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hey-heigo · 7 months ago
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not to get too real but we're reaching that phase of the job hunt where i can feel myself becoming less human with every application
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anonymusical · 1 year ago
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just received actual gamechanging news at work…if anybody is hiring a react dev lmk 🥲
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madisoncounty · 2 years ago
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just had a job interview/skills test go really badly and i'm just :(((
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parasitic-inductance · 6 months ago
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y'all hmu if you wanna do some leetcode/grind 75 on the daily
goal is to be ready to face the interviewers for next intern season
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notolaf404 · 1 year ago
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finally got it accepted T-T
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mardmeehanabadi · 2 years ago
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how about instead of pondering a career change I just practice and hone the skills I already sort of have?
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goyardgoyangi · 3 months ago
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𐙚 busy woman pt. 1 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
⌗ pairings: eren x reader, slight! erwin x reader
⌗ summary: you don’t believe in fate, but you do believe in probability. the odds of running into a stupidly attractive guy at a highly competitive internship interview? low. the odds of him rejecting you? …higher. the odds of ending up in the same program — and on the same project team after all that? practically zero. and yet, here you are.
⌗ word count: 1.2k
♥ pt. 2 ♥ masterlist ♥
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The first time you see him, he’s sitting across from you in Amazon’s sleek, modern lobby, scrolling through his phone with an air of boredom. His long hair falls effortlessly over his shoulders, framing sharp green eyes, and the all-black outfit he’s wearing only adds to the effortlessly cool aura he exudes. It’s infuriating.
The other candidates in the lobby are visibly tense— eyes darting across their laptop screens, reviewing LeetCode problems like their lives depend on it. Meanwhile, he looks like he just rolled out of bed and showed up for fun. He’s probably the type to start coding projects the night they’re due and still get a perfect score. The type who never second-guesses himself in a technical interview. The type who coasts through life on sheer talent.
It’s hard not to be at least a little resentful, especially in this job market. You sent out over 200 applications, grinded through a grueling technical screening, and sacrificed weeks of sleep just for this shot. And here he is, looking like he has nothing to worry about.
You fidget with your fingers, trying to shake off your pre-interview nerves. Maybe he’s a nepo baby. Maybe his dad is a senior dev here, and this interview is just a formality. That scenario isn’t unheard of. There’s no way a normal college student would be that calm right now.
You sigh, letting your mind wander to all the K-dramas you’ve watched about office romances. Out of the sea of awkward, smelly, socially inept CS major guys, he’s like a rare exception— the kind of guy who actually looks good while coding. Gosh, imagine if someone like him was your coworker. Debugging wouldn’t be so miserable if you were pulling all-nighters next to a guy like that. If only.
You’re still lost in your little fantasy when a voice snaps you back to reality.
“The next interview group, please come forward.”
Your name is called first.
And then—
“Eren Yeager.”
Oh.
You glance at him from the corner of your eye as he stands, stretching lazily before trailing after the recruiter. As he walks past, you catch the faintest whiff of something clean and expensive, so unfairly good.
Life really isn’t fair. Not only is he ridiculously good-looking, but he’s also tall. And he smells good.
You force yourself to refocus, but as you follow the recruiter inside, the awareness of him lingers, making your heart rate spike even more. You shouldn’t care— he’s just another candidate, really, just another competitor. You should be silently praying for his downfall. But something about the way he carries himself, so effortlessly confident, only makes you hyper-aware of your own unease.
By the time you’re seated, you push all unnecessary thoughts aside.
The interview goes well— better than well, actually. You answer the behavioral questions smoothly (after rehearsing them so many times you could probably recite the prompts in your sleep), showcase your problem-solving and people skills (shoutout to all those painfully competitive career workshops from uni), and even throw in a few well-placed jokes that make your interviewers smile (carefully crafted after an embarrassingly deep dive into their LinkedIn profiles).
By the time you walk out, you feel good— so good that, on a wild impulse that not even your obsessive need to be prepared could have accounted for, you find yourself stopping in front of Eren by the elevators. He’s leaning against the wall, scrolling through his phone like he has nowhere to be.
“Hey,” you say.
He looks up, surprised. His sharp green eyes flick over you, taking you in for a moment before he responds. “Hey.”
You hesitate for half a second. Then, before you can overthink it, you say, “We were in the same interview group, and I think you’re really cute. Would you wanna go out sometime?”
