#mans is suffering out here without it
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agreed


mysteriously, all the hair ties on Berk have vanished! who could have possibly done such a thing :,)
I swear it looks better on my tablet?! 😭😭


Eret with his hair down.
That's it. That's the post.
#eret son of eret#httyd 2#how to train your dragon#eretlout#httyd#eret with his hair down#snotlout jorgenson#astrid hofferson#ruffnut thorston#hiccup haddock#missing scene#fanart#rtte#textpost reblog#julesdraws#can you guys tell who my favourite character is 😂#gnawing at the bars of my enclosure#he definitely ties it back for convenience#mans is suffering out here without it
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Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / SE5 (you are here)
I do in fact regularly gaslight my friends for their own good.
I can't have them suspecting the truth after all. (aka continuation of @the-cr0w 's playthrough)
#FEELING NERVOUS? HAVING YOUR BACK EXPOSED TO ME? <- You have no clue how often I said that during the playthrough.......................#There exists a follow up doodle for the 'I won't call him daddy' drawn by crow#Also seeing future trio together I remembered something. There is this one pmd fanfic I found in the depths of deviantart and I was so#shocked when the author introduced a sceptile elder that turns out to be the grovyle from the game but then he mentions that he's married#to Celebi but Dusknoir is only a good old friend. PULL HIM IN THE RELATIONSHIP!!! That man's suffering!!#but that fanfic is also really old I think it was finished 2017 but I greatly enjoyed it. About what you'd expect from a fanfic that starte#in like 2012? Ah yeah looked it up. Author said 2012. Wonder what they're doing now... They did create a really cool adventure...#They didn't post anything since 2017. Maybe I'll write a sweet comment and look if they might reply.#pokemon#pmd#grovyle#dusknoir#celebi#future trio#pmd2#pmd eos#pmd explorers#darkrai#<- you know I can't do anything without him. Me about to lie to crow to bring up MY FAVOURITE CHARACT- I will shut up now.#oshawott#shinx#primal dialga#dialga#my art#my stuff#pokemon mystery dungeon explorers of sky#dusknoir x grovyle mostly but trust me celebi is in it to.#professor e gadd#luigi's mansion#never thought I'd tag luigi's mansion and pmd... how did you land here e gadd. why did dusknoir say that.
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Rereading wmmap for the hell of it and things that further add evidence onto novel Ijekiel’s behavior towards Jennette being a result of HIS OWN expectations he held himself to, when Athy/Lee Jihye falls into him for their first meeting, and then hides because Roger approaches. Roger then talks to a young Ijekiel, and Ijekiel says how he was looking for Jennette because Jennette got upset and ran out of the mansion due to hearing about Ijekiel studying abroad.
BUT THEN. Roger tells Ijekiel that he doesn’t need to deal with Jennette’s tantrums! Because though Jennette is important, Roger tells Ijekiel that he holds Ijekiel more important than her! Ijekiel knew then—from a childhood age that he never needed to look after Jennette or obey her requests. Roger never held that expectation on him. The only one holding him to the responsibility of ‘looking after Jennette’ was Ijekiel himself! It became such a thing that he bound himself to, so much so he dreaded it though no one but he wanted such, not even Jennette herself! Yet he dared, dared to push and blame that on her, that it was her fault and her selfishness that crushed him and made him resent her so—but it was himself all along! He was never actually bound to her, never actually pressured into taking care of or obeying her. It was a role he forced himself into taking, and blamed Jennette for the moment his resentment and jealousy bottled up and bursted!
