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thecoffeetragedy · 2 years
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I should read the ronan/dreamer trilogy because I care a lot about adam parrish but tbh I probably won’t because I only care about adam parrish
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kindaasrikal · 1 month
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Do you think Cole used to help Nya with feeling comfortable in her own skin again and feeling flesh and bones, as well as acting alive again, whilst also helping her keep her form and be more conscious and sure of it after merging with the sea, simply because he gets it?
Ghost Cole you will not be forgotten.
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fromtheseventhhell · 5 months
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One major factor missing from most debates on Arya and Lyanna's beauty is that they're being judged by their society's extremely patriarchal values. In both looks and personality, that context is essential to understanding how others perceive them. George explores the misogyny experienced by non-conforming women, especially with Arya, and it's interesting how he plays with that regarding their physical beauty.
Her mother used to say she could be pretty if she would just wash and brush her hair and take more care with her dress, the way her sister did. (The Blind Girl, ADWD) "You never knew Lyanna as I did, Robert," Ned told him. "You saw her beauty, but not the iron underneath. She would have told you that you have no business in the melee." (Eddard VII, AGOT)
These two quotes offer a nice summation of this idea. With Arya, her supposed lack of beauty is defined by her being a non-conforming wild child. Her hair is messy, her face is dirty, and she's often in "lower class" clothing while engaging in unladylike activities. None of this says anything about her physical beauty but it tells us everything about how she's perceived. Arya could be pretty...If she conforms to society's standards for a highborn Lady. With Lyanna, however, we get the opposite. Where Arya is judged based on her personality, Robert's romanticization of Lyanna is rooted solely in her looks. He doesn't know anything about the person she really was. There is an assumption that, because she looked a certain way, her personality must fit and Robert imagines her much softer and more passive than she actually was.
That Arya isn't pretty or Lyanna wasn't wild are two perceptions that George specifically pushes back against. This is where people miss the brilliance of them being linked as literary mirrors; it is largely about us learning more about Lyanna, but it touches on more than that. The significance of them being written as wild, willful, and with their own beauty is that George isn't writing his female characters around patriarchal expectations. When people debate their beauty, that's often the trapping they fall into. Beauty and non-conformity are treated as mutually exclusive factors when the story itself never makes that point; this is also the logic that leads people to the (incorrect) conclusion that Lyanna and Arya aren't meant to be similar. Arya's self-esteem issues around her looks and being a Lady make this a topic certain to be addressed in the future; George has made it a part of the story. The conclusion shouldn't be that "looks don't matter", but that looks aren't indicative of a character's value, personality, or morality.
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rosewilsonravager · 1 month
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Welp. So much for Allwinter Rose not being a villain.
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JUST REALIZED A WHILE AGO THAT I'VE NEVER FULLY DRAWN THE FAN DESIGN I MADE FOR SQUID
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Yeah he is not really excited about this like bro stop looking at me like that [joke]. Okay time to yap about how I landed on this design specifically. My Squid fan-design went through a few iterations [most of them stuck to rot in my brain because they low-key suck] I was debating for a while whether he should have two legs or four and decided on four, he went from having a Howie coat, a long coat [which that design was actually drawn albeit literally just for a crappost] to the current trench coat. I was also debating whether his head should be just a regular screen or a hologram.
When I was designing Squid's body, I made these mental notes:
It should give off cartoon villain vibes [specifically the kind that uses some cool looking evil technology or similar stuff.]
Must have some sort of squid-like features, even if they're kinda vague.
This one is later on, but there should also be some military vibes sprinkled on.
This is also later on, there should be yellow accents because of the game's color palette on the first chapter.
