#like firstly... fuck off and secondly ok there are ways to do that that dont involve literally abandoning ur entire family but its fine.

[masonsystem]

OK my tingle thoughts before i end up forgetting them

let me get the negatives out of the way first..... firstly, the racism: terrible. yamatami tribe is super uncomfy and everything abt samba the king's daughter makes me want to strangle whoever at vanpool that had thought of this. deku forest being a temperate forest yet having a rando tarzan-esque hero is like 🆗. also the random durians in mt desma despite durian not being a mountain fruit at all.. like yeah ok this isnt the only fruit to grow in a random place, but the association of durian = exotic, which by proxy equates seasia = exotic, is.... 😑 also this isnt racism but i was disappointed that pinkle ended up having a thing for tingle. i was put off by the whole "you saved me from a terrible situation so i must reward you" bla bla bla deal. theres more layers to this that im honestly not to bothered to tackle like how its a subversion of expectations with how tingle is portrayed as a 'ugly character', but the way this game wrote its female characters just felt stereotypical af and its like eh.... and like it sounds worse in balloon trip of love which i have absolutely 0 plans to play.

and secondly THE GAMEPLAY JANK..... like the rupee system is Very... yeah i played without a guide for like the first dungeon before i realized it was unsustainable. bc it really is. practically no leeway for players who may ask for too much rupees, and asking for too little will end up stifling players' progression. and in both situations theyre gonna have to go and grind for rupees which is REALLY... NOT AT ALL fun to do. there is nothing fun about loading and reloading a map area to kill some enemies again and again in order to sell their drops. or digging an area over and over again. this doesnt just extend to rupees but to getting ingredients as well; like i dont understand why minced meat is so hard to come by. like after the first continent, i barely got any minced meat. and minced meat is a main ingredient for the health potion so its like.... fuck me i guess. had to farm minced meat at cape treasure until i was rich enough that it wasnt too much of a loss to just revive my bodyguards with rupees.

other gameplay janks are the fact that there isnt a way to view the zoomed in map in its entirety, the walking speed is sooooo slowww, and you can fucking lose access to fast travel to the most recent area if you neglect the tower. also there are a few puzzles and one boss fight that requires pushing shit around; and if you have a bodyguard they will 100% makes things even more difficult for you, sometimes to point where they'll push the item to a corner and you have to leave and reload the entire area to redo it. terrible developer oversight. also fast travel and saving is so tedious 😑

and the last main 'complaint' (sort of)... this game made me realize that ive been taking satisfying endings and credits for granted. bc ive been playing so many amazing games in these recent years, ive come to expect that the finale and its accompanying credits of any game would be a satisfying wrap-up of everything ive achieved. but trr had made me realize that No!!! thats not always a given. because i definitely didnt get that in this game. and that was so disappointing to me, because this game had so many diverse and quirky and unique characters and settings, but there was no final acknowledgement or one last wave goodbye for any of them. what a shame.

also the ending itself was uh.... not very satisfying either. both the good ending and the standard ending. i think i like the standard ending more honestly. it was nicer to see the children lament the adult's greed, than it was to see the unrealistic ideal of rupeeland actually be achieved (yes im completely aware how silly this sounds irt a tingle game IDC). neither ending was a super deep commentary on money and i wasnt expecting it to be a Perfect Socialist Manifesto, but the ending was essentially just "money can be good and money can be bad. ok bye" and it was like.... ??? ok bye

OK NOW THE GOOD PARTS: i love the music and i think the art direction of this game was soooo so fun. it was so quirky and zany and it reminds me a lot of mother 3! its like mother 3 if it wasnt an rpg, didnt have emotional moments, and hated you even more than mother 3 hated you. thats what this tingle game was like.

despite the gameplay jank, i think there were many good parts abt its gameplay. like despite how badly designed the rupee system is, i think it made for a very interesting setting and really emphasized how valued rupees are to the characters of this world. i really wish it was designed a bit better bc i really didnt hate the idea of this mechanic. and the music and character portrait screen when youre made to ask/pay for rupees is so creative and good too!

i think the mapping system was super fun as well. annoying that you couldnt view the full zoomed in map, and that sometimes the circling feature just... wouldnt work.. but paying attention to the overworld while simultaneously paying attention to the map, and being paid handsomely for spotting the differences made exploration all the more rewarding. and i loved the bodyguard system! i think the 'combat' in this game was very fun actually. i loved the music of the bodyguard's combat. the bodyguard salons were such a fun tidbit of world-building, and it was nice to have a place where i could actually spend money and get something worthawhile in return, compared to the rest of the game where you need to pay people just for the basic decency of like, being able to talk to them (which i dont mind thats how this world works, but again it was nice to SPEND MONEY ON SMTH USEFUL). see, i liked a lot of this game's mechanics, its just that they werent ironed out enough and had enough jank to really piss you off 😮‍💨

the dungeons (WITH THE EXCEPTION OF THE WRETCHED INSECT CAVERN FUCK THAT PLACE FOREVER) were good too! nothing to write home about but like they were fine. but oh man the boss fights.... THEY WERE ALL AWESOME!!! sorry minish cap and albw but i actually enjoyed the boss fights in this game a lot more than any top-down zelda ones LOL. each one was so different and creative and unlike zelda, didnt just rely on Sole Item Gimmick for you to defeat them. and they were actually challenging!! but not too challenging to feel unfair. i think the lack of a standard combat system allowed for boss fights as interesting as these.

what else... i think it was really fun to see the foreshadowing of uncle rupee throughout the game. i think pinkle's ominous dialogue of being trapped in a room all day was very neat. i liked the lyphos lore too. OH and the zelda references throughout the game was amazing. like aba and her father being a sort of emotional reunion echoing the hero of time's origins.. only for them to beat each other's asses a second later was great. the saria theme in the deku forest was awesome too.

overall it was a game that i wish i could like more. like i really really wish i could like this game more! cuz the parts that i liked i really liked. also i only played like 30 minutes of phantom hourglass but this game was way better than that regarding its control scheme (fuck nintendo for ph and st control scheme forever btw). unfortunately trr has too many weird things and gameplay jank that i cant like it as much as id like. sad!

[hhawkeye]

not to comics post on main but god i wish midnighter could have a series where hes happily married and a dad but still a badass like... lmfao. i really am not asking for much and yet! here we are!

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

1. It took over a 150 chapters for Hera to face the consequences of trying to set up her niece and brother in law knowing full well her sister would hate that union. 

2. i just dont get how rachel is totally ok to listen to and take ideas by random people to add to LO, but is offended over the idea she listen to even minor input from literal greeks for her GREEK MYTHOLOGY story. like she'll take suggestions to add r4pe to her story for shock value, but listening to greeks to make it even a little accurate is too much to ask of her? im not saying she has to do a "presents" line like riordan does, but silencing greeks out of their own culture's stories? really?

3. am i the only one who hate the modern setting? something about it is so underwhelming, and rachel focuses on it way too much to where when she finally tries to add fantasy and/or ancient elements (flying around, the ancient clothes, growing big (??), the magic pom, etc) it just feels out of place. a lot of stories have a blend of modern and fantasy but LO just overemphasizes the modern too much for too long that the fantasy now being added seems random over a natural fit.

4. im not against the idea of making up new stories for the gods to work in, but i think the issue with LO is none of the stories add anything? like why do we need a chosen one story in persephone? why do we need hades to now be a kaiju to take out his dad? why have hera be a cheater? why have persephone need to teach hades slavery is bad? why have a trial? & the list goes on. theres so many interesting new stories you could use with them and LO picks the most useless ones, esp in a romance comic.

5. Idk if this is just me or what, but the panel of Hera snorting in laughter after Hestia talks about Persephone being a candidate for TGOEM comes off so poorly timed considering Hera is fully aware that Persephone can't be in TGOEM bc of the Apollo thing

And ik the scene is supposed to be more like "haha hestia thinks she doesn't love Hades bc of TGOEM" so maybe I'm looking Too Deep but that was the impression I got when I first read the scene, it made me feel really icky rather then laughing with her 

6. the idea of rachel even touching the other pantheons is a threat, also would just lead to a bigger mess. rachel for starters cannot stand hxp not being the top so?? would persephone take out the abrahamic god when they become more culturally important than the previous pantheons?? like she can joke the other gods are out there but she cant even keep one pantheon together, imagine her trying to connect a bunch of others that she cant rip off from tumblr text posts. it'd be a disaster.

7. rachel: i hate people acting like PJO is the best depiction of myth. also rachel: you should 1000% see my completely made up story masquerading as greek myth as the most accurate thing ever.

-----FP Spoilers/Mention-----

8. (Spoilers for chapter 190!)

So I have a lot to say here but I'm gonna keep it brief

Firstly, are we really saying Persephone having wrath is just Eris' meddling? Is that what we're doing? And that Persephone only has ambitions because Eris gave her wrath? Okay. Okay. Persephone literally couldn't have dreams without interference from someone else, idk what else to say other then how fucking sad that is, and more "Oh see shes not bad at all, it was Eris who made her do it because she cursed her uwu"

Secondly, ik it was done for bad reasons but Zeus' punishment for Persephone is the highlight of season 2 for me. That's all I'm gonna say. 

9. FP Spoiler: Man, my prediction that Persephone will be the one to cause winter looks like it might be coming true. I’m calling it now - Persephone will mess up doing her mom’s job, get angry about not being able to see Hades (I doubt she’ll give a shit about her mom now living as a mortal - it’ll be a passing, one panel mention at most) and then she’ll cause the winter by “oopsies”.

Also, let’s see how bad RS messes up the Demeter’s Exile to Eleusis. She already messed it up by making it a Zeus punishment instead of a self-imposed exile. Screw the importance of Demeter exiling herself from Olympus I guess. 

