#ive been rewatching it bc i know it can fix me

[berrysquared]

[hotchs-big-hands]

Sorry for being being an active lately I finally got to move out of my mom's house into my new apartment so ive been a busy bee and have been rewatching criminal minds and i still stand by the fact the the easiest and simplest solution to haley constantly bitching about feeling like a single mom os to hire a fucking babysitter and get a fucking job you useless lady. (sorry but it will never not piss me off to hear The Unemployed One bully someone into quitting their job like her ass isnt lovingliving off their income like a hobosexual)

i hope youve been feeing alright 💖 my body is FEELING all those boxes i lugged up the stairs so today is r&r day for me. i will be playing the sims 4 finally for the first time in like 6 months 🥲 might fuck up some creepies on the craft o' mine.

ALSO can we agree that aaron is always a vampire for halloween and he loves biting on your neck and shoulders with those fuck ass fangs in bc he can tell how hot it makes you

Oh wow first of all congratulations on moving out into your own place!!! That's so so cool!!

And honestly yeah I mean like girl doesn't have friends or sumn? Do something !! Shoulda go divorced instead of having a child like you know it's game over when they try resorting to having a kid to fix a marriage. Tbh they both in the wrong for that move honestly.

Ooohhh I hope you're starting to feel better after all that unpacking! Gaming is deffo the best remedy tbh.

YES LITERALLY I BELIEVE IT. IN MY HEAD HE WOULD ALWAYS BE A VAMPIRE FOR HALLOWEEN. AND HE IS SUCH A MENACE ABOUT IT WITH YOU 🫣🫣🫣 you gonna have bitemarks EVERYWHERE

[olberic]

anime ive watched in 2022, ranked least to most favourite:

12: overlord (2015-)

(this show doesnt deserve a gif)

listen. its a bad show. anyone who tells you is good is marvelpilled to see action=good. the world setup and characters had a lot of potential in season 1, but with each season it got progressively worse. the show spends a lot of time developing side characters, and then kills them off just to show how strong the protagonist is. said protagonist goes through little to no character development over 4 entire seasons. even the action and fights arent well done theyre just fights. everything’s a curbstomp and it sucks. idk man even fic cant fix this one.

11: tales of phantasia (2004)

pros: seeing the characters animated instead of in little pixeled sprites. cons: everything else. its a bad adaptation.

10: chainsaw man (2022-)

this one’s also not for me! i think its a really good show, between the pacing, interpersonal relationships, and animation (plus a different ending per ep is god tier). but it makes me feel bad to watch and not even in a cathartic way.

9: spy x family (2022-)

its a fun show! the animation’s great and its funny. but it doesnt stand out to me as much as its hyped. definitely recommend, but doesnt compare to my other faves.

8. black butler (2008)

the story? WACK. the characters? WACK. made me laugh though and it was really fun to watch as like, something id only heard about back in middle school. would not recommend but i had fun watching it. plus, its one of the few shows (ok first seasons) that actively keeps its word and doesnt try to pull a deus ex to save the protag at the end. we need more of this.

7. the case study of vanitas (2022-)

the way this show deals with unreliable narrators and complex interpersonal relationships and still manages to have incredible worldbuilding… the characters are all so well done and i NEED to have more of it animated.

6. demon slayer (entertainment district arc) (2022-)

i dont care what anyone says i love this show. best quality animation of the decade. super compelling cast of characters. i watched the rest of the show last year, but this one gets included bc its new and it made me rewatch the entire show twice. that fight at the end had me truly speechless

4. komi cant communicate (2021-)

i laughed until i cried several times while watching this and that alone puts any show near the top for me

3. fabiniku (2022-)

see above. every ep had me in tears. best ending song of the year (hiii most played song). plus its gender.

2. mairimashita! iruma-kun (2019-)

life changing show. to me. like i dont even know what to say about it. character designs rule. op/ed AND musical songs are good. first anime to make me pick up its manga in a literal decade. theres nonbinary characters. its an isekai. every character makes me go :D when they come up on screen. 11/10

1. mob psycho 100 (2016-2022)

show of all time TRULY. nothing i can add that hasnt been lauded on here before. soundtrack, animation, character designs, writing, attention to detail, humour, it has EVERYTHING. has a (new) favourite character of anything ever (ritsu). ive rewatched it three times in 3 months (incredibly high praise from me)

[luwukass]

lukes favs! december 2023!

ignore that this is 4 days late

music (according to my spotify stats, in order of most to least streamed average top 10) songs: castles crumbling, all of the girls you´ve loved before, dear reader, cowboy like me, evermore, it´s time to go, hoax, say don´t go, you´re losing me and karma albums: evermore, 1989 (taylors version), folklore, speak now (taylors version), red (taylors version), midnights, lover, fearless (taylors version), reputation and debut artists: as i said last month bc i listen to a lot of taylor the other stats can be changed if i listen to the artist like twice so this month im only including the relevant ones. taylor swift, olivia rodrigo and troye sivan

media podcasts: podcasts were the same as last month and the one before!(please let me know if you have any podcast recs) if you need a reminder they were gals and goblins which is a dnd podcast im really enjoying and swiftlit made by tumblrs own @kingofmyborrowedheart the taylor swift podcast thats deep dives into taylors lyrics! shows: i watched more tv this month!! nex and i finally finished watching loki s2 and we are fully caught up on the boys! been watching a lot of dr who i was on vacation so im not super far into it yet but im loving it so far! i continued watching castlevania with my bf! and on my own ive been watching the disney+ percy jackson series which is so good so far and im finally getting back to watching bobs burgers! i also watch the scott pilgrim show with my gf. movies: okay i watched a LOT of movies this month so get ready. hereditary, the menu, the eras tour film (3 times already), all fo the planet of the apes movies, the mitchels vs the machines, home alone, home alone 2. rewatched the hunger games movies again and finally saw the prequel, la la land, ponyo, kikis delivery service and howls moving castle. comics: i didnt read any comics oops books: read a few chapters of percy jackson 2 and started rereading the hunger games books! games: i yet again played a bunch of minecraft, i also did some jackbox game nights with my polycule and i fixed lethal company !!! it works on my laptop now and it is SO much fun, i also played some powerwash sim and sticky business bc the dlc just came out! and i played a bunch of hades on my switch!!! as always lmk if yall have any suggestions for anything!! im really trying to branch out with stuff so dont be afraid to send an ask!

also if you started following me this month im trying to make this a monthly thing so here are my november favs!