NO broken heart imagery [don't worry, just a personal pet peeve of mine cuz I don't think Squid will design a body and even consider that but you do you]
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inga-don-studio · 4 months
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Nothing like suddenly getting possessed to make a whole flippin' mask/character two flippin' days before an event o.O
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With luck this will be the start of a Greenman-inspired Renaissance Faire character. I don't have time to do more than a glorified kit-bash (i.e. no sculpting), so I sliced the face off a plastic blucky skeleton I'd already scavenged parts from for other projects. I attached it to a worbla backing, added a scrim of translucent fabric, and painted the hell out of it to give it a nice 'buried for a while' patina. Part of the plastic skull that it was cut from is sitting beside it for comparison, and I'm pretty proud of the transformation.
I still have a lot left to do tonight and tomorrow is Faire, so here's hoping this doesn't turn into a dumpster fire in the next few hours.
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spectrearia · 3 months
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for as much as i keep reblogging posts about writing and my personal thoughts on it (eg: going on about how i gotta just write what i want and have fun etc), it's incredible that i haven't been able to lay a single word down in any WIP doc for so long now
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daz4i · 6 months
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i feel like. ppl tend to take "mori isn't as bad as fanon makes him" - a very true statement - and run just a bit too far with it, and end up ignoring the bad shit he HAS done. i'm not even talking abt the pedo stuff or even killing ppl (mostly bc i don't see ppl actually ignoring those) like genuinely just. the manipulation the grooming the putting children in danger or captivity. he is literally a mafia boss ofc he'll do this sort of things. ik he can be goofy and fun but guys 😭 you're just removing his layers in the other direction c'mon
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bunnihearted · 7 months
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#i feel so lonely now bc i have no one to talk to sksksk#my sisters gets mad whenever i try to talk 2 mom and she just slammed doors nd got irritated at me#nd my mom is so stressed nd in a bad mood so she just got annoyed when i tried saying smth to her#so ig i should just vent to my bestfriend beloved diary confidant thats been here for me for 5yrs<3333#anywayyy today was rough.. i woke up w a headache after 3hrs of sleep :((#but still had to get up nd get ready nd eat boxed mashed potatoes for breakkyy 🤢🤮 (it's so gross after eating it everyday lol)#then w my hunchback nd achy stomach i went to school. it was frustrating bc ppl r so fkn rude#they bumped into me at the bus nd i had to sit like a weirdo caging my left stomach side from everyone. had to elbow some dumb fkn guy bc he#pressed his backpack into my side. so i had to basically push it away from me lol he thought i was so weird. but move tf away asshole??????#got to school nd checked myself in the mirror nd i was so pale i look like absolute garbage its annoying :((#it was next to insufferable to endure class bc my head hurt so bad (it was the worst part i think) nd i couldnt sit up straight so my back#hurt so bad too sksksks :<#but i managed to write a little but on my assignment#then i left a bit earlier bc i couldnt stand it anymore i was feeling so bad#wrnt to the library bc i had to return some books. could only carry two small ones tho so have to go back multiple times sksksk#felt soooo bad but ate some more disgusting mashed potatoes nd took a nap w an ice pack. took a migraine pill even if it upsets my stomach🤣#now a few hours later i feel better physically#buuuuuut im so miserable im not even kidding#idc if it sound pathetic or fatty but genuinely that moment w a cup of coffee nd a small chocolate treat everyday makes me feel sm better#like im not kidding!!!!! it does a lot for my peace of mind sksksk T-T#im so miserable bc i cant eat anything still im so hungry :((#and im weak. im pale. my skin's dry. it's itchy bc of malnutrition... i feel faint nd dizzy nd slow nd just not good at all#im so frustrated i hate this sm i wanna feel strong and healthy!! i dont wanna be constantly hungry. i wanna go to the gym nd go for walks#i wanna be able to sit up straight nd not get back pain!!!#i know i know it's only been 8 days since surgery and it takes time to heal i get it..... :(#but theres just too much going on and im so sick and tired of it all#mostly i just wanna be able to eat and feel strong bc i feel so weak nd i miss food so much sksksksk
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dutybcrne · 26 days
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Kaeya is learned ambidextrous. He was originally left handed, but when his left hand became injured during his fight with Diluc, he learned to use his right until it healed. He considers it a blessing because now he can switch up which hand he writes with whenever one gets tired.