#who made me a princess#wmmap#suddenly became a princess one day#sbapod#novel ijekiel#wmmap ijekiel#sbapod ijekiel#syl tea#wmmap novel#me ecrashing out verytime I think about novel Ijekiel#him acting like he was suffering and being tormented so much for so long#only for it to turn out that no one put any actual pressure on him#and he’s still the most privileged and eligible bachelor in the empire#Roger telling him straight up he never has to deal with Jennette#Jennette never tells him he has to be forced to deal with her#but then he gets up in his own emotions and gets upset about how he had to always deal with her#like huh??? no one wanted this#no one wanted you to deal with her#no one expected for you to deal with her#the only one who bound you to Jennette was you#and then you blamed her for it#like its comedic#he dared to blame Jennette and call her spoiled with everything#yet he received every luxury Jennette did and more#he got to expand his wings and see the world. meet and encounter different like-minded people. socialize freely.#all while taking pleasure in his right as the Duke’s sole heir#and he got upset at Jennette#because she couldn’t freely have access to this stuff without asking him to accompany or help her#that he never needed to personally deal with and could always reject without repercussions#how am I supposed to believe he’s the victim here? should I feel pity for this man? because I don’t.
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"Angry robin" "violent robin" "misbehaving robin" shut up and accept my alternative; spunky Robin. Determined and head strong, can out-stubborn the Batman, has a strong moral-backbone and does what he thinks is right regardless of what anybody else says, Robin. Jason who was sassy and quippy and made crude jokes with a smile on his face. Jason who hid in Bruce's cape and whispered gossip to him. Jason who, if Bruce refused him something, could keep bothering endlessly until Bruce caved. And also dramatic Jason. If Bruce tells him no, it becomes a whole theatrical show; a monologue, a narration, embellishments, and falling onto the floor in his grief upon the fact his cruel father has denied him once again.
(Jason who has suffered through abuse and homelessness and poverty and starvation, who is the Fight out of Fight or Flight, who's built up defenses and walls and when pushed and triggered responds with the thing that's always protected him; anger. He's sweet and kind and funny, and when he sees a pimp hitting a prostitute he gets furious and responds with violence.)
#my dc posting#dc#jason todd#jaybin#im having so many thoughts abt jaybin and he is so important to me#in one fic he went on a hunger strike bc alfred didnt eat w them and did it for so long they had to compromise#i love a jaybin 100% willing to menace and bother batman until the man folds. as is his right#the thing abt jason's backstory is that it shows him unwilling to suffer for a home#ma gunn's is bad; he gets beat up and she tries to get him to help rob a place. so he leaves! and rats the whole thing out to batman#and shows up himself cus he didnt think he had been believed#and lets not forget the fact he hit batman with a tire iron and called him a 'big boob'!#the boy's got moxie!! let jaybin be crass and angry and sassy and flawed and traumatized without reducing him to 2d caricature of a 'troubl#d kid'#i dont like a jason who did nothing but use excessive violence and disobey orders and be cocky and all that shit#i like a jason who was. oh yknow. a complex person!! a child/teen who has been fucking abused!!!#you shouldnt erase the fact that jason's reaction/response to stressful situations and triggers IS anger#it's not an indication that he was always gonna become a criminal/red hood or whatever. get outta here w that shit#but like. let us not go so far in the other direction we forget to have him react and be affected by the abuse he's suffered#anyway. if anyone should be a drama-queen it should be jaybin. once he becomes truly comfortable w bruce he should dial it up to 11#a lot of red hood's appeal (to me&many others) is that he is an 'imperfect' victim. meaning he is angry and flawed and doesnt suffer quietl#but is loud and obvious abt it#so when i see jaybin written as the opposite its like. man whats that about#anyway. jaybin is good and cares and wants to help and protect people. and by god if i ever see anybody writing#him having arguments with bruce about the no kill rule WHILE robin again im gonna throw hands istg-#my tags are like a hidden treasure box. most of what i say is in here lmao
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Girl.... what do you mean ending.... only a few lines ago you just said you're only eleven years old :')
