#kinda like it so I'll probably keep it ^^

[mayhavemayhem]

I'm Sorry, Did Someone Say 'No Straight Roads 2'???

WE ARE SO BACKK??? HOLY MOLY WE ARE SO BACK!!!!!

AND I GUESS I AM TOO UHM....Hey guys, how's it going?? How's the last year been treating you? I know it sure has been quite the ride for me XD

But no, seriously let's uh...let's talk real quick!!

So, I've been gone- :3

I know, shocker! I bet you had no idea, and now you're probably wondering: "where have I been?"

And if you weren't thinking that, then just pretend like you were.

(I know most of you are just here for the art lol, it's okay, me too. That being said, If you don't wanna read my long spiel about my absence and stuff then i'd probably scroll right about now XD)

Back in March last year, I made a post talking about going on hiatus due to some issues I was having. And then I came back May 1st....we don't talk about that lol

For the most part, everything that I was dealing with has been taken care of - I've had a lot of time to learn about myself during that period. 2024 wasn't the best year, but a lot came out of it that helped me grow, and that includes the way I feel about my art and NSR.

I originally created this blog for two reasons:

One - because I wanted to archive any and all of my NSR work.

And two - because NSR really spoke to me in a way that not many medias have, and I wanted to show my appreciation in some way.

I created this blog waay after I'd already played the game. it was kinda an impulsive decision - I'd been posting on amino up until that point and I had the passing thought to archive some of those drawings on a blog, in case they ever got lost. I think the funniest thing about that is that I created the blog and then waited an entire year before making my first post.

I was so nervous about the whole thing, I don't even know why XD

I was struggling a lot during that time; a lot of life problems that just kept getting worse. But NSR had remained a constant, and this blog gave me somewhere to go that felt welcoming. I never expected the attention that my art got, and I'll always be thankful to everyone who's ever liked or reblogged any one of my posts.

-So thank you all!

I love NSR so much, it's timing couldn't have been more perfect. It came into my life during a period where I really needed it. This blog has been nothing more than my appreciation for the game and everything that it has done for me, really.

But late 2024, I'd reasoned with myself that I didn't really need to keep posting on this blog anymore. I kinda felt like, everything that I wanted to do and say had been fulfilled; I didn't need to keep holding on to it anymore.

Funnily enough, I was just about to put this blog to rest, when suddenly my page is flooded by none other than -

No Straight Roads 2.

Shocked, is an understatement. Excited, is also an understatement.

Not only have I been screeching about this to everyone in the nearest vicinity to me, but I've been full of adrenaline, like -

I'm convinced if you tried to hit me with a car, the car would just crush itself continually until it's become nothing but a minuscule piece of scrap metal under the weight of my internal excitement.

that - and, I've also kinda taken it as a sign.

There's still so much I haven't posted here or shared - and what kind of archive would this be if it didn't include EVERYTHING NSR that i've ever made.

That would just be a terrible archive. So I plan to fix that!

I'll be posting here everything NSR that I've made. Yeah, that includes some old unfinished fanfics and a LOT of scrapped work. You'll see it all if you plan to hangout lol

I'll also be posting new art too!! here's to hoping I can draw mayday and zuke again, It's been quite some time!! If you've read this far down, Thank you! sorry this was long and boring and all that stuff XD

I can't wait to get back to it, I'll see you...probably tomorrow....or the day after.....or the day after the day after......orrrr the day after the day after the day afterrrr.......

OH, and one more-

-ugh, sorry about that. didn't mean to jump at you so hard.

one more thing! If you have any questions for me, feel free to ask. this blog is about to be a hodge-podge of NSR things so - if you're curious about anything - ask away!!

Mkay, Bye for real this time!!!

[sweerlyc]

YOUR MERDANTE DESIGN IS SO CUTE AURGHGHHG can i request a merdante x vergilius 🙏🙏

*inhale*

— cursed with clock head, amnesia, swimming away from Panther, Lion and Wolf but they're all different kinda of mermaids too like sharks, eels and all that. their flames are SEA FOAM!!

— gets stuck in a fish net, Vergilius pulls them out while he's out fishing with the Indigo Elder.

— "what the hell are you supposed to be"

— cue Woman Fear Me, Fish Love Me plotline of Vergilius distancing himself from society so bad that he ends up head over heels for a mute half fish half clock person afraid of the sea

↓more unstructured merdante AU brainrot

— Dante used to be a sea prince/princess in the past probably. They can't remember anything, but something at the back of their mind doesn't let them swim too far back into the sea, also they were literally chased out of there. They stay with Vergilius for some time because of that.

— Vergilius is a normal fisherman, normal fishermen don't usually catch mermaids out of nowhere. He initially planned on trying to sell Dante on the (secret and dark) mermaid market, but due to their weird head he wasn't too sure of their value. Their body wouldn't go well for perfume or meat and since they can't speak they can't sing like other mermaids do to charm people. He tried returning them back to the sea, but seeing that Dante was afraid of something there he decided to keep them at his house, for now.

— I can imagine Dante being very insecure of the fact that they can't sing to Verg, they'd probably want to thank him with some healing song or something similar but all that reaches him is the ticking of a clock. Maybe Vergilius can eventually tell them he likes their ticking as background noise. and there we have it. the mermaid is cooked

— Image: Dante climbing out of their bathtub and dragging themself all the way to Vergilius's bed to try singing to him in his sleep but ending up just sorrowfully ticking away...

— Also Charon interacting with Dante like a dumb kid looking into an aquarium with fishies. Mimicking their movements and ticking and puffing her cheeks out.

— "clockfish" "NOT what im called"

— Sprinkling in some U Corp. identities

— Captain Ishmael and Twinhook Gregor want to potentially buy off Dante later on. Ishmael wants to use them as a compass to lead her to a whale. Gregor probably has his reasons too, maybe to pay off a debt to the Middle? (the sinners (with some exceptions *cough cough* faust *cough cough*) probably won't be able to hear Dante's words in this AU...)

— Overall imagining lots of wholesomness about Dante navigating life on land and slowly overcoming their fears to return to the sea and Vergilius opening up more as ppl like Rodya and Faust and Hong Lu and yeah the sinners basically help him learn more about taking care of a mermaid

— btw Vergilius had probably killed a LOT of mermaids in his dark dark past. but he'll get better!

— verdante kiss. Dante don't want to leave to sea because of sad old man :(

— But they kinda have to but they'll come back someday! all sinners miss them real bad and Vergilius sits back and is like "daaaamn"

— Or maybe he goes with them by boat? Maybe Faust makes some potion that lets him go underwater with them (mergilius??) and... idk

if only i were to write this as a fic... look, i already have a large demon!Dante fic in the works, i can't juggle two large fics at the same time😭😭 i would LOVE to but i think ill like. die if i try

you know what

oneshot, multichap, whatever- whoever is reading this PLEASE make mermaid!dante real in any way and i'll draw you the juiciest chapter and/or cover art i can muster please i

[rexhya]

note — another scrap, maybe i'll come back to this....

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There were only a few things in your old life you’d really been proud of.

#1. Your independence, with both of your parents dead and no siblings to keep your lineage going, it was astounding you were able to find a stable job and place to live by your mid 20’s.

#2. Your remarkable ability to make absolutely 0 friends during the time of your stay, highschool, collage and into adulthood, none of them ever stuck around.

