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crypticpatterns · 1 year

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I'm always left really confused when people say certain poetry is bad. Like, what exactly made it bad though? Poetry is so subjective, right? And yet everyone talks about it like it's obvious what poetry is bad vs what poetry is good and I don't get it. I guess I just don't really understand the medium despite being a writer, which maybe is kinda embarrassing.

#someone said marie's poetry is bad and like. it's overdramatic sure but I kinda liked it otherwise tbh #and then I just watched a vid abt jordan peterson's poetry and everyone is like wow this poetry is terrible #and yeah it's terrible bc of what the content is about but I'm kinda confused how it's objectively poorly written?#like how do you decide that. I don't get it #makes me feel insecure abt my own silly poetry I wrote for school lol.#esp bc i kinda. ignored most of the advice I did get in the class in the workshop bc I disagreed/thought the critique was dumb #maybe I'm the dumb one here idk #sera posts

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risingshards · 9 days

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Pet peeve: when someone doesn't like something and starts inventing like production fanfic on why it's actually bad. I saw someone say a show I like isn't good anymore because they think it's not a labor of love anymore and just like...if I made something and poured my heart and soul into it and just got like "oh it's different now, they must not care like they did in the good old days, bad show now i guess" I'd be so sad...like they have no basis for it it was just about something in the credits being different.....

I'd almost respect it more if people were just saying they didn't like it without having that production fanfic sounding like they're trying to justify their opinion and make it like canon that it's bad because of these things they just like...made up that they think happened with it. but everything just feels like console war bullshit in fandom where there are cool Good ones and lame Bad ones and it wears me out cuz i'm a big sensitive baby when mine are in the lame Bad ones camp. i guess it's prolly always been that way but it just feels so draining lately.

#personal #i just dont do well in the way fandoms are today #and still am like joining ones thinking maybe this will be the one #then i am reminded why i dont do well #chiral is a big sensitive baby going through it and taking it out on random things 2k24 #catch me on here just reblogging pics and gifs instead of engaging with any of it outside of bitching lol #i really shouldn't be terminally online when i'm going through it and there are vastly bigger problems in the world than this #but idk just had to vent about this #production fanfic is a pet peeve in general tho #like if you're just imagining how something was made and deciding that's what really happened thats...dumb

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iceeericeee · 6 months

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I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30?#idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do.#i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count?#I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post.#why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags*#it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows.#where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one.#this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can.#which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone.#thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really...#...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

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emile-hides · 11 months

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I don’t know where my brain is today but I’m now on team Super Show I think Iggy and Lemmy are twins and the modern day tall Beanpole Iggy Koopa is just what happened when he got on HRT

#Mario #Koopalings #This is my new headcanon and I'm sticking to it #Mostly because I think it's funny #They ARE twins it's just that Iggy got tall it be like that #In my head btw they're both Lakitus thus why Lemmy's so small despite being second oldest and why Iggy's the only one with glasses #They don't HAVE to be twins btw maybe just like. They're biological siblings #idk I'm on board with the Koopaling's ages but I still wanna mess with it sometimes #Anyway here's just a dumb thought I had looking at old Koopaling art #Iggy IS Transgender Non-Binary this is my forever stance #And Lemmy is Transgender Genderqueer #I love them I think they're twins that's funny to me

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brinnanza · 1 month

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tumblr babes I wish every one of you finds someone who is just unspeakably charmed by the way tumblr poisons your speech I said magneto was a villain because he was sad and he was sad because he was gay and jewish (which is true in a way) and situationship 1. was delighted 2. asked me if that was actually canon or if that was just tumblr speak and I was like "i mean both???"

#not to get soppy while I'm high as shit but like you ever meet someone who exactly meets your desire to be delighted?#like that taliesin line about how you can choose to be delighted or to be angry at new strange things #that had a fuckin genuine effect on me man it's so much more pleasant to be delighted #by the randomness and variety of existance #this is why stoners are Like This by the way it truly is the weed that does it to you #but anyway most people are not choosing delight enough for me #and i feel like. idk someone else is on the same page about what things should be delightful #i'm SOFT aned GAY and INTOXICATED #what sexuality is 'gender is not applicable here because the entry fee is already So High'#like there are so many esoteric levels you have to fit that if you fit one who cares about something so dumb #to me it's important to some people and I get that #anyway I am just Experiencing a lot of things lately and #idk maybe spending some time in the real world instead of on the internet #not to disparage the internet it's great that's where all my friends and family are #but you know what I mean #anyway I need to eat this fucking food already

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dailypokemoncrochet · 2 years

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Tumblr is the best platform because I don't make a concerted effort to specifically gain followers or attention, and yet somehow people still find me amongst the billions of other posts. And SO many of y'all will leave little comments and expressions of affection on my posts or click the "like" button for my little crochets or smile when one of my pokemon comes up on your dash.

