#lol nah really idk how that happened cuz we really don't

[straycalamities]

Oh my okay I've got several... no I've got plenty of questions abt Truffula Flu lol

So... I'll ask all I remembered I wanted to ask, I hope it won't be too much..

1. Why guns aren't allowed in camp Entre? Maybe I skipped few posts, but I didn't see explanation for this one

2. About zombie mutations. Is they're really become stronger or is it just Rocky and Entre become weaker cuz of their illnesses?

3. Swags mod said that Swag would probably leave camp and die somewhere in quite place, while trying to survive. Why would he leave people that he cares about? Im a little bit dumb and don't exactly understand his planned ending 8(

4. There was a moment when One-ler tried to convince Bitter to put him out of his misery, but he escaped that. And I was curious, if he actually killed him then, would Entre blame himself for that? And if so, would it be worse then he blamed himself when he killed Bitter by his own hands?

5. After Rockys planned death, would Swag blame Entre for this? I mean, emotionally shocked, blame him again about this apocalypse stuff, that Rocky wouldn't die if he wasn't infected and etc.

I hope I made myself clear cuz I dunno how to put some questions ughh😭😭

And again Im sorry if its too much questions!

PHEW THAT IS A CHUNKY LIST. i love it

1. guns are loud and the infected are drawn to loud noises so if you shot a gun you’d be ringing the dinner bell basically. i feel like maybe we touched on it directly? but if i’m wrong it’s probably bc it’s a common thing brought up in zombie apocalypse stories so we might’ve assumed ppl just Knew why none of them used or wanted to use a gun

2. they do become stronger! i actually have a whole list of mutations (and more can be added as ppl come up with them! it’s open lore basically)

i made a whole google doc explaining the actual truffula flu and the symptoms, risks, etc (content warning for if you’re sensitive to medical discussion?? i don’t know how to word it but i wrote it like ur typical online disease info page. also content warning for zombies bc. it’s entirely abt zombification.)

rocky and entre being weakened definitely didn’t help their situation but yes. it’s mainly bc the spiky zombie is faster and stronger than ur typical sort

3. this is kinda hard for me to answer bc i’m not the one who originally wrote it. i don’t rly know why it was planned for it to go like that. i guess out of irony? i know the original plan was for swag to be the sole survivor at the end, but that kinda clashed w other plans so it was changed. so maybe this was the compromise to that

i will say tho that. things had been discussed since that post was made and his story goes differently than was broadcasted. howso? you’ll just have to see :)

4. yes, entre still would’ve blamed himself because ultimately: this is all his fault. regardless of who dies how or where. they wouldn’t be in that situation if it weren’t for him. especially if it’s connected directly with the infection. especially if it’s right in front of him where he can’t ignore it

he wouldn’t have been AS devastated by bitters death if he weren’t the one that had to kill him tho, because the thing is: that was the first time entre had directly killed someone who was still “alive” (unless i’m forgetting some obscure shit i did or said idk it’s been over a decade) and not only that, it was someone who was still his friend despite what he’d done? and even more layers: he had worked so hard to get bitter to come out of his shell prior to the infection and actually be his friend and then this happens. and he has to be the one to end it. bc he was pressured into it

so honestly entres descent into immense self-loathing and all that would have been Very different from how we saw it if someone else had taken care of bitter

5. nah i don’t think swag would’ve like actively started pointing fingers at entre again at that point. like deep deep down swag can’t ignore that this IS entre’s fault and this WOULDNT have happened if not for his mistake, but…swag realizes in the story that it’s not gonna get them anywhere if he keeps holding on so hard to those facts. like if he keeps berating and belittling entre as payback for everything what’s actually gonna get better for that? nothing. all it does is give him temporary catharsis and even that gets cheaper and lasts less time every time he does it

entre wants to fix things so earnestly and tries and swag sees that and wants to help because obviously he also would like this to be undone or at least, cured. and they can’t help each other if they’re at odds. and so even if it’s really hard on him to lose rocky like that, i think at that point it’s just chalked up to “this bitch of a situation” and not “entre did this”

not forgetting the fact that at that point, entre is going to mean a LOT to him because of how their relationship has deepened. so he’s not gonna turn on one of the only ppl he has left

thank you for the questions!! 😊

[joyful-soul-collector]

Watching Oscar Isaac Movies: Triple Frontier

I wanted to watch a bunch of the movies Oscar Isaac is in because I love him and nobody is around to stop me. And I'm taking you all along for the ride. Lemme know if there's a movie with him you want me to watch

Oh my god Oscar speaking Spanish is--mmmm is it hot in here???

Ayyy it's Pedro Pascal! I don't know a lot about him but I know him and Oscar are friends haha

Holy shit this guy's house is literally made of money

Where are they getting all these duffel bags

GUYS YOU DO NOT NEED THIS MUCH MONEY HOW MUCH ARE YOU PLANNING TO SPEND

oh shit he ded

6000 POUNDS OF MONEY?

Guys just leave some of the money man idk how to tell you this but that is more than you're ever going to be able to spend in your lives

"she'll make it" SUBTLE foreshadowing there mhm

How does one fall asleep on the loudest vehicle in existence

IT'S ALMOST LIKE SOMEONE TOLD YOU THE HELICOPTER COULDN'T HANDLE THIS MUCH

Why didn't they just dump off more money.

WHY DID THEY TAKE SO MUCH MONEY IN THE FIRST PLACE.

THIS IS ALL JUST ONE COMPLETELY PREVENTABLE TRAIN WRECK AFTER ANOTHER

"hi sorry I know you're all very poor and would benefit greatly from money just dropping out of the sky but that Ours Actually, yeah we killed people for it"

This guy is fuckin insane, first he makes them take more money resulting in more people dying and now he just fuckin shot up these villagers. Yeah no I've lost any and all sympathy for this guy lol

"sorry we destroyed a bunch of your crops, shot up a few of your people, and took your mules, have half of one of the FIFTY FUCKING DUFFEL BAGS OF MONEY WE HAVE"

Again where the fuck did they get all those duffel bags

Be free, mules

Love the lack of like. Survival problems going on lol. Are they out of food? Who knows, never seen em eating onscreen. Water? Nah they're probably fine. One of these guys got shot like a day ago and he's just like. Fine. Altitude sickness? Never heard of her. Is it cold? Yeah but it's fine CUZ WE'RE JUST GONNA BURN MONEY NOW THAT'S FINE

Oh shit they're gettin shot at now

OOP HE DED HE IS. FULLY DEAD

Good on that kid for getting revenge. I feel zero sadness over this guy's death. Sucks for his kid but oh well

Oh are we just. Over the mountains now. You're telling me it only took them 5 days to climb up and over these mountains

"what if we went at night" "nah we'd never make it" WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'D NEVER MAKE IT. JUST GET A CAR.

WHY ARE YOU THROWING AWAY THIS MONEY. GUYS JUST GET A CAR. YOU DON'T HAVE TO DRAG IT ALL THE WAY THERE JUST STEAL CARS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT

Oh NOW you find a car

Car chase car chase

5 million isn't bad, now if yall had just grabbed that much in the first place instead of 6000 FUCKIN POUNDS none of this would've happened

WHY ARE YOU GIVING IT ALL TO THE GUY WHO FUCKED EVERYTHING UP AND GOT HIMSELF KILLED IN THE FIRST PLACE

okay movie over and let me say #1 Pope did nothing wrong ever in his life. Everything that went wrong was Dead Guy's fault (I don't know any of their names except Santiago lol). #2 Yes I'm woobifying Pope slightly but literally the guy just wanted to make sure his friends would have enough money to get the life they wanted. Dead Guy just made everything worse at every turn. #3 no I am not taking criticism at this time

Anyway overall? Meh movie. Oscar was good, everyone else performed well too. Not a very satisfying plot or anything, didn't do anything new or interesting. Really wish we got to know more about Pope's backstory? I like his strong sense of justice, I wish I knew where it came from

Also wish I knew where all those FUCKIN DUFFEL BAGS CAME FROM

[bluebird990]

Hello again! I literally loved your analysis! I wanted to know what zodiac sign you think the characters would be? literally whoever comes to mind (I ask this without any proper knowledge about zodiac signs myself lol)

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Omg anon you have no idea how much I appreciate this thank you so much 😭

I had to do a lot of research for this (read: watched one video on YT)cuz the only reason why I can even name all 12 zodiacs is Fairy Tail XD I had zero knowledge about them before this day. I had fun writing this. Hope you like it ;)

Gray Yeon

Apparently Gray is canonically a Taurus. I kinda agree and kinda don't.

He's loyal and patient but he's far from being materialistic or lazy.

He strikes me more as a Virgo honestly.

Analytical, observing and reserved. He used to be kind of cold too before Stephan, Ben and Eugene happened.

