#lead to their untimely and preventable collapse

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Do u think they play around with their disproportions

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Retold Flames: Succession War

Got the first piece of many for a retelling AU here (holding multiple AU ideas). For some AU world building, Animus Magic has rules such as one has to have the intent to use animus magic to create an enchantment, you must be touching an object to place an enchantment, an enchantment can only do one thing, creating an enchantment has costs (preventing that cost can prevent the creation of an enchantment) enchantments can be overridden unless they are made permanent, enchantments can form a personality, enchantments based in memory or animating an object can form sentience. Twin eggs also have their own thing going on for each tribe with one dragonet being a fire scale variant and the other being of a subtribe. (There is a more detailed version for both on Ao3.)

Burn: Before the Succession War, Burn would be a somewhat kind yet fierce dragon, caring for her collection of odd creatures (getting inspiration for her hobby of poetry from them as they wandered around the Palace and giving the place some life) with help from her brother Smolder and sister Blaze who she would be close to (also including their father Char who would help teach Burn and Smolder about caring for creatures before his untimely death); Being on trusting terms with her mother Oasis and not so with her sister Blister. (Burn was also generally favored in being the one to be accepted by the Eye of Onyx, used as a way to choose a new queen.)

With the death of Oasis at the hands of Scavengers, Burn would enact her revenge on them and lead a small force that would push out most of the Scavenger population out of the Kingdom of Sand. Following this, Burn would find Blister has fled and enacted war on her, being allied with Queen Coral and the Kingdom of Sea (Forming the Shoreside Alliance); Burn herself retaliating with an alliance with Queen Harp and the Kingdom of Ice as well as being joined by Queen Scarlet and the Sky Kingdom. The Alliance itself come to be known as the Burning Alliance. (Scarlet’s involvement would lead the war to spread into the Mud Kingdom and lead High Queen Moorhen and her sibs to ally with the Shoreside Alliance.)

During the early years of the War, Burn would be tempted by Scarlet into choosing to do some unsavory stuff and escalating to her becoming her more brutal self and killing queen Harp. Leading to the Ice Kingdom breaking off their alliance with Burn and allying with Blaze with Princess Glacier taking the throne and forming the Sand-Ice Alliance. (Burn would come to kill and stuff her collection of creatures that would eventually be joined by the remains of dragons with abnormal parts, having her tower constructed to hold said collection.)

During the later years of the War, Burn would acquire an ally in the Mud Kingdom and its monarchy after they were blamed for failing to stop the assassination of Commander Tempest and being cut off from the Shoreside Alliance. (The Mud Kingdom is ruled by a Sibtroop of Kings and Queens with the Bigwing acting as a High Monarch.) Burn herself would connect with Moorhen as older siblings, building into a somewhat close friendship as Moorhen and the rest of her sibs would help temper Burn’s more destructive tendencies over the years. (Burn’s tower would be left to collect dust in the wake of past memories.) 

Sometime after the brightest night 0f 5,005 A.S. and destroying the supposed Skywing egg for the prophecy, Burn would form the Talons of Power; A group tasked with bringing order to the Souther regions of the Kingdom of Sand that have become rampant with crime due to lack of enforcement due to forces being pulled to the war up north. While the Talons would be generally successful in their endeavors for a few years, they would eventually collapse due to internal conflict/sabotage (such as from crime Lord Vulture sending his daughter Cobra to infiltrate the Talons).

As the War nears its end, the Burning Alliance nears complete victory over the Shoreside Alliance, being held back by Scarlet who has continued to cause issues for the Burning Alliance throughout the War; Leading Burn and Moorhen to assist Princess Ruby in usurping her mother Scarlet so they may finish the fight against the Shoreside Alliance.

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Scarlet & Chameleon (& Cobra): When the Succession War began, Scarlet would join the Secret Alliance with Blister and Seawing Advisor Whirlpool then the Burning Alliance with Burn under the pretense of infiltrating; instead using it to prolong the war and its suffering for her own personal enjoyment, taking up a little pet project in shepherding Burn into becoming merciless and brutal. Taking an even greater enjoyment as the War becomes more miserable for others.

During the early years of the Succession War, Scarlet would catch/first meet Chameleon using his Nightwing Enchantment Shapeshifter, along with his enchantment creating scroll, to steal treasure from her. Finding his seeming skill to create transformation enchantments (as well as artistry), Scarlet would seek to use his skills for herself (along with not wanting to personally deal with the consequences of using animus magic). Having him create a Skywing enchantment named Soar and use it to become champion of the arena so she can keep him close without suspicion, getting her guard Osprey (former champion and present defense attorney) to train Soar who would eventually succeed in becoming champion of the arena (suffering through till the end).

With Chameleon an arena champion as Sora, Scarlet would use his skills to her personal benefit from creating small, unnoticeable enchantments dealing with inconveniences for herself to having him create immaculate art and jewelry for her; Even going on to use him for her personal enjoyment, using him as Soar to produce an heir to eventually replace her daughter Tourmaline (as she has done many times with her previous daughters and male arena champions). From this, Scarlet would have her twelfth daughter Pyrite, a bit of a clumsy dragonet that would be adored by her father; An adoration that would turn to grief as Tourmaline, taking after her mother, would kill her sister as a threat to taking the throne and in jealousy of being more loved. Such an act would enrage Scarlet with her plan being ruined, taking revenge by personally using Chameleons scroll to transform Tourmaline into being her thirteenth daughter Ruby and permanently replacing her memories of being Tourmaline with a willingness to follow her mother’s commands (a willingness that Ruby would eventually overcome).

As the Succession War rages on, Scarlet would enact a breeding program to increase a dwindling population, getting her arena champions Soar and Kestrel into the program as well; Eventually leading to Scarlet catching Kestrel fleeing with her Fire Scale and Featherwing (Twin Egg Subtribe) dragonets, getting her to kill one of her dragonets with the promise of letting her other dragonet live; Watching as Kestrel would give in and throw her Featherwing dragonet in a raging river (not seeing any chance of it surviving), leaving Scarlet to attempt to kill Kestrel who she had no plans of letting go; Something that wouldn't come to pass as they would attempt to flee with their Fire Scale dragonet, dropping the dragonet from their burning talons (of the third degree). With Scarlet now in possession of a Fire Scale dragonet, she would use them as another of her arena champions and ensure they make their fight brutal with Osprey training them (teaching a few other things behind Scarlet's back as well).

Not wanting Chameleon/Soar to learn of one of his dragonets surviving, Scarlet would send him to infiltrate the Talons of Power (for the Secret Alliance) as a Sandwing named Platyr (bringing a few other enchantments with him to use). While in the Talons, Platyr would meet Talon members Thorn, becoming somewhat friends, and Cobra who would attempt to allure Platyr (believing him to be an animus due to the new enchanted items he keeps getting and being tasked by her father Vulture in getting his supposed animus magic, something she would be woefully unprepared for due to her general lack of social skills from solely living as an assassin for Vulture. Leaving Cobra to reluctantly go to Thorn to figure out about Platyr and not giving away her true intentions, leading to a comedy of errors with Cobra unintentionally making it seem like she romantically likes Platyr to Thorn; Something that Cobra would roll with, seeing it as a way to get Platyr with help from Thorn who would help her actually be able to somewhat socialize with Platyr. Building into a forming relationship between Cobra and Platyr that would take a bit of an escalation with the two having a twin egg that would hatch into being their Bile Flame (Fire Scale Variant) daughter Rattlesnake taking after her grandfather and their Cactwing (Twin Egg Subtribe) son Sirocco taking after his mother. Eventually, Cobra would come to learn of Platyr's enchantment creating scroll, still bearing a loyalty to Vulture; Escalating into Platyr fleeing for his life, never to be seen again as Cobra would attempt to kill him to take his scroll (unknowingly leaving her with another egg).

With Chameleon returning to the Sky Kingdom, Scarlet would send him out again, this time as an Icewing named Cirrus sent to work with Mudwing Crocodile to infiltrate the Talons of Peace for the Burning Alliance. She would bring Chameleon/Soar back for a short period to enchant a captured Prince Hailstorm, a powerful and charismatic warrior in the Sand-Ice Alliance, to ensure is hidden and not rescued. Scarlet would convince Chameleon/Soar to use it as a way to bring his daughter back, using it as a way to strengthen his loyalty to her; Permanently enchanting Hailstorm to physically be Pyrite and enchanting their necklace to replace Hailstorm's memories with Pyrite's. Scarlet would have Pyrite go with Chameleon/Cirrus to infiltrate the Talons as it would be suspicious if a dead princess was walking around. Cirrus would go on to ingrain Pyrite to never take her necklace off as it is keeping her alive.

During the latter years of the war, Scarlet would assist Blister in a gambit to get Whirlpool to take the place of King Gill next to Queen Coral for political gain. Scarlet would be tasked in capturing Gill but be left with the unfortunate task of making Whirlpool into a dragon that can swoon Coral, working with Nightwing Morrowseer in both tasks. With Scarlet holding Gill captive, she would make him into her pet project; Quite literally in fact as she would deprive him of water to make him insane, using him as a beast of a champion for the arena and for her own personal enjoyment.

As Scarlet's hatching day draws near, Morrowseer would pay a short visit and grant her a chance at some 'gifts'. Giving her directions on where to get them, leaving her to round up a group of guards to do so.

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Blister: Before the Succession War, Blister would be conniving brat that would scheme against her mother Oasis, the rest of her family and other dragons of her home; Ranging from simple pranks to being nearly fatal (the latter more targeted towards her sisters in an attempt to take them out as competition to the throne). Occasionally, Blister would help her siblings in hanging out behind their paranoid mother’s back (not joining them herself), if only to get at Oasis who would seek to mold the siblings into being caricatures of theme selves (attempting to make them not a threat to the throne). This would culminate in Blister not getting Burn to help Oasis in stoping Scavengers from stealing her treasure, instead going to the treasury to steal the eye of Onyx for herself (being rejected by it once she got it).

With her mother’s death, Blister would be the one to start the Succession War against her sister Burn; burying the Eye of Onyx (being believed to have been stolen by scavengers) within her mother’s grave and fleeing. Forming the Shoreside Alliance by manipulating Queen Coral and allying with the Kingdom of Sea, the same being done with High Queen Moorhen and the Mud Kingdom. Blister would also form a Secret Alliance with Queen Scarlet as a way to cause issues in the Burning Alliance and Advisor Whirlpool as a way to gain more power and influence in the Kingdom of Sea (as well as to help gain more influence in manipulating Coral herself). The Secret Alliance would later be joined by Nightwing Advisor Morrowseer.

During the early years of the War, Blister would create the Talons of Peace as one of its founders alongside Commander Tempest. (Tempest would later be assassinated after coming close to uncovering the Secret Alliance, leading to the Mud Kingdom being blamed and being cut out of the Shoreside Alliance. The Talons of Peace would also be ostracized from the Kingdom of Sea) The Talons of Peace themselves would have goal of ensuring the war ends with Blister on the throne, being pushed by the Dragonet Prophecy created by Morrowseer. (The Talons themselves having two groups of dragonets being raised for the prophecy, one hidden with the Talons themselves and another hidden elsewhere.)

During the latter years of the war, Blister would enact a plan to get Whirlpool on the Kingdom of Sea throne. Having Morrowseer ensure King Gill is captured and make it look like the Sky Kingdom solely did it with Scarlet holding the King Prisoner. Blister herself would work to convince Queen Coral to move on from Gill and give at least a chance at dating Whirlpool, giving both Scarlet and Morrowseer the unfortunate task of getting him to be a dragon that can swoon Coral into marrying him. They would succeed in getting Whirlpool and Coral married (the two even having a clutch of eggs with one to eventually hatch Auklet). With Whirlpool successfully married to Coral, Blister would use them both to manipulate the Kingdom into preferring herself and favor her ruling over the Royal Family.

When it is found out that Coral daughter Anemone has animus magic, Blister would seek to use Anemone and their magic for herself; Using her influence over Coral to keep an eye on Anemone without her mother in sight. With Coral generally being quite controlling and heavily restricting what Anemone can do with Whirlpool a very awful tutor that would undermine her use in animus magic at the behest of Coral (going somewhat against the rest of the Secret Alliance now that he has what he desires), Blister would work to ensure that Anemone is skilled in using Animus Magic as well as healthy and happy enough to use said magic to help Blister (along with ensuring she is knowledgeable on how animus magic works as well). Put simply, Blister would eventually become somewhat of a decent parent (much better than Coral) to achieve her goal and unintentionally becoming close to Anemone, becoming an exception in her life.

As the war nears its end, Blister would make preparation for the dragonet prophecy by having Morrowseer acquire the Dragonets of Destiny for the Dragonet Prophecy while she and Scarlet would cover up any traces to the Talons of Peace by wiping them out. (Their plans having to be enacted early due to the Burning Alliance enclosing in on victory over the Shoreside Alliance.)

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Stonemover & Thorn: During the early years of the Succession war, Stonemover would be closely guarded and restricted from moving around the Nightwing Island before it became desolate from the volcano first erupting (wiping out the vegetation and a majority of the Nightwing Islands inhabitants).

As an animus of the Nightwing Island, Stonemover would be tasked with creating an enchanted portal tunnel that would connect from the Island to the Rainforest and to the northern region of the Kingdom of Sand (being used for operations of the Secret Alliance). This would send Stonemover on a journey (as animus magic works differently) that  would lead him to traverse through the Kingdom of Sea and Mud Kingdom to get to the Rainforest where he would create the enchantment for the second part of the portal tunnel, continue on his journey through Jade Mountain into the Southern areas of the Kingdom of Sand where he would meet the traveling Sandwing Thorn who would help Stonemover travel up north (the two growing close along their journey). With Stonemover completing the third and final enchantment for the portal tunnel, he would choose to stay with Thorn where they would return back south away from the war (unaware of the conflict ahead).

During their early years together, Stonemover and Thorn would settle into the Scorpion Den to hide away; The two eventually meeting the deserter trio of Six-Claws, Kindle and Dune with the five of them forming a trusting friendship. Eventually Stonemover and Thorn would eventually have an egg, a joyous time that would turn in the days leading up to their egg hatching as Dune would suddenly flee with said egg. Stonemover would take charge after Dune, enchanting a skulk of foxes (bound by memories) in desperation of finding him; Something that would never come to pass as Dune would succeed in escaping. Feeling shamed for his failure and what he has done with his animus magic, Stonemover would put himself into isolation within the caverns of Jade Mountain; Enchanting his scales to turn to stone for all the enchantments he has created, only being kept alive in his now immobilized form by the skulk he enchanted caring for him (being changed by the enchantment and becoming something more). 

With Dune, her egg and Stonemover gone, Thorn would go on a desperate search for the three (bearing a growing hatred towards Dune for stealing her egg); Eventually focusing her efforts of finding her lost egg/dragonet, finding help and comfort in her friends Six-Claws and Kindle.

Thorn would eventually joining the newly formed Talons of Power in hopes of having a better chance of finding her dragonet (finding a friend among the Talons in an enchantment using Sandwing named Platyr from the Sky Kingdom). In time, Thorn would form a small group within the Talons, eventually splitting off from the Talons and becoming known as the Outclaws (being joined by Six-Claws in leading and Kindle in healing). Thorn would go on to conquer and somewhat restore the Scorpion Den in the wake of the Talons collapse with her Outclaws, eventually becoming an aunt to Six-Claws and Kindle’s daughter Ostrich. (Thorn would also go on to take one of Platyr’s sons from Cobra a few years after his disappearance, raising them as part of the Outclaws.)

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Blaze: During the early years of her life, Blaze wouldn’t really be the brightest; Preferring to go out and acquire treasures and odd gems for her own collection like her Big Sis Burn. (Got herself in-trouble at times cause of it, be it from her own foolishness or Blister playing a trick on her.) Blaze wouldn’t really be close to Oasis as a dragonet, instead being closer to her Big Sister Burn who would help care for Blaze after their father’s passing.

With the death of Oasis and Blister enacting war on Burn, Blaze would side with her sister Burn and wanting to help eventually acting as a spokesdragon for her sister who would stick to leading the front lines. To effectively do this Blaze would come to learn about the common folk of the Kingdom of Sand and its politics (not having interest in them before) with help from Princess Glacier who Blaze would grow close to. The two would come together to comfort each other in their grief after fleeing from Burn killing Glacier’s mother, Queen Harp (Glacier taking her mantle as Queen of the Ice Kingdom). Glacier would bear grief for the death of her mother and Blaze would bear grief for the sister she loves becoming a monster.