#text #i often think that every one on tumblr who would be interested in this project has already found me #but every day someone new finds something of mine and follows #and i read a shitpost that was like 'theres always other posts. literally a billion more' and that made me realize how small this blog is #and really how incredible that anyone's found it #which i might say a lot here im really not sure bc i mostly ramble like this on my personal but idk i wanted to say it here this time #been going Through It and years back on my personal and uhhh apparently i've had the thought #'i will crochet every single pokemon some day' multiple MULTIPLE times over the years even before starting this in 2017 lmao #and today i have hit the 100th of just this year #and it makes 543rd overall #and wow it hits different looking at those old posts when i'd made only an awkward clunky eevee with too big a body and now #idk im emotional so much has changed and so much is the same #and maybe it's dumb but i'm so in awe of myself for having made such progress in this One Thing #this one thing that is so silly and yet so meaningful #like all the shit going on in the world in my world #im still here in this tiny space able to do something i love and being able to share it #the thought is always the same the mood is always different and today i am choosing to make it comforting

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kuiinncedes · 4 months

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#bro fucking stupid like why did i just not look at applying to masters until now #i'm so dumb like ig it was bc i ws just like i'm not gonna do masters im just gonna try to get a job #which like how the fuck am i supposed to do that lmao but #now i dont think i can even apply for masters at my school at least #bc i need fucking letters of rec and the deadline is the 15th #and i Barely have 2 ppl i would ask for letter of rec idek if the second one counts lmfao if she's not at my school #jfc im so why do i have to think about the future :c i just wanna do glowstick club things that's why i haven't been thinkign abt this lmfa #yeah so now i dont think i can do masters here :c which also means i dont have that as a reason to hang around and stay in glowstick clublo #i could still do that but #ugh whatever im trying to write a fucking cover letter rn for a job i hate this already i've barely done anything lmfao #i dont super understand the job description which is maybe a sign i shouldnt apply lmfao but it's like #data science w my year and i feel like i meet some of the qualifications so #just gotta somehow bullshit another paragraph of this cover letter together #i also dont even know if i actualy wanna fucking do a data analyst job like #i kinda wanna work for like a non profit or smaller org kinda thing all this shit sounds hella boring that i keep seeing for bigger #companies lmao which im not saying would no be the case for smaller but #idk i jsigsdfhjlbgpidwurhgbipwdhgfudjshlk why did i start this so late LMAO #i had a job opening that i was gonna apply for that looked pretty good and i felt pretty qualified for just based on the listing #and the deadline was the 15th but it fucking disappeared the job isnt there anymore ig im so sad lmfao #as;lkfngbjifbgqipurgipqhrgfipuaf i hate this :DDDDDD #jeanne talks

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alltimefail-sims · 1 year

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Maaaaan I typed up this kinda long ass post about the aesthetic conversation; not that I think anyone would particularly care about what *I* have to say on the subject, but I digress. I'll just mind my business 😂

#the shortened version is that we have this debate in a different font every couple of months #and people who are like 'yeah I'd like my posts to get more than 5 notes' are always painted as '#needy or 'too focused on likes and should just do this for fun'!#and it is always from people who can pull 100 notes on a shitpost. Like... come on guys lmao #we all just need to learn that a 'shit' edit to one person is 5 hours of work to another #and that creating a standard of beauty for sims content is so fucking dumb lmao #and there are big blogs who care about notes who don't engage in the community at all. Let's not pretend they don #- don't care about notes. Be for real lmao this should not be an opportunity to say 'do better to be like xyz'#but an opportunity to realize 'hey maybe the simblr community should stop holding everyone to an aesthetic standard and -#'maybe something doesn't need to fit a certain standard to be considered pretty or well done.'#idk. just a thought #it is intimidating being compared to other blogs or feeling like what you're doing isn't good enough so like...#let's stop fucking doing that lmao #Comparison is the thief of joy and it does happen here. Multiple things can be true at once #personal #an-e-way I'm done now #gif warning

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seokmattchuus · 1 year

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I saw an ask come in earlier but now I can't see it? Like, I can see the number in my inbox but when I click on it, it's not there??? But I remember glancing and it was like MTL about overstimulating them? I'm also like. 60% percent sure it was about who would let you? So imma just answer that here since today hates me and nothing goes right :))