And #3. The copious amounts of manga and anime you’d been able to consume before your body decided to give in on itself in the hospital it lay in more than half of its life.

Which is why when you did finally pass, but found yourself in what you suspected to be another world, you weren’t so bothered. “Holy shit.” you muttered aloud, your appearance had never been so healthy looking before, cancer sort of did that to you.

You glanced around the environment, an IV was hooked to your arm, along with a glowing crystal shard that floated in a thick watery looking liquid, wait this kinda reminds me of…

You didn’t get to finish the thought as a woman with a clipboard entered your room, she stood there for what felt like hours before a shocked gasp arose from her lips, “Y-you..” she didn’t didn’t finish before running out of the room.

You could only cock your head in confusion before a different woman came back in in just as much disbelief as the nurse. She gaped and immediately began checking your vitals.

“Impossible…” she breathed. “Rumi, go get my phone, a person has awoken from the eternal slumber.”

—

It was confirmed by now, you’d been reincarnated, into Solo Leveling at that. There’d been an abundance of reporters that came to speak to you after the Doctor confirmed your near perfect health. The first ever, you knew this because in the manhwa, Jinwoo’s mother had only awoken after he’d reawakened.

You were an anomaly in this world, a world filled with gates that had vicious monsters that could tear you apart at any time no less.

You cursed, out of all the manghwa’s you could've been reincarnated into, of course it had to be a dangerous one. Was slice of life really just not an option? Apparently dying from leukemia wasn’t enough of a struggle.

In another case, disregarding the obvious danger you were in this was almost a dream come true, in this universe you’d been a collage student who’d tragically fallen under the mysterious disease, conveniently your parents were just as dead as they were in your old world, meaning you had no ties and had to play no roles when you returned to your home. Which the hospital and a sponsor of a Hunters guild would temporarily pay for in return to let them study your body.

You’d said yes immediately, you’d trade a few weekly checkups over homelessness anyday. Not to mention you were living in a completely different world now, the last thing you wanted to worry about was your bills. Especially not when your all time crush and favorite character was literally in the same country as you.

“Sung Jinwoo…my glorious king…literally.” you sighed, clutching your phone to your chest, as soon as you’d gotten home you’d done some looking and thankfully for you, nearly zero results popped up. That meant he was either still hidden from the public or hadn't been re-evaluated yet. Either way it was good news for you, it meant you had a chance to meet him, and possibly befriend him.

You squealed into your pillow at the thought, Pre-Death Statue Jinwoo as you liked to call him was still as adorable as Post-Death Statue Jinwoo. Though now that you really thought about it, it would probably be way more hard to befriend in his Post-Statue state, which wasn’t even guaranteed in the first place, you had no idea where you were, much less where Jinwoo was. For all you knew he could be on the other side of Korea right now, getting demolished in a D-ranked dungeon.

But didn’t reincarnations stories always come with some sort of purpose, why would the universe put you here just to watch, it didn’t make sense. You flopped backwards, trying not to think about it. In any case, you were happy to be alive, with free rent for at least 6 months. So what if you never got to interfere with the plot?

From the 200 chapters you’d read of the manhwa, the world and Jinwoo would be fine, with or without you.

For some reason the thought made you more frustrated, what was the point of living if you were just going to live the exact same life you’d had before. I mean sure, no one wanted their heads crushed by an ogre or ankle sliced by a goblin because of a stupid gate break but that didn’t mean you didn’t want any excitement, at the very least you’d make some new friends, and find a stable job. You were determined now, why should you just sit around waiting for your life to pass by?

That’s right, you shouldn't, and the first thing you wanted to do to make sure that wouldn't happen is buy some food and a manga, they had to have some good copies in this world.

You stood up and marched to your door, swinging it open, you saw a figure in the corner of your eyes, the sight had startled you so much you swear you broke your neck trying to see who it was. Black silky hair, round warm eyes, and a build that stood with a calm humbleness to it.

“Sung Jinwoo?” you squeaked, and immediately pressed palms against your mouth. Fuck, fuck, fuck I did not mean to say that, now he’s gonna think I’m a creep!

He was on guard immediately, “Uhm do I know you?” His voice was confused. You stammered looking for something, anything to say. I mean what could you say? What possible explanation could account for your knowing his name? Jinwoo only looked more suspicious as your silence continued, and finally when you needed it most, the reincarnation gods decided to help you out.

Super Script:

I’m your neighbor remember, sorry you probably don't remember me since I’ve been away so long. I’m the girl who fell into an eternal slumber, and woke from it.

It was like a digital screen was in your face, the box [f/c] and pixelated. You didn’t waste any time in repeating the words back to him, Jinwoo’s face relaxed and you breathed a sigh of relief, you're glad you were meeting Pre-Statue Jinwoo right now, who knows what would have happened if you weren’t.

“That’s right, your [Name], I can’t believe I forgot. I knew I recognized that name somewhere, who would have thought…”

The last part was muttered so you hadn’t completely heard what you’d said but you’d take any sort of friendliness from the man you could get.

The two of you stood there awkwardly for a moment, Jinwoo had been so wrapped up in his own life that when he’d heard of the girl who’d awoken from the incurable illness he didn’t believe it. You weren’t a very noticeable neighbor, he wasn’t even sure he'd spoken to you when you’d first moved in.

“You fell asleep 3 years ago.” He said suddenly, and you nodded like you knew what he was talking about. “And now you're awake.” you nodded again.

Despite how badly you’d been wanting to meet the man, you wished in the moment you could crumble into the floor like dust. Jinwoo still wasn’t saying anything, only looking at your body dubiously which you ignored how hot it made you feel and instead focused on the [f/c] screen that had now switched to a phone like homepage.

On one hand, this was amazing, Jinwoo right here in front of you, his soft chubby features and completely harmless, it gave you a sense of where you were in the timeline and where the world was.

On the other hand, you were still completely useless to any monster that might attack from a dungeon.

“That’s amazing, you’re amazing [Name].” you blinked.

“Huh?”

Jinwoo shook his head to explain, “You didn’t know but around the time you fell asleep my mother did as well, this whole time I’ve been hoping someone or something might change and then you show up. It’s just amazing.” You smiled, it made sense, Jinwoo’s whole reason for becoming a hunter was to fund the hospital bills to support his sister and mother, all he wanted was for them to be safe, it must feel like a dream come true to see you standing here.

It also gave you a slight sense of guilt, because the only reason you were standing here was because you’d died in your last world, not because you’d really been cured, not because of some miracle like he’s been hoping for.

“Wow, I’m so sorry to hear that, I’m sure your mother won’t be too far behind,” you nodded.

“I hope so.” he squeezed his fists for a moment looking at you with a noticeable gaze of longing, you were sure he was imagining his mother in your place, alive, healthy and speaking. You weren’t lying about her not being too far behind however, if Jinwoo’s life played out exactly as it should have, it wouldn’t be long before Post-Statue Jinwoo arrived and with it his immeasurable power and a cure for his mother.

Which probably means I shouldn’t interact with him too much, something might happen and cause a rift in the story. But we’re neighbors, a hi every now and then can’t be so bad… It also didn’t go without saying the screen still in your face had to mean something, maybe it was your job to keep the storyline in check, maybe you were like admin for Solo Leveling or something...you had no idea.

