he's made harry incredibly uncomfortable more than a few times doing this and i think it's definitely made an impression on him, but harry decides not to because he doesn't want to do the same thing to dave. he also doesn't want to remind dave that they're doing anything 'bad' here

writing shit like this into a story rly is just for the purpose of practicing interiority in characterization hehe. i feel like it's also a side effect from writing for theatre, trying to mimic as many naturalistic structures of dialogue as possible. fun to fit in tangents that just never really get answered or directly referred to

THE WAY THERE WAS NO ROOM TO TALK ABOUT DAVEJADE FAILED MARRIAGE BUT GOD I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT DAVEJADE FAILED MARRIAGE SO BAAAAAAAD tfw you spend all your free time hanging out with teenagers to avoid having sex with your loving wife

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this part of the fic is fun because originally this idea came from a discord convo

and it is SO FUCKING FUN to write prose around someone else's dialogue and thoughts 10/10 will recommend

it's especially fun too because all of dave's thoughts and dialogue from around this point on is mostly outlined by my friend, so it was so fun getting to work their insights and characterization into my own interpretation of his character

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the build-up where dave and harry start snuggling drives me fucking crazy every time like every time i reread this bit i'm always biting on my knuckles and screaming goddamnit goddamnit dirty wrong awful intimacy that suddenly overwhelms you and crushes you and you don't even notice the way you're dissociating from your every action but you aRE

originally this paragraph was also supposed to have a davejade mention but i just couldn't figure out how to make the thought flow well with everything else. originally there was supposed to be something about the way he always shrinks away from jade's touches, how they always make him feel worse and feel colder than he did before she'd tried, but yeah... didnt fit... and ultimately i think the fic is stronger as is. jade being an afterthought that only vaguely gets talked around feels very ic for candy dave anyway HJGFK and rly everything that he feels towards her is more just a side effect of everything he's suffered by bro's hands. no need to focus on his discomfort about jade when his discomfort about harry is more than enough

that being said every time i remember everything i had to omit i WAAAAAAIL

"Syrup clogs your throat. Your throat burns dully, your tongue feeling heavy with that leftover numbing weight of sugar and liquor." lines i cant reread without rly badly craving booze

literally the biggest challenge of this fic was the fact that its secretly a johndave/daveroxy/daverose fic HAHAHGFJG like trying to balance the fact that one of dave's biggest driving forces when it comes to his attraction to harry is that he's just been hosting a million and one ultimately unrequited crushes all his life that he's now projecting forward and trying to showcase that without drawing tOOOOOOOO much attention away from the other main driving force (brodirk and the incest fetish he'd instilled in him)... so sooo hard to balance but i like to think i did a decent job

'let him escape this feeling like he might still be a good person' is such a fucking good line/thought/sentiment that i'm so upset i had no room for cuz it's so good HJGKFSGS who knows maybe one day i'll be able to figure out a way to squeeeeeeze it into an edit cuz god knows i still tweak this and all my fics every now and then

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i love this part... go off past ricky... do find it funny tho that i was ~vibing~ so hard with the prose that i forgot dave's canon ages just a tad HAHA shhhh

these are some of my favorite kisses i've ever written goddamnit

literally the funniest and most inspiring words my writing partner has ever said like LEGEND... it was this phrase specifically that made me drop everything and start writing this fic cuz i KNEW i needed to slap that onto the summary pls JGKLFSG

(Did you ever have a chance? Did he?)

i feel obligated to speak on this line because it's like. one of the huge major themes of the fic HJSKDFGSFG the inevitability of dave continuing a cycle that he's been trying to avoid. really, what can i say, though. this fic follows a timeline that's alluded to but still has yet to be written out (and who knows if i ever actually will write it out, i'm kinda just updating this fic series based on impulses) where dave moves on to project all his trauma with bro onto dirk after they win the game. i love the thought of them trying their best to keep up the brother routine before dave's need to retraumatize himself and dirk's own fucked up inclinations results in them becoming sexually involved. like, honestly, i could go on forever about dirkdave and the ways they make each other better and worse but yeah. the second dave gave into that self destructive urge, he was done. and it's something that bled into his marriage, that bled into his inability to rly engage with karkat, that fed on his ability to be his own person and work on his own recovery. dirk died and the universe went stagnant and with it, dave's ability to grow out of the mold he was forced into by bro

so yeah. he's already at this huge disadvantage. and while this fic focuses on dave's perspective, there's a lot to be said about harry's mindset as well. the way he's egging this on, the way he's encouraging it, the way he's trying to poke into any sort of vulnerability that dave may or may not have. the way he wouldnt quite have the words to pinpoint and identify shit like emotional incest or grooming but he can see that there's something wrong and exciting about what they're doing that he wants to take part in. being set up to failure because of john's neglect, already thinking he's more mature than he is because of it, perhaps knowing just a bit too much about romance and sex because of whatever weirdass confessions about his own relationships john had unwittingly given him. not to mention his feelings for dave and the way he makes him feel like they're equals and the way he gets attention and affection freely from him without really having to fuss and fight for it like he does with vrissy.

so yeah. these two were doomed from the start 😌💙

'That saccharine sear of shame that washes over you then only makes it worse. You can’t fucking believe you’re popping a boner ten seconds into a make-out session.'

so like, i wrote this before getting deep into the show succession and thank god cuz this def would have turned into a ramble about how dave probably was completely unable to get it up during sex with jade. that absolutely was the case because i like to think that dave really is just hardwired into having rly bad sexual hang-ups where his body is just so conditioned to react to a lack of consent and boundaries and an abundance of incest but now thanks to my intimate knowledge of roman roy i also know now that dave occasionally (frequently) has rly bad erectile dysfunction in the face of anything '''healthy'''. thanks a lot succ

this isn't where the wordplay starts but it's where a good amount of it is HJGKFG i feel like 'bro' is a silly word to use in big deep serious prose sometimes HAHAH so my reluctance to use it here is part of why this wordplay started but the other reason is because i have a BIG stylistic thing(tm) about playing with pronouns and names and what omitting them can do for the narrative. blurring bro and dirk by refusing to name them but letting their actions speak for which splinter is being referred to was a very fun experiment (though, perhaps less successful than other iterations of mine where i did this same sort of pronoun play... OH WELL they cant all be perfect)

mentally dave switches from aggressor to aggressor. this possessive need to destroy harry starts to bleed in, inspired by bro and what he'd done to dave and what he'd taught him of sexuality and domination. a part of him resists that, reminding him of the terrifying impact of it all, the horror of initiating and acting on a fucked up desire, and then he switches to dirk, projecting that forward instead. dirk, who he is currently choosing to see more as a victim, who was just trying to help dave as he pushed and pushed at him. it's simultaneously a moment where he can start to blame harry just a little bit about what's happening instead of himself (because harry keeps pushing, he keeps begging to do this, he thinks it's what he wants and dave is just helping him because he doesn't feel he has a choice) and it's a moment where he finally puts himself in dirk's shoes and realizes (fears) that maybe dirk didn't want this as much as he might have acted. that dirk had likely gone through a similar internal conflict that started to kill him inside.

'Jade tries, but something about her touch disgusted you.' IT WAS SUCH A STRUGGLE TO FINALLY MENTION HER LMFAOHSDJFKG such a relief... altho the line after this one rly kicked my ass i could not figure it out for the longest time hjskdfgsg jadey i love you im so sorry

this was an interesting divulgence from the original thought:

which i couldnt rly fit in especially with how balls deep we're into dave's thoughts at the moment but i love it

this line is so stupid HAHAJFGSFG its so funny to me. its a shoutout to me realizing halfway through the initial outline that they're actually half brothers instead of JUST uncle/nephew AND it's a reference to this specific incest joke in the epilogues

(the way harry is there to witness this moment and also say the word incest right after dave... a ship made for mE)

i love this sequence so much i'm so proud of it like FUCK

some of my friends have started to use this line as a copypasta now and it cracks me the FUCK up every time they do HJSKFDGSDF

generally, whenever i write stream of consciousness fics, i'm always building up and waiting for the moment where the stream suddenly goes off track. there's always gonna be a super fun part where i get to just ramble out a bunch of run-on sentences and hopefully even format them in a fun absolutely-inspired-by-poetry way. and i can't stress enough how fucking SATISFYING it is to get there and have it come out (almost) exactly how you thought it would whee

THOUGHTS THAT GOT LOST BUT GOD HARRY CRACKS ME UP... and i love that part of john's personality... and i love the way it unknowingly grates on dave hjsdfg he definitely has a very clear image of victimhood and the way harry doesn't fit into that mold drives him fucking crazy.

one of my favorite parts of dave's unreliable narration, him projecting onto dirk because of his own guilt. it's the only way he can really bring himself to admit that, in that moment, after everything he's done, he's immediately feeling suicidal and bereft with his guilt on the whole situation.

i mention this in a comment as well but i love to think about ult dirk and dirk's internal corruption of his own character. i think it's a fun chicken or the egg scenario, trying to decide if dirk was still himself when he allowed dave to seduce him into this, if dirk's guilt helped guide him into his eventual instability, or if that instability is what lead to him acting on his incestuous urges. did his actions lead to him being labeled a villain, or did he decide to prove his villainy by lashing out?

and it is VERY fun to have this be something dave had done, knowing that in the future, he will be guided into his own metaphorical and literal suicide, abandoning a life he's more than ready to run away from =u= and the cycle continues nyehehe

final thoughts that may or may not be used in a future fic (i'm the black):

what the hell is wrong with harry in d e e d... stares at john

#fic: eat your young #fandom: homestuck #director's commentary #meta

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idv-hc-center · 3 years

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Andrew smut hcs,,, please

fuck yeah it's Andrew smut time

Finally, I can share so many of my thoughts like andrew has so much smut potential

also i rly wrote almost 1k words of smut headcanons uhhh

warnings: nsfw, mention of breeding kink, mention of praise kink, multiple references to religion, hinted discrimination it's only in one sentence tho and its only hinted

