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#just real small things like that yknow
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when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING
#cw blood#luckys original content#ITS SMALL BUT ITS ART SO IT GOES ON THE ART BLOG#also wwaooooww its meee its my lil persona!!! i dont draw myself enough....#anyway i have bigger things in the works. im slowly but surely chipping away at a pd thumbnail for that pd thumbnail project#FINALLY COLORING. BUT COLORING IS SO HARD AND I HAVNT BEEN IN THE COLORING MOOD#SO IVE JUST BEEN MAKING RLY DUMB COMICS INSTEAD... OOPS..#idk if anything finished n polished will be posted here anytime soon. BUT i post wips of everything on my twitter#and i post jrwi exclusive wips on my slucky blog. you may look at those if u have Truck Art Wishdrawls. as many do. as many do#THIS BLACKJACK JOB IS RLY AWESOME BTW DONT GET ME WRONG#i work three 12-hour days ina row. i gotta take an hourlong bus up to the depths o the mountains and then#i get to stay in this delightful lil hotel that was built in an ooold hospital. its a whole casino town. and an OLD one at that#ITS GORGEOUS HERE. last week my bus home was delayed for 2 hours#so i finally got the chance to head to other casinos and try drinkin n gambling. lost ten bucks to a pretty girl. NOT the first time#i rlly wanna try it again!!! i love interracting w ppl and i love being inebriated in public bc im just so sweet and pleasant and friendly#and pretty girls LLOOOOVEE MEEEEE i think i just need to go to gay bars more#but theres fucking NONE HERE. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im collectin comrade queers up here tho#we wanna make a Group but we just gotta come up witha name first. i need something weird and strange#yknow i remember being in highschool. and being miserable n unmedicated. my mommas ultimatum was that;#if i dont drop out of highschool; i dont need to move out. she probably wouldntve kicked me out anyway bc my mommas sweet like that but#she REALLY wanted me to graduate. and i remember dreading that i might never do that#i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated#i remember worrying back then that i might not ever be able to handle myself out there. that i'd be too dependant on others#AND HERE I AM. DID U KNOW I WAS LOOKIN AT HOUSES A WHILE AGO? IM AN ADULT AND IM WWINNINNNGGGGGGG#IM RUNNING OUTA ROOM BUT HERES MY ADVICE TO YOU. BC I KNOW UR FUCKING SCARED TOO. THE ONE THING THAT SAVED ME.#THAT KEPT ME FROM SINKING INTO DESPAIR IS REMEMBERING ONE THING: ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#MOST PPL YOU CAN JUST WALK UP TO N ASK A QUESTION N THEYLL ANSWER. THEYRE ALL NPCS THEYRE NOT REAL#LIKE IF U WALK INTO A BANK AND ASK HOW A DEBIT CARD WORKS THEY WILL HELP YOU#AND IF YOU THINK THEY HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES RELATING TO MONEY. YOU CAN ASK THE CUSTOMERS TOO. ITS JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#ANYWAY STAY SAFE KIDS HAVE FUNNNNN. IM GOING TO GO DO DRUGS NOW. HOPE U CAN DO DRUGS SOON TOO. I LOVE YOU
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clickityweasel · 5 months
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made and destroyed a friendship at work today
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averlym · 9 months
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which is gayer? SIX or Adamandi (real)
adamandi
#like. gotta break it to you. one of these musicals is canonically lgbtq and it's not the one where women sing about their dead husband yknow#like. idk what to say! but <shrugs>#ask me stuff???#must say the fandoms are really quite different. i'm quite fascinated by the dynamics tbh#also i realise a lot of the queendom(? forgot that was the name for a hot sec) go mad about women in shiny pretty costumes slaying#but also hmmmm adamandi is very much gender for me.( for all the characters. but specifically vincent and beatrix)#and the thing about queerness is it literally gets woven into the narrative. and it's Obvious.#smth about canonical lgbt+ rly is just. it hits. the representation is real? as opposed to fandom interpretations only#(and like... i love fandom interpretations and when people can see a new side to the character that they feel seen in!!!)#(but having it be in the original content is just... yeah... you do feel kinda especially seen)#watching adamandi was a bit like first watching firebringer for me? like except for sexuality it was gender o.O#firebringer was the first musical i saw with a canon wlw couple. and like i'd known that girls could like girls for a while but#there was the small italicised oh moment where i was like ''this is actually real'' <it's maybe worth noting i wasn't very active on soc me#about consuming things other than content. so i wasn't very exposed to the community at large. so representation in media mattered!!