#loving grad school so far 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[weenie-wizard]

I can't bear to read one more sentence of this 10 page research paper... why don't I take a break by going on an hour long deep dive on Wikipedia :)

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regardless whether or not I get into grad school i'm basically committed to not doing much for the next year so I kinda wanna go on a solo road trip 🤔 thinking thoughts

[bookscandlesnbts]

Quick facts about me that no one asked for:

Figured since I’ve posted more here and answered some asks, I would share some facts about me on my blog both BTS/Jikook related and non related.

1.) I became ARMY during quarantine era. A friend got me into them. After I watched their MMA 2019 performance I was blown away. She was a Yoongi bias so that is whose content I initially watched and gravitated towards. When I ventured out on my own and watched more performance stages and Run BTS I knew immediately that I was drawn to Jimin. Everything from his stage presence, gorgeous vocals and dance lines, funny and sassy personality, but also super empathetic and caring. He was it for me and still is. But I do love all seven of them. I could probably rank them in order of my “favorites” but Jimin would be number 1 without a doubt.

***super fun fact is that I actually first was exposed to BTS in 2017 :( that’s right, I could have stanned back then. I frequently kind of kidding but not really refer to this as my biggest regret. An undergrad in my research group was obsessed with them. She showed me a clip of them dancing and probably because I didn’t like her that much (she was friends with someone toxic) I chalked it up as so they sing and dance? Who cares. I ended up reconnecting with her later when I stanned and found out that she was a low-key TKK shipper and loved reading their fanfics. By that point, I was already sus of Jikook so we clashed and I don’t talk to her. 🤣

2.) That brings me to point number two. The most important: Jikook. I wish I could remember the first time I was like yep this is a thing but I don’t. I do remember the first Jikook moment that I was exposed to was their Black Swan pas de deux. I remember finding their chemistry palpable and bold of them to perform a romantic dance together but that was it. The more I watched Run BTS and being a Jimin bias I couldn’t help but notice JK too and their closeness. What was the nail in the coffin so to speak? The cliches. GCF Tokyo and Rosebowl did it for me and I’ve been endeared by them ever since.

3.) I’m a sort of Jikook fanfic writer on A03 who I guess is on a hiatus and has been for awhile now. I love fanfiction and have been reading it and writing it a little since I was like 12. I was never a RPF girlie until BTS but I view them as characters in a story because that is what they are when I’m reading or writing fics. Not the actual people.

4.) I’m asexual and probably aromatic to some extent too. Asexuality is so misunderstood, I could go on about it for days, but I’m not the authority on it by any means. I like the idea of sex in the abstract. Fanfics, great. M/M where I don’t feel inserted in the act, even better. I’m not a prude, I just don’t experience sexual attraction. The idea of looking at someone even the tannies and wanting to fuck them makes me uncomfortable and it’s something I can’t relate to and have never felt. I’ve had sex of course, but it’s never lived up to the hype for me. I can definitely live without it. As far as being aromantic that I’m not sure. I love the idea of romance or I wouldn’t be so smitten with Jikook and other cute couples. I don’t actively seek romance in my life. I don’t date or want to date. I haven’t had a crush on someone in like 10 years. I’m not opposed to it. Their gender wouldn’t matter to me but it’s not something I feel like I need in my life. If you are anywhere on the ace spectrum or are LGBTQIA+, hi you are more than welcome here.

5.) I’m educated! I have a PhD in chemistry. I am on the Professor track and I teach organic chemistry. I spent 7 years in grad school combined for my masters and PhD.

So yeah! This way you know a little about me when you send in asks. I am terrible at formatting and use my phone only for Tumblr, so my blog probably won’t ever be pretty. I’m just here for connections and content that is more in depth than Twitter. Yes, I’m still calling it twitter. Sorry not sorry Elon.

[l13bg0tt]

@ronald-speirs tag game

Favorite place in the world you’ve visited?

Ooooh probably somewhere in the Kananaskis region, maybe Barrier Lake. That's where my mom and I like to go paddleboarding 🫶🏻

Something you’re proud of yourself for?

I think I'll have to say how much I got my act together school-wise this year. Last school year I really struggled mentally, I was very close to dropping out. I was dealing with throwing up from my anxiety almost every day.