He used to be very reserved and skeptical at the beginning of the series but is extremely trustworthy and gives good advice to those he warmed up to.

Goes to show how far he has come. I'm so proud of him.

Ben Park

So Ben is, according to canon, a Leo. Let that sink in. A Leo. Bruh hell nah. Just no.

Ben is anything but a Leo???

I think he'd be either a Cancer or a Pisces.

He's definitely the most selfless person right after Stephan.

He fits the description of a Pisces the most. He has the instincts of a wild animal and is adaptable when it comes to saving his friends. He's definitely sensitive, loyal, kinda clingy and very protective of his friends.

Now that I think about it, he could be an Aries too. I mean he is a great leader, enthusiastic, impulsive and very energetic.

Idk what do you think? Ben is Aries or Pisces?

Gerard Jin

Canonically, he's a Virgo which, I kinda agree with.

He is hardworking, kinda reserved and reliable but he's definitely not cold. He tried to be cold in middle school but that failed not-so-horribly in him saving the kid from the railway track.

I think he'd be fussy about his food cuz of his old man taste XD

He's also always been analytical and observing. An example of which would be him following Gray after gray beat up Colton, knowing that Colton wouldn't let it go so easily.

He's also really trustworthy after you warm up to him. Honestly no other sign fits him as well as Virgo does.

Alex Go

Alex is an Aries canonically and I definitely agree with this. Aries fits him perfectly.

He's enthusiastic and energetic. He is insecure because he thinks he's weak and hates it when Ben or someone else has to get hurt to protect him.

He has a desire to succeed and stand tall alongside Ben.

He can get moody and impulsive. He loves adventure. He even had his chunni era XD and can't stand boredom that's why he's messing around and skipping classes with Ben XD

Donald Na

Donald is a Capricorn according to canon, which fits him really well actually. Tho he could be qualified as an Aquarius too.

The only problem with him being a Capricorn is that he's not sympathetic or caring. Tho he would have a unique sense of humor I think. I hc that his sense of humor is either dark or dork and nothing in between XD and sarcasm. Definitely sarcasm.

Although Aquarius does fit him perfectly.

He is a progressive thinker and is intellectually driven cuz of his past.

He's rebellious, stubborn, emotionally detached, sarcastic and aloof.

Tho let's hope that he goes from an Aquarius to a Capricorn by the end of this manhwa *fingers crossed*

Wolf keum

This is a tricky one. It would be so much easier if we JUST KNEW HIS BACKSTORY AJHHEJDJEHRJJD.

Canon says he's an Aries. Which I don't know what to think of.

He is enthusiastic and energetic (only in relation to fighting). He is independent and extremely moody, impulsive and kinda selfish too.

He also has a low boredom tolerance but he definitely would not be a good leader. He's more of an uncontrollable wild card.

Does he have insecurities tho?? Everyone does right? So this mf should too. Let's just hope we get his backstory in this arc *tired exhale*

He definitely has a desire to succeed and win (again only in relation to fighting) so I guess Aries is a good fit for him. He could also be an Aquarius tho. Yeah definitely could be an Aquarius (less the progressive and intellectual thinking)

I never thought I'd be putting Wolf in the same category as Alex...

Jimmy Bae

According to canon, he's a Cancer, which I am totally in agreement of.

Before his backstory reveal, I would've thought of him as Leo but afterwards, oh boy, he has so much more to his character.

He's actually really sensitive, loyal and dependable. He's also very protective of his friends (Jack). My man readily threw his precious pride out the window for saving Jack.

He's also very moody tho and can be a little self absorbed too sometimes. Especially when it comes to training.

He can also be misunderstood by people really easily. Just like how half of the fandom had (including me) before his backstory.

He can be really difficult to understand but is definitely the kindest to a select few people (Jack).

Jake Ji

Jake is another tricky one. Canonically he's a Scorpio which is a 50-50.

He is independent, passionate and very emotional (Ace's death broke this boy XD).

He is unyielding in his principles and priorities but has to dance around Donald's pinky cuz he owes him one (which is so unfair).

He can be moody too but doesn't let it influence his "work" or his actions.

Tho I don't know about him being possessive, jealous or manipulative. He does strike me as a possessive guy but he's definitely not manipulative. I don't think he has that many brain cells or mental capacity to do that XD

He could also be a Pisces or Cancer because he's dedicated to keeping his friends and family safe. He could be an Aries too, honestly, I don't even know anymore XD tell me what you think would fit him best.

Alright imma end it here. This is getting a bit too long. Lmk if anyone wants a part 2 and I'll write about the rest of the characters.

I had a lot of fun doing this. Thanks to you anon, I finally got around knowing more about the zodiac personalities. I had wanted to know more but always kept pushing it down so thank you :D

P.s. my knowledge of zodiacs is limited to the one video I saw of Psych2go describing them so yeah if I made some mistakes regarding the qualities of the zodiacs then blame them not me XD (jk)

[destinyc1020]

I honestly don’t think she does it on purpose, I think she’s just focused on getting to the stage. ‘Cause she has allowed guys to touch her (ex. Austin and Andrew both held her close and by the waist in pictures) You’re tell me a helping hand is where she draws the line? Nah.

You know good and well there's a difference btwn taking a friendly picture with your male costar who you've worked on set with for months, and actually allowing a strange man (that you've probably never even met) to help you up to the stage lol 😆

Plus how can you NOT see ppl right in front of you? 😄

With Paul and Jack she for sure saw them right in front of her lol. But she doesn't know Paul like that, so maybe she was just caught up in the moment and was trying to hurry up on stage. Andrew was basically telling her to "go go go" and get up there on stage cuz they were about to miss their cue rofl. 🤣

I'll give her a pass for the Timmy incident cuz she already had Denis helping her lol 😆 It was just hilarious to see the Timdaya ship sink like a lead balloon throughout the entire "Dune" press tour rofl 🤣

Anyway....

Look, idk why she does it.... 🤷🏾‍♀️ But I just assume that it's intentional at this point since it's happened so many times now lol. 😅 But I could be wrong! I would hate to think it's because of Tom like some fans have theorized (cuz that would just make him seem very insecure 🥴), so I'm not even gonna say it's about Tom at this point.

It could just be that maybe she personally feels some kind of way about feminism and doesn't want men who are NOT her bf feeling like they have to go out of their way to help her. Who knows?

Personally, I just think it's a kind gesture, a gentlemanly thing to do, and I don't mind if men want to offer their help to me. 🤷🏾‍♀️ I know it makes them feel good, and as a woman it makes me feel safe and protected. 🥰 I don't mind if men open doors for me or pull out a chair for me either. 🤷🏾‍♀️ (IMO It's the LEAST they can do for starting wars and messing up women's lives.... rofl let me stop 🤣 )

Maybe just I'm old-fashioned, but it doesn't bother me in the least. I actually find it admirable when I see men trying to assist women, cuz we know those high heels and dresses can be smthg ELSE!! ROFL 😆 🤣 It just seems like good manners to me? 🤷🏾‍♀️ IDK... I don't think too deeply about it.

Anyway, Z is her own woman and she can do whatever she wants! I just think it's hilarious at this point lol 😆

At first I thought it was just a Timmy thing cuz Timdayas are annoying as idk what 🙄, but now I'm seeing it's just a Z thing I guess lol. 😅 It's HER choice!

I'm REALLY shocked at the Jack incident though, cuz she knows him pretty well by now lol 😆

[butmakeitgayblog]

Alright see now I have a conspiracy theory that all of you elite Clexa writers have gotten together and collectively decided to give the fandom masses a damn coronary with these updates. Over the course of two days no less than 6 WIPs I follow were updated, including TOH and Slopes, and just… fuck me I love you guys I’m so happy. But also you’re all diabolical and drunk on power.

[startaee]

EREN, BAKUGO, SUNA AND BAJI DURING A ZOMBIE INVASION !! (separately)

really rough work- like fr just me brainstorming rn.

reblogs are appreciated !

NOTE : this was written in JAN 31st on my wattpad acc !!

zombies, suicide, murder, betrayal, mentions of blood - its really not as dark as the warnings seem- like these are just plots but im putting trigger warnings cuz like they are all a summarised version of the oneshots . trust me this is just crack fluff and a lil angst all cool👌

okay so like i just watched all of us are dead and oh my fucking god. the plot, the acting, the characters, the directing- so good. it was so good oml and while watching it, i had this thing going in the back of my head ;

how would suna be with his crush during a zombie apocalypse?

suna tbh would definitely be in the volleyball practice room and wouldve called u to watch him n stuff. so you, suna, atsumu, osamu are literally the only ones there cuz idk- u n rin just flirting and like atsumu and osamu are like so done w yall like kiss already 🙁🙁 and then yall hear this loud ass scream oml so like yall are all confused like what happened ???? and then osamu goes out to check and comes back running and locks the door so fast lmao- atsumu is literally so fucking scared u guys like shaking rn 😱😱 and suna instinctively throws himself infront of u.

so like osamu is like "guys??? remember how we were talking about what would happen if zombies were real?"

