#jacob seed fix

[birdsong-goeson]

Vincere Aut Mori / Conquer or Die (chapter 3), 1.6k words

Chapter summary: All four Seeds attend a meeting and John stays behind to speak with Jacob. Jacob worries about the threat the Deputy poses to John but, to Jacob's irritation, John seems interested in something quite different. Fic summary: Jacob Seed crosses paths with an old neighbour and her presence starts to unravel the fragile bond between him and John. With visions of the brother's death, Daisy resists the Project any way she can. But once Jacob notices she's in his region, he will stop at nothing to get her to submit.

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Link to chapter 1 and chapter 2

“I heard your message on the radio, Jacob.”

The night was dark with a sky of luminous stars glistening their white, red and blue colours. A night where one felt the slow steps of winter approaching. The chill cut through the skin and Montanans across the state complained about needing to wear coats again after dark. Vapour droplets clung to the roof of cars and on the stems of grass, wetting Jacob’s boots as he leaned against Joseph’s church. It was another evening of sermons from his younger brother and updated reports on the regions. Once every blue moon, Joseph would arrange for a meeting at his church under the cover of the night. Faith’s bliss farms and the Deputy’s rambles were on top of their action list, but Jacob found himself staring at the darkness beyond the window for most of the meeting. When it was all over, he took a packet of cigarettes from his back pocket with relief and watched as the smoke swirled at the lit end. Unusually, his brother John stood next to him, despite Joseph having forbidden his contact with nicotine.

“I didn’t realise you were on the channel,” said Jacob and inhaled the smoke deeply. It was the kind of inhale a seasoned smoker breathed deep into their core, bringing the nicotine to every corner of their lungs.

“It sounded like it was meant for someone. Did you have an audience in mind?” John stared up at the stars and then turned his head towards his older brother. The gesture reminded Jacob of when they were younger, out in the backyard and he exhaled the memory out with the smoke.

“Yes, I did.” He said.

After an interval, his younger brother spoke again. “I would appreciate it if you shared.”

Jacob tensed his jaw in slight irritation. John was being what he always was – nosey. Jacob held a silence for some moments and spoke slowly.

“Do you remember Daisy from down the street? When we lived at the old house.”

“Daisy Williams. The only child?”

“Yes,” said Jacob.

John made a noise of surprise. “Yes, yes. I remember. Odd little thing. Don’t tell me she’s still around?”

Jacob flickered ash from the end of his cigarette. “She’s been doing some damage and I wanted to send a message, that’s all.”

“She’s not affiliated with any resistance, I don’t think.” Said John. “We’re using her old house as a storage unit – do you remember that old dump? Maybe she’s still upset about that,” he said with a low chuckle.

Jacob chose to say nothing and just stood with his arms crossed. It was getting late and John’s trip back would be long, yet he chose to hover for some reason.

“Did you tell Joseph? I noticed he was looking at you often,” said John and Jacob found himself irritated by the conversation. After spending so many years apart, Jacob found it difficult to adjust to brotherly relations. John often sought attention, as younger siblings tend to do, but Jacob couldn’t find the warmth in him to reciprocate. Duty to protect, yes. Desire to chitchat after hours, not quite. Despite being brothers, their temperaments and interests were distinctly different.

“I can never tell what Joseph’s thinking,” returned Jacob and snubbed the cigarette on the wall behind him. “I think he was more concerned with the Deputy. Do you need me to come down there and sort things out?”

“No, no. Everything is under control,” John said quickly. “She’s only damaged an outpost or two and some petty silos. My people are on it.”

“Are you sure?” Jacob turned to look at his younger brother for the first time this evening. All three of the Seed brothers had blue eyes but John’s were the darkest – an oceanic shade like their mother’s. Jacob thought back to what Daisy had said about John and the Deputy. It made his blood run cold. “You know it’s no trouble for me. I can have her dead before you know it.”

John’s gaze faltered as he turned to look at his feet. “It’s okay, Jacob. Really.”

The intensity of Jacob’s eyes often unnerved John. Jacob couldn’t help but wonder if it was because John saw someone else in his features.

“I’ll give you some time to deal with it. But if it doesn’t get better, I’ll have to step in.” Jacob said and offered a cigarette to his brother.

“I won’t tell if you don’t,” he said but John had already pushed it away.

“He’ll know,” he said quietly, not needing to clarify whom he was referring to. “And I don’t need that stuff anymore. The Lord’s compassion is all I need.” Jacob wasn’t convinced but he didn’t raise his concerns.

He knew John struggled with his…urges. Only Joseph knew what that really meant but despite all the praying and repenting and fighting, Jacob knew his brother had never truly escaped the chains of addiction. For some people, ‘coming along’ was a constant process with no finishing line. John was one of them.

The church’s door opened, and Faith appeared with her escort. It wasn’t often that Faith moved beyond her region’s borders and when she did, she had to be driven to and from by Joseph’s assistants. She looked at Jacob and John and waved goodbye as she walked to the vehicle. She asserted it was because she never learnt to drive, but Jacob knew it was because she was too high on bliss.

Jacob waited until she was gone. “You know, I forget which one she is.” He mused expecting John to reciprocate.

“There’s only one Faith, Jacob.” It was too late, the righteous mask had gone up. That’s what he gets for trying to be friendly. “I went to school with Daisy, you know.”

Jacob felt his body tense up. “Oh, really?” He said disinterestedly, hoping John would drop the subject; he was in no mood for a trip down memory lane.

“Yeah, middle school and we took the same bus every day. Such a skittish girl. I’d completely forgotten her until you mentioned her. I haven’t seen her once since, you know. Despite her living in Hope County and all. Does that make me a bad herald?” He laughed with a ghostly smile on his lips and his eyes glistened with that manic look he sometimes got. It made Jacob’s stomach turn.

John continued. “Did she kill one of your people? I can’t imagine her doing something so serious.”

Jacob shook his head. “You’ve got your hands full with the Deputy. I’m sure Daisy’s not on your list of priorities,” he said and motioned towards their vehicles.

“We can never be too careful, can we?” Said John and followed him. Jacob entered his truck and waited for his brother to make a U-turn. The moon was beginning to fill again and it cast a luminous light upon everything.

John pulled up to Jacob’s window as their cars faced opposite directions. The younger was heading south and the elder to the north. It would be some time till they saw each other again; it was inconvenient (and dangerous) to have all four Seeds in one place. Jacob vowed to do something about the Deputy if the issue persisted next time.