10. FP Spoilers Episode 190: I'm fucking crying, Persephone has absolutely nothing to make her interesting anymore.

Her intelligence was warped into her brain by Athena, she's pretty because Aphrodite slapped her with a pink cushion (and also because Hera), she's kind not because that's her personality, but because Hestia literally crammed kindness down her throat and her ambitions and anger issues aren't the natural result of her smothered childhood, they're just Eris deciding to be a dickhead for no reason.

I have asked this question many times throughout the trial, but exactly what was the point of this entire scene again??? Why did RS have to give Persephone a pseudo-Sleeping Beauty backstory??? What has this accomplished??? Everything this episode told us about Persephone we've already known since mid-season 1! Why is RS so determined to suck all the intrigue out of her characters via bs-retcons??

Also, wow, really feminist of RS to introduce a new, supposedly super-powerful female character, only to have her literally dragged down by Asspollo and humiliated in front of everyone. So empowering. So cool./s

Eris did legit nothing. She showed up, rattled down some more "look how cool Persephone is"-talk disguised as a "tragic" backstory-twist, got pulled around a little bit and then disappeared. Cut out her scenes and absolutely nothing changes. Same for Apollo revealing he's Zeus' son. (Which, wow, what a plot-twist. Who could have seen this coming. Not like Apollo and Artemis being Zeus' kids is basically a cornerstone of their mythos./s)

Also also, this episode tried way too hard to make me feel bad for Persephone after the verdict. Like, oh nooo, you got put on the gods' equivalent to house arrest and community service? In a literal paradise, far away from the guy who wanted to force you into marriage and everyone else who could hurt you? And you get to be ruler of the mortal realm too? You poor baby, however will you bear this cross?

There is literally only one downside to this outcome and it's that hxp won't be allowed to see each other for a while. (Though even then, I wouldn't really call it a downside, hxp has been nothing but forced and terrible.) Zeus even says, right after verdict, that the punishment is temporary and that he'll lift it when he's convinced Persephone and Demeter have atoned for their crimes. But hxp act like this means they'll be separated forever and do all this overly dramatic kissing and I'm sitting here like "calm the fuck down, it's literally not that bad???"

[theultimatefanficwriter]

My Ships!

Hey guys! So currently it's late at night and I wanna write something to help me sleep. So here I am on my phone quickly writing out all my ships down so you guys can see what a loser I am lol.

Now feel free to discuss your opinions, but dont start any ship wars or bash anyone's ships, alright? Cool! So here we go! Each ship will have a short explanation as to why I ship it. And they are in order from favorite to least, though my least favorite is still one I like.

Ishimondo-This is my biggest comfort ship. I love enemies to lovers so much and these two idiots are just...such a beautiful tragedy.

Saimota-Can someone say bromance? Like please they were flirting so hard it hurts. They are dating your honor.

Saimatsu-Please the way she was able to motivate him? Even after death she helped him improve. They had such chemistry from the very beginning.

SakurAoi-Yeah yeah Sakura has a bf whatever. But they technically werent dating yet cause they were waiting til Kenshiro got well. So...LES GO LESBIANS! Hina was about to commit murder suicide for her boo. Literally lovers.

HaruKaito-So even besides the fact Maki straight up confesses, I disagree with people saying they dont have chemistry. They're adorable and Kaito opens her up to people. This ship is adorable af.

Tokomaru-Similair to Kaito and Maki! Komaru helped Toko be a better person! Like I hated Toko at first, but after UDG, shes a top tier favorite. This ship is too cute.

Soudam-Again I love enemies to lovers. Idgaf if they never show romantic interest in each other shut up. They're beautiful bastards, both of them.

Fuyupeko-...do...do I really need to explain? Just play the second chapter again lol.

Hinanami-Im not a big fan of Hajime. In fact hes my least fave protag. But I think the way they interact and the way he is around Chiaki is too fucking cute.

Sondam-They had the more obvious chemistry in the game, and I love Sonia with Gundham. They fit each perfectly, having similar interests. Plus how sad she was when he died? 😭

Kiiruma-Ok so they're a perfect fit right? Kiibo was one of the only ones to even care when Miu died, and Miu seemed to care about Kiibo. Yeah because she could upgrade him, but I feel theres more there!

Naihiro-Now this is a rare pair. I think the two of them are very cute and soft boys, so they relate to each other. Theyd be a very sweet couple.

Akanidai-Nekomaru literally died to protect Akane, and took two bazookas to the chest for her. They were inseparable. Case closed. They cute.

Daiyakure-Another rarepair. It's hard to ship Hiro with people cause you'll get hit with the "hes 21 and they're underage" argument. But with Daiya Oowada, you can say hey, fuck you! Theres literally no interactions between them. It's almost a crack ship. But I love it more than I should.

Naekure-Another Hiro ship, but this one can be justified by saying they start dating after they escape the game and they know they're both adults. I think Makoto would be a decent balance to Hiro's...everything.

Togakure-Same logic as with Makoto as to when they get together. Byakuya would be able to deal with his idiot enough to calm him down slightly. Plus it would be a funny contrast.

Ishikure-Ok now this is a bit harder to explain. I see it more as they were dating before the mind wipe, and in survivor aus theyd date again. I just think Hiro being the only one to care about him after ch 2 is sweet and that the two would be cute.

Hagekureon-Same reasoning as with Taka;Hiro and Leon were dating before the game and/or they date in survivor aus. I think the two idiots together would be an interesting combo, like with Ishimondo.

Naegami-Finally, back to well known ships!😅 So Byakuya clearly cares for Makoto even if he tries to hide it. He'd be a good partner to Makoto, if not a bit tsundereish.

Kuzusouda-Fuyuhiko was like the only one to try to curb Kazuichi's simping, and they have a nice friendship in the anime(from what I've seen and heard, havent seen all of it😅)so I think Fuyu would be able to help Kaz accept himself.

Asakure-Once again, getting together after game. My friend put it as "the two idiots getting together. Its cute." And hes not wrong lol Despite Hina being slightly smarter and the fact she bullied Hiro a bit in game, I can see them working off each other nicely.

Goshi-Firstly I just love the striking difference in their heights. It's funny as hell to me lmao. But secondly I think Gonta's sincereness and kindness could eventually break through to Ryoma and help him realize he isnt unlovable, and he is worth something.

Twobuki-I just think Ibuki's constant praise and lowkey flirting with Twogami is adorable, especially given his...size. Usually people would make a character like that completely unlovable, so the fact she was seen doting on him so much is adorable.

BandAid-Now I normally dont ship killers and victims. It just doesnt feel right to me. But given Mikan was more or less brainwashed into doing it, i kinda give this ship a pass. Plus i think Ibuki could help her be more confident in herself and stop letting others use her.

Soapies-I dont really like either of these characters, thus why its last on the list, but I think Mahiru is the only one who could "tame" Hiyoko, for lack of a better word. She could help her stop being a bully and actually open up to others. Plus they both care a lot about each other. It's cute. Its sweet.

So that's my list! It might grow, and if it does I'll reblog this post to add onto it! Feel free to give your opinions on it, but remember: no ship wars!

Alright imma go pass out now! Good night guys! Lol

[elvencantation]

yin yang master liveblog

feat. @thursdayplaid​

what

blue

omg the magic is so pretty

also why is it always Chinese dramas will have someone, if they need blood, bite their finger?

also the gold spirit is very cute i like

i love a young countenance but an older soul

i also want them to take off their hats 😂

wait he ain’t dead he’s just sitting there?

or he’s dying i guess

Thursday

This movie is pretty throughout, aesthetic on point 

Sharp teeth?

We simp gold spirit

Too true, amazing combo XD 

He's dying

Please don't let me disturb your liveblogging. It brings be much joy

blue

oh hot demon boy!

love that he’s fighting with a fan

Thursday

Who will win? Uptight fighting bro vs gentle fan uncle

blue

gentle fan uncle is an amazing title

Thursday

@^_^@

blue

i love how he’s just like ‘bet u wouldnt stab a precious instrument’

Thursday

XD I love how playful he is during the whole fight too

blue

it’s adorable

dude rly loves his transportation talismans

WAIT I THOUGHT DEMON BOY HAD TATTOOS NOT CUTS

Thursday

He does. If it ain't broke, don't fix it I guess. And it's a good way to redirect violence without doing harm

Demon boy has had a Rough Time

blue

i wanna give him a hug

i don’t think he’d appreciate that but still 😂

Thursday

He's just sad and misses his girl friend

blue

why his reincarnated shufu look evil tho

Thursday

Who can say~~~

I love how Boya was just repeatedly defeated by Qingming and is like: you won't fight me because you're scared.

blue

what’s a himbo but not nice 😂

hey! they put my boys hat on crooked. rude.

Thursday

Give that boy a straight hat.

He's just such an Angy Boy

blue

he rly is 😂

ah i love the lady master she’s so pretty

Thursday

She's amazing and I love her.

blue

awww boya defended him

Thursday

He's so angry, but this fan man flirts with him

blue

ofc they all spying on each other 😂

Thursday

Saved by your opponent's gay discovery

blue

omg yes

Thursday

Spying required

blue

aw he looks nice with his hair down!

drink tea with him angy boy!

Thursday

He just wants you to chill out before you deviate. Sit and look at his amazing long hair. It'll be good for you

blue

HAHAHA

honey bug!!!! i love her!!!!!!!

Thursday

Also the ability for the fan man's actor to go from calm to worried to angry to calm again

Honey bug is good and important and I love her

blue

thank u for the recommendation yes

i love them

Thursday

The intrinsic eroticism of a man who's having his racist beliefs totally shaken by a hot guy who's hotter and smarter than him while holding a sword to his throat and looking like he wants to cry while saying cool lines.

They are such a great pair

blue

angy boy is angy like how dare fan man make him have feelings

Thursday

How very dare he make a good point about morals and ethics!

