#lucky you dont read me

[forneverminded]

✨Euthanasia.✨

I'll get one of those please.

[dailykugisaki]

Day 303 | id in alt

Something a lil lazy fr. I just wanted to doodle her face again bc it's fun

[throwaway-yandere]

Maybe I'll change my tumblr aesthetic to ayato to appease him. Maybe he's mad that I was eager to replace him as a DPS when Wriothesley came out that's why I got C4 Qiqi. Maybe Dainsleif isn't my husband all along. Maybe Ayato really is my true lord. I'll be back. I'm going back to Inazuma. I'm going to go back to being a retainer. I shall appease my master.

[todayisafridaynight]

cant stress how obsessed i am with yamaguchis shirt

[deoidesign]

I have a question, but it may be already have been answered in the story (my brain is just not the best with memory).

Since vampirism symbolises for you chronical illness (which, omg, that is a hot take I've never thought off before and love from now on), does Steve count as chronical ill, too, with the whole halfvampire thing going on? So, would his uncontrollable time jumping each month be a symptom of that chronical illness?

not in the story, no worries! Just a possible interpretation and my personal intent when writing.

As a small aside I personally don't like to think of chronic illness as something that people "count" as, so to speak, it's an extremely personal label and incredibly varied between individuals and as with all disability there is never such thing as hard lines or black and white... but I understand why you worded it that way and I understand what you're asking.

So, yes, Steve is also chronically ill within this framework. The entire comic is sort of shaped around this, to be honest! I mean he canonically has some pretty extreme memory issues... He's also canonically homeless (not that this is an illness but I just mean it's something I think most people forget about him when discussing him). And, yes, his condition is uncontrollable and is severely impacting his ability to live the life he wants to live.

He has just been barely coping up to the point we meet him, and has been very desperate which is what led him to creating that list of deviations. He has periods where his body is out of his control, he is unable to form relationships, he hurts others without meaning or wanting to... Yeah. He's metaphorically relating to a lot of things, really.

So, yknow, you're welcome to interpret him as you'd like! for me I relate a lot with my various issues and conditions and thus that's why I've projected on him the way I have, but of course I would understand entirely different interpretations of what is inherently metaphorical.

[gifti3]

The way they have asmos fits in the 5th boxes

[doodle17]

Haha, man! Did you guys see that cover for the dreams come to life graphic novel? Pretty crazy right? Haha yeah, I thought so too

Anyways, heh, one I thing I noticed was, they used the dark revival ink demon! Hahaha which is funny! Y'know? Because- last time I read the books, the Ink Demon was, very much his Batim model by the description, y'know?

Haha and- if the dark revival model is going to be his, officially canon design now, and, he doesn't look like that because of the cycle, and the original model has been retconned, hahaha then;

Whats even the fucking point anymore?

[orcelito]

Actually is there any cure to feeling like I'm a failure of a person if I don't keep posting fic regularly. Like I know this is not a job or anything. It's just for fun. But with how most people comment only within a day or two of when something is posted, I end up with weeks and weeks of no comments, even when the hits on my works still go up, so it makes me feel rather forgotten.

Like idk. This is probably just feeling worse bc im apparently phenomenally neurotic today. But I wish people commented on older fics more.

[returnofahsoka]

working on my first dnd character and. i didn't think it would be this hard?? am i overthinking it????

[spaciebabie]

Still have it worse than you, huh?

yes. its like actually no competition. you received MOANING in your inbox monnie. which begs the question, are you thinking about it?

[forneverminded]

And I gained weight for nothing.

[ohitslen]

Read Guardians of The Videogame. Thanks :)

No but seriously it is such a good story I am begging you PLEASE PELASE PLEASPEPLEAS PLEA SE- Its so good for the lovers of stories where everything connects and makes so much sense, and well written characters, and amazing plot and AND (sedate me)

[gibbearish]

so like i want to talk more abt what suicidal means but the problem is "suicidal ideation presents in two general forms, active and passive. the thing most people think of as suicidal is the active version, where the person *actively* desires to be dead and/or is making a plan to get there. the passive form however gets almost no attention in media so many people experiencing it are unaware they are even depressed, much less passively suicidal. some examples: not wanting to experience death but feeling like you wouldn't mind if you didn't wake up tomorrow or just stopped existing; feeling deeply exhausted with just the entire concept of being alive; even feeling like you want to run away, change your name, and start a whole new life; none of these look like suicidal ideation to most people because they don't involve actively doing anything to get from point a to point b, especially the more abstract ones like the start a new life thing - but remember that in order to truly start a whole new life, you have to destroy your current one. it's not suicidal as in wanting to actually DIE die, it's just. wanting something close enough to scratch the itch. but just because you haven't booked the ticket doesn't mean you don't still revisit the 'vacation activities at point b' tab occasionally to daydream, yknow?" is i think very informative and specific, but its also quite long and run on-y so people are v likely to tap out like a third of the way through it, whereas "suicidal doesnt necessarily mean wanting to die" is way shorter and therefore catchier, but is also the kind of nonspecific phrasing that gets you a thousand angry anons about how you said all suicidal people are just pretending they actually want to die or some dumb shit. so it's a fun line to toe

[icehot13]

second-to-last chapter of Empty Hands and Empty Rooms!!

i think there's just one more chapter left!!!! (though it might take uhh a minute, because not only am i back at work, but about to start 10 hour days and saturdays for two weeks UGH)(and then of course, the book-exclusive epilogue i cannot wait to get to)

[jadequarze]

Giving kisses to fic writers who got Laudna to be feral when Imogen gets hurt or died (for a moment). I have been enjoying it tremendously. Thank you for your service ❤️

I just have a very soft spot for happy go lucky character going feral when their love ones gets hurt or worst, dies.

[garlic-sauc3]

I wrote a Daring fic, you can read it here