I have a lot to say

Before meeting you, he had like no experience in this type of stuff

To be honest, he knows little to nothing about it, mostly because of his upbringing

No one really told him much about sex, except that it's a horrible sin and it's only here for "reproduction" purposes

(but he was also made to believe no one would want to "reproduce" with him, so in his case, it's just a sin, and he could forget about forgiveness from God)

He is convinced those thoughts and urges are sinful, and they only prove how much of a freak he is

but oh boy, you make him horny as fuck

Years of being pent up caused him to get aroused by literally anything you do

You could be just hugging when he suddenly gets hard because he got to touch more of your skin than usual

and he feels so ashamed, as he tries to hide his erection

Thankfully his clothes easily can cover this accident

But Andrew is horrible at acting, and you always notice his nervousness

And it's pretty easy to assume why he acted like that, feeling something hard pressed against your back

At the begging of your relationship, he never talked about sex, so you just assumed he wasn't interested in this type of stuff, and you were okay with that

However, after some time, you found out the real reason he never talked about it

He was just too ashamed to ask you for anything, and well, you took advantage of that

You loved the sight of him drowning in embarrassment as he tried to hide his "excitement"

Although you liked to torment him, it was kind of sad to see him being so uneducated

You had to have this big conversation about how it was okay for him to feel this type of way and how he shouldn't think of himself as some sort of a freak

This made him feel at ease. He was so scared you would call him disgusting when he admitted that you aroused him, but he was pleasantly surprised when you said it was fine with you

The first time you had sex, you had to do most of the work, basically riding him as Andrew almost passed out from the pleasure

Even though you had to do ninety percent of the work, you were satisfied with the whole thing, as Andrew turned out to be really decent in size

Not only in length but also in girth

To be honest, you never expected this from him as you gawked at his size

"Andrew...I don't think it will fit..."

"Huh?"

Andrew just sat there embarrassed and confused

(he really didn't realize how gifted he was and how generous God had to be while creating him)

(i mean it would be a sin to waste something like that)

(have fun)

Since he doesn't have much experience, he always tries to make sure you are satisfied

If he isn't so sure, he will just perform oral on you for hours

I mean literally hours

He has some oral fixation, and he just loves to please you with his head in between your legs

He loves to hear your moans as he grips on the soft skin on your thighs

Andrew often gets lost in this activity and does it for much longer than he thought

As much as he loves the sight of you basically gaging on his length, he doesn't like to be the only person receiving pleasure, so if you want to give him head, he will only agree if he can do the same to you at the same time

Even though, now you have a pretty much normal sex life, he still gets aroused as easily, as before

And he doesn't like to take care of it alone

but unfortunately, he is still too scared to ask you for anything

so more than once a week, he ends up grinding against you trying to communicate what he wants

And it's such a pleasure to see him being desperate for you to touch him in any way

You make him use his words, but he is just whining, not being able to say anything

You always end up giving in because come on, look at him

Also, he loves cockwarming

Like it's so intimate, but it isn't that sinful

He likes to sit with you with his length inside you after a long day

just enjoying this moment and your intimacy

Also *cough cough* breeding kink *cough cough*

He doesn't feel himself being worthy of breeding you, but on the other hand, he really wants to (whether you can actually be bred or not)

He loves the sight of his cum dripping down your legs

the sight of you, being tarnished by it brings him over the edge every time

Like he sees that and is immediately ready for another round

It also feeds his (pretty small) ego

And, of course, praise kink

He just needs someone to tell him he did well

and well, if you told him that he is also immediately ready for another round

He wants to please you to the best of his abilities, but he is really insecure about it since he is so inexperienced

So if you told him he actually did a good job

he would melt

please...just call him a good boy

But ignoring all the kinky stuff, he can be really vanilla too!

Whispering how much he loves you and leaving kisses around your body

Nothing too crazy, just two of you enjoying this intimate moment

and just showing how much you love each other

#identity v #idv #identity v x you #identity v imagines #identity v headcanons #identity v x reader #idv x reader #idv headcanons #andrew x reader #andrew idv #andrew kreiss x reader #andrew kreiss #gravekeeper idv #grave keeper identity v

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i-just-like-goats · 2 years

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The Midoriya with the Akutagawa reader was so good!

Is it alright if I request for a part 2?

So it's hero internships and reader trains Rashoumon with (any Pro Hero you like) and learns how to defend with Rashoumon? e.g. eating space and air with it, Demonic Armour etc. And then she uses the techniques during a fight with the villains and Midoriya sees it and is rly proud of her

Fun Fact: Akutagawa refers to Rashoumon as a female :))

Ahhh thank you anon! Sorry this took some time lol, I realised when I was almost finished with writing, that I was writing about Hero Studies and not the Internships😅which is why this took a little while lol. I actually didn't know that Akutagawa refers to Rashoumon as female, thanks for that! Hope you enjoy reading and thank you for the request!

Midoriya x Female Akutagawa Reader

Summary: in the ask

Warnings: brief scenes of violence

WC: 1k

Main Masterlist Part 1

"Hey, you said Rashoumon is completely flexible and can take any shape right?"

You nodded. This was your third day at your internship with Fat Gum. He was a kind superhero and still smiled at you in spite of your curt replies.

Your patrols with Fat Gum had mostly consisted of you destroying things and Fat Gum protecting you because truth be told, you were completely vulnerable to attacks. You had immense potential and could become one of the top heroes if you could master your quirk, which was why he took you aside to focus on you.

"Then you can definitely use her for defense as well as offense. Try it now,"

Rashoumon emerged from your coat. You stared pointedly at her, willing her to form a shield.

"I'm going to see how strong it is by punching it. You don't mind, do you?"

You shook your head.

"Still a woman of few words I see,"

He punched the shield that Rashoumon created. It dissipated after a few seconds.

"Still weak, but not bad for a first try. That was my strongest punch, so I'm surprised that you didn't even stumble,"

You nodded again and went off to practise forming a shield adding more power to it with each formation.

"I can't let Midoriya surpass me,"

That evening, you approached Fat Gum.

"Let's go again. I think I've mastered it,"

"Oh really? Well let's give it another shot shall we?"

He sent another particularly long punch at Rashoumon. This time, Rashoumon stayed intact.

"Whoa, that was quick! Well done!"

"Let's go patrol then,"

You stalked off feeling proud of your mastery. Rashoumon formed in front of you quickly as you noticed from your peripheral that someone was running to punch you.

"Always punches," You sighed, "Can't people use something else?"

The thought of your boyfriend mainly using punches as his form of attack made you keep your mouth shut for the rest of the patrol.

"L/N! We need you over here!"

You ran quickly to where Fat Gum was.

"Nomu?"

You used Rashoumon to pierced through its body in all directions as it leaped towards you. Debris fell above you. You quickly retracted Rashoumon's tendrils from the Nomu to create your shield, which was just Rashoumon devouring space. The air above Rashoumon warped and distorted as she devoured space to protect you.

The rest of your body had been left vulnerable, so when a body collided with yours, you had no time to react to form a shield.

Rashoumon wrapped a tendril around the nearest lamp post, preventing you from falling and allowing the other person to fall face first into the ground rather than your body.

A green head lifted its head with a groan.

"Midoriya?"

"Hello to you too my love,"

"Why did you bump into me?"

"Well I was trying to be your hero and move you out of the way from the falling debris, but you had it handled with your new shield,"

"I learned to utilise her for defense just like you said,"

"I'm so p-"

A nomu cut him off by yanking the lamp post you were clinging onto out of the ground. Rashoumon's tendrils grounded you.

"We'll talk later, yeah?"

"I'll see you later!"

Midoriya ran off in a different direction. Endeavour wrapped his hands around the nomu's head and burned it.

"Thank you sir,"

He nodded and ran off. You watched Todoroki run off in the direction that Midoriya went in, but stopped yourself from following at the sound of your name being called.

Fat Gum checked you over searching for any injuries.

"I didn't know that I left you to deal with a nomu by yourself. I got distracted by the other nomu. You're not hurt are you?"

"No injuries. Rashoumon protected me with her shield,"

"Endeavour said that there was a signal for help, we should check it out,"

You and Fat Gum ran to an almost empty street, where you found Iida, Todoroki and Midoriya. With a sigh of relief, you smiled at Midoriya.

Your face dropped when a nomu snatched him up. To your surprise, Stain the hero killer saved your boyfriend from the nomu.

The next morning, you awoke early to get to the hospital. Visiting hours were brief but you wanted to use any time you could get to talk to Midoriya. You missed him.

The nurse led you into the hospital room. As soon as she opened the door, you ran to engulf Midoriya in your arms.

"I was so worried when you ran off. I'm so glad you're ok,"

"If it weren't for Todoroki, we would've been dead,"

He looked over your shoulder with a smile. You lifted your head. Your cheeks reddened at the realisation that Iida and Todoroki were in the same room. You straightened your back and simply sat at the edge of Midoriya's hospital bed.

"I didn't get to finish my sentence, but I'm proud of you. I didn't think that you would take my rambling to heart, but you surpassed whatever I was thinking of,"

"Well, I do want to be a pro, of course I need to be proficient in offense and defense. You opened my eyes, I can't save people by just destroying things,"

Pouting, you were saddened by the fact that you couldn't openly show your affection since two of your classmates were in the same room. Midolriay laughed at your frustrated expression. He stroked your hair softly with a smile.

Your annoyed expression faded and held Midoriya's hand in yours against your cheek. You both relaxed.

The door opened to reveal a person with a dog's head.