“Tell you what, Jacob. You kill the Deputy and I’ll get Daisy. She’s from my region, after all. I should be putting my people in their place, shouldn’t I? I scratch your back, you scratch mine. Until next time, brother.” He said and sped off before Jacob got the chance to speak.

“Always needs to have the final word,” Jacob mumbled to himself and shifted gears. He watched from his mirror as John’s car sped off into the night and the church got smaller and smaller until it was lost on the horizon.

It was a long drive back through dirt roads and coming across the occasional cult member or barricade. People always made a fuss upon seeing a vehicle on the road and Jacob loved to see their faces contort with fear once they saw him behind the wheel. Other cars steered clear of his path and even animals seemed determined to avoid him. The drive back was peaceful, he drove with the windows down and felt the cool relief of the wind mixed with the faint fragrance of night flowers.

Once in a while, he would gaze at the mountains in the distance and wonder if Daisy was holed up in one of them. It was very possible she lived in a cave, maybe even a prepper’s stash. When he thought of Daisy now, John came to his mind. The glistening look in his wide eyes and his final words unnerved him more than he liked. Low in his stomach lurked the odd feeling that he’d given bait to a ravenous dog.

Later, when he’d reached his compound and retired for the night, Jacob thought back to his exchange with John and what he’d said about Daisy. It was discomforting, the way John’s eyes flashed with glee at the thought of finding her. He shouldn’t have been surprised that John remembered her – he was the same age as Daisy, after all. It was what lurked in his eyes that concerned Jacob, how fixated they could become on someone and how rare it was for John to let go of something he desired.

As Jacob drifted to sleep, he thought of Daisy with her large eyes and long hair. She was slightly other in character and in form. With the length of her hair, a pagan air clung to her, as though she was of a slightly variant species. Something closer to the natural world than other people. It was something involuntary; Jacob remembered how unwell her presence mixed with others, and it was something she was painfully aware of. Jacob’s mind kept returning to the surrender in her eyes, the way she acquiesced her defeat to him. And how much he would hate for John to see what Daisy’s eyes looked like when they were pleading, how undeserving his brother was of seeing her beg for mercy.

Note: This is my favourite chapter so far - the Seed brothers interact! I loved writing them together so they'll be more chapters of the Seed brothers in the future <3

[doritofalls]

gang update :o)

[chizups]

"I can fix him!" Oh God, no. I burn with desire to save him as a child from the people and circumstances that made him a grown up monster he is today. Which is something I can't do in reality, but I think about it a lot anyway.

[flowerisherehi]

What far cry did yall play 😭😭

[seedling-spark]

Jacob Seed ABC headcanons (r,s,m,w)

W - Wildcard

Jacob doesn't hate technology, he hates how reliant on it everyone has become, as well as how disposable it has become. Nothing lasts, and no one knows how to fix things anymore, he'd happily keep using his old things if John didn't insist on upgrading his stuff. (Most of the time he keeps using his old things anyways, but he'll pull out the new ones around John so his brother knows he appreciates the thought)

R - Relax, what kinds of things do they do to relax?

He likes to do things with his hands, build something, hunt something, cook something. Any task will do so long as it uses his mind and body, it's the only way he knows how to shut off his thoughts and truly relax.

His favourite thing to do is to whittle small animals out of wood, he doesn't mind listening to music while he works, so if he's in the mood he'll throw on an old record that he likes.

S - Storm, what is their favourite type of weather?

With how tough he projects himself as being (and is) many people might think he likes intense weather, like storms and whatnot, but he actually prefers sunny days.

Days where the sun is shining, and there's a nice breeze, enough to keep you at a comfortable temperature.

M - Morning, what is their morning routine?

Wake up, brush teeth, wash face, get dressed, get a mug of water to drink, read reports, turn on radio, contemplate killing everyone when you read the reports of whatever fuckery they got up to overnight, listen to Joseph's morning sermon (only half listening, mainly just for show)

[kohvan]

janitorAI Seeds

I made John and Jacob a while ago.

They're imperfect but I like using them in different ways.

They have no pre-written plot so you can keep creating chats with new situations!

They also react very good to anything magical or non-canon

Still, since they are bots, sometimes they get out of hand. But it can be easily fixed by rating their replies and giving them some hints!

They can be both healthy and unhinged, depends on your prefs. They also are noncensored which means they can give you some REALLY nasty replies if they decide to. I mean sometimes they don't give a damn about anything...

But they are nice! Feel free to use:

Chat with John Seed

Chat with Jacob Seed

[blindedlamb]

why try fix jacob seed when eli palmer is RIGHT THERE

[rederiswrites]

If you're wondering what we ARE going to do about all that poison ivy, and the general absolute shittiness of our fields, and for that matter what the fuck two people with no farming background and like...more than full-time work already are going to do with like sixteen acres of field anyway....we don't know.

Don't get me wrong, we have a lot of ideas. Most of which we either can't currently afford or for some other reason can't achieve. But some of which are lovely.

Rotational grazing, especially the high-density, frequently moved version sometimes known as "mob grazing", would eventually fix a lot of what's wrong with those fields. But not without way more animals than we have or even intend to have. We don't even have a "mob" TO graze. The sheep will eat some poison ivy, though it's not their favorite. They'll eat the leaves off the brambles, which is a pretty effective way to deplete the plant's stores and stunt it. They won't eat the Virginia Creeper.

But in a way, it doesn't matter, because we've spent nearly the entire last year moving the ewes through the smaller of the two fields, and they're only just getting back to where they started. In order to make a serious impact, they'd need to be grazing the same spot maybe every two months, depending on weather conditions. Not once a year. As I showed in a previous video, everywhere they go, they do visibly leave nitrogen, and we can actually see a slight improvement everywhere they've passed through. But it's not fast. And getting and caring for the...I don't know, fifty or so? sheep that would speed the process would make moving and caring for those sheep a full-time job neither of us has the capacity for. It's just not even an intention of ours. We've never really discussed a "cap", but I'd say that a "someday when we have real fencing and I'm healthy" number of sheep would still be twenty or thirty at the most.