[cosmic-abysss]

okay so this was meant to be posted at the end of the year but ive realized that im incapable of not changing my status all the time so it's a long list..anyways bc its august (aka me month who cheered??) i figured i would do this half :DD so without further ado...

a list of my discord statuses of 2023 ^-^ :

a quiet alcove in a ginormous library can actually be something so personal <33

i think im falling back into my anime and manga obsession.. i will be crying <3

kusakabe maron deserves the world <33 loml behind gumbi

heart time heart time!! 💕 💓 <333 iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou <-youve been hit with my gay love beam ^-^

the road to happiness is paved, with rows and rows OF VERY TEMPTING PARKING SPACES!!! CMWYL 24HR LOCKDOWN!!! ABSOLUTE FIRE <33

💙💜♡ its love day!!! no one is safe from my gay love beam >:) get loved idiot youre important to me <333 ^-^ im very happy

huh. 3 years already, how time flies...

i hate having a reasonable sleep schedule >:( why cant i stay up until 4am and then wake up at like 8 without wanting to die

i wanna get a tattoo so bad this is fucked up

i get the hype now, i really do, yes i know this makes me a clown im just accepting it

get fucked im embracing the cringe and im going to live!!

fiction is starting to give me too many unrealistic expectations to pepper into my daydreams

um okay yeah im starting to get the hype about it all now

<3 hehehe ^-^  💜💙

oh cat & dog by TXT my beloved <33

doing hot bitch shit <-rewatching mianite for the 3rd time

i need to go to a live concert,,,, it would fix me i think <3

yellow yaks winners pov!!!! gumi is absolutely slaying!!!

i have so many tabs open and theyre not even fun+interesting ones >:((

RAAAAAAAHHHH i survived my first college semester holy shit!!!!

screaming... screeching even,,,

oh kyo souma how i wish you were real <3 ......my favorite lil guy :3

WU&IO OUT NOW HOLY SHIT!!! oh lovejoy my beloved you only release bangers <33

what if i just cried about minecraft again,, what then???

going to the beach would fix me in an instant

cyan coyotes are going to win today as a pride present for me specifically <3

i deserve to be unreserved about my music obsessions and thats what im going to do ^-^

spider punk and gwen stacy how i love you,,, damn a good pride month fr,,,

step one of becoming a passenger princess complete... now i just need to become someone thats trusted with the aux

slay pussy queen girlboss cunt server <-finished an amigurumi project

peak of my hot girl summer rn, devastating effects on my social battery though

i had forgotten the joys of creating things, its nice to know it again

[defendglobe]

Free character of choice :)

NICE! im gonna go with data startrek bc ive been rewatching TNG lately.

favorite thing about them: his weird little quirks. like not using contractions, listing off a ton of synonyms when talking, his love for sherlock holmes, the way he babies his cat, the stupid hat he wears when the crew plays poker, etc. and also just how artistic he is (he's constantly painting, he plays violin, and writes poetry)

least favorite thing about them: i get that he was written as detached and unemotional but my god. he's WAY too calm when people are being bigoted to his face. i wish he had the chance to say "you know what? the way people treat me is incredibly fucked up and i do not deserve this" at least once.

favorite line: "the starfleet officers who first activated me on omicron theta told me I was an android. nothing more than a sophisticated machine with human form. however, i realized that if i was simply a machine, i could never be anything else. i could never grow beyond my programming. i found that difficult to accept, so i chose to believe that i was a person, that I had the potential to be more than a collection of circuits and subprocessors"

brOTP: really data and the entire enterprise-D crew. but to pick just one duo, i'll say data and deanna.

OTP: data/geordi. fellas, is it gay to have trouble in romantic relationships with women because you "have a hard time being yourself" while being practically joined at the hip with your dude best friend? i love how geordi accepts data just as he is and data trusts him enough to let him do maintenance/repairs on him. also its so fucking funny that they roleplay sherlock holmes together.

nOTP: every now and then i see data shipped with maddox or kivas fajo (both characters who viewed data as just an object with no autonomy and one of which was physically violent with him) and im like. can we Not do that.

random headcanon: i've seen a lot of people headcanon that the emotion chip is just a placebo/just allows data to label the feelings he already has but my headcanon is a bit different. i like to think the chip was created with the assumption that data was completely incapable of emotion without it. but since he clearly does have SOMETHING going on, it wreaks havoc on his systems and takes every emotion to its extreme. which is why he's so emotionally out of control in generations. by the later TNG movies he seems a lot more like himself, so geordi probably figured out what was going on and found a way to fix it.

unpopular opinion: when data talks about "wanting to be human," he doesn't actually mean he wishes he was human (Q offers to make him human twice and he immediately says no fuckin way). he really means like. wanting to be loved and accepted, to be treated as "normal," and to be part of a family. but since he doesn't quite know how to articulate that, he just says he wants to be human instead.

song i associate with them: we talk like machines - savoir adore

favorite picture of them: look at this shit. this show is fucking insane.

[chasingfictions]

1, 14, 21!

1. favorite fic you wrote this year

ooh ok i think it's still we don't make it out of this house alive :)) like,, ok all my spike and spuffy fics r SO near and dear to my heart but this!!!! miss tara maclay!!!! i just :)))) writing the development of her relationship with her mom was so Much to me and also i really do stand by the narrative structure of this fic,,, like chapter 5 -> chapter 6 continuum 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

14. a fic you didn’t expect to write

sfdkdsjflds literally the ENTIRE series of don't know how to stick around but i wanna like,, okay for one thing ive never even been much of a faith person? like i didnt dislike her as a character but she never Hit me that much and also??? literally ats isnt a good show the i Dont Like It and Dont Want to Rewrite it but i was watching Sanctuary bc i was Succumbing To Emotions during my btvs rewatch of "this years girl" / "who are you" and suddenly it was like.... okay faith DESERVES more first of all like her story cant just STOP and also carceral logic is GROSS and also ur literally just gonna??? deny her the ability to build a family life and realize she's a lesbian???????? and THEN it's like,,, ok well im not gonna rewrite ats :)) im just gonna write vignettes ..... (reader, i am rewriting ats), bc now it's like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT WOULD IT LOOK LIKE IF ATS DIDN'T HATE WOMEN. literally like....... the way i am about 2 save darla, save cordelia, save fred,,,,,,,,, i HATE THIS FUCKING SHOW but if SOMEONE has to fix it i GUESS it will be ME <3333333

21. most memorable comment/review

answered this in the last one so i can highlight another :)))) but when @arthur-apologist my beloved commented under i belong to time, you belong to me:

holy shit jaime the lush rabbithole language of this.... oh my god.......the way i wish i wrote this is so real... i am in awe Because she is flesh. Dru is flesh even though her whole insides are the wet stretch of white spiderweb across the maw of space. So someone must have birthed her. like what the FUCK i am going to think about this for so long. love the world because it made the slayer. love the slayer because she is the world!!! fuck!!!!!!

like my whole spine fell out of my body in this moment :))))))))))))) lush rabbithole :))))))) happy :)))))))

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Ayyyyyyy just got done w/ Zexal pt. 1

Hey! It's Prediction Time babey, cuz I just finished rewatching Zexal Part One and Im about to watch Zexal Two: Electric Boogaloo for the first time

I did a fine job avoiding spoilers I think, but theres still some stuff that slipped through to me so my predictions are mostly based on that, so heres all I know:

1. Something's wrong w/ my boi Reginald. Im working on a thing rn and I was looking up reference images of Astral and I stumbled upon this weird german video that was titled smth like "Is Astral the TRUE enemy?!?" (Probably from back when the show was still airing) and it had this Weird Creature that looked an awful lot like Reginald in the thumbnail and Im a lil worried about that ngl. But Im also glad bc whatever it means he'll probably get more screentime and I'll hopefully forget about him less