#trails in the sky#trails in the sky sc spoilers#trails in the sky sc#renne hayworth#renne trails#(yes i know her real last name but. since this is a screenshot from sky and her last name is technically a spoiler for a later game#i know basically every game after sky spoils it and even promotional material doesn't hide it but. basic principle#so i will be yapping a bit in the tags before i put it)#anyway. man. i forgot that renne does actually give her backstory to estelle here#she doesn't outright explain the 'paradise' part but she shares just enough to give an inkling of what horrors she's suffered#and even though estelle doesn't fully Get It (by her own admission)#she does understand that whatever renne went through is something that no child should ever suffer#and it really works with the rest of estelle's arc which is about just. learning more about the world#and instead of shying away from the Horrors she faces them head on#honestly if there's one thing I've really honed in on my replay its estelle's self awareness#she knows she's a sheltered country girl but she can't turn a blind eye to all the darkness#even if she can't quite understand all of it she knows that she has people around her who will help her fight it#trails series#kiseki series#trails#trails spoilers#okay last warning for spoilers in the tags. i deeply apologize if this doesn't work#renne bright#autumnal rambles#anyway. all this to say that renne would be on the ohtori student council#though she does break out of her coffin.... eventually#also. i hit post without realizing. that well. it's a minor daybreak spoiler but iykyk. did not realize it at the time of posting
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there's a self-help/mental health adjacent post that's going around and it seems to be really helpful for a lot of people which is very good. I also personally hate it with all my fucking heart
#it's the anhedonia one btw lmao#if i. have to be exposed to one more goddamn cbt-ass advice post in my life. I will start tearing throats out with my teeth#and I will have earned the right to because I've been through the fucking TRENCHES over the years man#I think it's the appeal to urgency at the end however ruefully humorously packaged that ohohoho. really grrrrinds my gears.#this is obviously not what the person is trying to do with that but the unavoidable implication that the reason you might still#be suffering is that you just haven't tried hard enough to change to like things to open your eyes... hey. respectfullly. fuck off#peak advice for mild to moderate symptoms of mental illness thoughtlessly presented as universally applicable#without any consideration for the deeper thing you're saying -- that if someone is in a real bad way and DOESN'T get better#it's their own responsibility and they just haven't tried hard enough. in trying to be kind you are being so desperately cruel#to the people who are struggling the most. bitch I am fucking GREAT at liking things! it's one of my best skills!! I'm generally curious!#my capacity for enthusiasm and intellectual joy over any old thing that strikes my fancy is legendary and often I suspect quite annoying!!!#so when anhedonia completely envelops me I know it's a sign of something else and bigger going on in the background#it's not a choice. the brain is not solely a cognitive machine!! you cannot fix everything that can go awry with it by Thinking Better!!!#cbt must be great for the people it's great for and I'm sincerely genuinely glad for it. less suffering in the world is great#but it is a way of thinking that is a hammer and you just have to hope like fuck your problem is a nail. because otherwise#you're bruised from being beaten with hammers and the additional shame of what's wrong with you that it's not helping#and again I recognize very keenly that this is not a space meant entirely for me. people sharing resources that amn are not about me#is not only fine it's good it's great! however. it'd also be nice to not get thrown under the fucking bus for once#because my presence fully expressed is an uncomfortable reminder of the things we *cannot* control about our own brains lmao#I'm lucky that I've been in the game long enough and have enough resources to start to smell the bullshit here but...#the pain 'losing years' induces in you when you don't have *a fucking choice* -- because it's not a matter of willpower#or positive thinking or changing your mindset. you're just sick. in a way medicine hasn't quite figured out how to help yet.#well. maybe. maybe don't put that on someone huh. maybe don't make their 'lost years' to depression and doomscrolling or whatever#'their own fault'. I kind of think that's possible to do without submitting to doomposting. is all.#(I feel the same about the 'resting vs. rotting' idea. well friend sometimes the best I can hope for is some gentle rotting#thanks for introducing this layer of disgust and condemnation to the general despair. it's added a patina)#this might actually be the first time I've managed to hold on to my own anger about this rather than it getting drowned out by shame tho#which as steps forward go. *sigh* it's not a moon landing is it. but a small step for man nevertheless I suppose
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i am once again thinking abt the lost potential that is hypmic.