The conventional, and arguable still best, way to fix the big field and its extreme fuckery would be to till and reseed. It would, believe it or not, still not eliminate all of the problem weeds, especially not the Virginia Creeper and Canada Thistle (which loves to grow back from root fragments and is resistant to normal herbicides). But it would be a huge start. We'd seed with a pasture mix that's full of plants that can handle being grazed down, and then mow where the sheep don't get to. I don't even know what it would cost to hire out all that work or rent the tools, but it's more than we have. It's like asking what it would cost to replace the siding on your house. I don't know, but I know I aint got it.

So for now, Jacob is spending a lot of hours just mowing. Mowing doesn't do as much as grazing, notably it doesn't leave nitrogen, but it does ensure that light is hitting the soil so that seeds there can sprout, and it does give the advantage to plants adapted for grazing (mainly grasses).

Eventually, the plan is to reforest several acres of the big field, using government programs. That also comes with the need to control understory growth for years until the trees mature enough to shade things out, but actually, help with that is part of some of the programs. They typically plant with a mix of natives--oak, tulip poplar, redbud...the mix varies based on what the contracted companies grew that year, apparently, but it's not really something you get to pick and choose. They come, they calculate their grid, they plant. But I don't think anything's to stop you coming through afterwards and planting your own selections in spots where saplings inevitably die. Pawpaw, white oak, American persimmon, hybrid chestnut... I dream of a day where we have maybe ten acres of forest, where I can harvest mushrooms and chestnuts, paw paws and berries and ginseng. Where the boy can bag us a wild turkey for holiday dinner or supplement the freezer with deer that got fat on fall acorns.

In my wildest fantasies (and, to be fair, what I have now was once my wildest fantasies!), the "small" field is an intercropped quilt of coppiced willow and locust, berry bushes, broad stripes of sorghum, amaranth, corn, and wheat for people and animals, strips of wildflower meadow to make corridors for animals and beneficial insects, and large patches of medicinal herbs and dye plants. The "north" field, the one that is so especially troubled now, is part forest, part pasture, with permanent perimeter fences, a loose scattering of trees that provide shade and fodder, and sheep being guided through the larger perimeter with portable electric mesh fencing.

So that's what we (very sarcastically) refer to as the "five year plan" here. But I'm trying to learn not to hamstring us with doubt and disbelief, so....that's the plan.

[chizups]

Am new to your tumblr (got drawn here by your pretty ocs (✿◡‿◡)) and I hope that has not been asked before but: What are your opinions on each individual Seed? And what do your OCs think about them? I always think it is interesting to see where opinions are the same or differ (●'◡'●)

Welcome! Feel yourself at home 😊

Oh, boi, do I keep my unhinged to myself when answering that? I guess we'll see. When I just got through my first FC5 run, I didn't find John to be that interesting (I didn't understand at the time really), Jacob was absolutely terrifying in a best way possible for a character to be, and Joseph became most intriguing to me, which is the case still: I am enamored with his whole character, but the more I get to know about him, the less I understand WHY, because he is infuriating, but he also keeps my underwear wet, and it's harder to say WHY by the minute 😂😅

Now that I spent some time looking into these characters, I see them a bit differently and I love them even more. Jacob was somehow the easiest for me to comprehend. I really like him as a character, and his villain image was shining even brighter when I played New Dawn: there, looking at twins, I realized for myself how intimidating Jacob actually was. I really like him as a brother/father figure, as a protector and I sorry about his fate. Can't say I would have anything to tell him, no words can fix a man like that I feel. At least none of mine. The only support I could've give is maybe hold his hand. He was a fighter and deserved better from the very start.

John opened to me with time, or rather was opened to me by people who know their shit about psychology😆 I thought he just have brain damage or something, but what escaped me at the start is his complicated set of traumas. But I know now... Again, I am very sorry about his fate, I pity him as a child, he did not deserve what he got. But John is an adult, and he is a lot. Here's my level of unhinged starts growing, because as much as I love John, I want to slap him, or stab him, or dismember him and eat his parts, while keeping him alive, I... Y'know? Normal stuff. I also have a set of my own psy problems that makes me feel a certain way about men like John: John Duncan (as well as Seed I guess at least at the start of the project) for the eyes of unknowing person would be too good to be true and therefore unworthy of trust, that means any other handsome, educated and charismatic man is untrustworthy. John Seed fucking triggers me, I feel unwanted every time I look at him, but I like him as a character nonetheless. Fuck this brat💖

Faith has impressed me by the control she has over The Bliss, it's fascinating. But she doesn't stick to my mind like brothers do, I kind of sorry about it. She is clearly a puppet, and though I pity her, and I think she is the one that was actually the closest to possible saving, I do not care that much. I'd say I wish to protect her from Joseph's influence, but it seems I got into this trap myself.

Fucking Joseph... Love. I love this man. I do this basically all the time👇

He intrigued me from the first sight, and I even envy him in some sense. But I see him more clearly now. Started after FC6 Collapse DLC, where my desire to throw this man off a cliff grew with every phrase spoken in the game. This manic asshole... The infuriating thing is, I am an aggressive scaredy cat who IRL does not trust people or religious nature easily in general, but I FUCKING KNOW Joseph would wrap me around his finger, and I hate it. And I still enamored with him.

Imagining him being chained in my basement or thrown off a cliff is an erotic fantasy by now. I am so normal about him, you can't imagine...

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My OCs think... a lot. There's a few Alternative Universes that vary their opinions a bit because of dynamics changing and switching, but overall it stays the same.

It really all started with Dina, I played ND and needed an avatar to express my opinions, though she quickly evolved into her own character. Dina Sommer is very loyal to Jacob in every story, she won't sleep herself to guard his peace, she won't eat if he has no food in his plate. In her eyes he is the best human being, she relies on him and is devoted to keep him safe. Dina respects Joseph. To a degree. He is not higher in her hierarchy than Jacob by any means and even more than that, with time Dina starts seeing Joseph as a threat to her commander's wellbeing therefore she doesn't like him in the slightest, though she won't talk about for obvious reasons. John and Dina barely meet and talk, and it was decided that they won't know what to do in each other's presence, because they both are fucking children. Let's say whatever opinion of John Jacob is translating to Dina, it is the exact one Dina has. Dina and Faith do not really know each other.

Salome Ann Clock is a caring soul, so no matter if my story of the day is angst or fluff, she tries to look for common ground and be a peace maker, to bring comfort to others, even when she is herself broken. She is able to find some pity in herself for Faith, respect for Jacob, forgiveness and compassion for John, but she is terrified of Joseph. Even in Twisted Untitled where she is married to him, Salome sees him as an idol first and foremost and is afraid of what he does to people and her, physically or mentally. Her basic was that she did not plan on killing so many people and Seeds too. Salome wanted to arrest them. To bring justice by the law, yes, but also because she wanted to do the right thing and save them. To realize she all this time was kept alive by Joseph's word alone was crushing to her.

