#jesus fucking christ i'm crying

[williamrikers]

my thoughts are very incoherent at this point but that conversation between akk and aye in part 4 had me crying. because that conversation DID NOT ACTUALLY RESOLVE THE ISSUE!!! aye didn't take akk's feelings seriously at all, and didn't even try to put his concerns to rest, when the concern is that aye doesn't love him the way akk needs to be loved?? HELLO?? the solution to that is not "you're so cute when you're angry" it's just not 😭 please please PLEASE let them have an actual conversation about this tomorrow, please let aye actually take akk's concerns seriously 😭🙏 this is just a minefield of poor communication tbh and i don't want akk to be unhappy 😭😭😭

[sehtoast]

me: MY HAIRLINE IS RECEDING OH NO OH FUCK

also me: full time student (worth noting i wrote stupid here at first without realizing), 20-30 hours in customer service every week, teaching myself 3/4 classes, teaching myself advanced algebra with a teacher (basically just a proctor) who shuts down any/all asks for help, juggling college financial woes, navigating dying relationships/people abandoning and/or attacking me bc i don't have time for things i used to anymore, none of my hobbies are making me happy when and if i have time for them,, i have no time for myself, i'm on my second all-nighter this week, i'm perpetually exhausted in a way sleep isn't fixing, my body aches because i'm so tired, and i'm barely able to stay asleep when i do get the chance bc the anxiety wakes me up

my hairline: two hops this time!

[doctorweebmd]

a really nice comment on 'nothing else fills' made me actually reread it for like, the first time in its entirety and.

wow. its... actually really good. like. i teared up multiple times and i'm the one that wrote it. why was i so mean to myself about it.

[tricoufamily]

once again thinking about how easy it would be for me to be in a relationship if i was cis

[queerofthedagger]

behold! sauron.

[sunnykeysmash]

thinking about this discussion I had before FVR even came out, thinking about blends, thinking about "give me dong or give me death", about how it's both. thinking about both mac and dennis getting exactly what they want (mac's fantasy in saves the day, for mac to go away from dennis) but with a TWIST (for mac to realize there's nothing on the other side, for dennis to realize he needs mac). thinking about the pulse checking, thinking about the flatline.

thinking about my meta that I wrote before s15 even came out, about how we've been witnessing an impossible choice that's splitting dennis in two, thinking about "<3 or die" being the name of the salon in chop (and off with the head / just start over meta...), thinking about new beginnings, and meet cutes. thinking about rebirth, and baptisms.

[imminent-danger-came]

The dragon prince is one of the best things I've ever watched I'm dying

[samantha-and-her-chaotic-desires]

im gonna fucking cry.

(also im on the hellsite now so here)

[thatdykepunkslut]

I just coughed up a nearly intake piece of mango into my mouth from my ... idefk lower esophagus or something??? it tasted good... but at what cost... 0/10 emotional experience, do not recommend.

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

they should invent a version of looking at tiktok comments on videos covering what's happening in palestine that doesn't turn your thoughts into those of a fucking jigsaw apprentice

[inkwingsinc]

i hope this isn’t super weird to share but i’m going through a grief situation in my family right now and for some reason your art really is getting me through. i’m not sure why! i loved it before this happened but reading it again is comforting somehow and the way that your characters are embraced in their flaws and feel their pain fully for some reason calls to me at the moment. can’t wait to see what happens between them ♥️ they’re messy but it’s so cathartic and exactly what i need right now

also a song that makes me think of your fic whether it’s appropriate or not is ‘we’ll never have sex’ by leith ross xox

happy friday

No darling, this isn't weird. Thank you for reaching out.

I'm going through something myself and this little pocket of "weird" that I'm writing is kind of helping me push through. I read fiction for the same purpose - some feelings are safer when they're explored within a story. Please never apologize for what you find comfort in, because at the end of the day, no one has to walk in your shoes/live in your skin/see the world through your eyes/experience what you've weathered. We're all on this planet trying to Fucking Make It, man, and I tell you what: find joy where you can. If it doesn't hurt anyone, it's game. If it's my fanfic then dude hold the reigns and let out a scream when it bucks. That's all I've got to say on that.

Also: thank you for the song rec!!!! About to listen now, very excited <3 Song recs are literally a good 90% of my playlist additions and I'm spoiled rotten with them omg <3333

I hope you're well. Please know I'm thinking such kind thoughts in your direction, and happy Friday lovely <3333333

[mossistyping]

ahah heyyy what to do when you find out your treatment might not be working and the next treatment to try is like. 10k every 8 weeks ahahhhh no don't be a burden you're so sexyyyyy

[piplupod]

and i often get upset with myself for complaining and venting as much as i do, or also for being as anxious as i am, but given the circumstances that I live in, I do think realistically I am being ... incredibly "well-behaved", all things considered. i could be acting so much worse.

but i do still wish i weren't so ... [gestures vaguely at this whole mess] because it's off-putting for people! and understandably so! but i wish i could make friends!

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

Do you ever just get hit with a wave of the most intense grief you've felt in a while

[psalmsofpsychosis]

at a point in my life where i literally only pick up longform stories that break my spine from 7 different angles on every single page and by the time i'm finished with them i feel like i'm living my childhood home for the first time, again

[rustystars]

crying at school is so embarrassing what the fuck is teachers problem with direct communication