"I apologise Miss, but could you kindly step out for a few minutes?"

You scrunched your face at the interruption but left the room with a quick peck on Midoriya's cheeks. He blushed deeply at the action. The others coughed awkwardly.

You smiled playfully at their awkward expressions. You would continue to improve and Midoriya would be by your side cheering you along the way. That was enough to satisfy you.

#izuku midoryia x you #izuku midoriya fluff #midoriya izuku x you #midoriya fluff #midoriya izuku x reader #midoriya x reader #izuku x y/n #izuku x reader #izuku midoriya x you #bnha x reader #deku x fem!reader #deku x reader #mha x y/n #mha x reader

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meltwonu · 4 years

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| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 | [CHAPTER 15]

pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader

this chapter’s notes; camshow, softdom!seungcheol, blowjob, cum swallowing, restraints/blindfold, daddy!kink, dirty talk, v little hair pulling, orgasm control, squirting, sex toys 😗💕 hope y’all are having a good weekend! As you can see, with this chapter comes the decided amount of chapters 😭 which means! cherry bomb ends on jan. 1st! 😭😭😭 I’m sad about it but!! excited to start the new year with some new projects too!! and I promise it won't be the last of this au either (I'll upload and talk abt a new schedule when it gets closer to time)💕💕 Thank you, as always, for your support with Cherry Bomb and I’m glad some of us have had pavlovian responses when we hear the term now LOOOL😩💕 Enjoy ch15 and have a great weekend! see u tomorrow for the last intro post! 💕🍒

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Seungcheol takes it as a blessing that he doesn’t work on the weekends.

You do your camshow on Friday and upload prerecorded content on Saturday which leaves two whole days of relaxation that the two of you enjoy.

But Monday comes quicker than you anticipate and Seungcheol drops you off to work before he heads back to the roller rink; ignoring the multitudes of texts it seems Jeongguk is sending.

I’ll be at work in 30 minutes, he thinks.

“I’ll be back to pick you up after work, baby!”

You nod back, blowing Seungcheol a kiss through the window before you turn to leave.

Seungcheol’s phone rings 3 more times, brows furrowed.

‘It can wait.’

“Hyung, we’re in trouble… Maybe?”

Jeongguk’s big puppy eyes stare back at the older male and he can already feel the blood draining from his face at the potential reasons that the younger male would even say that. “Um… is---is this pertaining to why you tried calling like 14 times?” Jeongguk nods, tugging on Seungcheol’s shirt and pulling him in closer.

“Before you say anything… Namjoon-hyung didn’t find out, did he?”

“Find out about what?”

“That I… cam… I don’t want to get fired because I--”

Jeongguk rolls his eyes, “Listen, I’m gonna be real, I don’t think he cares. The problem is… remember that dude that came in? A couple weeks ago. Lookin’ for a job.”

Seungcheol nods slowly; trying to remember the male’s name. “Seok--something, right?” Jeongguk nods.

“Apparently, he came back, and at the right time too. Namjoon hired his ass on the spot and he starts tomorrow. I heard from Seokjin.” Confusion crosses Seungcheol’s features as he stares and waits for Jeongguk to continue. “... And? How is that trouble for us?”

Jeongguk lets out an over dramatic sigh, hands on Seungcheol’s shoulders. “Nevermind, I forgot you’re making bank on those videos. I was gonna say, we might get a pay cut! Or maybe Joon-hyung’s trying to replace us but I guess that’s not a ‘you’ problem.”

Seungcheol laughs under his breath, shaking his head before patting Jeongguk’s hands.

“You’ll be okay. I don’t think anyone is coming for your concession stand job.”

The next day when Seungcheol makes it to work, he can’t help but have a weird feeling in his gut.

Much like the time when he first met Jun, there’s an indescribable feeling bubbling up in his body that he can’t seem to shake off once he arrives at the roller rink and the sight of Jeongguk with the new employee doesn’t help to settle the feeling at all.

Just before he can make his escape, the younger male waves him over; a cheery smile plastered on his face when Seungcheol starts walking over.

“Hyung! It’s the new employee!”

So much for panicking about being replaced, Jeongguk.

Seungcheol smiles at the other male, introducing himself swiftly before extending a hand to shake. “Ah! I remember you! I’m Seokmin! I’m the same age as Jeongguk!” Seungcheol’s lips part as he nods in understanding; that had been why Jeongguk seemed so okay with it all of a sudden.

Seokmin’s eyes form crescents when he smiles and Seungcheol takes a second to do a once over of the other male; noting the pins tacked to his denim jacket. His eyes hone in on a specific one, narrowing once he realized what it was.

It’d been a while ago now, but when you’d hit 5k subscribers to your camming channel, you had made only three of the same pin, which you had raffled and only gave to three winners.

By nature, Seungcheol was one of them, and the other two were ‘xcaliburDK’ and ‘gentleman_josh95’. Seungcheol could deduce from usernames alone that this wasn’t ‘Josh’ so it only left one option left; albeit Seokmin didn’t add up to the username either.

“Hyung? Hyung, are you okay? You’re spacing out.” Jeongguk waves a hand in the elder’s face as Seungcheol shakes himself from his thoughts.

He’d just have to figure it out later.

Although, he can already feel the groan spilling from his lips.

Why was everyone popping up now?

When he picks you up from work, later that afternoon, he can already tell something is off about you too.

You slink into the passenger’s seat of his car, quiet and a little jittery. “You okay? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.” He comments, watching as you fumble with the seatbelt.

“Yeah it’s just… Can we talk about it when we get home? I think I’m still recovering from the weird experience I had earlier.”

Nodding, Seungcheol reaches over, placing his palm in yours in a means of comforting you; even just a little.

“Guess we both have had weird days, huh?”

You can’t thank Seungcheol enough for how patient he is.

He doesn’t say a word in the car and lets you have your quiet, cool down time before you get home.

But when the lock slides into place and you finally plop down onto the bed, you know it’s finally time to have the talk that you knew was brewing.

“I met another one of my regulars at the diner today.” You mumble; beating Seungcheol to the punch of him asking.

“Weird, I think I ran into one of your regulars at the roller rink today too. He works there now, by the way.”

The two of you share an awkward laugh as Seungcheol lays down next to you; neither of you bothering to change out of your outside clothes as you bask in the oddly similar occurrences. “Wouldn’t happen to be ‘universe_WZ’ would it? He came by the diner earlier, ‘just passing through town’ he said. It was so weird though, y’know? Him and Jun kinda got along ‘cause apparently they’re born in the same year.” You smile at the memory, despite how odd it was at first. “He was quiet and Jun is very much not. I think he bailed earlier than he wanted ‘cause his ear was getting talked off. But he asked me for an autograph on the way out and some old lady stared at me. It was just… a little weird.”

Seungcheol laughs; somewhat glad that your experience hadn’t been as bad as he was expecting.

“How ‘bout you, ‘Cheol? What was that about him working with you?”

The male groans, sliding a hand down his features. “It was… somethin’ else.” You turn on your side to face him, raising a brow.

“Couldn’t be that bad, could it?”

Seungcheol laughs, but only in the way he knows that the next words out of his mouth will sound ridiculous, even to you.

“I’m not going to say who it is because I don’t want you to be extra weirded out. He’s an okay guy, very diligent about his work. But let’s just say I caught a glimpse of his wallpaper, which was you by the way. And when I asked him, ‘hey, is that your girlfriend?’, the fucker lied and said yes!”

It takes a second before you’re letting out a boisterous laugh; tears springing to your eyes at the hilarious encounter Seungcheol had experienced.

“You’re not mad!?” He comments, eyes wide as saucers as he watches you curl up in laughter. “I thought you’d be mad!” You wipe a tear from your eye, catching your breath before you turn back to Seungcheol who watches you in confusion.

“No way, that’s fuckin’ hilarious! And let’s be real, probably not the first time someone’s lied about me being their girlfriend, right? But I--he doesn’t know, does he? That you’re… y’know, ‘dom.cheol’?” Seungcheol blushes, cheeks blooming a pale pink when he thinks about it.

Would his voice be enough to give it away?

“I don’t… know? He didn’t say anything but neither did I, honestly. It was just… weird. And now I work with him so that’ll be fun. Can’t wait for him to tell me how cute his girlfriend is.” He grumbles.

“Awww, is widdol Swungcheol jealous?” You blink cutely back at him; a teasing smirk on your lips when you see him narrowing his eyes back at you.

“Watch it, brat. You know I can punish you at any time, right?”

“Try me, then~”

Seungcheol mentally logs into his brain and waits until your Wednesday show before he makes a move.

He brings his favorite silk ties from his closet and places them on the bed while you get changed; a sly smirk on his face.

“‘Okay, ‘Cheol I’m--whoa.” You bite your lip when you step out and see the array of ties and the vibrator already sitting on the bed. “Um… I take it that these are part of the show tonight?” You end with a shy giggle; body already warm at the way Seungcheol looks at you.

“Mmhmm. For the ‘lil jealous comment you made. What was it that you said? ‘Try me, then’?” He grins in a way that you know you’re screwed and you saunter up to him in hopes of maybe pacifying him a little.

“Too late to say that I take it back?”

“Waaaay too late, baby. Now, let’s get started.”

chwenon has donated $50

sleepy_wonu has donated $100

artist8hao has donated $75

artist8hao: she’s so pretty with her hands tied behind her back like that

angelhan: shibari next time???

universe_WZ: she’d be so pretty all tied up

universe_WZ: rly nice seeing u btw ;)

therealchan99: where tf are all of u seeing her!?!?? I need to go out more im lackin bro

alphagyu97: its the way u walk into every set up for me

Seungcheol chuckles under his breath, reading the comments with his hand tangled in your hair and your arms tied behind your back as you work your mouth up and down on his cock.