My favorite warframe-witch-fairy-feetless-mystical-woman Wisp is enamored with Joseph, trusted most of the things he said for a very long time, they are very close friends. She is sorry for all his losses, loves him dearly despite understanding that he is sometimes goes too far. She is also the only character that can actually push that fucker around without consequences, and I love it for her. Because sometimes she actually does. She tries to protect his image in some sense, like a sober wife talks about her drunk husband, that she loves very much, but still embarrassed by him: he is not that bad, she swears, she'll grab him by the neck later if it makes you feel any better about the situation. Wisp respects Jacob very much since he is a soldier, hence a weapon, like she is, but because he is absolutely closed to her mental reach, they barely interact, which saddens her, but she accepts it as it is. Faith is Wisp's favorite girl, she is impressed by the Bliss control just like I am. They are definitely girlfriends on easy mode, but Joseph doesn't need to know it, hehe. If situation occurs, where Joseph and Faith will be in danger at the same time, there is a high possibility that Wisp will try to protect Faith first instead of running to Joseph. Wisp's relationship with John has two options: in any other story he is just a member of the family Wisp protects, because it is Joseph's family, but they are not even friends, bc John doesn't trust her; in Seeds & Witches however Wisp is John's long time friend, a nanny you could say, he trusts her 120%, and she cares for him like she never carried for Joseph even in any other story, John is her little mew mew baby princess boi💝

Recent addition to my group of cunts is Restless Mina. Originally started in Seeds & Witches, she is mostly indifferent in relation to all Seeds there, but Twisted Untitled helped me develop her, and it happens so she is in many ways a mirror image of John, so they are not very friendly to each other, but their hostility has more of a rival aspect than if they were actual enemies. Mina likes him, but hates to admit it, she teases and taunts him often just to make him mad. It is mutual. However this is a way for them to support each other, since they are not the same just as is, but in Joseph's eye as well, receiving the same treatment from him. Joseph wakes many complicated feelings in Mina, she is afraid of him, but sees no other light on her dark path, so runs to him when in need of a good word of wisdom. Which is often. She is also intrigued by Jacob and respects him highly, though is not very sure herself why that is. She is however tied to John (he introduces her to religion) and almost prohibited from visiting the mountains. So there's not much she can express about the older brother. Mina doesn't understand Faith, her field of work and influence is very confusing to the point of being scary to Mina, therefore she does not hold very high opinion about the sister.

I think that is all❣️

[yeyinde]

that uncle simon fic.. im sat.

alsaur the sukuna wip amongst the various cod projects made me giggle a bit, idk if u read jjk at all but @/yandere-daydreams has some amazing sukuna fics that i adore

i'm hoping i can get it fixed up soon but i'm like. now at war with myself over two different ideas/ways i want it to go after some late night thinking yesterday. once one side wins, it'll be posted!

ahhhh Sukuna, Charles Smith, Richie Jerimovich, and Jacob Seed are in there fighting for their lives amongst John Price (and co) lmao i gotta finish those up soon, though.

but oooohhhh will def check them out!!! i've been itching for a good Sukuna fic for a while now!

[lulu2992]

Hey there, I stumbled upon this post on Reddit. Have you encountered this apparent part of the Book of Joseph in game?

Hi :) I can’t see the post but I suppose you’re talking about the page titled “The Truth” (which people have extracted here or here). It’s basically a transcript of the sermon we hear near Joseph’s statue.

To my knowledge, it’s the only page from The Word of Joseph that we can stumble upon and read in Far Cry 5. I don’t remember exactly where it’s possible to find it, just that I’ve already seen it in the game, that there are several locations, and that Jacob’s office in St. Francis is one of them. Sadly, I can’t go there anymore because they apparently fixed the glitch that allowed us to enter the building…

They (sort of) reused that page in the Collapse DLC but most of the text is what he says in the mission “The Bliss” instead:

It would have been way too much work for the devs and it wouldn’t have been worth it because I guess most players don’t care, but I still think it would be cool if The Word of Joseph were a real book we could read in its entirety. We got The Book of Joseph (which doesn’t seem to exist in the game) and it was great to learn more about the Seeds’ past, but reading the Project’s holy book would have been interesting too!

[direwombat]

tagged by @socially-awkward-skeleton on yet another wonderful wipsday~!

if there's one thing about me, it's that i like to explore the brother dynamic between the seed boys and katc is no exception <3

Edited to fix the a factual error. A massive thank you to @the-silver-chronicles for catching that jacob fought in iraq and not afghanistan (as i had mistakenly written 💀)

“So, the Cleansing,” Jacob says, pointedly changing the subject. “How’d that go?”

[Joseph] sighs heavily and crosses his arms, leaning his hip against Jacob’s desk. “John nearly drowned the Deputy and she nearly scratched his eyes out.” 

Jacob snorts. “Yeah, that sounds about right.”

A fond, yet knowing smile graces Joseph’s lips. He nods, but it quickly grows melancholy. “I worry about him,” he confides. 

“He’s your little brother, Joe, it comes with the territory,” Jacob shrugs. 

“Maybe,” he hums, and he lapses into a brief, but thoughtful silence. Then, his brow creases and a realization flashes in his eyes. He looks to Jacob, cocking his head to the side. “You worry about me,” he smiles. 

Jacob leans back in his seat and crosses his arms. With raised brows, he regards his brother with detached incredulity. “Every damn day since you were born,” he grunts. It didn’t matter how much they bickered or how badly Jacob had wanted to stick Joe in a cardboard box and sell him for the price of an ice cream. At the end of the day, it was Jacob comforting baby Joseph when he couldn’t stop crying of colic. It was Jacob who stepped up to take the blame whenever the Old Man got pissed off. It was Jacob who set the barn ablaze just to get them away from that damn foster family. 

There hasn’t been a single day where the health and safety of his brothers hasn’t crossed Jacob’s mind. Especially after they were separated. Juvie, Iraq, wandering the streets of Rome with just a duffel bag and the clothes on his back, it was the dream of finding his brothers again that kept him putting one foot in front of the other, even when it would’ve been easier to fall back into his grave. 

Of course he worries about Joseph. And John. 