#i literally just messaged my friend abt this but stick w me#when nemu gets hypnotized we see her wanting to join the pow which. makes perfect clear sense even without hypnosis#shes shown through out all of tdd as hating unecessary violence and samatokis outburts due to their upbringing#and a political movement that (pretends to) erradicate all violence would interest her like. im just connecting dots here#and she joins because shes hypnotized and blah blah blah. boring. ok but what if. and hear me out.#the hypmic didnt completely overwrite the person but just made them act on their deepest desires#like i thinm my case w nemu is already presented but hear me out for my second contender. sasara#a man that became a thug on a whim because this guy reminded him of his ex. ok cool. what if we went harder on that#sasaras shown to be analytical and extremely cynical already. what if we just ignored canon for a bit#and focused on making his relationships a bit more fucked up. especially involving samatoki#sasaras drawn to him because samatoki fills the void that rosho left him. hes just smth he needs at the moment#but w my wonderful vision what if he grew tired of this fake. what if he had enough. hes not rosho he will never be#hes served his purpouse. but now sasaras stuck. in the middle of ikebukuro bashing some guys head w a pipe#AND THATS WHEN THE MIC COMES IN BABYYYYYYYYYYYYY#this was also brought to you by the fact that i want to see samatoki suffer. i want to see him at his most pathetic#i want him to come to the realization his best friend left him because he no longer fit his ideal vision#i want ACTUAL FUCKING CONFLICT FOR ONCE THAT ISNT SOLVED BY 'hey man. rappings fun' PLEASE#i want these bitches fucked up and in torment#uhhhh didnt think abt kuko w this au at all. idk yall do what you want w him#hypmic#hi main tag :3#•txt#•hypmic#•idol nonsense
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honestly? I think there should just in general be more appreciation for Bond's physique lmao. Like. Why do we never get Q waxing poetic about Bond's muscular thighs for example, or the mesmerizing interplay of muscles under skin as he does basically anything. I get we got that stuff w Bond and honeypots & objectification, but like surely we can work some honest appreciation (and also to be honest, horny lust) in there.
#I feel like ever other fandom Im in has some kind of wax poetic about physique thing#but I feel like I've been missing/craving that in 00q#it seems like if anyone's physique is mentioned it's Bond re Q but like w the author giving Q the waif treatment#(the man would NOT have alabaster skin or whatever he has like an olive undertoneee. even pale he wouldn't be like Bella Swan pale)#I'm sure there are some Q lusts over Bond's physique out there but it's like... we can have him admire the physique without it being#an objectify the body thing!! there are nuances here!!!#anyway if anyone has fic recs with this pls point them my way#I may be suffering from representational bias here and etc
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hello, hello, you all — so... i hope you all are having a great thursday thus far, and i thought i'd bring this up now since i hadn't before; but with ana's zombification comes some noticeable differences to his behavior as well as appearance. because, and don't get me wrong, he was already pale before... but now anastasiy's skin now has this pallor that takes on a sickly look. and it has become necessary for ana to have to apply some concealer to his skin daily to hide the fact that his lips are, indeed, sort of tinged blue + some veins (particularly around his eyes and mouth) can clearly be seen and it definitely isn't the most uhh. natural look, to say the least JSJSJ
now, i'll probably cover more about his behavioral differences later, but one thing is that this man does have these SICK and TWISTED urges to consume human flesh as a zombie would in typical fiction would... so that's lovely / j LMAO nahhh, i'm totally being sarcastic with y'all right now as that is actually horrifying. but anastasiy does try his darndest to resist giving into this temptation because cannibalism is a BIG no-no in society for a reason (because its absolutely terrible and extremely gross) + with... slightly mixed results 😬