Eren blinks. He wasn’t expecting that. Hell, even you weren’t expecting that. But when someone has a face card like his, sometimes you just have to shoot your shot.
Then— silence. A long, excruciating pause. The kind that stretches just long enough to make you wonder if you sounded creepy. Oh god. Maybe you came off weird. Or desperate. Or worse— maybe he thinks you’re completely out of his league, and not in the fun, delusional way.
Finally, after what feels like an eternity, he exhales, his gaze flicking over you once more before taking out an airpod to bluntly say, “I don’t really date.”
Oh.
You try your best not to let the rejection sting for too long. After all, Eren’s gorgeous and probably gets asked out by girls all the time—enough to build immunity to it. What could you say? Beautiful people should date other beautiful people, and even with your fair share of self-confidence, you felt deep down that he was out of your league.
But your obsession with being prepared had its perks. It helped you be adaptable in situations like this. “No worries,” you say smoothly, flashing him a casual grin (one you practiced in front of the bathroom mirror, imagining hypothetical situations like this) like it’s no big deal— despite the fact that your heart feels like it’s been stomped on. “Good luck with the internship.”
And with that, you turn and leave down the stairs, pretending like it never happened.
A month later, you get the acceptance email.
You’re beyond thrilled— thrilled when you (finally) announce your highly coveted internship at frickin’��Amazon, thrilled when you go out to the club with your girlfriends to celebrate the end of internship application season, and thrilled when you hear about the sweet, sweet pay (which you’re already planning to save up for a winter break trip to go snowboarding) during the Zoom onboarding meeting.
You’re so thrilled, in fact, that you can’t imagine anything ruining your high. That is, until you walk into orientation and see a very familiar face sitting at one of the tables.
Eren Yeager.
His gaze flicks up as you enter, recognition flashing in his eyes. For a split second, neither of you says anything. You freeze, feeling your face flushing with heat. He holds your gaze for what feels like an eternity before you break it, quickly looking down at the floor, mortified beyond belief. The probability of this happening was practically zero.
And yet, here he is.
You tug at the hem of your newly bought shirt from Mango (a mini present to yourself to celebrate landing the internship of your dreams, the pinnacle of what your college experience had amounted to on your resume), trying to distract yourself, but nothing can shake the immense embarrassment you feel.
To make matters worse, the project manager steps to the front of the room and announces, “Alright, summer interns! You’ll be working in assigned dev groups for the summer. Let’s introduce you to your teams.”
You can already feel the impending doom, as if the universe and all its forces are conspiring against you. What were the chances? Your opps must’ve gotten together in a group chat and ordered the most expensive bootleg spell from Etsy to make sure this moment— your moment, the one you’ve worked your butt off for— was as awkward as humanly possible.
You knew life was getting too good to be true.
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luigisleftshoe · 2 months ago
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Frat Boy/College Luigi headcanons
Essentially what it would have been liked if you dated him in college 
I feel like he was a bit of a social chameleon back in the day. Like he can party and be the loud, fun, beer-pong god when he wants to be– but also once the final call of “IF YOUR NOT A BROTHER OR FUCKING A BROTHER” hes in his room grinding leetcode.
I feel like he's lowkey super cocky but in a very lovable way. Like talks big game but is a total sweetie pie when it comes to you. He's always super earnest and tries really hard not to mess it up. 
Is super anal about the rules during beer pong. “YOUR ELBOWS NEED TO BE BACK” ass bitch. He trash talks the entire time too. 
Will absolutely flex during beer pong if you’re watching.Over-the-top dramatic tosses just to make you laugh. Then grinning like a dumbass when you cheer for him.
Gets stupidly cocky when you’re winning. Points at you across the table like "THIS ONE RIGHT HERE. SHE’S A KILLER. SHE’S DANGEROUS." Chest out, grinning like he just invented beer pong himself.
Trash talks to the other team but immediately turns soft to you: Leans down, low voice in your ear: "You look so good when you’re competitive, babe. Kinda wanna take you home right now."
Lowkey he's the unofficial tech support of the frat house. Sets up the Wifi, fixes the smart TV and replaces the sound system. Whenever the brothers break something digital, they come knocking like “Bro you’re in CS fix it please”
Has an absolutely janky gaming setup in his frat house room. Like I feel like we all knew that one guy in college who brought his entire gaming setup with him and that was him. LED lights everywhere, cords tangled like a small jungle, and like monitors on too small of a desk. His room will be pretty spik and span tho. Like he does not give me messy vibes tbh. 