Before the show had even started, he had quickly rearranged the setup so that the camera was angled down towards the space in front of the bed instead of where it usually faced which was on top of the bed. You were a little confused at first when he had nodded and told you to start your camshow from the rug placed underneath you but it soon made sense when he had tied your arms behind your back and made you suck him off with your knees digging into the rug and a silk tie tied into a bow around your eyes to prevent you from seeing.

“Shibari, huh? Ooh, wouldn’t it be a treat for your viewers if you did a show where you were all tied up? I’d have to start it for you, or maybe they’d like to watch the process and see how quickly I can get you to fall apart.” Seungcheol pauses; hips canting up slightly into your mouth as you swallow and gag around him. “We can make it an extra long camshow… Maybe a pay-per-view situation. They can watch you squirm and cum all night long while I keep a vibrator pressed against your clit until your cute body is trembling.”

Your eyes roll to the back of your head even if Seungcheol can’t see it and you moan around his cock when you feel him throbbing in your mouth.

The sound of donations and comments is all you can go off of with your back towards the camera and your vision taken away; noting that the viewers must’ve liked the idea.

j__min has donated $150

j__min: popping in to say if u need help buying ropes, i know a guy ;)

alphagyu97: wait is this rly happening

alphagyu97: i’ll clear my schedule gentleman_josh95: yea same

xcaliburDK: i just started a new job i cant have any sick days plz… at least reupload it for me 😭😭

Seungcheol smirks when he reads that particular comment; fingertips massaging your skull when he hears you whining. “I know, baby. You wanna be fucked, huh? It isn’t nice being teased, right? So now you know how I feel~” In a blink of an eye, ‘xcaliburDK’s comment is buried and Seungcheol is thankful that you didn’t see it. He’d just have to keep it a secret for now while he played along and listened to what else Seokmin had to say about his so-called ‘girlfriend’.

You rub your thighs together; already feeling the slickness on them from how wet you already were and how long you’d been teasing and sucking his cock.

“Fuck, I could cum down your pretty ‘lil throat and then make you work for my cock. Drag your punishment out even longer than your viewers would see.” You moan around his cock in response and Seungcheol can only take it as a whiny ‘no’ before he’s pulling you off of him by the hair; soft sputters and coughs spilling from your wet lips as you catch your breath.

“But I think you’ve earned your orgasm, hmm? What do you say, princess?”

Your throat feels hoarse and your body feel obscenely hot at the way Seungcheol doesn’t seem to want to take off your restraints just yet. “Y-yes, daddy I--I want to c-cum… pl--please.”

tangerine_kwan: ahhh shes so cute

tangerine_kwan: petition for baby pink ties next time i think they suit her

sleepy_wonu: if that shibari show is happening, yes

“We’ll talk about it later, although I don’t think she’ll be opposed to it~” You furrow your brows; wondering what Seungcheok was referring to.

You’d ask later.

“D-daddy…?”

Seungcheol tugs you slightly by your hair, urging you up as you slowly stand on shaky legs. You let him take the reins as he unties your arms and repositions you until you’re bent over the edge of the bed; left leg folded atop the bedsheets while your right leg keeps you upright. He keeps your blindfold on but lets you keep your arms loose; which you find out fairly quickly, is for good reason.

The buzzing of the vibrator makes you bite your bottom lip and soon enough, Seungcheol places the toy in your clammy hand.

“You’re gonna slide your hand under your body and keep that vibrator pressed against your clit while I fuck you. And you’re not allowed to cum unless I say so. Am I understood, baby?” You feel Seungcheol teasing you as he slides his cock through your soaking folds before circling the tip around your entrance.

“I expect a response when I ask you a question, sweetheart.”

“Y--yes, daddy, I--ah!”

Seungcheol grins as he slides his cock into your tight cunt; watching as you slowly sandwich your arm between your body and the bed sheets to place the vibrator against your clit. You cry out, a mess of sharp whines and jumbled words spilling off your lips with the combination of Seungcheol’s thrusts and the vibrations on your clit.

“Ngh, d--daddy! Fuck me m-more!”

Your other hand digs into the sheets, fingers tight around the fabric as Seungcheol fucks you from behind. He knows your body like the back of his hand and he quickly already has you on the verge of an orgasm despite only having started fucking you, moments prior.

“Don’t cum, princess~” Teasingly, he alternates from quick snaps of his hips that have his cock slamming into your g-spot to slow thrusts that have you remembering every groove and vein of his cock when he pulls out. And when he fucks you like this, it’s easy to forget the camera was even on and that people were watching; if not for the constant pinging of comments and donations that mix in with your moans, Seungcheol’s harsh breaths and the sound of the vibrator against your clit.

hoshi_tiger_xx: hmm but shes obv being punished and we all kno good girls dont get creampies

therealchan99: ur right,,, where should he cum then?

kitty_junjun: my votes on her tits

kitty_junjun has donated $75

sleepy_wonu: maybe all over her back and then post the pics in the private room

xcaliburDK: or raffle them!! I want them

chwenon: ooo cum in her mouth but dont let her swallow

chwenon: then u can raffle those pics or sth

Neither you nor Seungcheol are even paying attention to the comments that fly past on the screen and the only thing Seungcheol even turns slightly for, is to check to make sure he’s still properly out of frame.

He can already feel you tightening up around him and with the vibrator on your clit, he knows for a fact you won’t last much longer before you’re cumming.

“Hmm, princess, I can feel you getting so tight around me. Bet you wanna cum already, huh?”

“D-daddy, I dunno, ah, how--how much longer I can h-hold off…” You mumble; already feeling the tension in your body ready to snap at any second.

“Be a good girl. I said you earned your orgasm but you need to be patient.” You nod to the best of your ability; head feeling heavy and fuzzy as you try to stave off your orgasm for a little longer. “Y--yes, daddy…” He slows down his thrusts in order to help you a little and the soft praises that fall from his lips have the warmth blooming in your chest.

But it doesn’t last long because despite Seungcheol’s valiant efforts, you’re already too close to cumming to stop yourself when you feel the pressure building up too fast.

“Oh, d-daddy, I---I can’t, I---I can’t, I have, ah, to---to c-cum! Fuh--fuck, ‘m s--sorry!”

Seungcheol can’t even manage a word in before he feels his cock being forced out of your pussy and the wetness that squirts all over his cock and lower half. Loud cries and whines are all you can manage in the thrums of pleasure and the grip you have on the vibrator only tightens as you grind against the toy to ride out your high.

Seungcheol takes the time to wrap a hand around his cock as he strokes himself; body turned halfway towards the laptop to see what everyone was saying.

hoshi_tiger_xx: uh ohhh pretty baby came without permission

hoshi_tiger_xx has donated $50

hoshi_tiger_xx: donation for squirting tho

alphagyu97: ugh look at her cute lil hole begging to be filled up

angelhan: bet she’s feeling empty rn huh

Your soft mewls have Seungcheol turning back to face you; eyes trained on your twitching body when the pleasure starts to ebb away and the overstimulation from the vibrator starts to bite. “Daddy… the---the, mmh, toy…”

“You can turn it off, sweetheart.” His tone is clipped and you already know you’re in for it once you manage to find the switch on the silicone toy. You turn it off and slide your hand from underneath you; palms flat against the sheets as you sniffle.

“I--I’m really s-sorry, I--I couldn’t--”

“I want you on your knees again, princess.”

Nodding shakily, you ease your bent leg down as you maneuver yourself onto your knees; hands already searching for Seungcheol before you hear his small ‘ah, ah, ah’s. “Hands behind your back and tongue out, baby.” You follow his orders as you clasp your hands behind your back and diligently open your mouth and stick your tongue out as far as you can.

He brings his cock towards your face, tapping his cock head against your tongue before he starts to jerk himself off over your mouth and face. “I gotta hand it to you, princess. At least you apologized.” Seungcheol laughs under his breath, “But next time though? I won’t even let you have my cock.”

You whimper in return, brows furrowed under the silk tie.

“Fuck, ‘m gonna cum all over this pretty face.” His grip on his cock tightens and he thrusts into his palm quicker as he chases his high. “Don’t worry. I’ll take pretty pictures of your cum stained face.”

Seungcheol groans as he feels the coil in his body snapping and not a second later do you feel warm rivulets of cum hitting your cheeks and your tongue. Some of it manages to catch on the silk tie as you moan. The donations and comments pour in like water as Seungcheol continues to cover your face in cum and for the umpteeth time, you’re reassured that this was a path that worked out for you.

It was so silly that you’d thought of quitting camming earlier.

Although, you never brought it up to Seungcheol.

In actuality, there were quite a few things that you’d never brought up to Seungcheol.

“Fuck…” He mutters from above you and it’s enough to bring you out of your thoughts as you hold still. Seungcheol takes the hint, using a sticky cum covered hand to reach for his phone to snap pictures of you; he’d just clean it up later.

“Say cheese~” He laughs, taking a couple photos before tossing his phone onto the bed as you draw your tongue back into your mouth and swallow down the warm salty substance that managed to hit your tongue.

Seungcheol helps you up from the floor, pouting when he sees how red your knees have gotten. “Hmm, think I need to take care of my princess after this.” He helps take your blindfold off and you’re quick to blink the fogginess away as you try to focus on Seungcheol’s face before peering over to the laptop’s screen.

Your cheeks burn hot at the cum that still stains your cheeks when you see yourself but the comments that flood in calling you pretty make you giggle.

“Ooookay. I think daddy is gonna get all cleaned up and I’ll wrap up here?” You check in with Seungcheol, who shoots you a nod and a small thumbs up before slinking completely out of the camera’s view.

“Okay guys, now what were you all talking about while I was on my knees?”

You get out of the shower feeling refreshed; tossing on a loose shirt before skipping out of the bathroom.