#NO ONE EVER TELLS YOU THAT BRAVERY FEELS LIKE FEAR: musings.#SEE HOW OUR WANTS HORRIFY US: headcanons.#TO SUFFER. IT MEANS GOD IS NEAR. GRACE — LIKE A SCALPEL WITHOUT ANESTHESIA: character study.#ooc post.#yeah so... i'll have you know that i was THIS close to calling ana 'mister man' but then i was like JSJSJ nah i've got to be a littleee more#serious here even though i am pretty much the queen of being sillay by now BC idk how i would make that work while talking about-#CANNIBALISM so... yeah ☠️ but anyways how are we feeling about ana's character so far y'all? but OFC there's no pressure for anyone-#to answer that i'm just genuinely curious NGL haha. because i think that anastasiy is pretty different from peeps like barton-#and blamore in the way that he is still morally bankrupt for killing people as it's NEVER alright and/or justified to do that#in ana's mind however he was torn between two impossible choices and he didn't know that manja's deal would be as bad as it turned out-#to be. but he still has to take responsibility for the fact that he made it and that his moral compass is definitely entirely skewed now#because saving person in exchange for dooming a bunch of others is... 😬 yeahhh i think we all can agree that it's a selfish choice#at the very least#tw: body horror.#tw: cannibalism.#tw: mentions of murder.
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when the competition is making me cry in 10 seconds and your opponents are my parents
#bro wow this has to be some kindof personal record twice in one day#morning for mom evening for dad#did thy talk aboit it discuss it that you take these points I'll take these we'll be done in 10 secs flat#i don't understand what's happening period is over but i still can't stop crying i cried yesterday too#it usually is like numb numb numb period week numb again#but why won't it kick in this time#he's just so fucking efficient man wow#literally he said 3 things in 10 seconds and the dam opened#first he shouted about something and i tried to defend myself but then he got soo mad and even tho i hd a perfectly#reasonable exception i had to shut up and accept my mistake because at that point i was already on the verge of crying#and i knew if i dragged it out i wouldn't be able to say another word without bursting and then he'd get even more mad for crying in public#and embarassing him#and then it was about something related to my brother and he was like#talk to him properly what's wrong with you he's going to go away in a few months then will you ever even see him#which fuck is such a big fear of mine something that's already made me cry because ive fucked it up#and he hates me now and i think we'll never reconcile he thinks we should be the kind of siblings who meet on festivals and that's it#and i tried to like bond more but he just hates the entire family and wants to leave us behind no exceptions#and then in the same breath dad is like your sister is already gone abhi dikhti hai kya aas paas#like bitch?? could you be less efficient what the fuck that was the killing blow#i went from confused to trying to not cry so fast like fuck she's the only person in the world who made living with you#bearable of fucking course i notice she's not here i miss her all the time#like yeah just tell me i will keep losing everyone why don't you see if i can hear it without breaking down#and i just felt so fucking helpless like can't stand up for myself because i will lose and i have to play the long game#take his money get my education but fuck man the education i can't breathe under the pressure of it all his demand#for full tests and these fucking subjects im not made for this and trying to do it all alone because he#shifted us here in the middle of nowhere no friends and yesterday he was like oh yeah we'll move back home im bored now#like fucking hell man how many times will you do this? already did it when i was 15#and on top of that mom is complaining about him to me like bitch you won't leave him you'll make#us suffer through hell because you're a coward and you want me to console you?#god fuck this i hope he dies i hope she dies i hope we all die
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Seok Jin 🤝🏼 me losing our sh*t after that absolutely nervewracking Five Pieces game
#the devil's plan#i'm literally shaking and sobbing rn same as him bc the way that sh*t took out Si Won????? the way he almost met the same fate?????#they didn't even let her say goodbye and then he had to go through that without getting a chance to grieve how they had slowly#stripped his team from him one by one and then it finally hit him and he just. yeah. yeah. i would have fallen apart too honest to God#if this man does not win the entire game i'm burning something down he has f*cking suffered the most among everyone here#he and Dong Jae. f*ck i'm still not ok rn#edit: someone uploaded the short clip of his reaction on YouTube and 1. he did say f*ck. i wasn't sure when i heard it but he did#2. i was not the only one who lost my sh*t. all the Korean comments were like 'we got chills' 'we all started crying' 'Seok Jin oppa#hwaiting' as they should be tyvm