2. This one was pretty much confirmed to me by some of the Discord Fellas, but Fucked Up And Evil Astral is making his return!! I'm very excited about that because I feel like 96 is essentially like, if Astral looked into a funhouse mirror but instead of distorting your face in a funny way it showed you everything you don't want to be, and I really really love that concept. So yeah, I think he's gonna be a pretty significant villain, if not the main one and I also think that we're probably gonna have some kinda Fucked Up And Evil Zexal or Zexal Equivalent

3. Theres gonna be this orange-haired fella?? Idk he looks to be about Yuma n Gangs age and I think I vaguely remember reading some stuff about him seeming sweet but being actually evil?? Idk, Im getting big Sora from Arc-V-vibes from the few images Ive seen of him and I loved Sora but he also lured me in with his sweetheart-facade and made me feel really betrayed when he turned out to be a traitor and then really conflicted when he wanted to redeem himself, so Im wary of this dude. Also, if he is evil, I think he might be some kinda evil counterpart to Yuma (and maybe form that aforementioned Evil Zexal Form w/ Number 96). Not literally/in the way that 96 is an evil version of Astral, but yknow

4. When I was looking up refs for D-Gazers I stumbled upon this reference sheet of some Zexal girl that hadnt appeared at that point in my rewatch, but then it turmed out to be Sharks sister, Rio?? I think thats pretty weird bc I thought that she like, died right. I wasnt the only one who thought that right. Well, she was at the very least hospitalized and seemed pretty badly injured after that fire, like, in a way that winning a duel wouldnt fix so Im curious how they're gonna explain that. Also, I saw an image of her hanging around with that orange-haired fella and I think she looked a lil similar to Kotori, so that makes me wonder if we're getting some kind of Fucked Up And Evil Numbers Club 👀👀

5. On a hopefully unrelated note, I also heard about a pretty neat female character getting fridged in a way that was pretty bad, even for yugioh so yea

So yeah, those are all my predictions/speculations that are actually based on something, the following ones are more stuff that I really want to happen, rather than me having any 'evidence' that these things are going to happen

6. It's pretty clear that we're definitely going to the Astral World, but I'd also really like to see the Barian World yknow. I kinda doubt that they would show it though, because I feel like if you have this entire world where an alien race lives and you make the audience aware of it, its a bit harder to dehumanize them and make all of them seem like theyre pure evil but ya know. A girl can dream

7. These past few episodes have been incredibly dense with plot, so I hope we're going to start of Zexal II with more lighthearted character-driven episodes, kinda like how the series started when Yuma and Astral were first collecting Numbers

8. Idk about you, but Id love to see Astral in a fit of despair (possibly bc of Number 96 👀👀👀)

Aight, I think thats it. If youre reading this, please dont try to spoil me, plaese just reblog this post either directly quoting a specific part being like 'Well, this aged poorly' or just say that about the entire post because I dont really like being spoiled, but I do like feeling anxious ig

And with that, its Zexal II time babes lets gooooooooooooo

[morkofday]

list 7 comfort films n tag 7 people

thank you for tagging me jaz @jazthespazz ♥ i always love thinking about all the things that bring me comfort even if when met by this type of questions, my brain suddenly goes blank. 

i’m tagging @foxofninetales @jockvillagersonly @i-am-just-a-kiddo @zhanqzhehan​ @manhasetardis @yibobibo @ashenlights​ ♥ no pressure!

my movies and my ramblings you can find under the cut!

I. The Yin-Yang Master: Dream of Eternity

i have no idea what this movie did to me. maybe something got twisted or broken or fixed, i don’t know, but it affected me a lot. like i’ve said before somewhere, i have never rewatched a movie this many times. i just keep missing it and as am writing this, i wish to watch it again. the atmosphere and the story and the characters just fill me with so much love that i feel like choking. i want to cry a river. i want to hug someone and i don’t even know who. i feel warm. where am i supposed to put all of this feeling?

(this movie also made me fall in love with deng lun and gosh, i’ve never seen such an adorable human in my life, he’s a delight ♥)

II. Fast and Furious (Hurjapäät)

i have a huge fondness to the whole f&f series but the first movie gives me comfort. it is such simple stuff when it comes to the plot but the found family themes are amazing and the cool cars and heists get me hyped. the fifth movie is my other favorite but the first one is the one that makes me feel at home. i always loved brian and how he finds his own place with the torreto family, and i have shed so many tears for paul walker’s sudden death and how wonderful the other actors have been about it. i love them. i miss them. if i want something nice and fun to watch, i am going for the fast and furious movies bc i know that they feel like home.

(look at this pretty boy! look at that million watt smile!! also, as f&f is the first fandom that got me into fanfics, i have to mention that am eternally fond of the way brian’s eyes were always described as “baby blues”) 

III. Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (Spirit - villi ja vapaa)

if i had to pick one movie to describe my whole childhood and who i am as a person, it would be this one. spirit has affected me so much. i am so utterly in love with it. i have watched it maybe a thousand times and i always cry about it. the whole story is just so lovely and the themes about freedom and fighting for your self have hit me hard. i remember wishing to be as fast as spirit as a kid. i remember wishing i had a hawk (eagle?) friend too lol. i adore this movie and it has always felt like a hug or like a carrying wind. 

(the way this movie looks and sounds are just perfect ok. i have never seen anything better. am sad i never got to learn how to ride a horse as a kid)

IV. Barbie as the Princess and the Pauper (Prinsessa ja kerjäläistyttö)

i have to mention the barbie movies here. i have watched many of the relatively older ones way too many times. this is not probably my favorite but this is the comfort movie out of all of them. my fave is 12 dancing princesses but i have not watched it in a long while bc i cannot find it from anywhere and this one is just. i adore the songs. i looooved erika as a character. i loved her cat! also i think she was some type of queer icon to me bc i felt like i could relate to her character as a kid when i didn’t have any knowledge about anything. i owned a doll of her. i can still remember the song lyrics by heart. i had severe princess dreams ok.