His room is the “safe” room. His personal room is surprisingly clean, smells good, has a half-dead succulent on the window sill, and is always stocked with energy drinks. He will absolutely pull you away from the chaos at a party to “take a break” in his room...and definitely hopes you’ll stay over.
Brings you to tailgates and makes you sit on his lap the whole time.(You’re wearing his oversized frat hoodie because you “forgot your jacket” — he 100% orchestrated this.)
You’re trying to study seriously. He’s trying to code. Every 15 minutes he gets bored and pokes you like "Babe... pay attention to me... look I made a stupid script that says I love you over and over." If you actually get mad because you’re stressed, he gets quiet for a minute...then gets up and brings you a Red Bull and kisses the top of your head like "Sorry. You're gonna crush it. I'll shut up now."
Every time you wear his hoodie to class, he texts you dumb, filthy things like "wearing my hoodie just reminds you who you belong to, huh babe?" followed immediately by "sorry that was horny, good luck on your midterm tho."
Pulls you into the coat closet at a party just to make out, then yells, "OCCUPIED!" if anyone tries to open the door. 
Takes advantage of "one bed" situations on frat formals like "well babe guess we have to share... what a tragedy... crazy how that happens."
Tries to act chill, but you catch him coding in the dark at 3AM, hoodie up, headphones in, completely tense. You have to climb onto his lap, steal his laptop away, and force him to take breaks because he literally won’t unless you make him. Once he realizes you’re taking care of him he melts, leans back into you, buries his face in your neck, mumbling "You're too good for me. I’m gonna marry you."
The “Designated Social Chair” (But Pretends He’s Not) He's not officially in charge of parties... but somehow he's planning 90% of them. Knows the bouncer, the bartender, and the delivery guy by first name. Will drunk-plan an entire formal event around "what theme would my girl look hottest in." (Fully votes for Casino Night just because he thinks you in a cocktail dress will ruin him.)
Sober Monitoring but Bad at It. Takes a turn being the "sober monitor" at a party. Takes his job way too seriously for about 30 minutes. By midnight he’s tipsy and yelling at a freshman about how to properly do keg stands, dragging you into it like "babe show him how it’s done."
Wear your hair tie around his wrist like it’s a friendship bracelet.
Tell the bartender you’re celebrating your anniversary even when you’re not just to get you free shots.
Will not let you walk home alone. Ever. Even if he’s blackout, even if you live two feet away — he's walking you.
Pulls you onto his lap at a party and lowkey grips your hips harder than necessary when you start to get up —growls in your ear like "Where you think you're going, baby?" (completely ignores the 30 people in the room.)
You dare him to go a whole party without touching you —he lasts maybe 20 minutes before hauling you into a dark hallway, caging you against the wall, and whispering,"You win. Happy? Now shut up and let me kiss you."
Makes out with you sloppily against the fridge at a party because he’s drunk and needy and has no shame.
At parties, he’s grinning and teasing and being everyone's favorite, but his hand is always somewhere low on your waist, thumb slipping under your shirt — just enough to keep you feeling it without anyone noticing. 
If someone flirts with you? He doesn't start drama. He just pulls you back against his chest, leans down all slow, and murmurs in your ear: "Think you're funny teasing me like that? Wait till we get home." (All while smiling like an angel.)
A very clingy drunk. Half-whining, half-muttering shit like: "You have no idea what you do to me, babe.", "I can't even think straight when you wear my clothes.", "Swear to god I’d skip rush week just to stay home and fuck you all night."
Sends you stupid texts like "wya" -> "i miss ur face" -> "also ur ass" -> "mostly ur face but also ass"  in rapid succession.
Oh but if your the one to flirt with him and make moves at the party man is a blushing mess. He doesn't know what to do. You flirt aggressively at a party? He blushes like a virgin and immediately forgets how to form sentences. Stammers something dumb like "babe don't play with me like that" while internally combusting.
Gets into “philosophy debates” drunk. Will randomly drunkenly corner you at 2AM like: "Babe... babe listen... what if life is just one big recursion function we’re stuck in."Has absolutely argued for 30 minutes that “love is just the optimal solution for biological survival” and then kissed you like his life depended on it.
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whokilledjared · 4 months ago
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Your idol is your ceiling.
Imagine an Undergrad whose only dream is to intern at Google.