>#similarly it's been a while since then and both online and irl i've found people who are more open about it and accepting. i've been very#very lucky in that sense. to have specific irl friendgroups where we're all out to each other <based on sentiment? i think most of us#including me. aren't openly out irl> ... and online i'm really glad to have friends who Get It and are similar to me. but the representatio#... !!! omg hsnfjkfgdsdsghf yknow?? the representation in adamandi really got me. the pronouns thing especially.#and because the core source material is Like That.. existing fandom is all accepting already. so bonus points i guess#sorry i have turned this silly little question into a reflection prompt.. but. thoughts.#[wow. on further retrospection i've never outed myself at all online either people just saw the ship art and Inferred and]#[to be fair they were Not Wrong. idk. tumblr avvy is very vastly different from irl me but neither of us feel comfortable stating it so-]#[also worthy mention of the musicals fandom that exposed me to the whole concept of lgbtq+ being a Thing at the ripe young age of 14]#[what a way to discover it. really. i say this with extreme fondness. conversely i have friends who decided through genshin or anime so idk#<i'm aware of the diverse casting thing for six!! i think it's very cool!! i also realise the show plot doesn't really have much to do w it
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vellichorsdesire · 3 months
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bedposting beforee i sleep but acckkk summer is so close… i hope it comes faster genuinely … goodnight/ good day you guys..!!!!
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samarecharm · 3 months
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Scheming…
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#chattin#taking time to draw and write out a relationship/dynamics chart for the thieves and assorted friends#bc theres. alot. and it would be nice to write it out. it would help establish my thoughts about them#its not poly/thieves but its. kind of adjacent to it. but its less shippy and more focused on how they interact-#-and behave with one another. like theyre kinda bonded together over everything. lines get a little blurred but its what works for them#and i think lumping them all together as poly/thieves is a shortcut for breaking down their character#like obv akira has diff relationships for everyone; but how do THOSE people react to others ??#like pego/ryu is real and true but also ann is absolutely there. u cannot separate them.#theyre the shujin delinquents to me LOL. they are too tightly bound together to let any external relationship split them at this point#akiras not w goro; its akira AND ryuji w goro. like akira and goro would just not work; but ryuji make its work well yknow?#goro doesnt get third wheeled w ann and vice versa bc ann and goro are good friends; they just hang :)#its like. if u could SEE the fucking string of connections making a mess of my white board in my minds eye…😭#so im trying to write it down into something that works for me#i dunno. i think its fun :) i did this for ffxv too#only that was way easier bc its just the four of them. but like. how do their internal relationships affect the overall polycule ?#anyway. inspired by that love post; that theres diff kinds of love. and kiss ryuji week LOL#bc i wanted to write a small thing with different thieves for each prompt#and im like how would their relationships differ from one another ?#ryuji and akira but also ryuji with makoto. ryuji w haru. ryuji w yusuke. its like.#u cant use the same thing from most pego/ryu fics bc they DIDNT meet the same way#waugh.#rambling#just know that im insane. i have all these wips and nothing FINISHED. waaa.#this is what that post meant about being obsessed over bad media LMAO. this is just what happens#u stay up thinking about fake polycules from a game that came out seven years ago#i think….#WHAT. 2016???#EIGHT years ???#funny bc i was thinking about how ffxv was eight yesrs old and i am still a mess over it#well. could u imagine if i played p5 when it LAUNCHED instead of in 2020???
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chrimsone · 11 months
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fun fact my homies
the imperial measurement system survived the Collapse! Despite the game using metric with distances and also with the funny fish, in lore the imperial system does get used. here is example
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purgemarchlockdown · 9 months
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Hm...one of the things that stopped me from making this account in the first place was just being unsure if I could talk about Amane with enough sensitivity needed for her story and while I pushed through that I'm worrying again about it...