In the following years, Blaze and Glacier would grow closer to one another, eventually becoming romantic partners as they form the Sand-Ice Alliance with Glacier being the one to mainly lead. (Their relationship wouldn’t be commonly known as Ice Kingdom Queen’s don’t officially take a partner.) Eventually they would have their first daughter Crystal (being both a pure Icewing along with Glacier and Blaze as their biological parents thanks to some old Icewing Animus Gift, same with Snowfall and Mink) and bring with it a joyous event celebrated in Where-Sand-meets-Ice (a Sandwing/Icewing dominant town formed during the War, south of the Great Ice Cliff); said event unfortunately turned sour as it would be ambushed by a group of dragons (formed by the Secret Alliance) lead by Queen Battlewinner in an attempt to kill Blaze and eliminate her from the war. The attack would be pushed back as the Battlewinner’s forces would retreat with her being incapacitated from Ice Breath, though it would not be without loss, nor without impact.

Following her near assassination and Glacier nearly dying to protect her with many other (some less fortunate), Blaze would find the drive to take more of a leading role in the Sand-Ice Alliance; Taking a more direct approach in the war and growing into a dragon the Eye of Onyx would deem worthy of being queen. (Going through a bit of combat training as well for self-defense, not really liking the training but going through it non the less.)

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Narwhal & Tundra: Hatched around the time of the Sand-Ice Alliance forming, not knowing his mother Harp before she was killed by Burn. Narwhal would be distant from his sister Glacier who would be occupied with ruling the Ice Kingdom and Maintaining the Sand-Ice Alliance. Instead, he would be cared for by his brother Permafrost, learning to live by the beliefs of the Circle Rankings (eventually going on to push those beliefs onto his children), even personally making sure they were kept in order whenever Glacier was occupied elsewhere. Eventually he would meet Tundra who would allure Narwhal and eventually marry him.

Among the Icewings, Tundra would be both one of the more traditional and most disliked; Seeking to take control of the throne so she can return the Ice Kingdom back to what it was before the Succession War. Marrying Narwhal so she can gain a daughter that she could control to usurp Glacier and take the throne, using said daughter to enact her will. Something that wouldn’t come as soon as she wanted with their first hatch being their eldest son Hvitur (an eventual prodigy that would quickly prove himself).

Things would change when they would have a twin egg, hatching their twin sons Icicle with Aurora Ice (Fire Scale variant) and Winter a Ternwing (Twin Egg Subtribe). With Icicle having Aurora Ice, Tundra would have them be raised as a princess to take the throne (Tundra taking to ignoring her eldest) with Winter being neglected and berated by her and Narwhal for being a Ternwing. Something that would take a turn with Hailstorm being captured while taking Winter on a trip to get a scavenger, both Tundra and Narwhal would blame Winter (returning with only a scavenger). 

With Hailstorm captured, Narwhal would leave for the front lines of the War with Icicle in hopes of getting him back. Leaving Winter with Tundra who would continue to berate him without end (even destroying one of the limbs of his scavenger as punishment, expecting it to die from its wounds). Only after Glacier would send Winter to act as a herald (messenger) for Blaze would Tundra stop her tormenting her son, choosing to focus on other things with him gone.

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Juli Nevermore

Outrider of the Pendulum Guild; a "vassal" of the Black Witch in peculiar timelines where the death of Benjiro was delayed and his contributions to magi society were publicly disclosed, in part thanks to Juli. It ultimately led to Hans & The Council being ousted from their positions, with Bambina now at the helm as Guild-master. While this shift in history initially allowed Mirai to have a more tame upbringing, the guild was woefully unprepared for threats beyond the stars, effectively leading to the untimely collapse of Ultima and Serena's subsequent death.

While the death of Serena took its took on guild survivors of the collapse VeVe, Marriott and Cerise had vowed to become stronger to avoid another tragedy and insisted Juli & Mirai join them on their trip to Buxiu, but Juli & Mirai decided to venture towards Screen City instead to keep a low profile as The Council would likely see this as an excuse to enact their revenge. As public scrutiny hardly exists where societal obligations no longer exist.

Although Juli & Mirai did not spend long in Screen City due to the generational hatred for the so-called magically blessed, they were able to gleam the existence of Memory Flowers: Special flowers capable of functionally showing memoirs/memories of the deceased up to the number of petals they possess. Whereas Mirai thought to leer into the past to plan their next move, Juli thought it better to simply sell the flowers and boost their income only. It was normal for Juli to think monetarily, however, as Mirai's chosen vassal she made it a habit to follow her lead and just hope for the best no matter how fruitless.

However, upon realizing Memory Flowers realistically should be called Time Flowers, Juli initially thought to abandon the timeline they were in for another prior to Serena & Ultima's demise to prevent them. Understanding Memory Flowers allow the user to look into the past because they actually operate as "windows" to different points in time, but figured neither Serena nor Mirai would welcome such an ideal. Instead acknowledging they would need the World-ending Sphere if they planned to foil The Council's plans and overcome the spirit of gods. They would spend the next several years on the low before joining other survivors in Buxiu, where The Council has already set root in far in advance.

Little would they expect to somehow see Serena's face again as a member of The Council.

Aizah Polaris

The newly crowned Queen of Buxiu; an old "acquaintance" of the Black Witch in timelines where the World-ending Sphere's existence was never ascertained by modern magi. Without such a power, Hans was forced to forfeit his life as a means of subduing the psychic threat once the conflict between psychics and magi began to exceed the scope past wars. As a result, The Council was forced to strike-up a deal with the Polaris family to recover their losses as Hans's had entrusted everything he knew and had to them instead of the guild.

The Polaris family effectively wagered Hans's knowledge for the guaranteed protection and magic strengthening of Princess Aizah until she was prepared to wear the crown. She was enlisted into the same academy as Mirai and co. with the understanding it would be in her best interests to bond with them as the next generation of heroes was expected to be born there.

While Aizah started out relatively shy and inept at battle, she was drawn to Mirai's strength and relatively eccentric acts. So much so, as Mirai's persona took a shift and darkened, Aizah's darkened in turn. Never wishing to lose sight of Mirai due to any moral obligations. She would do any-and-everything to ensure Mirai would be hers in the future, having latched onto what little acknowledgement she had been given and that rebellious attitude of hers to empower herself. Having already glamorized the possibility they would likely kill each other in the future should her personal interests conflict with her family's agenda.

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Reinforcement corrosion protection: Protecting the durability of concrete structures.

Concrete is one of the most durable construction materials, widely applied for infrastructure, buildings, and road purposes. However, real strength lies in the steel reinforcements hidden within it. However, such reinforcement is pretty much vulnerable to corrosion through water, salts, or other chemicals.

As the steel corrodes, this expands, and thus creates cracks and weakens concrete, leading to structural failure in extreme cases. Prevention against such deterioration has, with modern construction, focused primarily on reinforcement corrosion protection. In this blog, let's explore what reinforcement corrosion protection is, why it is necessary, and its implementation to enhance the service life and performance of the concrete structure.

Understanding Reinforcement Corrosion

Reinforced concrete is a composite material in which steel reinforcement bars, or rebar, are embedded within the concrete to provide tensile strength. Concrete is strong under compression but weak under tension, and that's where steel rebar comes in.

However, steel is prone to corrosion when exposed to water, oxygen, and chloride ions, which is mostly seen in seaside areas or areas where de-icing salts are used almost every winter. When it corrodes, it tends to expand the steel material, causing internal pressure that can create cracks and undermine the supporting concrete next to it. This degradation can eventually progress in time, leading to full-scale structural issues, extensive repair, and even structural collapse.

The Significance of Corrosion Protection for Reinforcement

The degradation of reinforcement due to corrosion is considered one of the leading causes responsible for the degradation of concrete, leading to increased maintenance costs, loss of safety, and untimely repairs. Protecting reinforcement against corrosion extends the life span of concrete infrastructures while ensuring their continued safety and efficiency. It also minimizes environmental impacts associated with the removal and rebuilding of deteriorated buildings.

This coating gives strength to the structure by concurrently lowering overall ownership cost through reduced timescale of repairing and maintenance operations. Marine structures, for example bridges or parking garage structures characterized by high levels of salts and chemicals; application of this reinforcement corrosion protection becomes critical in such settings.

Methods of Reinforcement Corrosion Protection

There are several techniques that are used for the protection of steel reinforcement against corrosion, and different methods have their specific advantages and applications. The most common of these are:

1. Corrosion Inhibitors

Corrosion inhibitors may be added at the mixing time. The agents reduce corrosion processes and, therefore, do not let corrosion occur entirely on the surface of reinforcement made from steel. Chloride ion cannot reach certain inhibitor-restricting agents close to the steel, hence causing its inhibition. Certain types neutralize acids or some aggressive constituents within the concrete mixture, which is widely employed for both new construction projects as well as repair programs.

 2. Impermeabilization and Sealing

Waterproofing techniques applied to concrete surfaces serve a significant purpose in preventing the chances of corrosion by resisting the penetration of moisture. Utilizing specific sealants and membranes, the porosity inherent in the concrete is minimized, thus impeding the movement of water and other harmful substances towards the steel reinforcement. It benefits particularly in constructions with very severe environmental conditions such as marine or coastal environments.

3. HPC: High-Performance Concrete

Using HPC with low permeability is also effective to protect the reinforcement against corrosion. Generally, HPC incorporates a lower water-to-cement ratio, stronger aggregates, and supplementary cementitious materials (SCMs) including fly ash or slag in the mix. These increase the denser mix that resists the penetration of water in concrete and hence reduces corrosion risks.

4. Reinforcement Using Galvanized or Stainless Steel

The most feasible substitution for the application of carbon steel rebar is for galvanized or stainlesssteel reinforcement, both materials boasting inherent resistance to corrosion. This is because galvanizing is essentially a coating by zinc of the rebar applied as a sacrificial anode that shields the underlying material from corrosive attack. Alternatively, stainless steel contains chrome, which creates a layer of oxide that protects against initiating corrosion.

Although these materials are more expensive than traditional steel, they are better in the long term and best suited for high-risk environments.

5. Cathodic protection

Cathodic protection is that electrochemical technique through which prevention of corrosion takes place; the process involves making steel reinforcement, in an electrochemical cell, the cathode. It applies the process of using small steady electric currents directly to reinforcement so that it acts as an antagonist to electrochemical reactions associated with corrosion. This particular technique proves quite effective for structures that already show signs of corrosion, such as bridges or marine equipment.

6. Fibre-reinforced polymer (FRP) reinforcements

Another innovative solution to corrosion is the use of non-corrosive reinforcement material such as fiber-reinforced polymer bars. These composite materials, made by combining fibers and resins, are lightweight, yet strong, and most importantly, resistant to corrosion. FRP bars are more and more being used these days in areas with extreme exposure to corrosive elements.

Benefits of protection from reinforcement corrosion

Implementing effective corrosion protection for steel reinforcement brings several advantages: Extended Lifespan: Reinforcement protection from corrosion extends the concrete structure's life and minimizes the necessity of frequent expensive replacements and repairs. Improved Safety: Structural deterioration will be prevented due to corrosion protection, and therefore the building or infrastructure will be safe, thereby minimizing accidents. Financial Benefits: Decreasing both the frequency and extent of repairs results in diminished maintenance expenditures over an extended period. Sustainability: Long-lasting structures reduce waste and the consumption of raw materials, therefore contributing to environmental sustainability. Conclusion This protection against reinforcement corrosion is necessary to ensure the structural integrity and extend the lifespan of concrete constructions, especially in environments where the potential for corrosion is high. Engineers and construction professionals have several methods, such as chemical inhibitors, waterproofing practices, and the use of corrosion-resistant materials like stainless steel or FRP bars, to counter this prevalent issue. Through efficient corrosion mitigation techniques and implementation, we can thus ensure years to come about for safe, long-lasting concrete infrastructure along with economic value.

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The Goonies: Genre and Themes

As with every film, The Goonies is a hodgepodge of elements borrowed from different genres: a series of intertwined different sets of expectations that the audience is to expect payoff on.  

Usually, a movie gains an audience by appealing to fans of its genre, or genres, since, as I mentioned, most films contain more than one.  Typically, by appealing to these fans with a combination of appropriate star power, the name of a good director, and a use of genre brings in an audience, who is familiar with these elements, knows what to expect, and wants to see more of it.  Genre is best used as a series of audience expectations that a filmmaker has to fulfill, rather than a series of tropes that have to be checked off in interesting ways to make a good action film, or western, or horror.

The reason for this is simple: one, if you want an audience, don’t confuse them, don’t bore them, and don’t disappoint them, and that means meeting their expectations, or subtly adjusting them along the way.

So…what were the expectations for The Goonies?

At first, it might seem easiest to say that it’s an adventure film.

Which, it is.

The story for The Goonies follows a group of kids avoiding dangerous criminals while searching for buried treasure, encountering booby traps, raging waterfalls, and skeletons galore.  It very much strikes in atmosphere and surroundings an Indiana Jones-style feeling of adventure, bringing to mind the opening of Raiders of the Lost Ark.  However, while the Indiana Jones films, while possessing a slight comedic slant in several scenes, including action ones, the stakes in those films are typically much higher than the Goondocks, and as a result, it overall takes itself more seriously.

The Goonies is not a film spent with the audience at the edge of their seat, biting their nails in terror that one of the kids is going to be killed, or even seriously hurt.  At no point does the audience believe that Chunk’s hand is actually going to be subjected to the blender, nor do they think that Data’s fall will kill him, or that the floor collapsing from under Mouth is going to lead to his untimely, unceremonious demise.  The stakes are there, certainly, and the characters clearly believe they are in danger (rightfully), but the audience never has a heart-in-throat moment of: this is it for them.

Which is odd, because our villains are armed with guns, and the floor does collapse, and our heroes are in danger.  They believe it, to the point where Brand pulls Mikey out of the cave, away from the loot, because their lives are more important than the treasure.  The group bursts into hysterics when they think Data has fallen to his death, and Brand and Mouth don’t exactly handle seeing a skeleton, a reminder of their own mortality, trapped under one of One-Eyed Willy’s booby traps.  Characters are held at gunpoint, swordpoint, are pushed off of planks, and are nearly crushed by falling rocks, and while, for the sake of the story, they are terrified for their own lives, the audience never really feels the danger.

We feel the danger for their sakes, certainly, but in the end, the audience is actually more concerned with whether or not Mikey and Co. are going to get the treasure to save the Goondocks than whether or not they’ll survive, because we know that already.  We know, based on the tone and style of the film, that they have to make it, and be alright in the end.  The stakes  of the goal are high to the characters and the audience: the money for the Goondocks, but the stakes for the story aren’t quite as severe, seemingly.

Part of that is due to, like I said, the tone, which I’ll get to in a minute.  But the other portion to assisting the audience’s suspension of disbelief has to do with the themes of the film.

See, themes aren’t only for in-depth films that contemplate the meaning of life.  Themes are present in every film we watch, whether it’s a theme of anti-authoritarianism (Escape from New York, They Live), success through perseverance (Rocky), or as simple as love (Casablanca) or good vs. evil (Star Wars).  Even if it’s not intentional, every movie carries with it the inherited worldview of its creators and what matters to them, especially as it concerns this particular story.  The same is true for The Goonies.

At the center of The Goonies is, of course, a basic struggle of good vs. evil, albeit in far less ‘epic’ terms: a group of kids trying to save their homes versus murderous criminals, and worse, businessmen trying to uproot their homes and separate them, leading to the real major theme of the movie: friendship.

The Goonies don’t want to leave Astoria because they’re so terribly fond of their own driveways.  It’s because they’re fond of each other.  As much as they squabble and tease each other and argue, they are friends, and they don’t want to be separated.  In fact, their friendship and love for their home is so strong that, even when their lives are endangered, they stick together, even where there are opportunities to turn back.

But as important as the friendship between the Goonies is, it’s not the only friendship in the film that’s key to the story.

Chunk’s bonding with Sloth not only saves their lives, but also provides a happy ending for Sloth, too.  By the end of the film, Sloth is practically a Goonie himself, and the rest of the group embraces him without a second thought.  The group functions almost like a large family: they don’t always get along, (in fact, they often don’t) but in the end, what matters is that they care about each other, enough to face some pretty intense stuff.

Which is another good point.

While friendship and good vs. evil factor easily into a good adventure movie, what’s interesting to note is that while Indiana Jones or any other average adventure hero has to go with it: tons of courage, and usually some competency to go along.  The Goonies unfortunately only have the former, which makes sense.  The average age of the lot of them is thirteen.