Seungcheol is cozied up on the sofa, waiting on the food that the two of you had ordered right after you ended your show. “‘Cheollie~” He turns to you as you plop down next to him and he’s quick to wrap an arm around your shoulders as he tugs you into his side.

“Feeling better?”

“Mmhmm~ A ‘lil sleepy but I can go for that food and then sleep.”

The two of you share a laugh, eyes focused on the movie that plays on the TV. “Say…” You start, “Someone asked a good question in the comments after you stepped out.” You gulp; palms a little clammy.

You just had to know.

“Yeah? Was it about the shibari camshow again?”

“No, actually…” You take a deep breath, telling yourself it’d be okay regardless of what he said.

“Seungcheol, am I your girlfriend?”

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mikkouille · 3 years

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Time to give my perfect correct opinions on the entire teaser drop yes i am watching every single one I dONT care.

watchin em all in order they were on the channel when i popped in on laptop (which was different from the order on mobile this lunch break? sure whatever)

first is The Three Gentlebros which I would call ball so much as hollow, I like family dramas but this one seemed a bit shallow from trailer alone, in a way where I don’t know how’d they make the premice much engaging as a full content with what’s given there. Then, with the one and a half set and general poor production quality, I’m assuming this may be very early conception draft? Who knows. I don’t think I’d be interested in watching it, maybe if it was a short film, then it’d wear it’s plot well, cause as a show or even feature length I feel there’s too little. I think there is something powerful in it though in a way it has me completely disinterested despite having both Gun and Tay there like? Congrats on having absolutely nothing to you to the point of overdoing my loyalties.

Next UMG which def has some potential, the concept and vibes the trailer offer are fun, and I do like some spooky SF. They also have a good aesthetic package in a trailer, so that’s one I’ll look out for when they expand on it later. If it takes a good direction (I kinda want to see the “weird town” be more developed, see more of it and its people though that may be quite of a big request there, the teaser was very limited in cast but I think a great athmosphere would rely on the entire area being part of the vibe, rather than the strong isolation we see so far -then again, concept teaser, and if anything, the fact that I’m projecting things I’d like to see is proof I’m a bit invested in that one). I can also foresee it go terribly, because the genre isn’t something I’ve seen much from the company? And isn’t the easiest to pull off either (I mean the last sequence shows how, as soon as you want to show some supernatural, you better pack up some budget to make it credible. The feet......I shan’t say.) This one will depend on the extended teaser thus, if they develop it nicely it could be fun, but it could also be a shitshow. So who knows? Will keep my eyes open.

Now for Star and Sky or is it star in my mind? sky in your heart? what’s the title whats the subtitle. I think the most important is that I did not expect that bitch to talk like that, ok the mandatory comment has been said, moving on. There’s not much to say, it’s quite typical romance etc etc, formulatic uni students secret mutual pining etc etc... The kind that I kinda will forget immediatly, but depending on timing and mood and if the first few eps aren’t a snoozefest of terrible writing/pace/editing/etc, I could get into it to pass time. Or I could just completely forget it exists by the time it airs. Oh wait there’s mutliple stories in there ok. One’s dramatic one’s goofier it seems well I equally care about both I’d say. They both also strike an unexplainable sense of deja vu wonder what that is wonder what its about...(EDIT from me later on on the post I don’t think I”d watch it actually given I had forgotten the very simple name of it after just a few more teasers and had to go all the way back...and then i dont remember exactly what was up so do I care actually I think not)

Next Home School and damn yall rly don’t like schools huh. I don’t think they even want to avoid the comparison when tehy reprise so much of the cast but someone tell them they’ll never have another Gifted like. If they turn it into full horror that doesnt lose too much of its tension to repetitive teasing of a mystery and make it mostly tense and dangerous, I could be hello into it tho, but to trust they won’t drag a story at all, it’s a bit too much faith. I do have to say at least the trailer is well crafted, so maybe they should keep the same editor and it’ll be fine (i say that in knowledge that editing a show and a trailer is two different skills i kno. i kno. still tho.) cause next to Some Other Teasers, it didn’t feel so agonisingly long. Twas fine twas fine. Once again, I’m not closing my eyes, keeping it in mind, it doesnt feel fresh exactly but it also doesn’t reek of disaster for now. Could be fun if they don’t shy away from cheesy full horror moviesque show.

Cupid’s last wish is huh. Something. Got me invested in the cute lil farm life like yea yea send these two to the countryside again I don’t mind. And then it just??? What is happening??? It’s punches after punches, first turning it into big dramatic family kerfuffle and then the one of the jhhfhs bodyswap??? I think this concept is best represented in it’s nature of absolute rollercoaster by the jump from fighting and struggling against the docs to?? they are holding each other??? Ok???? what is going on?? most baffling teaser so far I am absolutely at loss for words it’s like they knew anything Earthmix would still pull in the view so they just threw in their passion project of completely bonkers plot made of every idea without any judgement of whether or not itd work. Would watch if the second teaser is even more messy because I do love a mess that really delves deep into being a dumpster fire.

I get to watch stuff I wouldn’t even glance at for the sake of completion, so lets go with mh, Oops! Mr. Superstar Hit on Me, which I’d have a hard time judging fairly given I’d have skipped it in any other circumstances. ITs very wattpad romcom which I can get into but I wouldn’t trust gmmtv wwith my life to pull it off, though the vibe of the comedy bits we got here n there were fine, I just don’t really trust a genuine romance build idk, not like I care much anyway sdhdhds. so not like i have much thoughts to give

Once more, My Dear Donovan certainly will exist I suppose. And I will not exist in the same area I suppose. This one didn’t even have the hints of fun banter Mr Superstar did, instead this is just eh. Very typical boring ol romance with the usual tropes and unlikeable main man. At least the narration’s self awareness tells me they know they’re just making a show, doesn’t make it better but well. Love the shit green screen tho.

The Warp Effect has a lesbian in it. It also has the world’s stupidest plot. Fact is don’t side eye me but was that a movie with the same plot and characters I may watch it, in a post-good way. But as a show? I don’t have that sort of time to dedicate to it. Need to say though that “there will be a natural disaster everytime you have sex until you fix these people’s sex lives” is a sentence I’ve heard now, and I’m fine with it.

My reviews were getting shorter so thankfully The Eclipse comes in and I do have stuff to say, first of all ANOTHER EVIL SCHOOL? I don’t mind. Also this one I remember watching partly at lunch and wondering, huh, this is multiple shows. What is this about? And then The Mutuals said the same so glad the confusion is shared. Is this horror? Is this enemies to lovers rom com? Is this action? Is this mystery? Is this supernatural? Conspiracies, homoerotic fights, school gangs, time travel... I guess there’s everything in here. And that’s not something I mind I’d say, in a teaser, all at once, it sure is a lot, especially because they went with “lets compartiment it in genre subsections” basically, it could work though, if they balance it well, I am into genre fusion kind of movies, in shows that are given much longer air time? I can trust it in the abstract sense. Now to see how it evolves. Bit confused but not too afraid, I’m allowing the door to be open ajar. Though feeling it’ll either be fine, or a shitshow, but if its the later, I also feel itll be easy to tell from the get-go, if they manage to merge the genres and introduce the plot well, then it’s only at risk of the usual filler and overstretch, but if they don’t it’s usually evident quite quickly so, not afraid.

Good Old Days isn’t exactly my type of stuff, not so much getting bad vibes as just ‘not for me’ vibes. Seems cute etc etc...But would probably kind of bore me if the teaser’s anything to go by. Kind of another one that I feel is probs best suited for movie form but oh well.

Never Let Me Go 👁👁 could be fun could be fun...why did my text go up though....girl help how do I get down Ok ok this is a “please be good please be good”, cause I do loooooooooove LoveVSduty, big drama in the family, crime etc etc they did pull the Tropes, the correct ones, and the teaser was engaging!! interesting, a nice little flavour in here, good moments etc so I’m like, maintain that for a whole show and I’ll be the audience. I mean you know it’s good if I watch it a second time just becuase I lost 5 seconds of attention to my text deciding to fly up. How short I’m making this doesn’t convey my interest properly but know I’m mostly sparked by spite so it’s good that I have little to say except “I like what I see so far”. When the coeur hits, lil teaching to shoot gun, touch heart and falls asleep, dance on bridge togehter etc etc...n then the big drama orchestra of being in danger and struggles and mhmhmhmh ye they understand me. Don’t fuck this one up actually this isnt a “please be good” its a “if you dont maintain this i’ll bitch about it for a hot while”.

Once more, 10 years ticket is one I wonder about, in how it’d maintain its story as entertaining over what, 12 episodes? But maybe not to the extent of the others, as there is elements of mystery planted, so I’m a bit more curious about that one. I did loooove the lil confessionalish prison visitor faceoff sets, of the families one by one in front of the lil miss who “killed” someone, assuming there’s more there, and if they utilise the mechanic well it’d be great cuz I do am into heavy face to face dramatic dialog, there was a quantity of it there, keep that going. This is one that I could get into if they balance drama and mustery properly (tho I feel its def more intended to be more skewed towards tearjerking drama, I’m projecting what I want to see ok), and depending on how they build the characters, so this is kind of, needs to see it to know I guess. Hoping for a shorter span of eps on that one I feel it’d do it justice. I’m also saying that now but that’s the kind of content I need to be In The Moude for so idk man. Not necessarily on the watchout but it could work on me under special circumstances.

You Fight, and I Love. Hehe, boobies. Not to be a mysoginist but wish it didnt have a girl and was instead a sports anime. As a sort of romcom I kinda don’t care I want to see dudes throw hands as the main plot. Not uncute though, but def not to the extent I’d watch it bc I’d just spend the whole time like “this could have been about the highs and lows of boxing with the homies...”