Also with that hair drinking tea in the morning

Angy boy with clenched teeth: I'm Not Yearning. I'm Just Like This When I See A Fan.

Angy boy with clenched fists: Complex Feelings? Disgusting.

blue

HAHAH OMG HES JUST HANGING OUT WITH A BUNCH OF LADIES LIKE HELLO YES ANGY BOY COME HAVE TEA WITH US ITS NOT WHAT U THINK

OMG THIS TIME ITS BOYS

ITS LIKE UR TRYING TO GIVE ANGY BOY AN ANEURISM

Thursday

Clenched fist intensifies

blue

I CANNOT

maybe he just wants to hang out with cute people

i get that

Thursday

He's just a friendly guy

blue

if i could summon pretty spirit friends to hang with me i so would

ok so maybe he’s not evil. but i’m still suspicious

NOW ANGY BOY IS HAIR DOWN WITHOUT HAT OMG YES

Thursday

I do get the vibe off him he's not the sort of guy who would put his spirit friends in sexual situations. But also I get the vibe he's a very lonely guy at his core and he enjoys the feeling of physical and emotional closeness.

blue

mood ™

Thursday

Let's be honest, the hat is a bit cute, but that hair though. Respect for the makeup department

blue

HAHAHAH

Thursday

Angy boy, you're just walking to being teased now. At this point its a hand written invitation with gold leaf.

blue

oh i love this moment with the water

it’s so intense

JUST DO IT ANGY BOY

U KNOW U CARE ABOUT HIM

“you’re too obedient” 😂

Thursday

The priest is in the range of gentle or teasing and hovers there. Seeing an actual intense situation is great

blue

ikr????

ah that is exactly what i love

that situation

Thursday

Me too! It's great when characters hover in a range and then swing over sharply

I really makes both extremes more dynamic

blue

HAVE SOME WINE WITH HIM DO IT

U KNOW U WANNA

Thursday

Go For It Angy Boy! He'll be gentle!

blue

😏

Thursday

XD I mean he will continue to ruffle his feathers, but for fun, not for mean

Also, I really love the depiction of a fox demon that isn't sexed up.

Qingming is a trickster, a tease, a bit of a flirt, and enjoys the pleasures of life, but he isn't the stereotypical half naked sexpot fox demon that seem to pop up everywhere

blue

OH NO HE HAD TO KILL HIS SHUFU???

Thursday

The only person he had in the world but he didn't want him to suffer and be corrupted

blue

also I hate that my two associations with someone being turned into ash is firstly the avengers and secondly that stupid fucking scene in the last harry potter movie

god this movie is so beautiful and lovely

Thursday

That set is outstandingly gorgeous

Everything is so beautiful. I want to live in this world!

Sometimes I just see a kind and lonely character trying to live their best life and just vibe with them. Also the wigs on this movie 😭 So beautiful!

blue

DONT HURT MY GIRL

Thursday

Run girl! Move!

She's so smart and brave!

blue

oh the DRAMA

Thursday

The Drama is right, I love this movie!

blue

HE WILL SAVE U BOYA

Thursday

HE'S COMING FOR YOU FRIEND

blue

omg the drama of his hand slackening

Thursday

That slackening hand though...

blue

why it didn’t work until then tho???

Thursday

For the drama mostly XD

blue

HUGGGG

is she giving birth to the serpent? 🤢

Thursday

She is giving birth to the serpent

blue

hey it’s better to be possessed by the literal incarnation of evil in snake form than be dead am I right?

Thursday

I mean is we're making a choice...

blue

OMG IS IT FINALLY SPIRIT TIME?

thursday

It is ~spirit time~!

blue

HOT DEMON BOY IS BACK UPGRADED

SO PROUD

Thursday

He is back and he is Fancy!

They're looking good they're doing poses

blue

omg the painters face painting is so pretty

Thursday

I love the painter ;-; so noble

blue

the music when he summons spirits just makes me think of like pro wrestling intro music for some reason 😂

Thursday 

And now from the WWE, some hot chinese spirits

blue

oh no ice boy!

Thursday

Poor ice boy, he's just getting beat up

blue

don’t u dare touch my other demon boy

Thursday

He just signed up for this adventure and now a snake is beating him up

blue

OMG HE NOW HAS SOMEONE HE WOULD PROTECT WITH HIS LIFE DOESNT HE

Thursday

He Do!

blue

WAIT WHAT NO BOYA

Thursday

Boya is just having a rough time right now, he's a good good boy

blue

and now the painter???

Thursday

I almost cried about the painter and he was only there for like five minutes

blue

PLS DONT HURT MY DEMON BOY

Thursday

Demon Boy goes yeet

blue

oh my god the drama of the dripping blood i can’t

Thursday

This movie has so much drama It did

blue

not my demon boy 😭

FINALLY IT WORKED

wait shit spirit boya is super hot

THE BLACK WINGS?!????

the tattoos??? the hair?!?!!! the messy goth skirt??!

Thursday

Spirit Boya is Choice, I'm looking respectfully 👀

Goth spirit aesthetic is on point

blue

where the other guardians tho?

yes this is a very touching little last reunion but where my boya at

omg yes give him a glowing sword

the avenging angel look is 💯 on him

Thursday

The sword on fire look is Really Working For Him

blue

tell me boya’s spirit form has no influence on his actual body. no he said he trusted qingming to protect his body it’s ok

OMG YES I KNEW THE PROTECTION SPELL MOMENT WOULD BE BACK

Thursday

It's back and it's shiny!

blue

ok but u still have a hole in ur torso my dude

oh ok apparently that’s not a thing anymore but i can’t be mad cause boya’s outfit 😍

Thursday

I guess he used his cultivation or his demon powers or something IDK, It would have been nice to have two extra minutes of Boya being worried about him

Boya wears some excellent clothes

blue

love a good romantic flute moment 😭🥰

Thursday

I have to say Boya's like let me play you this song about promising to fall in love in the next life for fun and me time

blue

omg i thought he was gonna kiss the arrow

Thursday

I mean emotionally did he not kiss the arrow?

blue

omg i cant

Thursday

I know right? How many censors did they have to pay off

blue

WAIT IS MY GIRL OK????

Thursday

I Chose To Believe She's fine and is now living happily on a farm or something

yeah i do love being worried for each other

but i guess they didnt have enouhg time and they already had that moment at the beginning of the movie 😂

Thursday

Two people? Respecting, worrying, and caring about each other? 👍 There's never enough caring for each other!

blue 

exactly

Thursday

Also, this is one of the best examples of be careful how you word your spells that I've ever seen.

The old master was like care and protect her forever and his spirit guardian was just like: 👍👌💯

blue

heheh

yeahhh

AND U MADE ME EMOTIONAL AGAIN

[manifesting-author98]

Just watched a documentary about the British royal family and it’s really disturbing to me how people have the audacity to blame Princess Diana for what happened to her in good conscience. OR claim that she brought her death on herself. Like how disrespectful can you be? 

I’m about to go off, so buckle in.

Basically, what historians were implying in the documentary was that Diana knew what she was getting into when she was getting married, doctored her public image to gain notoriety, fame, and sympathy (not to help people), and ultimately, was dramatic and problematic, potentially leading to her early death. 

[At one point, they even sympathize with a quote that basically said: “Diana’s death was the tragic solution to the royal family’s biggest problem.”

Like fuck that. The audacity to think justifying a comment like that is ok... Princess Diana was a human being, not a problem.]

So let’s dive into this argument. 

Yes, Diana agreed to marry Charles and she probably knew what that meant (publicity-wise, not ADULTERY-wise) and yes again, she did a lot of troubling things (that even she has admitted to).

(And yes, maybe Charles and Camilla were victims too. In some ways...)

But I firmly believe that blaming Diana is wrong for a multitude of different reasons.

Firstly, she was NINETEEN years old when Charles proposed to her. NINETEEN!!! The argument that she understood what getting married to Charles meant and that she should have expected the publicity that would go with it can go out the window right now.

Even if she had considered the publicity, there is no way that she could have predicted 1) the extent of the unhappiness she’d feel in her marriage with Charles (and Camilla- three’s company) or 2) just HOW MUCH publicity she would get (bc it was completely unheard of) and how difficult that would be for her.

Secondly, Diana was also a product of an unloving marriage and therefore, had an unhappy childhood. There’s her motivation to marry Charles right there: she wanted to be loved (both by Charles and by the public) and to be special. It wasn’t because she wanted status. It wasn’t because she understood. It was a mistake made by a girl who just wanted to be loved.

The trauma from her past damaged her, as it does with EVERYONE, and it led her to make some troubling, dramatic, and problematic decisions, but we can’t judge people for that. That’s when we get people help.

And even if these were mistakes that she made herself, for all the times that Diana made troubling cries for help, she was met with neglect and detachment from the royal family, including her husband.

But this was why the public resonated with her so much. She was real. She had emotions. She had issues and struggles, and she refused to descend into royal stoicism. People felt seen by her. And she was so compassionate, why? Because she’d suffered so much herself.

Lastly, the notion that Princess Diana was milking the extent of her suffering as well as playing up her compassion for publicity are complete bullshit.

Diana’s reaction to her trauma is exactly that: her reaction. Her opinion is allowed to be stated, especially in relation to her personal life, and the only reason people think that it was irresponsible of her to do this was because it damaged the monarchy’s reputation. God forbid!!

And I have two things to say to about the notion that Princess Diana doctored her public life after the divorce to come across as compassionate and sympathetic.

First of all, no. I stand by the fact that this wasn’t the case. I think, yes, she probably chose which events to go to and who to pose with. SHOCKER: all celebrities do. But I think her choices were what mattered. She chose to go to an AIDS ward, for example. And if her image was really just doctored, she could have just donated some money to AIDS causes, uncovered the plaque, and waved from afar, but what did she actually do? She shook hands, ungloved, with AIDS patients at a time when people were terrified of the disease. This is not a big deal in the grand scheme of everything other activists and doctors did, but this was unheard of for a royal. And she also spoke with them and showed them kindness- as she did with so many other people as well. She did not have to do that- and it was so symbolic. She bridged the gap between her privilege and working class, sick, and common people. And not to mention that her publicity brought attention to those issues and charities as well. The pictures at the AIDS ward and with AIDS patients, for example, were probably extremely publicized, which would have brought awareness to the issue. 