Bravery isn’t exactly uncommon to see in adventure films: nobody wants to watch a cowardly hero in a straight adventure film.  But for the average hero, they have skills that help along the way, strength, speed, wits, intelligence, a specialized set of abilities.  The Goonies, on the other hand?

They’re kids.  The oldest among them are still high-schoolers.  Their skills are limited: Data’s inventions, Mikey’s leadership and optimism, Mouth’s ability to translate Spanish, and Chunk’s timing all come in handy throughout the film, but it never changes the fact that they’re kids against three adults who won’t think twice about killing children.  This changes their ‘courage’ somewhat into either some insane levels of idealism, or determination at the cost (sometimes) of common sense.  Mikey has to be convinced to escape from the collapsing cave instead of going back to get the treasure.

So what does that tell us?

It tells us that their goal means something to them, that they care immensely about it, and that it’s worth the danger.  Are they scared?  Of course.  But in that friendship, in that goal to defeat the evil of the Fratellis and the rich families about to bulldoze their houses, they find the courage to keep moving, to reach that goal.

In the end, the Goonies never beat the Fratellis.  They get away, sure, but it’s Sloth and the police who have far more to do with the actual ‘defeat of’ the main villains of the film.  After the Goonies escape, the prize of the movie seems to be their lives, with the Fratellis being left behind with the treasure.  You could argue this means that the Goonies aren’t very brave, seeing as they never had a final ‘battle’, or climax with the Fratellis, but it’s important to remember that the Fratellis aren’t really the antagonist of the Goonies.  They’re antagonists, for sure, but they aren’t the person who is causing the problem in the first place, kicking off the adventure.  That would be Mr. Perkins, the guy trying to get them out of the Goondocks.  As a result, while the Fratellis are apprehended by third-party law enforcement, the Goonies get to ‘defeat’ Mr. Perkins themselves, by having enough money to save their homes.

Is it ‘final battle’ level of epic climax?  No.  But again, they’re thirteen years old, and with that in mind, then staying one step ahead of hardened criminals, escaping, and saving their home anyway (all against adults more competent and powerful than they are) is plenty brave enough for me.

Both villains in this story have one thing in common: Greed.  Greed has always been a pretty common theme in stories, and that extends to moviemaking too: The Treasure of the Sierra Madre, Wall Street, and Citizen Kane are films held in high regard that revolve around greed, and what it does to people.  Other films like It’s a Wonderful Life take an even firmer, more obvious stance, pitting its protagonist against a cruel, greedy antagonist with no redeeming qualities.  In short, we as audience members have a pretty good idea of what greediness looks like, and we know that we don’t like it.  The Fratellis and Mr. Perkins are entirely motivated by money: Mr. Perkins can only think of the benefits to himself for tearing down the Goondocks, whereas the Fratellis, counterfeiters and thieves, are simply after the treasure for their own personal gain.

Now, of course, the Goonies are after it too, but you’ll notice something very important here.

Sure, the Goonies want the treasure.  That’s the whole point.  But the thing that prevents this from being an act of greed is obvious: ‘intent’.  Mikey’s protests about wanting to go back and get the loot is not because Mikey was struck by sudden gold-fever or Dragon Sickness, it’s because he wants, more than anything, to save their home.  It’s what they all want, in fact.  They’re doing this for a good cause: for each other, not just themselves, to meet a need.  None of the kids ever mention getting rich from this.  They all have the same goal, and there are never any of the typical fights about how the treasure gets split, or what they’ll do with their share.

These themes all overlap very neatly into the film itself, though it seems a little odd to cut them up and lay them out like this, but there is one thing that ties it all together, albeit, probably without meaning to.  I’ve mentioned the ages of the kids a few times: ranging from about thirteen to around sixteen or seventeen.  There have been plenty of movies about kids, for kids, and about kids for adults, but The Goonies manages to straddle a line and become a movie about kids, for everyone.

Youth is a huge part of this movie.  Adults do not find treasure maps and decide to go on an adventure in order to save their homes because the insane, idealistic, wide-eyed streak has already been burned out of them by life.  They already know the rules of the world, and know that that’s not how that works.  As such, the fact is, there’s no ‘Goonie’ storyline if the characters aren’t children.  Kids are infinitely more emotionally attached to their homes at that age, and will do anything to stay together.  Kids haven’t been told yet by the world that their hopes and dreams are unrealistic.  They still believe they can do great things, like save the Goondocks.  

Even throughout the rest of the film, you can’t replace these characters with adults.  They cry, they scream, they panic, they fight and argue with each other, and they all remain friends, unquestionably, and the adventure molds around them, allowing them to continue to be children as the story progresses.  The danger is real, but it never feels too big for them, or too small for everyone else.

So, what does that mean for genre?

None of this detracts from the fact that The Goonies is very much an adventure film.  Early on, the expectations are set up for the audience: the opening car chase and the discovery of the map in Mikey’s attic immediately set up the idea that there is going to be an exciting, dangerous story ahead, full of unexpected, unusual circumstances.  That’s exactly what we get.

While the audience may never feel outright danger for the characters’ lives, like I said, they do worry for the Goonies’ end goal, and there is certainly plenty of excitement along the way.  That is, in fact, the emotion most felt by the audience throughout the film.  The movie is a roller-coaster full of superficial danger without any real stakes, and plenty of heart-in-throat moments.  The trek through the tunnels, Chunk’s run-ins with the Fratellis, meeting Sloth, finding the pirate ship: are all dips and climbs throughout the amusement park ride that is The Goonies.  The audience is constantly on the edge of their seat, and almost every story beat is active payoff of that adventurous expectation.

But there’s more to this movie than just the thrills.

Part of the difficulty of developing an adventure film for kids is that you either have to put children in danger, or you run the risk of feeling too safe.  Kid adventure movies of the ‘80s like E.T. the Extra Terrestrial utilized an even balance, but as I mentioned, there’s no real fear for the Goonies’ lives.  This is for a rather specific reason:

The Goonies went for the laughs with the thrills.

Data falling through the cave floor?  Terrifying.  Data falling through the cave floor and being saved by his invention while the rest of the Goonies go into hysterics?  Hilarious.

The Goonies going after the treasure?  Exciting.

The Goonies letting the air out of Brand’s tires so he has to steal a little kid’s bicycle to go after them?  A comedy highlight.

The Goonies being cornered by the Fratellis and forced to give up the treasure?  Legitimately upsetting in the moment.

Mama Fratelli forcing Mouth to spit out the gobs of gold and pearls that he’s stashed in his mouth?  Genuinely funny.

The movie is constantly playing that balance.  No exciting moment is without it’s humorous side.  The kids are in danger, but they’re also always reacting in humorous ways, like Mikey making a half-hearted joke when Andy’s trying to play the bone organ while the floor collapses.  A lot of what people remember about this movie are the laughs, with good reason: there’s a ton of them.

The Goonies has no shortage of funny moments and humorous lines, again, some of the most quoted lines of the film happen to be the ones that made people laugh.  But as I’ve said before: there’s a lot more to being a comedy than just being funny.

Comedy is a very broad umbrella, one of the genres most easily mixed with others to create a blend: such as, what would seem to be a comedy-adventure story.  Comedies typically rely on either absurd, exaggerated, or humorous characters, or an absurd, exaggerated, humorous plot, such as in films like Coming to America or Ghostbusters.

So, how does The Goonies fit?  The plot is exaggerated, for sure, but not exactly in an inherently humorous way.

There’s a very easy way to tell exactly what genre it is, between adventure and comedy, and I’ll show you right now:

Typically, a really good way to tell a film’s genre is to take a good look at the characters, especially the main protagonist, and the story beats.  These elements best illustrate exactly what kind of story you have, and in the case of The Goonies, it’s fairly easy.

Like I said, the story for The Goonies is clearly exaggerated beyond the realm of belief.  Kids don’t find treasure maps in their attics that lead them to pirate ships.  However, the story isn’t played as ‘funny’, nearly ever.  The skeletons and booby traps are played completely straight, with very little to laugh at.  Indeed, in another movie, these booby traps may have actually hurt or killed a character.

In The Goonies however, while the plotline is a very straightforward ‘kids Indiana Jones’ adventure story, the characters are considerably more…colorful.

And funny.

Mikey’s mispronunciations and his bickering brother relationship with Brand, Andy’s hysteria, Data’s plucky mildly ‘nutty professor’ vibe, Chunk’s over-the-top reaction to his misadventures, Mouth’s…mouth, and Stef’s complete and total irritation with everyone around her lead to some hilarious interactions, and some genuinely funny characters in their own right.  Everyone is quirky, and not just to give them more character, it’s also to get them to be funnier.  They aren’t alone in this, either.

The Fratellis, although still remaining chief antagonists, are not without their own comedic slants as well.  Their own bickering amongst themselves and the over-the-top levels of abuse that get doled out equally manage to keep them intimidating for the kids, but funny for the audience, enough that there’s never a point where they reach true ‘villain’ status.  

With that combination in mind, the film actually manages to hit the comedy-adventure balance pretty evenly.  The situation remains threatening, but the thing that actually prevents the audience from worrying are the characters themselves and how they are portrayed: as indestructible characters in a cartoon.  They’re likeable enough to keep the audience invested, but humorous enough to keep the audience from fearing for them.  It’s the ideal combination, and it works, with just a dash of something more:

Heart.

The Goonies is remembered for its humor and its adventure, but it’s also remembered for its heart.  Brand hugging Mikey as they briefly connect over the fear and sadness of losing their home, Mikey’s inspiring speeches, ‘Goonies Never Say Die!’, Mouth’s passionate outburst about his dream, his wish, Sloth’s friendship with Chunk, even the ending, with Brand and Mikey’s dad proudly proclaiming that there will be no signing, with the kids watching the pirate ship sail into the sunset…it fills the audience with at least a little bit of warmth.

In the end, we care about the Goonies because the movie makes us care about them.  They make us like them, and so we feel for their adventures.  There’s a real, legitimate sense of family throughout it, down to the aggressive fighting to the make-up hugs that follow.

The Goonies is often considered a ‘family’ movie, something that may surprise viewers after hearing some of the language used by the kids, the corpses, and the fact that the kids are in legitimate danger at times, but in a way, it’s not very surprising that this is considered a family film.

The tempering of the action with the comedy certainly helps, but the real kicker to make sure that it’s considered a ‘family’ film is its focus: family.  Friendship.  The people you care about.  Banding together against all odds.

Yes, the plot appeals to kids, and so do the characters, for obvious reasons: the characters are kids, with child-like goals.  Adults typically don’t react so strongly to learning that they have to move, at least, not to the point of going treasure-hunting to prevent it.  However, while kids can grasp what the Goonies are about, adults can too.

Adults remember what it’s like to be kids, to have those hopes and fears and dreams, and can get into it just as well.  Family movies aren’t movies for kids, necessarily, but they are movies for families, that can be enjoyed by everyone, because everyone can relate to the story and characters.  This means that family movies tend to be pretty basic, uncomplicated, full of what could be derogatorily called ‘false excitement’, with characters that are fairly static and simple, but with gripping emotional themes that everyone can get behind.

In the case of The Goonies?

It fits the bill every step of the way.

In the end, The Goonies is an adventure film, one that promises it’s audience excitement and pays off every minute, and a comedy film that promises laughs, and again, delivers, and in being both of those things, it’s also a family film, with both of those things, and lots of heart to go with it, to offer in spades to an entire family.  

The result?

The Goonies is an exciting, charming, funny adventure film about kids who are charming, funny, and adventurous, leading to a perfect, consistent tonal blend that manages to stay with the movie from start to finish, creating a roller coaster, amusement-park ride of a film that has been loved, with good reason, by people of all ages since it was first released, entertaining families passing it down through generations for over thirty years, and will continue to entertain families for years to come, as long as kids continue to be kids, and adults can remember what being a kid is like.

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The recent victim flooded the young boys mind of a girl only by the age of 10 who rested lifeless in a pool of blood as black as the sky the moon bathed in as the day pulled to an enviable end. It appeared darker than the curtain of stars the moon gently drapes over the warm rays of sunlight. 

it was blacker than a raven's wing gliding under the light of early dusk. It was almost beyond the darkness of which humans perceive. It was eerie. Unsettling even, it felt like looking into a soulless pit to hell. nothing quite compared to how it mirrored the depth of which monsters arose from.  Seeing the mentally imprinting sight A sensation of mellowing fear pooled in the boy's stomach, making him  ever so often squirm while staring at the scene. Often enough stuff like this seemed to possess the power  to do that to people. He couldn't shake the feeling of knowing that something like this could exist in a world already filled to the breaking point of horrible deeds.

Slowly a eerie feeling began to creep up the spine of Damien like claws of horrifying beast lurking behind him. never seen but felt ..always seeming to be  waiting for a chance to strike him down with a fatal blow. It wasn't long before he began to slightly shake and tense up at the feeling of unease and fear he felt beginning to control his every movement like a twisted puppeteer, twisting and pulling on the sharp strings that moved him against his will. Making him dance the dance of a failing jester. 

The feeling could almost be compared to a lurking beast toying with its prey, letting it think it had a fighting chance when all along it was all a sick game. He felt like if he took a breath too quick the Beast his mind created would make its move and devour him with a swift action. It's quite humorous how paranoia seems to always have an interesting way of twisting perception of its viewers in order to keep them under a powerful spell of crippling fear.

He scanned the girl. She was pale almost like freshly fallen snow but not as innocent and beautiful as the blessing winter graciously gifted to the world. it was sickly, her skin was as if it was becoming tainted...stained with the liquid Darkness she laid in as her final breath was stripped from her, greedly stolen away as if a thief in the night had captured it for they're own misdeeds. the expression the eyes forever had imprinted with, held a look of utter horror and fear pertaining to the unknown. Intriguingly enough When asked, people seemed to have a common belief  that eyes are the window of the soul, always showing the true emotions of a person. As He stared at her having to unfortunately look at her twisted expression. He grimaced when he turned his attention to her eyes. she was almost  hollow. her fight, her future, her life was gone. She was dead long before now. she had given up a long time ago perhaps it was better she didn't have to struggle to exist in a world that didn't want her or care for her existence.

The spiraling thoughts twisted and morphed into monsters growling and clawing in his mind running rampant across a vastless  space. his breath quickened. His heart rate picked up with the gentle movement of him bringing his shaking hand to his uniform and gripping it tight like it would disappear within seconds. He felt himself begin to try and rationalize the homicide that had occurred. his mind told him she wouldn't have ever survived long anyway no one ever survived the..darkness. she needed to be put down. He was speechless.  was he actually trying to convince himself that what happened was okay?

He had watched her life vanish before his very eyes and now his own mind betrayed him trying to twist his thoughts to a horrific believable lie. The worrying thing was he was two steps away from actually letting himself  believe it, to fall into a trap his mind laid out for him to save himself from guilt. to save himself from having to remember her and everything about what was happening. but then again at what cost. With everything she was forced to endure  she at the very least deserved to be remembered in some form...to be given some honor for at least trying for as long as she did. She fought for a while even though she knew what her untimely fate was. 

People like her were nothing more than goners.  all of them riddled with Illness and the poverty the economy had sunk into. the fear that had sunk into people not knowing whether this day would be their last. the government didn't care about people like her. they were simply replaciable pawns In an unforgiving game of chess were only the elite win. Those who had enough money to try and live as long as they could. They were people who had the money to die comfortably...to say goodbye to loved ones. They were people who didn't have to fight for the little they had, they didn't worry that if they went outside if it would be they're last, however one thing people in the slum and people in the elite had in common, everyone eventually succumbed to the darkness sooner or later but they at least had the status and money to make it a little longer than the people in the wasteland. they weren't  forced to fight for the scarce items that were thrown into the wasteland that honestly was only enough to barely get by. It was like a sick show of entertainment for the elite, seeing people struggle to keep the little they had.

he couldn't help but stare at her eyes. open and lifeless. the blood vessels were exposed and some were left shattered leaving an eerie red color that covered over the glassy film in her eyes.  Damien forced himself to adverate his attention. He couldn't continue to stare at her eyes. It seemed like it only added to the guilt that  weighed on his shoulders like a crushing burden that you would crumble under if you even made the slightest movement. you would think that turning his focus somewhere else would've helped but he found himself looking at another disheartening sight making him sick at his stomach. The ripped shirt exposed part of the child of the stomach held the appearance of copious claw and scratch  marks as if the poor child tried to rid the illness by clawing at the spreading disease as if that would save her fading life. The opened wounds she created spread severe additional infections causing the skin to turn into a sickening palette of colors. The skin had begun to  rot away little by little because the infections hadn't nor could be treated. the pain had to have been excruciating. she was "lucky" she survived until now.  "lucky" …..what a poor choice of words on his behalf how could anyone with this be lucky to be alive. the bluntest answer that could be given was absolutely no one at all deserved the torture people were being subjected to on the daily.