Aight heading to the Midnight Series I do have to say, all of em share a great production as far as trailers show, like visually auditorily etc etc vibely if u wish, that’s fun n all. When it comes to story and specificities now,

That’s just because it had become my entire brain for a hot moment, but Midnight Motel, at a glance, when it threw it’s actual premise, only launched me into “HUH. Budget extracurricular without the mental illness??” so on those terms why would I watch, but it def has a more goofy feel, less of a social commentary one, and in fact, aside from the very basic premice of “youth do crime through specifically a sex work app”, there’s nothing of ressemblance, mainly, the mental illness comes from me and I’ve accepted the allegiance of my brain to a former show so now I’ll have to be the guy who goes “getting a lot of boss baby vibes from this” at any thing I see. Ngl I’d watch it though. If the production of the final product matches the one of the teaser, and its energy, I could be hella into it. So hey. There is some good news in there. But I don’t think I’m rallying to a crowd of enthusiast this is more of a “this ticks of some niche boxes of me”, I think the core premice can be a turn off? Idk it seems wacky in a good way to me. Nods Nods I’ll think about it.

Then uh. Moonlight Ch...Chicken...Has a certain title. Earthmix are EMPLOYED that’s certain. Good for them. Def not against it, they do work well together, and some vibes served there def Pique My Interests or something. I’m not exactly entirely in love either though, from teaser alone. I feel I need to see more to make an entire opinion Oh nvm I saw sign that’s the joker card to make me watch shit <3 but like it seems easy to enjoy, simply uncertain itd be a fave. And kinda fun and unexpected that I’d be more hyped about Motel than the gay romance/drama but HEY sometimes a bitch is full of surprises (it’s not so surprising actually, I know my taste. This was rigged by those character title cards in Motel. why am i talking about it on the Chicken review...oh no...I’ve got it bad...)

And at last Dirty Laundry, seems stupid in a way I could get into. Nanon in drag. Sure sure. Maybe out of the three the one I care about less because I’m hardly convinced at a glance by thai comedies, usually the movies and shows that aren’t comedy centric are funnier somehow, but I think that’s a bit of a constant about comedies in general ngl...In this case I saw potentials of jokes but not rly much of the ones they showed off landing. So well. But yea out of the three most likely to be forgotten by me by the time it airs sorryyyyy <3

How many body swaps did they put in this roster fdgdfsds...While I couldn’t care about in in Cupid’s last wish, Vice Versa seems to have a bit more of a potential, in how they defined the body swap. Another case of “well I can stay looking out for this one”, I think it seems pretty fun, and the trailer itself since to give enough to make a show out of (love stories, getting adjusted to the other body, the struggle of making connections that only exist there and not wanting to go back etc etc there’s potential there’s potential, there’s sustenance). So hey. Not bad. I can get behind that. Please be good you seem fun if you are.

Absolutely epic blood fx right at the start of PS I hate you, which, with the rest of the overall vibe, could sell something fun in the most trashy way. If they go 100% with it, making it as shamelessly over the top as they can, we can reach campy girlboss murder movie territory and that IS something I can get behind, but I want this to be a murder fest then. I want these girls to go apeshit. If they get just a bit shy with the concept and try to make it serious it’ll suck, but if they know to keep it light hearted then it’s a masterpiece to me. But then I’m talking from the perspective of a bad tv soap enjoyer.

Nothing against a fair and simple romcom, thus I have nothing against My School President. She doesn’t exactly spark up any love at first sight in me either though, in a way where I’ve seen her before, but she’s still a sustainable meal. The pasta of TV in a way. So once again, that’s one dependant on pace and vibe, and on timing of Me. Though in between this one and the one mentioned before with that final remark (star and sky?) had I to watch ONE I’d pick this one, she manages a better balance of light hearted and drama, and something fun>>>>>smth else when it comes to seeing reheated food. Maybe she could even pull out a VERY fun second final trailer which will make me go “actually I underestimated it i can get into it.”

Devil Sister ...exists IG. I’d rank it in “it exists and I’ll forget it does once the teaser is finished” which is sad win is still very pretty but alas u_u I’m running out of stamina there but also it’s very inoffensive n the premice is simple n cute, so I kinda wish I was into it but unfortunately they decided they couldnt just do typical they had to also make it boring, too bad too bad.

Get You’re my favourite going just to go “aaaah so THIS is the kristmike thing I’ve heard about mhmhmhm”. And more timetravel??? They had something for fantasy, but VERY specific fantasy this year. Travel in time or exchange bodies. Nothing More. Ok but also the concept here quite fun like dsjfdsds or at least I’d say teh Reveal, yea yea that’s fun. Having to look over my Krist bias but I SUPPOSE. I don’t have anything against this. Hurts to say nearly but i could be into it. I want to be a hater but they do do me dirty with some tropes and vibes so if you see me getting into it no you don’t. Like I can envision going “oh this moment of the plot prolly gonna hit oh this could be fun” so well. Time to be fair I suppose *through gritted teeth*

And the last one if I didn’t miss anyone, Astrophile, didn’t expect it to be a love triangle or smth. Funnily I’m not against hte vibes, if the whole thing’s lowkey and chill like that I could see myself watching not in a “following it” way but as a neat lil late evening unwinding while doing my duolingoes moment. Or maybe it’s just the soundtrack that grabbed with with that? I don’t know, I like a chill understated romance moment. Even when its a love tr*angle main story. Maybe they’ll be powerful and pull a trouple (no they wont but a bitch can imagine, I can always remake the story in my head if the plan’s to semi watch it just for relawing bg noise).

I’m too lazy to make a ranking cuz it’s late n I haven’t fetched my daily quest rewards on my mobile games so like. Still, as a recap:

So far things I’m lookin forward to would be The Eclipse, Never Let Me Go, Midnight Motel,

and I’m still keeping an eye out for UMG, Home School, Motel Chicken and Vice Versa.

May also, in secret, get into PS I hate you and You’re my favourite. But that’ll be a surprise. May or May Not. No One Shall Know.

And may be, if the vibe is right, watch 10 years ticket, Dirty Laundry, My School President and Astrophile. But those are absolutely conditional the the weather and the alignment of planets.

In fact I know there are way too many names there for the quantity of enthusiasm I felt during watching, and for the stamina I know I can dedicate to TV nowadays, so that’s a lot of names, I’ll prolly end up watching what, 5 of those? If I’m really hyped? Who knows. I think a lot will be dependant on their final trailer and first ep, some of these ones really gave barely anything of an idea of what it’d serve. So whatever that’s my revieeeeew and I’ll be sleeping with possibly no thought at all about any of this because outside of being seen with Never Let Me Go and it’s bodyguard moment, they rly saw me not engage with the channel this year and said “k then we’re removing you from the target audience and making bland stuff bye” so sorry guys its all my fault u_u

#keep #so that i can see next year what I was right about

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matoitech · 3 years

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for the ship thing and bc i saw it in a fanfic once: lucia/aina

i honestly kind of forgot about it as like a romantic possibility bcuz when it comes to promare f/f w existing characters i think ok so thyma didnt die (i know narratively she must but bear with me here) and then go for thymaina usually, while lucia if i put her w someone it could just b a char id make for her 2 b with (ive seen lucia/varys sometimes but p much everything w side chars r obscure), but rly my feelings on lucia/aina r 'nothing wrong with that!' but not much beyond that! lucia/aina is kind of interesting to consider bcuz their characters r so different and i dont think they rly interact much so id b curious to see it, esp as a focus of any kind cuz youd have to build for it and that would be fun... its DEFINITELY preferable to lucia/heris (lgbt heris is not a diversity win and i struggle to comprehend why there r ppl who think thats a good idea) tho i think ppl just do that bcuz heris is also a woman thats closer to lucias supposed age but still like damn make an oc heris is not the lgbt girlboss u want... also cuz i dont think i ever rly talked abt it b4 ill dedicate the next paragraph to expanding on the age thing :0

so this is totally my own reading n im just talking abt it cuz Opportunity To Promare Talk so take this as just a personal thing ive Thought about and potential sensitivity rather than saying like, i think these pairings r bad or smth, but just due to like how i read chars ages personally thinking of chars like lucia gueira n meis in their late 20s/early 30s (lucia prob late 20s) while chars like galo lio n aina r for sure in their early 20s thinking seriously abt any pairings mixing them was just smth i just never rly did, like there were other alternatives 2 me. like theyre all adults so whatever its just a thing ive thought about b4 ykwim. i dont like, see ppl draw lioguemeis and think oh thats weird :/ n ive joked abt galolucia b4 lol i just think 4 me they werent things i rly thought seriously abt cuz i like when chars ages r closer, that makes me more comfortable, AND on top of that i have the most investment in galo lio and ainas characters and relationships so there was never any like desire in me 2 think abt other ones!

i dont rly have strong opinions on lucia/aina tho! i see it and im like thats nice :) but i do usually think abt aina and lucias romantic prospects in terms of like.. if there was a promare sequel set 20 years in the future if they WERE married/had partners, they would likely have partners that were new character for that movie instead of pre existing ones, i think. theres not Rly enough focus or time on most characters relationships in promare to have rly good starting points for romances between most already existing characters. BUT LIKE I SAID. I LIKE IT AND ALL just dont think much abt it!

#ty! its kind of funny prmare pairings that arent galolio n guemeis r obscure. only the canon ones..#keymintt #fess replies

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bi-dazai · 3 years

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okay while we're on the subject of eating healthy and exercising, I want to vent/talk about weight loss. This is gonna be a rly controversial, very personal and extremely long post but I do want to make a point. I'm not going to discuss every fucking nuance of haes or my EDs. But for clarity, know that my eds are complicated and were mostly osfeds - minor anorexia osfed in high school and bed osfed when I was 18-19. after i realised how fat i was the minor anorexia came back and over the pandemic it became full scale anorexia nervosa.

