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Untitled Mornings

Sitting alone in my house while crying without any solid reason has been my comfort lately. I find solace in the silent walls of this house. Peace within the distant roars of the cars on the road. And tranquility with the warmth and purrs of my cats and dogs.There is nothing wrong with me. Or is there? I am triggered by the simplest thing I watch, read, or hear. I cried over silly things, and…

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Sa Hele ng Ulan

I know you hate the rain. But when was the last time you enjoyed it?

Bago ko palang nalalasap ang init na dala ng aking kape nang biglang bumuhos ang ulankaninang umaga. Dali-dali akong lumabas para kunin ang mga nakasapay kong damit na halos patuyo na. Sa una ay sinubukan kong huwag magpakabasa sa ulan. Pero wala rin, nabasa rin ako. Mukhang wala sa mood ang langit. Tumatangis at tila ano mang oras ay handang magsusungit.Hinayaan kong mabasa ako ng ulan. Dinama…

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'Till Next Time

‘Till Next Time

Years from now, will you still remember me? Will the sound of my voice be familiar? Will my eyes still bring you tranquility? Will your soul remember mine? I hope our paths will cross years from now. How will we look back on our chapters? Are we going to cry our hearts out? Or laugh at our silly jokes? Will we still find those inside jokes? Would we still remember the promises, the color of…

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The Irony of the Universe

The Irony of the Universe

How ironic. I consider him as my Star while you are my Sun.His love is not as loud as yours, but he is always silently and patiently clinging by my side.And you, my Sun, also found your own Star.While you shine blindly for othersyou have her screaming your name,telling the world, you are one.You have her,making you feel you are not alone in this vast universe. Isn’t it ironic that the Sun and…

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Unwanted Visitor

You've been around for so long now, living under my roof rent-free. In every meal, you're there. In every walk, you're there. And your favorite part of the day is when I go to bed.  You just sit there, wandering around while slowly consuming me. Some days you're not around. Or maybe you're there, but I just didn't notice. There were days that I just ignore you just because I can. But most of the time, I can't. 

We've been together for so long.

Aren't you tired? Aren't you exhausted?

You come uninvited, joining me wherever I go.

You consume my thoughts. You always make me feel lost.

You eat me whole when I let go of my wall.

You're here even if I don't need you.

I tried so hard to push you away, but you were glued to me in any possible way.

You love the darkness, the rain, and the silence.

You never let me be alone.

You made my side your home.

How long will you hug me?

How long will you join me in my sleep? 

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Shower and Depression

It started right, with the right amount of heat from the shower.

The aroma of your lavender-scented soap lingers.

And the soft, soothing, splattering sound of the water.

It was a well-deserved break from a tiring day.

But then...

when the relaxation slowly creeps in, a trance-like transition will hit you.

While the water runs down your nakedness, the chaos within you will start to create a rampage. One by one... making their way to your head. Your what-ifs, your why's. Questioning your existence. Asking why and why not.

Wondering when the pain will stop. Asking why you are not enough. Why am I hard to love.

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