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woulddieforloki · 1 year
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(Chat post anon) that's why tva loki makes me feel conflicted in a way. Unless they're building up to something
do you mean how little he seems to care about Thor? because I feel like that was a purposeful decision in the writers' room going into the show. he looks like he cares about his family in the first episode when he's watching those flashbacks, and then Thor literally comes up one (1) time after that and that's only when Kid Loki says he killed him we don't count Throg; Loki didn't know he was there. I feel like the point of the Loki series was to separate Loki from Thor so that he doesn't come off as just an extension of Thor's character and people learn to care about Loki specifically (pfft, clearly they weren't on tumblr in 2012), probably in part because Tom seems to love playing Loki and Chris has been ready to throw the towel in for years. I'm totally pulling this out of my ass and it might not be at all true, but I feel like excluding Thor from the narrative was a purposeful choice, and I really don't see them retconning it with any meaningful brodinsons moments unless it's a reunion right before Thor dies or something stupid like that :/
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chamerionwrites · 2 years
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Most of the time I am probably too accommodating and hate conflict to a fault but occasionally the Zero Fucks Left version of me emerges, and I'm fairly sure 99% of people who have witnessed it find it Jekyll-and-Hyde unsettling.
Which is almost certainly a character flaw on my part! But I don't entirely know what to do about it, because I'm pretty sure it's the "too accommodating" part that's the character flaw and while I've been working on that half my life, and honestly gotten much better at it, that isn't the half of the equation that people are freaked out by.
#i try to be reasonable and restrained even when i'm out o patience so it's not like i suddenly turn into an aggressive shouty asshole#people just seem to feel blindsided by what from their perspective is an abrupt and extreme shift#from 'chill to the point of being a pushover about a lot of things' to 'utterly unyielding about select things'#which i do get but idk i still just find a lot of the things people get irritable about too petty to waste my energy on#i also think that occasionally someone deserves to be told politely but firmly that they're being a dick and should knock it off#I don't see how these things are mutually incompatible!#anyway this post brought to you by the Heated Conversation after my mother asked why i hadn't been to church since i moved#and i said 'because life is too short to spend every sunday with the worst people i know' which was admittedly v blunt#but also (1) not untrue (2) probably more lowkey than 'let's hash out all my religious trauma at 7pm on a monday night'#i thought my tone was calm and matter of fact and regretful even! but apparently that's a v hateful thing to say#idk what to tell you it's a small town and the people in church on sunday literally are the worst people i know here#sure it's not very nice but i didn't say it TO them or even anyone who knows them and i'm perfectly capable of being polite in passing#i just don't want to hang around listening to them sing worship songs and then get invited to sunday lunch gossip sessions yknow?#sometimes i don't have the energy to be diplomatic man. and imo the scandalized response has less to do w the actual content of what i said#than the fact that normally i probably would have said it less bluntly#the real problem here is that if you ask loaded questions sometimes you may get answers that you dislike#walking away from omelas#my posts
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jellyjimmy · 1 year
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me when i create copious amounts of jimmy/dutch content that will never gain any attention let alone have the opportunity to gain attention due to the fact that it will stay locked up in the dark depths of my iphone notes app to forever rot and be forgotten
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crumble-cookii · 1 year
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I made another silly bug boy <3
Orchid Mantis Cookie lives in and rules a kingdom found inside of a large, hollow tree. The Mantis Kingdom is not very welcoming to new people. They are barely welcoming to each other. Despite this, they live in mild harmony under the guide of Orchid Mantis.
Orchid mantises are rare, and their mantis forms help protect the kingdom by using their flower mimicry as defense and food collection. This, along with the fact that he is as big as a female mantis, is why he is the ruler.
Mimi-Cry is a lump of clay that... well, it hates itself. It molds itself to mimic other things but can never keep the form up for long. Mimic-Cry feels attracted to Orchid Mantis because of this, since they both pretend to be things they are not. Mimi-Cry's favorite thing to mimic is flowers, like Orchid Mantis.
At first, Orchid did not like Mimic-Cry, but eventually, as it kept changing into different things to get him to love it back, he grew very fond and protective of the sentient clay lump. Mimic-Cry is now not allowed to leave his side, out of fear it could get hurt.
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Relationship Chart:
Gingerbrave(friendly): Thanks for helping... I guess.