“Well..uhm it was nice meeting you.” you said and Jinwoo's face paled into a rosy pink.

“Right! Uh, I’ll see you around I guess.” You nodded and began walking towards the stairs, you still needed a few things for your apartment, your fridge was completely empty and you didn’t want to go home on an empty stomach, it was also probably worth it trying to explore the city.

Embarrassingly enough, Jinwoo was also going in the same direction. “Oh haha, where are you headed? I didn’t realize you were going this way.” He put a hand on his neck, rubbing it sheepishly.

You only laughed nervously, trying not to blush from how effortlessly adorable he was being. “Oh I just need a few groceries…what about you? Off to a dungeon I assume.”

Jinwoo paused for a moment, descending the last few steps until you reached the apartment entrance. “Yeah actually, how did you know?”

You internally slapped your forehead, this is what you get for trying to make conversation. No wonder you had no friends in your past life. “Well, weren’t you always a hunter? I vaguely remember you saying something about that…three years ago…before my coma…haha?” you gulped, trying your best to sound convincing.

Luckily enough for you he bought it. “Oh that’s right, sorry I just keep forgetting you’re three years behind…yeah.. I quit hunting.” Jinwoo kept walking on the sidewalk, leading you in whatever direction he desired, you however, stopped dead in your tracks.

“You…quit?.” You Jinwoo turned around, an embarrassed look on his face.

“Yeah, you probably remember at the time I started I was an E rank hunter, yeah, I never improved…every re-evaluation I had left me at E-rank, there’s just no point of me risking my life for dirt poor pay so I quit.

"I’m actually on my way to an interview right now!” Jinwoo laughed heartily like anything he’s just said was funny, this wasn’t supposed to happen, he never quit in the light novel, why the hell did he now?

This is because of me isn’t it, somehow someway I’ve messed this up, wait don’t tell me I’m the player now!? Your heart thrummed at the possibility, I mean, there was the screen that had yet to fade away, though it was different from Jinwoo's. It was there and very much likely to mean you had replaced his spot in this world.

“Absoulutely the fuck not.” you said sternly, a sudden rush of anger overtaking your body, this is NOT what you signed up for.

You did not fight years of cancer just to die and wake up and have too brutally die again, you did NOT want to become this looming S-ranked Hunter who had to fight beasts and even kill people just to save the world, you did NOT want to become the shadow monarch, king guy, whatever who was feared by all and ruled over all for fun and games, that was not your role in the story and you did NOT need that kind of responsibility.

Jinwoo, rightfully looked confused, your sudden switch in emotions causing him to jump. “Huh?”

You stomped towards the man planting two palms on his shoulders. “Cancel the interview.”

“What? Why?” Jinwoo looked a bit terrified as you gripped his shoulders harder.

“I said, cancel the interview Jinwoo.” you squeezed harder, you didn’t care what the universe had in store for you but this outcome, couldn't be one of them.

“B-but–” he started but you had already come up with a plan.

“It’s for construction right? Your job interview? Cancel it, today there is going to be a huge accident with a crane and one too many bricks, if you go there you’ll die.” you bore into Jinwoo’s eyes, really trying to get the message across.

The truth was, you had no idea if he was heading to construction, but it was a good guess based on Jinwoo’s abilities at the time. He probably wanted something still physical that paid enough to keep his family as stable as it could be.

By the look on Jinwoo’s face, you’d guessed right, “H-how did…” but he didn’t finish as you dragged him back into the apartment building, the groceries long forgotten.

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[beef-brisket]

Charlie beamed: Of course! I know everything's moving pretty fast- with you and Dad- but I want us to be as close as possible...! Not that there's anything wrong with moving quickly! That's kinda dad's style... I mean- with mom, they got together really quickly! Like, a few weeks! So- its not a bad thing!

The queen smiled along with Charlie, trying to keep up with her. She rambles nearly as much as Lucifer.

Adele: Oh- sure. I guess when you're over 200 years old, a year is like a second, huh? I know things with Lucifer and did move pretty quickly- but I hope that doesn't affect anything between us! I still want to get to know you. Both of you.

The princess smiled and pulled both Adele and Vaggie into a hug: It doesn't change anything! You're an amazing person, Addie.

Adele teared up and hugged the girls backtightly.

-

Charlie: Alright, here we are! Today was great, wasn't it?! We should all do it again sometime!

Adele chuckled as Charlie helped her out of the car: I'd love to! Bonus points if its another spa trip~.

Charlie laughed: We can do that! Here, I'll help you to the door.

Adele: Thanks Char, later Vaggie!

The ex-angel smiled and waved. She watched as Charlie helped Adele to the front door and pushed it open. Sighing, she stepped back into the car. There was something off about the new queen, she felt familiar but that was impossible. Vaggie knows she has never seen her before... but her whole personality feels off.

She jumped as Charlie opened the driver's side door before getting in. When she noticed the tense look on her girlfriend's face, she smiled softly.

Charlie: Hey, what's up?

Vaggie sighed: Nothing, just... a weird feeling I have about Adele... it's like I know her, but... obviously, I don't... I don't know... its probably stupid.

Charlie: It's not stupid, hun. Maybe you do know her! Maybe, you could speak to Dad about it, sometime.

Vaggie smiled softly: Yeah, maybe.

-

Lucifer: There she is! Did you have a fun time, darling?

The king flew up and kissed his wife on the cheek.

Adele chuckled: Yeah, it was good! I had no idea Hell had spa's.

Lucifer: Oh, yeah. You'd be surprised by what Hell has. So, how was your time with Chadlie and Maggie?

Adam: Great! Good! I just... don't think Vaggie likes me very much...

Lucifer: Oh, darling. I'm sure it's nothing. She's always very aware of the royal family, and now that includes you. And besides, she's my future daughter-in-law! How could I not like a woman who protects and loves my daughter?

Adele: Protects, huh? Do you need me to protect you, baby~?

Lucifer smirked: Oh yeah~. I need my big, strong, goth mommy to protect me~.

Adele smirked: Oh, don't worry Luci, the dickmaster's got your back. And your ass. And especially your dick~.

Lucifer laughed awkwardly: You uh- really like that dickmaster thing, huh?

Adele shrugs: It's catchy. And hilarious. Do you not like it?

Lucifer: N-No! I like it! It just... takes me by surprise, that's all!

✨Worship✨

@beef-brisket

Adele was putting the finishing touches on her makeup, everything had to be perfect. She was wearing a black mini skirt, a black thin crop top, fish net stockings, a push up bra and crotchless lace panties.

She was ready, she's been preparing for this moment for years and now it was finally going to happen.

Adele was going to summon the devil, marry him, and have all of his babies. She worshiped him for years much to her mother's disappointment. Adele even saved herself for him and stopped taking her birth control to be sure that she would get pregnant.

Adele: There, all finished.

Looking around her room, that was normally a mess but she even cleaned it up.

She grabbed this book that she got from this shady looking guy outside a Walmart parking lot, he said that it would summon the devil to her guaranteed. He also said there was a spell to bond him to her.

Adele sat down on the bed and took a deep breath, she needed to calm down before this happened. First impressions matter!

-

Down in Hell, Lucifer was reading over the papers that his lawyer gave him for the divorce proceedings for him and Lilith.