My favourite professor actually just recommended me for grad school which I am very proud of! (i had his class this school year lol) It has made me change up my life plans for the next couple of years but I am honoured that he thinks highly of me, so I must do it... Nothing feels as good as academic validation 😭

Favorite books?

The Long Walk by Richard Bachman (Stephen King's pseudonym) and With The Old Breed by Eugene Sledge <3

Something that makes your heart happy when thinking about it?

this is hard lol the first thing that came to mind after daydreaming about being w my special girl was piglets

Favorite thing about your culture?

Yikes... hockey..? wait no, not rn... Terry Fox perhaps?

When did you join the HBO War fandom? What was the first show you watched?

Joined the fandom this year! First show was Band of Brothers.

Have you read any of Easy Company’s books? If so, which ones were your favorite?

So far I have only read Sledge and the start of Leckie's!! My mom got me Webster's for my birthday and it only recently came in the mail, so I'll be starting that this weekend.

Favorite HBO War character and your favorite moment with them?

how dare you ask me this. i suppose luz... i love him in the background of every scene but the major scenes that come to mind are "got a penny" duh, "ooooklahoma" and the way he be looking in episode 8

Do you make content for any fandoms, if so; what sort of content?

I make historical war content on tiktok (huge hiatus while I attempt to get my degree lol) @506thpir and might bring some of it over here

Favorite actor/actress and your favorite film of theirs?

ugh it used to be Woody Harrelson until he pulled some conspiracy theorist BS so I suppose Miles Teller in Whiplash (or the Spectacular Now lol)

Favorite quote/s that you wish to share with others?

Unfortunately I'm not like that... I don't have one. I can actually only remember "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take." - Wayne Gretzky 🤣 (no NOT Michael Scott)

Random fact your mutuals/followers don’t know about you?

Ich habe in der High Schule Deutsch gelernt und spreche immer noch ein bisschen. Ich versuche Spanisch für meinen Liebling zu lernen 🙈

If you’re a writer, do you need a beta reader (say yes so I can be your beta reader 🤭)?

omg we are nowhere near ready but if that day comes i will let you know

Three things that make you smile?

animals

my silly lil crush

people wearing cool outfits

Any nicknames you like?

cammy

List some people you love to see around on tumblr!

@liptonwashere @executethyself35 @mutantmanifesto @footprintsinthesxnd @ronald-speirs @malarkgirlypop @land-sh @cody-helix02 and soooo many more I forgot to edit this part before publishing the draft 😭

What would you do during a zombie apocalypse?

Everything I could to keep my loved ones safe lol sorry boring

Favorite movie?

I'll just go with She's the Man for the sake of brevity

Do you like horror movies?

yuh but i really prefer it when they're actually decent

[shepherds-of-haven]

Hi Lena! I was wondering, which of the characters are most popular among your friends/family who have played shoh?

Hi anon, you might find this a bit weird, but I have never shown ShoH to any of my friends or family--they all know I'm working on a game, but I won't tell them what the name is or anything about it! 🥹😂 This is my modus operandi as an author and has been since I was young... I'm an extremely solitary writer, to the point where my professors and thesis directors would comment on it: even when I was in grad school, they knew I just sort of put my head down and did my own thing once left to my own devices, and that's when I do my best work! My creative process just tends to be really introverted and independent: I know what I want to accomplish and, while feedback always cheers and motivates me, I don't feel inclined to share with my non-writer loved ones until the whole thing is done! Even my editor and agent are aware that I don't talk about or share snippets of in-progress stuff; they just get the whole behemoth in its finished form at the end, or they get nothing! 🤣

So I don't talk about what I'm working on or show it to anybody in my offline social circle until it's completely finished and published! I can't explain exactly why, but I hate talking about my work or am very shy when it's the main topic of discussion (except in workshop/class/professional settings), especially when it comes to friends and family--even though they are beyond supportive, loving, and encouraging! It's a me thing, not them. So I avoid sharing it at all costs until it's done, set in stone, polished to its best form, and there's nothing to influence/change/doubt anymore because it's out there and pretty much out of my hands! (For example, I don't think I could write Chase or Tallys's thirst trap FWB routes as freely if I think there's even a chance of, like, my little sister or something reading along as I write it, so I just treat them as completely separate, divorced worlds and do whatever I want with total freedom until it's too late to worry about it!) It's worked out so far!