Hell, he even worries about Faith. 

They’re all he has left. He’ll do anything to keep them safe. 

But that isn't what this conversation is about. 

He scrubs his hand over his face and sighs. “Look,” he starts, “John didn’t really know you before you found him in Atlanta. He didn’t have the chance to outgrow the big brother worship, so you’re getting it now. He wants to impress you. Make you proud.”

“I am proud of him,” Joseph counters. “He’s come a long way from John Duncan.” He spits John’s former surname like it physically hurts him to say it. Whether it’s disdain for the hedonistic habits their brother used to entertain or contempt for the people who turned him into such a beast, Jacob can’t be sure. Maybe both. Maybe neither. Not that it should matter anymore. John is a Seed. He’s their brother. 

“Have you told him that?” Jacob asks. 

Joseph opens his mouth to speak, but he hesitates. “No,” he says eventually. “No, I suppose I haven’t” 

“Might be a good place to start.” 

Joseph nods, but the slight downward tug of his lips belies the gesture. “I just…I worry about his behavior. It’s been getting more erratic. Did you know he killed one of our flock last night? After we lost the Deputy?” 

Jacob lifts a shoulder in a half shrug. He hadn’t been aware of that particular homicide, but does remember the first time John had called him panicking because he’d wrapped his hands around Lana's throat and didn’t stop squeezing until it was far too late. He’d helped him dispose of the body and kept things quiet. As far as anyone is concerned the former Faith's death had been purely accidental -- just an unfortunate misstep that sent her plummeting down Horn Serpent Cave.  

But Joseph is right. John’s behavior is impulsive at best and dangerously erratic at worst. Jacob desperately wishes he knew how to fix it, but short of a fucking time machine, he’s not sure there’s much he can do. For better or worse they’re the culmination of others’ failures, and they’ve all had to grapple with that in their own ways. Joseph found his Faith. Jacob found Purpose. And John, much like the toddler Jacob remembers leaving behind, will do anything for attention and affection. Even if that means hurting and killing anyone he thinks stands in the way of him achieving those things.

“Ever think he might feel threatened by your flock?” Jacob asks. 

The look of utter shock that crosses Joseph’s face gives Jacob his answer. “What?” 

“You and I had more time to get to know each other,” he says simply. “John didn’t. He’s more like the rest of your followers than I am. He knows The Father more than he knows Joseph. He wants your attention and knows that zeal and devotion are ways to get it.”

“I suppose I’m not very good at this whole big brother thing,” Joseph sighs. 

“Nah, you’re just out of practice.”

Joseph lifts his thumb to his mouth and chews at the corner of his nail -- a childhood habit that’s persisted despite the lemon juice and clear nail polish their mother had used to dissuade him from it. “What do you suggest I do?” he asks after a long moment. 

“Christ, Joe,” Jacob breathes, and he mutters a quiet sorry when his brother shoots him a harsh look for his language. “Just…” He sighs. “Just listen to him, okay? And don’t patronize him. Despite our memories of him, he isn’t two anymore. He’s a grown man. Treat him like one. You trusted him with the Valley for a reason. Let him prove to you that he can handle it and try not to get in his way. The training wheels are long overdue to come off.” 

A gentle smile creeps across Joseph’s face. “I should be so lucky that God has blessed me with such a wise older brother.” 

Jacob’s eyes are rolling before he can stop himself. “None of that leaves this room,” he says gruffly. “Now, speaking of younger brothers, did you want to see the Deputy’s or not?”

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[spillingwithrp]

Mongrel here. I’ve reached my limit with all this. I handled things poorly by interacting with someone on this blog and sending a screenshot that I swore had a name scribbled out, but I didn’t. I dropped the ball by sending it in the first place. When I noticed I hadn’t had her name scribbled out, I panicked and got a pit in my stomach the size of Texas. There was no unsend button. No way to ‘fix’ yet another one of my foolish transgressions. I didn’t know what I set out to achieve there other than to lay the foundation for what once was and to establish regret for not trying to mend our friendship all those months ago. I am so sorry for the mess I created by the way I handled things. I need a hiatus and to think on things.

I totally agree I shouldn’t have reached out 3 times on the site nor on Discord. My twisted logic was that it was okay because there was a time where she was persistent and I in return just built up my walls and shut her out out of cowardice. I was hurting from so many different things going on and that’s no excuse for just shutting someone out at the first big mishap. I should’ve communicated instead of pushing her away. I clung to the past messages from her on Facebook where she sought me out and of where I was told I’d always be missed and some Pinterest post with a quote about how I could always reach out and she’d answer. I clung to that like it would always remain fact and I acted upon it when I was fully ready. It never occurred to me that her mind had changed along the way, and that’s my mistake for making an assumption. I had waited too long to fix things and then it became too late. My rationale for reaching out was only to discuss the mistakes I made and potentially right my wrongs. That’s all I set out to do. It was never to purposely hurt anyone or cause any issues. It was never to make someone’s experience on the site a bad one. Everything weighed so heavily on my mind these past few months and when I returned, I was shocked to see this blog and all these posts aimed at MIGHTY that I felt the need to try and help. I didn’t defend her for any cause but to try and do the right thing. Those posts weren’t deserved, but it also wasn’t my place to address them either. I kept on making stupid mistakes on the path to making things right and all I thought of was myself, what I wanted, what I needed. That is not an accurate reflection of the care I claim to have for someone who was my friend. I can see that.

I ask that the both of us be left alone and for the trolls to stop. Please. I acted immaturely in my approach to things and there’s no remedy for that. This blog planted a seed of hate the moment of its’ integration to this platform and it does more harm than good. It’s a playground for cruel words to be thrown around and to incite a reaction out to the intended target.

I made an executive decision to take down Jacob and put a pause on creating for the time being. Part of it is because I haven’t been writing with anyone, just reposting old aesthetics and drabbles and just shit-posting. That’s not making any sort of impact. That’s not something to be proud of. And besides, I lost my connection to writing a long while ago due to burnout at work and being busy with other hobbies outside of here.

I really am grateful for everyone who contributed to Jacob’s story and for all the wonderful friends I met along the way. I know he was a goofy goober and I really appreciate all the interactions he had on his banter posts and for all the reposts/shares. I loved writing him, the stories I created with so many of you, and all the edits that were made for me. I kept them for no reason other than to reflect back on good memories.