The second thing I want to say is that let’s just say for the sake of the stupid ass argument that Princess Diana was doctoring her image. To that I say: who the fuck cares?!

She suffered a lot with Charles. Maybe she deserved to feel good about herself for one fucking minute.

Additionally, what matters with charity work is IMPACT not intent. Regardless of how it made Diana feel and what publicity she got, she impacted people. She impacted those charities, she impacted people who were suffering and sad, she made a huge and positive impact. Don’t believe me? Ask your fucking mom what Princess Diana meant to her. 9/10 times, she’ll say that Diana made her feel seen, and that was just by being herself- her specific charity work had to be just as affecting.

Blaming Princess Diana for what happened to her, or saying things like she was a problem, and that her death was the inevitable conclusion, is absolutely disgusting.

I would like to argue once and for all, and FOREVER, that this is 100% and irrevocably untrue. With support and treatment, Diana improved herself for a while, and if she’d been treated like a human being, rather than a nuisance or a threat to the monarchy, the suffering and negativity that ruled her life may not have come to be.

What the monarchy and what some journalists have been doing is labeling Princess Diana as a problem, one that only created more and more issues for HERSELF (ending in disgrace and later, death). And in reality, all this does is equate untreated mental illness with a singular conclusion, which is wrong, problematic, and does not even account for an ounce of an impact that Diana had on the world, despite her own personal sufferings. What we’re not gonna do is blame her for everything when she was a victim of emotional neglect and isolation. 

This is not to say that she was perfect though. 

Princess Diana absolutely made mistakes and of course, cared a lot about her image, but she did not bring all of this on herself. She was spontaneous and insecure and young and she fucking did her best. Her mistakes were made as a product of her circumstances and of the situations people (like Charles and the royal family) put her in. 

Mental illness is not something to be hidden and disgraced, and it does not create irredeemable people. Instead, it just requires love and support, which the royal family did not (and probably still dont) understand. But normal people, they understood and still understand that Diana was a product of her circumstances, she tried her best, and she did not deserve what happened to her. That is why she is so loved, even today. 

When thinking about Princess Diana, it’s easy for the word victim to come to mind, but I’d argue she barely acted in accordance with some people’s definitions of the word. All she spent her time doing was improving the world, helping people, and loving her sons, despite everything she went through.

So, in conclusion, old white male historians can stay in their fucking lanes. I will absolutely die on this hill for you, Princess Di. And I wasn’t even born until after you were already gone.

[pharahlesbian]

What are your opinions on aromantic folks?

well, its kind of complicated. on the one hand, i dont rly feel like u guys r doing anything wrong per se, like none of u ever seem to do any of the harmful shit that aces do. and aro is an identity i used to hold really closely. roughly 4-5 years ago, i was on here identifying as aroace.

my personal experience with both labels is that they did measurable harm to my perception of myself and my sexuality. when i did eventually realize i was a lesbian, i didn’t immediately suspect those labels had done me any harm. not until i read several other accounts of ppl who went through a near identical experience as me

see, the answer to your question is complicated bc i first have to address split attraction. its one of my main gripes with asexuality. its my firm belief that romantic and sexual attraction should not be so neatly sequestered the way many people describe them to be. the reality of attraction is that every single person experiences it uniquely and defines it for themselves and themselves alone. i genuinely think the labels “aromantic” and “asexual” and all their variants shouldnt exist at all. and i think they are REGRESSIVE. i really do. they impede progress in a society that desperately needs it. we NEED a more healthy view of sex in our society. we NEED people to understand that its normal and ok to not want sex, or to experience varying degrees of attraction. not wanting sex or romance should be as normal as not wanting your ears pierced. and it should be something you discuss with your partner and your partner alone. having labels for this very normal experience is honestly just setting us back. we dont need to get caught up in a hundred micro labels to describe the ways we have sex. we can just have sex, or dont! or have sex once a month, once a year! or never! and thats your choice and you shouldnt be made to feel like u need to have 5 labels for what should just be how youre feeling. attraction is so nebulous, theres no way we could ever pin it down with labels and we should really stop trying

so. how do i feel about aromantic ppl. well, how do i feel about aromanticism? its a tough conversation to have, because of how personal it is, and its why ive put off this ask for a really long time. i was aroace, yeah, but aro was the label i was really passionate about. im gonna tell you some stuff u might not want to hear, but its my experience.

i was aro because i was lonely, and i was aro because i was scared. i knew i had feelings for girls, but i didnt know how to reconcile them, especially with my burgeoning gender qualms i was also having (which was also happening bc of the aforementioned attraction to girls, but thats another conversation entirely). it was scary, trying to pin down the fact that i was only attracted to girls. and i mightve come to that conclusion a lot sooner if it werent for tumblr telling me about asexuality/aromanticism/split attraction. suddenly i had a copout. cant be attracted to girls if im attracted to no one, right? that plus the fact that when youre lonely and havent experimented with dating, when everything is in hypotheticals, then anything is possible (“well i guess i COULD be attracted to men... but id never have sex with them! so i guess im panro-ace” <-an actual identity i had at age 19. comp het feeds on these micro labels and split attraction)

please keep in mind none of this is directed at you or even aromantics as a whole, im still just talking about my own experience. and my experience was that the aroace label was definitely just a convenient place to hide from being a lesbian. and i know others have had similar experiences.

so...once again. how DO i feel about aromantics? i feel as though we live in a very romance-forward world. romance is everywhere, once youre looking for it. i think i was rather bitter, and preferred pretending that not dating was an identity, rather than the painful reality of firstly not knowing what i wanted, and secondly not even knowing if id BE wanted. i think we all have varying degrees of attraction, both romantic and sexual, and i think for many the two kind of exist in tandem. and again for many, these feelings can exist a lot stronger for them than they do for others. so it leaves a lot of ppl feeling like they MUST be different. i think it makes a lot of sense that i identified strongly with aromanticism, even aside from me using it as something to hide behind. ive never really been much of a romantic. i never had too many crushes, and i only ever imagined romantic scenarios if it were fictional characters i shipped.

of course once i saw someone list these types of things out as evidence of being aro, i was like oh thats me! and latched onto it. and never did anymore introspection. the label was a copout. now, i could tell u that being aroace was a product of knowing i wasnt attracted to men yet not being able to face being attracted to women, so i was like “oh ok guess i have No attraction!” and i can tell u that since ive been with my girlfriend, ive become the sappiest romantic ever.

im not gonna tell you “you just havent found the right person yet :)” but i will say that if you have even the slightest doubt or uncertainty, to go out and experiment! date around and see how you feel. no one can tell you who u are or how u feel except u. u wont be a hypocrite for experimenting. but if youre already sure u dont really feel romantic attraction, then more power to you. not everyone on this earth needs to get married or date. i do think our society needs to normalize just being happy with who you are, and not see it as pitiful. thats an opinion that is so hard to have when youre single, bc u cant help but feel like youre pathetically trying to justify being alone, so im doubling down now that im in a relationship. its fucking ok to not be in a relationship!! if theres one thing that’s stayed the same since i was aro its my assertion that ppl need to fucking chill about orher peoples relationship status

i feel like this answer went in one THOUSAND different directions, but ive been thinking about how to answer this for a while and decided to just word vomit

TL;DR: aromantics are fine, not as harmful as asexuality, you do you, make sure you examime yourself and how you feel often, dont just take the word of ppl on tumblr (me included), everyone experiences attraction differently, i just wish split attraction model didnt exist because its perfectly fine to not want sex/romance or to have low/nonexistent attraction, i just dont believe in the labels/identities.

[paradisecost]

dichen lachman, amira casar and elisa lasowski

1. unnamed spiritbeast time

first of all. holy fuck. holy g-d. FUCK. I NEED A MINUTE.

ok ok ok i’m good here we go. this one has no name because firstly she’s a spiritbeast thing and they barely use names unless humans or other creatures give them to them, and secondly i fucking hate coming up with names. in days of old she took the form of great, resplendent birds- pheasant-like mostly, though with colourations and tailfeathers unseen in any extant creature- that, when glimpsed, was said to bring good fortune. to actually find one of her tailfeathers did bring some measure of protection from ill-fate for a while, but when that protection wore off, the holder would need to either burn the feathers or hand it on to someone else to get rid of their newfound bad luck. cursed feathers! love ‘em!

i have no fucking idea what her general ‘purpose’ was but i DO know that it’s likely that hubris was part of her gradual loss of power- probably gave away too many tailfeathers for the sake of feeling worshipped/ensuring people knew she existed or whatever the fuck, idk. anyway she’s now mostly-human and probably has almost no shapeshifting capacity left- her remaining powers are mostly useful for protecting both herself and others, likely with a fuckin... lock of her hair or some shit. who knows.

also: she and lyall have fucked.

2. echo (tw: mentions of An Unhappy Home Life, including a former unhappy marriage, though no details are given. this is a Sad Girl)

meet Echo, a deeply unhappy young woman who really, really fucking wants to run away to sea but is too afraid to actually do it. Echo isn’t her real name- it’s a nickname she picked up in childhood because she would parrot back anything said to her (It’s The Autism). it later became fitting in a different, more unfortunate way; the man she married tended to steamroll her opinions and wants, and she wound up generally just agreeing with/echoing anything he said to avoid an argument. after he died, Echo returned to her family’s home since she had nowhere else to go.

mostly she takes care of the household and avoids interacting with any of her family members as much as possible - with the exception of her identical twin, who is a) a trans man and b) a good egg. every so often they’ll both steal some of their older brother’s clothes and sneak out to the beach at night, to watch and envy the pirates and sailors there.