The only one who really knows about Shepherds is my partner, but he hasn't read beyond the Prologue because he always gets stuck reading the first chapter of something and then having to wait literal years on the edge of his seat until I'm done with the whole thing (this is happening with my current novel, too); because I always want to see his reactions to the final product rather than being "spoiled" while it's a WIP! But that means he gets teased with a really tantalizing beginning and then has to wait on agonized tenterhooks until I decide to end the torment. 😃 The only exception was when I was writing We Have Always Been Here: after several months of writer's block and tearing my hair out over it (and before I'd gotten my agent or editor), I finally caved and asked him to read what I had, we hashed it out, and I had an epiphany and completely burned that draft to the ground and started over. (Its main premise was fundamentally flawed, hence the writer's block: if you've read WHABH, you'll be interested/similarly mortified to know that the first version had aliens in it.) Then he read the new manuscript before I submitted it to my agent, and then read the book again when it came out, so in the end he had read three versions of the same story by the time it was published. So there were no surprises left for him, which wasn't as fun for me! He was thrilled to do it, but I wanted to see his awe and excitement and 'wow!' reactions when I was finally finished and proud of the final product, not when I was in the weeds with a draft I was ultimately going to slaughter anyway. 😂 So for Shepherds and everything else moving forward, I'm not letting him read anything until it's done!

We have joked here and there about livestreaming his reactions when he finally gets to read the whole thing for the first time, because I just know he's going to be shook and his reactions are always the best 🤣 I've kept all the big story details quiet to really get the most out of his patience, so he will be going in pretty much completely blind... All he really knows is that Blade's stock was initially the highest among fans, and his character went 👀 when meeting Tallys for the first time, but I truly don't know what else will happen with him beyond that... I'll be sure to keep a log when that time comes, if people are as curious as me!

Thanks for your question!

[barbieliberationarmy]

Have fun answering 1-92 🤣

OMFG @reallygroovyninja you did not.  Jesus wept.  Ok, then, here goes….    