Ten thousand years down the drain.

Groaning he slapped the paper down, he didn't want to deal with this or that woman right now.

He needed a distraction.

[specialfanboying]

i will fight to the death to defend killing game takemaru. like i know he's contentious but i played killing game early and spent the entire rest of the game chasing the high of him on that route. like imo it's him at his messiest and worst, but also incredibly revealing of the kind of person he is in a way i can't get enough of

first, i'll argue that i think he has a good reaosn to distrust takumi. he trusts him on day 1, and then takumi kills someone for what feels like a flimsy reason. despite this, he trusts takumi again, and takumi exploits his heart to get him to join the killing game, which kills at lest one more person and puts them all in danger. after that, i kinda get not wanting to trust takumi a third time.

but also! i think him going so black and white morality there makes a sort of sense with his character. something really interesting about takemaru imo is that despite that he visibly has a heart of gold...there are characters who struggle with killing enemy commanders and he is consistently not one of them. he's one of the few to smile when executing a commander, and even when they're begging for their lives, doesn't budge at all. he can be deeply kind and protective when it's someone he believes in saving. and usually, that's a good thing, as he believes strongly in protecting the team, the weak, women, and children. when it's someone who isn't on that list? then he doesn't hesitate or give mercy. as takumi learns the hard way in that route.

but also, we get to see his kindness in action. i love love love how he adopts the twins in killing game, who...let's be honest, without him, would almost certainly die. i think one of the best/most intersting moments there is when he tries to kill eva to save them, because he usually does believe in not harming women. but the situation's bad enough that he has the sadistic choice of letting one of the twins die or compromising his morals. it's a really interesting look at what happens when two tightly held values come into conflict and he has to choose. and he chooses the twins over everything.

idk i like him at his nice too but seeing him at his stressed and mean and just hunkered down and focused on keeping these two poor sad orphans alive at all costs is super interesting and eventually tragic. it's a fun flavor of "bad" for the bad boy, and i like how it probably does a lot for the twins, who haven't had anyone else but each other show that kind of prioritizing them above all else.

[cricky-butspicy]

Hiii, i am in love with your slasher boys!

I have a question! As a person with bad experiences in relationships I tend to overthink people's behaviour a lot. Like even a change in a tone of writing, or speaking to me has me spiralling- even tho It can be nothing or not even related to me. As far as I love Atlas I think I would take his teasing and demeanour badly, like he is just not openly affectionate at a time and tease me in a kinda mean way I would internally freak out.

How would Atlas react to that? At first the reader would hide it and just internally panicking having a spiral that - oh He hates me now, Soleil will hate me too and they will leave me, but will be afraid to be a bother to them about speaking about it (💫trauma💫), and then just at one point during his teasing they would just break out and start crying and apologising? I feel like it could be an issue like a few months into relationship where Atlas starts getting comfortable with more teasing and stuff, but reader didn't open up yet about their problems.

What would he do?

Kisses!

Oh goodness, Atlas would feel HORRIBLE

He always tries to keep his teasing lighthearted (even if he can go a little hard at Soleil at times, but the two have known each other since they were six. They can usually gauge limits on each other pretty easily, and if not, it's easy enough to make up to each other.) But you are new to him, and sometimes he does get a little rough with his teasing at times. He thinks you understand, even when he isn't being as affectionate or gets a little big on the teasing, but sometimes he might notice your demeanor changing from it, and he'll back off and ask if it's too much. He might even try to add in a little comforting back rub if you'll let him to try to show he means no harm. But he probably doesn't realize how much it's getting to you if you're hiding it well enough or denying that it bothers you each time.

So when you break down and start crying, he's frozen for a minute in shock before feeling horribly guilty and like the worst person on earth. He almost feels like apologizing and then running off to give you space from him because he was being mean to you, but he knows ultimately, that won't solve things, so he forces himself to stay and come closer to you as he tries to calm himself into quiet apologies and clearly mournful words at making you feel bad while trying to show you he isn't trying to be bad, it just came out that way. He takes full responsibility for it. He won't be mad if you don't want him to touch you or talk to you for a while, but he'll want to comfort you and help you to understand that he's just playing with you.

If you let him, he's taking you in his arms to hug you close in his chest and swaying you back and forth while hushing you and rubbing your back with a very soft soothing voice.

"Shh, Starlight. There is no reason to be sorry. You did nothing wrong. I did something wrong. I didn't mean to upset you; I was just teasing. You aren't doing anything wrong or making me upset; I just want to be playful with you. I'm so sorry it came off in the wrong way and that I upset you. I don't want to upset you, sweetheart. Tell me what I can do to make this better. I don't want you feeling so upset because of me. I'll watch what I say and do better in the future. If I do it again, I promise it's not because I'm mad or upset with you. I just want to connect with you and be a little playful. I don't want to be mean to you. I care about you so much."

He'll want you to talk to him about it, and he'll sit very good and patiently listening to you about your experiences and what you are feeling. He's very good about making sure you know he's listening and understanding. He'll try to comfort you in ways like saying that he and Soleil would tell you if they were ever mad at you or if something was wrong. They wouldn't hide it or make it mean, they'd simply talk to you about it and solve it together.

He's make a point to be more affectionate more often, and if he was teasing again, he does it while doing something that proves that he very much loves you, like cuddling you from behind or giving you a kiss on your cheek, or holding your hand to squeeze it while giving you a smile. He'll even make a code for you to know that he's trying to be harmless at that moment. No upsetting his Starlight on purpose. And preferably, no upsetting his Starlight on accident, too. If anything, he'll try to point all of the teasing at Soleil and try to focus the affection more on you. Soleil can take the teasing, but if you can't, that's ok.

It takes some trial and error and definitely some practice. He might apologize after teasing you once he catches it, but Atlas will learn for you. And he makes sure to comfort you when things might seem bad, like his tone slightly changing for some reason or him seeming off. He'll try to explain and assure you none of it is you. You are perfectly fine <3

[dianxiacantastemolecules]

Continued. Yes it's 5AM once more at my place. Hehehe.

@buckleyflower 🥹 read it pleaj.

...............

He's pacing the room up and down, seconds close to crashing out on this plan. It's the most stupid thing he's ever planned on doing, and that's saying something for the amount of stupid things he's done in his life. His phone pings with a message. 

Chris🦕: Buck, you got this!! Please trust me. 

Chris🦕: if not for our tiktok plan, the enchiladas will definitely work!! 

Buck can't help but smile a little at the texts. It's a childish plan, made by a child. An adorable one. But even the kid can understand the need for a spark to get this engine running. He loves this kid. His kid. Almost. 

He has not told a single soul about this ridiculous plan. One,  he's too awkward to admit that Maddie was right and two, he's too scared of falling on his face and making it more awkward for the whole 118, who will inevitably know about this as soon as he gets it out. 

It's a silly plan. To use the same tiktok trend his 13 year old used to bag his young, young love is as ridiculous as it gets. Not to mention that the very thought that Chris did this has him sleepless over whether he should inform Eddie about Christopher's first kiss. They have had a pretty good relationship recently, slowly reconnecting all the fragile broken bonds from the last year. He sincerely believes he needs to protect Christopher's privacy, but he's caught on the other end with hiding this from Eddie. He knows Eddie WILL crash out and that man can't pretend to save his life. He will talk about it to Chris. 