3. Bertha “Birdie” Atwood (tw: brief mention of ableism and threats of forced, uh... i’ve forgotten the word for it, fuck. they threaten her with bedlam, is the point)

i told myself i wasn’t going to do this one because i’m tired but then i took one look at her and was like, no, nevermind, i’m gay and i have to

anyway meet Birdie, a former servant and confidante of the Hamiltons. they essentially snatched her off of another lord who was bragging about planning to send one of his maids to the madhouse because she’d had too many “““fits”““ (she has anxiety, surprise). the hams were just like.... anyway.... we’ll take her off your hands thanks.....

which sounds dodgy but keep in mind that my hamiltons regularly hired queer, disabled and other disadvantaged servants with like. good intentions. blahblah ANYWAY birdie was real fucking happy about this because UHH??? AVOIDING AN ASYLUM??? THANK YOU??

anyway she worked for the hamiltons for years and was very aware of the things that went on in that house but like. she would rather have died than rat them out, frankly. she might also be the servant who told miranda about the maria aleyne. :3c

anyway she was deeply unhappy after the loss of the hamiltons (and lt mcgraw, whom she liked purely because he was polite and barely spoke to her KNDFKJDSNF) and i dont know what became of her afterwards but I Love Her So Fucking Much

[m41z135h1pz-moved]

ILY TOO /P GSHJGKDSM-- NO BTU LISTEN. LSTIEN. SLITEN. BRETT STRIKES ME AS THE TYPE TO LIKE. DANCE/SHIMMY AROUND THE KITCHEN IF HES DOING SOMETHING IN IT, nothing fancy or big or anything, just. little shimmy shams. the silly shimmies(tm). hes got a playlist just for unloading the dishwasher and i love that for/about him is the thing gsdHGJKMDS--

if he's by himself or just doesnt give too much of a shit in the moment and the song hes listening to (something like sweet caroline??) he'll stomp/jump when the beat does The Thing, like where the gunshots in that one meme are but its just him stomping/stimmin' nshit yknow?? like if that makes sense??? maybe throw in a couple 'BA-BA-BAH's in there too for good measure, just to spice it up a lil

tO BRING IT ALL BACK AROUND KINDA HE'D ABSOLUTELY FUCKIN LOVE IT IF YOU WANTED TO LIKE. DANCE WITH HIM??? AND JUST GOOF OFF/STIM TOGETHER VIA DANCING IF THATS YOUR THING/IF YOU WANNA TRY IT OUT WITH HIM, That and he'd jsut be so fucking sweet about it too, god- he'd twirl you around a little bit here and there and do that goofy ufkcing thing where person a is like. pretending to pull person b over to them by some sorta invisible rope aND ITS. CHEESY. DAMN NEAR EMBARRASSING BUT ITS SO ON BRAND FOR HIM THAT IT MAKES IT A LITTLE ENDEARING IS THE THING.

HES SUCH A CHEESEBALL AND TLDR IM GONNA CLIMB ON A COUNTER OR JSUT PULL HIM DOWN BY HIS TIE TO BUGS BUNNY KISS THE FUCK OUTTA HIM OK THANKYOU GOOFDBYE FOREVER

I AM IMPRINTING THIS ASK ONTO MY BRAIN IM USING A BRANDING IRON THIS IS GETTING TATTOOED ON MY BODY I. YELPS AND SCREAMS

GOD HIM DANCING WITH YOU........ firstly im ALWAYS a sucker for when like. ppl do embarrassing things aroundme cuz like.... OMG THEY TEUST ME ENOUGH TO SHIMMY THEY HIPS WHEN A GOOD SONG COMES ON. LIKE WHOA WOWOW and and secondly. BIG FUCKING SAME. ANYTIME IM ALONE IM SO OBNOXIOUS ABT MUSIC I SING EVERY LYRIC QND I DONT LIKE BEING INTERRUPTED AND I PACE AROUND MY HOUSE LIKE A MADMAN SO JUST. DOING THAT WITH SOMEONE ESLE???? DOING THAT WITH BRETT????????? i might perish at the thought (in a happy way)

brett my sweet man...... make me move make me sway

[producingnct-blog]

sometimes failure is better than success

jihoon/samuel fake dating au

requested by anon

honestly it all started in the weirdest way

jihoon had been friends for a few months when it happened

it wasn’t their fault that bae jinyoung was literally so pretty

they couldn’t keep their eyes off of him and so they bet on who would get to take him out first

(spoiler alert: none of them did)

jihoon and his group of friends, which consisted of samuel, euiwoong, seonho, gualin and hyungseob, were like the groups of friends that people see in the movies

they had lunch together everyday, they sat next to each other and they told one another everything

jihoon couldnt have asked for a better group of friends, really

but then again... he could

i mean, how was samuel considered a good friend if he insisted on crushing on the same guy as him????

jihoon didnt understand

for all everyone knew, jihoon had been crushing on jinyoung first!

he’d fallen in love as soon as they made eye contact (which in fact, did not happen bc jinyoung was always looking at the ground, but please. let jihoon be happy)

and jihoon had started talking about him to their friends just to be met with “i know right!!!”’s from samuel at everything he said

jihoon, the fucking gemini, had glared at him. “he’s mine, i saw him first.”

to which euiwoong had replied, after taking a bite of hyungseob’s sandwich. “hyung, you do realise he’s not food, right?”

maybe jihoon had ended up blushing a bit, but who was to blame him for that? he quickly shook his head, “thats not what i mean, woong. you know that.” then turned his head to samuel

“cmon sam, for real. i feel like this is my sappy romance story yk. you gotta let me have it.”

“but hyung, i like him too! look, im not gonna dislike him for you and neither will you. its bros before hoes, not bros before ros-”

gualin, at this, perked up “what even is this conversation that does not make any sense”

“yes it does, omg! bros equals friends, ros equals romance between bros ok lemme live jesus! but anyway, we aint gonna budge our asses for one anoter, we might as well fight for it. agaisnt each other”

“what??!???” “are you crazy???” “what the fuc- i mean what????”

jihoon looked terrified, but then he set up his tray a bit closer to him, smirking. “fine. whoever gets to take him out first, gets him. after losing you gotta give him up. and give me 20 bucks as well.”

“why are you saying its me whos gonna lose?? and why do i have to pay you??”

jihoon smiled mischiviously. “duh. because i want, obviously.”

and then it was set

they started playing games, trying to get jinyoung’s attention

samuel would write lyrics to songs he wanted to play to jinyoung

jihoon would daydream about coming up to jinyoung and telling him he wanted him to be his bae 

samuel would start laughing louder, so that he could call for jinyoung’s attention indirectly

jihoon would wear different neon laces everyday to be different and stand out in his crush’s eyes

and yet, jinyoung didnt care for either of them

“ugh, this is so hard jihoon hyung.”

“i know right? he hasn’t even looked in our way at least once”

“what is it that we’re doing wrong??”

“idk sam. maybe we should try to get his attention in another way?”

samuel stopped writing down the answer to his english homework of the day to look up at jihoon, who was wearing a frown on his face

“how so hyung?”

“well, we could try to make him jealous?”

“but how is that even going to work if he doesn’t notice either of us”

jihoon threw his pencil in the table, and rolling his eyes as he sighed

“i dont know okay???? i just want him to look at me and like me back, but he doesnt even know i exist”

“hey hyung... its okay, i get it remember? we’re the same. just... how do you think we can make him jealous then?”

jihoon smiled a bit at that, lifting his head from where he had laid it into his arms, “we could date someone”

“oh. who?”

“well. hyungseob and euiwoong are the only gays from our group of friends that are out, but they’re dating each other. so....”

“so....?”

“sooooo.... we could date each other!”

“WHAT oh my god no way”

jihoon pinched samuel’s arm, making the younger flinch away. “what do you mean no way, you punk! im damn handsome, smart, intelligent and funny! theres nothing not to like!”

“hyung.... get your head out of your ass and listen. i dont wanna date you omg. you literally are so.... annoying sometimes no offense. and you snore when you sleep!”

“omg sam shut the fuck up u idiot. firstly i am not annoying youre just not old enough to understand how real and amazing people like me function. secondly. bitch we aint gonna sleep together what the fuck is wrong with my snoring. you talk in your sleep!”

samuel shook his head. “this is seriously not gonna work hyung, what even went through your mind.”

“an idea, thats what. at least i try to come up with those and help ourselves!!!!!” jihoon sighed once again, throwing his hands up. “so are you in or what? we can give it a try right? for a week or two?”

“ugh. fine but if it doesnt work out im killing both you and myself.”

“wow.... thats sad”

“shut up and study”

it..... didnt work out

but also no one died

“ok. what is happening??” was the first thing that met them when they walked to their lunch table holding hands, gualin was currently staring at them both intensively

“listen. this is not weird i promise but we’re dating.”

“you’re what???????”

“dating, you dumbass.”

euiwoong fixed up his glasses, “when and why and how did this happen. am i in a alternative universe”

“ok what the fuck is so wrong with us loving each other” samuel tried not to gag at jihoon’s words, instead squeezing jihoon’s hand stronger

seonho stopped snacking on a chocolate bar “you have been crushing on jinyoung for weeks remember?”

hyungseob continued, “yeah and why wouldnt you tell us if you liked each other???”

at this jihoon started laughing, “im kidding jeez!!!” he then sat down and mentioned for them to sit closer

“we’re pretending-” “WHAT” “omg shut up gualin youre so loud. we’re pretending to date so that jinyoung will be jealous”

euiwoong sighed “im not even going to care this time around. you two are lost cases.”

hyungseob smiled as he pinched euiwoong’s cheek and jihoon fake vomited “ew. YOU are lost cases stop being so in love”

“you jealous hyung?” “omg shut up seonho”

“anyway woong. i am telling you that you should be more respectful to me. when im married to jinyoung, with kids that are twice your height and with more money than all your three next genarations, i wont remember you punk.”