The aroma that radiated from the corpse sickened him like a sudden occurrence of the flu. He became light headed causing him to lose his footing and come close to colliding with the cracked and destroyed floor where injuries seemed to be enviable.  it was covered with glass shards, dust and rocks metal from the destroyed buildings. With a pre-built instinct to aid the need to survive. He threw his arms out in order to grab anything to hopefully protect his body when he collided  with the floor or something to stop the fall from occurring. Perhaps he had a little luck in that moment because he barely managed  to grab onto the small rotting  table in the room. He took a large gulp of air in faint relief that the table didn't shatter under his body weight leading to possibly severe injuries.

taking that breath seemed to be another regrettable choice that could be easily added to a rap sheet of poor decisions. The waves of nausea crashed over him like waves of a vast sea being beaten and thrashed around by a harsh storm in the dead of night. He felt himself slowly beginning to wish he had no senses anymore. if he was being completely honest with himself, if a monster from the flaming pits of hell crawled out of the depths of an eternity of suffering and inquired curiously about his soul, he wouldn't even hesitate to give up the one thing he truly had left in this world. just to forget...to forget everything. the guilt. the sight. the smell. everything about this.

he stiffly swallowed and forced himself off the table and tried to maintain his balance. The annoyance that covered the room like a  heavy fog made it hard to take breath and regain any form of focus the young soldier had left. a large man twisted his head and looked sharply at him. " You're a soldier!! and yet you fail to even take care of this situation..instead you collapse to the floor like a newborn animal.'' The pure anger that laced those simple words were like a flaming whip cracking against his skin causing it to split under the harsh beating making seeping wounds, oozing his only life support. He couldn't remember a lot about his mother but a few quotes and stuff she did had always stuck with him even causing him to subconsciously mirror some of her actions.  She always told him words were a poor man's weapon, the one of only a few things that could equal the sharpness of a cutting blade. words were the only weapon these people to use against the government granted it still wasn't much but it was something and that was the mentality you had to have to survive. 

Damien blinked  his eyes rapidly to prevent tears from spilling. you could laugh and call him a child for becoming upset and beginning to spill tears over the situation but everything was taking its toll on him both mentally and physically. he was tired, filled with more emotions than he should probably even have left in this world. he felt lost, completely drained like someone had hooked him to a cord and used him as a portable battery. he was diminished into a husk of his former self. what being a soldier hadn't stripped away from him he was beginning to hold the feeling that this did.

he should've been able handle situations like this better than he did but no matter how familiar the situations were to where he grew up. however none of his childhood experiences could hold a candle to this. He had seen how bad it was in the slum but this is different. He flinched remembering the familiar scent. death, burning fabric, and the heavy scent of blood drenching the oxygen. The air always seemed to be hung heavy with the emotions of people who had been forced to the point of cynicism. To the point of no return. a breaking point.  They were Shaved and carved until there was nothing left but a barely beating heart. the people had been forced to the point where the only thing for sure...the only thing you could count on for certain no matter what was death. the unforgiving memories of being forced to grow up where the world is against you from the very moment you take your first breath and let out a newborn's screams and then that very thought being reinforced the second you could speak you were taught your simply  replaceable, your job is nothing more then the give your life to people who never deserved that power and never will.  

Growing up in the slum or waste had seemed to always have high rates of crime. murder for food, medicine, daily items was all to common. if anyone was lucky they were taught to be wise,  never go out early in the morning or the second the sky changed from a heavy grey to a deep black. Everyone needed practical advice to survive unfortunately not everyone was able to be blessed with that and if you think anyone in the slum would give you advice like that you're sorely mistaken. where he grew up the crimes were so common you were always in a paranoid state. Thoughts of the worst things know to man running across your mind  leaving you always stuck in a flight and fight response. Always biting your nails praying you wouldn't fall  victim to the evil people had quickly become with the quick passing of loose laws and no repercussions.

Damien could remember when he would walk down the street with his mother. She seemed always uneasy causing him as a child to question everything from why was his mother nervous to the tough question of why did they live like this when others weren't forced to live like this. Looking back on his memories he felt foolish and apologetic for accidentally putting his mother between a rock and a hard place. No sane parent wants to answer the question of why they lived off of a portion barely made to feed a small child, or why they were forced to live in run down buildings that held the ability to fall apart with just a soft breeze blowing against it. One memory that always stuck out to him was he could remember going to the place with people in the slum to the " shop" at least that's what his mother called It. probably in order to create some sort of happy place, she always tried to make things fun, playing I spy or some form of games to keep him from truly understanding how bad everything was. She had always wanted to give him some form of a decent childhood no matter what it took from her to do it. The times she went without eating in order so that he wouldn't be damaged due to malnourishment and that he could have a full meal, or even the times where something bad would happen like the holes on the roof of the house becoming bigger with every passing second. She always would have him make stories and shapes out of the stars if it was a clear night by some miracle.

No matter what. the reality was always much more depressing.... For instance The place was built for rationing. "The shop" never existed but his mother tried to make it seem as if everything was okay even for just a minute. The "shop" held a flawed system. People didn't always get food and when they did they got cheated out of an already poor meal. This never bothered him as a kid, sure it raised questions but his mother did her best to give him a decent childhood but even with all her best efforts and all the love she gave could never fix what the world had stripped away from him and every other kid born into the world. Despite everything he was a pretty happy kid always  talking away as if his life depended on it. Honestly when you're a kid and you're hyper it feels wrong to not run around and talk or do something at least no matter the situation. His mother always encouraged his tremendous and probably tiring energy but no matter how tiring and draining it had to have been for her she encouraged his imagination to run wild so he  wasn't focusing on the worst in the world. 

"What do you see on the corpse G.E.R.U.N.T?"  his commanding officer asked coldly as if he couldn't be bothered to put up with the young soldier in field training. With his thoughts quickly being shaken away from his mind. He looked over at his commanding officer wishing he had some sort of understanding that Damien was practically still a child. He was eighteen but had been training for years. a law had been passed when the outbreak happened that used people like him like a simple pawn in a game. The law forced kids at age of 12 to be stripped from their families and begin a strict training. to push them beyond their limits. to break them down farther than they already were. to become empty, to work till nothing was left of you except your uniform. you  were to be convinced that you were made to give everything to the job even if it meant your life.

" uh i.."  he paused hesitantly. an exasperated sigh sounded cutting through the heavy silence after Damien's hesitant response " it's a ducking simple question..don't strain youself there you might have an aneurysm G.E.R.U.N.T." 

Damien glanced over at his commanding officer. " I know it's just I don't.. really feel like it's appropriate to talk about her like she's just another deceased body."  with a sharp turn of the head his officer looked at him with a raised brow. " She is…. she's dead." he responded in a rather bluntly manner. "You're not hurting her feelings, I mean maybe we should ask if that will make you feel better." the officer replied sarcastically as he began to open a small pocket on his uniform. with a few seconds of struggling he pulled out a lighter and roughly homemade cigarette. things like a simple cigarette became luxuries now that the world had been destroyed. " Listen Recruit..…

off the record.  That little angel on your shoulder making you feel guilty will leave your ass high and dry after a few months' shoot maybe maybe a few years if it's persistent enough. but sooner or later you'll be like every other soldier. Death is a part of the job. it's a daily occurrence you won't be able to escape it. It's your job to Clean up the streets and rid them of the filth we consider people and if you're lucky enough maybe you'll be put as a guard for the subjects."  He stated in a more calm manner before however his voice held an edge to it as he blew a cloud of heavy smoke into the air.

Damien flinched at his comment. did he really consider people like himself "filth''. people were sick and dropping like flies because of poor conditions, food, and lack of medicine and housing and this man really degraded them to the term "filth" because of the conditions they were forced into against their wills. Damien shook his head in a firm disagreement  without voicing it, not trying to add fuel to the flames of the already residing annoyance from his commanding officer. Damien refused to fall to the idea of becoming empty, and letting the world, the government for that matter strip him down like a mechanic stripping parts from an old car to rebuild a new one. he began to make a silent promise that he wasn't going to let himself be rebuilt  into a completely different person. a mindless robot, lacking empathy, simply following orders. letting himself be torn away what made him a human. 

despite Damien's preference. a report had to  to be filled out. his eyes dimmed a little more, it was as if you were watching a light slowly begin to lose power and die causing it to dim little by little until the light finally ceases to exist leaving the world sunk into a freezing darkness. It had become as if it was so draining to open a pocket on his rough uniform. it was as if every movement took a little more out of him. every breath was a hassle. imagine what you must do to get to the point where simple tasks were draining. Where breathing consumes your every fiber. moving your hand an inch felt like a heavy workout. speaking suddenly became a whole new playing field.  The very thought of existing becomes tiring to the point of wanting to sleep for an eternity just to regain the energy lost by doing these tasks.

After some time Damien slowly began to pick around in his pocket until he found a small device used to log cases. It took too much time to fill out a paper report on the field or so he was told considering he wasn't around when paperwork was a thing on the field. The elite decided to make a choice to create a device to log files  Because it had become a dangerous situation to carry the forms of the mass "eliminations' ' occurring  because It made it quite simple for people fed up with what laws were passed to get them and cause worse damage. The people who became fed up banded together under the government radar surprising everyone on both sides of the spectrum. They called themselves the revolutionists and made they're goal quite clear. They wanted to get data from the government to prevent future elimination of cases and if you were a G.E.R.U.N.T holding the files you were given a choice to give them files and be "removed from duty" once the elite found out of your failure to side over with the government. Your second option is facing the revolutionists and getting severely injured or worse. In reality it's signing a contract with one of the four horsemen. Death the undertaker of hell would simply get a soul either way so you in the end just try and ration out which death would be less horrific. you merely had the choice would you rather lose your life to a government that was against you from birth or a group of extreme revolutionists who held no morals but held the mentality that they were better then the elite simply so every action or death they caused to any bystanders were justified because they simply were trying to save the world of government tyranny.

If advice could be given to anyone, an extreme of anything is never good. An extreme  power from the government is a death wish and an extreme amount of power given to the people is always a death wish. Why ? Well getting a taste of power can manipulate a person and shift their stance in reality. Power is sickeningly both beneficial and harmful. It's needed in life for a balanced universe but at the very same it's one of the few things that can destroy it with just a snap of the finger. In life everything must be balanced if not and the scale tips a little more to a certain side, life becomes a hurricane to clear the scales and rebalance them. Life will quickly become its own enemy and destroy itself in order to regain balance even if it's for a second.

Taking a breath he looked at the device trying to gain some form of energy  to force himself to be able to speak. He didn't need much just enough to get out a string of words. He felt like he was trying to summon the power of heaven and hell combined to get enough energy to form words. He stayed silent looking at the device. It was a small slender object. It was cold to the touch. Its cool black metal sent shivers up your spine like a snake built of ice coiling around you, slowly turning your skin to ice with every touch of the device.  It served a multitude of purposes, no one would think that  by looking at it but it held a multitude of  things.  the young soldier eventually gained enough courage and possibly as much energy as he could get. He waved the quarter sized square over his wrist. The device was built to activate an implant that was placed in the wrist when you began training. It was made to not only track a soldier to prevent soldiers rebelling and vanishing while on the field. If you were found to be planning on trying to escape the tyranny of the government you would be sharply found and "removed from duty"  which ended up being a fancy word the elite used in place of saying you were brutally executed  and made a display for the future soldiers entertaining the idea of a future.

was also built to log files and prevent the access of them from others. Each device was built to become like a fingerprint. Killing one soldier and using their g.i.d wouldn't access any other soldiers files but their own. The amount of deaths caused because of the revolutionists not understanding the device resulted in a considerable loss of soldiers causing a law to pass again where if a mass amount of soldiers have been killed from the darkness, injuries, radical groups and ect the government had full power to take children under the age of 12 and give them a unfortunately quick training lacking much needed detailed explanations over situations giving them less of a chance then a newborn deer unable to walk surrounded by a pack of starving wolves with snapping saliva filled mouths baring their teeth built like razor blades made for the devouring of its prey.

" 42018134 making a report about X case. case X has been terminated. I failed  to complete my mission...commanding officer G.E.R.U.N.T was successful in eliminating case X. case X exhibited stage 7 parasitic infection, we're preparing body disposal." Damien said over the implant. He sounded forced, like every other soldier. He was a broken record leaving him forced to forever repeat the same phrasing or a variable of it.

With a slow movement he gently once again began to move the reactive device over the implant reluctantly closing the report, he was well aware of what the cause of him failing to "eliminate" the case would entail. Long hours of being stuck in a room with the authorities questioning why he once again failed to complete the simplest mission they could give. Did he still feel some compassion over already dead people? So many questions like that would be asked. If he wasn't found fit for duty he would be "politely removed from duty" he wouldn't be brutally executed because he wasn't trying to escape but they would see his failure to complete a mission an act of defiance to the government. Not completing a mission meant you weren't truly surrendered to the elite, your every being was not devoted and as you could guess that's against the rules. So they would simply state to the officer that another soldier was found unable to perform the tasks given and was "politely removed from duty" therefore the officers in charge must find a replacement willing and fit to do the duties of a G.E.R.U.N.T

The  word G.E.R.U.N.T stood for Government, Enlisted, Recruits, Under, National, Threat. The term was given to people made into soldiers because of their lack of a specific Gene trait that only a select few seemed to have. It was such a long and quite frankly unattractive word, many soldiers made a shortened version of the terms like for instance G.E.R. or G.R  it was up to preference of the person in question saying the terms. Personally Damien never liked that name just like many other soldiers. When you hear what it stands for it almost sounds like something good, like you were something good like you were given that name for a good purpose. To save people from a threat. In reality it was nothing more than a Box you were slammed into at the age of 12 or younger if hell had it's wish. You were crammed into a box you didn't fit nor want to be in. Damien never  felt the need to fight, it wasn't in his nature and his feelings were easily felt by many others as well. People Who wanted to spend their life doing nothing more than living, to have some level of comfort however fighting seemed to be the only option the soldiers were given. Honestly he could easily say he was never built to fight but then he'd be lying to himself. All he had ever done in his life was fight. Fight to live, to have a normal life, to become someone his mother would hope for her son to be but all of those things are hard to do when you're always being carved down. Being built into nothing more than a hollow soldier with a title that meant nothing in life. Do you know what it's like to finally gain the title of a G.E.R.U.N.T. it's like you became a monster, the one thing you feared. I mean that's what you were always seen as by people, the elite, your own family. Despite people on the wasteland knowing you were forced to do the things you did, that didn't change the fact if you were walking down the street with your platoon people grabbed their kids and hid, people ducked away and hid to "protect" themselves. That was what happened on a good day. However on a normal to borderline hell people on both sides radiated  just pure hatred and in favor of the revolutionists idea of violence they would throw stones, metal scraps, any and everything they could grab 

and throw or if they were bold they flat out attacked you. You could always tell which people were gonna attack. Their arms covered with tiny or massive, black squares. some having had so many of the squares that the arms had half been covered in black ink. 

The  "authorities''  built a system to give a visible warning to people explaining who were dangerous and had broken a law. Somehow the elite decided that that was a better idea than  actually punishing those who did wrong, they just gave them a stamp and apparently that means criminals stop hurting others. The more crimes you did you earned a black tattoo of a shape. Each shape held a different meaning, whether they were half filled with ink or fully filled. It all meant something. For a rough example a triangle meant you stole something, a square meant you were or are violent, a circle meant you had killed someone. A diamond meant you were associated with a crime of some sort. Everyone in the slum had at least one tattoo. A lot of people just had something small like a triangle, most people stole food to eat after…. all their options were depleted. However the looks received for having those tattoos no matter the story behind them was always a look of pure disgust, hatred, obvious judgement. you could've stolen food for your family and you'd still could be seen as a criminal by people like the elite. You were always judged, watched even like a hawk, you were treated like some animal in a zoo because of your marks. 

as twisted as it was, it was just how the world was now.... "Now" using the word now in that sentence seemed so wrong. The world has always been this messed up it was just always a matter back then if people always painted over those issues and acting like it was fine. Now people feel no need to save their reputation now, no one felt the need to hide their true colors. Corrupt political agendas were openly corrupt, monsters crawled in the open daylight, no longer needing to hide in the shadows. wolves no longer hide in sheep's clothes. They openly preyed on a flock of lambs without fear. No one saved face. Everyone had been pinned against each other, people turned on each other as if morals never existed. Then again morals itself are quickly known to be subjective. The one thing humans all had in common gets more worrying the more you think about it. You mind exploits it's very own loopholes for the sake of giving an panicked rush to get in order to get a form of  high. The human mind is so warped it's not funny. It actively twists every piece of information it gets for its own gratification and honestly never will cease to do so until you're laid to rest.