(out of context this movie so meme worthy. i love that for us. also this just,,, in relation to my queer projections on her lol)

V. Anastasia

another animated movie that i absolutely adore. anastasia is one of those princess movies just makes me swoon every time. the songs are amazing and make me very emotional and the story is somehow so different? i love dimitri as a male character too which is a lot. tho i was always legit scared of rasputin bc his character has been made to look and act so creepy?? it’s,,, disturbing. i remember having my hands over my fave and just peeking through my fingers as a kid when i watched some of his scenes. but otherwise, this movie gives me a lot of comfort. once again i feel like the big theme is freedom (in some sense at least)

(look at them!! they’re so nice ;; i love them. i love their relationship. ugh)

VI. The Avengers

i have no idea if this movie will ever be my fave or what marvel movie even is my fave but avengers and marvel in general have been very important to me. there is a lot of bad in there and i am pissed about many things (especially when it comes to avengers and their relationships with each other) but i am also just very fond. i remember watching every avengers related movie after going to see captain america: winter soldier with my ex gf when it was in the theaters. i was very in love with all of them. i still look at them with great affection. end game made me cry horribly. they give me comfort even if the found family in avengers isn’t on the level it could be (but fics and fanons fixed that for me) 

(i was, for a while, very much in love with stony. i am still very fond of the idea of them as those ppl i think they are and could be. am sad the movies kinda ruined them :/ otherwise, i still am and forever will be utterly in love with hawkeye/clint barton)

V. Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End (Maailman laidalla)

the last movie of the trilogy has a special place in my heart. it’s the ending, of course, and in all of its glory it is epic and lovely and bittersweet. it was always a perfect ending for the trilogy in my opinion. i love the whole story that pans out throughout the three movies (and that we continue a little bit in the next two but which i want to leave out for now) but there’s something very tender about the ending. i love the visuals in this. i love davy jones’ locker as an idea so much. i love jack and watching him somehow... grow in this? i have also listened to this one as an audio book as a kid and that has only managed to deepen my love for this movie 

(throughout my childhood i had a horrible crush on jack sparrow. i still think of him as my fave character out there. nothing can top him. no one can ever replace him. also elisabeth swan is the reason i’m gay) 

thank you for reading if you got this far! i had so much fun with this and this just made my heart feel full :’) now i can return to kick my so’s ass in mortal kombat (yes i am lying. they might kick my ass instead. does it lessen the fun? not at all) i hope you all have a wonderful day ^^ ♥ 

[horde-princess]

can i ask a question? this season really made me dislike glimmer (s4). why is she so sympathetic to people? she just seemed to be a really bad friend to bow and adora and that really frustrates me bc theyre there to support her more than anything else, esp with her mom gone. i recently rewatched the beginning and honestly bow and adora are trying to be even better friends to glimmer and she consistently lashes out and is power hungry and cruel to them. why is she still sympathetic?

man i like how you’re open-minded trying to get other perspectives about it 😌 i think like everyone in she-ra, glimmer is a pretty polarizing character. she has complex motivations that don’t always present her in a good light. on one hand i agree glimmer WAS lashing out and being a bad friend and especially for adora fans i can see why her actions last season would turn people off. but i still sympathize with her because i appreciate how she is influenced by her trauma. “sympathize” is a mild word tbh, i freaking LOVE glimmer, and it’s precisely because she’s a little unhinged, she doesn’t always do the right thing.. i want more female characters like her!! 

it’s the same with catra, right? people only dislike catra when they are unable to sympathize with her trauma. except in comparison, glimmer’s trauma is sort of glossed over, harder to see unless youre really looking for it. so lets talk about it bc i think appreciating glimmer’s perspective is crucial to understanding the story as whole.

glimmer was raised by the leaders of a global rebellion.. she knows how terrible war is on a very personal level since she lost her father to it when she was little, which is very different from adora’s trauma. she watched her mother grow tired and discouraged, and she’s been so angry for so long, because she believed that she had a responsibility to make a difference in the world but she was too young to really help (like damn remember when we thought glimmer was just an annoying rebellious teenager?). then the war takes her mother away, too. now an orphan, she inherits angella’s duty to keep the world safe, right when they’re on the brink of a catastrophic invasion.

i think the war with the horde is a more urgent threat in glimmer’s eyes than it is in adora’s. adora has a broader vision to protect the universe whereas glimmer is thinking pragmatically about something thats more immediate and tangible, and thats one of the reasons they butt heads this season.

another thing is, when glimmer inherits the throne she carries over this trauma from childhood where she felt powerless against the horde. finally, finally, she is the one in charge, she gets the chance to make a real difference and stop the horde once and for all… but then adora is there, even more overprotective than usual, acting like she’s entitled to call the shots just because she’s she-ra? glimmer has been waiting her whole life for this, to fulfill what she must believe is her destiny–how dare someone try to take that away from her? so this is another point where adora and glimmer’s respective traumas kind of clash and they have a hard time navigating that even though they love each other very much.

and then.. oh man. ive talked about this before but glimmer faces the same thing shadow weaver did all those years ago…. light spinner saw the horde was winning the war and chose to mess with dark magic in an attempt to win. it was about gaining power over her enemies. glimmer finds herself in a similar position where she thinks her only option to defeat her enemy is to use dangerous magic. when you take her trauma into account, her moral struggle makes a LOT of sense. we can understand it better contrasted with other characters–adora had a much different experience with the war and her and bow didn’t experience the loss of a loved one, so making moral decisions about the war comes easier to them. thats what i think prevented glimmer from respecting their point of view. glimmer is willing to cross lines because of everything she has gone through, and unlike her friends she thinks it’s worth it as long as the ends justify the means. this misguided thinking was reinforced by shadow weaver who glimmer never actually trusted, but still the connection sw had to her parents made her vulnerable to her manipulation. 

all of this is what makes glimmer and adora’s conflict in season 4 so engrossing and highlights Noelle’s genius storytelling, because BOTH of them are trying to do what they think is right, but they view things differently bc of their different experiences. its not that glimmer is power hungry or cruel just for the sake of it you know? she still has good intentions and thats what changes my perception of her character.

i also wanna say that i’m not JUSTIFYING glimmer in any way. one of my professors had this great catch phrase, he used to say “context doesn’t justify, but it matters.” i think we can hold glimmer accountable for her actions and still appreciate the context. lets not simply write her off as a likeable/unlikeable character, but instead consider she’s a complex character who’s doing her best and loves her friends even though she has a variety of motivations and personal struggles. ultimately, glimmer does realize her mistake and attempts to fix it, admitting “adora was right.” i think itll be super satisfying next season to see her learn and grow from that. like how boring would it be if glimmer was a nice happy 1D character who never struggled with anything??? 

[erizee]

im still rewatching gotham bc its a great distraction from studying and if 17 year-old me was right about anything its that its Fun

but also. what the Fuck were the writers thinking sometimes lmaooo im not even going to list it all because thats too much work, these r just some Thoughts

please dont ask why im watching it if this bothers me this much, i dont have a good explanation. its just Fun to watch fucked up people do fucked up shit i guess. nothing makes sense ever and theres soo much shit to dissect & so many characters to follow. yea that probably explains it

also this embarassing. i do not want to have these many thoughts about this show again.