But I'd have to say:

Zhang Hao

Taerae

Jiwoong

Hanbin

Matthew

Ricky

#supposed to be anon but i guess dumb fuck ted talk?#also #idk if you wanted an explanation or not? so i'm not gonna put one?? but if you want one i can do that once i'm up #or if anon sees this maybe just resend the ask (and if explanation is wanted or not) and i'll just answer it again #i just doubt i'll be able to see it again so i'm posting it now #i also didn't want you to think i was ignoring you. work just sucked and i just got home #but yeah there's that #not putting tags here just in case i get the ask. i'll save the tags for that

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wrecking · 8 months

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edit: i ended up just ranting abt like the current vibe™ in the tags... sorry abt that but like also whatever i don't care anymore

#d #my food therapist really said the most real thing on planet earth when she said i'm meeting me at the same time everyone else is #i feel like a cringey overzealous emotionally dumb teenager who's a total embarrassment to everyone around me while i'm trying 2 say fuck i #cuz like this is the first time in my entire life i feel like i get to actually explore my identity and do like normal young people things #and i feel just. so so exposed in the sense that everyone is watching me make a fool of myself without a single shred of self-awareness #and it makes me so fucking mad cuz like i'm finally happy with myself!! i'm finally starting to feel like a fully formed person #instead of a 2d projection or an object or something monstrous hiding in the shadows because that's how i've spent until now imo #and like. it's hard to emotionally make peace with the fact things in my social life are changing because like. there's some part of me #that thinks that maybe if i stayed in that miserable place that maybe i wouldn't have any of the problems i have now #and like my life is a lot better. and i know that and i wouldn't change a thing. but like emotionally i guess i'm just #processing it as a fault of mine to have changed bc it's changing my relationships to others #and this isn't about any one specific thing like i've been having lots of small growing pains with a lot of ppl in my life rn i just am lik #there's a lot happening to me rn emotionally so i feel like everything i do is a fuckup and i'm just bracing for more people to go ig #which might happen or it might not and tbh either is ok at this point. i need to do this in order to live i think #idk why i'm even rambling about this i just have a lot of thoughts and i want to share them i guess. not like it does anything but like #what else is this app for at this point lmfao i barely even want to talk on here anymore because i feel like everything i say on here is #just pointless. i'm thankful i have a strong support system rn cuz genuinely i don't know what i'd do if i didn't like #i feel like everything is so much more emotionally Big to me on E and it's kind of hard trying to figure out how to manage it #like i'm basically finally getting to be me. for worse AND for better. and i just am like. insecure on some level i guess #not even over my appearance tbh i've kinda made peace with that. moreso my personality and what things i share with others #this whole post is so wholly unnecessary but i feel like i'm going to go insane if i don't get this out of my head #i've genuinely been avoiding talking about my emotions or my private life on here because i don't exactly feel safe on here anymore #which is like great. love it when my primary outlet for like. socially interacting with people casually gets compromised i love it #i literally softblocked like 30 ppl off of here so i could talk abt my weird sex stuff and my body and my deeper thoughts with ppl i trust #and then i still am too conscious about it! this always happens when i make a blog for myself to talk on #maybe i'm just not meant for talking abt things

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 2 years

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sometimes characters using (or not using) each other's names can be so personal actually

#this sounds REALLY dumb but it just hit me that I'm on episode 7 of the bear and i... don't know if syd has ever used carmy's actual name?#like it's a whole lot of ''chef'' obvs but like..#everybody else mixes in actual names. and sydney uses everybody's names. but like.... i cannot recall a single time she's used his name #meanwhile carmy's steady alternation between calling everyone ''chef'' and using names is very very nice #idk man I'm???????????????#sydney baby loosen up you're fine it's all fine you're gonna be fine i promise #i don't mean this necessarily in a shipping way but I'm so fascinated by whatever syd and carmy's weird relationship dynamic is #like... work friends might become real friends??? or maybe are already???#in the middle before i knew i had begun or whatever the quote is but like... without requiring romantic connotations #idk idk just throwing stones at the water and hoping one skips here i need to go to sleep soon #Lu rambles

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hgduo · 1 year

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... I'm just gonna ignore what he did to the picture of Pluto the dog for my own sake-💀💀💀-