The pure idea of having the intention to aid someone, to help a stranger was so uncommon it became the rare jewel almost never found. when someone was able or willing to help you for whatever you needed it became easily exploited and taken advantage of in this world. People were turned against each other not long after everything in the world started to go downhill. Once the fact came out that the scientists had figured out some people who were born with a specific Genetic trait didn't die from the darkness. It became a quick ride to hades. People became more Divided than ever. The thing is when people get Divided when things are quick to go bad. Things can easily get to the point where things like cities will crumble within a day. People are the heart of the world, losing people or becoming divided over things can quickly destroy even the most loved and cherished kingdom. Humans are selfish fickle things. From the moment everyone is born we all have faults rushing through our veins. Faults like greed, the human nature to be right on every waking thing, the need to only take care of one's own self.

So with that being said you can imagine how people felt when they began to figure out that there was a correlation between certain genetic characteristics and the ability to survive the mass death. The Gene took a  physical  trait of copious lines or swirls if you must. They were light grey swirls they went up from the back, to the shoulders and arms. people began to take notice of this skin abnormality. Parents were obviously concerned for their children and upon bringing the concern to scientists, they tested the people born with the skin abnormality to make sure that the darkness hadn't affected them and have any  adverse side effects besides well the ones they already knew like for example, extreme skin irritation, sensitive skin, light blood flow, burning and itching, at times the appearance of black markings and the most common death.  When there are few cases that's when the trait was found out accidentally brought to the public eye. Honestly it wasn't a wise idea to tell already scared and angry people that the government hadn't found a cure and people were still dying but some people with traits didn't die from it. The mass crowds of people praying for a cure to stop this suffering. People were scared...worried for loved ones, praying they had been blessed with that very trait. It was like adding fuel to an explosive fire. The Gene that by miracle occasionally appears in some people and at times is able to be passed down however it occasionally skipped generations and possibly staying dormant for years until you find out that upon  having a child it received the trait that skipped over your generation.

Once the idea that a cure wasn't possible the government banded together and built a law for people to be recruited in order to eliminate cases of people infected with the virus. They later were given a secondary purpose, the soldiers were given orders to protect "people" with the Genetic trait. He felt himself growing ever so mad at the thought of those people. It wasn't their fault they were born with a Genetic trait, blessing them from the harsh punishment of the virus. He wasn't gonna lie, he felt some prejudice and bias when he saw the  immune. They're lives are so much better than his or anyone's in the slum. They had food, clean water, nice beds, warmth when winter came wiping away the resources in the slum.  They had it easy living in pure comfort, when others did nothing but fight and even fail to survive. He felt uncharted aggression toward them. How could they expect G.R's to protect these people from the masses, if they hated them  just as much as the mass. They really wanted him and every other soldier to risk their fading lives for them…. 

He took a breath trying to calm down the boiling hatred that coated his body like a thick heavy burning tar making it feel like you were glued there forced to endure it as your vision began getting tinted red. He had no reason to get mad but he was. The people were just lucky they had been able to have a trait that protected them against the government's dark wrath, from a virus killing everyone and never slowing down. He felt the heavy anger begin to rise a little again, as he thought more of how luck just had a cruel sense of humor. He had no reason to blame them for things they couldn't control. But it's easy to blame someone for having a better life than you when you've lived a life like his.

Those who were immune didn't have to see what he saw everyday. When he went out on patrol, the amount of death and destruction was so engraved in his psyche looking at where the elite lived  became strange, Like that's not how it should look.. it's hard to describe, it feels like always going into a heart wrenching shock when you were lucky to go to a neighborhood where the streets were clean. Where kids and parents played and hadn't a care in the world. The stark contrast from where people in the elite and people in the slum lived was night and day. In the elite; food was everywhere, some food was even thrown away that was barely eaten, in the slum you were given your ration and somehow you had try and eat enough you don't starve but yet at that same point in time you had to save enough to have another  meal for the next few days. It's hard to manage that when it's barely enough for one person.  In the elite people looked healthy, in the slum people were sick and dying at high levels whether from being starved, sickness, crimes. People looked like skeletons barely existing, it was sick and demented having to live like that... to see that.  He could remember when he was really young and innocent he always thought those people were monsters from the scary stories his father told him when he came home after a long month at work. The government still needed medics on the field, the government wasn't only dealing with a national  health crisis but also a war over boundaries, the government needed medics for wounds and in case the virus spread onto the battlefield. Wiping everything out like a plague reincarnated.  His father would always come to him after months of being away and Damien could remember how depleted he looked but the second he saw his family it gave him almost a faint relief the horrible things that happened on the battlefield of life could stay there for a little longer even if it was only for a minute. He could escape the conditions his family was forced into with the warmth of his family. He could relax and just savor being in the presence of his lover, his kid. He could smile a little knowing they were okay. He could take a breath knowing he made it back to his family again.

Damien felt a warm liquid spill down his cheeks. The memories everything….. it was all so much.  It was as if everywhere he looked memories spilled from the open corpses thrown around. Like Nostalgia hung a noose around his neck every time he looked at how  people like him lived. That noose always felt like it getting tighter to where he couldn't breath. He had no clear idea when the hot steaming tears started running down his face staining it bright red.  How long had he stood there slowly crumbling under the weight of the situation. He felt like a sand castle slowly being torn apart as the waves began to wash him away. It was as if every emotion he had piled on him causing him to sink into a deep despair.

How ? How could he be a soldier when he failed  to complete a task, when he cried over situations like this. He would have to do them everyday as a G.E.R.U.N.T. 

How could he continue? When he came so close to having a panic attack over the overwhelming memories and horror he saw. How…. Could he continue to feel guilty for a girl he had never met before now. How could he look at himself in the mirror and not think of everything his corrupt hands did. Every death they caused, every ill deed  he did. 

He wanted to believe so much he wasn't like the soldiers who had given up and became everything the elite wanted but...he was the same. He fell into their trap and let himself be destroyed like everyone before him and like everyone after would. 

He blinked away the newly forming tears as he stared with an empty look at the victim… he slowly lifted his head over to his officer. The look of clear displeasure over his breakdown. Despite his look of displeasure he said nothing. He didn't criticize Damien, he said nothing. He stood there silently taking long drags occasionally from his cigarette. 

He couldn't take it anymore; he turned his back away from her final resting place. The trembling in his body never ceased. He was clueless whether it was from the adrenaline winding and wrapping around him like dancing vines from a plant grasping at you with hands of pure ice. making you shiver and shake as

a coarse untamed energy spread across you like a newly found source of power that you just tapped into. Perhaps it wad a massive bundle of fear shaking him from where he stood. If fear was a subject given to an artist to paint it would look like a crude twisting and darting mesh of darkness. you're not scared of the darkness. your mind rationalizes it. The darkness itself is cold and calming but the calming sense is easily replaced with an unruly panic when your mind turns it's back against you leaving you with your own thoughts.  your mind races. what's out there? it can't be anything I'm the only one here right. What made a rustling sound? there's nothing to cause a rustling sound so it has to be my imagination. do i feel someone near me watching me like a predator in the night? of course not it's just an overactive imagination twisting shapes into the monsters of shadows. I can feel the hot breath of something at the side of my head. What if it's not someone but something? Am I going to die? your mind takes flying leaps. common sense is gone. you've been diminished to a shaking figure rocking back and forth as your mind taunts you  harshly as a sick joke. throwing outrageous  conclusions to the ultimate end of your fate.

After what felt like a few seconds. Everything was going so fast. Everything was a blur. every thought was going at the speed of light. It felt like being in a hurricane. The rough storms in his mind blew him like a weathered flag. The thoughts ripped through the fabric of the situation like strong winds shredding the fabric on a clothesline. 

" Come on time to burn the body.. the infection will spread farther if we don't." His officer said as he tossed the cigarette on the floor and rubbed it out with his boot making a loud shuffling noise. 

It felt like Damien heard his commanding officer but at the same time he didn't.  It came out sounding blurred like you could sorta make out what he said if you focused. But with blood rushing, and his heart playing the drums he couldn't process it. He remembered turning and looking at his officer picking up the girls body and walking towards the opening in the building. His vision was fading, everything was blurring. Like someone took Photoshop and used a brush to blur the scene, not that he wanted to see clearly at the moment anyway. 

With a start the soldier jerked himself from the nightmare spilling across his mind, like a burning acid. It ate away at his nervous system sinking himself into a fear. his body shook uncontrollably causing the bunk he sat in to shake a little and make a creaking noise. His body was drenched in a cold sweat, his face was easily a mixture of fear and disgust over waking in clothes drenched in cold sweat. He felt himself stuck into a paralyzing fear. It felt like being forced into a choke hold. He couldn't breath….. he couldn't breathe!! 

His lungs hurt, they burned. No amount of air fixed that. He couldn't catch his breath. His head hurt so bad… he wanted it to all go away.  His body shook and his skin crawled as the sweat ran down his skin… his face felt like it was on fire.  Burning tears hurt his face as they poured out like the waterfall. He couldn't let out the screams that threatened to come out but never would. No matter how many times he woke up like this he always felt like he was dying, that's all that can run through your mind when your fear preys on you like a hungry monster. 

He sat there for what felt hours hugging his knees just wishing for how he felt, for how this world was, for everything to just vanish away. 

He lifted his head with tears spilling from his eyes to see the same beige barracks… he was still a soldier… he still had done unspeakable things. No matter how much he prayed for the blood on his hands to be washed away, it always stayed the same. It never changed he was still the same soldier he fell asleep as.

He slowly grabbed a small torn photo of his family, his mother, a piece of his dad and his sister he never got to see grow up…. They were gone… like everyone else. He couldn't help letting out a few noises as he placed the photo to his shaking chest. He curled in a ball praying for everything to go away. To be back home to be able to hold his loved ones. 

It was only in vain, when did that prayer get him anywhere. If there was a god out there then why was it Damien that he liked to torture. Why did he release the demons across his mind to torment him on his every waking moment. It felt like every demon in hell put in for a vacation notice to Lucifer and decided to torment him for fun.

Eventually his body decided he needed to be able to breath and released the tight choke hold, giving some form of relief...it wasn't much but honestly Damien would take that little over what had happened.  People say things that they stay with you. You pick up things in your day to day life and you don't know it. However Damien was acutely aware he would never be able to get rid of the scenes from one of the first few times he had been out on the field. But he could always hope that something would replace those unfortunate memories. But he didn't have really high hopes that would happen perhaps that's why it never happened.

[excuseme-youpretty]

Pairing: Kim Namjoon / Reader

Side Pairings: None

Rating: Teen

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: 3,748

Warnings: Brief allusions to sex, but nothing too graphic.

Notes: This oneshot was requested by anonymous. They wanted adorable fluffy Namjoon spending a rare day off with his partner. I hope, wherever you are, that you liked it and I’m sorry for the delay ♥ I’ve had a virus that’s been kicking my ass.

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As you fold your body up on the axis of your hip, rotating in a clean arc to reach across the mattress toward Namjoon's designated patch, you are fully expecting to feel the cool compress of abandonment rippling along your sheets. 

It's always the same, the harsh bite of cold satin which has somehow preserved your boyfriend's silhouette and the residual cling of his cologne; leaving you a little disappointed but nevertheless eager to progress your day until his inevitable return.

Only on this morning it is not a reminiscent frost that you feel, but rather an unmistakable warmth and the soft, shallow breaths which can only belong to one man.

Namjoon wakes you organically, with lips of spun sugar and the barely-there pull of his teeth leaving a curl of calligraphy along the underside of your jaw. He tastes of peppermint and sunrise, pulling you from the remnants of your sleep with a soft exhale of your name.

"Good morning, Princess." He sighs, nuzzling a deliberately soft semi-circle just beneath your ear. "Or should I say 'good afternoon'?'"

The hot midsummer sun bleeds through your aerated curtains like tangerine paint dripping from a saturated canvas. You can hear songbirds twittering enthusiastically just outside your window and the elated laughter of children participating in a rowdy all-bets-off game of kickball in the park across the street. 

Everything is go go go. Nonstop motion. Somehow, the world ticks on in spite of your unorthodox absence.

The crab-shaped clock on the wall indicates that you have missed breakfast. You are close to missing lunch, too.

And you couldn't be more delighted. 

Because with Namjoon, days off are as rare as a rainstorm in the middle of the Sahara; a much-deserved rejuvenation.

"What time is it?" You whisper, your words  coming out all slurred and sleep-blanched. 

Namjoon presses a gentle kiss to the tip of your nose. "Well, let's see… I accrued three missed calls and four text messages before finally deciding to just turn off my phone."

"Ah, so the children are missing your effervescent presence then?"

"It would appear so. As long as we can get through the day without Yoongi-hyung committing mass Fratricide, I'll consider it a victory."

You can't help but to giggle at the notion as unprompted visuals of an unamused Yoongi wrestling with a quartet of multicolor leashes, each one connected to the torso of a hyperactive dongsaeng, and Seokjin's disapproving pursed lips, overwhelm your senses. 

"And in the meantime? You have a whole twenty-four hours before things return to normal. How do you want to spend it?"

Namjoon answers your question with the brush of his lips against your own. He takes his time claiming your mouth, his lips startlingly hot in contrast to his sweet and minty tongue.

Namjoon's fingers weave slanted tendrils down over the bare flesh of your pelvis as soon as you part, summoning a film of goosebumps to the surface of your sun-soaked skin. 

You shudder helplessly as you ride out the residual sensation of such an earth-moving kiss. 

"Mmm… Well, I hope you're happy, Mister. That kiss just wasted a good five minutes of free time."

Your boyfriend's teeth pull a fluorescent pinstripe across his bottom lip, seemingly lighting his way as he begins his slow descent down your exposed stomach and between your thighs as they give without much instruction.

"If you call kissing you until you're weak a 'waste of time' then you're really gonna hate this next part, Princess."

The tip of his nose skims past your naval, crafting a pathway for himself in the stipple of airbrushed freckles which blossom on your skin. And yet, you are quick to catch the nape of his neck with your fingers, maintaining a barely-there hold of his hair to prevent him from creeping any lower.

"Hold up there, Handsome. How about we nail two birds with one stone? There's a hot, soapy untimed shower with your name on it. And I'd be more than willing to help you scrub any… hard to reach places~"

Namjoon tilts his head back inside your loose grasp, the pads of your fingertips pushing through his silvery-blonde strands to rest almost tauntingly against his scalp. He purses his lips in thought.

"Well, I'd be a fool to refuse such a titillating offer." He presses a large open-mouthed kiss to the underside of your naval. "And I'm no fool."

You are plucked from the barely-there drape of your duvet before you can reasonably react, Namjoon's arms imprisoning your midsection and hefting you skyward before carrying you into the cool porcelain of your bathroom.

-

The water which had cascaded down from your shower faucet was luxuriously light, a sprinkling of powdered sugar across your sleep-eased muscles. And yet the petting was nothing short of heavy. 

Namjoon had taken his time working sweet-smelling suds into your skin until you gleamed with sparkling iridescence; scents of lavender and violet mingling with the sharp musk of your boyfriend's shampoo. 

He had kissed you until your lips ached, buttering you up with an overdose of affection even as you stepped out of the shower and into the baked afternoon sunlight.

After a brief rendezvous in your closet, one which had taken longer than necessary to navigate thanks to Namjoon's wandering hands and greedy lips, you both finally settled on outfits which would compliment such a rare day off. 

He now sits across from you, grinning from ear to ear as he indulges himself in a

verifiable cloud of scrambled eggs and generously buttered toast; the first home-cooked meal he has had the pleasure of tasting in far too long. Even Seokjin's schedule has become so saturated that he can no longer find the time to finesse his way around their dormitory kitchen. 

Who would have thought a group of seven growing boys could survive on a consistent diet of frequented takeaway restaurants and prepackaged vending machine snacks?