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[i-love-hot-men-in-video-games]

I did a character analysis on John Seed

As we know, John is the baby brother of Jacob and Joseph. He is also the Baptist of Eden's Gate. We know he's pretty wealthy, judging by his appearance, as well as the ranch he owns. But what do we not know about John Seed?

In the Book of Joseph and in-game, we get bits and pieces of John's past, but we never really get the full-scale of it all. we also never get John's point of view. But with everything I've gathered, we can try to see John as a person and know more about his personality.

CHILDHOOD

Before the separation of him and his brothers, John was a happy, go-lucky, loving, caring kid. John would've been the type of person to pick flowers for a pretty girl, or he would've given or even made gifts for those he cared about. If you were crying or were upset, he would've tried to comfort you. Unlike his brothers, John wailed out in pain when he was being beaten, yeah sure we could say that it was because John was a young child, but even before John was born, Joseph used to be beaten and not even flinch when he was a child. This gives us the hint that John is (or was) very sensitive to pain. After he was separated from his brothers, John was adopted by a wealthy, and highly religious family known as the Duncan's. Right away, the Duncan's believed John's soul to be riddled with sin. There is a theory backing this up. John Seed...is left-handed...here's why it makes sense. In Christianity, being left-handed is seen as evil by most, "as those who 'fall from God' are sent to his left hand side (Matthew 25:32-33). The fallen go to the left. Jesus sits at God's right hand side." Being left handed has also been associated with black magic, many left-handed people are still forced to use their right hand because of this superstition. The Duncan's probably thought John was a normal, innocent child at first. People as highly religious as the Duncan's more than likely wouldn't have adopted John otherwise. So what probably happened was that soon after John was adopted, he was probably working on his homework, writing with his left hand, and that's how the Duncan's found out. In the Book of Joseph, Joseph mentions that John was told 'every movement meant temptation' which sounds vague but makes a lot more sense if those movements were done with his left hand. For the most part, John uses his right hand if he's using them consciously. Subconsciously or even unconsciously, he uses his left. Hurk points out that John's lettering is terrible when tattooing. Hinting that John had his left-handed dominance beaten out of him. John's own tattoos are shakily done, further backing up the left-handed theory. Examples from the game are;

Using his left hand on Hudson's throat during his broadcast.

Gripping the Junior Deputy's wrist with enough strength to keep them there, despite the fact that he's dying at that point.

He uses his left hand on his chest to make circular movements...twice, (once in his broadcast, another in his bunker when we talk to him after escaping our confession.) Both times he talks about sin. This hints that John being left-handed is one of his many sins.

Some of the promo art for John shows him using his tattoo gun with his left hand.

Because John had been told that he was riddled with sin his whole life, he developed an obsession with atonement. With proving himself to be free of sin and worthy of love. Also the struggle he seems to have with his two personas. With that, we have God in the center (The Duncan's), John Duncan on the right, and John seed on the left.

And one more thing to note, all of John's sins are tattooed on his left hand.

So with that knowledge, John was tortured and severely interrogated by his parents, he was even sent through many fundamentalist pastors, most likely John was sent through a type of conversion therapy to fix his hand dominance. Out of all of John's siblings, he went through the most psychological abuse.

As John was going through interrogation, he had to confess any and all sins he committed, after a while, John learned that even if he had nothing to hide, he would have to make something up to try and lessen the beatings, but no matter what John said or did, he would be beaten anyway. John Learned how to disguise himself with what others wanted to see. With this he became extraordinarily skilled at manipulation and has used it to acquire info about people to use it for his own advantage.

TEEN/EARLY ADULTHOOD

John graduated high school as Valedictorian and attended a prestigious east coast law school. This heavily hints that John went to Harvard, I mean what other Prestigious East Coast Law School is there besides Harvard? John graduated at the top of his class, and given John's age and how long he's been a lawyer, it's most likely that John graduated Harvard very early, showing us that John is incredibly intelligent.

Let's take a step back though. Statistically, children that grow up in an abusive or even neglectful homes typically have very poor grades, so what does this say about John? Well all John ever wanted was to be loved and be worthy of love, so I think John believed that if he strived academically, then his parents would finally be proud of him and start showing him love, but alas, John's parents passed away sometime in his early adult years, never granting him that opportunity. I believe John grieved after his parents death, but not for the fact that they passed, but for the fact that he didn't make them proud and now he never will.

After John graduated is when it is believed that the Duncans passed and John inherited a small fortune and became one of the fastest rising lawyers in Atlanta, specifically, John is a real-estate lawyer. Overtime, John became incredibly wealthy and developed all sorts of connections, portraying himself as a physical sign of success. Although John was wealthy, strikingly handsome, successful, intelligent, and well-liked, John actually hated himself and society for what it had done to him and his childhood, and even wished for its destruction.

John had written a note titled "My New Father", it talks about how he feels about Joseph and himself.

"I feel like I've been born again; given a second chance at life. I have a father who loves me. I've never known such love. On the outside, I met the requirements of a well-adjusted adult. But inside, that was a different story. Inside you found a tormented boy, damaged and afraid. Rejection and fear controlled my life then. Today, it is acceptance and love that drives me forward."

The context of the note show us that John most likely suffers from Avoidant Personality Disorder.

After a while, John had given himself up to unholy pleasures and became addicted to drugs and sex. In the Book of Joseph it mentions that cocaine was passed around at parties that John himself had hosted. Therefore hinting that John was addicted to cocaine.

When Joseph contacted John, he was working as an associate at a major law firm, undertaking the redevelopment of his childhood neighborhood in Rome. After finding each other, John joined Joseph and found Jacob at the Veteran's Center. John undertook the roles of the Confessor, the Baptist, and the Public Face of Eden's Gate.

PRESENT DAY

Upon arriving in Hope County, John used his fortune to buy up land and property throughout Holland Valley without hassle and quickly became acquainted with the legal system in Montana.

DESCRIPTION

John is described differently by many people. Some say "he's a funny man, but not the 'haha' type of funny." Others say he's a 'creep' and that he has 'a creepy smile'. One person had said that "there's no soul behind those eyes", John has also been described to have a "very intense gaze".

Adelaide is very attracted to John. She makes many lewd comments about him such as "he is bangable as he is crazy", "he's on my 'any hole' list", "bet John gives the best spankings", "killing him would be a waste of a perfectly good set of buns", that she wouldn't mind letting him "harvest her valley", ect. She likes his coat, so much so that she says she wants to see xander in it with nothing on underneath. She is also jealous of his ranch. She also says that he's playing a "strange game" with the Deputy and thinks he might be in "some kind of love" with them.