"well they are, so we gotta do smthg-" and atsumu is like bro no omg i cant die n stuff and he's legit on the verge of tears- suna whips his phone out guys 😔✋ and literally starts a fucking insta live gbye- he's like, y/n stay here its not safe. and then he's peaking out of the window and raising his phone 🤳 like "guys look there's zombies at our school omg 😱" LMAO- but no fr like the volleyball gym is the best place to be at a time like this cause it has a bathroom and food and its got this big ass steel door lmaooo so yalls are safe and suna is documenting everything w ur phone cuz his battery ran out 😋🤘

how would katsuki (school! au) be with his crush during a zombie apocalypse?

this man will make sure nobody touches him or you. he wont mind sacrificing his classmates if he has to. but you? nah he's gonna make sure he protects you till his last breath. he wants to save himself too, but you're his first priority. so if he gets bitten, he's gonna tell you that he likes you and then kword himself 😔😔😔 but like he wont make a slip up like that so he'll live w u then take u for a date after this is all done lol

how would eren (school! au) be with his crush during a zombie apocalypse?

like he was practicing in the field w two of his teammates; jean, connie and his coach; levi. so they see some ppl running and screaming- and connie, while passing the ball to him, goes "lol bro what if its a zombie apocalypse" and jean is like "then he'll definitely confess to y/n" and they laugh 😂🤨😐😶☹️

then levi is like, "oi why are you kids running? what's the problem?" and then they're all still screaming. a few seconds in, and they see a janitor with a really red lips run towards the crowd. now these 4 ppl are actually smart, so they don't wait around and run out of the school right. levi is like get in my car guys hurry up. and eren is about to- then he's like oh fuck no. so he realises you may be in the school and stuff. so he's like guys, ily gtg. and connie is like fuck man, *abt to get out cause he aint gonna let his homie die alone like that* and jean is holding him back like nah bro he finna die, you finna die, we all finna die 😔✋ so levi has given eren some hockey kit he found in his trunk? idk like kneepads and just heavy full sleeves and facegear and thick pants so that he wont get bitten and eren wears his jacket over the tee, with the thing '10' written at the back, 10 is eren's jersey number and uk that cause you always have your eyes set on him when he's playing.

so he's on his way into the school and you're like frantically searching for him at the football field and look at the school door, and see his jersey and yell so loud "EREN DONT GO !!!" and he looks back like huh??? 🤨🤨🤨 and then the way he runs to u- 😭😭😭 literally picks u up and bolts so fast 😭😭😭 cause when you screamed, you attracted a ton of zombies. and levi is waiting there, the getaway driver. connie is praying that eren comes back, w or w/o u lol. and jean is giving him the side eye cause he's an atheist lmaoo- so yeah eren comes back, holding u in bridal style and gets in the car. levi is like wait check for bites, and jean is like, yeah bro we'll give you privacy😏😏😏

and then connie is like no fr check like what if she was bitten- and u didnt even have a small blood drop- turns out that you forgot u had school and came after the third period and when you came everything was chaotic. nevertheless, you still let eren check u for bites cause like that's so important in this situation and hes like "nah she doesn't have no bites." "yet. 😏🥴😉" LMAO

and how would baji be with his crush during a zombie apocalypse?

so we all know baji is a crazy man. now he's the type of guy who will beat everyone up and protect u at the same time. but like at the end, when yall are just abt to be saved, there's just one zombie left, you're trynna get onto the helicopter and he's obviously putting u before him, and then a zombie bites him and he goes, "i really like you. since I can't take you out on a date, can you consider this the best date of your life?"

and youre like screaming like omg naurrr n stuff lmao

[minty-marshmallow]

Hwarang [Ep 17]

Only 4 episodes to go (including this one)

We pick up where we left off, in the midst of a fighting scene with Seon Woo passing out at a critical moment. Which, we still haven't been told why this happens and I'm kind of annoyed with that aspect at this point. How hard is it to just explain it....like they don't have to have details just like "Oh he's got low iron" or something idk.

Maek Jong's right though, it's not her throne it's his. She still wants to hold on to it and hold on to power and he's right she's using him as an excuse to do it. She claims she's protecting him but, he's already almost been killed so it doesn't really matter at this point if he's hidden or not...does it? Oh, wait...did she dream that? Kinda a confusing scene to be honest. Okay, yeah she dreamed it I guess cuz she also dreamed that he tried to strangle her. Unless...?? Nah.

Imagine being a doctor and how horrible it is to watch this plague spread and not be able to do anything about it at all. Yeong Shil is the absolute worst disgrace to the country as a minister keeping all the medicine locked up and not giving the doctor any while all these people die.

Why are adults always using their children to fulfill their revenge plans or plots or whatever...it's ridiculous..they are children. Well, technically I guess the Hwarang are supposed to be like young men but whatever.

Ugh, not this typical scene where the 2nd female lead kisses the male lead and then misunderstandings and shit ugh. Typical...but hopefully they'll sort it out quickly. I don't want them to be at a misunderstanding up until the very end. Mam, he does not care that you are the princess lol why would he listen to your commands.

Okay, so the Queen said earlier that the Wonhwa had one jealous of the other and killed her. So is that what she's hoping will happen? That the Princess will try and kill Ah Ro? Sook Myeong stated, "I know why the Queen chose you, you irritate me!" Is that foreshadowing?

Oh so are they gonna attack Yeong Shil together or??? Haha, I love that Maek Jong and Seon Woo have to work together even though they don't like each other right now.

Awww Soo Yeon is so sweet, and she loves Ban Ryu so much. I really hope her love for him and his feelings for her can turn him around. I know love isn't the answer to everything, but I just KNOW that he wants to be a good person for her, a man that she would be worthy of. He's just gotta act on it.

Oh no, they're planning something big lol Seon Woo and Maek Jong looking for recruits haha. Oh no, Ban Ryu overheard. Ugh this bitch gonna go tattle I just know it, he ain't changed yet. UGH!!! I'm afraid they're going to fail because of Ban Ryu. Wait, is Ban Ryu helping to distract...omg maybe he's not so bad after all. Idk though, cuz this aint over yet.

YES! They got the medicine, and the people can be saved. Haha Ban Ryu I saw that little smirk after Soo Ho said thanks. He's really not a bad guy, but I feel like he's still gonna be tested in the next 3 episodes.

Woah so the Queen was a Wonhwa and killed the other girl? But, who was she?

Notes: Okay so I know that this is a pretty typical historical drama and has a lot of cliches of the genre but I genuinely enjoy it. Haha, I mean I already saw it coming that Moo Myung is like the rightful heir or whatever or at least of royal blood and can sit on the throne given the chance. It's gonna end up being a huge fight thing, I already know. Anyway, I like it though.

I can't wait for Yeong Shil and the Queen to get what's coming to them. Unlike in real life, in dramas, the bad guys always get their due. They always reap what they have sown.

[jumin-deserves-better]

My thoughts on all the Mystic messenger characters and their routes :

Ok, last week I finished playing the mystic messenger game. I completed all the routes, DLCs etc. And, OMG, WHAT A RIDE WAS THAT ! . It doesn't have any appealing plot like other otome games, but this game sure did capture my heart,which most of the otome games fail to do so. The fact I could relate to some of the characters, I felt bad for them, concerned, weirded out at times , and so happy when they changed into a happy person because of me. The game deserves all the praise it gets, 10/10 👍

In this post, I will give my rating based on my playthrough for each character, and I will also say who is my true route as well, i.e, the route I fell in love the most, And please remember, these are based on MY opinions alone, please don't come at me, if it doesn't match yours 👀, Feel free to share your opinions about the characters as well & this post is way long beware ~☆

My playthrough order : I followed the recommended playthrough to get a clear picture of the storyline.

Zen 》Yoosung》 Jaehee》 Jumin 》 Seven》 V 》 Ray.

And for your kind information, I never played this game to get a bad ending, i didn't want to hurt those precious fictional characters just for getting one CG 🤐, but I do know what happens

SPOILER FREE!, I will be just giving MY OWN ratings , except for the rika part lol don't worry, ladies.!