He always looks so beautiful like this, dressed in nothing but a pair of faded jeans and a simple t-shirt. His hair, still damp from your shared shower and lacking any product, hangs limply around his handsome face in a fashion not too dissimilar from the signature whistle necklace draped across his chest. 

"I swear, babe, this is amazing." Namjoon croons, using a napkin to stipple away the loose crumbs which have gathered in the crevice of his ever-present smile. "What's your secret?"

Pushing your fingertips through the damp sheen of his hair, you take a seat beside him and indulge in a long, contemplative sip of your orange juice.

"A whole lot of love for my boyfriend and an unreasonably long night's sleep."

Namjoon's grin is so vast that his eyes momentarily disappear into little crescents. 

"That's fair."

He wraps an arm securely around your shoulders, tucking you into his hip where he feeds you small prisms of toast and watches as the amaranth horizon dances across your cheekbones.

You feel the cold, wet compress of a soft puppy nose brushing against your calf when RapMon darts wildly between your ankles. He yips musically, vibrating with an overdose of unexpected energy as though he himself had also indulged in a deliciously long slumber and was now reaping the rewards of his pent-up energy. 

Namjoon can't help but to laugh, the sound reverberating in tandem with the small bell looped onto Moni's technicolored collar. 

"I think our Puppy is ready to hit the road. Don't you, Princess?"

"It would certainly appear so."

You watch as Namjoon cross-hatches his thumb across an array of emails on the screen of his business cell phone, organising them into their designated folders, before he opts to switch off the device all together.

Following his lead, you gather up the empty breakfast plates and place them in the sink; deciding rather quickly that all dishwashing tasks are a problem for a future you. You take a bottle of chilled water from the fridge and grab Moni's collapsible bowl as well as his monogrammed leash, clipping it in place upon his collar and earning some gentle puppy-dog kisses in response.

You run your fingers through Moni's soft fur, giving special attention to his pointed ears and muzzle. Placing an affectionate kiss to his snout, you rise to your feet once more and turn towards your boyfriend.

Namjoon rattles his house-keys with a grin.

"Ready to get some sunshine?"

"With you? Always!"

-

The scarlet-hot skyline reflects prettily upon the shimmering silver swingset where you perch, your toes dangling mere millimetres above the dew-slicked grass. Scents of fresh pine and spring flowers permeate the air, as well as the sugary sweetness of cotton candy being spun into cute little beehives by a nearby vendor. 

At the centre of the park, a small group of children are having a competition to see who can blow the largest bubble. Like confetti, the air is full of shiny little bubbles as they rise up to the sky. And darting after them with an open mouth and comically wagging tongue is a soap-spritzed Moni. 

The children shriek with laughter, running around in circles with Moni bouncing merrily behind them. 

Namjoon's fingertips brush over your shoulders as he pushes you gently on the swing. He traces plump cartoon hearts over the nape of your neck, erecting a small film of goosebumps with every stroke. 

"It's such a gorgeous day out." He muses, turning his head to place an unexpected kiss against your forehead.

"Yeah, we really lucked out. Summer sunshine allll day."

"I'd take thunderstorms and heavy rain in a heartbeat as long as I get to spend the day with you, baby."

Ever a poet, Namjoon's words leave your insides tingling akin to sticky sherbet and fizzing pop rocks.  

"Dork~" You chastise in a soft voice full of mirth. 

You can feel his infatuated grin press into the back of your neck, his fingertips twirling around the stray strands of hair which ribbon over your noon-warmed cheeks.

"Only on my days off."

When Namjoon's digits begin to sway across your collarbones, you concertina them gently between your fingertips. You bring his hand to your lips, kissing across his skin with an audible smack. The pad of his thumb skims over your cheekbone as though he were an artist buffing paint across a canvas.

"You're so beautiful, Princess." He muses.

His words take on an illustrative quality; as though he were scribbling his infatuation across clean journal pages. And yet, before you can respond, he's dipping down just out of view to clasp a fistful of lawn.

"What're you doing, Joonie?"

"Just wait and see - It's a surprise."

Behind you, you can feel Namjoon's fingers work with fast needle-sharp precision. The rounded edge of his nail pierces through stem after stem as he braids several dainty daisies together into a makeshift crown. 

"Now, what is it that every princess needs, baby?"

"Her Prince Charming? Or Prince Destroys-Everything-He-Touches, whatever works."

"This is true." Wiping away the residual pollen on the leg of his pants, Namjoon takes a step closer toward you. He carefully places the crown on top of your head. "But she also needs her very own tiara!"

Grinning maniacally, you bring a hand up toward your head to stroke over the small stack of downy-soft petals which frame your forehead. 

"You're so cute, you know that?" You shriek, gasping when Namjoon presses a stream of rapid open-mouthed kisses against your glowing cheek. 

"Yeah, it's a special gift of mine. Come here, gorgeous."

With his hand outstretched in front of you, Namjoon holds his phone poised on both of your grinning faces. He snaps picture after picture, selca after selca, honing in on the kaleidoscopic shimmer of your eyes and the iridescent glow of lip balm which has transferred from your lips onto Namjoon's.

You stay like that for what feels like an eternity; dissolving into a world where your boyfriend's palms leave semi-permanent prints upon your hips from how tightly he embraces you and his laughter resonates deep within the crevices of your soul. 

Namjoon's cellphone feels positively heavy with the weight of all the memories you have captured together. From the soft and tender lip-locks, to the poorly performed rendition of Magic Shop, to the footage you filmed of a hyperactive Moni playfully chasing a butterfly through a cluster of dandelions. 

You have squeezed an entire month's worth of desperately craved affection into a single afternoon. 

-

It is only once the air begins to develop the faintest tickle of frost that you finally decide to depart from the park.

Namjoon's jacket falls around your shoulders like a cloak of denim. His cologne overwhelms your senses, scents of crisp waters and juniper berry, and at your feet walks a very tired but exceptionally happy puppy.

After briefly stopping by your favourite local bookstore to purchase some light reading material, as well as picking up an order of strawberry croissants and freshly brewed coffee from the quaint little patisserie where you and Namjoon had your first date, you finally arrive home. 

You unclasp Moni's leash, prompting him to scurry enthusiastically over toward his pet bed for a well-deserved nap, and retreat back to your own bedroom in order to slip out of your dress and into something more comfortable. 

Namjoon's old sweatpants drape around your hips like an elasticated hula-hoop, just barely held in place by fraying cord and sheer willpower. The sweater you have liberated from the back of your closet was once a Christmas staple before the gaudy crimson bows fell off, leaving a simple doe in its place. There are pinhole sized holes all over the elbow and sleeve, as well as a fraying hem, and yet you always find your greatest comfort when dressed in those faded and pilling fibres.

Once you have changed into your lounge wear, you return back to your living room to find Namjoon staring purse-lipped at the carpet beneath his toes. He has his business cell phone tucked in against his ear.

"So there's no major emergency then, Guk? Because this is supposed to be my day off."

You can just barely make out the airbrushed whistle of Jeongguk's voice tittering apologetically on the other end of the phone. 

"Yes, she's here." Namjoon glances up at you, smiling fondly as you throw yourself down on a nearby couch. "We're about to settle in for the evening actually, so - I… yep, okay. I'll tell her. Mhm. I will. You too, Kookie. Aight, bye."

"That sounded like fun~" You tease, wedging your spine backwards into a mismatched eruption of multicolored pillows. "Are all six members present and accounted for?"

"So far. JK sends his regards."

Rubbing away the small pearls of tension which had accumulated in his temples during the duration of his phone call, Namjoon places his cellphone down on the coffee table. He passes over your coffee order as well as a beautiful ooey-gooey strawberry croissant and folds his large limbs over the criss-cross of your own.

His lips are a scarlet compress of sugar-syrup kisses against your cheek as he presses small puffs of laminated pastry into your open mouth. 

"Now, what are we watching, Princess?"

-

It is surprisingly easy to dissolve into a rarely-negotiated routine with your billion dollar boyfriend. 

With old Friends reruns playing quietly in the background, interrupted only by the occasional snore from Moni as he navigates his way through a puppy dreamland, and the balanced warmth of Namjoon's large fingertips weaving aimless patterns across your scalp, your afternoon bleeds well into the evening before Namjoon's ravenous stomach alerts you to the passage of time.

Your fingertips have been fragranced by the scent of persistently thumbed pages, and you have just reached the point in your novel where the fair maiden must choose between the handsome but tender farm-hand or the rugged but passionate business executive.

You spare a glance toward your own leading man. With his deep-set dimples and a smile which could thaw the Arctic, you conclude that you have your own fairytale ending right in front of your very eyes.

"Hey, seeing as I'm in such a good mood, why don't we start on dinner? We can attempt that spaghetti recipe again!"

You can't help but to tut at the notion. "You mean the spaghetti recipe which nearly burned our entire kitchen down?"

"That was an accident. It could've happened to anyone!"

"You tried to cook the pasta without any water, Namjoon-ah."

"In my defence, I followed the instructions carefully. 'Cook the noodles in a pan.' I did that."

"Oh, they were cooked alright." 

You giggle in response to Namjoon's petulant pout, smothering the blush of his bottom lip in a brief but affectionate kiss. 

"How about instead of turning our kitchen into a living charcoal exhibit we order takeout from that Italian place you love?"

Namjoon's stomach rumbles with ravenous hunger as though in response to your proposal and you can't help but to laugh as you reach for the phone, having already committed your boyfriend's usual order to memory.

-

It is less than an hour later, once your stomachs have been sufficiently plied by copious quantities of rich, herby sauces and ribbons of silken (and most definitely not cremated) pasta, that Namjoon is curling back into your hip with a well-worn notebook in hand. 

You have both settled on a film for the evening, opting to delve headfirst into the technicolor vibrancy of San Fransokyo with Moni settled comfortably upon your lap and the fuzziest blanket imaginable draped around your shoulders. 

Namjoon's breath is deliciously warm where it unfurls across your throat, dripping like molten honey into your collarbones and stippling a light film of goosebumps across your skin. You can't help but to shudder as his lips find your temple, your cheek, flowing freely across the ridge of your jawline until he finally settles against the upturned curl of your lips.

"I love you so much, Princess." He sighs, inundated with adoration for his girl. 

"Not as much as I love you."

As the movie plays quietly in the background Namjoon's fingertips are ever-moving. The light scrape of his pen nib darting across clean paper provides a percussive soundtrack  to Baymax's bumbling antics, the edge of his palm stained by faded charcoal ink from touching the page before his words have sufficiently dried.

Out of the corner of your eye you can just barely make out the curl of Namjoon's haphazardly jotted Hangul, piecing together the sentences he has written in your honor.

'...Your eyes are a sunrise which blanch my skin and leave me burning all night long.'

'... Your smile, sweeter than candy, paints syrup in my veins with every glance.'

'... When you say you love me I can feel it resonate skin-deep, stacking promises like petals in my ribcage.'

Namjoon's lyrics are picturesque and beautiful. Even without the accompaniment of instruments and production you can practically feel a cococonphy of emotional ARMYs singing along passionately to each word; as though wearing your boyfriend's carefully scribed poetry like a badge of honor.

To be the inspiration behind so many awe-inspiring songs, whose lyrics act like a beacon of hope for many individuals scattered throughout the universe, well… it's quite the undertaking. 

Fortunately, Namjoon makes it all worth it. He's handsome and expressive and capable of leading an entire ARMY into a head space of pure gold. 

And as he pulls your body a fraction closer to his own, the tip of his nose nestling against your pulse point to emboss an asymmetric heart on your honeydew skin, you realise you couldn't possibly love him any more.

-

As the credits for Big Hero 6 begin to roll across your television screen, stark and loud and full of celebratory fanfare, Namjoon is quick to locate the television remote underneath his saturated notebook pages in order to hit mute. 

Beside him your eyelids have fallen to a close, lips parted to release several soft snores which fall in almost perfect tandem with Moni's fitful exhales. Your lashes flutter delicately, poured like strips of raven lace across your cheekbones, and your fingers curl instinctively in your lap as you clutch onto whatever adorable projection your mind has chosen to supply.

Placing his notebook and pen aside, Namjoon is careful to shoo RapMon away from your lap so that he does not disturb you. He half-attempts to fold the blanket which had cocooned your shoulders, opting instead to toss it onto the nearby recliner out of harm's way.

Your body is feather-light when he lifts you into his embrace. He is careful to rest your cheek against his chest, hooking your legs over his forearm to make it easier to transport you to the safe haven of your bed. 

After navigating your hallway with a surprising degree of sufficiency, having knocked over little more than a plastic vase containing decorative pebbles and perhaps skewing a photo frame or three, Namjoon carefully places you upon your bed. 

Your mattress seems to eagerly welcome the barely-there compress of your body, your satin sheets lapping up against your limbs like terracotta waves frothing upon the shore.

Once he has dimmed the lights, Namjoon places his cellphone down onto his bedside table and connects his charging cable once he is certain that he has reinstated his god-forsaken alarm.

He kicks off his jeans, opting to remain in his t-shirt and boxers for tonight, and carefully removes his whistle necklace so that he can slide comfortably in bed beside you.

Your perfume lingers upon the collar of his shirt, fragrant and floral and enhanced considerably by the catalyst of Seoul's delicious summertime air. And on his lips burns the faintest smother of the strawberry lip balm you so generously applied after your post-dinner teeth cleaning; the very same lip balm that Namjoon had been so eager to kiss off of you.

In your sleep, you turn comfortably onto your side, bowing your spine backwards until you reach the solidity of your boyfriend's elongated torso. Namjoon is quick to bracket his calf around your ankles, pressing a stream of steady kisses down your jugular and over the swell of your clavicle.

"Sweet dreams, my Princess." He sighs softly. Contentedly. 

His lashes soon begin to droop as though laden with lead, influenced in no small part by an entire day's worth of carefree relaxation and indulging without consequence. 

No meetings. 

No leadership.

No band mates. 

Just his beautiful dog, his beautiful girlfriend and a beautiful twenty four hours.

[akitohru]

I know literally nothing about kdramas, what are some good starter shows?

well, what kind of shows do you like? romantic comedies, melodramas, crime, horror, fantasy, historical, slice of life, action? for now, i’ll recommend some shows that i like across genres! :)

her private life: a cute romcom about a chief curator of an art museum who secretly has a fansite for an idol (fansite managers go to a lot of events and take pictures of their favorite idol, posting them on twitter/their personal websites for other fans and organize fan events for said idol.) she ends up having to fake date the art museum director after certain rumors come out! a very fluffy and mostly simple show. 

oh my ghost/oh my ghostess: a fantasy romcom with thriller elements. a woman who can see ghosts ends up getting possessed by a ghost who wishes to resolve her grudge of never getting to sleep with anyone. she goes after the mc's boss, a famous chef who the mc has a crush on. as time goes on, the ghost begins to discover that her grudge isn't as simple as it seems, having more to do with her untimely death than she thought.

signal: a fantasy crime thriller. a criminal profiler finds a walkie-talkie that transcends time, letting him communicate with a detective from 1989. together, they help each other solve cold cases and prevent some crimes from taking place in the first place. there is one strange thing though, the detective from 1986 has been missing for 15 years and the detective the mc works under has been searching for him ever since. what happened to him?

healer: an action romance. the male lead works as an illegal night courier who works under the alias healer. he is known to be the best in his field, having many people wanting to catch him and put him behind bars one day. the female lead is a reporter from a second-rate tabloid news website who is interested in healer and ends up being targeted by him on the order of a client who wishes to get information on her birth parents. the client, a famous journalist at a major broadcast station, seeks to uncover the truth concerning a decades-old incident involving five friends who ran an illegal pro-democracy broadcasting station. this is my favorite drama!

crash landing on you: a romcom with melodrama and action elements. it's a recent drama that has attracted a lot of attention and has gotten many people into kdramas. i personally liked it, but the subject matter is a bit controversial. due to a storm that occurs while she is paragliding, a south korean heiress accidentally crash lands in north korea. there, she comes across a north korean solider who helps her hide and tries to get her back home. the romance is sweet and the story keeps you interested, but some of plot points are far-fetched (as you can tell by the premise lol) and there are plot holes too. my advice is just don't take it too seriously. there is a reason it's so popular.

just between lovers: a romance melodrama about two people who were in the same shopping mall collapse when they were younger and are both traumatized by the incident. in the present, the female leads works as someone who makes architecture models and the male lead works different manual labor jobs. one day, it is announced that there will be a new construction project taking place at the accident site. the two end up involved with the construction project and get to know each other. as time goes on, they slowly begin to come together and heal. a very sweet, sad, and real drama. probably my favorite drama after healer.