#Also mininote for as much as I would've loved the dramatic conclusion to this arc I thought we we're gonna get I have to say #I'm laughing the most I have in quite awhile- and to be real for a moment: I've been having some really shitty and off days for irl reasons #and I really needed this brevity tbh- I love drama and tragedy but I needed something soft and light #I was feeling a lot of dread (in a good way) going into this but now I feel all light and bright and just in a much better mood then I have #been recently ;u;- I feel silly saying this over klv and still feel a bit cheated out of the dark ending that was being built up to #but also I'm just... reminded why I was so happy about initially getting into a lighter sillier and more chaotic series like klv ;u;#I love these silly spanish thirty year olds and one mexican law student making dumb ass jokes #the dramatic q vs l arc was a cherry on top and im glad it happened but it also feels nice to just... breathe y'know #idk... basically just I really needed the laughs is all ;u;#... and yes I'm aware I'm pouring out my heart here on the post about Q pretending to fuck a picture of pluto the dog LMAOOOOOO #jinx liveblog #kl spoilers #(still not done with the stream yet btw so maybe it does get dark and gritty again idk-)

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chrisbangs · 2 years

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Your presence on tumblr is a little comforting to me. I know that may sound sort of weird considering we’re strangers and never held a proper conversation. I remember when I first got into skz, they had just debuted and there really wasn’t a ton of content of them on tumblr but there were a few creators that I noticed often. And though I never really interacted a whole lot with those creators, it was nice to see them and get to know them from afar. I feel like many of those creators are either now inactive or deleted their account, which bums me out. You’re probably one of the only people who’s still here. And I’m not exactly sure what it is but it just feels a little comforting that you’re still around on tumblr. Maybe it’s the fact that we’re close in age? I did send a few asks in the past too and I remember you being very sweet to me…I actually just reread one of your responses to me and it made me cry a little (in a good way) since I’m not doing so great right now. Anyways, thank you for being here! I enjoy your content (including your rants) and I think you’re hilarious and sweet

hello ☹️🖤 !! i just happened to see this while i was doing some work and when i tell you i had to take a break to just cry my silly little eyes out 😭😭 whhh my heart 😓🤍

firstly :( noo it's not weird bc i feel the exact same way... i mean like... i'm miserable without the og stayblr i won't lie 😭 as nice and fun as things can be- ive said it 100 times- nothing will compare to stayblr for me in the earlier days 😞💔 idk.. it was always so much fun and everyone was so funny and warm and easy going and idk :( it was such a small warm community ?? and the fact that most of those ppl who i made friends with kinda deleted or just drifted away from here like .. part of me is like yes bestie u go live ur life away from stayblr dot hell but 😭 also the way i miss them and 2018 stayblr 😭💔 idk maybe i'm just kinda bitter and jaded abt current stayblr but.. it's just not the same to me personally anymore 🫡

and no i totally get it 😞 idk it feels like solidarity or a lil warm hug cause you've seen this person since what feels like forever ago and just been around with them and idk.. it's comforting!! they've been there in any sort of capacity right... like they're just there 🚶‍♂️ ?? idk how to explain it but you're right it is comforting 😭😭

😭😭 omg .. please :( no tears !!! im hugging u with all my love and warmth please 😭😭 im really sorry you're not doing great atp 😓 believe me it's the vibe of life rn but im :( cheering you on!! :(( i really hope whatever it is, that you can overcome it and it won't be pressuring / upsetting you forever 😭 i am sending all my love and :( hugs and warmth to you :(

i just wanted to say thanku for this ask... i feel really unwelcome and miserable on this blog ngl so 🚶‍♂️ ive been spending less and less time here :(( but this made me really idk.. happy sad 😭 like i'm glad ppl still think of me and would want my content but it also makes me so sad that other ppl feel this way too 🚶‍♂️ life kinda sucks HSNSKDNDKD 😭😭 anyway :( thanku for saying smth so kind to me.. idk if i even deserve it but :(( your words meant a lot 😭🖤🌙🐺 :(((

#anon #answered #for me; from you #want to save this... 😓#😞😞😞😞#this fr made me sob...#i cant concentrate on anymore work i'll be honest #my heart hurts now 😭#:(((((#thanku lil one... i'm hugging u 😓😓#idk... i just feel miserable on here and think abt leaving everyday...#and ik at the end of the day who cares but #i really care abt this stupid lil blog like 😭 i would miss it #but also 🫡 ayo... not that much jdjdkdkdkd... i would miss the old friends from og stayblr..#it's so funny bc i was going through my asks today and i saw some from britt and kelly and falak and idk #it made me feel so empty ...#like whatever maybe nostalgia makes things more lovley than they really were but ... whatever #that was such a fun time for me...#being able to make dumb shitty jokes with dia or talking abt bin's arms with britt like #whatever these are my small memories of this place from ages ago #and i miss it so so so so deeply...#😞 maybe i'm being mean... but rn idc #nothing will ever make me feel as happy and loved and part of a fun and welcoming community like 2018 stayblr did 👍 idc #😭😭 idk what i'm trying to say #but thanku for ur kindness 😞😓#i love u pal! ☹️🤍#long post

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rosielav · 7 months

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Do people like lists that aren't positive?

