#lapidot angst week

[bi-incog-btch]

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Lapidot Angst Week Day 1 : Nightmare

The beach was shaded in the green from a legion of hand-ships. Their booms from breaking the atmosphere were still echoing in the distance. The gems on the beach, frozen in shock. The glowing, whirring balls of energy charged at the finger of the lead ships. The young human-hybrid spared a glance at his fellows; the tall and usually stoic Garnet, staring at the sky, her eyes wide in shock, Pearl, her spear drawn in reflex against the oncoming threat, the tip shaking in fear, Amethyst, fists pulled up to her chest defensivley, her head whipping back and forth between the static balls of energy aimed toward them.

His shield. Where is his shield?

The screen door to the beachhouse opened, somehow heard over the deafining buzz of energy above them.

No. Go back inside. Don’t come out here.

Peridot stood on the porch, defiantly staring at the armada of ships. She looked down at the gems and said, as the lasers shot from the cannons,

“I’m a Crystal Gem too.”

“NO! STOP!” Lapis shot up from her hammock.

Her chest heaved with breaths she didn’t need. The walls of the barn greeted her and the silence of the moon base assaulted her ears. Her head shook back and forth, reorienting herself.

A dream? Or… Oh no. Did Steven?

She lept out of the barn and took flight towards the top of the base. Landing on the top floor she ran to the windows facing towards Earth.

The half-shadowed planet didn’t show any signs of the ships from her dream, but stars forbid that Steven might have somehow contacted her through her sleep, and they had already entered the atmosphere…

She lept down onto the second floor and strode toward the orb in the middle of the room.

“Show me the beach.”

The walls flickered to life, showing the ocean splashing against the sand, soundlessly, over and over again. Turning, she was once again below the Crystal Gem’s temple, whole and staring serenely over the waves.

The pressure in Lapis’s chest lifted momentarily. Then her brow furrowed.

“Show me the Crystal Gems.”

The scene shifted to the inside of the house, Pearl whisking away at some mixture in a large bowl, to some wooded area where Garnet was sitting at the bank of a pond, watching a family of frogs jumping from pad to pad. Connie was sitting at a desk in a bland room with other young humans. Then the picture jumped to a dark canyon where Steven, Amethyst, and Peridot were planting sunflowers.

Flowers in a Kindergarten?

Lapis chuckled aloud.

I suppose if anyone can do it, it’d be those three.

She sat down and sighed, letting the walls return to their steely grey.

They’re all safe. Everything is okay.

Sporting a small smile, Lapis flitteted down to the first floor of the base, where the doors to the barn were still wide open. Her footsteps padding against the weathered wood. She stood in the middle of the barn, wondering what to do.

The hammock swayed gently in her corner, the couch and TV set were upstairs along with all five seasons of Camp Pining Hearts. She had tried and failed to get the TV to work.

Peridot could have done it.

Lapis shook her head and walked to her pile of meep morps. She had put all of them into their proper place and set them up correctly, even Peridot’s very first meep morp “Wow, Thanks”.

They are installation pieces after all.

She felt a pang in her chest. Backing away from the meep morps she ended up at the wide opening at its front. Looking over the interior of their home, her heart ached.

What is happening? What is out of place?

Confused, she let her wings carry her to the second floor once more, clutching at her heart all the while. Lighting on the edge of the rectangular hole where the stairs would ascend, Lapis looked down at the barn.

Funny, it almost looks like a meep morp from up here. Peridot would love…

There it was again, the throbbing pain in her chest. She moved away from the opening, towards the side of the room.

She sat along the cold wall, wrapping her arms around her legs. The pain faded away to a dull aching as Lapis looked up through misty eyes at the orb lightly glowing in the room’s center.

“Please,” she said in a pleading, tearful whisper, “show me what is missing.”

As the walls began to flicker once more, she continued,

“Show me Peridot.”