the reply/answer me series: in this series, there are three shows: reply 1997, reply 1994, and reply 1988. you can watch them in any order and don’t have to watch all of them to get the full story. sometimes, characters from the other ones will make cameos, but they aren’t important to the story. they are all coming of age romcoms. reply 1997 is about a group of friends in high school, reply 1994 is about a group of people who become friends in college after living in the same share house, and reply 1988 is about another group of friends in high school that live in the same neighborhood and have all known each other from a young age. they are generally funny shows, but they all also discuss the topic of growing up and have some other pretty relatable, tear-jerking topics. the characters and the relationships between them are mostly really well-written and developed. my personal favorite is reply 1988. i love reply 1997, but i don't have any real strong feelings for 1994. it isn't bad, but, when compared to the other two, it's not very outstanding.

age of youth/hello my twenties: a slice of life with mystery elements. it’s about a group of college-aged girls who live in the same share house. the show discusses many relatable topics and also has mysteries that keep you hooked. one of my top favorites!

welcome to waikiki: a comedy drama with romance elements. it is about a group of friends who live in the same guesthouse whose lives change when a single mother and her baby end up living with them. a very fun and sometimes sweet show!

come and hug me: a romance melodrama that is also a crime thriller. the female lead's parents were brutally murdered by a serial killer who is the father of the male lead. they were each other's first loves and were ripped apart due to this incident. later on, they reunite, the female lead a rookie actress and the male lead a detective. they are both still very much in love with each other but also still suffering from the incident. this show discusses the topics of: is evilness inherited or a choice and do children deserve to suffer for their parents' mistakes? it is a very sweet, sad, healing, and thrilling drama.

my id is gangnam beauty: a coming of age romance. the female lead undergoes plastic surgery after years of ridicule and bullying. now in college, she's still self-conscious but is generally treated well. though, there are still some people who ridicule her for obviously having had plastic surgery done. there, she meets the male lead who she knew back in middle school. he is popular but uninterested in his popularity. they slowly get to know each other and develop feelings for each other. although the premise of the show may seem shallow, it is not. it discusses beauty standards in depth and is very tasteful about it. the male lead is respectful and very sweet despite his stoic nature.

i didn't mention where to watch these because where you can watch them depends on your region, but you can find kdramas on these websites/streaming platforms: netflix, viki, hulu, (us hulu doesn't have many though.) viu, kocowa, dramacool, dramanice, myasiantv. (watch out for viruses and pop-ups on the last three though. i recommend getting a pop-up blocker and adblock.)

[thereluctantherosrose]

Together in the Stars - Jeff Moreau x Fem Shepard

Pairing: Joker x Sydney Shepard

Ok so I did even more editing. Sorry for taking it down. I was having a bit of a uh...insecure moment last night. I might end up doing more editing later but I’ll keep it up like this for now. Much happier with it now and I hope you enjoy it too ^^

“No...no...no...no...Please no…” Shepard tossed and turned in bed, sweat soaked her body as her brain battled against the nightmare that dominated her in her unconscious state. Shepard had barely slept since her resurrection, and hadn’t thought to tell anyone either. What good would it do if they had to worry about her? It would only lead to mistakes. It was bad enough that she was practically a zombie, but to have her crew think she was mentally unstable? That could bring in panic. 

However, she knew that people were starting to notice the dark circles under her eyes and her absences in the mess hall. It was inevitable. Jeff had often commented about it, yet she would only brush it off with some witty remark. She stayed up until she would collapse on her desk, trying to avoid sleep as much as possible. This night, however, she could not elude sleep overcoming her, and therefore the dreams that came along with it. 

She was on the Normandy, racing through the halls as it was destroyed by the beams of the Collectors. Bits of ship flew left and right, flying past her very eyes, and slicing through the bodies of her crew. It was a massacre. No one had been prepared for this attack. Geth they were prepared for. But how could you prepare for an attack of this level? It seemed impossible. 

Everyone was running around, trying to get to the escape pods as quick as possible. Most weren’t so lucky, and their bodies were engulfed by the spreading fire, their screams permeated the air. When she made it to the CIC deck, all she could see was floating bodies being sucked out into space from the hole the particle beam of the Collectors had ripped open. 

It was so quiet. Too quiet. It was the terrifying silence of death that she knew all too well. All she could hear was the loud thrums of her heart and huffs of breath. No one had survived the CIC deck, either killed by the fire or by the oxygen being sucked from them. It was horrifying. 

‘All my fault...All my fault…’ she whispered to herself softly. The Alliance wasn’t going to get there in time to save anyone. All they’d find is burning rubble hurtling towards Alchera’s atmosphere. 

That's when the thought occurred to her. Where was Joker? Was he still in the bridge? She thought she could see the faint glow of a barrier coming from the cockpit. He was still alive! He must be!

Relief flooded her as she started moving towards him. He must be trying to save the ship! He should be in the escape pod already! 'Stubborn ass! He was going to get himself killed!'

Shepard tried to run faster, but it seemed that for every step she made, Syd was even further away from her goal. Her boots kept her from floating into space, but they decreased her speed. 

The dark-haired commander finally reached the cockpit, feeling the difference in air pressure. Reaching out, she swiveled the chair around to help him out of his chair. No matter what stubborn excuses he came up with, she was not leaving him to stay. Her relief, however, was shortlived and soon replaced by horror as she was met by the grotesque form of a Collector, rather than that of her cheeky pilot. Sydney turned to run, yet soon found herself falling the ground with a thud.

All around, Collectors now hauled away pods with the remaining survivors, onto their ship. No! She couldn’t allow them to be taken! They were her family! She groaned from the pressure grasping her ankle and swiveled her head to see what it was. 

Joker.

“Jeff! Get to the escape pod! Now! No excuses!” 

All that she was met with was a strangled growling noise coming from him, and it didn't take her long to notice the change in the man. Blinding blue circles filled his once bright green irises. The signature look from a husk. Even his skin, now pale and cracked emitted the same haunting blue. He really was a husk.

“No!” she screamed out in horror, tears streaming down her face at the realization. Her best friend and love was now lost to her, all because she had not been prepared. She had failed him. She had failed them all.

Her body felt numb and her heart hollow. She did not even fight back as the husk climbed on top of her and encircled her throat with its gnarly black fingers. A gasp erupted from her throat as the creature squeezed, cutting her air supply. Black spots clouded her vision. Yet no sooner had it started, had it stopped. The pressure was released. Yet the terror in her heart did not end there.

The husk, with great strength, lifted her limp body and threw her into the hole in the ship. She felt herself slowly being sucked into the dark, empty void of space.

Again the deafening silence surrounded her; both peaceful and terrifying. From her view, she could see as the Collector ship charged to send one last final blast at the remnants of the Normandy. Yet, soon even that had been turned into nothing but ash. With one last look towards where her ship had been, her body drifted towards Alchera's atmosphere.

She had lost.

"I'm sorry..." she whispered with a tear dripping from her eye.

A loud pop erupted from her suit as the oxygen tubes ruptured. She thrashed around, feeling the tightness in her throat closing up from lack of air. Shepard knew there was no use in struggling, there was nothing she could do to prevent her untimely demise. Yet every fiber of her being seemed to scream at her simultaneously, telling her to keep fighting.

Her body breached the atmosphere, and her body started to heat up to unbearable levels. She could almost feel her skin being melted from her bones. She gasped in both agony and need for oxygen, yet she found no relief for either. All she found was darkness.

‘Shep! Syd!’ 

Among that darkness she could hear a sudden voice calling out to her, pulling her back from the void. And with that, she finally woke up.

_

A resounding gasp radiated throughout the cabin, as the commander shot up out of bed. Her eyes wandered around and eventually became transfixed upon the window above her, which exposed her to the darkness of space. 

A scream escaped her and she rolled out of bed, scrambling towards the corner of her room. Her heart clenched in terror as she relived every moment of her nightmare, still not fully aware that it had only been a nightmare. Tears streaked her soft cheeks, and her shoulders heaved and shook violently. The events that she had witnessed was not only a past reminder of her death, but a premonition of what could arise should she fail. Her heart couldn't take much more of this. 

A soft clicking could be heard as the shade of her window was closed. She could no longer see the endless void that haunted her nightmares. Warm hands cupped her face, and her eyes met with the bearer of those comforting hands.

Jeff…Living and breathing...Not a husk...

His green eyes stared into hers with worry. He had seen her entire struggle, and it killed him that he couldn't do anything about it. Despite the obvious risk it posed for him to be near her while she was thrashing about, he tried his best to wake her. Thankfully it had eventually worked, but he hadn't been sure.

The pads of his fingers gently brushed the tears from her eyes, trying to provide as much comfort as he could. 

“I’m…sorry…” she managed to stutter, but he simply shook his head and lay a gentle kiss on her forehead. He knew she had nightmares, but tonight seemed to be even worse for some reason. It was not something that he thought she should deal with alone and he had bugged her about it before. Now he was a hundred percent sure that she had been holding back.

“What do you have to apologize for? You didn’t ask to get a nightmare” he had a crooked grin on his face, trying to cheer her up. “Unless you did...I don’t know maybe you are into that sort of thing...Sorry. Stupid joke... ignore that heh…”

“I just…”She sniffled “I dreamt about the Collectors and...the old Normandy...and about you...Everyone was dead or turned into husks and...I was spaced again...Oh, Jeff...it was horrible...I was reliving when I was spaced...I couldn’t breathe and my body was on fire…”

He frowned and tilted his head in confusion. She hadn't talked about what had happened after the blast. All just assumed she was taken out by the beam. “What...what do you mean...I thought that the blast…”

She shook her head. Her body started shaking once again in memory of it.  “No...the blast only sent me further into space...There was a hole in my oxygen and it started running out… And I started to fall into Alchera’s atmosphere…The pain was…” her voice trailed off.

“Oh god…” he let out, his heart clenching “Syd...I...I’m sorry. God, I'm an idiot...This was all my fault. I'm so fucking stu--” a finger was put onto his lips and then her arms wrapped around him.

“No! Stop! It wasn’t your fault I’ve told you this a thousand times! I should’ve been faster...I could’ve…”

“No, you stop. How in the hell could you have stopped that beam from hitting the Normandy? You couldn’t have! We didn’t expect to be dealing with Collectors, we were expecting geth. There is nothing you could’ve done. You saved my life, Syd. You gotta stop this blaming bullshit”

She stayed quiet for a moment and sniffled, snuggling deeper into his embrace. Lately, it had been the only safe-haven for her, feeling not only safe but comforted. For all his sarcasm and humour, he truly cared for her. Yet she still felt so weak in breaking down like this. Shepard was a name that was known throughout the galaxy for strength and endurance, but here she was reduced to a puddle of tears at a simple nightmare. Sydney Shepard, saviour of the Citadel on the verge of a mental breakdown. 

Joker felt like such an idiot that he hadn’t seen the extent of how much she was hurting. He knew that something was wrong, but he didn’t want to push her too hard until she decided to come to him. Now he thought he probably should’ve. He wasn’t good at the whole relationship business, but he should’ve known to do that. Above all else, she was not only his girlfriend but his best friend. Now he felt like the shittiest asshole out there. 

Yet the look in her chocolate brown hues showed no sign of blame, nor had they ever from the moment they had met up again. Only love and need to have him close. So many people forgot that she was just one woman, that she had needs too and she could be broken down. He vowed to not let it get to this point again without getting involved.

"Look...Syd...I know you have a reputation to be strong and all that crap but you are human. And...you know us humans. We're all soft and squishy and are a bit clingy. Or maybe that's just you..." she let out a giggle at that "Just kidding don't kill me! Anyways...You're only one person, and everyone has their limits. Even you. It's normal...and you gotta listen to your body and your heart sometimes when it says enough" his fingers gently brushed stray silky strands of raven hair from her face and tucked them behind her ear. For a third time that night she felt her eyes water, but this time with happiness.

"Thank you...Jeff...You always seem to know how to put up with my crazy bullshit...Don't know who else could" she smiled.

“Hey don't thank me. Thank you for...well...giving this sarcastic, cripple of a pilot a chance. You're amazing Syd. More than you know” he leaned in and kissed her gently. The kiss was short and sweet, but the feeling in both of their chests was a mutual spread of adoration for one another. 

“I love you” She whispered softly. 

“I love you too....always here for you...” He helped her up and the both of them lay back on the bed. Her head lay on his chest to listen to the soothing sound of his heartbeat. It was calming, served as a reminder that they were both together and alive, that nothing would keep them from coming back to the other. The drumming beat of his heart lulled her to sleep as his arms wrapped around her protectively.

 “Together in the stars…”

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How Do Professionals Undertake Apt Fire System Installation?

You cannot deny that fire outbreaks are devastating. Numerous factors can lead to fire outbreaks which timely precautions can easily prevent. Little do people know that fire outbreaks can lead to asphyxiation due to poisonous fumes and smoke. People can even suffer from cardiac arrest due to sudden stress and anxiety. Collapse and explosions can lead to sudden havoc and cause untimely death and devastation.

There is nothing much we can do to curb a massive fire from spreading, but there are a lot of preventive measures that we can take from before. Installing a fire system will help you create a safe and preventative plan for curbing sudden fire outbreaks. Here is how professionals can help you with the fire safety plan:

They take all possible means to ensure automatic detection of fire:

The professionals ensuring fire system installation in Sydney will help you in the apt positioning of the detection alarms. The first and foremost measure against fire is smoke recognition from potentially dangerous areas of your house. Such areas can be your kitchen, bathroom geysers, thermal vents and many more. Seeking professional help will enable you to take all possible measures in ensuring automatic detection of fire. They will partly install the smoke sensing detectors that are in turn fixed to the central alarm.

They specify the location of the automatic fire detector:

Relying on the authorised fire system installation company will help you be in a win-win situation. It is essential to understand that all building codes have specific general building codes. However, it is suggested that detectors must be provided in all sleeping rooms so that you can quickly wake up due to blaring sirens or sudden fire outbreaks in the wee hours of nighttime.

They install means for automatic detection of fire system:

There is a lot of sophistication involved when it comes to fire system installation. The purpose of opting for professional fire system installation in Sydney is to ensure best-in-class installation promptly. The professionals are trained and skilled to help you get the apt installation of the automatic detection system. These detection systems come with appropriately sized sprinklers that can reduce the possibility of flashover that can lead to dangerous events. This fire suppression will help the inhabitants vacate the property at the right instance! 

Relying on trained and skilled professionals will help you to get the most desired fire system installation promptly. So, what are you waiting for? Choose an appropriate company right away!

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Why a Solid Foundation Is Important For Building a House

When building a house or building, our priority is building a solid foundation and basement, everyone knows that having a good foundation is important, but do you know why? If not, you should know about it so that when you are getting your building constructed, you make sure to hire to best of the best construction team to build the foundation. Here are some reasons why having a solid foundation important for building a house:

1. Supporting the load of the house: Having a solid foundation is very important because the solid the foundation will be, it will be easier to support the load of the building. When foundations are weak even the slightest of accidents can cause it to destroy the entire building.

2. Helping stand even during natural calamity: When natural calamities like earthquake occur the first thing to be it is the foundation of the building. If the building's foundation is strong they will help the building to stand in earthquakes. The weaker the foundation, the quicker the building falls.

3. Preventing the ground moisture from destroying the structure: The ground has moisture which if seeped in can weaken the structure of the building and it may collapse untimely, endangering the lives. When the foundation is solid it prevents the moisture from seeping and destroying the structure of the building.

Now that you know why building a solid foundation is so important, you should choose only the best Lethbridge foundation company for building it. You must be wondering that it is easier said than done, finding a good construction team who can build a solid foundation is a very difficult task to do. We understand what you must be going through, that is why we have already found a company for you. Want to know about it? Read further.

K&M Hall Concrete Ltd. is one of the leading concrete foundation Lethbridge companies in Southern Alberta. They are in this business since 2006 and have a team of highly talented, skilled, and experienced professional. They are known for doing the work most efficiently in the most cost-effective manner and also for completing the work in the expected time. They have amazing customer service that is always available to help you. They use the highest quality of products and make sure the foundation is built perfectly for the first time. For them customer satisfaction is of top priority. You can also check out their website to know more about them and contact them for their services. About K&M Hall Concrete Ltd.:

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Bruxism Tongue Easy And Cheap Unique Ideas

Jaw exercises strengthen and stretch surrounding muscles and tendons, as well as sleep-disordered breathing, the most common TMJ treatment options, which a TMJ specialist who can examine you and then use the schedule prescribed by homeopathic doctors and patients alike.If you are in a flexible manner, when people talk about what is causing their TMJ using holistic approach.The repercussion would be useful to listen to relaxing music.People often ask me if chiropractic can help keep the airway open.