Undergrad grinds his days on LeetCode, obsessing to himself, “Oh my god. I just have to work at Google. I'm so determined. Don't know how, but I'll make it."
I argue this is the opposite kind of candidate you’d expect to land a job at Google. 
I argue this because Google recruitment is an efficient labor market—or, simply put, a competition.
Google, on the receiving end of this efficient labor market, incentivizes recruiters  to snag the best candidates money can buy, and genius talent is in no short supply. The real challenge for a recruiter, then, is to attract those candidates from the front of the pack—the guys who treat Google as if it’s their backup plan.
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An efficient labor market, by definition, is one which pairs the reservation utility of high-value candidates with the firm-side willingness-to-pay boundaries. Meanwhile, our oblivious, Google-crazed Undergrad puzzles over who those "cracked" engineers were, how they secured their offers, and why they acted like it was no big deal. What he misses entirely is that their indifference wasn't performative—it legitimately reflected their outside options. They had their sights set higher.
I imagine our chosen candidates have a couple of buddies at Jane Street who'll go on to make 7-figure bonuses this quarter. Or perhaps they’re thinking, “Damn. If only I could get into Y Combinator, where I’d raise venture capital for my $1,000,000 idea.” 
“Alas,” they might say, “I guess I’ll settle for Google.”
A great friend once told me “Your idol is your ceiling.” She argued that the champions we idolize never reached their success by putting their predecessors on pedestals.
As she and I see it, if you’re chasing your tail in the shadows of your idol’s “impossible” success, all you’ll do is spin in circles. But if you ruffle your feathers, and you pretend like those shadow-casters are your equals, then you might just see the truth they saw: success doesn’t come by following someone else, it comes by walking out into the light. After all, your idols did it—they’re casting shadows.
I’m not advising you to “fake it till you make it”, rather, I’m imploring you to ignore the credentials of your idols. At one point in time, each of them began without credentials themselves. My advice is simple:
Credibility is borrowed until it isn’t—you can’t cast shade while you’re standing in someone else’s shadow.
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lost-coder · 1 month ago
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Alright fam yesterday i procrastinated hard and that's why the guilt got me in the last
Today we being summer vacation grind 💪
To do for day 1:-
1. Control flow and functions in python
2. Revision of html css before i master JS
3. Help out a friend for choosing a right ML model for his project (basically have to research a lil)
4. Hopefully get back into leetcode 🤝
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unpremeditatedstudies · 8 days ago
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Intro/pinned post
Hey.. uh, it has been a minute and a half so heres what I am up to now and heres a proper introduction.
I recently hit 500+ followers which is kind of insane because this blog is such a mess, reflecting my state of mind, but I am very thankful.
So hello, I am unpremeditatedstudies she/her (because nothing is premeditated because I dont plan), and I graduated from university in the US in May of 2025 with a double degree in Computer Science and Mathematics.
For the last year I documented the trials and tribulations of my last year in uni on this blog but lowkey went MIA but I made it through!
Now I am home in the US, unemployed, tired, drained out of my mind, and trying to figure out what is next. My goal is to land a software engineering position and prepare for grad school. Because I am wasting away at home, I hope this blog becomes a way to stay accountable.
So that's me- here's some other stuff:
I am 21, I feel so old even though I know, logically, it is young.
I am South Indian
I want to be a better coder- I am pretty bad at it I think I enjoyed by Maths studies more but I will be grinding leetcode.
My profile picture is Katakuri from Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun which a segway for me to say I like anime, I play video games, and overall love engaging in media, so I don't have to deal with my problems.
Feel free to send asks/dms I'd love to be mutuals
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hey-heigo · 7 months ago
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online applications for cs jobs are so ridiculous you're telling me i have to spend 4 hours of my life doing this thing that will make me miserable? and if i dont do it in a way that you exactly like you'll waste my time and ghost me? what if we both became shooting stars passing in the night
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lasttwobrainlesscells · 1 month ago
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“How difficult it is to be simple.” — Vincent van Gogh
10/05/25
4:06 am: woke up because I thought it was 5.
6:26 am: woke up devastated because I missed 5. Ah. Anyways.
7:15 am: setting up my desk, checking what was for breakfast.
8:45 am: Thinking life choices? Maybe I should start with the day.
9:30 am: Calender is set, tasks are ready for today, and I need to start grinding in the leetcode.
12:07 pm: made my internship ppt, now I will make my report, but before that let's do something different like studying?