Anyways, let's just jump into it ;),

Zen 🤍:

THAT SMIRK THOUGH 😏

His route : 9/10 ( not the best route, but I liked it anyways, as he is my 1st route)

His character: 8/10 ( I don't like narcissism or narcissistic people, I know it was his coping mechanism, but I kind of dislike those type of men, his attitude in Jumin's route, kinda pissed me off apart from that , he is great ! )

Is he my true route ? : NO, I don't like guys who are narcissistic, I understand that that its was his coping mechanism, to make him believe in himself, but still being narcissistic all the time is not ok, I have a bad memory because of those type of guys, moreover, I am not that confident irl 😂 , I mean the MC in Zen's route,will have to say lots of weird ass choices, and the fact that will impress him⁉️, i wouldn't even say those choices irl to anyone . I wouldn't mind being friends with him though. He is definitely the ideal BF material, but he is just isn't for me..Sorry, Zen.😅

Yoosung 💚 :

AWW CUTIE 🥺💕

His route : 9/10 ( apart from the "You are just like Rika", I personally enjoyed his route, the character development was the best at the end 👌)

His character : 9/10 (OMG! He is just so cute, I am not the one to get attracted to the 'younger guy' type, but this guy just changed everything for me, but he needs lots of attention , beware, yandere yoosungs will pop out if u don't care about him enough, and the fact this guy was the only one who was supportive for Jumin's relationship with MC in Jumin's route , showed how much of a cutie he is!, unlike others 😒, he was a bit annoying in V's route, but it is understandable, he deserves to knw the truth about the person who he admires )

Is he my true route ? : Kind of a YES & a NO. Eventhough I enjoyed his route more than Zen, like I said earlier I am not into those 'younger guy' type, he is a guy who loves to be babied and protected by a mature MC , and well...I am not that mature either 😛,in reality, I am a independent person, but when it comes to relationships, i liked to be babied 😏. I personally think he deserves someone better than me, I don't want to ruin his happiness 🥺

Jaehee 🤎 :

A friend in need is a friend indeed, my bae,Jaehee! 😄

Her route : 7/10 ( ok, I am gonna be honest here, I did not enjoy her route, I was happy that she realized her dreams and goes for it, but do we have to ruin a character just for making this route dramatic? Yes, I am talking about Jumin, Do u guys even know, how much I struggled to even start Jumin's route, I was literally scared of him because of his potrayal in this route as that jerk which he was btw,this route actually made me avoid Jumin for sometime.I expected the relationship between Jumin and Jaehee to become a healthy one, but oh well, whatever, & the after ending was just frustrating,all the RFA members just isolated Jumin, seriously, eventhough he did wrong things ,I felt so bad for him, imagine his thoughts at that moment , ugh...Jaehee deserves a better route, I am just not a fan of 'downgrading one character to give more importance to the main one', it's just bad writing)

Her character : 8/10 ( she is an amazing friend, a bit mature one at that. But personally i felt , if she really wanted to pursue her dreams ,she could have resigned, if she is not liking it . She was behaving a bit ignorant at times, especially in Zen's route. She could have communicated with Jumin beforehand about her difficulty in handling the job? I knw it's very difficult to suddenly quit the job, but she has every right to resign,she does have the money to open a coffee shop, thn why?. Don't come at me, and tell me that I hate her just because she is a female character,HELL NO, I like her but still her route made me have mixed feelings. She was being rude at times , I really understood why CHERTIZ did this, to show women can liberate themselves to work for their dreams, but in a professional point of view, I still think the route could have been handled better. Small businesses success isn't as easy to get, and in my point of view it would have been nice to show how MC and Jaehee make it through in her route rather than making Jumin a jerk, because it ruined Jumin at first for not only me but also a number of players ,but oh well,🏃‍♀️, I do like her, she could be a great friend, nothing more that that )

Is she my true route? : NO, I am straight. I see Jaehee as a friend. Some ask a romantic route for her, but I don't mind about that , I was just glad that I could help her to realize her dreams as a FRIEND.

Jumin 💜 :

I don't see a selfish jerk here, I see a soft boi , in a gigantic body, who is just lonely

His route : 10/10 ( Seriously, I did not expect to like his route one bit, I thought I would hate him more, but turns out, I freaking fell in love with the flawed "him" , HECK YEAH! this was the only route where i was being TRUE TO MYSELF, did not refer any guides, understood his loneliness, I could relate to him so bad, I was happy to help him during his vulnerable times 🤧.Zen was annoying ,but I didn't care much about it, because I knw why he was like this. I prefer the good ending, and yes he does propose for marriage to whom he have talked for only 11 days, but I was very sure he will listen to you, if u don't want the marriage immediately )

His character : 9/10 ( He is so cute in his own way,mature, intelligent,awkward and even gets insecure,because he thinks he does not deserve you?! , you deserve better than me ,Jumin 😫, he does get possessive and irrational and that could make others uncomfortable, but for me, I understood that as well, being an empath myself ,as this dude never had a relationship with anyone,he is new into this, I don't mind teaching him new things about the world, about love. His characterization in Jaehee's route was god awful and cheritz did a bad job in it , I think they decided to make him like this, just for DRAMA,Jumin might have a bad way of showing emotions but he is not a soul less demon. I have seen people calling Jumin an abuser, but I didn't see that at all, he was being an idiot and he acknowledges it, every damn time, an abuser doesn't do this at all, and no..I don't think Jumin is dominant daddy material one bit like how the fandom perceives him. This is his first relationship with a woman, I feel he would be sweet, embarrassed loving and a loyal husband material, and I love his "opposed to living together before marriage" thing as well, as my religion follows that too as well )

Is he my true route? : A. BIG. FAT. YES. HE IS JUST MY TYPE, dear lord. I have never seen someone so perfect and also with flaws just like me , this guy made me realize that all along, I just never showed empathy towards others and that's why no one wanted to talk to me irl, I didn't care what people told about me. He seriously made me understand my own flaws and I corrected it, he made me into a better person, big thx , Mr.Jumin . Morever , I was being myself in his route only, I loved all of his calls , he brings up the strangest things just to talk to you, that's just so cute WTH , this man will be so loyal I am sure of it !.I don't really care about his riches, I am just in love with his true self 😫🥺

707 ❤ :

The main man of this game, hmmm....

His route : 7/10 ( ok, I was so hyped to play his route , cuz even before I started to play this game, 707 was so popular, I expected a lot, but it was a meh for me...he did have a VERY HEARTBREAKING PAST , he was suffering from a lot of things, I understand. But the whole route wasn't that gud though...and his secret endings are just painfully depressing and angsty, V's death just broke my heart, I felt so frickin bad for Jumin, how would he even handle those things?.It just destroyed me completely. Moreover I don't find 707's jokes funny at times, his route had good plot, but 707 failed to impress me in his own route)

His character : 7/ 10 ( oh boi,I am scared that I would be slaughtered with hatred for telling this, the fact that he was faking his own personality was very shocking to me, I did not expect that. I despise tsunderes ,and 707 is the literal definition of it, so yeah, It ended up being annoying for me. Even though I was hella depressed like 707 before, I couldn't find him #relatable at all. I don't knw why , but I couldn't see him more than a friend 🚶‍♀️)

Is he my true route? : NOPE. I was not impressed by him at all, don't knw why lol, I tried to like him as he is THE REAL TRUE ROUTE,but it is still not getting into my heart, maybe because I already started to love Jumin, idk. I felt bad for 707, I wouldn't mind helping him as a friend, but as a significant other...NAH....,I am not into these type of guys 🥴,sorry seven...

V 💙 :

I can understand why Jumin and V were best friends...they be looking like DADDY 👀

His route : 8 /10 ( for me, I was happy that V finally understood that he was basically a obsessive simp for Rika, I hated that he blamed himself more, which somehow I agree, I feel like he could have said something to the RFA , yoosung was hella annoying in this route, he spoke as if Rika is an angel or something, which she is not btw, yoosung, she brainwashed saeran and freakin created a cult, and this is not something an angel would do 🥴, V is not just flawed or anything,he doesn't even love himself,and so clings to rika because she was so wonderful in her eyes as an idea .He kept the freakin truth hidden,just because Rika doesn't want to, of course, my baby,yoosung will ask about . V is too emotional,and he was a victim of rika's abuse and manipulation just like Saeran,I liked the plot and though I didn't fall in love with him , I did have a tinsy bit of crush on him, mainly because of his looks, more like a puppy love, the voice acting was on point 👌)

His character : 7/ 10 ( boi could have handled the situation with his crazy GF much better, he actually let Saeran get brainwashed by Rika, he could have done something, and the fact that he liked Rika only as an idea, showed that this guy was in a very toxic relationship, Rika and V are the perfect example of what happens when two people who doesn't love themselves date, and he was clearly the victim of Rika's abuse and manipulation. I also don't think he is an angel either, he has done some wrong things definitely, and the fandom should acknowledge his wrong doings)

Is he my true route? : NO. Though Jumin and V are very similar , I did not like the fact that he simped for his crazy GF out of his obsession alone and though, she was clearly showing red flags earlier, he thinks that the power of love can change her lol . He was so confusing for me to understand. 😂

Ray 💖 :

His route : 10/10 ( The drama , the music, the plot & the voice acting was just fantastic, I was blown away by this route, but that doesn't mean I liked Saeran as a character, the boi needs therapy, not romance lol, sry,and the recovery from his brainwashed state was unrealistic )

His character : 7/10 ( seriously, the voice acting for both the personalities was just mind blowing, he is such a well written character, but his abandonment issues isn't something u should romanticize about, he loved the affection that the MC was giving , but one wrong move, he will change just like that , he confused affection with love. Some are telling that Jumin was abusive, which he is not btw , for me, suit Saeran was super abusive, WTH)

Is he my true route ? : HELL NO. Eventhough he was practically innocent because he was under the influence of that elixir or some kind of a drug and brainwashed by Rika , I would never in my life try to have a romantic relationship with those kind of people. I may like him after he receives proper therapy ,but NO, just No, I can help him as a person, but I wouldn't go for a kiss or something with him. 🙄

Rika 💔:

This scene still gives me goosebumps 🙄

Her character : -infinity / 20 ( she deserves this uwu)

SPOILERS AHEAD!