1. police brutality as a ~quirky feature of this whacky city~. im Pretty sure that never really stops but im only halfway through s1 rn and its a Very big thing there. im not even going to talk about this much more because im not nearly close to being an expert on it & i dont have as much of a clear analysis of it, its just fucked up tbh how they treat such a major issue in real life like a fictional thing that makes their fake city more ~spicy~

2. the way they talk about/use mental health & neurodivergency

Fuck lmao this bothers me so much more now than 4 years ago. in general its a whole mess & a lot of it is probably based on comic stuff eg arkham, but they really portray anyone in there as a child huh. its So disrespectful and gross

at some point they basically only have villains from arkham, which i know is also at least somewhat comic-based but that doesnt rly make it better? great villainization of neurodivergent people guys (& why tf did they send oswald to arkham??? theres literally no reason for that one)

dont even let me get started on ed. LITERALLY Thee worst portrayal of neurodivergency/mental illness ive EVER seen lmaoo. in s1 hes soo autistic coded its almost funny if it wasnt 90% based on bad stereotypes, he literally checks All the boxes. and then he randomly gets the fake fictional shock value version of DID?? i feel like that was the only thing the writers could think of that made sense why he'd ever kill people lol and its a) So lazy and b) Extremely bad for how DID is seen by people. i dont know how DID works exactly so i cant say anything abt if the way it started/his switching was at least somewhat accurate, but its just this typical "evil dangerous neurodivergent dude cant control himself/is just evil to his core because his ~mind is fucked up~" and its so frustrating. Yes hes one of my favourite characters still. Yes i still relate to him way too much. Yes the way hes written is Extremely harmful. those things can all be true

3. queerbaiting. only developed a ship because it was popular with the fans, then make them fight each other for the rest of the show, then have them be ~brothers~ at the end when ratings drop. typical And annoying.

4. this is less of a Real World Issue and more bad storytelling but plot & character consistency are practically nonexistant in this show lmao. this has been run to the ground years ago but its still so weird. the main thing is again ed for me since he was my favourite, but they really changed his entire personality whenever it was practical for the "plot". i could barely recognise him in s3 until i got used to it lmao he was sooo different. u Could make an argument for the riddler vs the ed personality but again thats bad rehashing of harmful stereotypes & Also doesnt fix anything tbh. the only thing that was actually consistent (if im not forgetting sth) was oswald's character i think? he became less gross over time but that was all as far as i can remember. sneaky, manipulative, too emotional, loses everything because of either his mom or ed aka what he loves. he became less smart somehow after s1 which is weird but i guess s1 him would have taken over the country if they hadnt nerfed him. i honestly cant remember anyone else because last time after ca the middle of s2 i stopped paying attention to anything that wasnt ed or oswald but yea it was a whole mess

[ninvic-rbs]

Day 22

Boy i’ve been waiting for this one. So i decided to do some really weird aus, meaning ive been rewatching some stuff and hallucinating lol. Okay so in order you have the bbc version of sherlock (10/10), the greatest showman (10/10) and money heist (11/10, strongly recommend). And then an old reapertale doodle bc ive seen literally zero reapertale grillster fanart and its so aesthetically pleasing i just had to

And as a little extra i guess, i wrote this thing for @silverskye13‘s bodyguard au, which has been pretty active lately, so lets keep the ball rolling. Please keep in mind that 1. i don’t really write and 2. this is the first time i try to write in english, so any feedback is appreciated. Enjoy, i guess

Gaster bent down to reload for the third time already. In his frenzy he almost fell out of his seat, or maybe that was the way the car was moving. Normally they wouldn't really have to run away, with Grillby being able to either kill or scare the others enough to be left alone. But whatever gang was so adamant on capturing the doctor had quickly figured out that normal magic attacks wouldn't get them anywhere. So now, the people on the car chasing behind them were wielding bright orange water guns. Which looked about as ridiculous as one might expect, but had proved efficient; if the way Grillby was hunched and clutching his chest with one hand was anything to go by. The elemental was driving, and he had given Gaster his gun and he was trying to lose them. It was the first time he was shooting with anything that wasn't his blasters; and he was quickly realizing that he had really bad aim when shooting with his hands and not his soul. Between that and how small the targets actually were from the distance, he hadn't hit a thing in the last ten minutes. He was getting frustrated, which didn't mix well with his growing anxiety for the elemental. Grillby looked like he was in agony; most of his shirt completely soaked and sticking to his body. From where he was, Gaster could see almost half of his face had been completely put out. And he wasn't even allowed to pass out. "How's that going?" Gaster could barely hear him above the howling of the wind around them. The elemental sounded tired. "I can't hit them! They're moving too much!" "S'a bunker nearby. We need some time... try to aim for the tires." The skeleton immediately lowered his aim. Even thought the target was considerably bigger, it still took him a few attempts before the tire exploded and the car suddenly started made a sharp turn right and out of the asphalt. That was such a good idea! How had he not thought of that before? He decided to blame his panicked state. Before he sat back down, he saw the vehicle come to a stop and the monsters inside immediately get to work on changing the tire. The skeleton knew it wouldn't stop them for long, but hopefully for long enough. He decided to focus his efforts now on helping the elemental as much as he could, before he realized that he had no idea how to heal that sort of thing. The only thing Grillby had had to recover from before had been exhaustion. How did you tend to a put out fire?! Should he pour gasoline over him? He didn't know! "Grillby, how can I heal this?" He asked, his anxiety for the other's life making his hands shake. "How can I heal you? What do I need?" He wished he could just use green magic. "Just... anything flammable. And liquid. That normally... works..." he was getting weaker. Suddenly, the car screeched to a stop, almost throwing Gaster off his seat. Before he had time to react, the elemental had already opened the door on his side and was painfully getting out, carrying the small bag that contained his belongings. The skeleton quickly followed him, remembering to pick up his own bag. When he caught up, he noticed Grillby could barely walk. Without thinking, he put his arm around the other's and let him use his body as a crutch; although the elemental barely noticed. "Are you okay?" which was a stupid question, of course. "Yeah" he slurred, as if it was fooling anyone. "S'not too far, but we can't leave the car near the entrance." Gaster nodded. Although they were only walking for a total of three minutes, it felt like a small eternity. The skeleton's anxiety at an all time high; constantly looking over his shoulders and checking if the gang had managed to catch up, and trying to keep Grillby steady; even if his walking speed was declining and he put more and more weight on Gaster as they advanced. When they finally stopped, the elemental slumped to the ground, and the skeleton would have thought he had passed out if it weren't because he had started digging around some bushes. Just when the skeleton was about to ask what he was doing, he heard the sound of metal, and in a few seconds a small hatch had opened before them on the ground. It was dark inside; the only discernible thing a ladder leading down to it. "You go first, s- Gaster." The skeleton wanted to argue, but he knew from experience it wouldn't get him anywhere. So he just nodded and climbed down as fast as he could, almost falling once. It wasn't as deep as it had seemed, and he still couldn't see any light switches or anything of the sort. But that didn't worry him right now; as he was looking up and anxiously waiting for the elemental to get to the floor so he could work on healing him. As Grillby started climbing the ladder down, he stopped a second to close the entrance behind them; and the mechanical whirring that followed assured the skeleton that no one was going to follow them down there. Slowly, Grillby made his way down. But when there were only two steps left he collapsed, and he would have fallen to the floor if it weren't for Gaster's lighting fast reflexes in grabbing him with blue and yelping in surprise. "Oh, no. No, no, no, no...!" he murmured in a panic, moving the elemental and settling him on the first surface he saw; which happened to be a couch in the nearest room. "What's... wrong?" Grillby's voice was barely a whisper. The skeleton quickly looked at him, only to have his soul-wrenching fear grow when he noticed that the elemental looked barely conscious. "Nonono, don't fall asleep! You hear me?! Hey, Grillby, c'mon, stay with me!" "...t hurts..." Gaster almost wanted to cry. He had never seen the elemental in such a weak state, and he had to act quickly if he wanted to keep him alive; because a quick stat check confirmed the alarming rate at which Grillby's life was fading. He prayed to every god he had ever heard of that there was some alcohol in the bunker. "I know, I know, I'm going to fix that. Just... stay here. Try not to move, and don't fall asleep." He had already turned around to leave when he felt a weak hold in his wrist. "P-please don't leave... it's cold... I'm scared, Gaster..." came an almost inaudible plea. The skeleton's soul could have broken right then and there. He felt a knot on his non-existent throat when he spoke again. "I'll be back in a minute, okay? Don't worry, I'll be right here if you need me." He softly let go of the elemental's hand and took off running without wasting another precious second. He quickly realized that the bunker was a bit more like a subterranean house than a refuge. It had too so many rooms; it was probably thought out to be lived in for at least a couple of months. He hoped they didn't have to stay that long. Without stopping for a second, the skeleton stumbled somewhere he suddenly realized was the kitchen. He almost fell twice in his rush to open every single cupboard; his hope growing when he found most of them were full of either nonperishable food or utensils. He finally found what looked like a minibar next to the fridge and immediately grabbed the biggest bottle he saw, which turned out to be whiskey. Within the next three seconds he was already back by Grillby's side, feeling a wave of relief when he didn't see only dust on the couch but still rushing to open the bottle, knowing how close the elemental actually was to it. The way his hands were shaking made him take a few more seconds than necessary. "H-hey, Grillby, are you awake?" Gaster was sure he wasn't, but he seemed to wake up at this. When he saw the open bottle, he took it without a word and started downing it desperately. The skeleton blinked, and before he could react the elemental had already drunk more than half of the liquid. He separated the bottle from his mouth and for a few seconds his flame flared up in deep blue colors before settling back down on reds and oranges that were duller than their normal color, but worlds better than how it had been before. And upon checking his stats, Gaster sighed a breath of relief at his slowly growing health. He sat on the couch next to Grillby's legs, suddenly feeling all the exhaustion of the day hit him at once. He could have fallen asleep right there, but he couldn't bring himself to leave the elemental just yet. The elemental that, when he looked up again, he realized was staring at him, even if groggily so. He immediately became worried again, and quickly asked; "Is everything okay? Does anything hurt?" But Grillby only continued staring. The skeleton was about to check his stats again when he finally spoke. "You shouldn't have to... do stuff like this. I'm sorry I'm so bad at my job." He was said it slowly, his voice barely a whisper. He looked like he was falling asleep. After a small pause, the elemental added, his voice even lower; "I wish I could make you happy." Gaster suddenly froze. He didn't know how to react. What had Grillby meant by that? Was that about his job? But he only had to keep him safe, nothing else. And he wasn't bad at it; Gaster was alive, wasn't he? But that other phrase... was... was that...? But there was just no way that was what was going on here... right? He felt his face grow hotter. But, if not that, then what had he meant?   "B-but that's not your job" was the only thing he could blurt out after a few seconds. Not that it was important, since, he noticed, the elemental had already dozed off. The skeleton wasn't sure what to do for a couple of seconds. Eventually he sighed and settled back down, getting as comfortable as he could. He tried not to think about what had just happened as he finally let himself drift off to sleep; the soft crackling of the fire next to him the only sound in the room.