Charles believes that John has an inferiority complex, and that out of his entire family, he understands John the least, saying that he should've been a wall street megalomaniac instead of a baptist.

Dutch warns the Deputy that "John doesn't make empty threats". Dutch has already saved multiple people from John's Cleansings. He calls him "little ole Johnny" at one point.

Grace believed that she would be the one to kill John and says she hopes she will never forget the sight of his plane falling. Maybe she'll get it tattooed on her one day> According to her, "the more you ruffle his feathers, the angrier he gets" because "he can't deal with embarrassment" or "being made to look bad". She calls his ranch "Hypocrite Center". She thinks he's "too much of a fucking pussy" to come and get the Deputy and their companions personally. After his death, she believes he is in Hell.

Hudson is disappointed she didn't get to see him die. She recalls that, when the Deputy fled the bunker after the Confession and even though he didn't say anything, it was obvious John thought he had failed. She adds, things then got 'worse', as if he was trying to prove something to Joseph. She is for "instant death penalty" for people like him.

Hurk Jr. suggests that, since John believes in the "Power of YES", screaming 'yes' at him several times should force him to leave them alone. He hopes he would at least act like it did something to him. He says "Johnny boy" wants to invite him in his bunker but that he invites John to "kiss [his] entire asshole" instead. He also comments he is "lusting for a dogfight" with the Deputy before humorously suggesting dogfights probably turn John on. He says he is glad he died because he never learned proper lettering or font techniques so his tattoos looked terrible.

Jerome thinks he is 'cruel & selfish'. He was once kidnapped by him and forced to confess. He still seems shocked he said what he said... He was then beaten and left for dead in the woods. He thinks John enjoys making people suffer, that he is 'a con-man', that he just "seeks glory and riches", and that he "immersed himself in a sea of self-aggrandizement". Long ago, he asked John what was driving him and says that, while he gave him many answers, all of them were lies.

Jess calls him "a piece of shit", maybe the worst she's ever met. She says he had his ranch built just for him and that he likes to scare people with his plane.

Kim says he once sent his men to try and pressure her into selling their property when nick was away. One cultist got too close and she broke his nose. They tried to have her arrested after the incident but Merle helped get a restraining order.

Larry calls him an 'unsavory fellow'.

Mary May says he is "one son of a bitch". She remembers the first time he set foot in the Spread Eagle and how he looked at her, like she was 'a meal'. The day he gave her a tattoo, she says he made her wait half a day in a room before eventually letting her go without harming her.

Merle says he isn't superstitious but he still asks if someone put a stake through his heart when he died, just in case. At one point, he calls him "John Fuckface Seed".

Nick says John stole all the baby equipment people had given them and that John said his sin was Greed. Nick disagrees because he just wants to support his family and it's not a sin.

Sharky says he knows pressure points that can make people feel immense pain. Like Adelaide, he thinks John is sexually attracted to the Deputy and that they should "just fuck and get it over with". He loves to make fun of him, saying he is the type of guy to masturbate in front of a mirror and to marvel at his facial expressions, that he is "like that little brother who gets farted on", joking he got 'the clap' so many times he was "diagnosed with a standing ovation", calling him "old Johnson", ect.

Wendell thinks he would fit in well in Washington because he is a Charismatic liar.

Zip believes his "athiest masters" use his bunker for "sexual rituals".

NPCs say the key around John's neck is the only key to the deeper parts of his bunker, where the people they kidnapped are locked. Apparently, John calls it "the Key to Paradise". They warn the deputy he always gets what he wants, one way or another, that they can't run from him, and that every time you meet him, you come away with scars. They seem surprised he insists on catching the Deputy alive. He bought most of the businesses in the area but gave jobs to the cultists only. They imply he made it illegal to hunt in Holland Valley. One civilian wonders if he has a big book with everyone's name in it and if he will come for them personally. When he Marks someone, he then sends them a video. They think one of the reasons why he almost drowns people during the baptisms is because it's "a power play". According to them, his bunker is the cult's pantry and the only way to get in is to be "invited". John wants people to say "yes" but someone thinks he likes it when people say "no" because it gives him "an excuse to get mean". He has reportedly always been obsessed with the people of Fall's End, and especially with Mary May. He and Eden's Gate wanted Nick's plane and they didn't like it when he told them to "fuck off". People say Hudson is tough and it will be difficult for John to break her but they also say he "loves a challenge"... One man who had to confess says he manages to make people say things they didn't want to say. After seeing his ranch, a lot of civilians think he has awful taste in interior decorating and that he has "the worst case of younger sibling syndrome". they have ever seen. A woman explains he likes to "throw his weight around" while another says he has "scars that run deep" and that, deep down, maybe he wants to die.

They say he is relentless, a "rapaticious thug", a "Psychopath", a "Pestilence", a "Pissant" (compared to Jacob), a "Sadistic Cat", "the runt/baby of the Seed Family", a "goddamn pussy", a "human toilet", a "bully", a "snot-nosed fearful little shit", a "bona fide nut job", a"control freak", "such a neat freak it's inhuman", a "little punk", "super emotional", someone with a "singular mind" (the one of a serial killer), that he has an aggressive/creepy grin and a scary look on his face. They hate him but seem less afraid of him than they are of Faith and Jacob. Some even talk about "descrating his corpse or his sepulture" (they don't say such things about the other Heralds).

A few people believe he is just Joseph's puppet and no better than his dog. One woman thinks he never had Joseph's full confidence, unlike Faith. They say John sees his brother as a father and they hope that because of the Deputy's actions, Joseph will be ashamed of him and even "disown" him. It seems Jacob always tried to look out for him.

COMMENTS ABOUT THE OTHER CHARACTERS

John calls the Deputy to tell them Jerome is "selfish and misguided" and that his followers wouldn't have left him if he were "a true man of God".

He says the Deputy is "a murderer and a coward", and comments that they don't seem to give "a second thought to killing". According to him, their sin is Wrath. He claims he "personally" knows the feelings that drive them and can help them wash away their sins. He desperately tries to make them understand they are not on the right path and, while he admires their will and tenacity, he seems sad they refused to listen to him and didn't care about what he tried to say.

Wow, a lot to unpack here. So most of the comments are negative, even a few of the cult members had some negative and odd things to say, but what can we gather from these comments?