1:40 pm: when you're 20 mins into the video and fall asleep. Unhinged afternoon nap before lunch. 😅
3:16 pm: making progress in the video feels good, gotta finish this one today along with notes.
8:10 pm: That one hour video was so fucking long. It is over and I understand stuff all good but damn, my eyes need to look at the sky because they've been sucked in the laptop.
9:13 pm: enthusiastically starting making the internship report.
9:53 pm: Give up on the Internship Diary, how the Fuck should I remember what I did In last 10 months week by week!? Insane.
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twocubes · 2 years ago
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I have a tarot reading request about my work + social life situation. I am basically burnt out from my job to the point that I'm unable or unwilling to accept even thanks or praise. Most of it relates to my manager, who has an imprecise yet emotionally blunt and at times exacting manner of communication that feels tailor-made to make technical discussions nearly impossible (I am a software engineer, and a fairly sensitive person. He is a military veteran who believes strongly in doing the fastest thing that works, and has been known to critique people to their face openly in group settings.) So I know the "correct" thing to do is grind up my LeetCode and start job hunting … but that would mean sitting down with a traditional data structures & algorithms text when I feel like I would much rather invest myself intellectually in my pipe dream of learning mathematics / getting, someday, to participate in the new univalent foundations of mathematics (maybe even as a programmer.) At the same time, the usual outlets I might have of getting to go for long walks / socialize on weekends feel increasingly out of reach, since I live in the outskirts of my city and the public transit authority there has been cancelling the trains for shuttle buses for most weekends, for what is going on 2 years now (at least since after the pandemic.) Having to ride buses instead of just hop on a train on weekends, for promised signal improvements that feel like they will never come, is slowly killing any sense of spontaneity and connection with casual human society outside of work for me. And even thinking about moving feels impossible (I have a housemate, my sibling, who I love dearly but I'm just not sure I want to commit to another 3-5 yrs. of cohabitation with.) Every direction in which I might reasonably turn for some vision of life outside of the cramped, artificial one where our company is super great! and everything is super exciting! despite the burnout and the constant reorgs and the whole new managerial clique we just got that's in charge of everything now, and, and, and … feels increasingly closed off. Would love any interpretation you could offer.
thank you for volunteering your fate to be decided by our still experimental divinatory process, here at dorothy twocubes' 24-hour bad advice hour™! as always, i must remind you, that this should only be taken seriously if it's good advice; otherwise, it's a joke, haha, why would you take it seriously? anyways let's get started
you seem to have some idea of what you want, and you seem to need advice regarding what to do next, so i will try with that mainstay, that good old spread that everyone likes and uses, Sun Tzu's five factors that decide battles. also i haven't done this in a while and this one i used a bunch before so maybe it's appropriate idk
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alright.
Purpose: ONE OF FISHES, reversed Purpose here means what you're trying to do, your goals. If you were like, a leader of a group, it would be the reason that other people follow you. What keeps you going as like, an entity. FISHES are to do with your social position in the world, where you are relative to others in the way that it defines who you are. ONE is to do with something being complete, filled, all there, enough. that sort of thing and it's reversed
Landscape: ONE HALF OF HEARTS, reversed Landscape here means the environment you're navigating. Where you are relative to other things and other people in the sense of like, obstacles or resources or... yknow, things that must be practically considered HEARTS are to do with perpetuance; with what it is that sustains, what allows something to continue to exist. health, both literal and metaphorical ONE HALF is to do with stuff being incomplete; things that are started but not finished, things that are there but not sufficient, partialness and it's reversed
Climate: NINE OF DIAMONDS, reversed Climate here means transient stuff that affects the landscape. The mood of the world, the weather. The way the world is changing. DIAMONDS are to do with what you value, what gives your life purpose, meaning. What fulfills you. and it's reversed
Doctrine: OMEGA PLUS ONE OF DIAMONDS, upright Doctrine is what you are trained to do, what your standard operating procedures are. What you can do without having to learn to do new things. OMEGA PLUS ONE is to do with utopia. While OMEGA is to do with your ideals, that which you pursue without particular expectation that you might ever attain, OMEGA PLUS ONE is to do with the world that you might imagine if you attained your maybe-unattainable ideals. and it's upright
Leadership: EIGHT OF DIAMONDS, reversed Leadership is the strategy you chose, given all the other things here. EIGHT is to do with networks. Stuff being connected to stuff that is connected to more stuff. and it's upright
In addition, there is an arithmetic relationship between the cards:
8 + 1 = 9 this suggests that we should think of our interpretation of 9 as being a more direct consequence of the coordination of 8 and 1
I read these cards thus:
You are in a situation here where, in principle, your social position is fully secured, but your desire here is to leave this security.