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so Apparently a game i was running on my computer (without a cooler thing for a good minute there, because i guess i thought i was invulnerable to heat) may or may not have burnt out some parts of my machine. and it's been a couple months since i've played it bc it just stopped working one day and i just had to accept that lmao- but anyway i'm booting the game up again today, Surely this will go differently :3
#just me hi#so Apparently my 'computer has a specific problem with overheating and burning out the processor parts. and it's getting updated in the#middle of august'#well dude that would have been fantastic to know 5 months ago when i was running a game i don't even have enough vram to play !! ljfvsfj#rip boopbedoop i had no idea you were suffering so hard fghsfh <//3#but also. i have been pining. open my app. lfjshfv#//also man it's Cold in here#well. okay maybe not Cold but i'm chilly ! ! i'm chilly man lol#but what if i get too hot in a little bit...#the considerations we must deal with hfsh#//oh yea anyway if the game (de2tiny 2. idk why i just keep calling it 'the game' like i'm trapped in a simulation Lmao) doesn't work i'm#prolly gonna catch up on omn1scient.r.v :3#yee !!#and then maybe doodle some more bl.s chapter stuff.. who knows !! :>#//oh i definitely want to make rootbeer floats today for Sure#last tuesday was national rootbeer flat day.. we've missed a momentous occasion guys#there is next year !! maybe i'll catch it then :D#yyeeea.. i should put down a reminder.. hfsh#/i left for 5 minutes rn Uh#why can i not use my calendar without linking to microsoft and then feeling lightly threatened when they ask to link w/ my gmail and say#'we'll be allowed to wipe your Email and your Drive and your Notes and we're Downloading Your Birthday'#girl help they want to steal my birthday#anyway i'm not doing that. no rootbeet float remidners for me then#wait.. i frogot about scheduled posts#i'm gonna go do that !! next year... >:3#//alright so going to go about my things.. toobles ~+~
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#so i finished my 4 out of 4th 12 hour shift in a row last night and i'm literally so exhausted and i was glitching mid simple tasks 🤡✌️#my coworker asked to change shifts so he could have that one specific day as off#and he managed to do some very critical mistakes in his 4 days prior and that's considering his gf is often with him there#and i was the one suffering the consequences even if it's literally not my fault#ever since i've got this job i've been fixing so many mistakes of his i kept wondering who's the newbie here??#like i try to leave my shift as good as possible i clean everything check everything and do all my duties#and when i come here after his shifts it's.. a fucktonne of work mistakes and literal dirt like dude!!!#4 shifts in a row never again man never again i am so tired my brain is nerfed and i can only rest for 1 day today because tomorrow i'm#going to a doc;#my social battery is not just dead it's nonexistent at this point#i just want to lay in bed and not be percieved or interacted with for at least the same amount of days 😫#i really thought i could take a socially demanding and rather multitasking job without it taking hugest toll on my mental state huh???#and i had such a bad sleep too i had a very graphic and sickening nightmare which woke me up 2 hours after i fell asleep#and then i woke 2 more times after that and i feel so exhausted and not rested at all and so fatigued i can't even do anything#man for me my sleep being interrupted is the worst like i function better if i have a smaller amount of sleep but it's uninterrupted#than longer in hours but it gets interrupted and i wake up even once#sorry i come here once in few days vent post and then dissapearvckfkv 😭 i miss tumblr but have no energy currently to even rb anything 🥲#tbd
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{My Fam}
{DO NOT COPY} {DO NOT RE-POST} {DO NOT RE-PRODUCE WITHOUT PERMISSION FOR ANY USAGE WHATSOEVER}
If you want to use for referring to, PLEASE ASK ME PRIVATELY FIRST OR I WILL REFUSE.