“GOOD”

“OMG YOU FUCKING- I HATE YOU”

turns out fake dating samuel wasnt soooo bad

they hang out like they used to, the only difference was that they held hands a bit more

it still, however, didnt work for them as jinyoung never looked their way

therefore, ofc the obvious and only solution was for them to take their relationship to the next level and to kiss

they decided on a plan

jihoon would be walking to school and hed pass by jinyoung and smile at him casually, but then he’d fall

samuel would then see and help him up, ask if he was okay!! and then kiss his cheek

it was a good plan, really, it was a good plan BUT

fucking samuel didnt do shit! he stood there looking

which ended up in jinyoung looking up to see what had happened and walking towards jihoon to help him up

jihoon started blushing when jinyoung asked him if he was okay, and jihoon could only nod

at this samuel came closer to the two of them, glaring at jihoon but trying to cover it up with a smile “hey you okay baby?”

jihoon blushed at the pet name, how could samuel call him baby when he was talking with his crush. “im fine”

jinyoung then cleared his throar, “hm. im glad youre okay i should go. see you around i guess...”

“jihoon!!! my name is jihoon”

after jinyoung had left, samuel turned to jihoon “what the hell was that?”

“that do you mean??? you didnt even fucking try to help me. what was THAT???”

“i was... thinking. listen, why didnt you pretend??”

“fuck. because i was actually talking to him! and you had to ruin it all sam omg. cant you fucking let me win? youre such a sore loser.”

“what??? i was doing what you asked hyung! i was pretending.”

“whatever, im done. i dont want to pretend anymore. i got to talk with him alone, not by pretending.”

“what??? but how come you want to pretend and then you dont?!?!?”

“jeez sam dont make it that deep. we played a game, the game is over now. thats it, im gonna keep trying to get jinyoung and so will you”

“but hyung. i thought we were on this together?”

“hm no??? sam, we’re agaisnt each other”

samuel shook his head, rubbing his hands agaisnt each other, “fine.”

“fine!”

when samuel didnt answer, jihoon sighed “goodbye”

“where are you going??? it’s the middle of the day?”

“mind your business”

they didnt talk for two days, damn that gemini stuborn ass

samuel ended up reaching out to jihoon and apologising for overreacting, to which jihoon agreed and also apologised for doing the same

they sorted things out and promised to not let this jinyoung matter ruin their friendship 

everything was really great until jihoon started talking more with jinyoung

jihoon would cross ways with his crush and he’d actually hold his head up long enough to shoot him a smile

they’d say hi to each other if they saw one another

sometimes jihoon would even sit next to jinyoung for a few moments when he was alone

and jihoon was loving it until he noticed that samuel was growing sadder by the days

he was quieting down and focusing more on studying

and he was always avoiding him

jihoon could for the love of god understand why 

and he couldnt not talk about it, so he did ofc

him and samuel talked about it although the younger avoided saying the reason

jihoon let him be for a few more days but once the week mark passed, he got really worried

he thought that maybe it was because samuel was jealous that he’d lost and jihoon even went to the point of talking to him about giving up jinyoung just to let samuel be happy-

when he noticed exactly that. since when did samuel’s happiness become soooo important? sure it was always important, they were friends

but jihoon cared to the point of giving up on his crush just to see samuel happy???? that was new

jihoon then started thinking more about that and even talked to euiwoong about it, who told him that he was thinking of it as something more complex than it really was and that he should just talk with samuel

at first, jihoon didnt get it. but as he started missing his best friend more and more (since when did samuel become his best friend that he missed more than the others???)

he realised something had changed and he decided he really needed to talk with samuel about it

“hey”

“oh. hey hyung” samuel went to leave the bathroom

its not live jihoon purposefully stalked him there just to prove to himself that the younger was in fact avoiding him

“hey wait. we need to talk sam”

samuel shook his head quickly, “we dont. for real i swear im okay”

“i dont believe you. just talk with me please, for a second”

“fine hyung. here?”

“hm.... no, lets go to the seats okay?”

“okay hyung.”

they sat down in the outside of the school, close to each other but not too much

jihoon cleared his throat “ok so, ive been thinking. and listen. i really miss you sam. like ive been talking more and more with jinyoung but less and less with you and i miss you like crazy-”

“oh.”

“yeah. i.... dont know sam. i really miss you, what happened? we were fine but you started avoiding me. is it because i talk with jinyoung more than you? i...i. i could let you meet him. talk for real with him.”

“no, hyung. its not that.”

“really? then what? bc i swear sam, i’d give him up for you to be happy, for real.”

“really hyung? you’d. you’d do that? for m-me? seriously?”

“yeah. of course. is it really not because of that?”

“well. i guess technically it is. but hm. just hear me out and please dont hate me okay?”

jihoon nodded “of course not.”

i dont how or why but ive been feeling different... towards you. i was jealous yes, but then i realised i was jealous not because of jinyoung but because of you... hyung. i wanted to be him. i wanted you to be crushing on me and i know youre not and i know you wont. and im happy for you to be talking with him but. im sorry i just dont feel ready to be your friend right now.”

“oh hm. wow i didnt realise you felt that way. i.”

samuel shook his head, “part of me was hoping youd confess like in the movies yk? im... god im so stupid.”

“hey, dont say that. youre not. im too perfect, you cant resist me i get it-”

“not now hyung, please.” and the way samuel’s voice sounded so broken. it left jihoon speechless and at the same time wanting to scream out everything at the world.

“sam. im sorry i really am i didnt know you felt that way. i...”

“its okay hyung. i myself only realised when i talked with woong-”

“wait you talked with him too?”

“what? you talked with him?”

“yeah i asked for his help-”

“about what?”

“ohh. hm. oh. i.”

jihoon completely spaced out and he felt like he was in a movie. he felt like a character that just understood everything at once, like a stupid girl that didnt realise she liked her best friend over her crush. like a fool

“i wow sam.”

“what hyung? are you okay??????”

“jesus christ im dumb”

“i know. tell me something new.”

“bitch shut up listen i.... like you too omg- i cant believe it but i do.”

“what?? you just daydreamed for two minutes straight and now youre back and u like me??? dont play me like that. i thought you were better than this-”

“omg sam shut up let me talk. i talked to woong because i needed help reaching out to you. i was so worried! i even told you that i’d give jinyoung up for you and you talking with woong just reminded me of what he said... and its true. i was making it out to be too complicated when in fact its so simple. i like you, plain and easy.”

“are you sure??????”

“yeah sam. i am, i really am. i feel like i have a bulb over my head.”

“you might as well, what you just said was more moving and inovational than the creation of ipads.”

“damn im blessed to have such a nice boyfriend that compliments me so much! i mean, wait no.”

they both blushed, the losers.

“so.... boyfriend huh?”

“what the fuck gualin since when were you there????”

they ended up discovering a week later, as they held hands under the lunch table, giggling and blushing over the touch, that jinyoung had been dating daewhi for months.

[rainbowlinegifs]

Okay, I'm wanting to binge Ninninger in the next few days. Any thoughts before I go into this head-first?

yes, so many. ok number one thing to know about me is that i am ninninger’s biggest fan so i freely admit to my bias (it was the first sentai i watched live all the way through) but also... i really love it. and it gets a LOT of hate which is mostly undeserved. yes it’s a bit of a mess but in an endearing way imo? the plot does kind of meander near the middle but i think the characters and themes make up for it a lot.

firstly, the characters: i mean, you’ll either hate takaharu or you won’t. i think he might be one of the most hated red rangers i’ve ever seen which is :/ he’s such a good kid, he’s sweet, he loves his family, he’ll do anything to protect people. he’s kind of dumb, yes, and loud and he says his catchphrase too much but it’s a show for kids so... people are just gonna have to deal w/ it. of the others: yakumo, kasumi, and kinji get the most development by far. i think they’re interesting characters although your mileage may vary on yakumo (he’s kind of... bizarre, just, as a concept). kasumi is widely regarded as one of the best female rangers ever (a classification i don’t care for because all girls are perfect always in my humble gay opinion) but she is really amazing. easily the smartest and most powerful of the team, and she gets her own villain rivalry (with a DUDE villain :o) near the end which is pretty awesome. kinji is... perfect. i love him dearly. he’s adorable and funny and he starts out as an assassin cowboy, ends up getting adopted by all the ninningers, and has the coolest powerup ever:

how anyone can hate ninninger when it gave us THIS is beyond me. of the other two, nagi and fuuka are kind of shafted but fuuka makes up for it with an INCREDIBLE showing in the ninninger returns movie (seriously, we made our friends who dont watch ninninger watch that movie and they loved it. invented feminism tbh) while nagi has some good emotional plots near the middle of the show, although it’s mainly him supporting other members of the team. so not a perfect season in terms of giving characters equal focus but it gets a lot of hate for being overly red-focused when imo kinji, yakumo, and kasumi easily match taka in terms of focus? they also eased off the red focus a lot partway through the show and i think it was because of the complaints about taka. again, your mileage may vary. but taka never even gets a red-exclusive power-up or anything, everything is shared by the whole team so... i dunno what ppl are complaining about there.