I'm 5'3. The healthy weight range I should be in is in the high 40s-low 50s. I went up to TWICE that by the time I was just nineteen years old. It wasn't fun being fat. I consumed as much fat acceptance, fat activism content as I could, I pretended I was confident and happy even when I was fat. But I wasn't. Because people don't just get obese accidentally. A little overweight, yes. But obese? No. You get obese from depression, from giving up. You don't want to move so you don't. You're sad all the time, and the body positivity circles say eat comfort food, whatever and as much as it makes you feel better!! Do you know what that is? That's encouragement of BED. Do not say that. Because I did that. I ate sugar and junk food, I was still depressed.

I was reading these posts that were claiming fat people shouldn't be weighed at the doctor, that your weight shouldn't count, that BMI is incorrect and doesn't matter, etc etc. There were posts saying that they got "perfect bloodwork" (what even is that? I knew that was wrong, I've had chronic iron deficiency for a decade!) even though they were fat, so they had to be healthy, right? I got shown pictures of obese ballerinas and obese weightlifters blah blah blah. And I grew and grew, and I got to almost 85kg on the fast track to 100kg before reality smacked me in the face and I realised I was shortening my lifespan by decades.

Here's what it was like being obese!

- joint pain, constantly

- could barely walk anywhere without feeling out of breath

- couldn't find any fashionable, good quality clothes (plus size stores either carry unfashionable clothing, or fashionable but cheap quality clothing. I don't like to waste money on cheap clothes)

- more acne than I'd had in years

- oily skin

- more difficulty feeling "full"

- JOINT FUCKING PAIN

- rashes from skin rubbing against skin!

- even larger chest, making me MORE dysphoric

- back pain!!

- snoring - this is not just embarrassing. This is potentially deadly.

- DYSPHORIA

- KNEES. JOINT PAIN.

- DYSPHORIA

this was just things I felt physically, noticeably! The things that my fat was doing on the inside was even worse. Fat isn't just this layer of packing peanuts that appears on top of you. It coats your organs. It gets everywhere. It makes your entire body run worse.

Fat also makes it much more likely for you to not just GET cancer, but it it also makes it harder to FIGHT cancer. Being obese makes almost every single goddamn sickness on the planet worse because when you have THAT MUCH fat tissue the hormones and shit it secretes fucks EVERYTHING up.

Yes there are obese bodybuilders. Yes there are obese ballerinas. Let's talk about those two.

There are plenty of drs and dieticians who have pointed out the obvious - if an obese person was really, actually eating healthily and exercising every day, they would not stay obese forever. Its not magic, it's thermodynamics. CICO done right works for everyone. If you are eating healthy, appropriate portions for weight loss at your TDEE and exercising it would literally be IMPOSSIBLE for you not to lose weight!! Even more the heavier you are because when you exercise you carry around a lot more weight.

Obese weightlifters are still obese. They are not proof you can be obese and healthy. They are still going to die younger if they do not lose weight.

Let's talk about fat ballerinas. The only ones I've seen are trainee ballerinas, not professional ones. And their performance looks impressive at first, until you look closer. You notice their balance is never quite perfect, their control can be amazing and the best ever but they'll still be off. Why? Because fat moves around with your movement, and it displaces your balance and your line of movement. It's simply not possible to do something like ballet dancing as a fat person without risking major injury as well. En pointe is already stupid dangerous for the skinniest ballerina. Going en pointe at anything above 60kg is going to get progressively suckier the heavier you go. And god help your ankles because falling down will always end in a major injury.

I'm so fucking done with "fat acceptance". I'm tired of "body positivity" being a movement about obese middle-upper class white women and not about scars and disabilities etc like it was focused on in the start. I have no problems with Health at Every Size - every person should feel happy to workout, to eat healthy. I have no problem raising issue with people bullying others for their weight as well. That's wrong. But pretending that it's Healthy at Every Size is a fucking lie, and it's one that could've sentenced me to an early death. Healthy at Every Size said I was condemned to joint pain and oily skin and depression and exhaustion for the rest of my life based on cherrypicked sentences from studies that didn't agree with them. That "95% of diets fail" sentence in particular drives me up the wall. You don't need a diet to lose weight, you need healthy CICO, you need to eat below your TDEE, you need to eat healthy, and you need to exercise. All you have to do at first is go on a 10-20 minute walk, whatever pace you like, a few times a week.

You can BE fit, you CAN lose weight! You are not sentenced to having joint pain and an increased risk for cancer and a less effective COVID vaccine for life. You can change your body in incredibly ways. You have no idea what you are capable of.

There's this myth that weight loss takes keto and shakes and diet pills and crash diets etc. It doesn't. All it is is making sure you eat less than your TDEE, eating HEALTHY calories, and getting your heartrate up by exercising at least 175 minutes a week.

The human body is not meant to be obese. There's no such thing as a set point weight. There's CICO, there's nutrition, there's making sure your muscles dont atrophy. Weight loss and fitness isn't some magic thing that youre just born able to do. I was lazy throughout my entire teens. I thought fitness was something the popular girls did. It's not. It's for everyone. and everyone, especially in places with an obesity epidemic such as the US, UK, and Australia, should make use of it. It's a good thing. Walking is one of the best things you can do for your body, and it's incredibly rewarding in every way. Eating healthy and not eating until you feel like you're going to burst is rewarding in every way. And it's not like you can't ever have junk food again, you just have to limit it to a treat, a once or twice per week thing. And honestly, it makes it much more enjoyable that way.

Now I want to talk a little about my anorexia. My weight loss journey came to anorexia. This is because it was an eating disorder I'd had for a long time. I did not see a trainer or dietician, and I consciously decided to push myself too far. I consciously decide to eat less and exercise more when I am starving. This is not something that just happens because someone is eating at 1200cals. It happens because you have an eating disorder which you are born with. Saying people who eat 1200cals of healthy food a day and exercise right are "anorexic" is so fucking insulting to everyone involved. It's ableist and ignorant. 1200cals is also a pretty generous amount for anorexic ppl to eat. That's close to a binge in ED standards, so that should give you a reference for how offbase saying 1200cals is "anorexic" is.

My anorexia is healthy habits pushed into eating disorder territory. I eat healthy, yes, but I don't eat enough. I exercise, yes, but I often push myself too far when I'm already lacking energy. The advice I give people for health is correct, and I'm never going to go around saying "eat less than 1200cals" as weightloss advice. Eat less, sure, but there's a limit. Calorie counting is a good thing to do, tracking your macros and nutrients is good. But I do it too much.

I know what's healthy, a lot of ppl with restrictive and purgative EDs do. People with EDs can give some awesome health advice, we just can't follow it because we have a mental disorder. Believe it or not people with EDs discussing their EDs are not "pro-ana", pointing out that anorexia and people with anorexia are real and not some boogeyman you use to justify not losing weight and eating healthy is not pro-ana. Anorexia existing is not pro-ana and anorexics being anorexic has nothing to do with fatphobia.

this post is a rambling mess but i rly had to get some stuff clear on how I feel abt this stuff because it's getting concerning how much unhealthy shit, and then straight up ableist shit, that the fat acceptance crowd spews out.

A little exercise won't kill you, eating healthy won't kill you. You are not sentenced to ugly plus size fashion and joint pain and being out of breath for the rest of your life. Leave the Healthy at Every Size death cult and join the Health at Every Size movement. Let the doctor take your weight (it IS medically necessary). acknowledge that you are obese and it is affecting your health. It's scary but it can be the start of a new, healthy beginning. It was for me.

Losing 15kg has been the best thing in my life. Sure, the anorexia is there enjoying it for one reason. But the reason I truly enjoy it is because I've discovered what a healthier body feels like. I've discovered the joys of exercise, I've discovered the joys of eating healthy. I can fit nice clothes now. And I'm still overweight! I'm 66kg, that's 4kg away from the barest minimum acceptable healthy bmi. But I feel so so much better. I look better. I have a jawline! Good skin! Energy! It didn't fix me but it sure made me a hell of a lot better.

Please please try and eat healthy, eat an appropriate amount, go for walks. It's so so good, and if you do it right you WILL lose weight. You'll live past 50. You'll get to explore the world in a way you couldn't when going up stairs had you out of breath. You'll fit into that nice skirt you've been looking at. Your skin will clear up. You'll have energy and your mental health will improve.

It's so so fucking worth it to put effort into your health, like I cannot emphasise this enough. Please do it, I wish I could tell myself this when I was binging on junk because the FA crowd told me it was valid to comfort eat until I hurt.