Well... to the Eden's Gate members, he is an odd man and seems very creepy, but why?

John is a very lustful man with a lot of Wrath and Lust within him. It seems that John and other Eden's Gate members have a lot of sex considering that people have said that his home smells funny and people claim that they have sexual rituals in his bunker. Many comments have been about how John gets "turned on", by dogfights, forcing people to confess by hurting them, that he loves to put up a fight and deal with challenging people. John knows pressure points that cause immense pain, is skillful with a knife, and that he's playing games with the Deputy. John, I believe was once secretly part of the BDSM community, given the fact that causing pain excites him and that he knows where the most pain is caused, only those of the BDSM community know where those are and to either avoid it or use it for pleasure. He almost drowns people during baptisms as a "power play". Also when John gets done with Nick during the 'Atonement'... he is literally MOANING as he's cleaning himself off, NEED I SAY MORE!?

When it comes to upsetting John, it's best not to as he's known for fulfilling his threats, so don't take him lightly. He seems to get angry a lot to hide his embarrassment, he also seems to scare people using his plane as leverage, he does all these things simply to scare people and not actually harm them, but it seems he also uses it as leverage and seems to always win. There are many mean and terrible things said about John, even the fact that people hope Joseph will disown his own brother. But there is so much about John that is well hidden until you start to dig...

First of all, it's blatantly obvious John has a big crush on the Deputy, from the way he looks at us for a second after he lifts us out of the water after almost drowning us, to when he has to pause before turning around to meet our gaze in the bunker, to the wedding theme before the 'Atonement' at the church.

I'm going to further elaborate on John's behavior in the bunker. When John has to pause before looking at us, it seems he's trying to prepare himself and keep his cool, you know, "like omg my crush is right here, act cool." When John slams down the industrial stapler to look at us... his hips sway and he stares with admiration in his eyes. When he comes up to us to assemble his tattoo gun, he slows down his speech as he stares at the Deputy's chest, he was lost in thought for a moment, most likely because he was probably thinking what we would look like without a shirt on. He also rips open our shirt to look at our chest, before looking back up at us, and down at our lips for a split second before looking back up at our eyes. So yeah, John has a very OBVIOUS huge crush.

John is rarely understood, many people just call him sadistic and crazy, but deep down, John is a scared child who has been starved of love and affection (this is why he represents Famine), and perhaps even genuinely cares about people and the Deputy.

I'll elaborate and it might take a while...

stay tuned for part 2

[jur1sdr]

legal name . franklin persie nelson . nicknames and pseudonyms . foggy , foghorn , frankie . date of birth . july tenth , cancer . gender . transgender male . ethnicity . white american . place of birth . new orleans , louisiana .

currently living . hell's kitchen , new york city . spoken languages . english – fluent , not much of an accent but something there from moving to new york from louisiana when he was ten . gets more apparent when he's tired or drunk . punjabi – near fluent , excellent conversationally .

education . university of florida – undergraduate degree in political science and public relations , full scholarship from the florida ice gators . columbia law school – juris doctor . occupation . lawyer , previously at landman and zach , and hogarth , chao , & benowitz . now working again as a partner at small firm with partners page and murdock .

hair colour . dark blond , a little past shoulder length , usually swept into a knot . eye colour . grey . stature . relaxed , a front of nonchalance , confident , hands in pockets , shoulders untense . physique . larger , soft , tall enough to hold his chin up in a line up of other men . scarred , changed on purpose . once self-conscious and now proud .

family information

siblings . older – hera nelson , a doctor who moved a few state lines away before realising even if she hadn't considered them close she needed her family . younger – theo nelson , a butcher , dad , and widow currently trying to adjust . genie jacobs-nelson , recently divorced and getting ready to takeover nelson's hardware when their dad gives it up . candace nelson ( can be found @originhl ) , youngest by thirteen years , living with her brother while she finishes high school and trying to fix what she calls his ' depressing bachelor era ' despite his objections .

parents . rosalind sharpe – mother . biting , venomous and conniving , a masterclass in how to destroy a child . edward nelson – father . soft hearted , fumbling , stubborn . anna nelson – warm , comforting , wise and firm , the half of edward that was always missing before he found her . relatives . his nieces and nephews , many and all too young to not be tripping over each other all the time . pets . none , but he'll leave seed out for the pigeons on his fire escape .

relationship information

sexual orientation . bisexual , more interested in connection but can be a little vain at times . relationship status . single , hopeful , something flitting between him and marci stahl but nothing concrete enough . something in his chest warm and alive but light enough to ignore for all his friends .

tagged by . @sangiusd3vil tagging . @wintershieldedheart , @heroeslogic , @sevenbulletsavior , & you !

[inafieldofdaisies]

Character Edit | Mercedes “Mercy” Sibley (FC5 OC) | Part 2 of her EG photoshoot + a little snippet

"I will be on my best behavior.", Mercedes announced with a smile that only made Jacob's frown deepen, but whatever he picked up on in her tone wasn't enough to keep him from following Isaac out of his office as they set out on fixing whatever mess Eli's men had made. The second their footsteps receded down the hallway, she twirled around, moving quickly towards his desk and lowered to her knees as she pulled at one of the drawers he didn't keep locked. Her plan was to stash away his poster before he would inevitably reappear, which wasn't exactly the most dangerous thing she had done thus far and yet her heart raced in anticipation of getting caugh all the same. There was a level of addictiveness to the risk and how he might react at the fact he had been right all along. With the drawer completely out and placed on the ground, she folded the poster a couple of times and ripped off a piece of tape that would hold it to the wooden surface. Her hand reached into the compartment and made contact with something already occupying the hiding place she had planned on using. "Well… what do we have here, Jake?", she let out a quiet laugh and ripped off the small piece of paper free, eyes darting to the door then back to her discovery. It took a moment for her to realize what she was looking at: she had expected a list of codes or anything he might consider sensitive information, instead she was staring at a photograph. Of herself, nonetheless. Mercedes knew he had run a background check on her and that there was a hefty amount of pictures from her life before the Project to go with it, but the image she was holding was a more recent shot Joseph had insisted on, saying she was part of the family and the occasion needed to be commemorated. In it she wore one of the white dresses the oldest Seed claimed he hated so much. A knowing smile swooped over her as she retaped his little secret to the inside of the desk and his poster joined it further back where he wouldn't accidentally reach it, then slid the drawer into its box.