[wildpokemon]

ML Season 3 Rewatch: Miraculer

Production No. 309

Remember when this episode aired and we had basically never seen a sentimonster other than in Heroes’ Day, and we had no idea how they worked? This one aired the day before I got my wisdom teeth taken out and I don’t think I rewatched it like I usually do because I was pretty out of it lol, so I honestly don’t remember much about it at all, other than that I felt like a LOT was happening that I didn’t quite understand yet. Should be a good rewatch with all our new context!

Ooo the bee signal!! is this the first time we’re seeing it? I don’t remember if Chloe had used it in season 2 or not

lmao that selfie of chloe and ladybug is so funny. i love how chloe never notices that ladybug doesnt wanna take pictures with her and she cherishes them anyway

how is Nadja still shocked and worried when the eiffel tower is being taken down for the thousandth time? the ladybugs are gonna come fix it, it’ll be fine lol

ooooo Mayura is already out on the field, scheming on chloe and waiting to manipulate her

this is the first time we’ve seen her out and about right?? but it definitely is a plan theyve had for a while based on the way theyre talking

“a rubber duck!? what is she gonna do with that!?” i love that as the news anchor, nadja is continuing another of my favorite running jokes lol

rena rouge and carapace getting mentioned for the first time in forever

ive missed them

ladybug is like “no one can know our identities” before nino holds alya’s hand and is like “except us of course” but WHY why are the rules this way?? and then we get that knowledge bomb in Kwami Buster that marinette would have to give up LB if Chat found out who she is?? where are the answers Fu??

that being said. Ladybug’s logic on not picking Chloe bc HM knows her identity makes perfect sense, she says right here that he could use it to trap them, and he already is!! its happening right now!! so that’s a good call, i get it

Gabe and Nathalie straight up discussing making Chloe an ally 

“maybe it’s time we bring Lila Rossi’s psychological talents into the plan” broooo!! i paid no attention to episode order when i first watched this so i didn’t realize the direct correlation. but this ep is apparently directly after Oni-Chan when Gabe and Lila made their deal!! shit is already connecting!!

Lila just going on and on about the school gossip and drama and Nathalie and Gabriel Hologram are just in the car like “yeah yeah thats great, can you please manipulate this fourteen year old girl for me, thanks.”

also, genuinely confused about Lila calling Adrien perfect. I always felt like she just wanted to use him for her own personal gain, but the way she said the line makes her sound like she does like him?? idk i’m skeptical

Chloe calling Rena and Carapace tacky while Alya and Nino just stand there and smile lol

ahahahaha the way the camera pans in to marinette being totally unamused by lila saying hi is hilarious omfg

aww adrien helping nino study. i love their friendship, i’ve been missing seeing it lately

honestly, Chloe and Lila interacting gives me life. I LOVE how Chloe just dismisses everything Lila says, not even because she thinks she’s lying, but because she just genuinely does not give two shits about Lila (until Lila starts on her manipulative bullshit that is).