secondly, the themes, and i think this is what makes ninninger a far stronger show than people give it credit for: ultimately, (and this is just my reading, of course) the show is about family. the main five are cousins, they’re mentored by their grandfather and taka/fuuka’s father, and it’s all about who’s going to succeed grandpa as the ‘last ninja’. but it’s also about generations and traditions, and how sometimes, parents can fuck up, and how the children of the new generation (the third generation, in this case - the grandchildren of the last ninja) can put things right where their parents messed up. and how just because things have always been done a certain way doesn’t mean they should stay that way (seriously - the whole arc where kinji officially joins the team and becomes a ninninger makes me cry because it’s all about the kids taking a stand against their grandpa and going “no we want kinji on our team and we don’t care if you won’t accept him as your student”). this also shows up later when they get their second big megazord and have to figure out a way to create zords because the old ways aren’t working for them, and then again in the final arc, when they set right grandpa’s greatest mistake and really earn their happy ending. and what they end up doing with the end shuriken and last ninja title, but i won’t spoil you too much. it’s really heartwarming though.

so i think coming it at it knowing that it’s not just a show about ninjas (and then being annoyed when we get cowboy backstory angst and random game show themed fillers although again... don’t know what people were complaining about because the fillers were ridiculously fun. but maybe i am just easily entertained.), but about family, legacy, and traditions helps a lot. i know there were complaints about how it barely felt like a family sentai because the kids were just cousins and they didn’t really seem to be that close, but i think the real family theme in ninninger revolves around kinji, and the team accepting him, and how you don’t need blood to be a family or have a place to belong. and kinji was really the center of ninninger because he was the one paralleled with grandpa and [redacted for spoilers] and he highlighted the theme of past generations vs. new generations, how the kids made their own family and their own place in the world as ninjas, and also how you don’t have to follow tradition exactly, especially if it’s stupid. you can make your own tradition and it can be just as good. and i think that was the most powerful message of ninninger and a really good message in general, especially for the kids watching.

other than that, i mean, it’s a sentai - it has villains (kyuuemon was easily the standout, the others are kind of forgettable, although magnetsu has the rivalry w/ kasumi which i loved, and one of the generals has the creepiest fucking plot twist which i won’t spoil but it was. it sure was something. pretty entertaining though. all the yokai monsters speak in puns constantly. main villain was also forgettable but some sentais are just like that, y’know.) and suits and zords and whatnot. lots of filler but i thought it was fun filler. except yakumo focus episodes those were always kind of bizarre. it has LOTS of cameos but even if you haven’t seen hurricanger/kakuranger/magiranger/whatever i think they’re still fun. the ninninger returns movie saved my goddamn life.

overall... i think the best way to binge ninninger is just to have fun with it. it’s just a fun show, y’know? some episodes are weird but you’ll get through them. it has some really strong themes that you kind of have to root through all the filler to get but i enjoyed it all. i am easy 2 please and ninninger was cute, fun, and not overtly sexist which is really all i need from a toku show honestly.

[hhawkeye]

Look, try and imagine, if you will, Hawkeye, somewhere in his fifties, seeing the news about Stonewall. And say he decided, the next year, to go find a protest/parade to join in honour of Stonewall. And say, just for a second, that he pulled out his old 'Nam protest equipment to do so. And wonder, just for a moment, how he'd handle the HIV/AIDS epidemic, refusing to retire because people need him.

ok ok ok like. heres the thing! heres the thing i generally am... kind of :/ about “hey how would (character) deal with (real event that actually impacted the lives of millions of actual real people)” scenarios bc they feel. disrespectful even if that wasnt the intention ? HOWEVER. that being said. i cant say shit here because mash is literally about fictional characters in a fictional unit in a fictionalised version of the korean war and yknow. theres a lot that has been said and can be said about the impact it had on peoples perception of war and how fiction can and will impact how we feel about reality etc etc i know this. i Know this. i know this anon and i love you.

so with that disclaimer out of the way, and acknowledging it is currently 6am and i havent slept all night:

firstly hawkeye protesting the vietnam war is genuinely so sexy. i know how i sound when i say this but it is true. it is true and i need people to know it.

SECONDLY i think. christ ok heres the thing i think hawkeye would just be so fucking angry about the way the us government (and yknow, The World) handled the aids epidemic and like. even if he wasnt bi or whatever! even if he was cishet! he would be so so so angry about it! and i dont even think thats like. a controversial thing to say i dont think its like “wow hey how do you think he’d feel about it?” like textually we KNOW he would be incandescent with rage and would do all he could to help people and yknow. not let people die for no reason while the government sits there and just. lets it happen. like we know this! this is an actual fact about him! and its sooooo.

re: stonewall HONESTLY honestly. lot of thoughts about hawkeye in new york in general. lot of thoughts! lot of thoughts about post war hawkeye and what he Actually does and i think. well. he needs therapy babes. but aside from that i think moving to new york would be good for him because first of all. fucking look at the guy hes from new york. secondly i do think small town hawkeye is good but i also think big city hawkeye is like. yes babes get out there! meet new people! make a friend honey u deserve a friend who isnt yknow. terrible or from The War. like please for the love of god 😭 THIRDLY either that or he moves to san francisco to live with bj which i mean. same shit different city right. ANYWAY i think getting involved in the gay scene would be good for him however i also think he might end up like. obsessively trying to help people who are living miserable lives due to homophobia and transphobia etc and its like ok you cant save everyone babes its ok. breathe. anyway what the fuck gay little hawkeye. its 6:30am and i have to get ready for work now. this last paragraph was incoherent mostly because my alarm kept going off in the middle of my thoughts.

[xinnistradlord]

*SLAMS 💌 DOWN* WHY DONT YALL TALK ABOUT OPENING UP TO PEOPLE AND HOW ITS IMPORTANT. ESPECIALLY U DAD.

Ok so, firstly I think it’s super important to open up and talk about your feelings to people you trust like friends and family. Lets them know how you’re doing and what not, takes a huge weight off your shoulders and you really stop feeling grumpy and irritated after it. Secondly, look man; you got a fuck ton to discuss with someone and I think it’s about time you open up.

“Young one, opening up does very little and the fact remains that I’ve seen and done many things. Keeping it under lock and key by simply not caring is how I’ve dealt with it for more than hundreds of mortal life times put together.”

Hey. Look. Opening up is difficult yeah, trust me I’ve been there and done that like thousands of times. You might be old and have experience, wisdom and whatever else. But emotionally? You’re like way less experienced because you don’t do emotions apart from one; Grumpy as heck. Like I said, you gotta talk to someone you trust. I think you should talk to Avacyn ‘bout the crap and shit you’ve dealt with; she seems more than willing to listen. 

Gotta stop bein’ so stubborn about opening up, she isn’t gonna judge you for much if that’s what you’re afraid of. Nor are you gonna be a massive burden and bring everything down. I encourage people to talk about how they feel because even if you don’t realise it, she cares a lot about you it seems. Not caring isn’t a great mechanism, I can understand why you’d do that but jez that only goes so far. You just start wasting away emotionally after so long, I’ve totally noticed reading the story over and over again. 

“Supposedly if it gets to the point I feel able? Perhaps. Old habits die hard and I’m sure you know very well yourself the difficulty of breaking cycles.”

Sure I do, I got a lot of terrible habits and I admit that; but you gotta realise opening up does a lot for your health n shit.

“It isn’t that I would assume she wouldn’t care; she has enough to be putting up with aside from my problems and issues from past events. Talking about how I feel wasn’t at the top of my priorities throughout the ages; I assumed people wouldn’t care to listen after everything that had been done at my hands. People don’t appreciate it whenever you begin to feel remorse for your own actions. Besides the fact, I have other emotions besides that feeling grim constantly.”

What like being totally sassy and snarky with people? It’s my favourite part of ‘In The Teeth of Akoum’. Yeah you’ve done terrible things but, a lot of the older planeswalkers like Liliana, Nahiri, Ob Nixilis and God forbid Nicol Bolas. I might really hate the likes of Nicol Bolas like honestly fuck that guy, but their actions have been influenced by their past expereinces with people; thus shaping them as people. 

Folk still really love the likes of Liliana, she’s a great character and she has Jace every now and then to talk to when they aren’t bickering or somethin’. She might do questionable shit but people still trust and like her, same for you too.

“You care far too much about ‘Opening up’. Though in some way you aren’t entriely wrong, which is strange. Perhaps speaking with Avacyn wouldn’t be a terrible plan. Older Planeswalkers have seen much more than the conventional younger ones; though I may have disagreements with them, their actions are explained by some means typically.”

Yeah, go talk to her; you don’t have to unload all at once, maybe do it in like I dunno parts? Treat it like you’re writing a story. You wouldn’t do that all at once, you’d get real exhausted after like the first couple chapters. I mean after all she’s technically part of your family; like a daughter? Probably.

I’m gonna stop rambling now and let you get to all that important jazz with your kiddo.

“Fine, if it so pleases you I will speak with her eventually. Though don’t take my word for it.”

Sure, sure. I know you’re gonna take like five thousands years to do something about it but it’s the effort that counts.