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nekrophoria · 11 months
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Been bending backwards trying to make something I can post but nothing I make looks good enough for me >_>
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ghostsinthecellar · 2 months
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so far today I've had 'real' breakfast (required cooking), started drying the last of yesterday's laundry, put all the display stuff back in the bookshelf that friend borrowed and returned, sorted out a couple of things neither of us want, put most of the tools and tape that were scattered into one container and put it where it goes in the laundry room, picked up the scattered trash in the back room, gathered all the change into one place (if not one container), and stacked up some cardboard to break down. :)
I still have a bunch of DVDs to put in the bottom of the shelf (for now) and a couple of large bins to empty and wipe out, another bag of laundry to dry, some things to haul upstairs, dishes to do, and some dirty laundry (low priority/intense wash stuff that's waiting for either a future laundry run or the magical arrival of a new washer) to sort so I can have my laundry baskets back but I'm doin pretty dang good today
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imflyingfish · 2 months
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Its weird because i dont actually have much of a desire to move to france or use french reguarly in my life but at this point ive deadicated over a year to learning it so i might as well keep going and finish
#it just makes me frustrated but whatevee#its like a pretty big part of my life but A. i never feel like i can chat about it#b. its generally increadibly difficult with no real way to track progress#c. its both. increadibly alienating and connecting#its so easy to feel lonely as a foreigner#foreigner isnt the right word since its the internet but thats the closest thing ive got#and i want to talk about it and share my music and what ive found but thats also difficult#because then people either expect you to be good at it which im literally not or#one time my friend made a comment at me like 'your french rap because your so cool'#and like NO!!!!! IM NOT COOL IM A LANGUAGE NERD!!!!!!#idk it made me feel bad and like. everytime i try to express my love for learning this i feel like a pretentious ass#when NO. im literally just enjoying a process and developing a skill that im very excited about and it sucks not beinf able to talk about it#it also doesnt help that the majority of instences are very small things#like today i met someone and asked them if they had a portal and they said no#THATS MASSIVE FOR ME. I ASKED A QUESTION AND GOT A RESPONSE. I TRANSCENDED LANGUAGE BARRIERS ARE YOU FUCKING ME#how is that not frankly INSANE#anyway idk. i want to be better but the joy is in the process or whst fucking ever#im also realising a lot of the time i feel like i have to prove myself to french servermates#i have to be useful i have to be generous i have to be a good builder#because if im not then im annoying and slow and everyone gets confused#im starting to want to find characters in shows like me who are stuck between languages and who are trying o reach across to others despite#idk learning a langauge has given me so much perspective on the world. other things seem to fall flat#its nice to feel smarter than i usually do#i often think im just not very smart at these kind of things but i am it just takes a different method for me i guess#idk#fish talks
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toastsnaffler · 11 months
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sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(
#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests...#theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man#it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing#eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED#and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself#by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others#it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless#ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!)#but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking#and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk#oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao#and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3#voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries#that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them#and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long#+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc#and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it#to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍#anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite#if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^)#.vent#.diaries
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warningstandbygo · 8 months
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The great thing about being an Adult is that if you randomly get Extremely Overwhelmed by Existence, no one can stop you from going into your closet in your bedroom with your laptop, changing into a onesie, and sitting in the dark quiet enclosed space all by yourself (even though you're the only one here because your spouse isn't home from work yet).
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liddlediddy · 3 months
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I just had a "conversation" (I use that word VERY lightly) with my mom about fatphobia that can be boiled down to:
Me (fat): "I feel bad for my friend (also fat) because no matter how much she diets & exercises (which is a lot) she's never gonna look like how she wants to look (skinny) because she's not built like that. It sucks that society demonizes fat people & prioritizes weight over health & that the healthiest person I know (friend) believes she's worthless"
Mom (fat as well and also fatphobic): "so you think that if I went to the doctor right now they'd tell me I was healthy?" (huh??????)
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