“clearly she didn’t make a great impression on me” gold

gOD i hate Lila. i even hate when she’s mean to chloe

marinette genuinely trying to be nice to chloe about lila :)

“DUPAIN-CHENG!!” the way she says it is so good

Hawkmoth and Mayura being the ultimate drama queens with their back to back pose in the butterfly room lol. Honestly, sometimes I think Nathalie is just in it for the aesthetics. sure she likes gabe (ew) but also, she secretly lives for the theatrics

and today, the evil villains grand plans are... to let a baby get control of a giant lollipop monster!! brilliant!!

lmao what IS chloe’s butler’s real name? tbh i dont want to know. funnier this way

awww the way the gorilla just plops adrien down in his room is so cute. and adriens little “thank you” with the soft smile is sweet too. thank god SOMEONE cares about our boy’s safety

i’m like 90% sure Sabrina’s glasses don’t have lenses in them

l o l Sabrina suggests to get the dress up costumes, and Chloe is legit like “yeah thats good! we can do that after!” lol sometimes their friendship is actually sweet

aklkdsjla Chloe doing the little Ladybug dance

no Chloe!! don’t let Lila’s lies get to you! the magic dance is bullshit!!!

aaaaand there she goes being mean to Sabrina again. sigh

it makes perfect sense to me that Chloe resits HM here, and I would have been genuinely shocked if she hadn’t. she just ripped into Sabrina about how she’s a super-heroine like Ladybug, and the idea that she’d flip so quickly to join HM right now wouldn’t be in character for her imo. That being said, Chloe’s motivations to be Queen Bee in the first place are all wrong, she just wants the notoriety and prestige that comes with being a super hero and Ladybug’s “friend” she really only resits because she knows that Ladybug would REALLY never give her the Bee Miraculous again if she joined HM, rather than because she disagrees with Hawkmoth’s intentions

those little flashes of Chloe and Sabrina actually having fun and snuggling and stuff are so bittersweet :/

lmao at Sabrina as Miraculer saying Chloe’s iconic “utterly ridiculous” line

wow LB getting hit right off the bat, ouch

it’s the return of the giant final fantasy-esque sword!!!

Chat taking a cataclysm to the chest 😨

It was subtle, but you could see the black of the cataclysm slowly seeping through his costume after he was hit. I sort of wish we got more info on the exact effects it has on him. I know he’s injured the rest of the fight and his suit mostly protected him, but I wonder what the extent of the damage is etc

Plagg WOULD call the dinosaurs a bunch of wusses lol

Chat face planting :(( and Ladybug is so worried :(((

Mayura!! Swiper no swiping!! give Chat the Bee Miraculous back!!

Alya and Nino’s parkour!!!! so sick!!!

Lucky Charm! Cataclysm! Lucky Charm! Cataclysm!

meanwhile, Chat is basically d y i n g from being hit by two of Sabrina’s cataclysms

i feel really weird whenever i remember that this is actually adrien fighting against nathalie....

i have this weird natural instinct to think that nathalie is more sympathetic than gabriel bc she shows more genuine affection for adrien than gabe does (still not much) but she really is just as bad as he is. here she is, fighting this group of teenagers and not caring for their safety at all, and only prioritizing her feelings and motivations for hawkmoth instead. god, poor adrien

man i love chloe’s transformation sequence. the little spin flip thingy at the end is so satisfying to watch. im kind of sad this’ll be the last time we see it

Mayura offering Chloe all this shit and she’s just like “uh, that’s three questions” aldkjald Chloe is great tbh

danggg Chloe actually got her fingers on the Peacock Miraculous for a second too. so close!!

Miraculer really is a tough villain, she’s got a counter move for almost everything now that she’s got all their powers

and the answer to this weeks lucky charm puzzle is.... tickling!!! amazing

I love when Sabrina is de-akumatized no questions why she’s dressed in Chat Noir cosplay lmao

LB does a good job of explaining to Chloe why she can’t be Queen Bee again, and it was honestly kind of hard to watch Chloe kind of come to terms with it. Although, tbh she doesn’t fully accept it, she just assumes Ladybug will eventually go back on her word

Interesting that we don’t see any of Nathalie’s health issues in this one even though she’s been using the Peacock Miraculous on and off the whole time

Lol at Chloe trying to confront Lila again

Hoooo wow. A LOT of stuff in this episode. More Mayura and Hawkmoth scheming, clearing setting up for more to come, and a BUNCH of interesting stuff for Chloe’s development too. She’s basically the main character of the episode.

[navollidiot]

@naslostcontrol​ @amiras-bitch​ y’all work in tandem a lot asfsfksfjfj thank you for sending these in!!!

my day started out kind of weird?? like i woke up rly early, and a LOT happened almost right away basically before i even got out of bed lol.. some good, some bad, like it was a little overwhelming. but today was also the start of a new month and i tend to try and feel more positive because of it! overall it was a pretty regular day though :) i made my rewatch edit for the day, i had a nice long chat with @noradari​ on discord asfkjs, talked to some other friends, had a little chat with my roommate while we were in the kitchen together, i did some dishes, and a bit of reading which was nice.

probably something @chlouais​ said to me bc we’re always talking ajkfjsf but also!!! the nice tags that @bagels-and-seagulls​ and @hachibe​ have been leaving on my edits 🥺💖

doing my edits has been quite a nice routine since there’s a clip almost every day! i keep meaning to frontload them more because right now i tend to make them as i post them, and sometimes it takes me up until the last minute to finish which gets a lil stressful lol. other than that ive been watching a lot of stuff on hulu and netflix like a lot of people are doing now, trying to get through shows and films ive been meaning to watch, that kind of thing!

i’d like to permanently fix my sleep schedule asfjshsjf lately ive been kind of consistently falling asleep around 2am and waking up around 8am which is a much better sleep schedule than what i was expecting to have for this period, but sometimes i still fuck it up by staying up past 4am and then sleeping in. i tend to feel more productive and positive whenever i manage to wake up early + am feeling well-rested (which is key! otherwise i just fall back asleep lol) enough to actually get stuff done. i’d also like to get some writing done because i’ve been taking an extended break from it mostly due to lack of inspiration/motivation :( but hopefully i can get back on track with my wips before i waste too much of my extra time that i have now!

i will pass on this, as only a select few of my mutuals/friends here know my real identity and/or follow my personal instagram, but otherwise i prefer to stay anonymous on the internet :)

[brilliantfantasticgeronimo]

ive been struggling to be more open about my life over here... beyond the sporadic gifsets of things im watching i cant really say ive shared much. but like, i cant keep on avoiding the mortifying ordeal of being known forever (also so much is going through my head all the time and i dont got anyone irl to vent so i gotta do it somewhere, even if it’s 2 the void) so here’s some life updates:

ive got a bunch of unfinished art i owe ppl so that’s what i’ve been trying to get through this past month....