#long post #this is mostly a vent but yeah #basically my decision is that im not touching any fat activism fatphobia etc with a ten foot pole #esp on this blog except to discuss my personal experience with it ie this post #personal #ok to rb #sorry for not putting it under a readmore im on mobile

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hello icha!!!!! learned from my mistakes and typed this out in a separate document. first i have to say im feeling a very deep connection with citron as of late bc i was giving myself a pep talk abt like physics and i told myself "face up and man the music!" and was like "...is that wrong. theres that song called man against the music isnt there... yeah it must be right" and. well i realized later. i also think the phrase "dont cry because it happened, smile because its over" is very good. also I’m halfway thru creating a very eclectic list of like. a Pokémon team for each a3 character which is… something. kinda knew it would happen to me. might take a while for me to finish it tho now that I’m halfway bc I’m suddenly having a crisis like “wait shit I’m only confident on my understanding and characterizing of like 4 characters am I good enough” so… it��s slow going lol. anyways. i finished that damn physics thing I was giving myself a pep talk about and so am treating myself to autumn/winter. happens that watching these events is also like. the only thing which reminds me to actually like. log into a3 lol. i am so bad at gacha games. probably a good thing in the long run. ok starting from the top!

hisoka going "zzz" as his reaction made me immediately go... oh dear, please dont fall asleep in the bath and guess what happened. yeah. good thing homare was there lol. speaking of i fucking adore homare and his poetry. id buy his collection. i also wish there was a collection like if there was a master list of every poem he says in like. at the very least main story. if not i will literally do it myself. i love homare so much im like him in that back when i had to play dodgeball id always be like kufufufu they cant hit me if im friendless enough that no one pays attention to me but like in my case it actually worked out. on the subject of the pillow fight tho, hisoka's crazy strong pillow fight throw... one more mark on the list for suspicious, maybe assassin occupation. this event made me realize how much i missed winter like. i saw the stranger pretty recently (which has caused the effect of be being like "taichi!! thats my boy!!" in my head everytime he shows up lol but anyways i havent gotten to a winter play yet so im VERY hype. especially bc this seems like it stars hisoka and homare??? like oh!! oh!!!! also detective fiction... im swooning. i also just enjoy the hisoka homare dynamic a whole fucking lot i think its nice how homare was like "yeah im ride or die for this funky lil amnesiac, why wouldnt you be?" and its just like. nice. feel like hes always reaching out to hisoka which is like. man homare is so nice.

back to chronology. ofc sakyo goes cheap for the hot springs lol. on brand as ever. was very hype for the azuma sakyo dynamic bc all i remember is like azuma trashing everyone including sakyo at some game or the other in one of the winter chapters and it was very good. or was this a clip in like a stage play? either way it was delightful. at first i misinterpreted taichi going "…" after azuma and sakyo said theyd never been on a field trip bc like. taichi being quiet or noncommunicative... after going thru autumn troupe act 1 it makes me fear for my life a little lol. anyways im glad he was just like planning fun times. speaking of taichi tho we got a tasuku taichi pair for etudes!!!! im not spoiling myself for later events but i hope to GOD tasuku and taichi do like a lead co lead in SOMETHING or at least like some mixed troupe event i want them to talk!!!

also dunno if this is an intentional pun but i enjoy that its called high spirits at the hot spring bc like oh theyre having fun but also bc like. "spirits" is used to refer to a certain type of alcohol i think? which is cool. dunno if its intentional but i liked that. anyways the talent show. taichis moving rendition of single ladies... ok i know it said single fellas but like. we know. wonder if that line was a different song in japanese? its not too old at ALL tho imo. anyways the way banri and juza being themselves Are the entertainment... flashback to when banri slaps juza live on stage instead of doing a stage slap lol. my reaction to azuma essentially went:

azuma: I can offer to bare my soul, and a little more ;)

izumi: what do u mean by that???

me: hey tasuku and omi were shirtless what's ur problem with azuma

anyways i reread and from what i understand they were maybe only flexing and doing a gun show? which like. no wonder it didnt last too long then lol. also explains why they didnt have shirtless sprites i suppose lmao. i am SO curious abt what azuma ended up doing tho that fade to black is so mysterious! did he tap dance? did he pole dance? the world will never know...

oh also im not like super familiar with azuma yet but my read on his personality is definitely like "I am so touch starved All The Time but I will be chill. :) :) this is fine :)" like he just seems to rly like being around people! just like basking in presence whether or not hes rly talking that much.

i enjoyed that juza mentioned pillow fighting with his lil brother... thats nice! i think a lot of this event was just focused on ppl having fun over the drama lol bc it got wrapped up sooo quick. i liked the bit where sakyos worried that izumi was out late searching for him tho it was so sweet. table tennis match was very fun although id argue calling hisoka and juza the two quietest tho lol like... banri exists so juza isnt quiet. just like inevitably. finally, the event cg!!! azumas hair tied up... so nice! thats how I tie my hair up sometimes tho it doesnt look nearly as nice lol. taichi rambling abt his first love for so long tho... lol. ill be honest i have to reread autumn bc i was not aware of this whole situation until it came up in the stranger and i like inferred from there. the end of this event was nice! it was cute. i dont rly have much thoughts on it but im so hype for the winter play

Hello:!!! so good to see you again, freshly learning from your mistakes then :3c

the connection with Citron is a BLAST to read about. I am glad that Citron is there, on your mind, supporting you at every turns of language. It's beautiful.

AND OH THE POKEMON LIST!!! thrilled to hear about it being a wip ongoing! take your time ofc and i hope you'll feel more confident as you go for your characters interpretation! i believe in you!

lmao i'm glad the events help you remember to play a3, i'm sure that by the time you'll be done with the events you will have unlocked so much of act 2 you won't have to worry too much about it. Anyway i'm glad you treat yourself to good things :3c

of course Hisoka fell asleep in the bath. tbh this event was a lot of "Hisoka almost dies in a spring house multiple times if it wasn't for his troupesmates". Between sleeping in the bath and almost swallowing the table tenis ball... where would we be without Winter, and especially Homare, taking care fo him.

I'm SO GLAD you like Homare that much! he's so so good! i'm sure there must be a masterlist somewhere, or well. can be done anytime i guess?? but yeah Homare is fantastic and LDJFDLKFJDF the evil plan to avoid dodgeball from both of you.. this is incredible DLKJFDLKF. But yeah alas he's loved by his own so he gets hit smh.

And yeah Hisoka is just acting sus huh.

BUT YEAH... YEAH... WINTER... BELOVED.... I feel regular and normal feelings for Winter as you know, s o .

(i'm so delighted that you feel that way about Taichi though, as he deserves!! what a good boy!!!)

But yeah Winter play next!!!!! i love the winter plays so much i hope you'll like it as well!! aND YEAH HISOKA AND HOMARE AS A DUO... for a DETECTIVE story?? so good.

I'm sO GLAD you like their dynamic! yeah i adore it too. Homare was so quick to leap into taking care of Hisoka? Like i mean he immediatly called him sleeping beauty when they first met, and immediately decided to be his roommates to watch over him, and then he did everything to take care of him and it's just so sweet. Homare has such a big heart he's so gentle with Hisoka. Homey and comfortable, whenever Hisoka admits it or not ahah.

ahah wouldn't be Sakyo if he didn't need to stay cheap. BUT YEAH the Sakyo/Azuma dynamic is pretty good. oh the event you talk about i think is in some of his very first backstage storyes (that you can read if you have them since they're at this point of the chronology). There's one where they play a mafia game and Sakyo is warry of Azuma because "people like him are those you need to worry about the most" and Azuma is just ":) you wound me :) i would never :)" and then Azuma wins the game and starts to mess with everyone. It was so fun. and yeah i see which clip you mean for the stage play!! it's so so fun they have such a neat dynamic and i loved to see it in this event as well.

and omg worrying about Taichi while he was just there preparing a fun time! this child really would have worried us all back then huh

but AHH YEAH TASUKU TAICHI.... It's such a neat dynamic! ofc i won't say anything but man i love the potential of their stories, as the two ex Godza boys. To see them bond and be comfortable with each other always make me so soft.

OH NICE CATCH FOR THE PUN! i think it must be the reason for it tbh, i love it! thanks for pointing it out!

The talent show was really fun yeah ahah! I wonder what it is in Japanese too but at least the localization was hella fun!

"anyways the way banri and juza being themselves Are the entertainment." THEY'RE SO SILLY I love them so much

AND LMAO YOUR REACTION AT AZUMA I LOVE IT. YEah i think Tasuku and Omi are just flexing (which is Still. SO FUNNY. Just there saying "our talents is.. our muscles...") meanwhile Azuma is like "my talent is that i'm crazy hot :)"

But YEAH Azuma... AZUMA WHAT DID YOU DO....

your read on Azuma's personality feels pretty spot on to me ahah omg. Staying with what you know about him, the fact that with his job and all, he seems like he's starving for connection while also terrified to make himself emotionally vulnerable. He loves staying with people, listening to them, caring for them, and he's touch starved as hell (i mean it's his job) but he doesn't seem to really know how to be on the receiving hand of affection. there's a flair talk, i can't remember where, with Omi at some point, where Azuma compliments him, and Omi is just "mhm.. but you know i think that it's more about you" and ends up complimenting Azuma in depth and it let Azuma dumbfounded because he didn't expect Omi to trick him at his own game, while Omi just genuinely don't get why Azuma is reacting that way. He gives he gives he gives, and he's genuinely happy with that, but he seems to have difficulties to take, or to demand for something, while also starving for it. I have so many emotions for Azuma.

Any mentions of Juza's little bro are the best things. I love this type of mention TwT

And yeah it was such a laid back event. Honestly deserved after the crying fest that was The Stranger imo. It's good to relax once in a while and it was nice to have them have fun. There was the bitterness of both Azuma and Sakyo's past that was always a bit looming but everyone was working so hard for them to enjoy themselves that the joy just overtake any sadness i loved it.

Sakyo worrying about Izumi is always adorable TwT

And yeah the Table Tennis match was so fun and chaotic LMAO. I love the dynamic between Juza and Hisoka. Just two usually quiet boys who like sweets. Except that yeah like you say, as long as Banri is around, Juza cannot be 100% quiet. Rip.

THE CG WAS SO PRETTY i loved seeing it. And omg you can share your hairtips with Azuma how nice :D Azuma manages to make everything look beautiful smh....

Oh yeah Taichi and his first love! if i recall he mentions it quickly at the begining, that Yuki reminds him of his first love, and he says that again at some point - then the fake Portrait he does he mentions his first love again. And since then it's been a reccuring topic so yeh :3c

but yeah! this event was really sweet and laid back, not much to say about it, but it was nice to have it at all!

Hope you'll like the winter play :3c

Take care and thank you again for your thoughts <33 i love reading them!! bless you!!

#ichafantalks a3 #sonnets of beauty #ichareply

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