Christopher 🦕: Have you left yet? It's already 6PM Buck!! You know dad's gonna get grumpy right?

That gets him moving. Eddie hates the showers at the fire station, and on days he can get away with the mild soot and dust, he prefers to come home to shower. Going by today's updates, he's probably going to be a big baby about this if Buck gets late. Buck finally gets his ass out of home. He really hopes he can keep calling it home after tonight. 

 He's going with a ridiculous plan in mind. Ridiculous enough to laugh away easily. To throw in a "are you gonna be homophobic to me in thee pride month?" joke when Eddie inevitably gets awkward. Or disgusted. Or pissed even. 

"Anyways, here goes nothing. Or everything." He whispers before closing the door. 

Looks like Buck was five minutes late after all, and that means Eddie's already gone for a shower. Buck waits for him on the sofa. Others seem to have left for the day, when Bobby comes in. 

"Hey kid, you doing okay?"

Damn Bobby and his seventh sense for Buck. He happens to notice the slightest increase in buck fidgeting around, just a bit more than usual. 

"Uh, it's nothing Bobby. I'm just a little tired. Last shift was pretty exhausting. Someone needs to put an instruction board for the Q word. Don't you agree?"

"I will neither accept nor deny the existence of that... myth. But yes, if it eases you all, might as well get one."

Bobby sits besides Buck. Pats him on the shoulder. It's a quite reassurance he does everytime they meet after the whole lab shebang. Buck will even throw in a "I love you Bobby" once in a while. He's working on it. He has this strange moment of pride in having so many to love, and so many to fear losing. 

"You need to take a break, kid. I'm aware why you keep picking up extra work everywhere you can these days. And all the chauffering you do between an active teenager and a firefighter ... Partner."

"It's just for a little longer Bobby. I have kinda saved up a good deal now. I really hope I can get Eddie his car back. It was his last memory of Shannon."

"You're a good kid Buck. Tell me if I can help you in any way. And... Whatever is stressing you right now, it's going to be alright."

Bobby is giving him that look again. The "I'm here to talk if you need to talk but I'll not ask you until you want to" look. Buck feels like the richest person alive right now. Somehow. 

Bobby leaves just as Eddie comes out. Fresh, smelling like lime and - oh. He's got wet hair. No clue as to why Buck's brain is stuck on that one detail. It runs in his mind like a broken record. 

Eddie's waving his hand in front of his eyes now. 

"Hello Buckaroo. You plan on going home or what?"

"Uh. Yes. Yes of course. Let's go. Also, Christopher is at his friends again tonight. The project seems to take a lot of work."

"The project, right. I don't understand what is wrong with the teachers piling up work right now."

Buck realises just how thick Eddie can be sometimes. Dude haa dropped Chris off at Rose's multiple times, has met the girl as well as his other friends. Is he blind. God he needs to tell him before Eddie's head cracks from the sudden burst of information one day. 

“I'll drive today. I know the last shift was a bitch."

"Um yeah sure." Buck doesn't object. He doubts how much of a capacity he's got to focus on the road with Eddie's wet hair and tank top at the moment. Dude's out to get him. And he doesn't even know. 

Buck's anxiety is going up every second and every turn they get closer to home. 

"Buck, is everything okay? You haven't spoken a word. Did something happen at home? Chris okay?"

"Yeah. Yeah, everything is fine." Buck is so gonna crash out. He should abandon this plan. But the universe doesn't agree. 

"Your Electric Love" starts playing on the radio. 

"Hey, isn't this the same song Chris was listening to throughout the summer. I think I need to monitor his screentime again. But I don't wanna be strict, I'm scared of upsetting him."

"Don't worry about it Eds. It's just a silly teenager phase he's going through."

They reach home. 

"Do you, um. Have you heard of this song before?"

"Yea, sure. It keeps coming up on my reels because Christopher prolly listened to it so much."

/Christ, you're as thick as it gets/. Buck says in his head. Later, he will be blaming Eddie's shower head, his tank top, his stupidity and the universe putting this song on the radio, for what he's about to do next. 

"Um, Eddie."

"Yeah?"

He wants to aim for his lips, but the moment he faces Eddie for reals, Buck chickens out hard. He grabs his face, and kisses Eddie on the cheek. 

He's trembling very bad after. They don't say anything. 

Buck leaves the jeep in a haste and goes in. His brain is all noise at this point. Not a single coherent thought. He hopes Eddie does not say anything. 

Eddie enters a little after. 

Buck has had prepared what can only be called a homely feast for tonight. The smell almost distracts Eddie. 

Eddie lays down the plates quietly, while Buck is reheating the food. He has a lot to say, but he knows Buck too well to not say it right now. And well, he's hungry as fuck. 

Eddie starts eating the Enchiladas, and an extremely unholy sound leaves his mouth. He seems to like it. Buck smiles. At least one part of the night has gone according to plan.

"Buck, this tastes like home." Eddie's eyes have gone glossy. He hadn't eaten this in a long while. What with the Texas, Pepa's stroke and everything, home made food like this was a rarity.

"Pepa got me the recipe. She was going to help me make them, but had a bad headache. Bobby helped me tweak the recipe a little for whatever stuff we had at home."

"Mmmm whatever it was, it has worked like magic. It's like I'm back home. Both Tia Pepa's home, and back to Bobby's cooking. Thanks man."

They eat the rest of the meal in silence. Except for the ocassional licking of the spoon by Eddie, which is really not making anything easier for Buck.

Eddie's washing the dishes when it hits him these are one of the only special sets they have at home. He looks at Buck, really looks at him for the first time tonight. Buck's wearing his date-night cologne. He smells like lavender now that he notices. It dawns on him, all at once. Christ, good food really can distract you from more important events, and feelings. 

Buck is keeping the leftovers back in the fridge. He has pretty much accepted an unspoken rejection in his head. After all, if Eddie didn't say anything till now he probably hated it, right?

"Buck"

"Yeah?"

"Was this ... A date?"

Buck goes into avoiding mode immediately. It's like he just threw a stone into water, hoping to never see it back. And instead it has sprung double the height to hit him rock hard in the chest. He's not hyperventilating, but he's close. All the funny responses he practiced before die right off his tongue. 

"What, no. I just wanted to do something nice. I'll go do the laundry now. I think we need to get Chris more clothes, he somehow manages to get them dirty every single day. Kid's growing up so fast, we can barely keep up. You know what, there's a new detergent in the market. You wanna give that a try? Maybe it'll work better. Those school uniforms never regain the whiteness. Wait isn't tomorrow culture day? Is it next week? I had checked the schedule-"

Buck is dodging this ball faster than he ever remembers. He's staring at the schedule on the fridge, ready to flee at any moment, but his legs won't move. It doesn't take a genius to see he's nearly shaking. 

Eddie holds his arm, gets him out of his unending monologue.

"Hey, hey. Buck. Buck, I'm here. Breathe. Please. I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere." 

He moves his hand from Buck's arm to his shoulder. A familiar position, a familiar feeling. It calms Buck down. 

"Buck, was this a date?"

He makes eye contact this time, and doesn't leave. Buck has nowhere to hide. But trapped is the last thing he feels. The only way he can describe those eyes and that hand on his shoulder is "home". 