#koushirouizumi fam#koushirouizumi ny#koushirouizumi personal#(YOU WERE NOT OWED THIS)#(YOU WERE NOT OWED THIS YOU WERE *NOT* OWED THIS *YOU!!! WERE!!! NOT!!! EVER!!! *OWED* THIS {JUST Saying})#(I'm posting these for MYSELF and because most of these come *direct* from our home fam album and to my knowledge)#(we HADNT put these anywhere else online but Y E A HHHH anyway 1st one here is my Grandma younger!!)#(ANYWAY when I talk about my fam end that is J E W I S H *these all* are *also* whom I'm referring to)#(THIS IS *NOT ALL OF THEM* THIS IS MAINLY *Great Grandma R*s {Grandmas mother's} {*MATRILINEAL*} J e w i s h line and those above her)#(Im leaving out Great Grandpa A. for now for privacy reasons but Great Grandpa A was married to Great Grandma Y. seen HERE)#(For the record Great Grandpa A. was 'a tailor' AND 'a dress maker' according to my Grandmas notes...)#(Grandmas fam + etc alive never received any hand me downs of any of these outfits so I can only assume they were either a. lost to time)#(or b. donated because my fam is big on donating in the modern era especially Grandma + Ethel + Mil were)#(Great Aunts Ethel and Mil were the ones I GREW UP KNOWING as Young Me before both passed away I HAVE PIC'S OF TINY ME W THEM)#(Mil lived to 90+ and passed away in her sleep when I was like 6~ or so so ever since then I was very aware of what death was)#(But like at least she passed WITHOUT {SUFFERING} and also Ethel is the one who was able to donate organs in her old age {also at 80~90s+})#(The elderly man holding my Grandma {who is a TODDLER whos barely walking here} is her Great Grandpa H. who got the WHOLE FAM OUT)#(OF THE AUSTRO-H U N G A R I A N controlled + related regions '''IN TIMETM''' pre *1899* and if it wasnt for this {J E W I S H}) man)#(I WOULDNT *BE ALIVE* MY DAD *WOULDNT HAVE MET MY MOM* I WOULDNT BE ON THIS PAGE MAKING *LITERALLY ANYTHING*)#(So before you open your mouth again to tell us 'gO BACK TO 1948 {AREA}' maybe ACKNOWLEDGE THEY LIVED ELSEWHERE TOO **BEFORE 1948**)#('But it should be SOOOO EASY to show us ALL the pic's of your fam theres NO WAY they could be in conditions like tHI--')#(LIKE IDEK HOW TO EXPLAIN THESE PICS ARE *LITERALLY PEELING OFF THE PAGE* {AND ALSO SURVIVED THE *CAT 5 HURRICANE*})#(In reality I REALLY wanted to post these at some point because I'm honestly amazed at some of these outfits)#(Basically I suspect Great Grandpa A. must have contributed a little with the {tailor} + 'dress making' 'career' but . . .)#(I also censored {most} faces for now but when I actually feel comfortable again I might go back and lift these)#(FOR NOW I am making this no rb but later I want to archive these elsewhere Anyway reminder this is 1 LINE of Grandmas 4 LINES)#(Basically that region 'Galicia' I was rbng refs for in relation? YEAH we LITERALLY have 'Galicia' marked on some of oldest documents AS It#(At one point fam also lived in il. and I assume the bottom right is from N.Y or there but I'm having trouble identifying sign + that area)#(So if someone can identify it and actually let me know PLS do so {also YES thats my Grandma too as baby})#(I did make one mistake labelling this H. is basically Grandmas Great?-Grandpa but I'm too lazy to fix how many 'great's for me)
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honestly some of these reblogs proving op right like why did someone compare ralsei to a groomer??? he's been alone for so long bro he has quite literally spent his entire life waiting for kris and susie to come they are the first friends he's ever had. i think he's allowed to be socially awkward as a treat.