Like, my current most popular post is a list of some of my fave podcasts.

I do also have a list of podcasts I didn't like, or didn't finish, or just have bittersweet (emphasis on the bitter) feelings about them.

Do people actually like lists like that, or should I just stay positive? There aren't any that Id like, rip into persay, more like 'this one had a great premise and tone but the plot line they decided on as The Main Thing For The Entire Story kinda sucked and really ruined all the stuff I liked about it, cause it was VERY obvious and also... Not super fun or interesting to me' and not at all like 'this podcast is stupid and if you enjoy it you're stupid and I hate you'

I'm honestly asking, like I do not know if that's an OK thing to do!

#Honestly I might vague post about the one that I really didn't like but I am also afraid people might get upset #Like it's more like heres why I think this could have been great but fell a bit flat #Or like heres what this one wanted to do but didn't know how to make it happen or #Idk honestly I guess I just want to know if other people have similar thoughts on certain podcasts #I finally saw criticism of TMA and it made me genuinely giddy like I was like oh OK so I'm not the only one #And that's a good feeling? That's the feeling I'm trying to give. In a way #Like see you're not dumb for not liking it here are some reasons why you might not have liked it #But I really don't want to come across any other way like I don't want to attack anyone for liking a thing #I simply wanna say some constructive criticism not really for like the podcast creators more for the listeners does that make sense #Like it's not at all I think you should improve your podcast but more so if you listened and didn't like it maybe heres why?#Not at all that they are t good podcasts or anything #I think I'm over explaining but I feel very confused and dumb lol

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tardis--dreams · 8 months

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Girl you gotta write your term paper and not cry about your poor life choices

#tw eating issues #seriously idk how much detail I'll go into but i had a full blown relapse of my eating disorder i thought I had overcome and i gotta cry #about it now so you've been warned #i didn't think it could get this bad again #I've been having ups and downs over the past 4 years and I've definitely had phases where i felt like I've relapsed more or less #but it was never as bad as it used to be #so now this is annoying #i avoided thinking about it the past few weeks telling myself it was fine even though i knew what I'm doing is stupid as hell #but yeah i guess crying about it isn't gonna solve anything either. i know exactly what helped me overcome it in the first place #and i know exactly why i couldn't get over it for so long. and unfortunately I'm currently in exactly that state of mind that doesn't want #to let me let go of it. i hate it. i hate myself for letting it come to this. i hate myself for everything I've done the past few weeks #i hate that i don't know what to do because one part of me just clings on to the obsession while the other part of me is just tired of my #shit. i don't know how to get myself out of it. it all might get better once I'm back home because food won't be as much of a problem there #I'm torn between not eating anything at all or obsessively calculating my calories and trying to get rid of every single one i consume by #running until my feet are bleeding and i just. don't. know. how. to. stop. it.#maybe deleting the three new food and exercise diary apps would be a start... but how do i delete these dumb arbitrary rules from my head #idk. i can't go home because of this obviously. i won't. but i don't want my remaining 3 months be consumed by obsessive thoughts and #self destructive behaviors either. i don't know #it's my fault so idk why I'm crying- i could at least wait until my term paper is done lmao #wasting precious time here #void screams #tbd probably

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parappa-the-killer · 1 year

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vent in tags

#hyperventilating on some stairs rn #i can't do this anymore #i need some help but i'm too scared to ask anyone for help #i don't know what to do #i'm scared #i think that. after so much time spent on pretending i don't need anyone's help ever. there's a high chance i'll get in trouble for #something that wasn't my fault #or maybe it was. because i'm dumb as hell. idk.#i don't think i'm capable of living in a society #i'm kindasorta sewer slidal at the moment. don't worry i won't do anything to myself. i think.#i think i should. go. to my room already. the room in the flat. in the flat that is in the building in which i am crying on the stairs.#and i should either eat something or sleep. i genuinely have no idea which one. but it could help i think #but i'm not really willing to eat now. because i have been nauseous for about three hours now.#and i'm still hyperventilating a bit and i don't really want to die by inhaling a grilled cheese or something. that would be silly #sleep it is. night night. (it is eleven AM here)(so not really night)#vent

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