"Yes."

"I see."

And Buck is back to looking away. Eddie hasn't moved his hand, and that gives him an ugly hundred odd butterflies of hope in his stomach. 

"I know you probably don't feel the same way. It's okay. I'm okay. It doesn't change anything for me. But if it makes you awkward, I can look for another place. Or sleep on the couch for some time. I can, I can- it's okay if you don't want to live with me anymore, or-"

"Buck-" Eddie holds his face in his hands. He has a million thoughts running right now, he's almost on autopilot. Whatever happens, he can't ever have Buck feeling like this. He can never let Buck go. 

"Buck, stop. Breathe. You're not going anywhere. I don't know how many times I have to convince you, but you're family. We are family. You, me and Chris. Nothing will change that. Ever. Okay? And I'll keep reminding you of it as many times as you need do." 

Tears are falling down Buck's eyes now. He wipes them away. 

"As for, the date. Buck, you need to know you are the most important person in my life next to my kid. I can't risk losing you no matter what. You are my best friend, you are my family, my partner. I've never, um, I've never really thought in this direction before. Please give me some time?" 

Buck nods his head. 

"I could go to Maddie's for a few days if you need space. It's okay."

"No. Please don't. This is your home. You're not going anywhere. I just need some time to think." 

It hits Eddie a little hard how unwilling he is to let Buck give him some space. It would technically be good for them after all, he could clear his head about his feelings. But the last few weeks, they've felt so- he can't describe the feeling. But he knows he can't let it go. This home is incomplete without Buck, even for a few days. These last few weeks are the only time he's felt at home in a very long while. It feels like home in ways it didn't feel even with Shannon. 

"Okay. I'm sorry for making this awkward Eds."

"Shut up." Eddie engulfs him in a hug, and Buck holds on tight. It's weird how he feels small in Eddie's arms when he's the bigger one between them. He let's the rest of his tears fall away. 

"Buck"

"Hmm?" He mumbles over Eddie's shoulder, and Eddie feels it through his top.

"You know I love you right? In what way I might not know yet. But I hope you know you mean the world to me. I don't want to live without you or Chris ever again." 

Buck audibly sobs a little at that, and hides his head further into Eddie's shoulder. He's very strongly aware of the weight of those words. 

"Me too, Eds. I love you too." He mumbles. And hopes Eddie heard him. 

...

They sleep on opposite corners of the bed once again, backs facing each other. But both are wide awake.

PLEASE tell me there’s a buddie fic based on the kiss-your-best-friend tiktok trend, im begging

[nell0-0]

Based on a fic called A Wild Time at Calamity Ganon

This was a gift fic from @musical-chan about Mask ending up at the end of another hero's journey (Wild). Yeah, I'm still thinking about this fic aksgfshdn

[virtuousvigil]

in the colored moonlight waited so long to dive in, make waves in the blue, blue fire

+ a close ups/detail shots cause this came out nicer than expected and i put a lot of details in it despite not feeling finished with it necessarily. but my ipad is betraying me so i caved and am considering it complete for now. i'd love to make this animated once i upgrade my ipad; my current model wouldn't even let me finish this let alone animate it rip

i wanna post the timelapse too bc the start to finish goes CRAZY but i'll probably do that later whenever i inevitably reblog it again for more visibility

[egophiliac]

do you have youtube channel?

technically yes, but I just use it to host unlisted videos for embedding, so there's nothing, like, public on it. :') sorry! I basically don't post anywhere except here and occasionally on pixiv (in case it's not obvious, I suck at social media).

[arobinwithoutbatman]

He's in over his head. Oooohhh God he's so in over his head. This wasn't how it was supposed to go! He can't panic right now because it will only send Ed spiralling harder!

Swallow it, darling. It can be felt later.

...it was a terrible habit to keep especially when it was his mother's voice in his head, a memory from long before any of this. But it helped. In times like this, it really did help and one of these days, he would actually talk to a therapist, maybe even give Doctor Caldwell a fair shot this time even though she kinda scared him. So he took a deep breath through his nose, swallowed down his panic and tried again.

"Yes there is!" Arguing was such a bad idea. "Ed, a big change like that in how I act, how I present, how I'll be perceived... that's terrifying."

Did he trust Ed right now? With the information that Dick Grayson now had the Wayne seat on Arkham's Board of Directors and that he was preparing to present a legal case to the state of New Jersey itself to properly shut the place down and get better people on the Board? That he and Nightwing were steadily collecting evidence night after night with testimonial help from both Harvey and Harley?

...

No. No he couldn't trust Ed with that right now. That was too much information to give the man. He's a highly intelligent man, that could easily be just enough for him to connect dots that most others wouldn't even consider. After all, Tim himself had done it. It had been partially luck as well; how many people would memorise a flip they'd seen at a circus as a toddler? How many people would latch onto an act to cope with the trauma of watching two thirds of the act die before his eyes?

Instead, he took out his grapple and finally uncrossed his legs and got to his feet.

"I'll come back in a few days. Don't be reckless, Ed. Don't strike out."

...it would probably happen anyway and one of the others would have to handle him for a while. For now? He wanted his brothers and sister. He needed help.

That's...

Oh no.

Oooohhhh that was not what he was going for at all.

Okay. Okay okay okay okay okay deep breaths. He's not a trained therapist he's sixteen for crying out loud! so yeah of course he was going to mess up at some point. So what's safer? What's going to keep Ed from lashing out and putting people in danger?

He can't lie, too big of a risk that Ed will see straight through it.

He can't tell the truth either. Identities are at risk that way and it might send Ed into a rage.

What does he do? What are his options here?

A white lie? A half truth?

Okay... okay that might work. He just has to be careful with what he says.

Just have to make sure nothing shows on his face or in his body language. Easy. He's been masking since he was six. He just tweaks it slightly when he's wearing the domino and out and about as Robin.

"I'm learning riddles to understand you, Ed. You say a lot with the riddles you choose. It seemed... respectful to at least try to learn your language." He's slow with his words, careful. That alone might give him away but it's the best he's got.

"That's a really big plan, Ed. And it's very different from what I normally do." He needs out. Holy miscommunication Batman he needs out.

He needs an adult.

"I'm angry at Arkham too... can I have some time to think about it? I-" How does he phrase this without setting Ed off? "-I want to make sure I'm putting my loyalties in the right place. I think I need a very long, very hard conversation with myself first, figure out if this is absolutely what I want."

[yangjeongin]

HYUNJIN | 240811 • JJAM @ INKIGAYO

[raffi-cat]

messing around with basic skywing design

[red-winter-is-coming]

Turns out, even a Soul Jam split between multiple cookies will awaken....

Or, a silly little AU I've been concocting for a couple months now! Gonna make a rp blog at some point but I at least wanna wait until the Eternal Sugar / Hollyberry updates finish!

The basic premise of the AU is simple: as a token of goodwill/trust/etc, most of the Ancients give a small peace of their Soul Jam to their most trusted allies.

Overtime, it just becomes second nature. A mark of how much trust they have on their shoulders, a way for the rulers to always know who they can trust.

And then Beast-Yeast happens. Turns out, when the Ancients themselves gained their awakened forms, the same happened to the cookies holding those small fragments....