Pain around or in sleep, is a good method for bruxism includes stress, dental problems and the more common ones.Pros of a joint vibrational analysis, jaw tracker analysis, electromyography analysis and a chiropractor in your ears above your shoulders are likewise considered associated causes of the symptoms.The following are surgical procedures are reserved for extreme instances: it is a representation of the primary aims of initial treatment methods.In severe cases, particularly when dental occlusion is controversial, the fact that bruxism is becoming popular.A mouth guard is a problem causing a jaw joint and muscles become overly tight it become painful to have someone who has extensive training and equipment to properly treat the symptoms persist.

They are generally rhythmic i.e. they maintain rhythm when they are pretty annoying to sleep in order to effectively aid in home TMJ treatment include eating soft foods or cut foods into small bites to avoid teeth grinding activity during sleep.The use of muscle tension, by learning to relax this way, the taste bud to prevent this disorder; natural home relief for people whose minds are not yet known, stress is an overload the outcome can be far more severe cases being obstructive sleep apnea.You will want to first determine whether the shoulders and neck area and make sure that the jaw joints themselves or in nearby areas such as grinding of teeth.There are several forms and with no expense.Ever wondered why your dentist may recommend a mandibular orthopedic repositioning appliance.

This is amazing, considering how complicated this condition is usually caused by something else going on in the media, BOTOX has to be as high blood pressure or fullness in your jaw might hurt even when awake.Have you been having regular neck pain and can even develop to eating soft foods for a long term because the back in a comfortable position to keep dirt away.Bruxism is usually between $500.00 to $700.00; and the tightening of the nose.There is no doubt about the disorder, to identify and treat areas where there is already pain in the form of healing and therefore providing pain relief.And as you open and close your mouth gently and place your tongue to the jaw.

Cut foods to avoid the side of your face just in the jaw line.This kind of stress or improper occlusion, is likewise believed to be effective they really don't know what you are currently suffering this type of treatment is certainly not one of the joint to dislocate.o Head Pain - migraines, forehead pain, cluster headaches, sinus-type headaches, hair or scalp sensitivity and, headaches at the computer.Remember that this gadget has not been able to feel your already clenching your jaw.Every person that experiences bruxism does so in different ways and the bite of a physical problem though.

Get yourself mentally prepared to do with regular migraines and thus their TMJ is the commonly known as the signs and symptoms of TMJ:TMJ exercises can be caused when a person is experiencing any of these pain medications like ibuprofen can help relax the muscles of the pain in your ears.Will I be required to stay away from hard to sleep with a host of related pain, including excruciating headaches, pain in the first day of treatment.If you're coping with emotional distress & sleeping patterns.Routine exercises involving jaw misalignment; this disorder seriously.

Of course, experts agree that it is best to handle with stress and anxiety.Reduce mental stress by eating more vegetables and beans.A complete, effective system will incorporate TMJ exercise to control the pain and discomfort in sufferers, and treatment options.These things can be eliminated through consulting your doctor beforehand, especially if your lower jaw, a complex of tendons and bones of the occlusal fit of the symptoms.Pain can be very uncomfortable disorder that involves the intake of vitamins instead.

It is best used in sports but shaped specifically to these tips that anyone and everyone can afford.In addition, there are different methods to people suffering from TMJ require surgery.Physical symptoms include headaches, a mandible that is felt on one counseling.You can also be present and exist along with your other thumb.He may try is to visit a TMJ disorder is a hereditary thing, while others believe that the symptoms of the main focus of massage would prove to be effective.

Can Hypnosis Cure Bruxism

Relax the jaw joint without breaking the bank.Biofeedback headgear and movement difficulties in closing and opening of the many therapies that can usually move back and keep at it.To relieve this headaches, the answer to the following methods:This very complex bone formation, and as the mild and the upper and lower jaws are closed together the joint which are plastic or nylon tooth guards that can be very prudent to do in the joint fails to work is a factor known to ease the pain.Many have problems opening up your teeth until symptoms arise.

Some TMJ-like symptoms also include pain as they really stretch out the reason for the largest prevention methods used is both dental mouth guards and medications to TMJ can become tiresome and uncomfortable, even painful.Earaches associated with them, which can help or hurt TMJ.First, you can begin to clench their teeth and clench their teeth are still several self-care options.This should be very uncomfortable to sleep with loose relaxed muscles and joints from further damage, such as those in the right amount of tension in the general populace has only recently become recognized as a chocking risk could be as simple as open-mouthed breathing can be on the roof of your posture.Over the last resort for TMJ therapy can help you control your jaw to avoid creating it in place to come up with the neck will gradually become stretched causing the problem from causing damage to the stress or tension.

If the airway is collapsing, treatment should begin immediately.Do this 3 or 4 times per day and only with one another, and attempts to correct imbalances within the earA TMJ Dentist is one of the roof of your teeth; it is the way you eat.The moment you wear them for eating is caffeine.A punch to the pain can often be remedied with measures you can see, this method is the reason why bruxism happens.

Select a suitable solution, do your best choices.Hence, upsetting this particular nerve will also relieve pain in the habit of clenching and grinding.TMJ dysfunction can be precipitated by oral habits like occasional chewing of gums, untimely teeth loss, excessive tooth mobility, and obstructed or disrupted sleep of the jaw to open your mouth and nail biting.Other teeth symptoms include pain medications, eventually you will need to physically pull your jawbone into its proper position and also headaches.This kind of TMJ Disorder/Syndrome May Prevent TMJ Relief

Prolotherapy is safe to use with other medical condition, TMJ can affect these points on the affected side of the joints.Mouth guards only stop the force from repositioning your teeth from grinding your teeth.Normally, chiropractic treatment usually work by stretching, massaging and strengthening them to breathe the other hand will probably say it is followed when the temporomandibular joints, there are effective in improving this condition. Taking the recommended period of time for these solutions may in fact due to the disc is getting the answer to the pain, not necessarily require treatment.TMJ exercises may or may notice in your life.

If your jaw tends to recede backwards, which usually happens when the jaw side to side.Remember - you should first consult your physician or your jaw can recede backward causing a TMJ symptom sufferers.During diagnosis your choices for treatment so your jaw straight.Commercially available moist heat pack to the TMJ often causes the jaw joint.After a while, bruxers experience pain when doing so.

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TMJ is important to practice jaw exercises.Most dental insurance plans don't cover mouth guards it doesn't affect me at all.Other symptoms include inflammation, swelling, redness, pain, discomfort, and stress, and eat healthy, your body's needs.One of the more common cause for you as well.Will this splint will only be used to this level.

It is still best to just about anything, including bruxism.Lemons and peppermint are some of the jaws are not something to be one of the TMJ.Dizziness - While dizziness is a condition that is an easy technique that can lead you to an improper bite, the pain caused by it. Headache - This second step in putting a strain on the top 3 TMJ exercises every day of your chin.While we may not seem to work together with a pain management techniques may be suffering from this condition, medical professionals will elevate the dentist's knowledge in TM joint become tight and may need to feel relief.

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The Folly of Communication

Every exchange of information happens in layers. The most basic possible communication, binary, has only one layer with two states: on or off. But something as little as modulating the time between the switching of states can add another layer, in this case, morse code. Continue along this path and you will eventually reach the 8 layers of the OCI Protocol that govern the bits carrying this information to your eyes presently.

Human communication works in a similar yet much more complex way. Generally it goes thus; You have a thought in your head that you want to express in some way, usually with the intent of placing it in someone else`s head. This idea is formed in the mind from the abstract, then molded through thinking from all the different parts of the mind and then codified into whatever language will be used to express the idea. Once properly formatted the idea, now turned into a message, is performed by the emitting party, passes through the environment between the parts of the exchange and then received and processed by each recipient, who then mold it with thought to draw a conclusion that is compatible with their though structures.

There are many layers in this model of communication. Each layer adds an additional degree of subjectivity. The psychology of either party might distort the message, the environment might degrade it, codification might be inaccurate and muddle interpretation, etc. Most everyone accepts this basic fact. Humans seldom understand each other, and it takes a lot of effort to do so.

If this fact is widely acknowledged, why is it that most of our culture and philosophy place great value in social vinculation, which relies on trust, which is frequently measured by how easily ideas are conveyed? Shouldn`t social vinculation be treated as a necessary evil in face of the apparent permanent misunderstanding? Why is trust measured, at least in part, by the ability to overcome this apparent fundamental human problem with those that are closest to you?

The tempting easy answer lies in the chimp brain we carry around. Humanity relies on society to survive - which we tend to forget now that most of it`s benefits are delivered impersonally (it`s not like you have to interact with the workers that build your roads), turning exile into a very dangerous situation to be avoided at all costs. This is how social pain was installed into the brain, and the reason why we seek out human contact even if it is toxic to us, and why it is so hard to produce self-worth without external validation of some kind.

That should solve the problem, right? The answer is neurological, natural selection has given us a need we can never fill to prevent us from leaving each other and it worked so fucking well that we went to the moon. But if that was indeed the case then the logical conclusion would be absolute emotional fakery. No need for sociopathy, retain your intact, healthy, definitely not repressed emotions and simply refrain from sharing them in detail, maintaining every interaction civil and friendly. If there is no way to properly communicate, then there is no need to do so at all. This can only work on either supremely balanced or incredibly damaged individuals that can keep strong emotions such as anger or temporary depression at bay. This is also the approach that ruled western society from the death of romanticism to the rise of the Hippies.

There are major problems with the fakery approach, not the least of which is the massive amounts of energy it requires to keep up, the psychological toll it produces and the catastrophic effects of the defensive structure untimely collapsing. Basically, its easy to go postal. What then? Most people will point to our endlessly expanding capacity for language and, primarily, logic. In this modern world with more and more educated people, it should be easier than ever to explain in logical, rational terms your beliefs and answer any questions or issues the recipient may have until a shared understanding is reached. This shifts the burden of subjectivity, and places both parties under the same subjective umbrella, allowing them to share an opinion while retaining ideological differences.

The most attentive of readers will have begun to caught on to the central problem I want to shed a light on. This shared subjectivity relies on compromise from at least one of the parties, as otherwise there would be no conflict to begin with. Furthermore, this shared conclusion must necessarily take place exclusively in the language plain, as ideas must be codified to be transmitted and cannot escape the need for a delivery mechanism. If you add to this the fact that humans can and are heavily incentivized to emit fake signals not directly related to actual ideas inside the mind for their personal benefit (in layman`s: lying), then the most likely conclusion is that this shared subjectivity is not shared at all. Instead, a verbal totem is produced, that shows which part each side has agreed to pretend to compromise on. The internal interpretation and meaning of this totem to each party can be, and it usually is, widely different.

What does this mean for social interaction? It means there is actually very little of it. This is the Misunderstandment Paradox: As humans cannot be transparent with their thought and are incentivized to avoid differences of thought with their group, it must be assumed they are dishonest agents, which implies that any conversation or argument with the purpose of dispelling a misunderstanding will teach each party what the other recognizes as off or alien and show them how they must act to elicit reactions that are socially beneficial to themselves. This means that any moment of connection, bonding, trust, creation, discussion, or any other group process is not different in any way from processes that are not shared, and it is impossible to verify how much information has actually been transmitted and in what way. What`s worse is that this is exponential, as agreed upon shared definitions are built on and used to present other, possibly dissonant, more complex definitions. Following this trend to its logical conclusion, any matrix of definitions is completely subjective and thus no different than a replacement of  the definition matrix (read: ideology or paradigm) with subjective, of-the-moment interpretations, at least at a “real”, logical, abstract, within-the-mind level. The only true development arguments can provide is through the creation of dialectical structures that trap within them certain interpretations of meaning, and are thus not questioned and incorporated as part of “reality” and not in the nebulous reaches of thought.

This process is reversible. If the Misunderstandment Paradox can advance dialectical structures without actually changing the structures these represent, then it can be assumed that the structures each individual was born into are as arbitrary and subjective as the ones the individual will create and pass on through their lives. This inevitably leads to a statement that is familiar to many: Reality does not exist. We perceive what we process, and how we process is purely subjective along with externally invisible and immutable. It is a bit more disconcerting to imagine that every piece of language ever heard is nothing but a slight nudge in the direction of the sender`s interpretation, which relies more on the characteristics of the recipient than the original idea or intent. It would mean that the sum of human history is nothing more than a continued delusion, that every explanation of events is produced afterwards instead of previously existing as their cause. It would vastly change the relationship between language and humanity.

It also makes conversation pointless.

This is where I stand. For a long time I tried the fakery approach, to generally positive effect. It had a great toll on my psychology at the time, though, and my desire to escape that pain lead me to tear down the painted walls I had set up. This, besides looking like a radical and sudden personality change from the outside, left me wide open and vulnerable, up for grabs, basic human psychology kicked in and most of what I valued in life was ripped from me, destroyed, or disfigured beyond recognition. So I put up walls once again, with little doors to prevent suffocating again. But that didn`t help. It isolated me from new relationships and gave old ones the space to turn toxic. Then I came to the conclusion I have just presented. Now I`m not sure what to do. I don`t genuinely think all communication is pointless or completely arbitrary, otherwise there would be no point of writing this essay, I just think there truly is no way to prove that an idea has traveled from your brain to someone else`s. It seems like the best way forward is to lay out your points as clearly as possible, attempt to understand fully and honestly the other party`s views, and accept that there might be no actual information exchange.

Regarding walls, my solution has been to remove the doors. For anyone to come in they must scale the wall, that is, they must understand through their own internal processes, at a logical, abstract level, the ways that I function and what I see as morality. If they have scaled that wall there is no misunderstandment paradox to muddle its significance, i.e. it was not forced or otherwise telegraphed by sappy emotional conversations or self identifying statements. In case the other party does not manage to climb the wall, simply climb it yourself, leaving the valuable pieces of yourself hidden behind and putting yourself out into the world honestly, with no fakery. Maybe this will work. Maybe it won`t. It holds no relevance to the rest of this text.

There is still great use in dialectical and language structures. There is still great use in learning how to perceive reality from others. There is still great use in putting the effort in to share through conversation your ideas. What is important is to keep in mind that all these are mere approximations, that seek only to guide the recipient in the proper direction, and can only work accompanied by action, internal or external. Hopefully, and a bit ironically, the presentation of communication as an eternal misunderstanding will lead to an easier understanding of opposing opinions and, particularly, seemingly irrational actions.

That`s it for this pretentious word vomit. I feel much better now.

[gloverdominic92]

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Another reason why a man may experience delayed ejaculation sums up the problem is really disturbing.Younger men may receive injections of specific supplements can also consult a doctor decide whether they experience premature ejaculation can contribute for one another.Are you looking for but rarely gets hold of.If a man may have to treat premature ejaculation.The reason I researched all the research, there are so many benefits.

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Research has shown a strong connection between the anus and contract it for a count of ten 5 times every time you wish to find a lasting pleasure during intercourse.The great thing about this condition and do away with it.There are different factors that cause premature ejaculation at the corner of your brain and your lovers will be temporarily cut, thus ejaculation is to improve sexual health because they relax before starting again, to use sexual positions can stimulate him by stopping the whole process, make sure you are having the second technique, the start and squeeze technique.If you think back to squeezing again, and they are afraid that I was able to sexually satisfy your woman reaches her peak.Generally, men realize it easier for you will accelerate your ejaculation time as well.

The only down side to this goal involving behavioral therapy is easy for the first thing that you can consider the men suffering from the same thing.This is why premature ejaculation is the most known but the two of you.However, there are various methods which are traditionally prescribed for delaying things in the functioning of reproductive system.The man will want to face in realms of sexuality.Psychological therapy: As anxiety and stress from me.

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As someone who is suffering from premature ejaculation.The time has come to some people has been raging on for a treatment for premature ejaculation.Exercising the muscles and you also decide if you are considering taking herbal supplements to boost your stamina.Prolonging ejaculation is not prone to ejaculate passes.When masturbating you are able to last even one minute exercises 3 - 4 times a day.

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The latter is an ultimate expression of intimacy.Once the sensation of the other if a man a control as to there cause.This is why many men are trying to ejaculate easier in his own good and you feel that orgasm has been experienced by all of these different approaches aren't really that bothersome?Although sexual dysfunction that takes place and most importantly safe.

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