[fleurdelynx]

Lapidot Angst Week Day 2

Day 2: Corruption Back into SU. Back into Lapidot. Apparently this week is a Lapidot week? Anyway. Here we go. I might try and go and do day 1 as well.  Anyway. I hope this is okay. Yeah. Okay. Bye ;; Commission InfoOther Sites Posted using PostyBirb

[kinkixat]

“Peridot, that’s lying!”

my last entree because i got busy ;-;

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[coffeemon]

I told my sister about Lapidot Angst week and then she tells me, "but don't you guys have enough angst already from the show itself? " and honestly I dunno how to answer

[dottysdokis]

okay time for some dotty backstory. if you've been on my blog for all this you get a veteran's discount.

i am mabel at heart, i love shipping and will ship any two characters. i don't care if it's a healthy, positive relationship or a fucking disaster, if i see an interesting story between two characters, i'm there for it. but the ones that i find most interesting, my otps...i have not had the most luck with. i bet on losing ships. from my plucky beginnings in the mlp fandom, to my horrid experience in the voltron fandom...the less i say about THAT the better.

a ship becoming Endgame is not very important to me, in fact i ship many things i'd never want to see in canon, but it hurts doubly so to be snubbed by canon, and be scrounging for table scraps and batting away hate anons in fan space.

there have been a few times i've shipped the fandom juggernaut, like wrightworth or komahina, but they already were long before i joined their respective fandoms. they didn't feel like they were mine. i was never a successful Early Investor.

i started shipping billford as a joke in my head summer 2015, before the last mabelcorn episode that actually showed their backstory, because i figured the author of the journals and the series' main antagonist would have had some history, and it seemed like it had more potential for a dark, interesting, adult story than billdip, the gf fandom's biggest pair. but i didn't expect anything from canon.

and then the last mabelcorn happened. and then the finale with the bondage shit and piano serenade. and the journal. each one was like a punch to the solar plexus in the best way. i NEVER thought we'd get so much bait. but like...it's not Real real, right? some people in fandom joked about it, but plenty others were vehement in hating it, and it was never the number one thing being talked about. i was quiet about my enjoyment of it, would like posts about it but not reblog, or reblog without tagging the ship name, because i was 16 and terrified of being Cringe. i drifted away from the fandom and found other interests. i raised my eyebrows a bit at some of the things alex hirsch was saying in the big 2023 fan interview about their relationship, but again...skepticles.

and then i was vindicated harder than i could have ever imagined with the new book. not only by all the canon romantic language used, the angst, the compelling depiction of abuse, but by the fandom. it's not just A ship, it is the ship, not just in gf fandom but across the website. it has topped the tumblr ship rankings for two weeks, only behind poolverine, a blockbuster mcu ship.

they used the divorce gif as the post footer. i must be in bill cipher's lotus eater machine. i am having such a fucking ball you can't even imagine.

the only comparable situation i can think of, where i was an almost-prophet, was when i started crackshipping amethyst and peridot steven universe shortly after s2 started, and then we got all that interaction between them. but ultimately, lapidot won over in the court of public opinion, albeit neither ship actually became canon.

this, to me, is like if amedot got a whole lore-heavy canon story about their relationship and became the number one ship in the whole SU fandom. my little joke ship has gone full rags-to-riches. this is my roman empire.

sorry i'm back in my 2015 triangle yaoi phase i will NOT shut up

[derpyslurpy-da-derp-master]

Lapidot Angst Week-Guilt

It's Lapidot Angst week errbody! Guess who's late to the party? (as usual) ITSA ME! Anywho, this is a traditional redraw of Lapis's first words to Peridot on seeing her again. We can only imagine all the things Lapis wanted to tell Peridot, all the things she wanted to apologize for, all the things she wanted to say... But everyone was in danger, there wasn't time for that.

NO IM NOT CRYING IM SWEATING THROUGH MY EYES

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[a-stelthy-yet-clumsy-pancake]

Title: Together Artist: me Pls give me credit Lapidot angst week

[vishnya-azraq]

Lapidot Week, day 3. My original idea was a cute comic, but I’m not feeling well at all, neither emotionally or physically right now and couldn’t bring myself to do something that would takes hours.

So I did this quick drawing for today’s theme but also to vent. Originally there were tears but I felt slightly better when I finished so I erased them

( @lapidot-anniversary-week )

[especdreamy]

I'm new to your page! Love your art and reblogs. How are you doing? :3

I am, fine? Right now at least. I just wished I had more energy to do stuff. Like drawing, or playing games. Or writing. At least I have been doing well at uni right now.