Ok, hear me out, I hate Rika so much , i know she has been through a lot, i really do.. but it doesn't mean you can emotionally abuse and brainwash Saeran, he would have been a better person,she turned a person who loves ice cream and cloud watching into a self destructive psycho, another story showed how much she is capable of by her words , She manipulated V to not tell RFA that she is gonna start a cult, WHAT THE HELL, V, do you not knw what she is trying to do here 😳 ? But whatever,V was being manipulated by her "playing as a victim" tactics, she also played with Jumin's feelings for her, I was about to throw my hands on her, how dare u do that to my man ??, made yoosung to obsess over her to make him think that she is absolutely a gud person, and left him to ponder over her so called 'passing' , making him unable to move on from her.

And oh god,the backstory did not make me feel bad for her one bit, it only made me understand why she has become like this. Like dude, I understood she had a shitty past, but so did the other members of RFA, but did they all become like a manipulative victim player? Hell no.. they learned from their mistakes and they change, but even when all the members were trying to help her, she denies that she doesn't need a therapy. She deserves a proper mental therapy and a proper jail time. NO EXCUSE FOR THAT, she did the same manipulation and brainwashing for all of her disciples to get them into Mint eye.

But as a character , Rika just rocked it for me , she was so successful in making me and a lot of the fans hate her as an antagonist. Her voice actor was so gud,she had such a good way of speaking manipulative, like God, I understood why all the RFA members were all kind of whipped for her, she is such a master piece as an antagonist. 🚶‍♀️🤫

Vanderwood 💞👀 :

I NEED A VANDERWOOD ROUTE 😫

His character: 10/10 idk, why am I giving a rating for him though? I just love him 😂

Ok, I know he is a side character, but for some reason, I liked him more than 707 lol 👀, I just spoke with him only in one chatroom , but boi , was I whipped for him 😜

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My favourite to least MM main characters and routes :

JUMIN - 19/20 ( 1st)

YOOSUNG - 18/20 (2nd)

ZEN & RAY - 17/ 20 ( 3rd)

V & JAEHEE - 15 / 20 ( 4th )

707 - 14 / 20 ( 5th, it's not that I hate him or something, it's just that I was neither IMPRESSED by his character nor the route, I don't mind him one bit! )

Rika -Though she doesn't have a route or a gud character she deserves a -infinity/20 ( and no place in my heart 🚶‍♀️)

Overall, this game is the best otome game ! , I actually paid for getting the hourglasses, I mean, I suck at patience, I was so intrigued by the story, but it was seriously worth it !. There are a number of otome games which charge more than this.

Anyways,

Thank you, Cheritz for creating Mystic messenger. This game totally changed how I perceived life, love ❤ and Romance 💕

[avigenshin]

Oc Idea (Note: This is gonna have a lot of missing info and plot holes cuz i just wrote this for fun and didn’t give too much thought into it) (It’s also gonna be a little messy)

Name: Ava

Age: 15,000

Appearance: White hair and baby blue eyes. (She also has albinism)

-Ava is the princess of a highly respected and prosperous kingdom. The royal family of said kingdoms are the descendants of long forgotten gods and have ruled over the country for millennia.

-The royal family also aged slower than the average human and also held some traits later developed in life due to their lineage such as immunity to poison, the ability to float, etc. Traits differ from each person in the royal family.

-Ava has an identical twin brother named Aaron. Unlike Aaron who was born healthy Ava was born with a weak constitution. Due to this the young princess was abandoned at a long forgotten and old palace with few maids to take care of her.

-However due to her weak condition no one wanted to take care of her except for a young lady by the name of marianne. Marianne was a woman with blonde hair and pink eyes. Marianne had taken care of the princess as a way to cope with the loss of her younger sister. Giving the princess the love that she could not give to her sister.

- 20 Years passed and the princess was now 2 years old. Ava was a bright and cheerful child that longed for the love of her parents. She could never understand why she was abandoned. Had she done something wrong to displease them? She always thought

-Truthfully, It was due to her older twin brother, Aaron. Aaron was known as a genius due to the fact that he could pick up and learn subjects faster than his peers and was always praised for it. Whilst Ava who only had Marianne to teach her what limited knowledge she had could never compare to him.

-One day, on her 4th birthday. She decided to pick some berries in the nearby forest so that she could bake a cake with Marianne when she happened to stumble across a man with white hair and golden eyes.

-The man introduced himself as Runi. Curious, Runi asked the princess what she was doing here and they talked until late into the day. After that fateful encounter the princess would often sneak into the forest to talk to Runi.

- Years passed and Marianne had met her end. Runi took pity on the princess as she had no one else to turn to and offered to stay by her side and teach. The princess not wanting to be alone agreed and became his pupil.

-During her studies under her new master/teacher. She met Runi’s other pupils, a man with black hair and emerald green eyes by the name of Treyton and another man with baby blue hair and orange eyes by the name of Ethan.

-One day, guards swarmed the palace and took the princess to take her onto the battlefield. This was due to the fact that their kingdom was now at war and each noble including the royal family must send a representative from their family to go into battle for their family’s honour. The king and queen not wanting to risk their son’s life chose to send the princess to war instead.

-They justified it as “mercy” for the young princess as she was born with a young constitution and was bound to die soon.

-Thankfully,her master had taught her some skills to defend herself. She managed to survive by using her wits and small stature.

-She however, while patrolling the area managed to stumble across a boy that looked to be of the same age as her. Not noticing that the boy was from the enemy kingdom she called out to the boy and asked if he needed assistance.

-The boy was not interested in idle conversation and immediately lunged for the princess and after what felt like hours of fighting. The princess, out of sheer dumb luck managed to pin the boy to the ground.

-The princess not wanting to harm the boy as he seemed to be in the same situation as her offered her assistance. To which the boy laughed in her face “You're as young as I am not to mention you’re far less experienced than I am. How could you possibly help me?”

-She grew silent and drew her blade. The boy shut his eyes thinking that the princess was going to strike him but then he heard a clinking sound. It was the sound of his collar falling to the ground.

-”How did you…” “My master taught me that!” She exclaimed proudly. The boy after much contemplation decided that he would let the princess help him as she seemed to be much more skillful than she lets on.

-The boy introduced himself as Ray. He explained that he was taken as a slave/soldier by the enemy king after his parents died due to his powers. He was trained as a killing machine and was not allowed to rest until his training had been completed.

- Together, the princess disguised Ray as a knight of her kingdom and they both managed to slip away unnoticed due to the chaotic battlefield. The enemy king yelled at Ray for treason and threatened to murder Ray if he did not kill the princess.

-Ray became quiet and drew his bow at the princess only to shoot the king at the last second and push him off a cliff where he met his demise.

-After the war, Ray was welcomed into the kingdom and was brought in as an honorary knight for his bravery. He was also offered a position as the prince’s personal guard but declined insisting that he would rather stay with the princess who set him free.

-Thus,Ray became a pupil of Runi. Together, the four pupils and their master were inseparable and did everything together. However, the war had taken a lot out of the princess. She collapsed one day and got sick due to it.

-The fact that none of the maids took care of her only made her condition worse and Ray who was only taught to fight had no clue how to help the princess. Her fellow pupils had their own lives and were not able to take care of her 24/7. There was a high chance that the princess would pass away soon.

(At this point I no longer have anymore brain cells so pls bare with me)

-Runi who had gotten too close to her, refused to let her die and so he saved her using his godly magic. Truth be told Ravi is an ancient god that is related to the Royal family however he can’t tell Ava the truth or he will be forbidden from talking to her again.

-After this incident, the princess got better however she and Ray were once again thrown into war . However, unlike the previous war this one had lasted for 10 years. During the 10 years the third prince was born and Aaron was crowned as crown prince.