[tiracallout]

The following is a copypasted submission from my inbox

hello. this is a year overdue and i personally doubt that anything about this blog is still active but i hadn’t really cared to write anything out until the other day. i don’t care about anonymity seeing as i’m already mentioned on another submission here so i go by tara currently and i’m an at the time 29 year old member of a system. i tend to be long winded but it’s a bit more coherent than the other system member’s was and skips straight past providing context for our living situation and is strictly edel relevant only

my memory isn’t exactly ‘good’ but if i can remember correctly i met him when he approached devon and seemed really excited to meet me because he thought i was nice. he was flat out told that i wasn’t exactly social or super openly friendly but he insisted anyways. i don’t know why i said hello after that but i guess i must’ve been lonely or bored. i don’t remember what i said but the conversation couldn’t have lasted more than ten minutes. this was some time during the general end of year 2015/new year 2016 i’m pretty sure in hindsight he probably thought because i was a 'fictive’ i’d have to like him. other people have agreed with me that they think he thought that because i’m a 'fictive’ who isn’t afraid of confrontation he’d get an excellent attack dog out of this. i’ll never know the truth about this either way

honestly i barely remember talking to the guy. one thing i remembered was asking him what was wrong only to find out he was having a breakdown over some 14 year old posting ship art or something and making fun of them for jokingly calling themselves trash. i didn’t want to get involved so i mentioned that the kid was 14 and being twice this kid’s age but that i didn’t quite get it and moved on with my day. maybe a comment or two in passing. i keep to myself he still has this odd insistence that i’m actually a super nice and friendly person. even if i’m the one who says otherwise. as if he knows me better than i do. he also tells devon, who is 17 and pretends that he’s not, that he finds it admirable that i’m not afraid to call people on bullshit and can be blunt if i have to be i make a twitter at some point. according to the records it says that it’s february 2016 he asks to follow it so i let him. it’s a small thing with 20-30 followers. i have that i might softblock at any time in the bio. at some point i softblock him, along with a small handful of other people, because i don’t care about idol games and this was the one thing that i knew i could have as mine and mine alone. i go out of my way to message him about it and say that it was nothing personal because i saw that was what he had asked his reaction was a little… disproportionate. he went on to threaten suicide and forced everyone into comforting him even when he admitted that he was being manipulative. i was shittalked for this in plain sight and everything that he said happened just wasn’t true. which is fine i guess, personally i have better things to do and i couldn’t give half a shit about it. what did bother me is that it wasn’t just me that saw it but devon, because we were cofronting more often at the time. he had seen the context of everything and had a breakdown over watching edel’s breakdown i give edel a 24 hour cooldown period before messaging him asking for an apology for the 17 year old he set off. i said that i didn’t care for one and wasn’t going to say anything else. or i guess i phrased it as 'withholding my comments’ which might’ve sounded harsh i guess but i was on edge for an unrelated reason and that’s just kind of how i talk. other people said that i deserved an apology but it’s in the past either way i got to watch him specifically @ someone begging them to kill him because he had made them promise to at some point. i got front row seats for this whole shitshow and was lead to believe it was my fault. this went on for several hours. this had all started over a softblock. talk about asinine when he eventually calms down, and this whole thing takes forever. i get this nice little message “oK now that i’m calm, I will apologize for upsetting Devon but its unbelievably distasteful asking me to apologize for having a breakdown over something that someone left me for a few days before. How am I supposed to react when I feel like people only care about my interests, not me as a person? I don’t hate either one of you. Not even you. I don’t hate anyone. I was upset but I got it out of my system and calmed down. I’m very sorry for upsetting anyone. I really am. But I really dont appreciate this wording, or the implication you have something nasty to say to me.” firstly i had had no clue that someone had softblocked him recently and i apparently had pushed him over his weekly unfollower limit or whatever. even if it weren’t my space to do what i want with how the hell was i expected to know that. secondly i never expected him to apologize for having a breakdown, it was that he did it where devon and i could watch it when he had to have had other accounts. i wasn’t super thrilled about having my personal business thrown around to begin with but there was nothing to do about it at this point. lastly that “i don’t hate anyone line is full of shit” and i didn’t really need to be chastised for telling him to own up to hurting someone or be treated like i was being given some sort of pass and i hadn’t earned it. regardless i was tired and didn’t care to try and argue so i apologized for being 'rude’ and explained that i was tense about something else entirely and that there were no hard feelings and moved the fuck on with my day

according to the archived dms this was around april 2016 i’m fairly sure

this is where devon starts seeing everyone talking about being treated like shit on top of personally witnessing it happening to me before he loudly cuts edel off

at some point i find out that edel is dating a minor under wraps and there’s a set up with bunch of middlemen to talk about things. that was all him. we’re both reassured that things will be broken off and he 'didn’t know better’

i have no way to keep an eye on the situation devon has been effectively given a gag order after a mutual friend did something of their own volition and he assumed that it’s because devon has been talking. devon hasn’t even been around and people have told edel that. having no point of contact with anything on that end on top of having things offline be in a crisis of sorts i take everyone at their word and expect that it’ll be done. something that i’m not proud of to this day

this was around may-june 2016 months down the line and 3000 miles later i find out completely on accident that that’s not the case. i have no way to get in contact with anyone and i’m absolutely fucking horrified. if i try and talk about any of this i’m risking someone who was manipulated by edel at that point being hospitalized due to the stress of it all. i try and do what i can to keep the kid anonymous, hoping that it’ll keep him at least a little safer than they would be otherwise. including finding out devon found out he knew a systemhop mod and personally sending a message asking them to take posts with identifying info about them down because i had heard they hadn’t consented to being outted like that and that edel was checking the blog. i really wish i could’ve done more and had known exactly how the hell to handle that situation. edel had still been discrediting devon and i both months later and i had no way to even keep an eye on anything without spying on a teenager, which i wasn’t willing to do

estimated around september-october 2016 apparently we were always referred to as a package deal. even in the 'apology’. it was pretty heavily implied by how he treated other 'fictives’ that i didn’t have my own free will and opinions in this. that was even more obvious when devon was the one listed on the 'do not follow if you follow’ list next to outted abusers and pedophiles and i wasn’t even mentioned despite having separate accounts and him knowing the username. i had to message him personally to get that removed anyways once he was called out so some fucking apology that was. two lines for the both of us despite getting massively different treatment. devon, the younger and less 'fictional’ of the two of us, was cornered into apologies and i was talked down to and shamed, not taken seriously from the beginning

after i saw the apology i messaged him and other than telling him to remove the username i told him i didn’t want an apology or even a direct response and that he wouldn’t hear from me again. as far as i’m aware we haven’t had any sort of contact since. i don’t know why i’m submitting this really but it gives a semi solid timeline/backup for other people’s submissions so why the hell not

this was october 2016

[calumcest]

(part 1 of many) I know I’ve only been gone for like three days but as always I have a lot to say so here I am, prepare yourself for a long boi and by boi I mean ask not anything sexual don’t get it twisted. first, I’m done painting my room and I ended up doing the walls off white for the top half and a dusky pink for the bottom half. I love the way it looks but the amount of times I swore at the painter’s tape while trying to put it on in a straight line should probably count against it.

(part 2) also, since I’m 5’1” and do not own a ladder, I was on my tippy toes for like two whole days, and now my legs refuse to support me like what else are they even here for?? also also, you were right about me hallucinating! except not from sleep deprivation, it was from paint fumes bc I forgot to open my window. Lol, that reminds me I have a great story about a misadventure w chloroform, lmk if you want to hear it. next order of business, I’m here to gush about your writing again.

(part 3) honestly who do I stan more, you or 5sos? Pretty sure it’s you; everything you write just flows SO naturally. It’s like the type of thing I can read and then not realize how long I’ve been reading bc it’s so easy to lose myself in. Beyond that, every time you post something I go back to my debate au and write like four sentences bc ur writing actually makes me feel inspired it’s that good. Specifically about the soulmate fic, GOD the slow burn might kill me but I love it.

(4) Also, I wholeheartedly expect some insider secrets about London in the form of fic shenanigans like if that’s where they are I want some content in case I ever visit. Also, the newest addition to the holyverse is undoubtedly my favorite, despite not having any idea who Noel/Liam Gallagher are, other than men people question your attraction towards. Which, like, I usually trust your taste bc Taron and Richard Madden, but Helen, I’m truly sorry, having just looked up pictures I can not support

(5) you in this endeavor. Now, adding to the discourse about having too many tabs open, I’ve never related to anything more than my family being just me and my 3000 tabs. I finished all my final projects two weeks ago, and yet I still refuse to close any of the tabs I used. I always feel slightly ridiculous every time I have to go back to an old tab by like remembering when I was thinking something, like “hmmm I looked up the spotlight effect in between that YouTube video and that fake online

(6) online shopping spree, so the tab should be roughly at the halfway point between those two” yeah I’m bad at math but those are some calculations I am more than capable of doing. I think that’s probably all tumblr will let me send for now, but you should expect me to be back later bc my ability to ramble is still unparalleled anyways have a lovely day/night/whatever time it is in England -arbor day

that sounds like EXACTLY the kind of room i would like to live in i vibe with that so hard also i hope you managed to get some SLEEP in the few days you were gone don’t think i forgot about your 40 hours of wakefulness also yes please i do want to hear this chloroform story i forgot chloroform still existed i always associate it with like. jack the ripper

STOP?? this is the sweetest thing in the world i do not deserve these compliments you are too fucking lovely to me truly i cant believe firstly that you enjoy my writing tha tmuch and secondly that it inspires u to write?? ICONIC from u u shoudl write more and then post it xoxoxoxoxoxo 

i cant even tell you how refreshing it is to write london me in the last chapter writing the exact directions from the aquarium to charing cross because i know central london like the palm of my fucking hand whereas whenever theyre in sydney i’m like Luke walked down the street <3 Luke got on the train <3 SNKDJFNKSJDF 

I’M SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT please support my potential britpop au where i have calum in oasis and michael in blur (if u dont know they were like. At War in the 90s and constantly having a go at each othe rin the media and vying for awards like releasing songs on the same day etc) so its got britpop and romeo and juliet vibes and malum were childhood friends who drifted apart in late adolescence...please...ALSO!!!! look ok i totally understand my taste now is highly questionable i cannot contest that BUT liam gallagher was fucking pretty back in the day (example example example) and i also personally think noel was (example example) but i will still accept criticism on that. BUT LIAM??? come on he gets rights 

GOD I FEEL THAT SOOOOO HARD ur just like...but what if i Still Need It for Some Reason. i believe in u though u can close those tabs although i have to say i literally cannot speak the number of tabs i have open right now would send some people (bella) into heart palpitations i genuinely have so many tabs open that chrome isnt showing me all of them but what am i meant to do...close pictures of liam gallagher looking pretty? absolutely not. i want to have them there so that when i do look at the tab i remember oh yes thats a picture of liam looking pretty so i can click on it observe him being pretty then go about my day 

ALSO i hope u are having/have had a good day too i am glad to hear from u again i hope all is well and that you are SLEEPING well