[koreankitkat]

I like to sit by the window and watch the rain fall sometimes. Lapidot Angst Week Day 7 (July 22nd): Rain (Also, a thank you to the folks hosting Lapidot Angst Week)

[crispokefan]

For the @lapidot-angst-week day 3 “heartbroken”

I’m not happy how it turned out but here it is, this is the last one I did for the angst week, blame my lazyness and lack of freetime, but I’m looking forward to see your amazing and incredibly sad contributions.

[furashuban]

Reconciliation

So this is my first but late contribution for this year’s @lapidot-week. I was supposed to post the other day but my wifi went out. hope you dudes enjoy

Day 4 Prompt: Fear/Comfort

Words: 1.4K

Summary:  Although Lapis and Peridot have reunited at last, the two gems need some time to open up for closure.

It felt more like a thousand years instead of a couple months since the two gems detached from each other. None of them have been able to get over their disconnection and did not try tossing away the images of their smiles and conversations stuck in their heads. And regardless of Peridot coping with her friends back on Earth and Lapis still having her home over nothing at all, absolutely NOTHING in the cosmos would get in the way of their retentions. They were bored, miserable, and wished there gems would crack when they didn’t have each other to feel their discrete adoration.

When the days were officially out of count, Peridot spent the next countless day outside with Pumpkin. Specifically in the place they last saw Lapis fly off, because she felt strong enough to come back for only one moment. As they ambled across their property, she saw half of the former corn farm still standing healthy while the rest seemed to have died formerly. Even the tractor seemed aged with dust despite having been used a while back. But one thing Peridot couldn’t bear to see for a mere five seconds was a dug-up hole outside the farm. What used to be her home seemed more like a memorial for Peridot’s hope and happiness. And on the inside, a memorial for what she thought she had special with Lapis.

No words other than depressing sighs and whimpering were emitted. “Come on, Pumpkin. Back to the temple.” Peridot ordered soon after. She turned around and ambled towards the nearest warp pad. Suddenly, Pumpkin started barking excitingly and distracted the green gem. “What’s gotten in to you¬¬––?“ She tried to halt her, but she gasped when she saw the barn crashed to its former spot. It was right out of a dream, and she was walking close to it to see if she was hallucinating. But a familiar voice shouted her name softly, feeling her chest was about to explode. “…Lapis?” It was at that point that Peridot would always recall how her tears fell nonstop as she gawked astounded by the ocean gem’s presence. Lapis’ teardrops fell through her grin, while Peridot’s fell through her sulk and to the ground. “I’m back, Peri.” Was what the ocean gem fervently whispered. Peridot remembered how gradually she was running up to her on the spur of the moment eventually halting to stare at each other one last time and clinching an embrace they wanted to last for a lifespan.

The feeling of having each other back in their arms thrilled them greatly. “I’m so sorry.” Lapis expressed right away, having grief in her tone.

Peridot whimpered stridently and faltered before replying. “No, I should be sorry…” She countered. “I was the one that made you leave…”

They didn’t have time to comprehend why their reunion was so sudden nor did they even want to. Their feelings were automatic, and soft emits of “I miss you” filled the atmosphere.

… … …

It was three days later after their reunion and…they still felt detached from each other. Peridot was looking forward to catching up with Lapis on what she has been doing in Beach City recently, but for some reason she could not bring herself to inch closer to her. Not even the ocean gem could attempt to talk to her roommate. This was not what Peridot expected at all. All she wanted to do was go back to where she and Lapis left off and comfort one another, but that wasn’t going to happen if they kept saying less than 3 or 4 words every hour. Something was holding them back.

It was sundown as Peridot was standing by the porch of the barn, still comprehending that it was back to its original spot instead of some patch of dirt. As she looked up on where the truck was, she realized Lapis was sitting there silently. But the TV was not on, and Pumpkin inside napping on the hammock. She just seemed to be staring out solemnly on their farm like a statue. So something in the green gem made her amble inside the barn and climb to the truck balcony to see how her roommate was doing.