-However, after the war Ava and Ray had both received official titles and were given better treatment from the maids and butlers. Ava had won multiple battles for the kingdom and was given the position of “General”. At the young age of 10.

-While the princess’ reputation grew so did the bond between her and her twin and younger brother. Despite the fact they grew up differently they had a lot in common. The same could not be said about her relationship between the princess and her parents. She grew to despise them more and more as she grew older and always argued with her parents about everything.

-One fateful day, her parents died due to a car crash. However, the prince was 17 and not of age yet to take the king’s place. There were several arguments about this until a person proposed that they let both the twins rule under the supervision of the royal council and by some miracle everyone agreed. （Don’t ask me how or why idk either lmao)

-And thus began her rule as a queen (ig i don’t know. I’m really tired lmao)

-I’m too lazy to type properly so meh-

-So like- during her rule she one day finds a dragon kid in a burned down village cuz she took pity on him. The dragon’s name is Ravi. Shenanigans happens and she eventually adopts the dragon kid. However, there were multiple protests from everyone. She was like nah f ya’ll i’m keeping him >:D.

-She then got kidnapped at some point in her life and almost got married to some crazy prince but Ray killed him so we good now.

-Then, a child was abandoned by the castle. So she took it in and raised it as her own. She named her “Celeste”

-Then, she found a third kid who’s a mermaid named Ceru who was injured by the shore and at first she wasn’t gonna adopt him but then his mom died and she had to take him home lol.

(That’s pretty much all i got for now)

I wanna d i e now i remember why i don't write much lmao

[apricotpicotty]

words cant explain how much i love infjs

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH HONG KONG AGAINST THE CCP!

You both like mbti.

Stranger: Hello

You: hii

You: how's it going?

Stranger: Good wby?

You: alright

You: wht's you type?

Stranger: Infj

Stranger: Wby

You: intj 8w7

You: how old are you?

Stranger: 8w7?

Stranger: Im 18

You: tht's the enneagram, 8w7

Stranger: How old are you?

Stranger: Oh i haven't taken that test

Stranger: Is it worth it?

You: turned 18 last month

Stranger: Doesn't mbti tell you everything

You: idk it looks pretty next to the mbti type ig

You: i took the test just for the sake of it

Stranger: Oh I see i turned 18 2 months ago

You: ayee happy belated birthday dude

Stranger: You too dude

Stranger: Happy birthday

You: :)))

You: so what brought you here?

Stranger: I don't even know, I just came here

Stranger: It's pretty late here

Stranger: Im getting ready for bed

Stranger: What's the time for you

You: it's 1:27am here, i should sleep too but my parents are screaming outside so i can't really sleep

Stranger: Oh you're from India too

You: high five 🙌

Stranger: Yeah

Stranger: What is your name

You: does it really matter?

You: wht;s yours? you turned 18 before me

You: so you should tell yours first

You: lol

Stranger: Jeez lmao

Stranger: Too much to think about

Stranger: My name is varun

You: disha

You: tht's my name

You: nice to meet ya

Stranger: Yeah nice to meet you too

Stranger: How long does it take for to take the ennegram thing

Stranger: Enneagram*

You: i took many and the longest one was of 20mins

You: i don't remember which one it was exactly but ig you'll find it on google

Stranger: Yeah I'll find it

Stranger: What got you into mbti

Stranger: When did you find out about it

You: i don't really remember cuz it was during pandemic...

You: maybe it was my friend yea ig it was her

You: wby?

Stranger: Yeah, my ex asked me to take the test 2 years ago

You: wht was your ex's mbti type?

Stranger: She was an infp

You: did she break up with you cuz according to the mbti community you two aren't the golden pair?

Stranger: Nah bruh lmao that would've been dunb

Stranger: Dumb*

Stranger: We didn't break up i got dumped lmao

You: yea ik tht happened to my friend, she broke up cuz of tht reason lol

Stranger: We always had an on and off relationship

Stranger: It got toxic

Stranger: She'd breakup and come back again and again and I'd always let her come back when i finally gained some sense

Stranger: And decided to stop

Stranger: Bruh hahahha

Stranger: Breaking up because of mbti

Stranger: Imagine

You: ikr tht's dumb as shit you're right

You: well...ig all's well if it ends well. hope you're better now

Stranger: Yeah yeah I'm better

Stranger: I recently started to look more into this mbti thing

Stranger: Earlier I stopped caring about it thinking it's some kind of zodiac shit

Stranger: Lmao

You: you know you're too much into mbti when you start typing random strangers and even your familyT-T

Stranger: Hahaha

Stranger: What you got your parents to take the test too?

You: i made my mom take tht test

You: she's an infj and typed my dad my self, he's an istp

Stranger: What is her type

You: fucked up ik

Stranger: Oh hahaha that's kinda impressive

You: you find it impressive ??? bro anything but tht

Stranger: I'd try to make my parents take the test

You: how did it go?

Stranger: I mean you got your parents to take the test

Stranger: Impressive

Stranger: I didn't do it yet. Im saying I'll try to

Stranger: They're never home so when they come back

You: ooo i get it.. you can type them yourself if you're tht curious

Stranger: Nah

Stranger: I want accurate results

You: haha i get it

You: are u in 12th or did you pass out ?

Stranger: I just passed out

Stranger: Wby

You: same

Stranger: What state do you live in?

You: delhi

You: hby?

Stranger: Oh my family is always moving but i live in jaipur rn

Stranger: Im from shimla

You: wow tht's cool, i've been there a few times

Stranger: I have ALOT of friends from delhi

Stranger: They are from dps rkp

Stranger: What school are you from?

Stranger: I might know

You: bleehh my school hates dps

Stranger: Lmao is that so

You: nah giving my school name is risky, i'm the only disha in my batch and it'll easy to find me

You: uk in short stranger danger

Stranger: Hahah fair enough

You: how

You: is your college admissions going?

Stranger: Well I got into some colleges already but I'm waiting for my dream college

Stranger: Wby

You: same a lot of colleges are already willing to take but i'm yet to decide

You: this year's been hectic

Stranger: Are you going abroad?

Stranger: Yeah true

Stranger: This year has been stressful

You: was planning to but my parents aren't allowing so i need to wait till i get my bachelor's degree here

You: hby?

Stranger: Well my dream college is in India but I have been selected in a universities abroad do if i dokt get in the India wala then abroad it is

Stranger: In*

Stranger: So*

Stranger: Fucking autocorrect

You: haahaha it's alright i'm okay with typos

You: tht's great bud, wish you the best

Stranger: Thankyou so much it's a relief

Stranger: Yeah and goodluck with whatever you plan on doing

You: thanks

You: ig you should sleep now, dark circles aren't really likable

Stranger: Hahaha I'm working rn

Stranger: I'll sleep after i get over with this

You: now? it's almost 2

You: you aren't really "working" on omegle

Stranger: Intership work

Stranger: On my laptop

Stranger: I have Omegle open on my phone

You: ahh i see multitasking

You: good luck with tht

Stranger: Yeah I have expertise in that

You: tht's something award worthy isnt it

You: wht kind of music genre are you into?

Stranger: You're the first one to notice this talent

Stranger: Ah tbh i listen to almost any song i like from any genre

Stranger: Wby?

Stranger: But

Stranger: My some of my fav artists are the neighborhood artic monkeys

You: exCuSe me?? fucking NBHD and arctic monkeys dude i love them soo muchh

You: i'm literally playing 505 rn

Stranger: Hahah I'm Planning sweater weather rn

Stranger: Playing*

You: yea tht's song's worthy of all the hype

Stranger: Do you wanna know

Stranger: Best

You: do I wanna know dude

Stranger: I*

You: i'm minding the typos rn

You: lmao

Stranger: Yes there you go

Stranger: Hahahaha

You: i've been into folklore and evermore by ts these days, i regret not listening to her albums when they were released

Stranger: Ah i haven't listened to her much

Stranger: I used to listen to the og songs

Stranger: Alot

Stranger: Blank space

Stranger: That cheerleader wala song

Stranger: You belong with me yess

Stranger: That song

You: i had a blank space cringe phase and i don't regret it lmao

Stranger: Also paper rings is nice

You: yea yea such a cute song aaaaaaa

Stranger: Hahahahaha tell me about it

You: like i used to sing it in the back of the bus while coming back home from school and all the other swifties would join in now looking back from another pov it was cringe

Stranger: Hahahah you think that is cringe?

Stranger: Bro i fucking sang the despicable me so g infront of my batch in 7th

Stranger: Song*

You: wowow legend

You: varun supremacy

You: you should check out "cigarette daydreams" by cage the elephant, i feel like it should get more recognition

Stranger: Yeah I'll check it out

You: do you read books in general?