Licorice Cookie(tension): Ugh, so annoying...
Kiwi Cookie(tension): What do you think you're doing?!
Werewolf Cookie(friendly): You're alright, I suppose.
Pecan Candy Cookie(trust): You. I like you.
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Gingerbrave(trust): A little mean, but, you're alright!
Licorice Cookie(tension): Never met someone so rude..!
Kiwi Cookie(tension): Sorry, it was an accident!
Pecan Candy Cookie(trust): Wow, royalty. How exciting!
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corpsoir · 2 years
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HI DO YOU MAYHAPS SELL PRINTS CAUSE I WOULD SELL A KIDNEY TO BUY YOUR ART. WOW.
AAAHHH OH MY GOD this is such a nice ask to get thank you!!!
i have been thinking a lot about selling prints and stickers and stuff TRUST ME however i am a full time student and i honestly dont know how i would sell physical art in the best way possible for both customers and me!! i would have to charge way more than im comfortable doing, for art im not sure is really worth it fhgfjkhfdjk
HOWEVER on a similar note; i'm willing to do quick digital sketch commissions as soon as i finish up some uni work lol
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shotmrmiller · 2 months
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wait wait because imagine being a normal OF creator or a cam girl, just a small name nobody who does it for the sole purpose of getting through college. you keep your face out of everything, nothing in the background of any video of yours is personal, like once you get your degree this entire account is getting deleted and it'll be a thing of the past. (not that you're ashamed or anything. we respect sex workers of all kinds here)
and you plan on doing a different kind of video: one of you fucking yourself with a new, much bigger toy. usually you keep to the rabbits and bullets but following your friends advice, you fucking yourself on a dildo wouldn't be terrible.
plus you need it, sweetheart. when was the last time you even had a date?
bitch. (affectionately)
and as soon as you walk into your usual sex store, you double take. there is no, NO, way that is pornstar!ghost's dick you've just spotted as a dildo.
he's been your favorite pornstar long before you even started this side hustle. who in their right mind can resist that beast of a man with the mask and the tattoos and the heaving thing that's between his legs--
you take it home immediately.
it's almost sad how stupid you fuck yourself on it, cunt split open and dripping onto the floorboard for the internet to see but in that moment, you don't give a fuck.
you don't remember how many times you come that night nor how many viewers you had watching your puffy lips swallow "ghost's" cock whole, but come morning, you notice your bank account and it is padded.
PADDED.
one particular tipper was incredibly generous and they even left a message.
i'd love to see you do that on the real thing.
yeah, me too.
(whoever that is becomes a loyal follower who tips regularly.)
*screaming at the thought of simon getting himself off at your video. hasn't come that hard in months and that says a lot since he's yknow, a pornstar.*
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cherrysnax · 1 year
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pabotofus · 2 years
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tumblr tag therapy.docx
#what i want forever#emmas thots#emma rambles#see what i think is happening here is. like. we are.... so small yknow?#and its like. what we want... well. i wont speak for everyone. what EYE want. is just someone to go through it with!! and its like. i wish.#for that kind of connection. where it's just Obvious oh those two... yea they're a pair. (this is the iwaoi stan effect speaking 😖) but...#and like. if you've liked someone for a long time. at what point is getting over them a betrayal to your emotions yknow? like if u thought#oh this is going to last because i like them That Much and because i believe in (cliche cartoon voice) The Power Of Real Love xoxo#and after a while you realize hey this isn't working out. like. if you were to stop and move on. that feels like. to me kind of like...#like saying oh actually your feelings weren't that serious if you're just going to stop now#and i know you won't just love one person in your life (typically speaking) but it's like. how do you contextualize the feeling of#this is definitively what i want forever#vs#this won't work and i have to find another option#like if i get over and find smth else 1. isn't that a betrayal to the thing i wanted and 2. how can i ever feel like#my future feelings are legitimate if i was able to get over smth i felt That Strongly about once#but like i KNOW i can't be hung up on this forever it's not good. but like.#i feel like im talking in circles. this is not a problem i know how to solve. im just going to sit back and let whatever happens happen...#i have bigger more pressing worries rn (orgo exam :skull emoji:)
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holyshit · 2 years
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