Lapis does not acknowledge Peridot’s presence, but she was happy to know that she was with her now. The green gem took a seat closely next to her and gawked at her complexion. She was stunning up close, but her melancholy look dismayed her a little. She faced the direction where Lapis was facing and settled down with her.

“The sunset looks beautiful, doesn’t it…?” Peridot brings up, looking back at her roommate again.

“Yeah. It is.” She answers. “There was barely a sunset where I was…”

Peridot wanted to know the details of what she meant by that. In any case, she did not want small talk. She wanted to be personal with the gem she spent her life on Earth with.

“Peridot,” Lapis continued after a long pause, relieving Peridot. “I’m…still sorry. For everything…”

“Hey, it’s okay.” she says rigidly. The green gem’s expression was slowly shifting to being equally anguished, but she resisted. She let out a soft smile to try cheering her up. “You’re here with me and Pumpkin now. Everything is fine.”

“No it isn’t.” Lapis countered clamorously. “I mean, what I did seriously hurt you and Pumpkin more than it hurt me. I wasn’t thinking right and I just took something that belonged to us. I don’t think any of us could get over that.”

She took a deep breath and let her hand run through her hair while she was overthinking wastefully. “I don’t even know why I’m still here.” Her tone fell. “I can’t tell if I’m healed Peri, and I completely overreacted. And now you probably think I’m a terrible gem for ruining your life here.”

That was false. Peridot knew well that she was hurt, but that did not matter now. “Lapis…wait.” She whispered.

As the ocean gem opened up more, she was apprehensive to her limits. “Maybe I don’t deserve to be by your side anymore.”

Peridot noticed her hand was gripping on her hair as Lapis’ tone was sinking deeper. She quickly took it, and softly caged with it both her own hands. “No Lapis, listen,” she says. “Repeat after me…I am not a bad gem, and I deserve to be with you.” The blue gem followed, and it strangely eased her down. She tried regretting the things she said while she breathed better now.

“…I made you feel useless after I left, didn’t I?”

Peridot’s grin continued to fade into grimace. “I couldn’t fix you, Lapis…from both your past and your worries.” Peridot replies. “So I did feel ‘useless’. But is this why we haven’t talked too much since you came back?” Lapis nodded, and stopped cosseting in the warmth of Peridot’s grasp. “Not really…” she replies. “I just needed time to get ready for this.”

The sun was descending more until dusk was taking shape. “I wanted to return the barn to you.” Lapis confesses. “But I was afraid I would have nothing left of you if I did.”

“Where did you go?”

She pointed upwards to the now visible moon. “I still wanted to be as close to our family as possible. We both liked stargazing, so I wanted you and Pumpkin to see me while I looked back.”

The green gem was feeling warmness taking the best of her and recovered her grin. “So you still cared?” she inquires.

“Of course I did. I STILL do.”

Both their faces glowed dimly and relished their grasp as it calmed them further. Peridot let go of one of her hands and just let the other hold Lapis’ palm. “I’m also very sorry, Lapis.” She says. “I never told you the truth, and I may never fix you from your faults. I just thought that we were entirely the same gems, trying to start a new life on another planet. But I too was afraid, by telling you anything else since I knew it would lead to mistrust. I guess my choices were worse than that.”

As the two gems finally expressed their regret, they were finally free from their senseless fears and adored seeing their smiles at last. “I promise that everything will be fine from now on. Whatever we will face, we’ll get through it together. Starting now.” Peridot pledged

It was nightfall now, and Peridot could finally enjoy a good night on Earth knowing that she had her favorite roommate back. Lapis leaned closer to her, and kissed her promptly on the lips. She almost forgot how much she missed receiving her affection.

“I will never leave you again.”

[kinkixat]

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[victoriasartsus]

Flyyyyy Like a comet. Is ready to get shanked. This wasnt supposed to be so long

[waterblobbu]

Lapidot Anniversary Week #4: Feels Day-Angst/ Corrupted, Cracked or Shattered

I went for ‘Cracked’. Lapis bubbled her to keep her safe for the time being.