You: like excluding the academic ones

Stranger: Well I write too

Stranger: Yes yes

You: which one was your favourite?

Stranger: Paranormality

Stranger: Let me guess

Stranger: You read poetry

You: i do, i finished all of Sylvia plath's poetry

Stranger: I know this poet called rumi

You: now i'm getting into the hyped books on internet and surprisingly they're great

Stranger: My sister has his books

Stranger: I see

Stranger: Do you write?

You: i journal daily but i can't really write like a author

You: you get what i'm trying to say

Stranger: I see, understandable

Stranger: I have never really read poetry

Stranger: I write philosophy and the title of my book is "the main character" because to everyone they are the main character

You: i usually read poetry cuz it helps me give a different perspective to situations

Stranger: Interesting

You: are you planning to publish it in the future?

Stranger: Yeah i definitely will

Stranger: You see

Stranger: We cannot prove anyone's consciousness other than ours

Stranger: You're the only main character to uou

Stranger: You*

Stranger: Everyone else can be a simulation or an illusion

Stranger: Everything happens for you not to you

You: wow, i'll definitely buy your book

You: promise

Stranger: Hahahah I'll give you a discount

You: you already have a fan

Stranger: Damn feeling proud

Stranger: To have disha as my fan

You: good luck with it, you'll succeed for sure!

Stranger: That is very nice of you, thankyou and I'm sure you'll find success in whatever path you choose in life since you are "the main character"

You: 💪 likewise bud

Stranger: Yeah

You: you should read "normal people" by sally rooney, kinda hyped up and there's also a show about it

You: the protagonists is an infj

Stranger: Oh yess i saw that shows thumbnail In a youtube video

You: Protagonist*

Stranger: Oh I'll check it out then

You: i loved it altho i kinda wished the makers were more focused on the characters and sticked to the actual scenes rather than making the show just for the sake of it

You: nonetheless it was great

Stranger: Is it a rom com?

You: i'd suggest you read the book before starting the show or else it'll take all the fun out of it

You: there's no com but yea there's rom

You: lol tht sounds weird

Stranger: Alright I'll read the book first

Stranger: Hahahah

Stranger: Im reading Greek mythology rn

Stranger: I'll read it after this

You: you can check out 1lib.in it has literally every books for free

You: ahh i was thinking of starting greek mythology too but never got the time

You: i'm not promoting 1lib.in but it does have free books

Stranger: Oh thanks but you know I'll probably get the book. It's just something with me that u need to collect books lmao

Stranger: I*

You: ik i do tht too but when the books on amazon are wayy too expensive i have no other choice but to switch to digital ones

Stranger: Greek mythology is really interesting you should definitely try to make time for it

Stranger: Ah I see fair enough

You: i will i will i really want to but ig i'm not starting it cuz i want to read it with a clear mind

Stranger: I wanna build a library in my house

Stranger: Yeah sounds good

You: broo ikr i wanna place all the books in a rainbow

You: tht'd be soo cutee

Stranger: I want it to have a dark English aesthetic

Stranger: If YK what i mean

You: for now i have stuffed all my books in my wardrobe T-T

Stranger: Hahahha

You: ye ayea ikkk dark academia isn't it

Stranger: My books are on my desk

Stranger: Oh yesss

Stranger: Dark academia

Stranger: I want all the books there to be read by me

You: my desk doesnt have space for new books there's barely any space to do work lol

Stranger: Or they don't go up on the shelf

Stranger: Hahaha i see

You: ahh books and sleep are the best thing one can ever experience

Stranger: I have an unhealthy obsession with space, Planets the moon and the stars

Stranger: Can't agree more

You: have you been into astronomy since you were a kid?

You: cuz same

Stranger: Dude same

Stranger: You know what

You: yea?

Stranger: Shit i don't tell this to anyone but the dream college I'm going to is where I'm going to study astrophysics and astronomy

Stranger: Im studying to be an astronaut

Stranger: Space makes me overwhelming happy

You: do you want to get into iiser?

Stranger: I can go all day talking about it lmao

Stranger: Nah

Stranger: IIST

You: ahh i was selected in tht one, i can join isro after iiser

You: cool dudeee

Stranger: I got into University of Michigan to study aerospace in but IIST offers more opportunities if i stay on top of the list

Stranger: Oh that is sick

Stranger: Tell me what you want to do

Stranger: Tell me your dream

You: shit bro tht's soooo coolll you'll really make it out but please publish your book too i really wan to read it

Stranger: Yess i definitely will

Stranger: I have some pages on my Google docs i can send you ss of

You: i want to be a neurosurgeon actually but i gave all entrances cuz i had the subjects.

You: are you on discord?

You: i would love to read themm

Stranger: Oh i have great respect for that

Stranger: Yeah I'm on discord

You: astxrism#1063 tht's me add me if tht's okay

Stranger: Wait lemme send the req

You: aight

Stranger: Sent

You: got itt

Stranger: Let's talk on discord

Stranger: Im leaving this

You: aight

You have disconnected.

[pokefanbri]

Im still fucking fighting, i keep telling myself im not gonna let go & Fuck everyone else who thinks I should. But sometimes there's the opposite, im just lost & idk what to do....hes not gonna come back...so why should I bother to keep fighting 😔 If someone asks me...

Are they worth it? Absolutely. Because theres always room for improvement & growth, & we've been doing that apart for ourselves now for 7months. Did they give u the respect and attention u deserved? Are we not more valuable than that? Hell no & hell yes lol. Look I was happy just doing that for him but yea when it came to me honestly it was like nah im good 😒 & i know how fucked up it is that id go along with his selfishness but I did. I did deserve better & he knows I did... i just didnt wanna lose him & did anything he needed me for... but I ended up losing him anyway 😔 theres a reason why u work on that kinda shit & grow together as you go so everyone is happy, its fair to say we both lost sight...I was eager to learn everything about him cuz I wanted to be closer...but I was blocked out & pushed away, he wouldn't open up & talk to me or show feelings for anything, even of me when he used to all the time...like he was scared of being too attached or didnt want to get hurt..he didnt trust me or was afraid to show his true self or show any emotion that'd be viewed as weak due to the typical be a man complex. Idk I was confused & didnt know what was needed to help fix things so yea i walked on eggshells & me showing affection of my own free will was out of the question most of the time...I couldn't touch him unless he wanted me to & rare occurrences for my own satisfaction. Its the reason why I cried all the damn time, I felt avoided & unwanted because my own attention lacked pretty badly. How tf do I love a fucknugget bobblehead like that lmao, cuz I dont give 2 flying fucks he was my man ok! & being close enough to him made me happy enough I guess, I still looked at him like he was my world even if I wanted to slap him for making me feel so lonely at the same time. I admit his needs came b4 mine, he liked it more that way & I took care of him more than I did myself. But if he had more effort to take care of my needs in turn & I were happier than I was, & us happy at the same time, then maybe I wouldn't be so hard on myself...cry all the time & smoke like a chimney 🙁

I still don't fully understand why he held back, communicating with me on a deeper level is supposed to be natural & pretty much all normal couples show an appropriate amount of affection & understanding to eachother....but it was kept burried...was he afraid id hate him, judge him, make fun? No, id love him even more! Idc how dark he may think he is or whatever past bs he's gone through or even if he was lying about anything...its okay it can't hurt u anymore dear & we can overcome it just tell me what it is thats lacking & let's fix this. Id say "sit down babe, tell me everything, whats on your mind, what can I do to help 😊" & id give him the most gentle kiss on the forehead. I'd do anything to see a smile from that face & it makes me smile too. I want to help him, he needs somebody to hold just as much as I do cuz the fact of the matter is babe, he's just as broken as I am, we both need someone to put back our pieces & become whole again...after we try doing it solo it can only go so far b4 u want that physical presence of another again to help u more so. He keeps everything bottled up & especially didnt let me see what was happening to him I had no clue, if he didnt like talking to anyone he at least had me but still kept me away from him, whatever it was festered in him & he changed his whole demeanor toward me, he became colder & shut me out for good 😔 Making me feel even more unwanted. We didnt help eachother through our problems & I really wanted to, I wanted to save us for the longest time way b4 the end. Idk maybe if he put in as much effort & we knew how to function better together instead of a Corolla with just 2 wheels then we'd probably be fine...& our suspension wouldn't be dragging on the asphalt 😂 Its not all on him for fault, I take equal amount of responsibility, we failed eachother, we didn't know wtf we were doing & 9/10 it was just friends with benefits with only 1 of us in love & attached, & the other not really caring with side pieces to chat with 🤷‍♀️