And chaos ensues, because 2/3s of the Abundance holders should be dead and are Not, one of the Resolution holders has no fucking clue what's happening, and both Truth holders just woke up and have been transformed overnight with no word from Pure Vanilla in weeks

Light of Truth -

Although it wasn't until he lost his memories, Pure Vanilla did hand out two small fragments of his Soul Jam.

One to Black Raisin, even before he regained those precious memories. One as a gift to the leader he trusted to keep the village safe throughout it all.

One to Strawberry Crepe, as a peace offering. What harm could come if he indulged in the child's curiously just this once?

Crepe was a design I always had in mind, with small physical changes! They now have pretty magic freckles, lights glinting in the hair, and various other little stuff!!! I really just enjoyed the idea of the subtle stuff for them!

(I also like to imagine that they're now able to read the Soul Jams, and have an internal sense of if someone is lying or not)

Black Raisin gets wings :3 It's kinda hard to work with just the sprite, but they're white chocolate, as a reference to chocolate cover raisins!!! And honestly the hair was just because the wings felt a bit bland, so the idea of the Light of Truth taking over her hair was an idea that I figured looked awesome!!

Also the Crows and her can communicate without any hesitation. She just starts chirping to chat with a random crow in the middle of a meeting. does not realize this is happening

Light of Resolution -

Long before he closed the kingdom off, Dark Cacao gave his most trusted soldiers their own chip of his Soul Jam, trusting that they'd understand what it meant.

And understand they did. Crunchy Chip made sure that even among the coldest nights and hardest training sessions, that gem stayed safe. Caramel Arrow, even while exiled, treasured the shard of something precious with her life.

Dark Choco, on the other hand, only gained his due to sheer luck. Affagato had gotten his hands on the small chip of Soul Jam that had originally been reserved for the prince, and lost it in the wilderness. Dark Choco just happened to be in the right place to find it.

For the designs, I. honestly I wasn't sure how exactly the best way about changing them up would be. Aside from making Crunchy Chip a furry. that was a given lol

Tbh Crunchy Chip was kind hard to figure out a design for, but in the same vein as Carrow, I think at lot of the changes Awakening brought were in his instincts and shit. mans will know if you're acting shifty from a mile away

It's a bit hard to see, but Dark Choco has some draconic traits! Claws, tail, horns, and some scales on his face! Honestly I just liked the idea of him echoing his father a bit through that :D

Carrow my beloved I couldn't find much to change up about your design because in my head most of the changes were magic in nature. Just know that all her arrows are 100% magical now and will never miss any target. and small trails of purple magic follow them. please see the vision

Light of Abundance -

Mozzarella was always a candidate for this role, being one of Golden Cheese's most trusted allies. Golden Cheese thought the shard of her Soul Jam had died with her friend, but it turns out things didn't go exactly as she assumed...

Burnt Cheese, in the same vein as Mozzarella, was assumed to have died alongside the shard he was given. Until Smoked Cheese misplaced the Soulcheese's after defeating Burning Spice.

Smoked Cheese, by all means, should NOT have been given a fragment of untold power. But Golden Cheese saw something in him that caused her to pause. Maybe it was a small reflection of herself, maybe the hope that it'd placate him. Whatever the reason, when the Goddess of Eternal Gold regained her wings, her adviser as gained a pair of his own.

Smoked Cheese gets wings!! I liked the idea of him having smaller, but very capable, wings!! Some of his outfit was shifted to a more gold color, and the purple smoke is also gold! (this will be a theme)

Mozzarella gets cool horns! I also adored the idea of her Soul Jam fragment taking the place of the cheese slice on her head piece!!! I then proceeded to (attempt to) make it look like she was sprinkled in gold dust!!!!

Burnt Cheese... I'm so sorry my guy I had like no ideas ;-; I did end up giving him a small tail, and made him look like parts of his cape/head piece were coated in gold! Again I'm sorry Burnt Cheese fans I didn't know what to do for his designs ;-;

[returnofahsoka]

season 4 hoLY FUCKING SHIT

[ ] oh no the conses are quencing

[ ] "i'll rest when... i'll rest later"

[ ] oh this is very well written. i hate to see him like this

[ ] donatello can have some ecoterrorism. as a treat

[ ] leo he's.... he's missing a big chunk of his shell i'm-

[ ] "if leo's in trouble, i'm the first one in there" insane that raph is the one now who knows when to stand back from a fight. but also look who's keeping the little brothers in check and is also ready to step in the moment leo goes too far

[ ] leo and raph are really like. one of us, at all times, has to be the responsible one. and if leo can't or won't, raph will step up and do it, no questions asked. they've kind of grown to be co-leaders this way and i'm so here for it

[ ] y'all weren't lying that 2000s cartoon can sure write a depression arc

[ ] donnie, with the biggest smile on his face and a hand on mikey's shoulder "man, it stinks to be you :)"

[ ] "training, michelangelo? but there are comic books i could be reading instead" not splinter too afshfksjdkj

[ ] "it's for my superhero team up scrapbook!" of course. of course he has a superhero team up scrapbook

[ ] "hey look an alien invasion! you don't see that kinda thing every day! oh wait. yeah we do."

[ ] splinter used to take them trick or treating when they were kids that is so good, that is so smart, i love that. of course halloween is their favourite holiday

[ ] "i think you should lay off the poor guy. i mean, it can't be fun, always being the responsible one. and we're the ones who really benefit! raph's free not to think 'cause leo does all the thinking for him, don's free to dream and i'm free to take it easy. all 'cause leonardo's busy being responsible for all of us!" michelangelo. you. you get it

[ ] i always said he was the most perceptive

[ ] "a true warrior accepts what he cannot change" "thank you for your concern usagi but i will decide what i can and cannot change"

[ ] what if in your trying to keep your family safe you ended up hurting them. what if you lost yourself in the process

[ ] oh leonardo

[ ] he did the best he could do you understand he did the best he could there's nothing more he could have done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ ] i am. experiencing shrimp emotions about this btw.

[ ] "i guess i've been obsessed with failing. i hardened my heart like a rock, wrapped up in my own shell" yeah you gotta love being a turtle, that's like the ultimate metaphor for this

[ ] it's that. instead of freeing karai to be her own person, without the shredder's influence, they pushed her down this path of becoming him. this show is about cycles and none of them will ever escape huh

[ ] "let him know i destroyed his family. let him know he is the last of his kind" girl they were. your friends.

[ ] mikey. baby boy. huddled up by the subway tunnel with his cat. oh little guy

[ ] "yes. i can see it in your eyes. i have my son back" god. yeah. good lord.

[ ] no! i'm pretty sure that's how the mutant zombie monsters get you! don!!!!

[ ] "what strange dimension are you from?" "new york city" pffffffft

[ ] "master splinter you're never gonna believe what-" "stop. please. it is probably better that i do not know" King Shit

[ ] i do worry about don. he's got a cold. he's slower. he's getting sloppy

[ ] "this cold of yours is gonna be the end of us" i'm saying!!

[ ] wait. fuck. the cycles. the hamatos are at it again.

[ ] "vengeance is like a splinter, it gets under your skin and can poison your life" EXCUSE ME

[ ] "mikey you take the left, don you cover me from-" "uh. don's home sick from school today leo"

[ ] little guy. he really looks like shit

[ ] oh the broken voice as he calls for casey and april. oh no donnie

[ ] he's trying to go home!! he's sick and hurting and confused and scared and he's just trying to go home!