...without much success, usually i come home so tired from school + work i cant be bothered to draw. this is the main thing im working hard about fixing rn. i have doodled more and have done some studies (haven’t posted them tho because i don’t feel great about them ugh)

one thing i’ve decided to try to see if it helps is regular exercise (in the form of solo capoeira training and trail running) + biphasic sleep schedule. in theory both of these things will give me the energy needed to draw... 

after / meanwhile tho, the fancomic project that ive been cooking for about a year-ish is still, at least, slowly progressing... i haven't posted anything about it (tho i have talked to some ppl about it privately ) but i might have to bc i know it’s only a matter of time before someone else does this idea, and i will be v pissed if that happens after i have spent so much creative energy on it lol

im currently on a research + outlining step of said project... these are   the books i’m plowing through, to give you a little idea of the (ridiculously bitting-more-than-she-can-chew) scope of the story sklajdksad)

national/regional/international politics are exhausting and draining as always (more than usual?) and tbh im sort of... actively tuning out of them atm. im trying to focus on “the big picture” so that means less time and mental energy for keeping track of whatever new apocalyptic headline crops up on the news. literally all my time reading, reflecting and studying is going toward collapse(tm) related literature and focused more on deep global issues and it is quite a lot of stuff to study, reflect and read,

(am i using all that as an excuse to not deal w/ the immediate surrounding? that might be part of it, perhaps... this is the only workable solution i have found that doesn’t involve weekly emotional breakdowns tho)

on that note, ive been using the ashes ashes podcast as a guideline for those studies. it’s great stuff and i highly recommend. the guys in charge of it are really nice, and the scope+breath of their research is impeccable. i’ve been telling everyone i meet about it bc it really has been a game-changer of a resouerce.

have felt very depressed at times for various reasons. some new, some not so new... not much to say in that area. v loneliness. much sad. whatevs

university and work were kicking my ass a couple weeks ago, but im getting them under control now (...i think). im getting a kind of ~synergy going too where im using knowledge learned in one place and applying it somewhere else

(like im learning sketchup for design class, but im hoping to later use it for making assets for the graphic designs at work. and the visual + communications stuff i have had to research for work is helping with both uni and my personal projects...)

arrowverse rewatch however is kicking my ass. and im only rlly watching supergirl + flash + batwoman ! but god. it’s literally.... endless... episodes.... if i have to hear another character say “no more secrets!” again im gonna flip

 my enthusiasm for crisis and stuff is making me soldier on tho. (as is my hyperfixation w/ supercorp that has even managed to lure a fellow nerd coworker into it lmao)

while on the topic of tv: i *am* keeping up with the last season of the good place... i haven’t felt the need to talk much about it tho bc i mostly just discuss it with one of my cousins (who is also watching ) and we got our own like little after-show routine where we discuss theories and stuff :)

im watching hdm when it repeats on hbo latam. it’s nice to watch on hd for once rather than crummy 120p streaming sites...

havent sat down to watch 7 worlds 1 planet fully yet but i did watch the first 10 minutes of ep 1: antarctic and predictably cried

[jinwoostro-archive]

rules: once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you.  at the end choose 25 people to be tagged

Tagged by: @jakganim​ and @astrofireworks​ (bc they love me sm 😜)

Tagging: uhhhhh 25 friends???? asjk mmkay @moonbeams-and-sanshine @blingkwan @93sehyoon @kim-sehyooned @cha-eunwoow @sxhyoon @softsocky (dont have to do this if u dont wanna btw)

last:

drink: teA (bc when do i never drink tea?)

phone call: my sister, wondering when tf she was gonna come home from school

text message: “Great! i hate it!” skjd my friend who decided to send a video of a sewer rat

song you listened to: Yonas - photo (which ya girl finally managed to learn lmao)

time you cried: ........when am i not? but yesterday? idk?

have you ever:

dated someone twice: nope

been cheated on: nada

kissed someone and regretted it: i have virgin lips

lost someone special: yes

been depressed: yes

been drunk and thrown up: nah

in the past year have you:

made a new friend: idk if i’d call these losers my friends 🙄 (jkjk ily all)

fallen out of love: give me some love to fall into first

laughed until you cried: heck yeah

met someone who changed you: definitely

found out who your true friends are: um i dont rlly know? ive discovered some friends which i dropped lmao and im still confused tbh

found out someone was talking about you: god bless screenshots :’)

general:

how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: tbh i’ve met @artist-aroha once... (bich we should meet up again tf but after ya exams okie?) and 2 other ppl here but they’ve deactivated rip,,,,, (patiently waits for me to go to uni so i can meet several ppl) :))))

do you have any pets?: :(((( noooooo

do you want to change your name?: idk, the reason why i dislike it is bc i hate certain people saying my name so i associate it when them but at the same time... it’s me?

what time did you wake up this morning: fUCK 2:24pm apparently

what were you doing last night: i honestly dont remember, everything was a haze 

name something you cannot wait for: UNI UNI UNI FINALLY FUCKIN LEAVING THIS PLACE WOO

have you ever talked to a person named tom?: i had a friend who had a bro called tom but no one else

what’s getting on your nerves right now: :)))))))) daya

blood type: i..idk?

nickname: lala, lan, lanlanna, na, trash panda (jk i gave that one to myself)

relationship status: #SingleLyfe

zodiac sign: Sagittarius

pronouns: she/her

favorite show: meerliin??? idk? that’s the only show that i still rewatch and the characters still affect me lmao

college: currently out of education but im goin back to it

hair color: brown :’) (watch when i go lilac tho)

do you have a crush on someone: @ eunwoo and sehyoon..... hi

what do you like about yourself: i guess i can be caring lmao

firsts:

first surgery: on my chin bc i used my cousins buggy as a slide and put it against the cupboard and i hit my chin on the corner of it and i still remember my uncle holding me in the car on the way to the hospital even tho i was 6 (bih i still have the scar lmao) also is this why im known as having a clumsy ass????

first piercing: akjsn my mum got my ears pierced when i was 1 but i got upper lobes done on my 17th bday woop

first sport you joined: athletics team

first vacation: okAY we went to kurdistan when i was 4 and all i remember is 3 things. throwing up in the car, my dad getting his passport fixed there and my aunt force feeding me yoghurt  

first pair of sneakers: AT THAT AGE MY MUM BOUGHT ME EVERYTHING IDK

right now:

eating: havent eaten today

drinking: ^^^

i’m about to: listen to these new songs my friend recced

listening to: Russ - Yung God (a good ass song)

want kids: .....not now biCH im 19 (but like,,, in the future if my mind hasn’t changed then i’d like to adopt)

get married: i dont see myself getting married sooooo

career: this whole thing is a bunch of IDK bc i really don’t, on the one hand...a stable career but on the other hand i’d love to be part of the storyboard team on a movie franchise so....

which is better:

lips or eyes: sucker for both

hugs or kisses: huGS ND CUDDLES

shorter or taller: bearing in mind how short i am,,,im gonna go with taller

older or younger: older

romantic or spontaneous: hmm more romantic?

sensitive or loud: both

hookup or relationship: relationship bc i get attached easily nd im too anxious for hookups lmao

troublemaker or hesitant: akdkjas im drawn to troublemakers bc i love excitement BUT at the same time, i prefer hesitant?? idk how to describe it

have you ever:

kissed a stranger: virgin lips

drank hard liquor: didnt wanna tbh but i did

lost contacts/glasses: no contacts or glasses to lose

sex on first date: :))))))) bitch please

broken someone’s heart: god i hope not

been arrested: it’s an experience i wanna try :))

turned someone down: yes

fallen for a friend: yes

do you believe:

in yourself: whomst is that?

miracles: philosophy messed with my mind so im in between here

love at first sight: love can develop from physical attraction at first sight