 MAKE ME ADMIT STUFF        

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?  My (married) HS best friend, so no.2. You talked to an ex today, correct?  Fuck no.3. Have you taken someones virginity?  I may have?  Then again, they were mistaken about enough other stuff that I can’t really be sure.4. Is trust a big issue for you?  It depends on what the issue is.  If it’s something really, deeply, personal…I only trust a handful of people with that.5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?  Yes6. What are you excited for?  Maybe seeing her this weekend :)7. What happened tonight?  Won first at trivia by myself for the third week in a row, bitches!  Two more weeks and trivia dude has promised to bring cake.8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?  It depends on the situation, whether it’s a friend, and how “wasted” we’re talking, but I don’t think “disgusted” is the right word.  Maybe sad, worried, eyerolling, annoyed, and yes, sometimes entertained.9. Is confidence cute?  Yass10. What is the last beverage you had?  Big K Diet Cola11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?  maybe 312. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?  yes13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?  hopefully karaoke14. What are you going to spend money on next?  ugh. groceries15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?  I guess?  Dating, yes; not sure what constitutes “going out” these days.16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?  I hope so.  I’ve slipped back into some not-great diet/exercise/drinking habits, and I really want to break them.17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?  Probably an old grad school roommate, a friend/neighbor down the street, and a writer friend who will remain nameless ;).18. The last time you felt broken?  Broken can mean different things–feeling beaten down, feeling hopeless, feeling like you will never be ok again.  The first two come and go fairly often; the latter…probably sometime over the summer, though I can’t point to a specific incident.  Those moments at 3am when you don’t feel like going on.19. Have you had sex today?  No, dammit :(.20. Are you starting to realize anything?  WTF that can mean anything.21. Are you in a good mood?  Today, yes, so far.22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?  No.  Not a good swimmer.23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?  No, his are blue.  Mine are green like my mom’s were.24. What do you want right this second?  To lose 10 pounds without changing my diet.25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?  Currently?  It might sting, but we’ve only been seeing each other a little while and I have no right to have expectations of exclusivity at this point.  26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?  Yep. No gray yet (she says, smugly).27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?  No28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?  Probably getting this 1-92 ask ;)29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?  I suppose I’ll always miss my mom.30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?  No.  There are some things that I don’t know how you forgive.31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?  No.  Trivia dude is a cool guy.32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?  Maybe?  Idk…I’m not even sure what those feelings are myself.33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?  Lord, no.  I drink far too much soda.  34. Listening to?  I cued up “Africa” by Toto just for you ;)35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?  Rarely, on student papers36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?  Not for sure, probably at her house37. Do you believe in love at first sight?  I’d like to think it exists, but I can’t say I think I’ll ever encounter it38. Who did you last call?  my dad39. Who was the last person you danced with?  I danced with 8 t-rexes at Dragoncon and it was glorious.40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?  Because she was cute and I wanted to.41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?  Not a cupcake, but a couple weeks ago, I caved and got one of those chocolate chocolate chip muffins.42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?  No43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?  Yes, but nothing major I can think of.  Lately.44. Do you tan in the nude?  Bold of you to assume that I *can* tan :).  But I have gone to a nude beach.45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?  No, I wish it had been longer ;).46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?  Texting, yes.47. Who was the last person to call you?  A friend literally just called with some sad news.48. Do you sing in the shower?  I’m usually not awake enough to sing in the shower.49. Do you dance in the car?  Of course!  When “ABC” comes on, how can I not shake it, shake it, baby?50. Ever used a bow and arrow?  Yes.  We did archery in middle school, and then also at a military weapons demo a few years ago.51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?  My mom wanted a portrait of me in my PhD crap, so…52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?  Not usually, but it depends on the musical.  I will sing all the words to “The Sound of Music” and you can’t stop me.53. Is Christmas stressful?  Oh my fucking God yes.  54. Ever eat a pierogi?  Don’t think so.55. Favorite type of fruit pie?  apple56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?  Writer (srsly–my 3rd grade class laughed at me).57. Do you believe in ghosts?  I don’t *not* believe in ghosts.58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?  Yes, thought I can’t remember the last one.59. Take a vitamin daily?  No60. Wear slippers?  No61. Wear a bath robe?  Yes, when I get out of the shower62. What do you wear to bed?  t-shirt63. First concert?  hahaha probably Lilith Fair64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?  Target65. Nike or Adidas?  My! A! Didas!66. Cheetos Or Fritos?  Fritos.  Cheese, ew.67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?  Peanuts68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?  There’s several I like (don’t you judge me), but I think maybe “Wonderland.”69. Ever take dance lessons?  nope70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?  I can’t picture a future spouse, so…?71. Can you curl your tongue?  yes72. Ever won a spelling bee?  no, but I think I came in 4th one time73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?  I’ve laughed till I cried, which isn’t exactly the same thing74. What is your favorite book?  How do I pick just one???  I’ll go with an old favorite: The Hero and the Crown75. Do you study better with or without music?  Usually without.  For a while, I could listen to gregorian chants, but then I caught myself humming along with the monks and had to stop.76. Regularly burn incense? Never burn incense.77. Ever been in love?  Yes, twice.  Or I thought I was.78. Who would you like to see in concert?  Hm.  Like ever?  The Who.  Prince.79. What was the last concert you saw?  I really don’t do concerts, so I can’t even remember80. Hot tea or cold tea?  Usually prefer iced tea, but hot tea has its uses81. Tea or coffee?  Don’t drink either that much82. Favorite type of cookie?  chocolate chip83. Can you swim well?  No84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?  Yes85. Are you patient?  Sometimes?  It depends on what I have to be patient for.  Sometimes I want instant gratification; other times, it takes as long as it takes ;).86. DJ or band, at a wedding?  DJ87. Ever won a contest?  Yes, some writing awards in grad school88. Ever have plastic surgery?  No89. Which are better black or green olives?  They are both vile90. Opinions on sex before marriage?  Yes please91. Best room for a fireplace?  All. Of. Them.92. Do you want to get married?  I’ve pretty much given up on it; I’m probably too stubborn and independent at this point, anyway.