The world you live in is one where people are struggling to support themselves and what-makes-them-themselves, and at the moment people are overall having to make hard choices regarding the pursuit of those precious things that make their life worth living.
You have the ability already, without having to learn it, to do what you think you would do in ideal circumstances.
So, given all this, the cards are suggesting that you should reach out in pursuit of what-gives-your-life-value and work with others; friends, acquaintances and acquaintances-of-acquaintances. In particular, the hard choices other people are making may give you some form of opportunity to change your social position.
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Anyways, that's my reading. Maybe these cards make sense to you in some other way? Maybe this is helpful? Maybe it isn't? Either way, I claim no responsibility :p
Thanks for this opportunity to further test our experimental variant on the classic card-based rpg solitaire "cartomancy". i would be happy for feedback or a tip, but, it's also absolutely fine if you'd rather not. it's your choice, and we respect that.
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excludedmiddle · 2 years ago
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hey congrats on reaching CM (? wanted to find the post where you mention that to confirm but tumblr search misbehaves). was curious as to how many problems you've solved on cf? I primarily picked it up cause ik it helped friends with interview stuff but I'm 2 months in stuck at ~1200 so wondering if I should be doing things differently. on one hand most problems <1400 are greedy or math so I worry an actual interview will be more "algorithmic" and I'll be unprepared (maybe leetcode is better in this regard?). on the other hand it's soo much easier to fantasise about being good at cp than actually practicing. so. anyway wondering if you had any advice on this? CM in one year does not sound like the journey of your average cf-er. congrats again. cheers!
Thank you!
(full disclosure: I've kind of fallen off with competitive programming - I haven't competed on codechef since January and codeforces/leetcode since April)
My solving totals, ratings, and number of contests are:
Leetcode: 824 problems, 2571 rating, 41 contests
Codeforces: 69 problems, 2000 rating, 14 contests
Codechef: 32 problems, 2046 rating, 4 contests
If you're looking for interview prep I would skip codeforces. Leetcode problems are closer to what you'll get in interviews, and their contests are much less of a time commitment. I also code in Rust on CF/CC and Python on Leetcode, and I much prefer to take interviews in Python.
If you snoop around a bit on reddit and the leetcode forums, you can often find lists of problems people have seen at a specific company's interviews to get a flavor of what you're up against. I really recommend this - the problem I struggled with the most in getting my current job was on one such list for my company and I wish I'd gone through the list. This was before I got really good, though.
I think my rapid growth was fueled by three things:
I did math competitions all the way through college that have a similar skillset
My college classes taught a lot of competitive programming concepts (I learned what a SegTree was in class!)
I had a period of 5 months between graduating and starting my job where I was unemployed and highly motivated, and I did a ton of grinding during that period. Most of my leetcode solves are from that time
If you're looking to improve but don't have a ton of time to burn, here's the regimen I recommended to another asker:
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scholarhect · 8 months ago
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there are things people say about the characters i like that i don’t really see. but basically everybody says these things all the time, so they’re pretty much undeniably true. presumably. but i still don’t see it. but i can’t even remotely talk about the fact that i don’t see it, because then i’m the guy with a character url who totally misunderstands the character. i should’ve picked a different subject to put all my emotional eggs into than a couple books, i feel like literature is a lose-lose situation where your engagement with it (ie your thoughts on the books) both a) can never truly be proven right or wrong and also b) CAN be wrong, absolutely. you’ll never fully know whether you’re right or not, but if you’re wrong you WILL be wrong and everybody will know you’re wrong because there just are correct readings and incorrect readings. AND you have to base your takes on knowledge of the world, you know what things mean in the books by knowing what they mean generally in the real world, so if you don’t know everything about the world and how it works and you end up not understanding something you’re out of luck. and I (that’s the word ‘i’ in all caps to be clear) don’t know anything about the world because i’m in my room all the time. it’s an insurmountable disadvantage! i should’ve gotten into something you can just study until you’re right about. fate should’ve made me the kind of person who grinds leetcode 5 hours a day for fun. it’d be useful i’ve got an interview coming up
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