[ ] mikey on his knees beside the containment chamber. raph putting his hand on his master's shoulder. splinter as he's seeing his son in this state. STOP THIS MADNESS RIGHT NOW-

[ ] this. is killing me btw

[ ] oh good he doesn't remember it

[ ] kudos to leonardo for recognizing what donnie needs is for things to get back to normal again and being like. okay. boys night out. as a treat.

[ ] the overdramatic "oh no i'm changing ahhhhh" and then chasing his brothers around the rooftop. never underestimate donatello's ability to go through the horrors and bounce back

[ ] yo what

[ ] may i repeat myself. yo what

that's wrap on season 1, here's some highlights from my notes app

[  ] they are fifteen???? like i know i'm aware the title goes teenage mutant ninja turtles but oh my god???

[  ] "poor choice raphael"

[  ] gosh. they were so tiny.

[  ] "how many times have i told you not to sneak up to the surface?" "this month or-"

[  ] teenage boy activities

[  ] i live for splinter's fake japanes proverbs

[  ] "whoever lives here just made the mistake of snatching one of ours" "and we'll level this whole city to get him back" yooooooooo

[  ] the shredder strikes back and tales of leo. what banger episodes. this is exactly what i was talking about babes.

[  ] he is their foundation! their rock to lean on and steady themselves!! the one to lead them home!!!!!!

[  ] love a symbolic rebirth through forging a new weapon ngl

[  ] donatello got his hands on a giant rocket launcher. run.

[  ] "i can finish this, raph" "i know. but where's the fun in that?"

[  ] aaaaaaaand now we got the aliens. scully you're not gonna believe this

[  ] this was such a BUSY season

[merlinfromberlin]

Bumblebee & Ratchet Fic Recs

It's my birthday, so let me treat myself (and you) to some of my favourite fanfics exploring the dynamic between Ratchet & Bumblebee in TFP. Because I am a sucker for Ratchet and Bee and Ratchet having a soft spot for Bee.

Bumblebee & Ratchet Fics

Do You Like Bees? by @thinkingheron (Stardustjinn on AO3)

TFP. Ratchet needs a break from his Synth-En project, so Bumblebee takes it upon himself to make it happen. The Team is amused, Ratchet is not, and Bumblebee pays with a scratched paint and a dent. Oneshot. Warning we have an angry Ratchet.

I honestly love this story so much. It's incredibly creative and funny! :3 I love how cheeky and mischievous Bee is. I love how helpless everybody else is to stop his shenagigans. I love that, yeah, he's playing a prank and it's infuriating to Ratchet in the moment, but in the end it's not actually malicious. No one is hurt, it can be reverted easily and Ratchet recharges for a bit.

On another note: this fic is basically canon to me.

If Language Were Liquid by @equivocaleternity (equivocalEternity on AO3)

Bumblebee's voice box is malfunctioning again, and he joins Ratchet and Raf for a perfectly timed lesson on Cybertronian grammar.

This fic just hits all of my boxes: Ratchet, Bumblebee and an super interesting exploration of Cybertronian languages/linguistics/grammar. It's absolutely amazing! :3

Minus One by @gentle-hero-blog (carrot_top_monk on AO3)

A rewrite of the season 3 episode “Minus One”, in which the Autobots’ interrogation of Soundwave goes horribly wrong.

I almost wish that this was canon. It's such an interesting way to explore how Minus One could have gone differently. It's also a super interesting angle at a "Tyger Pax fic". I also honestly love the relationships between Ratchet, Optimus and Bumblebee in this fic so much.

And, maybe most impressively, it made me sympathetise with Smokescreen a little bit more than I did before. I still don't really vibe with him, but I feel like I understand him a little bit better now.

Spark of Courage also by @thinkingheron

TF:Prime, Aligned. Pre Earth. After a surprise Decepticon attack near the Well of AllSparks, Ratchet manages to save a sparkling from near death... or was it the other way around? Origin fic. Rated for mild violence.

Aaaahhh. I don't know how to even describe this fic but I honestly love it so, so much. Bee's immediate attachment to Ratchet is honestly so, so sweet. How Ratchet gets attached to Bee against his will. Bee's sparkling adventures are just absolutely amazing. He's got half the Autbot force exhausted with his shenanigans within the first three days without even trying to. And at the same time he's got all of them wrapped around his little finger. It's honestly one of the best portrayals of Bee I've ever read. I can only aspire to one day write such an adorable, fun and mischievous version of Bee. :3 Also: the background War politics/plot. And, Jazz is in it and he is absolutely glorious.

Honestly can't recommend this enough. <3

Dadchet Fics

Because, for some reason childhood trauma, grumpy old medic dad having a soft spot for his little yellow robot is my greatest weakness.

A glimpse in the Past by arctic_lotus on AO3

When they say you see your children before you die, it isn't always the good memories. ~ Ratchet seems to walk through the events leading to his deepest regret as a recon mission goes up in smoke.

Featuring lots of incredibly sweet vignettes of Bee's and Ratchet's relationship leading up to Tyger Pax. Sparkling Bee is absolutely adorable and Ratchet has a soft spot for him that is bigger than Cybertron itself. It's incredibly sweet. There is also some incredibly heart-warming Optiratch in there. ^^ It's a bit bittersweet but in the best of ways. :3

Autobots, Pass Out! by @yamiquietshadowflo (Quiet_Shadow on AO3)

Ratchet is far too busy and stressed to just drop everything he's doing and go to sleep, even Optimus gives him his best 'So-Disappointed-In-You Look'. Recharge? Who needs that when there is so much to fret about? (Un)Fortunately for the medic, Optimus isn't the type of mech who give up and he's not above for the most underhanded, sneaky tactic at his disposition: Sending in Bumblebee and Raf.

Adorable. Funny. Sweet. :3 I love that Ratchet knows exactly what Bee and Raf are doing, but is absolutely helpless to it anyways. Absolutely adore that it is implied that, now that this has happened once, Bee will keep making it happen. They deserve their cuddles. Optimus is absolutely hilarious, too. :D

Napping Spot by @keef-a-corn (Keef_A_Corn on AO3)

I have a soft spot for Bee and Ratchet. Sometimes you just gotta hold your little Bee. It's short and cute. I have nothing else to say.

Honestly, this is just utterly adorable. 10/10. Could read it every five minutes. I should probably read it every five minutes.

Promises and Failures by @theiceemperor (Windify on AO3)

He’d made up his mind the moment they found out that the scout’s T-Cog was missing. There was nothing he wouldn’t do to fix Bee.

Now this. Whenever I read this story, I just want to shake some sense into Ratchet because he ist just infuriatingly reckless. Because, yeah, he should definitely not have operated on himself and then not told anyone. At the same time, however, I absolutely get why he is doing it. That's his baby boy who's hurting, after all, and there's all that old medic guilt and self-consciousness and love for Bee that drives him to his decision. In the end I'd probably be too much of a sap to wrench him before hugging him. Even if he'd deserve it for endangering himself like that.

I also just love Bee and Ratchet's interaction at the end of the story. That just oozes their love for another. :3

Now go and read at least one of these fics, they are all absolutely amazing.