U know what 🤬 They're right, he's right, & now I'm actually starting to accept it the more I write. Maybe just maybe,HE DOESN'T DESERVE ME AT ALL. Im still upset and frustrated. To answer the question again from earlier no maybe he's not worth it. I suffered through his bs and 10fold heartbreak afterward!! If he can't own up, right his wrongs & bring us both peace then no he's not worth suffering for afterall, and ive been loving the wrong soul this whole damn time 😣 He kicked me to the curb cuz he a fucking coward! He cant admit his wrongdoings, ask for forgiveness, say im sorry or actually put the tiniest bit of effort into a relationship to make it work, but instead disposes of me so he wouldn't have to confront any of it & just continue on like nothing happened are fucking kidding me!!?? I thought u were smarter than this, its beneath you to just run away & pretend I never mattered to you when we both know I did!!!....& im crying again. Im still feeling the betrayal apparently, ill never be able to trust him fully again anyway, let alone other men now. I dont hate you, I love you very much. But I hate the evil from you that you've shown me. I should've known honestly, I was naive to see all types of disrespect but this was the worst part. I still love him but i do deserve better than that & I hope he's changed his ways. Trust a guy with a high track record of ladies & a handful of em in their hand..what u think 🤔 can trust be gained back? Can I get over the bad uncalled for lying shit he's said about me to other women to make himself look better? Idk 🤷‍♀️ I haven't been able to rest without closure for so long, but enough is enough im making my own. You're absolutely right, you'd just manipulate me further, I thought maybe we could be better than before...round 2 at some point in the future...but maybe we're not salvageable after all. Thats up to u, I did everything I could, but now if u were to ever come back idk if I'd jump into your arms or slam the door in your face, I just dont know. Its better that I try never speaking of u again, or think of you for as long as I can so that I can heal better....cuz loving you even after the fact is tearing me apart & making me lose focus on what matters more, myself. I fought valiantly as long as I could, 7 months is a long time to not shut up about u lol.. maybe you've been hearing me I wouldn't know. I have to force it or ill never be able to, ill still silently grieve but as much as it hurts, Its time. U were my rock, an asshole but a good one, the best gamer I got to know, a boss at alot of things, with the cutest lil butt, & somehow the love of my life. Other than maybe something valentines or anniv related in Feb ofcourse....Ur getting what u wanted, I have to do whats best for me now, I have to let u go. I held on for so long but Im really tired & emotionally drained, im just torturing myself when i need to stop, im defeated, nobody won anything, everyone got hurt in 2020 why should our relationship be any different, id say we gave it our all be we both know we didnt. This hurts me so much to do, like my heart is breaking again. Bye babe, I love you with all my heart. 💋💞 💟

I tried to do what I could but if he left, I just gotta try to move on. If I take him back, I gotta consider how that's gonna look like & if I really got past the damage he did....obviously theres some I still haven't 😔 Its what im telling myself while trying to move past this. Others going through the same...We're in love and they ain't. We can't control their actions but we can control our actions. Im not a toxic person..only to myself, I love with all my heart, nobody bothers to understand...they just judge

[thisismypersonalsanctuary]

3/3/14

G: don't act like girls don't love it too

A: Depends

G: what do you mean?

A: Girls do love it but it depends

G: onnn

A: The dude. Positions. A lot of stuff lol

G: well what makes you like it?

A: Hahaha guys that can stay hard. Good positions. Rough but not too bad depending on my mood

G: well how's a guy supposed to know your mood so he can know how to be? and really? staying hard has been a problem?

G: what's good positions to you?

A: Because I can usually do what my mood is so then they'll know. Yes that's been an issue lol.

G: lol I'm sorry to hear. idk how that could be an issue. you're gorgeous.

A: Well it has been more often than not lol

G: that's shocking to me.

A: Why?

G: you're gorgeous

A: Doesn't mean anything lol

G: what positions do you like the most since you mentioned that was important?

A: Hah I mean the normal ones? For the back, on top or on bottom

G: well you said that was important. are there like ones you don't like?

A: Nah. Sometimes depending on my mood I won't wanna do a certain one

G: and which one is that?

A: No like depending on my mood I might not like doggy or won't wanna be on too

G: oh I see. well how is anyone supposed to know what mood your in?

G: it could be easy to mistake it as you not wanting sex

A: Because if he goes to move I won't do it haha

A: I guess that's true but idk. I've never had that issue I guess lol. I usually just keep going with whatever it is or I'll move to one I wanna do

A: Like sometimes I feel fat and don't wanna be on top or I don't wanna have my legs up so I'll keep them down. Or if I feel like my ass is too fat or something I won't do doggy

G: what. you have a great ass alex. really. it never looks bad lol. but yeah I understand if at times you don't like certain things. I don't wanna do things that you don't wanna do. honestly, it seems like you don't really wanna do things with me..like this is the first time you've opened up to me about these kinda things. I've always felt like you didn't like doing things with me

A: No I do wanna do stuff with you though. And I mean if you wanna ask me anything than go ahead.

G: it's hard to tell. I mean I guess idk what to ask..you just never have seemed as attracted to me as I am to you. and you never talk about things you like or what you'd want me to do idk. I've always felt like I annoy you whenever I bring it up

A: You're the only one that I've actually ever enjoyed doing stuff with. And the only guy that I've really WANTED to do stuff with. And I don't regret doing things with you ever, even what happened when we went to drew huff's or whoever

A: Obviously I have a different attraction to you that's other than physical and sexual so I guess I might not exactly show the sexual attraction to you all the time or wherever.

A: Whatever

G: well I have different attractions to you too but it just is hard to read you cuz you don't show a lot of physical attraction. but I am glad that you haven't regretted me. I don't regret anything you you ever either. I've always been so attached to you.

A: I guess I can try to show more physical attraction? I just don't know how I guess. I always get soo nervous around you that I'll mess up or something. I feel like I walk on ice with you sometimes. I've always been attached and I don't think that'll change.

G: well I don't want you to be nervous. I'm thrilled to get a chance to hang out with you. idk I guess make more moves..idk

A: I suck at making moves

G: why?

A: Because I can mess up I and look stupid

G: you wouldn't mess up. I'd go with anything.

G: and it'd just be helpful so I know when you wanna do things. It's just nice to know that you wanna do things I guess idk

A: It's probably safe to say that you can assume I always wanna do stuff..I can't say no to you

A: Idk where this is going but I don't wanna have sex. Like I do but I also don't necessarily wanna go through that again..idk if it makes sense

G: why? and I don't wanna hurt you but I can say that I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. there's no othe girls in my life. I'm more worried about you hurting me. you live 2 hours away

A: Why would I hurt you? You're the only guy I've ever wanted.

G: I don't think you'd hurt me but it does suck not seeing you a lot. but I can deal with it. it just worries me that you're away and could be with anyone there and I wouldn't know.

A: I would never do anything to you. I would never hurt you. You've literally had me for the longest time..

G: I know that but it's just I already thought you weren't that attracted to me that much and you don't wanna make moves. idk

G: and it seems like when you're in town you don't wanna hang out that much

G: and now you're saying you don't wanna have sex. it's just hard to know what to think.

A: I am attracted to you and I'm attached to you and just about every way. I do wanna hang with you and see you. I don't wanna have sex because it affects me emotionally and I don't know where it's going and if I can handle that again.

G: where do you want this to go? I'm not going to do anything to hurt you. I'm just as in this as you. you could hurt me too but I don't want anyone else.

A: I wouldn't hurt you. You're the only person that I want and the only person I've really wanted since we broke up.

G: I hope so. if you aren't okay with sex then what is okay?..I don't wanna cross lines. i want you to be able to trust me. an ill trust you.

A: I mean idk. Like I'm okay with it I'm just really afraid of getting hurt again like last time.

G: I don't wanna hurt you. idk how I would. I'm more worried about not being able to see you a lot and I know I'm going to get attached.

G: I mean I don't want to annoy you

A: You don't annoy me at all. You'd hurt me by leaving again or finding someone else.

G: I don't want anyone else. look if you aren't okay with it it's okay. I respect that. you can tell me where the line is and I'll respect that.

A: I'm going to want to in time. And I'm sure I'll probably end up doing it anyways. Like I said, you're hard to say no to.

G: why am I hard to say no to?

A: Because I'm attracted to you and I'm attached to you.

G: as I am to you

A: Yeah. I've never gotten over you. Don't think I will.

G: well same here. I can't ever let you go. I always want you.

A: That's how I feel.

A: I don't want to let you go, either. There's always something that brings me back.

G: 😙

A: 😊

G: 😀😊☺️

A: Haha what?

G: nothing you just make me smile

A: You make ME smile.

G: good :)

A: Of course

G: I'm looking forward to stayin later this week :)

A: Why

G: cuz I'll actually get to spend more than an hour with you lol

A: I know ha. I hope I can figure that all out

G: me too :/

A: /:

G: sooo then

A: Even if I can't stay, I can be over for a long time. But hopefully I can stay once over sb.

G: okay :)

G: goodnight cutie :)