#“he made kris uncomfortable!!!” ok he doesn't have control over what the player chooses to do man#he can't control that the player wants to hug him even though it makes kris uncomfortable#or force kris to act all giddy about him#and just in general if kris doesn't like him there's nothing he can do about that.#that's kris' choice not his#“man this kid is SUFFERING‚ ralsei is WELL AWARE and he didn't do SHIT about it” you say that like ralz could do anything about it#what do you expect him to do about the player#beat the shit out of kris? that would just make them hate him#we are basically a higher being there is nothing ralsei could really do about this#if anything him keeping the player satiated is a better plan than trying to fight because i don't think it's a smart idea to get a higher-#being angry at you like i'm sure he's aware we have control here#we could quite literally decide we're gonna end the world if we're petty enough.#don't bully a being with such unpredictable whims man#the groomer comment was genuinely just weird though like you can dislike a character without implying they do shit like that
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Honestly i just need reality to feel a little less fake so my brain is actually productive over making shrimp noises because i made the mistake of taking my meds every day the past two weeks because im on two flavours of reuptake inhibitors apparently. (which was fun to find out if i am being completely honest because i found out the funny way of someone else offhandedly mentioning it.) Which has been not so great really. And im all like '??? Do normal people feel like this just a bit less spaced out??? A little less dead??? What the fuck is this nonesense' definitely doesn't help things feel more real if i am being honest. On the flip side it has consistently made my oversleeping less erratic but with all my neighbours noise it does make it more annoying to stay on task sometimes. Like yeah i am awake i guess? But?? Not like i can be productive with being unable to catch a break.
Though it is less spaced out so much as everything going on has made me feel like im just??? kind of just in limbo mentally where i am present but i otherwise feel just rather listless and unmotivated because its just five different flavors of feedback loop that all hate each other. (spoiler: its mostly the burnout i think) Its just unfortunate that i feel like im lying to myself at this point whenever i think about writing because my brain feels like a dead fish someone has just tossed on the keyboard whenever i try writing and shit has been happening. Like yeah i can and will write, but i never get far because my brain gets disgruntled like a cat that was fine with cuddles then has decided enough it enough after like ten seconds (five sentences)
#Its moments like theese that make me realise i have felt perpetually burnt out on and off the past decade and the past two have just been--#--exceptionally bad for it.#But man to think how much i could of wrote today if people did not decide to be idiots so i put off the things i started penning over last-#--week.#But maybe. Just maybe. I need a little bit more consistency in my life that i am totally not getting where i am staying.#Times are interesting and i hate it because i need one boring ass week without shit fucking happening.#I want to bitch so SO much but i am unfortunately legally not allowed to.#By fuck i thought the shit that happened at LAN parties involving 20+ people in one building when i was a kid got bad with the drama.#This.#THIS#is so much worse.#At least at lan parties [redacted] doesnt fucking happen.#...usually.#im not saying they never do because fuck knows it has probably happened before.#Please end my suffering i just want to chill out and relax enough so i can fucking wrote please---#Honesty stick me in a high drama environment and you get another flavour of why i found being unable to get away from my brother at home--#at all ever drove me up the wall.#I have come to the conclusion i am definitely not a city person.#Turquoise Rambles#Shits so bad i dont even get the time to go out and do much silly social things because im so perpetually tapped out socially IRL because--#--just being exposed to the drama has me all 'hmm. yeah. i-- i wanna be social but this is just too much.' even in a normal social situatio#Im not even caught up in this shit.#I just live here#It has nothing to do with#me but unfortunately just the proximity has me all 'what the fuck is my life. im sick of learning shit i shouldnt know'
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